beingtruetoself

[beingtruetoself]

Come here my love

Let me take you on a fancy ride,

Sensual and Divine.

Give in, yourself to me

and that's how you get the entry.

so let me rule you to ecstasy

let me take you deeper,

then you ever have been.

just let me fill the gap,

for all those days,

you weren't with me.

[beingtruetoself]

“Stay afraid but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.”

— Carrie Fisher

[beingtruetoself]

I know that the day will come when my sight of this earth shall be lost, and life will take its leave in silence, drawing the last curtain over my eyes.

Yet stars will watch at night, and morning rise as before, and hours heave like sea waves casting up pleasures and pains.

When I think of this end of my moments, the barrier of the moments breaks and I see by the light of death thy world with its careless treasures. Rare is its lowliest seat, rare is its meanest of lives.

Things that I longed for in vain and things that I got –let them pass. Let me but truly possess the things that I ever spurned and overlooked.

—-

Last Curtain

Rabindranath Tagore  1861-1941

—-

Graphic - Suchitra Bhosle  (B.1975)

[beingtruetoself]

LDR Sucks

If I can't have you right here in my arms right now , I would rather not have you at all.

I can't keep myself longing more and more for something that's so superficial and the one I can't even touch ,

There I see ,you have given me nothing other than longing.

No if I can't have you right in my grip,right under the moonlight giving a passionate kiss, holding you so tight till the twilight, gazing you all night ,staring in your eyes right when I am coiled in your arms,

till you can't move anymore for my grip is so strong, meanwhile me admiring each and every inch of you , your soul, your dreams, your complexities and just you.

BUT I doubt even then it won't be love....you say I objectify you ....yes you are absolutely correct I do, I admit doing it from the very first day...I want to keep you to myself, the reason I needed a deserted island, to keep you away from the world..

I know I am very selfish but I want you all by myself, Thankgod right now I m not one of the Mafias, otherwise I would have taken you far away from anyone's reach.... not leaving even a mear chance for anyone to ever find you .....

OK fine it's just one of my fantasies.

BUT

If I can't feel you ,I don't want to feel for you at all.

[beingtruetoself]

I'm on Deathbed

Confined to bed or death, popping pills down my throat more than meals, and all that ridiculous stuff they make me drink.

It's hard to stay positive when you know you're gonna die, you miss each and every person you ever loved, who isn't with you at the moment.

You daydream of how people will take your death and how things will be when you're gone. Sometimes it feels good to know, you won't be facing all the painful stuff again and how badly you would miss your family and friends.

You wonder how would your class react, would anyone will be happy to know you're dead, hard to imagine all these without blurry eyes.

One thing is for certain though ,the regret of denying that trip last year, and why didn't you bunk all the classes and lived to the fullest, wish sometimes we aren't so considerate of our actions.

Another regret you hold is not reconciling with your foes, who you don't see as one anymore.

And you make sure nobody hurts you, cause you can't let anyone regret for being mean to someone who's days are counted and nearly dead.

And all the plans you made for future down the drain.

And yeah everyone experiences it for the first time,

Alas! there isn't a chance of improvement now..

You try to create as much memories as you can, sometimes feel like burning all your belongings and photos and everything related to you with yourself ,cause no doubt these things are gonna hurt your loved ones, once you are gone.

Okay my wish

"I wish I could erase my memory as myself before the misery strikes"

But ALAS!! I can't.

Sometimes it feels it's better to die in an accident , just one go and all the pain gone.

No irritating thoughts of how everything is gonna be once you are gone.

Or every single thing that kills you from within, before you can actually die .

But one good thing, you would discover life after death and yeah, don't forget to pray for forgiveness,

but all you can think of is "what will happen...........once you are gone

[beingtruetoself]

I begged the lord to end my sufferings,

He answered my prayers.

I don't have very long to live

Just couple of weeks

That's what I heard my doctor say,

to just keep hoping for a miracle.

but little do they know

death is a miracle itself.

I can now finally be at peace,

be released.

You see they call it a vegetative state,

but it's like being slaughtered

for you to come back to life.

so that you could be slaughtered again,

If hell was for real,this is definitely how it felt.

Beasts ripping out your skin all at once,

Only for it to grow,

so that it could be repeated again,

till you are cleansed ,

of all your sins.

Which now I recall,

how I enjoyed others pain

The pain now inflicted in my soul.

"Always do consider your actions, you see they find a way back to you"

Were the last words I uttered,

before the gates of heaven opened,

and I didn't even care to look back

as wisdom was now mine

And I knew the ultimate truth of life

Is to end this circle of life and death,

by seeking divine help.

☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

[beingtruetoself]

I loved him cause he made me feel alive,

He told me his fantasies,

which I started to fantasize.

I wished closer,

but I was slow in pace,

to meet his rapidity,

and he couldn't wait.

I wonder would I ever be same again.

My friends says I have changed,

I know it myself, but I love this change.

Only if I could mould our destiny

I would turn mine around,

to entangle my fate in his portion.

[beingtruetoself]

Dear Ex

You are still and will always be ,my possession, my obsession, my only desire, my sole motivation and my destination . You were my babe, my dream, my heartbeat, the closest of all human beings.

I loved you before, and I will love you after eternity...still why do I have to call you my ex.

No,you will never be even when you are dead.

[beingtruetoself]

In search for symmetry we often forget, how beautiful contortion can be

wherever we go we are always looking for symmetry be it at store or for that matter even in nature we are always looking for symmetry

[beingtruetoself]

A young curious boy, enthralled by the sheer mystery and totality of her, the inevitable beloved of all the living. Her Charm as seductive as sedatives to an insomniac. Her allure, the desire to return to void and leave this flesh prison behind. The meeting delayed only by the strings that hold me back, the string, however, unravel over time. The perversive desire only getting more and more stronger, her form incomprehensible to this mortal mind. Her sweet promises of peace and freedom from this wretched world, her promise of a warm hug, of a cold kiss and bliss of nothingness, how can one resist this temptation is anything but a mystery to me, what rope do people use to anchor their life to the world of the living, maybe I just want the answer, that anchor. I, however, can't help but flirt with lady death, my eternal beloved.

[beingtruetoself]

To proof your love

You bend down, and propose me now,

Not caring about the consequence

And you better get me a ring

And make me your possession

Forever, cause I want to proof it too

By falling in your arms ,

And taking you forever in my life,

Carrying you in my heart.

By making you mine.

[beingtruetoself]

Two things I want to make clear..

1. I don't give a damm to what you think or anticipate

2.And it's always gonna be this ways..

.

P.S derived from. " letter to the boy I met online"

[beingtruetoself]

"I love you more than I love death" he told her

But still she won't be impressed, cause she had loved him way too long ,to which he always said" What about infatuation it's better instead". How could he talk about love probably high again, beside it's been days' since we talked, probably board again....she sighed

It's ugly when people realise it too late for anyone to take.

[beingtruetoself]

If u fucking care what others say,

Honey not today, not anyday

You will be condemned, everyday.

Even if it's the best of what you can.

You would never find that happiness,

Cause there's always, gonna be a motherfucker" to let you think that ways.

[beingtruetoself]

A TEXT

He is like a drug ,he is consuming me ,I hate the very thought of that nasty creature but I can't help it. It seems like he is poisioning my brains,a kind of obsession,a kind of addiction, and he is doing it so well, that it has consumed me a little and yes. I am getting that ocd with anxiety attack. More I try to push him away,more I m bound to bounce back....

And I want to talk to him more and more often.

Every day i end up chatting all night long, about stuffs in life and superficial flirt never hurts.

P.s I m still talking to this stranger who has become a good friend

#shortstory #randomtextstory #friendship

#friendsforever

#onlinefriendship

#love

[beingtruetoself]

How does it feels when you can say anything about anything, to a person without the fear of being judged...ya exactly what I feel talking to strangers unless he is a terrorist or a psycho killer,it feels so good ranting your life, saying things you can't to others, moreover being yourself, but there is another side to it,you can't let that person in your life at all, because now that he knows your vulnerable points,if he ever strikes......oh girl! then you barely gonna survive. And there is worst what if you start developing feelings.. and getting obsessed to the point you start to sound pointless even when you write.