bbingustheoctopus

[bbingustheoctopus]

Tomas Tranströmer, tr. by Robin Fulton, from “Many Steps”, The Great Enigma: New Collected Poems

[bbingustheoctopus]

setting up the girl I like with someone else for the 3rd time.

I'm killing myself.

[bbingustheoctopus]

Can I pretend like you were once mine, for a while more?

[bbingustheoctopus]

god knew id be too powerful if I was socialized properly

[bbingustheoctopus]

To be your poem at 3 am

[bbingustheoctopus]

FUCK. IT WOULD NEVER BE ME

[bbingustheoctopus]

You're holding on to a ghost that no longer haunts you. Let go.

[bbingustheoctopus]

I've always had trouble differentiating what was a dream and what is reality, but the dreams I could never confuse with reality were the dreams of you- It was unreal in a way where we were so happy all the time in each other's company and mostly, what was so evidently different from reality was that you loved me. you loved me like I love you.

[bbingustheoctopus]

It feels empty to see an "US" post,

and realize there is none to show it to anymore.

or seeing a cat on the street and

realize I cant go back home to call and talk about it.

I hate how I see you in every little thing.

From an elephant or a dog

to the merest wildflower or a pretty stone.

From the bluest of skies to the moon in the casket of dark.

From the divine purity of innocent laughter

to the most negligible form of life

Anything that makes me feel merry for that matter

Worst part would be to sit there while

the shit I did dawn on me

What if you realize life feels quite pretty

without a nuance of my presence?

I wish someone could tell me

what to do to make it better.

How do I undo it?

Words can't be undone though

no matter how much I try.

I want it back where it was

but Earth would be heaven and MY haven -

if everything one wanted came true

[bbingustheoctopus]

[bbingustheoctopus]

[bbingustheoctopus]

I JUST REALIZED I'M GONNA SPEND MY BIRTHDAY ALONE THIS YEAR

THIS MAKES ME SADDER THAN I WANT TO BE OMGGG

FUCK THIS SHIT

I WANT TO CRAWL UP TO SOME CORNER

CURL UP AND DIE

[bbingustheoctopus]

And I watch myself be a book

she once traced

and read with much fascination

but ultimately,

forgot the plotline of.

[bbingustheoctopus]

And then

you stopped loving me

even in my dreams

you just did.

for reasons never known

[bbingustheoctopus]

What is so great about a man that I keep wishing I was one?

What does he have that I don't than the title of being a MAN?

[bbingustheoctopus]

Mood of the day

[bbingustheoctopus]

Happy pride month :)