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so I have to clear up the fact that I've been gone for a few days and that's because I've got a lot going on and I'm stressed and it's not leading me to make the best choices especially in regards to what I eat. I'm trying to do better but until then I just don't see the point to logging WIEIAD.

K

xxx

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𝐖𝐈𝐄𝐈𝐀𝐃: 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐅𝐢𝐯𝐞 🩷

𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲: 𝐎𝐛𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬, 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐚 & 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐃𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐬

these are definitely becoming a daily thing I don't think I'll stop. it's nice to know I can look back on these and so this is the new layout (I know it's more aesthetically pleasing 🤍).

𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 🩶

· Hot Chocolate (w/25ml milk): 44kcal

· Mashed Potatoes (homemade): 104kcal

· Doughnut: 223kcal

𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐎𝐎𝐍 🩶

· Toast: 104kcal

· Lemonade: 32kcal

· Fruit Chews (2): 46kcal

· Dark Chocolates (3): 92kcal

𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 🩶

· Pasta (purg3d half): 133kcal

𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 🩶

I went on a walk and brought my net to 650kcals which felt like a bit of a letdown after I did so well yesterday. Purg1ng came so easily to me today but I was admittedly nervous beforehand. I'm quickly becoming desensitised to it to the point that I did it and left as quickly as I'd gone in, completely unphased. I listened to music all day, mostly the same song. Life feels to be falling into place.

[b3lleb4biee]

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꒰ Don't eat. You think people can't tell but they can, they see the fat growing on you every time you take a bite. ꒱

[b3lleb4biee]

lmao

guys i can’t😭😭.

[b3lleb4biee]

WIEIAD: Day Four

today's one is just depressing bc it started out so well 🤦‍♀️ completed my 16hr fast and didn't break it with junk...

MORNING:

coffee, black (slightly sweetened, <1 sugar): 13kcal

then I fucked up a bit and I knew it because I ended up purg1ng half of this:

instant noodles: ~233kcal (approx. after purg1ng)

felt beyond gross after purg1ng but for some reason spent the rest of the day thinking about how I'd never considered before that I could literally eat wtv tf I want and then get rid of it anyway.

AFTERNOON:

noodles (ik... again but different this time): 352kcal

spent abt two hours total walking everywhere instead of catching the bus after this and brought my net down to 181kcal (yay ig not bad all in all). ik I can't keep falling back on working out after stuffing my face all day but on the plus side I'm going back to college so I won't be able to eat so much anymore. I NEED MORE SELF RESTRAINT. I'm still confused how the number on the scale is dropping. anyways idk why everyday I rant over the same shit just to do it again. but as long as I stay eating like a pig I'll have to keep working it off. end of my rant.

[b3lleb4biee]

on twitter i saw a post that said “do it so your body is as sick as your mind is” and i haven’t recovered from it

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white mealspo ♡

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Watching my body eat itself.

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th//n5p0 dump

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👜☕🕰🤎📜✒️

dark academia th!nspo

👜☕🕰🤎📜✒️

🍄‍🟫 requested

👞 requests open :)

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thisssss

Looking at these girls makes me feel like a fake 4n4

i wish i could be that small

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♪Who i will be tonight?♪

that's the question★

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[b3lleb4biee]

my ugw is fainting in school, falling down 15 stairways and fucking dying.

[b3lleb4biee]

Being tired sucks, but having a muffin top sucks more.

-Stelle🍷