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It wasn’t worth losing my soul 🌸

[aurora1994s]

“I will not think less of myself just because you do not know how to love me.”

— Stephanie Chhum

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“Forgive yourself for the blindness that put you in the path of those who betrayed you. Sometimes a good heart doesn’t see the bad.”

— Unknown

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“I was so scared to give up depression, fearing that somehow the worst part of me was actually all of me.”

— Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

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Sometimes I wanna believe in Reincarnation. Maybe then and only then, our souls will meet once more 🕊

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📸 & ✒️: Sam

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it was all that I knew...

I intend to keep my secrets between myself and God. I never told my mom about anyone, not even those bizarre crushes when I was younger. But for once, I had the courage and told her about you. How your eyes become my favorite color, how I hated my name until you said it, and how delicately you seemed despite the world falling apart around you. How my heart was no longer lost, and how I was healing every time I spoke to you. The first time I heard your voice, and how I acted too calmly when I was drowning deep in every word you pronounced. Love... it was never easy for me, I ran away from it for as long as I can remember, but when it comes to you, it was all that I knew.

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A dream...

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It was like the first couples of raindrops, those that falls before the end Of the droughts, then it falls all at once, hard and vivid...❤️

🖊: By me 🦋

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And then, she found a way to numb all her feelings, she flipped that switch and turned it off, which made the real version of her come back to life.

📸 & 🖊: By Me 🦋

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The unspoken truth by a stranger

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Where did you go? You left me without explanation like I was nothing!" she screamed at me! And as usual, I did not even acknowledge the shake of her voice or the tears rushing down her cheeks.

I said... No, you see, that's where you going wrong," I mumbled quietly. "I didn’t make any promises to u! I didn’t even allow you to say we are in a relationship although we were saying I love you! I didn’t even make time for u even if I got time. You see, u were just there giving me all of you and I was giving all of me to other people. I just liked how u were given me your time, affection, and attention unconditionally. The I love you I once said was a lie and you believe it so easily. When u were texting me asking if I got home safely and you couldn’t sleep. I actually saw it and always put my phone down in my pocket or I just kept texting other people on my way back home! I was the first person you text in the morning and you were the last or when I feel it’s convenient for me to text. Didn’t you notice how I rarely answer your calls or I never asked if you were okay? The time when your birthday came and I purposely ignored it! Or when we talk and I suddenly stop answering you to fool you that I fell asleep! If I wanted you I would have stayed! If I wanted you I would have shown it. I kept you hanging because it was just a game that I liked to play and it’s your pure heart that went with it for a 948 day.

An explanation I never got...

🖊 & 📸: By me 🦋

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“As an introvert, you can be your own best friend or your own worst enemy. The good news is, we generally like our own company, a quality that extroverts often envy. We find comfort in solitude and know how to soothe ourselves. Even our willingness to look at ourselves critically is often helpful.”

— Laurie Helgoe

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2020 meant a lot to me, to the point where I claimed every single day of it at the beginning, which I never did before. Years have always been just numbers to me, they kept changing that’s all.

For the first time in my whole existence, a year meant something, or so I thought. How it started was never how it ended.

It was the fakest sweet beginning I have ever had, full of lies, deceives, pain, heartache, disappointments, and the ugliest of truths. The year everyone was anxious about, was the one I looked forward to with an open heart and pure intentions, at that time at least.

But to be fair, l learned greatly, made mends with my past traumas. It made me move forward, fall in love with me as a whole. It turned me upside down in a good way: sadness to joy, shakable to concrete solid, frightened to braveness and assembled all my shatterdness into one piece.

I'm more...

Kinder, wiser, happier, and full of grace because of it.

My acceptance of who I am and where I am in life and the peace I gained was all because of the agony I faced and eventually acknowledged as sad proof of our existence as human beings. My past is part of me now with all the messy parts of it, something that shaped me into the woman I am today.

2020 you were my bittersweet, a crazy rollercoaster and a hella of a ride, which I no longer crave, 2021 you are just another number, and my hopes and ambitions are in the hands of God, not in you. My purpose is determined by God, not you... And I'm beyond confident to say whatever you got in store, I'm facing it with unshakable faith, a bright smile, and complete trust in God.

🖊: By Me ❤️🦋

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Radical

Words might be interpreted differently, Eyes of the beholder may see otherwise. But when an artist’s intention is warped, Then such purpose was lost at demise.

Though not always upon the afterwards, In most cases it changes whole course. While those try so hard to improve this, The only result is how we made it worse.

Our lesson should not be with outward, What we’ll learn cannot benefit the past. Allow them failure by their own creation, And push to become better in contrast.

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A dream...

He was right next to me... I can touch every inch of him... He hugged me so tight till our breath got heavier... I longed for this since forever I said, then he whispered sweetly, I love you over and over again until the feeling of his own words imprinted all over me. I looked at him, tracing every bit of his manly feature... Those hazel green-ish eyes of him which I love the most! Or those visible veins on his arms. The way his smile warmed my soul or that voice of him that I swear I can recognize anywhere.

My heart and soul kept saying:

Believe him.

Don’t doubt him.

He is different.

He is sincere.

He loves you.

To me, he was everything I had been looking for, for so long and evermore.

I hugged him again, burying myself in his arms “I love you too”, I whispered, and closed my eyes while resting my head on his chest, to woke up to reality! He wasn’t there! We never met! He left me for another a long time ago! We are just strangers now.

A confession of a dream that I never told💭

🖊: by me.

���: by me.

🎵: Taylor Swift, Champagne problems.