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me staring at my ceiling after y/n does the most FLABBERGASTING thing ever

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old art 🩸

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The seasonal depression really hits in winter.. and spring.. and summer.. and fall...

Welp.

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Why rp when you can copy your favorites character whole personality

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Doomed Siblings hurt me so much…

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me waking up every morning knowing that i can appreciate every life is strange game in different ways

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sean eduardo diaz you are my favorite furry

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there’s not enough sean diaz content on tumblr and i think that’s a problem

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I started watching 13rw like last weekend and I'm in love w it already 😭 I'm already like halfway through season 3 and I'm terrified 😛

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My Spotify wrapped and Amazon delivered 😼

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I'm not 😔

Never getting over it idc.

dw I’m joking. (or am I?)

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AGGHHHH. I NEED MY TABLET TO BE FIXED SO I CAN DRAW LIS STUFF. AUCTZXUDZ

also my top listening day on my Spotify wrapped was October 11th.. ehehe

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Me: the pricefield break up is poorly handled and dumb

People for some reason: yeah! I destroyed a small town and Chloe has the NERVE to break up with me????

Me:

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no but the thing is bobby was there when luke was emo and singing the words then maybe time will not erase me

HE. WAS. THERE.

he knows how important music is to luke. he knows that one of luke’s fears is having the world forget him and his music- as if he never even existed

and thanks to bobby, that’s exactly what happened for 25 years (and more if it wasn’t for julie and her phantoms)

anyway.

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No, you don't understand. The more ungrateful, the more difficult, the more unmanageable a kid is in any caretaker story, the more I will adore it. It's about being loved not because you're obedient or mature or understanding or digestible, but for you. The work that goes into taking care of you is utterly irrelevant. It's about telling you to stop whining but never revealing I gave you the food off my plate so you won't go hungry, the clothes off my back so you won't go cold, because my love is not dependent on you making yourself convenient. It just is. You cannot be a burden. I would never put you down anyway.

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describes the games perfectly oml 😭

The way the Life Is Strange franchise portrays freedom is so, so, so, insane.

It's portrayed as the ultimate goal Chloe, Rachel, Karen, Sean, Steph, and possibly Alex strive for. Yet, it's also portrayed as a doomed ambition that you'll have to give up everything to reach.

Rachel loses her life in her search for freedom, and so does Chloe unless Max makes the ultimate payment of everything she and Chloe have ever held dear. Karen has to sacrifice her family to be free, and Steph has to sacrifice her bonds in Haven Springs. Alex has to sacrifice her dream of living a happy life in Haven with her brother to end up on the road, and Sean loses A: His life or B: His freedom or C: His brother or D: His safety in his pursuit of escaping into Mexico.

But despite what all is sacrificed, freedom is still portrayed as something beautiful. It's portrayed as Chloe and Max driving off into the sunset for more adventures. It's portrayed as Rachel and Chloe happily daydreaming about their future with no awareness of the horror yet to come. It's portrayed as Karen, Sean, and Daniel star-gazing and letting lanterns lose into the night sky. It's portrayed as Alex and Steph playing in a band in front of their adoring fans

But it's also portrayed as something destructive. It's the tornado that destroys a town so Chloe can leave. It's the wild fire that engulfs a town Rachel feels stuck in. It's the bullet wound that made Alex and/or Steph realize they didn't belong. It's the blood shed by a nine year old as Sean crosses over the border. It's the deep emotional scars Karen left behind when she up and left in the middle of the night.

Freedom is portrayed as this beautiful ultimate goal that ends up being a force of destruction in the lives of everyone who seeks it. It makes me think of this philosophical question: "Can you be truly free if you have something? And it makes me think of how the franchise answers "No. At least, you can't have everything." It's an interesting twist from how freedom is usually depicted in media, and the choice to make the downside of freedom destruction makes me brain go insane.