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heyyy its been a while..

if ur wondering where i am rn, on the opposite side of the ed spectrum! 😭😭😭 im binging hard asff and im embarrassed and fuming everyday…

but when im back on the other side ill log back in ok? byeeeeee

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oink oink

~ posted by bones

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the way im going to have to get admitted to force food past my lips after seeing the state of nikacado avacado rn…

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NIKACADO AVOCADO LOST ALL HIS WEIGHT BEFORE ME??!??!?!??!!??

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GUESS WHOS BACKK!!!!!!!

(ive hit rock bottom)

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i love to swim

i love to feel submerged and the quiet under the water

i miss the weightlessness and soothing it brought my skin

being fat has taken away this away from me

im so insecure that i refuse to go in with tshirts anymore

i need to get to my ugw so i can enjoy the water like the young girl i used to be

growing up swimming with her friends and family

i need to do it for her

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if my body's hungry it can just eat the fat off my bones idk what it's deal is smh

i'm literally a walking buffet wdym you're hungry????? greedy asshole

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TW: very triggering ed rant open at ur own discretion

was doin a youtube video essay marathon and one creator just had to cite a study that said people have a negative bias towards fat people more than religion, race, skin color, gender, sexuality, disability ie basically any other form of identification

like its really THAT bad

people hate fat bodies more than any form of xenophobia…

this really fucking breaks my heart

and people wonder why we do this to ourselves………..

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ed has NOT been ed ing lately

not recovering… not hungry… but something inbetween

who knew eating exactly at maintenance for a few days would hurt worse than a binge😭😭

now ive got NO progress and my concerts are in a couple dayss😭😭😭😭😭

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hihi many new followers recently!!

would u guys be interested in getting to know me? (✿╹◡╹)

･*:..｡o○☆*ﾟ¨ﾟﾟ･*:.☆.*・((ε(*･ω･)_(･ω･*)з)).｡o○☆*ﾟ¨ﾟﾟ･*:..｡o○☆*ﾟ¨ﾟ

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tell me why i went to ed twt to report this girl that kept posting my fave tiktoker as fatspo but when i scrolled thru her page the fatspo ended up… working on me….

still reported her ass tho

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made the switch from coke zero to dr pepper zero and ill nvr be the same again

those dr pepper freaks were right this shit is life altering😭

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ughh relationshipspo>>>>>

Imagine looking this tiny next to your boyfriend 😭

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so goddamn jealous of girls that are fat but in all the right places and still be considered hot… like perfect round butt, proportionate thighs and arms, no permanent rolls, it all just smooths out

id be body positive too if i had a smooth non-B belly and no side boobs :(

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yearning for love but being scared of intimacy bc of my fat body is getting really REALLY tiring…

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𝓈ℴ𝓂ℯ 𝓉𝒽1𝓃𝓈𝓅ℴ ！ ❤︎︎

𝒾 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝒷𝒾𝓃𝑔ℯ 𝓈ℴ 𝒷𝒶𝒹．

𝒾 𝓃ℯℯ𝒹 𝓉ℴ 𝒷ℯ 𝓈ℴ 𝓈𝓀𝒾𝓃𝓃𝓎 𝓁𝒾𝓀ℯ 𝓉𝒽ℯ𝓂．

𝒾 𝓃ℯℯ𝒹 𝓉ℴ 𝒷ℯ 𝒷ℯ𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁．

𝒾 𝓃ℯℯ𝒹 𝓉ℴ 𝒷ℯ 𝒷ℯ𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁．

𝒾 𝓃ℯℯ𝒹 𝓉ℴ 𝒷ℯ 𝒷ℯ𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁 ．

𝒻ℴℴ𝒹 𝒹ℴℯ𝓈𝓃𝓉 𝓂𝒶𝓀ℯ 𝓂ℯ 𝒻ℯℯ𝓁 𝒶𝓈 𝑔ℴℴ𝒹 𝒶𝓈 𝓁ℴℴ𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓁𝒾𝓀ℯ 𝓉𝒽ℯ𝓂 𝓌ℴ𝓊𝓁𝒹．

𝒾𝒻 𝓎ℴ𝓊𝓇 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝓊𝑔𝑔𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 ℴ𝓇 𝒻ℯℯ𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓁𝒾𝓀ℯ 𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝓃ℯℯ𝒹 𝓉ℴ 𝒷𝒾𝓃𝑔ℯ 𝓂ℯ𝓈𝓈𝒶𝑔ℯ 𝓂ℯ！𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒷𝒾𝓃𝑔ℯ 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓇 𝒷ℯ 𝓌ℴ𝓇𝓉𝒽 𝒾𝓉．𝓈𝓉ℯ𝓅 𝒶𝓌𝒶𝓎 𝒻𝓇ℴ𝓂 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓀𝒾𝓉𝒸𝒽ℯ𝓃．𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝒹ℴ𝓃𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝒷ℯ 𝒻𝒶𝓉．

𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉？

𝓇ℯ𝓂ℯ𝓂𝒷ℯ𝓇－

𝓃ℴ𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒶𝓈𝓉ℯ𝓈 𝒶𝓈 𝑔ℴℴ𝒹 𝒶𝓈 𝒷ℯ𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓈𝓀𝒾𝓃𝓃𝓎 𝒻ℯℯ𝓁𝓈．

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going on a picnic with a friend tmrw and my disordered ass is in charge of bringing the food…

what food/snack ideas do u think i should bring?? i dont wanna bring my safe foods and expose myself but i also dont wanna binge!!!! >:(