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More melon soda...

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Spoilers for Missions 13 and 83 of Spy X Family...:

THIS TOOK ME ABOUT TWO MONTHS TO PUT TOGETHER AND FINISH...!! 🥲

And even though I wanted to have this finished before Mission 84 dropped, I hope that y'all still enjoy it as much as I did making it...!! 😊

[VIDEO & SPOILERS BEYOND THIS POINT]

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tags by @sarinatendouji

i'm not sure how people can read twilight as a manipulator with how much worrying he does about his mission with the forgers. like him putting on that one outfit in the cruise ship arc, just to be a cool dad for anya, and then his reaction when it is a decisive failure?

and even aside from that, twilight cares so god damn much, he's so incredibly empathetic, but he hides from it with the "it's for the mission" lie, because GOD knows this man is afraid of intimacy / close connections. that's why we get so many instances of twilight looking at a situation and relating it to his past experiences in westalis and the war (and why we get so many instances of the "it's for the mission" lie, because this man is desperately trying to hide from the reality that he cares about this family.)

Right?!?!!! He just can’t allow himself to follow and admit his emotions. He comes up with “logical” explanations for his feelings (like when he said to himself he’s just tired after he acknowledged he’s jealous of the Briar siblings) and once it slips out of his control, he goes into denial i.e. “for the mission” mode - he convinces himself he’s doing everything for the mission. He reminds himself time and time again that at some point he wouldn’t be able to be with Anya and Yor anymore.

From his past experiences, he knows he’s gonna loose whatever he’s built with someone sooner or later (either they part ways or they die) so he doesn’t allow himself to acknowledge he’s close with someone.

Speaking of empathy, I think that among many others, one of the best pieces of evidence for it is how he treats dogs - creatures over which he has the upper hand.

He apologized to one dog three times in the span of a couple of minutes. A dog that was hostile towards him.

Also this:

This is probably one of the most genuine and “unedited” Twilight’s facial expressions we’ve seen so far. At that moment there was absolutely no need for him to put on a mask or control his expression, there was no one else around except Bond.

Speaking of Bond, in the “saving doggy from the fire” chapter, when the crisis was averted, Twilight got on Bond’s eye level to tell him that he’s gotta be careful because Anya would be heartbroken if something happened to him.

This is something parents do to their kids to help children feel safer, to show them they’re giving the kid their full attention.

And then he goes right into the “for the mission” mode at the slightest sign of affection from a dog. (Good thing Bond doesn’t buy any of hit, judging by his annoyed “borf borf” XD)

I think this also ties back to your original post about Twilight not being used to receiving any kind of gratitude for his actions. He just kinda doesn’t know what to do with it, because literally moments later he gives Bond the Proud Dad look that speaks for itself.

If all of this is not Twilight being a big softie at his core then I’m an alien from Mars.

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This is very Loid-coded😌

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Pose studies

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*MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD*

The whole of Cruise arc is just about a man who's extremely unimpressed by everything and everyone around him...

... but learning to smile like that at his daughter...

...and like that at his wife

Ok. Yor has her thing going on too. But you know. LOOK AT HIM SMILE.

PS. Everyone look their cutest, prettiest, handsomest, most wholesome, most hot in the Cruise arc and I will hear no objection.

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Is it okay if I ask Yor again?

Fraulain (3) and Yor

of course it is, she's my fav <3

for this one i decided on a two-parter:

color palette challenge - give me a palette and a character to draw!

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my neighbor bond

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#99 Bond and Anya 🥹♥️

here's ur bbys <3

color palette challenge

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Loid’s response ❤️

https://www.instagram.com/wild_girl_nest/

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Twilight and Yor are just the worst at the pretend marriage thing. Not the marriage part, just the 'pretend' part. Extremely unconvincing.

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Hi !

For the color palette challenge, could you do r u mine (#44) and Franky x Loid ?

That would be amazing 😁

Have a nice day

Best colleagues (and friends)

Thanks for you request and have a nice day!

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Go back home🍺

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Either Anya/79, Loid/48, or Yor 110? C:

sad boi hours for you <3

color palette challenge

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just a scene i had in my head that i needed to get out

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i know it makes for far more interesting fanfic for loid to be jealous of another man in yor's life, but god is it far more interesting and heartbreaking for him to be jealous of the bond that yuri and yor have 😭

he clearly wishes he could have that sort of unconditional love with someone (YOU CAN YOU DUMBASS) so we just have to wait 😞😞😞😞

*MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD*

Twilight is totally jealous of Yuri and the Briar siblings' bond! And I think this is one of the reasons he (just about) tolerates his brother-in-law barging into his apartment all the time - he's happy if Yor is happy, and if both the Briars can lay down their burdens and be relatively Normal. (Shhh - no one tell him)

And this is where we get to 'it hurts real good'. Because during the climax of the Cruise arc, Yor has an emotional epiphany - she is willing to kill and cleanse the world of tragedies for Loid and Anya and Bond now, just as she was willing to kill and cleanse the world of tragedies for Yuri.

In Yor's eyes, these two are the same picture:

In other words, the bond Twilight craves, that Yor and Yuri have - well, it's a bond which is already real to Yor and drives her core.

Now, the joke is that Yor sees her cute hubby and adorable brother as innocent, happy babies who need her protection from this cruel world - whereas Twilight and Yuri are both very not-innocent grouchy grown men who may or may not have participated in creating cruelty... but hey, Yor's never been the most perceptive.

(Anya on the other hand is an innocent and happy baby who needs protection.. especially from Tonitrus Bolts.)