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opinions about weight

i can't believe how fast society's opinions about average women sizes change.

i am 1.65 cm and 50 kg. right now.

10 years ago, when i was 50 kg. and size 36 i was considered 'really skinny' people were keep telling me to gain a few kg. so my boobs and all my figure would look more female. size 36 was 'skinny' back then.

now i am 50 kg, with the same height and size 36, i am considered 'average' . now people keep telling me to lose a few kg. so i can be skinny and have a more female figure.

now size 36 is considered average, you have to be a size 32-34 to be skinny. and when you are size 38 you're fat? size 38 used to be the average size for women but not anymore.

i think it clearly shows how society's opinions on women's weight changed dramatically over the last 10 years.

our society today found itself in a bipolar situation, as obesity and overweight issues increase, we are expected to be more and more skinny to look 'average'

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ultimate binge

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CW: 52 kg.

GW:50 kg.

UGW: 48 kg.

last time i posted my CW a year ago i was 57 kg, and my GW was 54 kg. so i know i will reach my goals, eventually.

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today's breakfast/lunch.

salami rolls with black olive and cheeze, broccoli, salad(carrots cucumbers radish) some grapes and a tiny apple.

i only eat the half because i was too full.

for dinner, i ate 1/4 slice of bread with 5 olives and the grapes from the breakfast/lunch were still uneaten, so i ate them too.

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I feel like I dont deserve to look at thinspo when I’ve binged.. thinspo is for people who want to lose weight and I just fucking stuff my face

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today's calorie count.

breakfast:watermelon and cheeze 100 cal

lunch: cheezeburger and beer about 600 cal

dinner: watermelon, youghourt and a couple olives 200 cal

about 900 total.

not a good day, tomorrow won't be much better i guess, i'm going to mitillini island with my family basically to have a big dinner&lots of sea food.

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for the better days i hope to reach, drinking without counting calories& being able to eat snacks with it without feeling guilty.

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is this still on?

is this still a thinspo blog? i ate a cheezeburger for lunch with a beer.kick me out of this thinspo thing, i don't deserve it.lol.

i have been swimming like 30 min a day at least for the last couple of days but i doubt it will help considering the way i eat lately.

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this is me right now.

163cm height.

54 kg weight.

i binged yesterday. i drank 3 beers and ate something called ayvalık tostu. it looks like this http://www.google.com.tr/imgres?imgurl=http://mutfaksirlari.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/ayvalik_tostu_tarifi.jpg&imgrefurl=http://mutfaksirlari.com/ayvalik-tostu.html&h=425&w=640&sz=63&tbnid=68ELiC3w1HgYwM:&tbnh=90&tbnw=136&zoom=1&usg=__pBEDsPSXQfmcU-bPh5YI4x71ZVU=&docid=xOvt_YxEJvGCoM&sa=X&ei=NGrxUfrFAYmTtQbr2oCgDQ&ved=0CDQQ9QEwAw&dur=800 lots of sausages, some kind of bacon, cheeze, lots of ketchup and mayonaise. probably about 600 cal. maybe more.

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yesterday, calories are not so far away.

yesterday i had a light breakfast(cheeze and tomato and cucumber) and a light lunch(an apple). we had a big family dinner so i keep the calories minimum through the day, than i ate like a pig at dinner.luckily, no bread just plenty of grilled fish, lots of salad and side dishes mainly vegetables and some shrimp, lots of watermelon as desert and 2 glasses of wine.

i'm not calculating how much calories that makes because right after dinner, i got them out, throw up all of it, unintentionally.probably beceuse of my new medication don't go well with alcohol.

today, watermelon and cheeze for breakfast abot 150 cal

coffee&tea instead of lunch.

4 meatballs with some youghourt for dinner. about 300 cal.

it is still early though, i feel like i can binge soon.

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 last time i checked, i was 54 kg (10 days ago).

i started using some new medication a week ago so i wasn't really careful about what i eat, it is hard enough to get used to new stuff even without the calorie counts and exercise.

today i ate

cheeze and cucumber for breakfast: 50 cal

meatballs for lunch with some fried patatoes: 350 cal

meatballs with youghourt for dinner:300 cal

some fruits for snacks:100 cal

800 cal for today, i walk for 30 min and swim for 20 min in ice cold water.

not so bad.

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road so far.

for about a week, i have stopped taking my anti-drinking medications. i didn't eat much but alcohol is full of sugar and i drank plenty. right now i'm 56,5 kg. i'm way behind my goals. i also need to study for my finals. tonight we made a 'mean girls' night, we watched the movie and drank a couple of drinks. but that's it. i will not drink& i will eat healty rest of the month. i need to be 54 by the end of this month.

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yesterday.

a bowl of wheat cereal-200 cal

a piece of grilled chicken with salad-400 cal

a bowl of wheat cereal-200 cal

a glass of vodka-redbull- 150 cal

total:950 cal

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incredible!

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