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Guys I need someone to give me tips pls 😭

I’m actually fat. I’m not going to lie, I’m 235 lbs and I eat like a pig. I do sports and workout, but the way I eat counteracts everything. I can’t track c@ls and need a CRAZY amount of sustenance to do well in tennis (I play for 2+ hours a day on a team plus PE and a lot of walking). I’m fat as fuck for my birthday tmrw. I actually don’t know what to do. I can’t ⭐️ve and don’t know how to control cravings. I’m ready to 3nd it all atp. I literally won’t even d13 sk1nny. I can’t do anything right.

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Casual thinspo

Because being skinny will make you pretty and you will look better than you ever did.

You are not hungry

You are just bored

Drink a glass of water

These are from 📌 terest (dm for removal

Dm or ask a question for requests lovelies

Take care loves 💋

A big thank you to all of you for following and helping me and finding my posts relatable I am really sorry

(this one was from a request I am going to try to do most of them)

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At my dad’s work, so proud of myself for resisting ALL the treats in the break room 🙏 letting myself have a little treattt haven’t had one in years oml. Nothing better than fruity drinks and writing fanfiction side by side, with a dessert of WEIGHT LOSSSS

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I’ve failed at life. I’m back to 240 lbs. I was at 200, I WAS SO CLOSE. I HAD IT, I SWEAR. And just like that, months of work is GONE.

I need someone to text me every time I’m about to eat and be like “f u think ur doing” bc my fat ass cannot keep stuffing its face on this cross country trip.

A social worker popped by and now I’m being forced to go to therapy. Like NO PUT ME IN A WL CAMP. THATS WHAT I NEED. I’m obese and am so tired of pretending I’m not.

If someone wants to help me, I will find a way to make it up to you. Please.

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Yall not related to what I normally post but I was talking w this dude on Snapchat and I told him I was lesbian and he asked what I look like and I said a potato and he said ‘lesbian potatoes are my shi’ and I agreed so hard damn

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REBLOGGING. THANK YOU

Alright, can we take a second to clarify what a binge is?

As someone with BED I'm so sick of seeing "oopsie doopsie I'm so fat, I binged on 3 slices of bread uwu" because it diminishes the struggles of people who ACTUALLY deal with binge-eating. And yes, I'm 100% gatekeeping, this shit is getting so out of hand.

Let's look at the definition of a binge:

Notice the keyword in all of these definitions: EXCESSIVE

A binge is not

Eating a normal sized meal and regretting it

Going past your calorie limit for the day

Just eating quickly

Eating until you're full (or just a little past)

"Oh nooo, I had 2 apples in 1 sitting, I binged so hard 🥺👉👈"

It's really fucking damaging to a lot of people when you try to make binge-eating look dainty and quirky.

I have functional control over my binges now so they are nowhere as bad as they used to be, but they were horrifying in the past. My binges entailed panic and a total lack of control. I've been in the midst of a panic attack while stuffing my face more than once. I've had many blackout binges in my life where I can't even recall having binged, but the evidence is all right in front of me. I've woken up with a bruised stomach lining, making it excruciating to even sit up for days. I've gotten lightheaded from eating so much and so fast that I'm not taking enough time to breathe. I've thrown up blood, bile, and acid after binges before. I've eaten so much that I've had to throw up, not in a purging way, but because the food physically isn't fitting in my fucking stomach. I'm so lucky I never ruptured my stomach, I honestly don't know how I didnt. But despite everything, no matter what, I would be right back to eating in as little as an hour. It's a vicious fucking cycle.

It's. not. fucking. cute.

You will KNOW when you have binged. Sure, it can look very different for different people, but the fact remains that there is a MASSIVE fucking difference between an actual binge and just eating a lot. Binges are often the result of an emotional AND physiological impulse, not just emotional eating.

Please just be more considerate with your wording the next time you go to tell everyone that your life is over because you ate a fucking granola bar.

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Guess whose dumbass just ate a fried chicken sandwich and is having ✨regrettt✨

Hint: ITS MINEEEE

Amazing spicy food is my savior and my murderer istg

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“be nice to yourself”

yeah i tried that and now i’m 10lbs heavier than i was a month ago

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Ever notice how skinny girls don’t have to try to be aesthetic?

They are already the VIBE.

They are already THE MOMENT.

They are HOT.

They are CHIC.

They are EFFORTLESSLY IT.

Even doing day to day stuff, they are ICONS.

Do you want to keep having to justify dressing up, or do you want to look EFFORTLESSLY PERFECT?

Your choice.

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Sooo.. fun fact, did you know the human body is NOT made to eat 3 meals a day and 2000 cals a day? That’s actually made up by the government. Humans do NOT need 2000 cals a day, especially if you have weight on your bones.

Humans in the past (cavemen) were actually incredibly lean. They ate approx 2x a week with high protein high cal foods and didn’t eat the rest of the week, and worked out (running, exploring, etc.). So if you want that skinny leaner body, try this new diet:

Pick 2-3 days a week to eat, not back to back

It is 1 meal for each of the 2 days, NOT 3 meals a day

LOTS of water, at least half a gallon a day (not sure in liters sorry 😭)

Don’t worry about the cals of the meals, it will quickly become negative cals

Your meals need to have a ridiculous amount of protein, and have LOADS of nutrients, try supplements too

Diet soda is ok, but LIMIT all other things, all the other days are essentially a fast!

THIS IS BACKED BY HISTORY. If you can’t face the facts, face your weight. Food nowadays is over the top and ridiculous. Skinny and healthy should correlate, not skinny and unhealthy. Pick.

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Hey I’ve been off tumblr for about 6 months trying to “r3cover 🥺” and Ykw. It made me fall back into binging and I gained 20 lbs. so I’m back yall. Let’s do dis.

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I need some support rn and not the normal oh you’re doing great on your wl I need something comforting 😭

I just bought a bathing suit for summer and my schools swim unit. It’s a size xl (this is the first time in like a year I’ve fit in an xl) and I looked in the mirror and felt so pretty and cute, and then my stupid brain was like “oh the girls are gonna laugh at you, they’re skinny and perfect looking you pig” and now I’m sitting crying like I want to return it, but now I’d feel so bad bc my dad helped me buy it and I love it. I don’t want to throw it away once I get a smaller size either

Ifstg I am so over this fucking ed like I just wanna be pretty. So, support if u feel like it pls.

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Please someone be mean to me in person or something bc I NEED to be thin, like stupidly beautifully thin by my swim unit in May

I REFUSE to look like this in summer. Ew. Honestly grossed out w myself

Stay ✨ beautiful ✨ girliesss

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my dash is SO DRY lately soooo ->

REBLOG IF UR AN ACTIVE EDBLR BLOG AS OF: APRIL 2024

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grocery shopping 🎀💅

my dinner for the flight to Florida

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EVERYONE PLS SEE THIS BC I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HAZBIN HOTEL AND AM TIRED OF PEOPLE HATING ON VIVZIEPOP AND THE SHOW

Hazbin Hotel and VivziePop Drama

I’ve been hearing/seeing a lot of drama concerning Hazbin Hotel and it’s creator VivziePop, and while I don’t know her personally or really care what people think, I do hate slander and the spread of misinformation. Truly nothing in this world upsets me more than when people believe rumours while making no effort to fact check, and that’s exactly what’s happening right now. That said, I wanted to try and clear up some of the rumours going around about Vivzie and the show, because I think some of them are absolutely outrageous and need to be addressed.

1. Vivzie hired an abuser onto the show.

Now, I’m not here to burn anyone at the stake, especially since I don’t know anything about Chris Niosi (the alleged abuser), who I believe openly admitted to the allegations? Regardless, this is a moot point. He’s not credited anywhere at the end of the episode. So either he was booted before production wrapped up or he had nothing to do with the show in the first place.

2. Vivzie supports bestiality.

Admittedly I thought this one might be true, since she draws so many anthropomorphic animals. In the very least, I figured she was probably a furry, but I haven’t seen any evidence supporting this accusation either. Near as I can tell, this rumour started for two reasons. One, because of her famous Zoophobia comic, which revolves around a therapist named Cameron who gets assigned to work with human-like animals. Ironically, poor Cameron suffers from crippling zoophobia, which makes for some pretty decent comedy. I didn’t read the whole comic because, quite frankly, it’s not my cup of tea and I just don’t have the time. But from what I saw there are no examples of bestiality anywhere in its contents.

Two, this message, which blew up all over social media:

To me, this just proves that people are more interested in virtue signalling than checking to see if their claims are actually true. Everything about this message is 100% false, which I’ll touch on in my next point.

3. Vivzie is a pedophile and she’s drawn child porn.

This is hands down the worst allegation and holy shit, I really wish people would stop using it to defame someone when they don’t have any proof. This is a life-ruining accusation and you’re disgusting if you believe it based solely on hearsay. This rumour began to spread when Vivzie allegedly shipped the two underage characters in the above photo and drew them NSFW-style. At the time, one character was 19 while the other was 14, and the relationship was a very illegal student-teacher relationship.

This is WRONG! The characters were not 14 and 19, they were actually 18 and 19, the legal age of consent! Additionally, the relationship wasn’t student-teacher. One character is a student and the other is Alumni (a student teacher). This one pisses me off the most because it’s obvious the person who sent that message didn’t even bother to conduct any research. They said, “He’s a teacher, she’s a child.” Both characters are MALE!

Since then, Vivzie has apologised for any NSFW art she drew in the past and stated that it’s not a reflection of her art today, and I’m inclined to believe her. Almost every artist has drawn NSFW content at some point in their career, and hers wasn’t even distasteful. Other than this one example, there is no evidence anywhere that suggests she’s drawn “child porn”. In fact, she’s never even drawn explicit NSFW.

Please stop spreading this rumour. It’s dangerous and completely incorrect.

4. Vivzie said the “N” word!

No, she didn’t. It was a fabricated tweet. That is all.

5. Vivzie is copyright striking every video that criticises her!

No she isn’t. YouTube’s DMCA is automatically striking people who are using full clips without permission. Vivzie has gone public several times, telling people exactly how to avoid getting a copy strike from the algorithm, which is something she absolutely does not have to do. At this point, she doesn’t owe you anything. In my opinion, she should just sit back and watch these channels burn.

6. Vivzie copies and traces other artists’ work.

This is another one I’ve seen going around, but I looked into it as thoroughly as I could and failed to find any concrete evidence to support the allegations. As of right now, there are only two examples of Vivzie “copying” or “tracing” other artists’ work, and both of them can be explained. The first is a gif she made with a character from her Zoophobia comic, which looked a lot like the girl from ME!ME!ME!:

Damn, that’s pretty incriminating. She obviously stole– oh, wait. This gif was part of a ME!ME!ME! MEP (multi editor’s project) and Vivzie didn’t take full credit, despite the fact that it’s not even a direct trace. It’s supposed to look like the original, which she fully cited. The second example comes from a short dance sequence from her Timber video, which seems to have been inspired by several Disney movies. As Vivzie herself stated, that was an homage to the original animations. Lots of artists and shows do this, including the beloved Stephen Universe series.

Regardless, this doesn’t count as stealing character designs or plagiarising someone’s work. It’s meant to be respectful, an admiration of other projects. Other than these two instances, however, there is no evidence of her tracing or stealing other people’s art. From what I’ve discovered, all other designs she’s been accused of “stealing” are characters she bought and paid for. They’re quite literally HER characters.

7. Vivzie supports problematic creators.

I’m getting really tired of guilt by association. Vivzie follows and enjoys some controversial figures, but who cares? We can argue all day about whether or not the accusations against them are true, but it ultimately has nothing to do with the show or Vivzie as a person. I do the exact same thing, to be honest– follow and listen to people on all sides so I can learn, understand, and form my own opinions. The fact that some people think this is bad, to me, is absolutely mesmerising. Vivzie doesn’t control what the people she follows post, and if they do something overly questionable she publicly criticises and denounces it.

From Vivzie:

Now that that’s been dealt with, I’d like to address some complaints/claims about the actual show.

8. Vaggie is an angry Latina stereotype and a lesbian stereotype. Vivzie is appropriating Hispanic culture and misrepresenting the gay for profit.

First off, I see a lot of people passing around yet more misinformation regarding Vivzie’s race. So many people seem to think she’s white? Well, I’m here to tell you they’re wrong. Very incorrect. Vivzie is in fact Latina, and Vaggie is meant to mirror some of her own personality traits.

Second, who is Vaggie mad at? Context matters, and if we take a look at the episode, we see that Vaggie is literally only mad at two specific people: Angel Dust and Alastor. Why? Well, for starters, it’s her girlfriend’s dream to run a rehab hotel for sinners, and Angel Dust nearly demolishes that dream single-handedly. Vaggie has every right to be over-the-top vitriolic. Then there’s Alastor, a known sadist, narcissist, and murderer who loves trapping people in his nefarious schemes. He invites himself in, effectively takes over the hotel, and pushes both her and Charlie aside. At one point he even sexually assaults her by slapping her butt during his musical number. So yeah, I think her seething ire is totally justified. Keep in mind, however, that when she’s around Charlie she’s calm, collected, and happy. I wouldn’t call that a stereotype.

Thirdly, the lesbian stereotypes. I keep hearing this argument but I really don’t see it. Both Vaggie and Charlie have so much personality and trust for each other. Maybe I’m wrong, but the stereotype I know always totes a more butch, tomboyish woman with a ditsy, innocent, naive woman. Charlie is optimistic, but she isn’t stupid. She refuses to shake Alastor’s hand because she knows he’s likely trying to screw her over. She’s also not entirely innocent herself and uses words like “fuck” and “shit”. I also wouldn’t call Vaggie butch or tomboyish. She has a cute, girly presentation, complete with a pink ribbon in her hair, lace stockings, and a dress. She’s protective of her girlfriend, as I think we all are with our partners, and there’s nothing wrong with that. They’re flawed characters, as every character is meant to be. This isn’t a problem.

9. The show is racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, blah, blah, blah.

I’m amazed this is even an argument. The show is supposed to be a dark comedy that takes place in HELL. You know, the place the worst of the worst end up after they die? What were you expecting? Everyone gets a shot or two fired at them, but that doesn’t make them bad characters nor does it make the show itself horrible. Take, for example, Katie Killjoy, the news reporter so many people are up in arms about. She says she doesn’t “touch the gays” because she has “standards”. Well, here’s a newsflash of my own: we’re not supposed to like her! She’s an antagonist. Not to mention ten seconds later Charlie insults her and isn’t the least bit slighted by her pretentious attitude. The characters are strong and don’t take shit from anyone, because to some degree they’re all terrible people who can throw down when it’s called for.

Obviously if you don’t like the show or think it’s offensive, I’m probably not going to change your mind. That’s perfectly fine. You’re entitled to your opinions and you don’t have to watch the show. Just stop lying and stop trying to take it away from everybody else. Stop attacking Vivzie and spreading misinformation without checking the facts. I realise a lot of people probably aren’t trying to be vindictive and only want to do something good, but just remember this: the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

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if i had to choose between dying or being fat again i would choose to die tbh