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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: King of Fighters, Fatal Fury Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Terry Bogard/Reader Characters: Terry Bogard, Reader Additional Tags: POV Second Person, Day At The Beach, Established Relationship, Beach Sex, Public Sex, Cunnilingus, Face-Sitting, Caught Summary:

A collection of indulgent one-shots where you're the center of SNK's overabundance of fighters.

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ao3 messing with my embed and it's so embarrassing wtf

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im def posting soon, btw

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There's so many things I wanna do and finish, but I just don't have the energy or time 😭😭 Ugh. I'm spiraling again

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Wanna update this by saying that this post was created before I had uninstalled my Hoyo games. Sure posting fanfiction doesn't directly fund Mihoyo however the consensus of that fandom is not something I want to attract after witnessing their apathy towards blatant racism (colorism is a euphemism in this scenario idk who tf told yall otherwise) and disrespect to anything non-SEA and non-white. Anything Hoyo I write will be private and that goes for my commissions. Only expect KOF, Fate and anime from me this year.

Mid-Summer Writing Updates

Was told that giving updates about non-major works is also valid to prove that this page is alive so...teehee!

Mental Check

To say that I've been slacking this year is a grave understatement. It frustrates me because posting in December 2023 (Kaveh) then January 2024 (Haruaki) truly made me believe that I had found my groove, then I saw my stats and gave up, yay! It's just hard writing when I already don't have the healthiest approach towards writing (it's really bad, like I cried so much writing both of those drafts), and that level of effort goes unnoticed by both the audience and myself. But I've slowly been accepting the fact that I can't gain the audience I want if I don't prove that I exist. After all, posting since 2021(?) but not even having ten entries is silly. With that being said, I have been writing consistently over the summer, but have been slowed down because I've been active, like this is the first week that I've been in my room this entire month.

Goals for Pre-Fall 2024

I'm definitely going to have at least three posts before the end of the year. I always try to have more than the year prior, and considering how little I have to my name, it's been pretty doable.

I've been going back and forth between Bowman (Granblue Fantasy) and Kyo (King of Fighters) for the past two months, and I know for the latter that his second draft is going to be posted before fall, though I'm not sure about the former. My writer's block on his draft isn't the worst despite the fact that I have to rewrite the first half of what I currently have, but I struggle trying to prioritize that draft over Kyo's given that I don't know how well a NSFW Bowman entry would be perceived. Regardless, if I post twice before Late August, expect for it to be these two bums.

Goals for Fall 2024

This is tricky, as it HIGHLY DEPENDS on what I end up fixating on, but definitely expect Tai Gong Wang (Fate/Grand Order). I've been wanting to write him since the beginning of time, but lack of knowledge on his character thanks to me exclusively playing FGO on the global server and things implied under mental check made it hard for me to prioritize writing the idea that was practically given to me. But what was initially supposed to be a collector's item ended up being NP3 and LVL 100, so I'm taking it as a sign to - at some point - lock in, and I think doing so right after clearing out my current drafts would be perfect timing.

Do, however, look out for these people:

Blade (Honkai: Star Rail)

Diluc (Genshin Impact)

Charlemagne (Fate)

Goals for Winter 2024/5

Yae Miko. Despite her being a December 2024 goal, she's one of my more ambitious projects due to research and it not being a one chapter entry. Even as I'm currently working on Kyo and Bowman, I'm immersing myself within The Pillow Book, as Sei's story is what most of Yae Miko's story will be in reference to. Also Haruaki, again, hopefully January 1st.

Do, however, look out for these people:

Kaveh (Genshin Impact)

Saichi Sugimoto (Golden Kamuy)

Miscellaneous

Girl if you saw how far I made it into my Senji draft, when I started, and when I stopped, you'd be wondering why my #1 isn't in any of my defined goals. And I'd say shit happens! Senji's draft had a very extensive outline, and I lost that very extensive outline, so I lost my motivation yay! Nevertheless, I still want to get it out there because I think it's a really funny one chapter entry.

Also Toji. Very much an outlier, but I've been putting him on the backburner because his draft is also one of my more ambitious projects, but one that challenges my writing skills in a duller way because of the amount of mundane scenes present. Also not a one chapter entry.

Anyways uh, thanks for peeping the yap session, meow!

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and i got him on the first so wtf that mean 😭😭😭

I got Yukata Aglovale in two ten rolls so surely this is a sign for me to finish his NTR draft-

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IT'S THE MIDDLE OF AUGUST

and i'm still stuck on kyo's fic. started TGW's though! started a different outline process where i only type up conversations and pray about everything else so that's fun!

and i'm writing in a my melody journal with ✨️purple✨️ ink so i'm rly feeling myself.

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plsplspls i promise there's more to raging loop's explicit tag than elibe weddings if you like x readers

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Did I mention that I was working on an RPG game?

If not, I'm mentioning it now!

A House Made of Sweets is a romance/horror RPG game I'm working on situated around a girl named Maliya meeting a witch in the woods whilst looking for her lost dog!

These are the two main characters:

I'm about 60% done with the game, and I'm honestly not sure when I'll be able to finish it, but it is on my to do list. I wanted to try my hand at using the RPG Maker software, so it's been a fun learning experience ^^ I'm also still writing the script/plot for the sequel to Inclement Idée Fixe, which I'd love to have done by 2025 at least! If y'all have any questions about A House Made of Sweets, feel free to send some asks in!

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Mid-Summer Writing Updates

Was told that giving updates about non-major works is also valid to prove that this page is alive so...teehee!

Mental Check

To say that I've been slacking this year is a grave understatement. It frustrates me because posting in December 2023 (Kaveh) then January 2024 (Haruaki) truly made me believe that I had found my groove, then I saw my stats and gave up, yay! It's just hard writing when I already don't have the healthiest approach towards writing (it's really bad, like I cried so much writing both of those drafts), and that level of effort goes unnoticed by both the audience and myself. But I've slowly been accepting the fact that I can't gain the audience I want if I don't prove that I exist. After all, posting since 2021(?) but not even having ten entries is silly. With that being said, I have been writing consistently over the summer, but have been slowed down because I've been active, like this is the first week that I've been in my room this entire month.

Goals for Pre-Fall 2024

I'm definitely going to have at least three posts before the end of the year. I always try to have more than the year prior, and considering how little I have to my name, it's been pretty doable.

I've been going back and forth between Bowman (Granblue Fantasy) and Kyo (King of Fighters) for the past two months, and I know for the latter that his second draft is going to be posted before fall, though I'm not sure about the former. My writer's block on his draft isn't the worst despite the fact that I have to rewrite the first half of what I currently have, but I struggle trying to prioritize that draft over Kyo's given that I don't know how well a NSFW Bowman entry would be perceived. Regardless, if I post twice before Late August, expect for it to be these two bums.

Goals for Fall 2024

This is tricky, as it HIGHLY DEPENDS on what I end up fixating on, but definitely expect Tai Gong Wang (Fate/Grand Order). I've been wanting to write him since the beginning of time, but lack of knowledge on his character thanks to me exclusively playing FGO on the global server and things implied under mental check made it hard for me to prioritize writing the idea that was practically given to me. But what was initially supposed to be a collector's item ended up being NP3 and LVL 100, so I'm taking it as a sign to - at some point - lock in, and I think doing so right after clearing out my current drafts would be perfect timing.

Do, however, look out for these people:

Blade (Honkai: Star Rail)

Diluc (Genshin Impact)

Charlemagne (Fate)

Goals for Winter 2024/5

Yae Miko. Despite her being a December 2024 goal, she's one of my more ambitious projects due to research and it not being a one chapter entry. Even as I'm currently working on Kyo and Bowman, I'm immersing myself within The Pillow Book, as Sei's story is what most of Yae Miko's story will be in reference to. Also Haruaki, again, hopefully January 1st.

Do, however, look out for these people:

Kaveh (Genshin Impact)

Saichi Sugimoto (Golden Kamuy)

Miscellaneous

Girl if you saw how far I made it into my Senji draft, when I started, and when I stopped, you'd be wondering why my #1 isn't in any of my defined goals. And I'd say shit happens! Senji's draft had a very extensive outline, and I lost that very extensive outline, so I lost my motivation yay! Nevertheless, I still want to get it out there because I think it's a really funny one chapter entry.

Also Toji. Very much an outlier, but I've been putting him on the backburner because his draft is also one of my more ambitious projects, but one that challenges my writing skills in a duller way because of the amount of mundane scenes present. Also not a one chapter entry.

Anyways uh, thanks for peeping the yap session, meow!

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Learning Tone Untraditionally

I started watching this series on Netflix called Mindhunter. It's about these two FBI agents in the 70s that are trying to deconstruct and develop law enforcement's approach into finding and detaining psychos. There was a pretty interesting scene, where one of the agents was on the phone with his wife, and it made me envious on the privileges that tv shows and animation have in comparison to writing. Ambiguity can be easily displayed when you only have words and the trust of your audience, but what about the feelings that are provoked through the unknown?

They've been on the road for weeks, months perhaps - they can't tell; hometown is a checkup to their Head of Department at this point. Teachings and findings being constantly debunked under the idea of irrationality, the agents hunt for cases in hopes of validation.

Sacramento gave it to them, in the form of a man venting his hatred for his mother but not to his mother - she loves the boy she can't stand, he knows this. Calming himself with a knife, he'd go out, vengeful, longing for the love that she perserved for a man that gave his to her after dark. Cleaving in rage, he attacked and killed those that did provide that love, envious, jealous, because why could everyone be loved but him?

The agents knew it all but only needed a face, and when the police gave it to them, they proved their hypotheticals right. Celebration was in the air, with beers held high and cheers rang loud in the station. Holden, synonymous with Holmes, was the center of focus, adamant on diving into crazy to catch crazy. His eventual enabler, Tench, accepted the Watson comparisons with a hearty laugh.

He was a big guy, built like a linebacker. He easily slipped into the role of the wise guy, bringing Holden back to the reality of his department not easily comprehending change with exasperation, qips and a desperate need for cigarettes. He stood firm on everything he believed in, even when his resolve would be reshaped in real time. But only gentleness was heard within the dark motel room, expressions indecipherable with no moon to illuminate them.

"I just wanted to hear your voice," Tench whispered into the rotary phone's mic. He kept the speaker close to his ear, wanting nothing more than to hear her touch.

He closed his eyes to see her caress his trimmed beard, trembling hands masking her weariness from constantly going to bed alone. He pressed the phone closer to him, its end ghosting his lips, "Give him a kiss for me."

Limp but not broken, Trench's promise was hushed, resigning to distanced intimacy, "I love you."

He loosened his grip on the handset before placing the phone down. There was no click.

Voice fluctuations. Unreadable expressions. Lighting. Perspective. Transitions. How are the impact of these devices captured in text? To what extent can film and visuals be used to enhance and improve our writing?

I started writing back in second grade, my first craft being about pop tarts. It's as silly as you expect for it to be; a girl goes to school like usual but everyone became pop tarts. It's her favorite food yes but it doesn't mean she wanted everything to become it. It was ultimately a projection of her guilty conscious because she ate the last pack from her brother, and confessing to such made everything go back to normal. This girl, me, creating a complete story about integrity at seven years old.

I struggled matching that while also emmulating writing that reflected my natural maturity from growing up, being in school, constantly interacting with stories and expressions and creativity. It wasn't until i had reached my zero, wallowing up in isolation, where i allowed myself to at least indulge in what I always wanted to do.

With society still coping with the effects of lockdown, creatively writing and gaining the inspiration to explore has been at its most difficult. Focusing has been hard, being able to follow through with goals being even harder. But I'm still here. I try to remind myself to read beyond gacha stories and to entertain more than youtubers, and Mindhunter has been one of those reminders.

I can only watch an episode a day - it's too intense, and it hasn't even gotten to the main conflict yet... But ever since my awakening, I've only been able to interact with media as both an audience member and an author. I've been enjoying the jokes and laughing, but also been pausing and taking notes from scenes that I liked - like right now.

Tench is essentially the mentor character for our protagonist, Holden, and by proxy the voice of reason. He's much more laxed in comparison to our determined, potentially autistic white boy whose hellbent on developing behavioral studies within law enforcement. Most of the show's jokes come from Tench, and he's also the one we look to when Holden is at a standstill.

The motel scene is our first moment of vulnerability with him. Rarely do we get closeups of him as he's persumably talking to his wife on the phone. It's a short-lived conversation, held in the dead of the night, not wanting to hold up his wife from both of their early mornings yet wanting nothing more than to be with her right now. He never says goodbye, and the phone is hung up by the next day - a tape recorder being pressed as the agents are now interviewing a jailed serial killer.

When I say that I'm trying to hold back tears out of envy... What was showcased here is something only I can ever dream to achieve. No explanation, narration was needed to convey that duty calls, and yearning is not enough to put work on hold. But writing doesn't have the liberty of camera angles, of abrupt scene cuts, and trying to do so verbatim results in narm. Writing, however, does have limiting perspectives, rhetorical devices, oxymorons and juxapositions. But why do we feel as if it can never be enough?

There's a grave misconception that writing is easy. If it was I wouldn't cry in frustration at my shallow attempts to properly provoke fever within my 5 readers. If it was writer's block wouldn't exist, people wouldn't commission writing; if it was a skill that could be adopted overnight, there wouldn't be an academic-level of identifying profound stories. Even when we stray from our outlines, make details up as we go, hell even throw our hands up, tell proofreading to go to hell and post, we as writers are still presenting a level of critical and creative thinking that most of our peers don't exercise on the daily.

Reading is ultimately the best way to improve writing. My vernacular's shot, and was at its best while I was in school, constantly tossing around ideas with my equally and more equipped peers and consistently interacting with various medias. I've been motivating myself to read more...struggling to be consistent, but nevertheless have been reading. But visual media is also just as valid. Jot down your feelings, even if it's a caps lock vent on your notes or you spamming your group chat. You're still writing. Cherish that skill.

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Writing Commissions 🔛🔝

I want to write more, but I lost all the outlines that I created in the past two years, in which most of them I had started their drafts. Naturally, my morale tanked, but I don’t want for that to stop me on the path to consistency. So I’m opening commissions, yippe!

Pricing $0.02/word; 500 words minimum. (500=$10, 1000=$20, 1500=$30, 2000=$40, etc.)

Type SFW and NSFW Pairings written in Second/Third Person. Most flexible with F(Reader)/M and F(Reader)/F. Open to OC/Canon. Least flexible with Male Reader/Focus and Genderfluid/Non-binary Reader/Focus. I don’t do Canon/Canon or M/M.

Series If they’re not present then it’s more than likely because I’d write a character from the series as opposed to anything from the series (i.e. Raging Loop, 91 Days, Mononoke) so just ask about a character if their series isn’t present.

Gacha Games

Fate/Grand Order

Genshin Impact

Honkai Star Rail

Langrisser (My ability to do the request depends on me having the character due to a lack of online material and the inability to backread)

Granblue Fantasy (I like enough of the cast to speedrun side stories to understand plot references/setting)

Arknights (I don’t play the game but I have two friends that do and I don’t mind annoying them about context. NGL it’s here because I pray for a Chongyue request-)

Fire Emblem Heroes (I can’t do anything story specific because I never read it)

Video Games

Fire Emblem (Awakening, Fates, knowledgeable about Sacred Stones and Engage)

King of Fighters

Anime/Manga

Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)

Chainsaw Man (Manga - Part One)

Jigokuraku (Manga)

Record of Ragnarok (Manga)

Black Lagoon (Anime)

Baccano (Anime, Light Novels – 1-5)

Considerations

Communication. I have a computer science background, so I take everything literally and my mind blanks at “idk, do whatever you want”.

My Writing Approach. People talk a lot in my stories and though I do it to showcase dynamics, I also do it to pace myself. To prevent overlap and incoherency, I significantly limit my reliance on exposition. I rarely start my stories with it, and I will more than likely write in media res if the requested word cap is on the shorter side.

Expressing Limitations. No does not mean that the idea is bad or that you should be ashamed, but that I don’t feel confident in being able to properly execute it.

Hard Limitations. If it’s an idea that would be concocted by someone that is on Jeffery Epstein’s flight list, then please don’t request. If it’s an idea that would be concocted by someone who wouldn’t mind posting it on Live Leaks, then please don’t request. If it’s an idea that would be concocted by someone who would wave around a confederate flag, then please don’t request. If it’s an idea that would be concocted by a dark humor connoisseur, then please don’t request. I’m also very big on boundaries and trust, so please don’t request ideas with the following elements:

Rape/Non-Con

Drugging

Kidnapping

Payment ko-fi.com/zhiro

Delivery PDF in 12 pt Times New Roman. I’ll post (via ao3) if requested.

Process Please do not request for a commission if you’re uncomfortable with sending money before receiving the commission. Only send the payment once I confirm that I will be writing the commission; I will refund otherwise. It takes 1-3 months for me to finish works, and I’ll do my best in sending a progress report/the premise seven days after confirmation. My drafts are pretty messy, so I won’t be showing them, but I’ll give updates throughout. Please do not request for a commission if you’re dubious about the process.

References archiveofourown.org/users/zhiro/pseuds/Araceli%20Selkie

If any of the above changes, I’ll post the update and edit this post. Thank you for taking your time to read this. Please consider commissioning me, I like to think I’m decent enough.

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congrats bee on 1.6k 😍😍😍

Inclement Idée Fixe just reached 1.6k downloads!! 😍💖 There are literally not enough words of gratitude I could begin to give to all the players of my game, and lovers of Leumin. Y'all are the best and I appreciate every bit of support you send my way, and I hope you'll continue to support me throughout my visual novel endeavors 🥺 As promised, here's a full render of Leumin, full body and in all his soft boy glory! Today I bring you a soft boy, tomorrow, who knows 🤫

"Thanks a bunch for your support, petal. Hmm... I'm not the best at gift giving, but I know a good book on plant care, if you'd like that..?"