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Thinking of you, thinking of us as I'm laying down on my bed; head full of the memories we created together and the moments we experienced. Wondering where it all went wrong, was it when you started replying late to my messages, to my calls and giving short and curt replies or was it when you stopped holding me closely like you used to do before? The way you touched not just my body but my soul with your gentleness, with your love and with your warmth; was it all a facade that i failed to see? My heart hurts thinking of how we'll never be able to be the same again like we used to be; a part of me will always love you but another part will always hate you and resent you; the rage my heart holds for you will never stop existing and it'll be a true reminder of how you broke my heart, the bond we'd, the romance we exchanged with eachother and the friendship we shared over the years.

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The beauty of making eye contact with your favourite person standing across the room, you're away but the gentleness, the reassurance, the "i see you", the "I'm here for you", the "i will always be there for you", the "you're the only one for me" and the absolute look of LOVE and ADORATION. Oh the intimacy of THAT type of eye contact makes your heart flutter and your cheeks adorning a beautiful shade of pink. Oh to be loved like that.

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Your heart and soul were shattered into pieces yet you never let anyone near you get hurt, I'm so proud of you my strongest soldier 💗

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when one day you wake up realising that you have no bad blood in your heart for the people who once broke you, you have started to feel more alive and comfortable in your skin because you've started to focus on yourself and started surrounding yourself with people who genuinely love you, appreciate you. That my friend, is the very first step towards the journey of healing and I'm so proud of you.

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I hope one day all of us find someone who can hold us close to them, hug us tightly and show us that we are not hard to love; that we deserve to be treated with care and warmth. I hope we find someone who can heal our broken heart, someone with whom our soul can feel at ease and the constant fear of "not being good enough to be loved" can vanish into tiny particles. I hope YOU can find someone who will cherish your existence in their life, someone who can be your shoulder to lean on; someone who will softly caress your hand and plant soft feather light kisses on your forehead to show you that YOU MATTER to them. I hope one day we find our "missing piece" who can make us all feel complete ⭐

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i think it's extremely beautiful, when you say or do something that someone close to you used to do or say. You've pieces of every person that you've met in your life in your heart and in your soul. Reminiscents of their words that surround your mind and you get reminded of the times, the memories you made together but they're not with you anymore so it hurts. Life is all about hurt and comfort.

People grow apart from eachother, the connection might never be the same like before anymore but somewhere in your heart; you still have pieces of them kept safely in a corner that comes out once in a while. Reminding you of THEM.

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You ever had those urges where you want someone to worship you with immense gentleness, to hold you as if they're afraid to break you but at the same time you also need them to make your body dance with passion and to make your skin burn with with pleasure? To set your soul on fire? Oh.

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Walk away, walk away from them when you feel like you're not being appreciated enough; walk away from them and put yourself first. Its alright, the guilt might try to push you back to them but don't let it happen. You'll find someone better, someone who will cherish you and appreciate your presence in their life; Unlike those people who make you feel like "you're never good enough".

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maybe real success is living a life on your own terms, doing things that makes you the happiest, surrounding yourself with people who truly and genuinely appreciate you, maybe success is finding happiness in yourself 💗

and maybe real success looks like

a regulated nervous system.

not comparing yourself to others.

a kind inner dialogue.

being able to show up for yourself.

being able to let go.

knowing your own worth.

having authentic connections.

having good boundaries.

living a life that makes sense to you.

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for real thou like i understand, venting it all out feels better but like for how long? For minutes,hours or maybe days but yours back to feeling like the world is falling apart once again. The best way and the best person to tackle it all down is no one but you. I know its hard,there are days where I don't have the energy and i believe some people will agree with me on this but picking yourself up and sorting out your issues for once and for good is the best and the most therapeutic feeling ever. It takes time, maybe lots of time but we'll surely get there.

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some days i get so lost in my thoughts that i don't even know properly what i should do, what is needed to be in the correct way and how to make things work out properly in my favour. The voices in my head gets so loud.

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Experiences because with each new Person coming into our life, you and I; we're learning something new everyday about life, about how relationships actually works, about our own selves and how to mould ourselves into our best version without making it complicated like its a "Job" That's needed to be done.

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And i know its very hard but sometimes we need to let it happen so that we can find ourself once again that we've lost in the midst of holding onto someone/something that never appreciated us.

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"the art of pretending to let go"

Might seem easy but it's hard, your heart and soul aches for that someone or something, you are desperate, you need to hold onto that something/someone forever but you also know that doing so will just bring you so much more pain and will leave you in agony,you know you'll never truly be happy yet you NEED it in your life to feel alive; even if it's just for a moment.

The art of pretending to let go, is easier said than done.

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you know what's the one thing that makes humans so precious? Is when you feel genuinely happy while seeing others enjoying something they always wanted to doz seeing others achieve their dreams and being happy and support them through it all without harbouring any bad feelings, just pure love and lots or adoration. Yeah that's make humans so beautiful.

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why is it always the LOVER and never the one to be LOVED.

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sometimes i just sit in deep silence, surrounded by my own thoughts and emotions, thinking of whether the people "I LOVE" ever felt the LOVE i have for them. I question myself everytime, "do they feel loved by me?" Or "will i ever be able to make them feel loved?" , "Are my actions enough to convey my true feelings?". Questioning myself everyday, i hope i do make them understand how much i love them and the importance they hold in my life.