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I will never let alcoholism control my life again.

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Update: I've gotten better at my job now. Turns out I respond well to adversity.

In my last job review I told them I couldn’t rate my job satisfaction on a scale of 1-10 because working there made me fucking depressed and hate who I am when I get home. I told them I’d go to therapy but I haven’t yet. Now everything else in my life has fallen apart so this toxic job is the best thing I’ve got going for me.

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In my last job review I told them I couldn't rate my job satisfaction on a scale of 1-10 because working there made me fucking depressed and hate who I am when I get home. I told them I'd go to therapy but I haven't yet. Now everything else in my life has fallen apart so this toxic job is the best thing I've got going for me.

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How many times must the cannonballs fly, before they are forever banned?

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They'll stone you with the girl from at the bar, They'll stone you when you're fucking in your car.

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I’ll be back

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8 Iconic Book Quotes that will never be in the show.

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I lent this copy to my friend and he lent it to someone who lost it. I'm very sad.

A great memory

When I was 16 I went with my mom, sister and her friend to riviera Maya in mexico. I brought my copy of slaughterhouse v, the same one I’m rereading now.

My best memory of my vacation is reading on the beach. I spent days listening to the sound of cerulean waves rolling in, warm air complemented by a cool, salted sea breeze. Bliss.

Now years later I turn the same pages I turned before, and I swear pockets of salty air spent years trapped between the covers. I really can smell the ocean that I haven’t really smelled in half a decade.

For this reason, my particular copy is priceless.

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Hello.

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fast and the furious franchise like

The Harry and the Potter 2 Harry 2 Potter The Harry and the Potter: Azkaban Prisoner Harry & Potter Harry 5 Harry & Potter 6 Potter 7

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*glub glub glub*

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Self-destructive Tendencies

You don’t want anything to do with me.

Maybe it’s because you’re a smart girl

and smart girls know better than to want a guy like me,

smart girls don’t have to settle for an occasional glimmer accompanied

with a myriad of self-destructive tendencies.

You’re what I want and what I need for me,

I am a selfish fuck.

 You’re lucky I don’t know what you want

because I would give anything.

I would offer it in a heartbeat if it was in my power to obtain

and then where would you go,

when you’re stuck in the mud and sinking with regret

deliberating the specific misstep

that grabbed your life by the ankle and won’t let go?

I would give my soul if it were worth a damn

or if it were even mine to give.

Anyone could see that gesture as an obvious bluff,

the worthlessness of my offer,

the empty chasm in my chest

where closeness longs to rest and make home.

I’m unable to give the appearance that my life has any meaning

and that’s why you refuse to accept it.

My facades are transparent and my appearance bleak,

hope’s been leaking longer than weeks,

it seeps and pours out in the gutter where it wastes.

I’m sick of myself but no one will accept it as a token until I am no longer,

but if I weren’t would I offer? I am a selfish fuck.  

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Hey folks! I wrote a terrible poem, check it out!

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I hate this fucking website but

I have feelings and this is where they go. I would really like to stop getting stood up and lied to trying to set up dates, or I would really like to investigate the science behind the potential of a free food/night out with me causing girls to have severe migraine headaches. 

It’s seriously happened three times now and it hurts my strait white feelings.