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no u know what. fuck it i wanna enjoy the rest of summer break with my friends and not worry about this stupid fucking shit

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maybe ill do high "healthy" restriction and 8pm to 10am fasting everyday and we will see bcs im so tired and depressed i don't think i can do my usual 300cals a day

idk, ate like i would usually eat today and im on 1126 cals i feel bad but at the same time i know im still in calorie deficit so i physically cant gain weight

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idk, ate like i would usually eat today and im on 1126 cals i feel bad but at the same time i know im still in calorie deficit so i physically cant gain weight

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okay. im gonna weight myself in the morning

if i lost weight im gonna continue

if i didnt or gained ill think about recovery

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i cant wait to weight myself tommorow morning

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i love the fact that one cucumber makes me feel full

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made myself 2 servings of overnight oats for tommorow and a yummy cucumber snack for now i feel good

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i dyed my hair black and my face looks slimmer and even more pale

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it wasn't a good day calorie wise but god i missed instant ramen lmao

another not that great of a day, 812 cals total which is acceptable but would've liked to eat less

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another not that great of a day, 812 cals total which is acceptable but would've liked to eat less

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why am i doing this i was almost recovered

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a week in and no binge yet!! yippie!!!

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update: ate about 700cals at my grandma i think? and a bite of cookie? cake?? at my bfs house, no idea what it was and how many cals was it so im just gonna count it as 50

not a great day tbh, todays total is 972cal with 405 burned

i feel so bad

okay going to my grandma in a few hours so meal plan bcs im not gonna get out of eating there

baked sweet potatoes (~90cal)

some kind of baked fish? probably salmon (200 - 300 cal)

ice cream cone (~200cal)

one piece of some kind of cake (depends on what kind but up to 400cal 😭😭)

estimated total: 890 - 990

still in my limit but much more i ate for the last few days

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my favourite thispo is one picture of my ex best friend, shes wearing my skirt and my shirt and theyre so much baggier on her than on me

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im almost 2 years clean from cvtting, thats wild

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okay going to my grandma in a few hours so meal plan bcs im not gonna get out of eating there

baked sweet potatoes (~90cal)

some kind of baked fish? probably salmon (200 - 300 cal)

ice cream cone (~200cal)

one piece of some kind of cake (depends on what kind but up to 400cal 😭😭)

estimated total: 890 - 990

still in my limit but much more than i ate for the last few days

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i cant sleep, usually when i was restricting i was so tired i was falling asleep all the time. what is going on now