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My pretty lunch to break my fast for today :)

133g Cucumber (23) 140g Tomato (25) 10g Dry Lentils (32) 45g Banana (40)

Total: 120

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Food Diary 26/11/22

Breakfast: Skipped

Lunch: Skipped

Dinner: 38 Psyllium Husk Pudding (23)

(its a lot more than it looks and super filling)

Vegetable Broth (15) Diet Lemonade (0)

Total: 38

Workout: ✅ 

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Food Diary 18/11/22

Breakfast: 10 White Monster (10)

Lunch: 117 1 mug Cabbage soup (70) Berry and Vitamin Pudding (47)

I love how pretty my pudding looks :)

Dinner: 70 1 mug Cabbage soup (70)

Snacks: 302 Fruit and Veggie Smoothie bowl (302)

Total: 499

Workout: ✅ (i was proud of myself for working out today cause i was sooooo tired but its def worth it)

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People think Ana is about food.

But they don’t understand that it’s so much more than that. Yes, it’s about hating your body and yourself and wanting to feel OK with how you look for once in your life.

But it’s also about control. About trying to dull the pain through self destructive behavior. It’s about wanting to prove you can control something in your life when everything else is out of control: no matter what, at least you can control what you eat and how small you. At least you can prove that you have control over your behavior.

It’s about wanting to be so small you disappear. So small that no one can hurt you anymore.

Ana is about so much more than food.

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Food Diary 17/11/22 :)

Breakfast: 7 1 piece gum (2) 1/2 monster (5)

Lunch: 140 1 mug Cabbage and Potato soup (140)

Dinner: 75 1.5 mugs Cabbage and Carrot soup (105) Partially vomited (-30) (not purged i was just sick today)

Snacks: 135 2 small cucumbers (55) Apple (60) Coconut milk and Cinnamon tea (20)

Total: 357 cals

Workout: ✅

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Fr it feels like fainting finally validated my ED but I might be sent to recovery again for it so I can’t tell whether to be happy or upset abt it

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Im going to bed not hungry for the first time in weeks and it feels awful :(

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Accountability post :(

Breakfast:

Chai tea - 0 cals

Lunch:

Skipped

Dinner:

850+ cals of assorted food :(

My parents made me eat a shit ton bc I fainted while on a walk but I’ll be better tomorrow for sure.

Total cals: abt 850

Cals burned: 41

Net cals: abt 809

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Another accountability post :)

Breakfast:

Chai tea - 0 cals

Lunch:

Spring roll salad - 66 cals

Dinner:

1/2 slice cheese pizza - 160 cals

Watermelon - 30 cals

Total: 256 cals

Exercise: 64 cals burned

Net cals: 192 cals

Message me for any recipes :)

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Accountability post :)

Breakfast:

Chai latte - 18 cals

Lunch:

Veggie cream soup - 90 cals

Dinner:

Pasta with chickpeas and soya meat - 253 cals :(

Snacks:

Honey Lemon Halls - 8

Knock off Red Bull - 5

Total: 373 cals

Cals Burned: 132

Net Cals: 241

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Starting to post so I have accountability

Breakfast:

chai tea latte - 18 cals

Lunch:

Rice paper pizza wrap - 81 cals

Dinner:

Cucumber carrot and rice paper salad - 110 cals

(Seriously the best thing I’ve eaten in a long time)

Snacks:

Halls X-tra strength cough drop - 7 cals

1 cup watermelon - 46 cals

Cals burned: 90 cals

Total:

261 cals

Net total:

171 cals

Message me for the recipes :)

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I finally broke my 95hr fast :)

Im pretty happy with myself. I didn't break it with a binge even though my mom bought me popcorn chicken and two whole bunt cakes.