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Fallen Eden

In the garden we tended, once blooming with light,

shadows have fallen and day turned to night.

The roses lie broken, the trees stand alone,

what once was our Eden is but overgrown stone.

The nature we cherished now whispers no song,

the paths we once wandered feel twisted and wrong.

Where love used to flourish, the roots intertwine,

nothing may live in this garden of mine.

by Weltenasche.

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Despair

The ground will shatter, the heavens will bleed,

in darkness and ruin, despair takes the lead.

No dawn will follow, no sun to arise,

only silence remains beneath empty skies.

by Weltenasche.

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Can you post a picture without black and white filter? I'd love to see your colors

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What would be something you would want to say to your younger self if you could?

I think I would share a quote from Robert Jordan with him: "The oak fought the wind and was broken, the willow bent when it must and survived."

As with nearly everything in our world, this quote, offers myriad interpretations. Yet, I interpret it in a way that might have pointed my younger self in the right direction.

The oak embodies strength, steadfastness, and resilience - its very identity. It feels invincible, unyielding, a necessity; should it encounter something matching its strength, it would break. However, as anyone who is living knows, nothing matches life's strength, which strikes relentlessly and unapologetically. An oak, taught only to be strong and never to bend under life's winds, is destined to break. In contrast, the willow symbolizes flexibility, adaptability, and endurance - capable of bending with life's challenges without ever breaking.

The perceived strength of the oak thus becomes its greatest weakness, while the perceived weakness of the willow reveals its true strength.

Yet, I fear these words would fall on deaf ears, for the mindset of "having to be strong" is and always was deeply ingrained within me. Despite years of reflection, I have been unable to purge these thought patterns. It is a deeply rooted behavior, a toxin coursing through my blood, likely forever poisoning my veins.

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Do you ever feel that life is just unfair?

Honestly no, not anymore. But I had a lot of time to think about that and it never ceases to amaze me how many people still endeavor to impose the construct of fairness upon life. Life, by its very nature, defies fairness, for it cannot conform to this man-made ideal. Fairness is an anthropocentric notion, a concept forged within the crucible of social constructs, yet life itself is an composition of chaos and order, largely beyond the dominion of man. How, then, can anyone justly impose the concept of fairness upon such an enigmatic and indifferent domain?

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You should do something about the calluses on your hands ... it's disgusting and no woman likes that 🤮🤮

They don't bother me; they're just a by-product of the sport I do. I've yet to meet a woman who was bothered by them

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Ashes

In my hands, I hold the ashes,

of things I wish were still around;

Lost in time, the moment passes,

in sorrow's depth, my heart is found.

by Weltenasche.

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Heey I know it's not the usual subject of your blog but I find it really interesting to hear a bit about game development if you don't mind (▰˘◡˘▰) Like what would someone need to develop a game? Is it hard? Could I do it and how much time would I need?

Since you kept your questions quite general, my answer to most of these would be “it depends”, as game development is a very broad field.

The answers would depend a lot on what kind of game you want to develop, what tools you use, whether you create all your assets yourself or buy them, what previous experience you have, … and so on.

Could you be a bit more specific?

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Doesn't it piss you off that a random woman can just post a picture of her tits/ass without any effort and get ten times as many likes and attention for it as you will ever get for one of your poems? Then why post poems at all? But this blog is dead anyway - no interaction - no posting - nothing 🤣

No, it doesn't, and honestly, I've never really thought about that before. I don't measure my blog and its value by trivial things like attention or likes.

But from a logical standpoint, it only makes sense, as poetry is more of a niche interest, while something like sexual desire, which is amplified/triggered by the visual impressions you mentioned, certainly appeals to a broader audience.

And I post my poems because I enjoy reading the associations they evoke in people who read them, the ways in which they are interpreted, the memories, impressions, and feelings that people associate with them.

Not everything in the world we call ours should be solely tied to attention, although certainly too much already is.

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Why don't you post more? I love your words and poems! <33

I'm glad you like my blog content.

I'm generally someone who is not very consistent when it comes to social media. Sometimes I post for a few days in a row and then not for weeks or months.

I only really post when I have something to share and I don't really have that at the moment. The poems and words that currently leave my pen are not intended for the eyes of others, my thoughts only on rare occasions and at the moment I'm putting almost all of my free time besides training into game development or the game I'm currently developing, to be more precise.

However, since I created this blog more in terms of poetry and philosophy, this content wouldn't necessarily fit in, so I don't really have much to share in that regard; unless someone would be interested, but from some personal experiences I know that programming is a rather fascinating topic when you are involved in it yourself and therefore can relate to it better.

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Is there a word you hate?

Yes, there is one word that I hate. It is the German term "Nutztier" (Eng. livestock/farm animal), which, if translated word for word, would be "utility animal".

I find it to be a troubling term, for like nearly all words, it evokes associations and imagery in the minds of people, in this case, the notion that there are animals solely brought into existence to serve the needs of humans. And this notion, deeply ingrained in the collective consciousness, serves to justify unspeakable cruelties inflicted upon these animals, who have essentially committed no offense, but to be of use to humankind.

To be born into a life of servitude simply because one is deemed useful to another by virtue of innate traits. A cruel and man-made fate, which is unfortunately still accepted in the midst of our society.

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"The creative ones. And since creativity comes in all shapes and sizes, I don’t really care" .. Dude you are such a pick me loser lol. Or really ugly. Or both. I mean why would you go for that take if you looked good enough to pull some beautiful women? Right? It's just logic lol

I'm a bit concerned by the fact that even though you appear to have the intelligence to navigate the internet and use internet-capable devices, you still seem unable to grasp that the concept of beauty isn't inherently objective and not solely defined by outward appearance.

But trying to explain this to you seems like a fruitless endeavor, so I'll save my breath.

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Can you give me a tip on how to start with the gym and stay consistent? I tried multiple approaches and multiple times I just let go after a few sessions since I don't like it. But I still want to lose weight and build some muscle 😥 any tips are appreciated!

I think the most important thing to understand is that it's not always fun and that motivation is a limited resource that you shouldn't rely on. What you should (and can) rely on is discipline and this is what you need to build up.

Something else that I noticed while reading your message, however, is that there are many types of sport and you don't necessarily have to go to the gym to achieve the goals you mentioned. It's not essential for losing weight, which you can ensure by simply being in a calorie deficit, nor is it essential for building muscle, since you can build muscle independently with other sports; although of course muscle hypertrophy is not necessarily as much of a focus as it is in the gym.

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Do you have favorite and hate exercises? If so what are those?

My favorite exercise is rowing, regardless of the variation. If I had to choose one, I would go with seals or bend over rows. I don't really have a hate exercise, but I'm not too fond of direct arm exercises and if I had to choose, it would probably be the classic bicep curl.

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I have met a girl I really like but I'm not sure if I should write her first or wait for her to write first. It's been 2 days since we met :/ what would you do?

I refuse to believe that people really play games like this.

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Do you prefer thin or curvy woman?

The creative ones. And since creativity comes in all shapes and sizes, I don't really care.