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one of my favorite things about the lynches is that Ronan thinks of Declan the way Declan thinks of Niall. That’s just family dynamics perfection to me.

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the dream thieves rlly is my favorite book in the series like ugh kavinsky ur swag too much. ur homophobic vibes too faggy. ur situationship too slay. they're gonna kill u kavinsky.

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it genuinely makes me so unbelievably sad that Blue doesn’t have any girl friends. Like ik that’s the whole thing with her being extra tiny and being with all but the gay one bit still,,, a sort of judy poovey for her who isn’t quite friends with her but sees her around and likes talking to her and asking her about her life and helping her feel less lonely at school…. just makes me super sad i hate it she deserves a girl friend so bad.

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Adam could never stop noticing anymore. It had hurt, naturally, to see his best friend in love with the girl he had claimed as his own. But now that he knew he would never stop noticing.

Gansey was different around her. He was softer, as if treading on water slow enough to stop the ripple. He took time to think everything twice before he spoke, he never lashed out like he had at Adam several times before. It was as if his brain was rewired around her. He laughed more, even at Adam’s dumb remarks which usually got a smirk or a huff.

Blue was different too. When Gansey came around she stopped being so careful. She could be meaner and wilder around him. When they were alone she was so careful, trying to pick every word and action correctly before acting upon it.

He was rightfully jealous at first. His girl and his best friend, so comfortable around each other when it seemed all they could ever do was treat Adam as a street dog who followed them around. But when that stopped, all he could do was hurt. They way they looked at each other when no one was looking. How they talked so close together without feeling uncomfortable. How they had some tiny jokes he didn’t get and they tried to let them pass over. He noticed. He would never stop noticing.

But mostly, he wanted to feel like that too. Comfortable. Truly comfortable. Not practiced and trained comfort, which always made his stomach turn a little when he fell back into it. Not the comfort that came after knowing someone and what was right or wrong in their eyes. Practiced. Their comfort came naturally, barely having known each other they were all buddy-buddy. Talking as if they’d had dozens of conversations before, as if right and wrong was always the same, without treading carefully to avoid mistakes. And any mistakes seemed natural too, passed as a joke or a situation easily diffused. No hard conversations, no fights, no lashing out, no uncomfortable question and misunderstood gestures that needed to be followed with thorough explanation.

It seemed ridiculous, but he couldn’t keep himself from wondering if he’d ever have that, or if it came with something he’d never have. Like money or love. If there was anyone out there who didn’t think he was too rough around the edges, too damaged. Someone who would get him without a bazillion conversations about every thing that made him turn out the way he was. Who would secretly smile at the private jokes while trying not to make it obvious that they were leaving the rest behind. Or, who would be willing to be left behind with him. Someone who would make him forget about Blue and Gansey and Gansey and Blue.

He tried picturing it, the casual conversations over coffee about stuff he actually cared about, the laughing at his dirty work clothes instead of having to apologize every half a second, sitting comfortably in silence. He wanted it so badly, but he usually came to understand he never pictured himself in those scenarios. It was an Adam-like guy. With a better face; no discernible stress, no eye-bags or dirt under his fingernails. With a nicer side profile and cleaner teeth. Cleaner everything. In his fantasies, the Adam-like guy was always clean and smelt nice and never needed to add water to the Three-In-One shampoo he used. He was good at conversations and always knew how to diffuse hard topics without needing to change the subject. He was always happy, smiling and inviting. It was hard to look at himself in the mirror after it. Seeing the real Adam was always harder after waking up.

It was strange, he was never kept awake thinking about his parents. If he thought about it, it was usually during work while he made secret calculations about how much money he’d have left after it. But at night, he was kept awake thinking about how much he was still missing. He had so much to catch up to, so much he never had and was starting to believe he’d never have. Money was easier, hard work was usually rewarded nicely. Love however…

“Parrish.” Ronan knocked once again, harder. “I know you’re awake it’s still too early.”

“Lynch?” Adam turned on the big light and opened the door.

“I brought some leftover pizza. Gansey said to throw it out but Noah guessed it was better to eat here rather than eat it alone at five in the morning.”

“Noah’s here?” Adam scrubbed his left eye.

“He was,” Ronan opened the carton box and took a huge bite. “Churches scare the hell out of him. Says it knows he shouldn’t be here.”

Adam tried not to eye the pizza too much. He was starving but he needed to play it cool. “Makes sense.”

“You gonna let me in or what?” Ronan said with a full mouth.

“Right. Sorry. There isn’t much space to sit down, but we can eat on the floor.”

“Rou eat om de flo?” Said Ronan from the floor.

“Chew Lynch, it’s disgusting.”

“I asked if you eat on the floor.”

“Uh… yeah,” Adam scratched his left ear uncomfortably. “But most times I eat at work or on my bed.”

“That’s disgusting.” Ronan said “You should change that mattress by the way.”

Adam scoffed at the bare thought of having enough money for a new mattress. “It’s more comfortable that it looks.”

“I know.” Ronan smiled. “I’ve pissed on that bed.”

“Jesus Christ Ronan.” Adam gagged. “Why?”

“Take a slice and I’ll tell you.”

“I’m fine, thanks.”

“Eat or I’ll come while you’re at work and piss on it again.”

Adam repressed a smile, standing up to get the two glasses he had and filled them with tap water. He even let it run for a couple of seconds for it to get a bit colder. He gave one to Ronan and put the other one besides himself as he sat down and leaned against the wooden bed frame. He took a slice. “So?”

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“You and that Dick,” Kavinsky smiled “being a lapdog isn’t the pretty look you think it is.”

Ronan wanted to growl, show him just how much of a lapdog he could be. “Fuck off.”

“I mean he’s not even here and you keep defending him. This is a safe space Lynch, cross my heart and hope to die.”

“That doesn’t mean anything from you, bitch.”

“The lapdog and the bitch. Almost poetic isn’t it?”

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my card declines on the therapy and my therapist reminds me that during the last chapters of TRK, Declan constantly called to Ronan, while he was being unmade, definitely witnessing how Matthew was dying slowly in his arms, not knowing where Ronan is and what is going on, thinking that he was losing his whole family. all of it right after the conversation with Ronan about how they are in danger, and they need to leave Henrietta.

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GUYS. GUYS. IM NOT FUCKING NORMAL ABOUT THEM. THEYRE LINKING ARMS THEYRE AAAAAAGG

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must be hard to get a birthday gift for adam after kavinsky gave him the best one and killed himself

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for adams birthday im gonna sit my ass down and actually work ❤️ he’s so inspiring ❤️ the people’s princess❤️ henriettas darling❤️ babygirl…

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kavinsky canonically killed his father and is constantly drugging his mother omfg what is wrong with that kid shshfhhsshdkfnfjdj

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I feel like I'm going insane how is EVERY SONG ABOUT THE RAVEN CYCLE??!?!?!! IS MAGGIE STIEFVATER JUST JEFF BUCKLEY REINCARNATED????

OUR LAST GOODBYE? BLUESY! "You gave me more to live for More than you'll ever know" Gansey admitting he kinda wants to live thanks to Blue.

"Kiss me, please, kiss me But kiss me out of desire, babe, not consolation Oh, you know it makes me so angry 'Cause I know that in time, I'll only make you cry This is our last goodbye" HOW!!!!!! THIS IS LITERALLY WORD FOR WORD GANSEYS DEATH!!!!

"Well, the bells out in the church tower chime Burning clues into this heart of mine Thinking so hard on her soft eyes And the memories offer signs that it's over, oh-oh It's over" BLUESY 'MEETING' AT THE CHURCH??? WHAT IS HAPPENING!!!!

SAME WITH DREAM BROTHER AND THE MOTHERFUCK DECLAN LYNCH!!! I mean besides the obvious title that could indicate to either of his brothers, the whole song is the Lynch family in Declan's perspective.

"That dark angel he is shuffling in Watching over them with his black feather wings unfurled." could very well be Ronan or his night terror watching over matthew at the barns.

"The love you lost with her skin so fair Is free with the wind in her butterscotch hair" My dauntless Declan.

"Don't be like the one who made me so old Don't be like the one who left behind his name" DECLAN TRYING TO MAKE RONAN DIFFERENT FROM NIALL AND THE WHOLE SWORD SPEECH IN CALL DOWN THE HAWK!!!

"Dream brother, dream brother, dream, dream dream asleep in the sand with the ocean washing over" the aurora painting that makes you dream of the OCEAN?!?!?!!?!?!? MAGGIE WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

UPDATE: SO REAL????? PYNCH!!!!!

“Love, let me sleep tonight on your couch” replace couch with FLOOR,,,, not so funny now is it?

“And the wind blew an invocation and I fell asleep at the gate.” Adam getting called by Cabeswater during TDT and ronan dreaming anywhere and everywhere not to die in CDTH.

“And I never stepped on the cracks ‘cause I thought I’d hurt my mother” Adam being afraid of letting his mother down in TRB.

“And I couldn’t awake from the nightmare that sucked me in and pulled me under.” THEY WERE BOTH POSSESSED TO SOME DEGREE IN TRK!!!!!

“I LOVE YOU BUT I’M AFRAID TO LOVE YOU”???? COME ON!!!1

Oh and gansey is Grace. Like in its entirety. The whole entire song.

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“and what is it my dog needs?”

gulp

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blue thinks her first kiss was gansey

sue me but i think the biggest tragedy in trc was losing noah. and not just bc its sad that he slipped quietly from time (even tho it is very sad), but also because blue, gansey, adam + ronan also lost an important and loving friendship AND THEY DONT EVEN KNOW

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I get why people say Nettles by Ethel Cain is an Adam Song (because every song can be an Adam song when you love him too much) but it’s actually Noah.

“Lay me down where the trees bend low, Put me down where the greenery stings” Noah in The Raven Boys needing his bones to be set in Cabeswater to ‘live’.

“I wanna bleed, I wanna hurt the way the boys do” Is just noah wanting to be alive again to experience life like his friends do.

“Held close all the time, knowin’ this was all for you” ???? NOAH AND GANSEY!!! NOAH TRYING TO BE AROUND AS MUCH AS HE COULD AND DYING THE WHOLE WAY FOR GANSEY TO SACE THE WORLD!!!!

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I don’t think I could ever forget actually

hey does anyone remember noah czerny

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"i asked chatgpt" okay i asked the magical sentient forest that i sacrificed my eyes and hands to... we r not the same