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E. E SCOTT

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Haunting Images of Chernobyl, 28 Years Later

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VENT TW

I feel like dying today, its hard to find a motive to keep going honestly. I feel like I had to put all my dreams away and just conform to what society says I should do, work 9-6 (in my country we work 45 hrs weekly, sometimes even more) and deal with people all day. I'm exhausted, i feel like going back to the ward but i don't want to be an economical burden to my parents anymore, the ward ain't free unless I do this completely on my own and do it with through the public healthcare system, if it wasn't too shitty tho. 25 years and I cant seem to do shit on my own.

Damn I really hate living, specially in a 3rd word country. I feel like cutting my legs.

I took 20mg of Clotiazepam to stop the anxiety and the thoughs but it only made me distracted for a while.

I feel so trapped.

Life sucks.

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Update on the ward thing

TW and etc im basically just going to vent:

These days been weird asf, my chest feels heavy, my head wants to sleep, i feel lazy but thanks to the meds I've been able to do things. But i dont know how long i can hold this façade, ive been thinking too much about death lately, its as easy as just turning the kitchen stove on for five minutes and then i sleep into my death. Heh, dont even wanna cut myself at this point i just want to sleep forever.

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another girl interrupted edit because slay

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im back from the ward :P

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The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful

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