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I OWN THE NIGHT.

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It's been a while since you last posted anything.

I hope you're well

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Another ask: I saw in the news there was a horrific attack in Sumy yesterday. are you okay?

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Hi! Thank you - I'm okay, things have been unusually quiet in Kyiv for the last couple of days. But Sumy... yeah. I'm absolutely devastated.

34 people murdered, including children, the last time I saw the update. Just random citizens taking a walk across their city, or riding the bus, or travelling by car on a Palm Sunday morning.

We haven't recovered from the recent mass murder by Russians in Kryvyi Rih, where 20 people died, including 9 children, and a woman burned to death in yet another attack during the night. And now this. And everything in between, and prior to that, and in the future to come.

I don't have sufficient words to comment on this, just pain and weariness.

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I'm from Ukraine, and today I cannot stay silent.

On April 4, a russian missile hit a playground in Kryvyi Rih, killing 26 people, including 9 children.

Today, April 6, is a day of mourning in Ukraine. We remember and will never forget

russia is a country of terrorists and murderers

So, remember it too. 🥀

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Hello, we're strangers, and I hope that I'm not overstepping, but I fervently wish that you—and your family—is okay. I read your posts describing your situation, and I just keep your well-being in my heart.

You're by far one of my favorite Tomarry writers, but more importantly, you seem like a lovely person.

Thank you so much for your kind ask! I appreciate it a lot <3

At this specific moment, I'm doing well enough - there is no air raid yet, my parents and my pets are sleeping, and everything is blissfully quiet. Perfect time to do some writing! Hopefully, this night remains peaceful.

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Inside Interview with the Vampire - Season 2

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It's been a long time, I hope you're okay.

Hello! Thank you so much <3

Honestly, this month was tough - my family brought my last surviving grandmother home to us (she was living in a city that's being destroyed by Russia, so it was increasingly dangerous for her to stay there). However, she passed away 4 days later. And then my oldest pigeon passed away, too.

I think I might be depressed on a deeper level than I thought. There were two weeks of mostly-no-explosions in Kyiv, and I could use this time to finally finish the Tomarry update and resume working on my Black Butler story. And I wanted to, but I just couldn't. I have been struggling with getting myself out of bed and doing even the most basic things.

I was hoping I'd feel better with time, but nope, the strange blankness is still there. And now we are under daily attacks again. Three people died last night in a drone attack: a 5 year-old, her father, and an old woman. She was trapped in her burning apartment.

A warning - this is a terrifying video.

That's the daily risk we all have to take. Being scared all the time is exhausting. Death after death after death - it just doesn't end.

Today I grew utterly fed up with myself, though, so now I'm trying to kick myself back to life. I hope to have better news about updates soon - I already started writing again, and what do you know, the moment I did, I felt so happy and excited. The most difficult thing is to make myself sit down and start, and I'm determined to keep doing it.

On another positive note, I've been making my way through your recs and I found a mafia-centered drama I liked. Many of you have probably watched it already - it's called KinnPorsche. There were many corny moments, but I still enjoyed it a lot, and I loved all three of its ships (though the psychopath/his victim from the rival family were the ones who won my heart). I was always interested in mafia settings, and finally I have something to scream about)

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The CIA director confirmed that the US has suspended arms sales and intelligence sharing with Ukraine.

John Ratcliffe said he looks forward to lifting the pause and 'working with Ukraine towards peace' following Volodymyr Zelensky's message to the US president.

Working towards peace = helping russians kill more Ukrainians and thus pressing the rest to surrender.

Fucking ghoul.

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If you're in danger/need money at all please let us know. I will donate money if you need it!

Thank you so much for being concerned about me! <3 While my financial situation is not very good, it's not bad either, so please don't worry about it.

I always welcome support, and I still lack words to properly thank those who support me with their Patreon donations - this makes such a tremendous difference in my life. However, I also have a job, so my basic needs are being met.

I tend to save up a bit to go away for a couple of days every 3-4 months - this is an unnecessary expense, but it helps me improve my mental state to an extent. I practically live for these short vacations. This is what financial support allows me to have.

So, it's not critical - I have food, water, a roof over my head, and the ability to feed my pet babies. Donations are extremely welcome but not necessary.

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Are you okay? x

Another ask: I've been checking your page every few hours. I truly hope you are safe from this latest attack

Another ask: I am so sorry to see about the attacks. I hope you and your family are okay. Please update us if there's anything we can do

Ask from @nymphkoi: My heart feels so heavy for you. I've been following you for years and feel somewhat blessed you are okay, but I still feel so helpless for the things people lost and the people lost in this war. I hope you will be okay and you have all my well wishes

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Hello! Thank you all so much for being here for me. The attacks happen daily, but when I make a post about it, it means that I'm really desperate and close to breaking down. Seeing the words of your support and care helps a lot.

That was the largest drone attack to date. In fact, in the last 27 days, Russia has sent 3700 deadly missile-like drones at us. This is more than what it used throughout the entire 2023.

I wanted to post an update sooner, but by the time I was ready to do it, another attack happened, and then another, and then another one. There hasn't been a quiet night in many months. The new attack is coming now, too, but for now, things are peaceful where I am.

Thank you a lot, I can't express enough how much I appreciate all of you.

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Under a terrible massive attack.

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Sometimes I see this misunderstanding and I'd like to clarify it. When Ukrainian say "russian drones/shahed drones/iranian drones," we don't mean this kind of drones:

We mean THIS kind of drones that can carry a warhead and are essentially used as missiles:

While they're not as large, destructive and difficult to intercept as, say, ballistic missiles, they can still cause significant damage. Russia launches them at us every night, but most are successfully shot down.

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So, answer me this. How come you comin’ in when everybody else is gettin’ out?

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Hi Katrin,

We haven't heard from you in a while and I'm worried about your safety. Are you alright?

Another ask: Hello!! I hope you're alright, it's been a while since your last post!! ❤️

Another ask: Are you okay Katrin? Praying for your safety

Another ask: hello! it's been a while since we've heard from you. I hope you are okay right now. wishing you the best

Another ask: Hey!! Are you alright? We haven't heard from you in a while 🥹 of course take your time but I'm just worried 😭

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Hi! As always, thank you all for thinking about me <3 I'm fine, just facing typical everyday problems for the most part. You know, having to visit the dentist, cat issues, lots of work, and so on.

The situation with the war has been upsetting me more than usual lately. My city is under attack almost every day - if we get one peaceful night per week, that's a miracle.

One video depicting the impact of one missile about a week ago. Many people died.

Also, Russia attacked the former nuclear power plant at Chornobyl a few days ago. I'm only surprised it happened just now since Russian-Iranian drones keep flying past Chornobyl every single night. I know terrorists are fucked up in general, but this is just completely insane.

The peace talks are supposed to start soon, but with the way the US is acting, I won't be surprised if Ukraine is told to pay for its continued existence to Russia. I didn't expect justice, that ship has sailed, but the way things stand now, it's like we live in an upside-down world where absurdity is the only law.

Back to personal matters: I'm almost done with the new ATLWETD chapter! Hopefully, it'll be posted by the end of next week. Those Gentle Slopes and the Batjokes story will get my full attention right afterward.

And here are my babies.

Tom, the oldest and the grumpiest.

Laoriy, the youngest and the gentlest. Likes to pretend he's a bunny :D

Murrsiya (previously Marika, but the name didn't take): the newest, old baby. Playful and incredibly affectionate. I have no idea how anyone could just throw her away.

And Henry the bunny, gentle, serious, and mischievous.

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It’s already fucked up enough for Russians to bomb civilian infrastructure, but they inflict psychological terror just for the sake of it. They use suspense and uncertainty to keep people on edge.

Every night I spent in Kharkiv, drones would fly around in circles for hours. They’d descend and accelerate like they were about to hit, and then diverted. They’d fly into different regions to do the same thing and return. They did that from 9pm and kept it up until everyone was tired, then attacked between 4:30-5:30 am, or sometimes not at all. They terrorized Kharkiv for a bit and moved on to Sumy.

I didn’t have a reaction to the explosions, I had reactions to sirens and the sound of drones flying. The anticipation fucks with you. There’s no other reason to do it other than to make civilians suffer more. Waiting to see if they’re going to die. Most people are used to it by now, but it’s still such a mindfuck.

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Hey V!❤️

Regarding the bsdm stuff with Louis/ Armand.. What are your thoughts on that ? Does anything like that happen in the book? It just seemed so random to me???

I understand what they wanted to do…Louis thinking he was the one » in charge » in this relationship as opposed to what it was with Lestat, when in reality he was just a puppet being manipulated.

I think it’s just me but I thought they chose the weirdest way to do it. I’m not conservative or anything and I know that the writers wanted to show the relationship being out of spite and control not love. That being said I still think it was a bit..cringe and random.

Hey!

I've said it before, but I was initially shocked with what the writers did with Loumand, because no. Nothing like that ever existed in the books between them.

The show made their relationship a clear contrast to Loustat, and I'm still very conflicted overall about how the writers chose to handle it, because there were several clear implications and layers at play, and they are all very icky to say the least.

For one, Louis only entered the relationship as a means of trying to buy his and Claudia's safety. So essentially, Louis surrendered himself to become a piece of chattel, a callback to his previous occupation with role reversal as a nod to his confession in 1x01 when he admitted he knew how his girls suffered, in exchange for what he believed would keep Claudia safe, which was to please Armand with a relationship. However, the problem with that was Louis did not actually care, and Armand knew this. Louis continued to have the imaginary relationship with Lestat for years, refused to acknowledge Armand as his companion, and totally disregarded the rules and expectations of the coven. In other words, he was half-assing the relationship and doing the bare minimum to keep Armand satisfied, all the while mocking Armand and the relationship in his mind via DreamStat, which I do not blame Louis at all. In my opinion, Louis was 100% justified to behave the way he did.

For another, when Claudia revealed Armand threatened her with the knowledge of knowing what had happened to Lestat, that's when Louis decided to take the relationship to the next level, because he realized he didn't really have everything "covered" like he believed, and Jacob has spoken about this. Louis had to let DreamStat go, which is where his heart truly was, and harden himself back into who he was pre-Lestat — the differential businessman pimp — and he used Armand's trauma of being "donated" aka pimped out by Marius as a means of metaphorically putting Armand under his thumb as the chattel and becoming Armand's new Marius aka Maître, which was another callback to Louis' former occupation, another role reversal, and tying it into Armand's history with Marius. There was a reason all of that was revealed in 2x04 and right before the revelations of Armand's gaslighting and deleting memories and Armand's lies of 2x05. However, the problem with all of that is Louis was never in control. At no point did Armand ever concede his power to Louis or to Santiago. It was all a farce, and Armand was always in control of the coven and always aware of what Santiago and the others were doing, and Armand allowed every bit of it to happen. It was always devious self-service on Armand's part.

Another factor in all of this is Lestat, and we won't know the full truth of his role until S3. The show framed Armand as doing everything he did wrt the trial exactly because he was pissed Louis and Lestat wouldn't love him. They used the revelation in 2x06 of makers and fledglings feeling each other right before Santiago came to take them captive, and it was punctuated with Armand standing there in seething anger and bitterness while we hear Madeleine (mistakenly thinking it's about Armand) feeling Louis' love for Lestat and questioning Louis about why he doesn't want Lestat to know. Again, all of that happened when it did within the episode for a reason. Then when we get to the trial, the entire thing is a mockery of Loustat's relationship and is meant to humiliate both Louis and Lestat which, again, Armand sanctioned the entire thing. Not only did he sanction it, but he wanted more put into the play to further degrade Louis and mock him and put Louis' "failures" into the spotlight and tried to spin it as Lestat doing it for "revenge" when none of that was true, and Lestat was in just as much pain as Louis and did not want it to be happening.

None of it was ever about Claudia. The writers made it into a soap opera relationship drama between Louis, Lestat, and Armand and like I said, I'm still conflicted about what they did, and I don't necessarily agree it was the correct decision. Like with all the other mistakes though, it is what it is, and I see why they did it, because this is the Loustat show. Everything, and I do mean every single thing, is centered upon those two and their love story, even when it's at the expense of something or someone else.

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i'm still not over the cheek smooch. i will never be over the cheek smooch.

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I love reading when wax poetic about Loustat..it makes my heart sing.

So on an individual basis tell me what you think they got exactly right about Louis and Lestat especially.

Feed me content..i need something through this drought!🥰

So much!

Lestat falling fatally in love at first sight.

The pent-up longing of their first time.

Their friendship.

Their marriage.

The fact Lestat would do anything for Louis.

Lestat building a home and life for Louis.

The fact Louis is home for Lestat, which I expanded on here.

The fact Louis is Lestat’s religion, which I expanded on here.

DreamStat was incredible, because including him really did bring everything from the back half of the book to the forefront and made Louis’ clear longing and grief and love into a visual medium.

The letter and the call were both blazing arrows shot straight through the heart, because YES! YES! YES! There’s the REAL Lestat!

“Did you hurt yourself?” Again, there’s the REAL Lestat!

The fact it’s always Loustat at the end of the day. They always come home to each other. Literally. Lestat went home to New Orleans aka to Louis, and Louis finally broke free from the prison and went straight home to New Orleans aka to Lestat, which is where he’d wanted to go the entire time in S2 as demonstrated via his thoughts through DreamStat and the fact the interview(s) itself was always a call for help aka a lifeline to Lestat.

It really isn’t until the back half of the IWTV book that you realize holy geez. This relationship was something way more than Louis ever wanted to admit and once you get to TVL? It’s game over. These two are undeniable lovers.

They’ve just done an incredible job on this relationship and threading so much from the book canon back into the smallest details. It’s exquisite and my reason to keep going. 😅♥️✨

And if you’re hungry for more, I’m trying to finish another Loustat fic one-shot, and I hope to have it posted later today. 🙏🏽