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I had to see my friend/crush/love/first real friend off this morning. He slept over at my place last night, and right now I’m lying down on his part of the futon with tears in my eyes.

I don’t know what/how you truly think of me, but I love you and I miss you. A lot.

My life will never be the same.

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This is kind of a shitpost? I think? I just felt the need to get this off my chest. It was a month ago when I started experiencing a flare-up of BDD (I effing hate my entire face and unmasculine body) which got intensified by my feelings for my friend (a trainwreck combination of envy, admiration, love, and heartache). Because of this I had trouble sleeping, had zero appetite, and felt incredibly suicidal for over a week. Out of desperation I sought help from a shrink in the closest big city and got prescribed antidepressants and sedatives, even though I had (and still kind of have) little faith in them working. I feel the antidepressants are only postponing the inevitable, but I really needed to concentrate on my work.

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I love my same-sex friend so much. It’s an unbalanced friendship, and I’m hurting ever so much inside, but still, I love him very much. With all my heart.

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Being rejected by a fellow gay is much worse than being rejected by a straight dude.

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Capture the twink. You’re welcome

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dont talk to me or my son ever again 🐾

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Royal Belly (Everyone is Home)

No, I won’t send you a PSD with the foam bubble layer removed.

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Some words to use when writing things:

winking

clenching

pulsing

fluttering

contracting

twitching

sucking

quivering

pulsating

throbbing

beating

thumping

thudding

pounding

humming

palpitate

vibrate

grinding

crushing

hammering

lashing

knocking

driving

thrusting

pushing

force

injecting

filling

dilate

stretching

lingering

expanding

bouncing

reaming

elongate

enlarge

unfolding

yielding

sternly

firmly

tightly 

harshly

thoroughly

consistently

precision

accuracy

carefully

demanding

strictly

restriction

meticulously

scrupulously

rigorously

rim

edge

lip

circle

band

encircling

enclosing

surrounding

piercing

curl

lock

twist

coil

spiral

whorl

dip

wet

soak

madly

wildly

noisily

rowdily

rambunctiously

decadent

degenerate

immoral

indulgent

accept

take

invite

nook

indentation

niche

depression

indent

depress

delay

tossing

writhing

flailing

squirming

rolling

wriggling

wiggling

thrashing

struggling

grappling

striving

straining

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My god, he looks AMAZING! He doesn’t look like Mick Jagger for a change! I’m in love!

Gave Derek a make-over!!! >:D ((Hated working with a low-quality image, but you would have to sell your soul to Lucifer in order to find this film in HD))

Thank you @candyraton for the suggestion!! :D

More long haired princes: Prince Eric & Prince Charming 

See also —> The king from Frozen, The king from Tangled, The dad from Inside Out, Callaghan from Big Hero 6

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Savage

Peta put up this Billboard next to Seafood place in Baltimore.

And so it began….

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JESUS FUCKIN CHRIST BELLE

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types of writers

The Lore-ist 

has detailed if not meticulous notes on the universe they’ve created, down to the food eaten and language quirks, they use mythos and setting to bring it all together

most of the character’s backstories are already loving laid out, though may not be all connected yet. 

Has yet to write a full chapter. (But they’re getting there!)

The Bae

Story is centered around a complex and engaging OC that they’ve spent years developing

said OC has been through A Lot, the love is real, so is the pain

OC may sort of be a loser? ie the story is a character-driven piece where the plot is moved ahead by said character’s bad decisions and questionable habits

The Researcher

akin to the lore-ist but spends more of their time on wikipedia articles jotting down notes and things like how much a watermelon weighs 

Everything from knowing Too Much about child-care to how a body decomposes or flapper chest-binding is on the table, their breadth is large and Should Be Feared

takes a long time to start but make the most of their words, from spot-on sci-fi to history to murder, readers will learn something on the way

The Lemon Flavored Factory

alright take it back now y’all, this writer has written enough smut to make a tom cat blush, they can write other things too, and often well, but there will inevitably be bed-rattling at some point (or car or shower)

either unusually creative or just sticks to classics like Aliens Made Them Do It, neither is necessarily bad but there is oddly little in between

their author’s notes tend to be hilarious or at least very self-aware

The Word Vomit Canoe

action oriented writer who spews out the words before they know what is happening, no plans, no outlines, 10k of the first thing that comes to mind, sometimes things like ‘maybe dragons?’ & they go with it

their strengths are productivity, weaknesses are not knowing what the hell is going on

style is marked by fast-paced tone and downright impressive word count

The Muse

their inspiration doesn’t come as often, but they are always listening for her & redy 2 go

update schedule is…sporadic at best, but makes up for it with long chapters and clean editing

Will write 30 pages in a day and then take a few months off, enjoys one-shots but can do longer works

doesn’t have the best sense of time and when they are in The Zone may forget to eat or shower

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People often say to me: “You draw like some kind of inhuman machine.  If I eat your brain, will I gain your power?”  The answer is yes, but there is another way. The key to precise drawing is building up muscle memory so that your arm/hand/fingers do the things you want them to do when you want them to do them.  Teaching yourself to draw a straight line or to make sweet curves is just a matter of practice and there are some exercises you can do to help improve. If you’re going to be doodling in class or during meetings anyway, why not put that time to good use?

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not doing great?

clean your room

open curtains/windows

take a shower

put on clean clothes

get out of your room a bit

stretch

drink a glass of water

get the hard/important stuff out of the way while you have energy

set some (any!) goals

remember that it is okay to have bad days

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I made a thing! I was thinking about this for a few days - because I realized that when I was young, I was also frustrated about being given the same advice over and over - without really knowing what it meant!!

Here’s 5 techniques which I have done before which have helped me grow as an artist, which are good for 5-minute warmups or just straight up challenges for your sketchbook! 

Obviously, these are not the ONLY techniques - they’re just the ones I find most fun! And maybe they’re not the most ‘correct’ ones out there, but it’s better than another comic about practicing more, right? 

Good luck to everyone on their drawings!

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Words to describe someone's voice

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I really liked this panel of the comic I did the other day. So I colored it and changed what Kristoff was gasping about 💕

Here’s the full comic

And one more where I project on Kristoff, just a little: