thelastfloor

[thelastfloor]

tiny goblin with the glowing bulb eyes

keep your teeth off my fragile mind

my head's dodgey, clumsy

slipping on peels of prey

from earlier days you found me

i'm searching for pockets, if any

if only

to wait

[thelastfloor]

Passing the Note

i gave myself the pen so i could give you the paper with all my little heart murmurs and sad eyes sketched into it you can throw it away and it's okay if you read it too

[thelastfloor]

The Weight of a Pedestal

i accuse you of needing to be right while standing on a pedestal i built of twigs and logs peaking just inches out of the ocean if you push me off we’re all drowning

i can’t be wrong about what I need fix me fix yourself first and then fix me too i can count on my fingers all the times i couldn't count on you yet i couldn't count on one hand all the times I could count on myself

i’m 3 miles below the ocean's surface now a submarine the color of who knows what it's too dark down here to tell and the pressure rings in my ears screaming why aren't you here to take the pressure off

i never learned how to work a submarine

i apologize again after scolding you for loving me the way you were forced to love your parents

i'd like to open up my sadness stroke it like a frightened kitten but it panics, it scratches, and i need someone to help take the blame for not holding it for the marks it keeps causing i can’t soothe it. can you? no? why not? damnit.

you deserve more patience than what i’ve given you more than a ruler slapping a desk top after a sleepless night more than a 6 month old puppy biting lightly

can we treat each other like children because we are we always have been my pedestals breaking in