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[theanonymousmademoiselle]

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

You were showing me signs of how I am capable of doing something I never fully thought of, you were asking me to improve and sometimes even begging me to do so just to see if I have the discipline to change , you were there watching me from behind as I grow but as I walk out of the door with no assurance of me coming back I still wasn't able to reach my full potential; the potential that you saw ever since day one.

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

Here's the thing, I don't understand me too.

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

It took me a day To realize That lying beside you And holding you Is okay

It took me a day To understand That the confusion I felt As we hold hands Became clear in a very unusual way

It took me a day To know That what we did was special Even if we didn’t kiss Even if I didn’t stayed

It took me a day To fathom The unfathomable The enigmatic And the baffling thoughts of yesterday

It took me a day To not regret a thing That at this age I am allowed to explore and experience life And not waste it away

- Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

And here I am Again More lost Than Found With my Whisky Infused Tea While Frederic Chopin Is playing In the background

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

I hear so many voices Inside my head All of them are echoes of my vices And whatever lies ahead

But out of all the many voices Only three of them are valid These three affect my life choices They’re the intricate design of my gold chalice

Sometimes they’re too loud That I couldn’t hear my own Nor any other sound Honestly, I am completely overthrown

So, what do my voices say Well, they count mistakes Flaws all over me they prefer to trace They do all this until my heart breaks

But that’s not all They make old wounds bleed Push me until I fall Or until I can’t breathe

Yet I’ve always known That I am still in control Even though the seeds I have sown Are taking their toll

I never really wanted the voices to shut For I am more sane with them Even if they’re the reason behind my cuts They’re still my body’s hem

They are my archenemy But without them I will never be me And though at times they destroys me The voices will always complete me

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

You are neither The beginning Nor The end, You are The in between; The divide. You are neither The Moon Nor The Stars, You are The Constellation; The divine.

-Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

Last night, I thought Cupid Uses arrows But how stupid And shallow Can I possibly be? Shots were fired Instead. And his Winchester Rifle Is aimed where? Of course, In the heart And he had no remorse, Even from the start.

- Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

I asked myself

“Why are we even here?”

Then I looked at

You,

Wondering what you’ll say

...

“To witness the world, sweetie.”

Something like that of course.

- Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

It’s almost a year or so to the day when you told me You fell out of our love for no other reason thanIt just happened.   You told me you no longer cared, you told me you didn’t want to know another thing about me, and what was left of us was a shipwreck of a bittersweet memory. It’s been almost a year or so too, from when I told myself that I am still meant for you for no other reason thanI just do.   I thought I no longer cared, I thought I didn’t want you and everything about you. What was left of me walked away with You. But We lost contact, and I think you met someone else. I have no idea who he is or where he takes you or how much he cares about you. I just hope what he has is more; more than what I could have given you, more than what I could have sacrificed for you, More than… Just more than I do. But I Lied, ‘cause everything still reminds me of you. You are gone with the wind but the wind still pushes me towards you. And I hope That He doesn’t exist like the space between me and you. I met someone else, too. She isn’t anything like you, but the way she cares is also true. I hope you’re happy, ‘Cause right now, that’s also what i’m trying to be. Even if it isn’t you, even if it isn’t me, even if it isn’t you with me. And if One day You wake up and realize that it is still I that you wish for; who holds you at night, and gives life to the waking dream Tell me because feelings like this can kill you. Like what you did to me when you asked meWho are you? And I swear, my love broke into fragments when I asked you,Who are you? But what was I to do? But what was I to do?

J.C. & D.C., Loss (via elysiancypher)

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

My hands tremble as I overdose myself with a cup of coffee full of memories about you.

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

*Me reading a Christian Book*

Stranger: So you're a Christian?

Me: No sir, I'm a Catholic.

Stranger: Then why are you reading a Christian book?

Me: There is nothing written in the book that it is only limited to Christians.

Stranger: Nothing's written in the book that it is universal.

Me: Oh, well let me just say it this way. Imagine a situation where a couple just finished having sex, her boyfriend left the room and moments after he came back with his cousins and forced her, gang raped her. Now they're in the court and one of the boyfriend's cousin told the judge "Well nothing says she is only limited to her boyfriend.", did you know what the judge said?

Stranger: What?

Me: That doesn't mean she's universal.

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

That moment when you finally became punctual, but the people around you decided to be late anyway. :/

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

One of my many confessions to myself.

-Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

I am afraid to be a failure and put to waste what my forefathers fought for so I could have the privilege of breathing a much better air than before

Mademoiselle J

[theanonymousmademoiselle]

About to see the Pope tomorrow along with millions of people. I hope he could receive my personal letter that I just finished writing..