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[the-sketched-squad]

I feel like I [Jude] was the host a really long time ago and just went dormant for years.

Tree is our main/host and I think fern/Fred wants to be a host and I’m just happy to watch and front from time to time

I think Tree was forced to take over and I do kinda feel bad about that… zer not doing so well rn

I should probably talk to Charlie about this he manages roles and such

[- 🍭]

[the-sketched-squad]

Pushing my visibility agenda again. There’s a physical plural symbol that anybody can wear, and I’ve seen it in two formats. We wear ours as a ring; it goes on the nondominant hand’s index finger, any flavor of multicolor but preferably opalescent. Ours is always abalone, easy to get and cheap to replace when we inevitably loose it (memory barriers will do that). The other option is string or beads in the plural ring colors, starting from green and going clockwise (green, yellow, red, blue), and I usually see that as a bracelet or keychain. If you(&)’re any shade of open about being plural (or want to try!) it’s very discrete and has never cost us more than $5.

Please? I want to meet more systems without gazing into their souls for movement, accessories are so much less invasive.

[the-sketched-squad]

ooOo we might try something like this

We currently have no inner world and [we think] it would be really hard to make one as we have aphantasia [we can’t see stuff in our head basically] but we might try anyway

Oh also like other aphantasia systems you should definitely talk to me about your experiences /gen /silly /not forcing

[bee + Jude]

It is okay and normal if you have to invent or decide things about your headspace/innerworld. Building your innerworld isn't less meaningful than inherently having one. It's normal to NOT have an innerworld at all for that matter!

We've had problems with getting "deeper" into our innerworld, so we invented what is essentially a grounding technique for specifically our innerworld. It's just an object, a simple white orb we call the Tether. We just hold it and focus on the sensory experience - you could give any object any qualities you like really. Ours is like glass, smooth and cool to the touch. Holding it gives us something to focus on while also keeping us grounded to our inner selves rather than "stuck" in the front. It works best if we're in a more meditative state, so our attention isn't divided between front and innerworld experiences. Front always takes priority it seems.

This strategy has allowed us access to innerworld areas we were not able to get to before! System hall pass. Sometimes inventing new rules tricks the brain into following them. You can make shit up!

[the-sketched-squad]

i never asked to be plural, but i wouldnt change it for the world.

i cant imagine a better group of people to share my life with.

-(pilot)

[the-sketched-squad]

How it feels being pro endo on TikTok

[the-sketched-squad]

In-system relationships can be so intimate.

Waking up together, opening the same eyes, and stretching the same limbs. Yawning in time and saying a good morning that only you who are involved can understand what it's for.

Sharing a meal, not only from the same plate, but with the same hands and the same senses. Deciding what to eat together, something that fits all of your tastes.

Curled in the same bed, in the same blankets, in the same body, drowzily mumbling about nothing and everything to each other. Joking around and feeling their sleepy laugh as if it were your own.

Living life, and inviting them to share yours and your time in it--performing your daily tasks in the unison of cofront. Seeing and hearing and feeling everything together.

Feeling them blush when you flirt or compliment them. Feeling their joy when you get them a gift, or how safe you make them feel simply when you're around them.

Enveloped in the same love, from the same brain, with the same feeling of care for each other palpable between you. Feeling the emotions you feel yourself, coming from the other person. Feeling their love for you, in the rawest, most direct possible way.

[the-sketched-squad]

Cuz having them all in our intro is kind of cluttered isn’t it

Should we make headmate intros?

Could be fun I suppose

I like that kind of stuff

- Fern/Fred

[the-sketched-squad]

Should we make headmate intros?

Could be fun I suppose

I like that kind of stuff

- Fern/Fred

[the-sketched-squad]

I feel like I’m drowning in labels

Like it’s all fake and just a mask I’ve carefully curated over years

I know that’s bullshit but sometimes when the system is quiet I can’t help but sink further

And sometimes it feels like I’m not doing enough despite having straight A’s and excelling in my sports and instrument

I may sound ungrateful but I literally don’t give a fuck

Heh bye guys, love ya stay safe

[the-sketched-squad]

Some old man just left an ask in my box that was not exactly appropriate to ask a minor…

I blocked/reported him and I suggest you do the same

[his url is: kentwilsonforloyalbabies]

I have it on all of our intro posts that we are a minor and he ignored it, be cautious and stay safe out there

[I didn’t put the @ sign because even tho he’s blocked on all accounts I didn’t want it to somehow alert him]

[the-sketched-squad]

not us forming a new head mate from ONE animation we saw on YouTube like 5 months ago

yea his name is citrus b o y [I have no excuse for this]

[- Tree]

[the-sketched-squad]

Maybe you don't remember your trauma, Maybe you're endogenic. You're still a system. You ARE evidence that you exist. The system community is your community.

[the-sketched-squad]

Hey yall

Soooo Charlie is “technically a persecutor” but doesn’t want to be referred to as such

Idk why I wanted to share this just thought it would be important to remind yall that if your alter doesn’t want to be called something DONT call them that :]

[— s a d Farmer]

[the-sketched-squad]

Fuckkkkk

I really hope we didn’t just mess up a relationship

[long ass story coming up]

Soooo tree was fronting and Charlie was in what we call the “forefront” [its like so if you think about the video game system analogy Charlie was guiding our hands instead of just talking to us or taking the controller]

Charlie gets mad easily and Tree holds grudges and can be very bitter about it

So when our partner was like not really acknowledging what we were saying and just being kind of dismissive [it felt like xe didn’t want us to talk] so then Charlie was like

“Xe hates you and doesn’t want you to talk anymore”

And similar stuff until tree just decided to be an ass and not acknowledge what xe was saying, just looking down and fidgeting with our bag.

Bee was getting a bit frustrated with Tree so she said,

“Xe’s gonna ask if your ok and your not gonna have a good answer, ALSO stop being rude it’s probably one of xer ruder alters who doesn’t like you as much and that’s ok, xe can’t control that”

Or smth along those lines right

So then ofc xe did ask us if we were ok and ofc we didn’t have an answer

Tree didn’t even try to hide the lie or make a convincing lie or literally anything that would’ve helped the situation

So then rightfully so I [Bee] was really mad at them [Tree and Charlie] cuz like the fuck were they doing???

Anyway bye yall

[— Bee]

[the-sketched-squad]

Me slowly blocking anti endos because I hate syscourse and it makes me so upset

And I don’t want to say anything I’ll regret

Because I’m like mature and shit

— Charlie

[the-sketched-squad]

ok so yk how I came out to my therapist as a system?

this is how we started this conversation:

"Soooo we're a system yk we got like multiple guys up there and uh stuff"

[girl what??? why would you say it like that /hj /silly]

- Bee

[the-sketched-squad]

Ahhhhhhh

We got to talk to our therapist

And it was awesome

Their new space is really great [kinda triggered JX /pos]

We told them we were a system and they were like really nice about it [as always] and talked to us about it and ahhhhhhh

I’m so glad we told them!!