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"I would notice if you switched!"

No. You wouldn't notice a person with DID switch unless you payed very close attention. DID is made to be covert, showing obvious and visible signs of switching can be dangerous for the system. Most alters/parts learn to mask and blend in to make it less obvious. Parts with very different personalities and mannerisms try their best to learn how act as the host for the systems safety.

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plural culture is some alters oversharing, while the others refuse to even share their names

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Grieving, grieving, constantly grieving. I mourn what could have been, what should have been, what will not be, what I cannot save.

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I hate songs that play in stores because two triggering ones play often and we cover our ears like little kids. It’s scary. I hate those songs.

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Being called by your name, not the host’s name, for the first time is like

You know?

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It’s interesting how there are at least 2 types of “I don’t remember that.”

1. Not remembering until the memory gets triggered/ you are confronted with evidence, and then you do remember.

2. Absolutely no evidence will bring back the memory. The memory does not exist anymore. That wasn’t me. Nope. Didn’t happen.

And then there’s “I have been told about this, and while I do not remember it, I know that it is factually correct. How do I know? I don’t know.”

I don’t even know what my point is, it’s just interesting to think about. Memories are weird, dissociation is weird. The way the highly traumatized young mind deals with memories is weird.

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

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Yo btw something can traumatise you and you have 0 idea it did, like 100% not know, not be aware. You can think it's a funny memory, joke about it, feel no negative emotions about it, get no negative symptoms when interacting with the subject/things again, and you could still have been traumatised by the thing. Disassociation is crazy dude.

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Passive alter influence is like.... I wanna go home. I'm yearning. I'm taken. I'm literally asexual. I wanna go to bed. If I even try to go to sleep I'll cry. I miss my friends. I hate you. No I don't. Where's our parents. I hate my parents. I'm yearning again.

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coworkers under 35 love me for my cowboy bebop jacket, coworkers over 35 love me for my cd player, management loves me for my mental illness-fueled punctuality. everyone feels vaguely wary of me for my overall poor impression of acting like a human

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The Woman Destroyed; The Monolgue, Simone de Beauvoir

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[Text: This system is constantly afraid everyone is going to leave them.]

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realizing youre Real is .weird,,

like you can exist for Years??? never noticing??? never thinking about Yourself. assuming you are the host, or assuming you are another alter.

it is WEIRD to sit there with your morning coffee, having a conversation, and just suddenly the stars align . and you realize how different you are from "you" . you realize you werent "you", you were actually YOU the whole time.

I KNOW THIS DOESNT MAKE SENSE BUT I HOPE SOMEONE GETS IT

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I don’t know about anyone else, but for us final fusion is hard to think about because who will be the one to take host? I share front most days with two others, I am nearly always there but others take over at times. Does this mean I’m host? I know the old host would want us to all be one and fuse but with her life wasn’t balanced and now that we took over things are finally okay, we have a schedule and are stable. So so stable. So it scares me so much to think of her coming back from the depths to take over and ruin it all. I love her, I adore her, but she tends to ruin things for us. She also makes us so nauseous and sick when she’s up front/near front and that’s such a bad experience for us and even the littles. I don’t know what to do. I think functional multiplicity makes most sense, but if she ever comes back and shoves us from front what will she do? So many ifs. So many buts.

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One of the most validating things you can do as a system is try to act like one of your alters, you will very quickly realize you can’t, because it’s just not you. So whenever you need a validation boost, turn on a camera so you can look back on it, and then pick one of your alters and pretend to be them for a few minutes. It’ll look stiff and awkward and not quite right. Because it’s not them.

This tip has been from Apollo. Goodnight people’s

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Everybody has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person they once were.