#zouis makes my heart hurt

[sarcastic-sue]

do NOT make me think about zouis and agar tum saath ho i will cry 😭

Pal bhar thehar jaao

Dil ye sambhal jaaye

Kaise tumhe roka karu

Meri taraf aata har gam phisal jaaye

Aakhon mein tumko bharu

Bin bole baatein tumse karu

Agar tum saath ho

Agar tum saath ho

Behti rehti nahar, nadiya si

Teri duniya mein

Meri duniya hai teri chahton mein

Main dhal jaati hu teri adaton mein

Agar tum saath ho

Teri nazron mein hain tere sapne

Tere sapno mein hain naraazi

Mujhe lagta hai ke baatein dil ki

Hoti lafzon ki dhokhe-baazi

Tum saath ho ya na ho, kya fark hai?

Bedard thi zindagi, bedard hai

Agar tum saath ho

Agar tum saath ho

Palkein jhapkte hi din ye nikal jaaye

Baithi baithi bhagi phiru

Meri taraf aata har gam phisal jaaye

Aakhon mein tumko bharu

Bin bole baaten tumse karu

Agar tum saath ho

Teri nazron mein hain tеre sapne

Tere sapno mein hain naraazi

Mujhe lagta hai ke baatein dil ki

Hoti lafzon ki dhokhe-baazi

Tum saath ho ya na ho, kya fark hai?

Bedard thi zindagi, bedard hai

Agar tum saath ho

Dil ye sambhal jaaye

Agar tum saath ho

Har gham fisal jaaye

Agar tum saath ho

Din ye nikal jaaye

Agar tum saath ho

Har gham fisal jaaye

Agar tum saath ho feat. Zouis to make @finexbright cry

[fireprooflp]

I created this blog as a separate space just for Liam (and by extension - ziam, lilo, zouiam, etc.). It’s been so long since I was active on Tumblr and looking back on the good times is bittersweet. One moment, I’ll be reminiscing and laughing at old posts, and the next, I just wanna cry as reality hits me again and again that Liam is gone and we will never see his smile again. I can’t believe it’s already been three months. It’s beyond heartbreaking.

(I haven’t put these feelings into words until now because it’s been difficult for me. I also lost my cat shortly after Liam, so my grief has been doubled and has made the end of 2024 so much harder.)

Seeing the other members’ updates, zouis reconciling, and talks of a ‘reunion’ at the brits gives me an ache in my chest tbh. Like I know I should be happy for the boys, but it just hurts when I think about Liam and how he should still be here. How he should also have his chance to reconcile with the others. How he should also be making music, singing, touring, and joining a possible reunion. How he should’ve also been given a chance to heal.

And what makes all this hurt even more is we know none of this would even be happening if Liam were still alive. I can’t help but be upset that this didn’t happen sooner. Why now, when it’s too late?? Why didn’t anyone say anything while he was still here with us?? I don’t know if I’ll ever get over how unfair everything has been for Liam, and I’ve seen his mistreatment unfold for more than 10 years. It didn’t just start recently.

I’m sorry if this makes me sound bitter, but I really really hope the boys don’t do anything at the brits. There should definitely be a tribute, but having the boys there will take all the attention away from Liam again (just like what happened at his funeral). I don’t know how I’m going to feel about the other boys moving forward if this actually happens. This fandom doesn’t deserve it, and I can’t bear to watch more Liam erasure and the way people are already rewriting history as if he never mattered. One Direction died with Liam. There is no One Direction anymore. Liam was, and always will be, the heart of the band. Without him, One Direction wouldn’t have even existed.

I don’t know if it’ll ever stop hurting. He deserved so much more. He deserved for all the kindness and joy he gave to the world to be returned to him tenfold.

[persephoneflouwers]

I appreciate you being here! It feels like a hug from across miles 🫂, if that makes sense. You’re answering anons with exactly how I feel. I’m stuck too and no one understands in my life outside of my social media inner circle. Some of them weren’t Liam fans either so it does feel like I’m alone here with this heavy weight. Hurts when I see people lose their empathy and go immediately back to being bullies, even towards him after his death.

Your words about Louis being strong is what I needed to read as a comfort because I automatically thought of him 1st out of the boys. So much loss, always wearing his heart on his sleeve, genuine care he has for people. I wondered too if the support he has will be enough and how much he can take. But you’re right, he is a different person and he does have the 1/2 full outlook. I definitely want him off of social media, especially Twitter. And I hope paps stay far away from the funeral. I feel so much sorrow for his family!

My 2nd thought of the boys after Louis was Zayn. The regret he eluded to in his statement was heartbreaking. I hope more than anything that those 2 boys put whatever differences they have behind them so they never have to experience that feeling. I’m calling them boys when they’re older than me lol. But it just seems fitting when referring to them sometimes. Anyways, life is too short to hold onto something from years ago. If there is even a glimmer of hope that comes from all of this I’m highly optimistic that it’s zouis mending their very special friendship after all of these years.

Again, thank you for being here!

Yeah, I think we’re all navigating our way through this like we can. It’s hard to be an empath in these circumstances because relating to the sorrow others experience only adds up to the personal one.

Today, it was a very tough day for me. I hope you’re holding up well and being easy on yourself. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me ❤️‍🩹

[larry-hiatus]

When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass it on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love! 💓

Okay I have had this message from three people just sitting in my inbox for a while, and I’m finally getting around to answering lol. Here are five fics I have written that I love!

He Said, “You’re Such a Crybaby”

This one is pure BDSM filth based on three different prompts all rolled into one nice package. Sub Harry, Dom Louis, crying kink, just *chef’s kiss* I loved writing it and making the edit for the moodboard!

Even If It’s Only for Tonight

More BDSM - Dom Louis invites Dom Zayn to come play with Sub Harry. It’s a lot of Zayn being in shock that he’s actually in this situation, some banter between him and Louis, Harry being a good little sub, and he calls Louis Daddy. I also included an email Louis wrote for Zayn about the rules before they fooled around, which was fun to put together. The sentiment was basically, “If you hurt Harry, I will end you” lmao. I’m working on a Zouis sequel for this fic at the moment!

I Roll ‘til I Change My Luck

One of my few non smut fics. It holds a special place in my heart because it features disabled Louis who uses a wheelchair and a service dog, like me. I wanted to use this fic to educate people about service dogs, so I really loved writing it. Harry is his best friend who handles Louis’ disability and mobility equipment really well, and Louis starts to see romantic potential in their friendship.

Feel the Heat Through Your Phone

I love this one. It’s ABO featuring desperate omega Harry who suddenly goes into heat while his alpha Louis is away. It’s from Louis’ POV, and he has to help Harry through it, but it’s difficult for both of them. The summary sounds so boring omg lol. But who doesn’t love a FaceTime jerk off fic?

Fringe & Flogging

My most recently posted fic, and I just love it (as well as the first part, Leather Over Lace). It’s canon compliant based on the night Harry wore the pink and blue fringe jacket. It’s got BDSM, daddy kink, nipple torture, harsh Louis. It’s a doozy, and it legitimate made me embarrassed at first because of how filthy it is, which never happens to me 😂

There you have it, five fics I wrote that I love. Thanks for the ask! And thanks to @beelou and @nooradeservedbetter for sending me the same one ❤️

[goldenskinlouiee]

All i want in life is for zouis to make up, and profess their love and forgiveness through song, gary barlow and robbie williams style

[so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed]

Listening to FitF in a hotel room in Spain while on a workation with my boss. Have some thoughts:

The Greatest: good vibes. I wish Spotify showed lyrics so I could read along. Has me tapping my feet. Life for us is never over line at the end of the chorus hits different. Is gonna be great live

Written All Over Your Face: immediate pop punk vibes. Already I'm like yes, but also, this album better have some damn painful songs too or I'll riot. Love the little bit in the middle where the line keeps going down in pitch

Bigger Than Me: after the other songs I've heard so far, don't know why this was chosen as the lead single. It's good, but it has less oompf. Was likely chosen bc it's less of a change from Walls than the rest. So i lied, i do know. It's good but like. The feel of fries at a buffet. A solid, safe choice but not the most exciting thing

Lucky Again: i see how hard you've worked to be yourself -- harry anyone. Also, isn't this one of the songs that leaked?? That people said wasn't on the album? But i figured it out and i made my way back to a life i would choose 💯 I feel this needs to be louder than it is to get the attention it deserves

Face The Music: start reminds me of another song. I need lyrics because i need to pay attention. I don't wanna face the music but i still wanna dance with you is so 🥹 love his inflection on dance. So far, Louis has yet to rip my heart out but he makes me want to dance and sing along at a show

Chicago: this feels very Zouis to me. Also how do I send just because it didn't work doesn't mean it's meaningless to me to my ex without sending it to my ex?

All This Time: love the softness in his voice in this. Dreamy ethereal vibes. Sometimes i lose my home --- cries in larry. The me in first verse vs you in second verse, because they're the same, love that. Sometimes i lose your home -- cries in larry some more. The friends we make the love we take it's worth the pain, it's worth it all this time, yes. Love.

Out Of My System: fuck this song for not being longer. Makes me want to headbang and jump around even when i know my body will NOT let me. This song needs to not be played on my phone in a hotel room where I'm mindful of volume. I want to go feral.

Headline: wistful, very, i am sad this ended but i know it's not my fault. Mature. Guess i never thought we'd have the shortest forever -- gorgeous line

Saturdays: i heard this song was gonna hurt? I can tell it will from the first line. Hello Louis i love you. The trainers line is amazing. This gives a bit of change(s) 2.0 vibes? A shadow of you sticks me to the carpet is such vivid imagery. His voice in this is sooo good. My heart might be broken but i won't be broken down hurts even reading it on azlyrics, i am not emotionally ready to hear it but i love suffering. Did not expect the beat to drop but it fits so well. Definitely a song to cry to while you're dancing. Somehow the my heart might be broken line sounds so fucking comforting. The last pain is amazing

Silver Tongues: this is like. Yes. Feral 2.0 i am gonna scream. Love is loud. This is what being in love is like on the best days. Vibrant. Sunshine. The high notes in this song are like impressively high and I'm so happy he has the confidence to write them into his songs.

She Is Beauty, We Are Worldclass: this sounds like the feeling of being high. Gives me are we human or are we dancer vibes? Existential questions you have when you're so drunk or high you can't feel your fingertips and everything is hazy. Surrounded by lights sounds like surrounded by lies and I feel that is intentional

Common People: the theme of I'm just like you, you're just a copy of a copy of a copy.. there are thoughts happening but i am not eloquent enough to put them into words. Song doesn't grab me by the balls the way others have. It's just sort of like gentle waves lapping at the shore. Nice but forgettable at first listen

Angels Fly: you'll be okay we can talk tomorrow, I'm on my way with some time to borrow. I feel so safe with him. I want to be his friend. Idk how he came up with the angels fly lyric and i don't think i get what he means but i understand it nonetheless. It's less forgettable than Common People at first listen but definitely a song I need to listen to more to get into it -- oh wait nevermind the bridge just hit yes thanks this song needed that desperately. This will sound great live. I definitely understand what he meant when he said he wrote this album for tour

Holding On To Heartache: i called you twice but then regretted it, that's a mood. The question of where it all went wrong. Yes. But also I need this song to give me more? It's mellowed pain? I need it to cut me to my core. Ah yes, thanks for bringing it on the bridge. To be honest I'm not easy on myself -- this is the pain I wanted. The last love deserves a grammy

That's The Way Love Goes: his voice has grown so much. Somehow the album is so much softer than I expected? So many of these mellow or quieter songs. Louis has this gift of making me love a song because of one specific inflection on a word. This song builds beautifully and is going to work well in a tour, with everyone singing, imagining it now gives me goosebumps. I want to listen to this with friends, hugging them and swaying.

[allwaswell16]

{Recently Read 1D Fics}

June 2021

These are all the One Direction fics I read and enjoyed in June. There are 14 recs here in all and are in order by word count and organized by pairing. You can also listen to my podcast to hear me talk about each of these fics as well as an overview of what was posted on ao3 in June including the fics on this month’s fic roundup which you can find here! Please let the writers know if you liked the fics by leaving kudos and comments! Happy reading!

Fanfictional Podcast #26 | ko-fi | fic recs

💙-Larry-💙

This Multiplicity of Powers by @helloamhere

(E, 149k, X-Men au, superheros, superpowers, mutants, angst, hurt/comfort, canon typical violence, healing, courage, slow burn, teacher Louis, politics, found family, so epic! I love X-Men so this blew my mind!)

forever is in your eyes by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed​​ / we_are_the_same

(M, 125k, fantasy au, mythology, sculptor Louis, statue Harry, magic, travel, oracles, strangers to lovers, emotional hurt/comfort, character development, Louis pov, pining, moral dilemmas, fluff, no smut, I’m so in love with these characters and Louis has my whole entire heart)

The Murmur of Yearning by @mediawhorefics / MediaWhore

(E, 93k, widow au, historical au, aristocracy, Marquess Harry, land steward Louis, trauma, rumors, minor character death, anger, falling in love, implied smut, check tags!, this was such a satisfying read which will make sense if you read it so go do that!)

It's Been So Long by @elsi-bee​ / elsi_bee

(T, 31k, friends to lovers au, physical therapist Harry, teacher Louis, Denver, flashbacks to high school, Louis friends with Gemma, nicknames, crush, pining, implied smut, this fic made me giddy! I loved it and it’s the closest a fic has ever come to my real life haha)

Blind Faith by @2tiedships2​

(M, 18k, a/b/o, alpha Harry, omega Louis, soulmates, blind Harry, library, NYC, strangers to lovers, fluff, loved how Louis took charge!)

sometimes a fantasy by @thepolourryexpress​

(E, 18k, roommates au, friends to lovers, uni, fwb, humor, mild dub con, oblivious Louis, body worship, bl, Louis is an oblivious walnut which is always fun and also he owes Zayn some money lol)

baby baby, you're a caramel macchiato by @missandrogyny​​  

(T, 3k, coffee shop au, strangers to lovers, flirting, banter, barista Harry, customer Louis, love at first sight, embarrassing Harry, fluff, so lovely and cute and I love Harry drooling all over himself and being embarrassing!)

When the dust settles (Will we be alright?) by @mercurial-madhouse​/ mercurial-madhouse (writing_practice)

(M, 3k, a/b/o, alpha Harry, omega Louis, newly presented Louis, dystopia au, pining Harry, sexual tension, touch starved, touch deprivation, no smut, open ending or possibly a wip? I hope so because this was so intense and so incredibly cool)

making my way downtown by @disgruntledkittenface

(M, 2k, meet cute, texting, dramatic Harry, nervous Harry, American au, masturbation, happy ending, I squeed for real over this and just loved it!)

evergreen, evermore by @hershelsue​ / docklands

(G, 2k, friends to lovers au, childhood friends, historical, 1979, birthday, moving, angst, kiss, oof this hurts so much and while there isn’t a happy ending it’s clear they won’t forget each other)

best hangover cure by @loulovehome

(E, 1k, hangover au, one night stand/hook up, morning after, humor, masturbation, angry pet names, this was smutty but sweet too!)

💙-Grouis-💙

On-Call by @reminiscingintherain

(M, 1.5k, Louis/Greg James, established relationship au, doctor Louis, doctor Greg, hospital, phone sex, masturbation, hot and sweet)

💙-Multiple Pairings-💙

1D Drabble Challenge / @larrydrabble​  

(Variety of ratings & pairings, all 100 words each, I read them all and they were INCREDIBLE, these are must reads!)

💙-Ziam-💙

Behind those Fire Eyes by @louandhazaf / YesIsAWorld

(E, 2k, Zayn/Liam, exes, memories, masturbation, music, thirst traps, Instagram, oh lord this was hot and the writing is gorgeous)

💙-Zouis-💙

New York Kiss by @quelsentiment​ / wordsnnotes

(M, 47k, Zayn/Louis, strangers to lovers au, famous/not famous, actor Louis, writer Zayn, NYC, character injury, hospital, meet cute, rap, music, arguments, covid, lockdown, Zayn pov, implied smut, amazing characters and an amazing fic)

[thedevilinmybrain]

Jenn, the only reason I’m having a zouis breakdown on main was to make you sad so I can kiss it better.

It's going to take a lot of kisses. Zouis hurts a certain place in my heart.

[alltheselights]

I love Zayn. I always will. I actually enjoy his solo music second most out of the 1D boys, Louis’ music is my favourite. I loved Zouis. I thought their friendship was beautiful and genuine and their fight and estrangement broke my heart. I think Zayn was a great support to Louis during 1D and that Louis was the best at making sure Zayn spoke in interviews and felt supported. He was always so proud of the boys and he showed that all the time when they were performing. Louis did help bring Zayn out of his shell. The racism Zayn faced and his trauma within 1D is also incredibly sad and proves just how much the industry needs to improve. It seems to continue to affect Zayn to this day. All the boys in 1D obviously went through difficult circumstances and traumas and that’s partly why I will always hope for the best for them, even distantly as it is with some. So I will always have love in my heart for Zayn and hope his music gets out there because he is tremendously talented. But. Sigh. I know Louis doesn’t do this with reciprocation in mind and so I hate that it does annoy me that Zayn won’t. They might honestly talk in private, which would probably be something they might both prefer due to their private natures, but I will say this. In the public fight, Louis didn’t actually address Zayn. He addressed Naughty Boy, who Zayn later publicly criticised so really didn’t that prove Louis’ concerns about him? Anyway, Zayn responded back to Louis but Louis himself didn’t fight back at Zayn publicly over that. Obviously we don’t know what was said privately. They seemed to maybe make up at some point and Zayn was supposed to join Louis and the other boys at Louis’ X-Factor performance following Jay’s passing. We know he didn’t show. Some things could maybe indicate they eventually spoke after that but things clearly didn’t work out as Louis last said in 2019 I think that they both weren’t mature enough for that conversation. My point is, Louis has really not criticised Zayn. He puts the fault on both of them, which is mature. Louis can’t understand the racism Zayn faced and I don’t think Zayn can understand the closeting Louis faced or how the way he fought for the boys helped to hurt him professionally. We know that Louis stood up for the boys throughout 1D and was labelled difficult for it. Savan Kotecha openly thought Louis was annoying for wanting them to have more creative control and might have eventually admitted Louis was right for that, but it didn’t change that people think Louis is rude and loud and annoying. They always forget the kindness of Louis, even some larries it feels like. What drove Louis to stick up for the boys was love. So much of Louis is driven by love, whether that’s love for people or love for music. So Zayn’s fans hate on Louis, more than they seem to hate on the other 1D boys, and I never understand that. Zrries are some of the worst even though Harry publicly shaded Zayn a few times. We’ve said it before but I just wish people would show Louis the support he shows others. Louis is good and kind and talented and loving and I wish he had more public support.

It also frustrated me that Zayn isn’t reciprocating, but I will say that it bothers me a little less with him than it does with like Niall or Harry, for example, because at least Zayn isn’t praising ANY of them and Louis also hasn’t spent time praising him. Whereas with teh other boys, it feels a lot like Louis has spent time supporting and praising their careers while they don’t do the same to him, even if they do it for others like Niall’s been doing with Harry. Louis does have way too big of a heart though and I wish the people that he shows so much love and support for would do the same. Even just a follow on Instagram from Zayn and Harry is the bare minimum but would at least be something.

[insomniziam]

Okay I'm ready. I'm the anon from yesterday who lost a whole ass rant. I'm ready to do it again(I'm typing this is the notes app first!!)

So I follow quite few Larry blogs that I love and respect cause they never give any shit about the stunts and defend Harry and louis so fiercely. I really like them for that. But lately they've been getting anon asks about ziam and idk why would people do that?? Like we'd make it very clear if we are ziams. Super crystal clear cause there are few of us(compared to the whole of directioner fandom). Honestly these blogs replied quite civilly like "I don't have any opinion about ziam cause I don't follow them closely" and such which is mature and good. But sometimes after numerous asks things do get heated and they let slip a sentence or two that really hurts. Like someone said the name ziammies is a fucking joke and I know we don't like it either and we'd prefer ziams. But it is so much more different when someone who doesn't believe zayn and Liam say that. And someone else listed all the things that make people believe in Larry and told that for ziam they only know about Zayn posting a selfie with a filter and both of them going blonde after a breakup(?)

It hurts my heart cause there's so much more than that. The casual soft reverent touches. Sharing orange eye ring that Zayn recreated in his like I would mv. Wearing brands that are associated with each other. Zayn fucking tatooing Liam's single cover waaaay before it got announced. Zayn literally having Liam's name and face tatooed on him. The almost kisses. The definite kiss on that dark stage that louis had to transform into on-the-spot cuddle. Eyebrow slits even after all these years. Family's support of the other boys. How they almost let it slip that they got a dog together in 1D day. One missing feather in zayns wing that is conveniently tattooed in Liam's arm with the words I figured it out curling around it. Which are the words to the song you & i which is point blank ziam anthem. It was the only song confirmed by Liam to be played before he let other 1D songs to be chosen by fans to be played at his online gig.

I don't need anyone to validate the "realness" of ziam. They are screaming enough. I'm hearing enough. But I can't tell all these to those blogs cause that bridge is burned and any talk about ziam is soured.

And I can't help but notice this. This is not comparing. I'm a larrie and a ziam. More people recognise Louis' babygate cause it happened with a nobody and people were screaming about his closet. Zayn's happened with a well known model who has a fanbase of her own so she can get away with not showing the baby's face(she "accidentally" revealed it anyway). Jungle family has only he-looks-like-louis-card so they overuse it. Posting baby's pics with ads? Check on both sides. Family members using the baby to promote their life? Check on both sides. Supposed baby mamas posting pics of the baby which gets far more likes than their regular posts? Check on both sides. Zayn likes louis' father announcement post(he rarely likes the boys' pics) and 4 years later louis goes out of his way to like zayns father announcement pic when zouis has never interacted once in those 4 years and there's beef between them?? And that's normal? That's not louis hinting at something amiss with the baby?? That's not enough proof to know that this is babygate 3.0? Liam's is more of a backburner babygate but it's still there. Like he has a baby with reclusive Cheryl and conveniently has one shit Polaroid pic and then bam. She just posts the baby's voice and stuff and that's done?? The common thing btw Liam and Zayn is that they know shit about babies. Liam telling his son can talk good when he was one??? Zayn telling it's really easy to be with a newborn baby?? Sure Jan. This irks me really. Anyway this is my loong looooong rant and I hope this finds you safe :)

Again, I'm so sorry this took me so long to respond to!

I share all of your frustrations, but you can't help people that don't want it, unfortunately, but at least then it's no longer your problem!

Just know that you're not crazy for holding differing beliefs, and you have a legitimate reason to do so. You'll learn that there's no point in having these discussions with people who don't want to listen, and save your time for things you actually love to do!

Again, so sorry this took me so long, I hope you're safe as well! Feel free to come back at anytime 😘

[twopoppies]

Deux Fantômes by ohpleaselarry (E, 16K) So, let me start by saying I cried through ¾ of this. I promise they’re together in the end, but it’s heavy and very moving. Please read the tags as there are some triggering things, but it’s also so sweet and gentle and really well written. 

Hats Off To My Distant Hope  by orphan_account (E, 21K) This was such a pleasure to read. The writing feels so effortless as the fic explores the deep emotions of these two characters. They’re stubborn and inarticulate and gentle and passionate and finally, finally open up to each other. I really wish I knew who wrote it because I’d love to read more of their work.

of the divine by devilinmybrain / @thedevilinmybrain (Mixed ratings, 2-part series, 104K) Oh my god. This series. I cried buckets. It’s so beautifully written. The sex scenes are so tender and sexy, but in such a pure way. Their relationship is so good… you can totally feel how much they love each other, the climactic scene OH MY GOD so intense. It’s also got great zouis friendship and a very sweet narry friendship. Tender punk Louis and guardian angel Harry. Read it.

My husband (29/M) died and has been possessed by a demon and now he’s cooking eggs in my kitchen as if nothing happened, what do I do? by adoreloux / @liamloveslarry​ (M, 4K) I’ve only recently found this author, but I love their fics. They’re definitely unique, just a bit quirky, and so well written. This one made me cry (I mean, Harry is dead. Sort of).

an entire desert in our hourglass by tofiveohfive / @sunflowrsix (E, 20K) I told the author yesterday that I really appreciated the pain they wove into this story because they did such a good job making the emotions relatable –– even with a pre-apocalyptic setting –– so the feeling cut even deeper. Such a good read. And even though the tags said there was a happy ending (which there is), I still cried buckets.

every universe but ours by @28finelines​ (E, 50K) How this fic doesn’t even have 3K hits is beyond me. It’s so touching and funny and sexy and I read it all in one go––thankfully just before I published this post! Please go read it because it’s like reading multiple Larry fics in one, each one with that “I would find you in any lifetime” vibe. 

do you know me by heart by HappyPrincess / @pattern-pals (E, 7K) Ok, not the longest fic, but man is it angsty. These are complex characters with complex emotions and behaviors. There’s a second part being written, but the author says not to expect any fluff. LOL)! The writing here is visceral and raw and real. Such a good read. And if you like this one, there’s a 10K second part that’s great, as well. 

Emperor's New Clothes by sunsetmog (E, 92K) I read this one years ago and while I always enjoy this author’s writing, I don’t recall a ton of details except that the deterioration of Louis’ mental state really made me cry. But don’t worry, there’s a happy ending!

But I’m Weak by @afangirlfantasy (NR, 2K) This was gorgeous. And SO sad. And I would read 50K of this if I was a masochist. 2K is about all I can handle of this level of angst, but boy was it beautifully written

taking tips and getting stoned by alison (M, 24K) Somewhat OOC slightly older Larry. I really enjoyed the change of pace and the theme of feeling as though life has passed you by, but second chances being possible.

like a timebomb ticking by @infinitelymint (E, 32K) Read the tags on this one because it was written prior to the personal tragedies that have happened IRL to Louis. But if you can handle that, this is a really well written exes to lovers fic with a whole lot of angst and hurt/comfort.

Who Painted The Moon Black by throughthedark (E, 96K) This is the Hunger Games AU. It’s super intense, there’s a lot of dark themes (the E is not for smut, let’s put it that way), but there’s a happy ending. SO well written.

a prayer for which no words exist by Eliane (M, 34K) Gorgeous, deep, layered writing that really makes you slow down and think. At times this fic felt like a metaphor for the war these boys had been through IRL. Normally a dystopian fic with no smut would not be something I’d even bother reading, but I’m really glad I did.

things have gotten closer to the sun by starseas (M, 49K) Otherwise known as “the solar flare fic”. Let me tell you…I could only read this once. And it was written back when no one tagged anything but I can’t exactly say this has a happy ending. Kind of? It’s beautifully written and man did I cry. One of those fics that lingered a long time afterwards.

For You, I Will (I Don’t Believe In Magic, But) by weightofmywords (E, 17K) Really unique storyline and even with it being a bit OOC I really enjoyed it (and it made me cry).

Etched in Salt (is a cathedral of the world) by @helloamhere (E, 24K) Absolutely gorgeous writing. Made me teary. Such a clever story. You all know I love this author’s writing –– this time they give us a dark, American, thriller with a bit of psychic goodness. Bonus points for Harry taking care of Louis in a very deep way.

The End Should Be A Good One by bananasandboots (M, 43K) I really like the way this author writes the complexity of emotions that come with heartbreak and reconciliation in this one. It’s really moving and, oh what a surprise, it made me cry!

Don’t Let the Tide Come and Take Me by @kiwikero (M, 29K) This author always writes beautifully and does such a lovely job with their world building. This one draws you in and makes you feel deeply.

Tug-Of-War by cherrystreet (E, 63K) I read this one a while ago, so I can’t remember a lot of specifics, but this author is pretty much a sure bet. My notes on this one make me chuckle: “So touching. Tears. Great characterizations. Angst is heart breaking, but relatively brief. Smut is hot af”. Well, there you go!

And down the long and silent street by Whimsicule (M, 86K) Just brilliant writing and an incredible and original story. Tender, heartbreaking, and terrific world building – effortlessly transporting you into 19th century London.

like a bastard on the burning sea by vashtaneradas (NR, 22K) The OG heart breaker. If you can read this without crying, you have no soul.

Take My Breath Away by @realitybetterthanfiction (E, 154K) You will be so wrung out after reading this fic – this author puts you through it, but it’s SO worth it. Great banter, great side characters, action, smut…it has it all.

wishing you were them by momentofclarity / @gaycousinlarry (T, 20K) This is such a unique and beautiful way of writing alien Harry. I love the way this author somehow makes us deeply understand the indescribable feelings Louis is having thought this fic. It’s just a beautiful piece of writing. And…yes, I cried.

Constant Debauchery by Blake (E, 19K) I think this may actually be one of my favorite fics. I’m a sucker for the time period it’s set in and it reads like how a Merchant Ivory film looks (if that makes sense). Period homophobia (against Alpha/Alpha relationships) gives it a unique twist while hurting so good.

No One Does It Better by nodibs (E, 50K) Oh lord. Get your tissues and hang on tight. Such well-written heartbreak. Happy ending, but you have to suffer first.

a grocery list pinned in blue by dangerbears (NR, 20K) Beautifully, subtle, elegant writing. This one cut really close to the bone for me and it hurt. A lot. But I’d still read it again. It’s that good.  

Promise in the Sky by throwthemflowers / @hazzabeeforlou (E, 99K) A deeply personal, heart wrenching love story. Read the tags, but if you’re up for it, you’re in for something wonderful.

where your heart is by tvshowsaddict, ahncor / @anymerrylilthought This fic has been deleted, but you can download it (along with their other fics) here. I love this fic –– it’s poetic and deeply moving and layered and so sexy and ultimately, so satisfying. In between all that there’s plenty of angst because this author wouldn’t know how to write anything but. LOL!

The Road Less Travelled By by freetheankles / @anymerrylilthought (E, 98K) Also known as “the lumberjack fic”, this fic is an instant classic. The author makes widowed Louis’ pain and depression so real and so moving. The characters are three-dimensional and complex and the well written sexual tension is finally relieved with super hot smut. (The fic has unfortunately been deleted. Link is to a download)

Tainted Saints and Velvet Vices by toomanytears / @toomanydreamers (M, 127K) I don’t even like Harry Potter and I loved this fic. I thought the author did a great job with the character growth and the way they wrote the hate to love relationship.

bloodsport by @tofiveohfive  / @sunflowrsix​ (E, 40K) American football, exes to lovers, wonderfully written characterizations and, once again…made me cry.

For Reasons Wretched and Divine by @indiaalphawhiskey (E, 95K) A wonderfully satisfying story in two parts. This author gives us love and betrayal and in both halves and finally redemption and a happy ending. Beautiful writing, as always, from this author.

The Dead of July by whimsicule  (M, 117K) Even if you know nothing about MCU, this fic is a must read. Lots of angst, great writing, and what feels like very well-handled depiction of PTSD and everything else that comes along with kidnapping, torture, and amnesia. Good times. But there’s a happy ending and a 110K second part (with more angst and mental health struggles) that I haven’t read yet, but I’ve heard good reviews of!

For As Long As I Can Remember (It's Been December) by green_feelings / @greenfeelings​ (E, 128K) This author always delivers on the angst, so yes…I cried. I loved the sense of the inevitable with these two characters — as in real life, they’re just meant to be. But first they’ll go through hell.

deleted your number (so i can’t call you) by tofiveohfive / @sunflowrsix​ I think this author does such a great job with writing realistically about breakups and the emotions that are involved. Things aren’t just suddenly solved -- there’s still anger and hurt and a realization that better communication is needed. It’s just very refreshing to read. And of course, I cried.

the best part of me (was always you) by @moonshinelouis​ (E, 6K) This fic has some really gorgeous writing -- it was such a pleasure to read. The descriptions of heartbreak and missing someone and still loving them were so well done. And I cried, Of course.

Empty Skies by green_feelings / @greenfeelings​ (E, 13K) I just started re-reading this the other day and it holds up so well. This author is always a pleasure to read. Their fics just are well plotted and the characters are nicely fleshed out. I loved Perrie as Harry’s bestie, the bitterness and angst is PAINFUL, and the ending feels well earned.

My Lights Stay Up, But Your City Sleeps by PearlyDewdrops (E, 108K) Featuring lots of pining, really well done internal monologue from Louis, and excellent smut. It also has some really lovely writing that I felt captured the pain of mental illness/anxiety very well. 

The Woods are Lovely, Dark and Deep by @helloamhere (WIP, 4 part series so far, mixed ratings, 71K) Amazing world building, complex characters, beautiful writing, and so much angst! It’s still a WIP, but it’s so worth reading (and the author says they’re working on more so…fingers crossed)!

Stranger on the Shore by CellarDoor (T, 3K) Ok, let me start off by saying that this fic is SAD. Like, not just angsty sad, sad like MCD, not a happy ending sad. BUT, if you can handle that, this is just beautiful writing. Listen….I cry over everything, but I did read this. And I did love it. But, man….

everything suspended by louisandthealien (M, 9K) Oh god, this fic is SO so good. And it’s so angsty and so incredibly well written. I felt every bit of tension and emotion and was so wrung out by the end. But it’s also such a gorgeously crafted fic. I just love it. 

Here In The Afterglow by fondleeds (NR, 87K) This author just blows me away each time they share something. There’s such an incredible sense of being immersed in the world they create. This one is so moving and painful and, ultimately, joyous.

all my love was down on a frozen ground by navigator (E, 16K) This is an old one that I didn’t have bookmarked for some reason. But it’s a favorite and I love everything this author wrote. This is one of those quiet, soft fics with a bit of angst and a lot of internal monologue and gentle conversations. I don’t know, there’s something so touching about it.

Shake Me Down by AGreatPerhaps12 (NR, 209K) this fic will run you through the wringer, but it’s really a great read. I really like the way the author took the boys from enemies to friends to boyfriends, and how we got to see how protective and supportive Louis became towards Harry.

Fading by tothemoonmydear (M, 202K) Let me start by asking you to please tread carefully with this one. It’s a very well-written fic, but it deals very graphically with Louis’ character’s eating disorder. At the time it was written, some people felt it did not portray ED recovery accurately, so if the subject is at all triggering for you, please don’t read this one. If that’s not an issue for you, make sure you have tissues ready because I ugly cried through almost all of this. I read it years ago and loved it at the time, but it’s not one I could handle reading twice. (the fic has been deleted, so the link is to a download)

At Risk, I Fold by clare328 / @bearmustard (E, 15K) This was just beautiful and painful and tender. This was a tough read because the author did such a great job capturing this time period (2015 canon). It brought back so many personal memories, but also they really captured the sadness, guilt, and frustration in a way that felt very realistic. It was so painful to even get the tiniest glimpse into what it might have been like for Harry and Louis at that time.

an island without waves by tofiveohfive / @sunflowrsix (NR, 5K) This is one of my favorite authors for exes to lovers fics. They really do a terrific job of getting right in there with the painful self-realizations and struggle. This one is no exception. Plus, it references one of my favorite films and has one of my favorite tropes: a love confession in a rain storm.

Mine Would Be You by @crinkle-eyed-boo​ (E, 115K) Beautifully written, flawed characters and an emotionally engaging and ANGSTY plot. Super hot smut that made me cry like a fool. Banter, OT5 friendship, and the grittiness of New York as a backdrop. Loved this one.

we can only look behind by @hereforlou​ (M, 66K) Absolutely gorgeous writing. Childhood friends to lovers fic that made me cry multiple times (Yes, I was a mess). This one had such realistic expression of emotions and such three-dimensional characterizations. Just loved it. (This one has been deleted, so the link is to a download)

[yilinglaozu]

someone asked me to share my top 10 edits and moodboards this year, sorry this took a while, it got a bit out of hand but here goes!! also just fyi, I tried to keep this a bit zouis centric because I decided we need more zouis content in this fandom

anyway, I just know that I probably forgot some really amazing edits and I just wanna say I blame my shit tagging system for that and I appreciate you all so much, thank you for investing your time in creating things for this fandom, it wouldn’t be the same without all this love you keep pouring into it!

edits:

1. this halloween edit & this gif set by my favourite person on here miss @louistomlinboo thank you for everything this year!! <3

2. zouis and through the dark? sign me tf up and while we’re praising e, check out this little masterpiece of a zouis fic @quelsentiment 

3. one of my favourite copy edits to date as well as this louis edit that left me speechless by mridu @killmygoldenn

4. aesthetics for walls? op was combining all my interests right there @evermorery

5. gonna follow this up with an aesthetic post for fine line by @goldenkissy

6. scrapbook edits are my weakness and I wanna personally thank @dearniall for making this one as well as a tarot edit, you’re really out there blessing us helen 

7. gillian, love!! your lyric edits always leave me speechless, I love the simplicity and the way you catch movement and emotions in still images @heyangels

8. this incredible only the brave edit by @stormyhale

9. the talent that went into this zayn edit? @running-out-of-infinity

10. I’m a sucker for lyric edits and this one by @eyupdaisy just makes me feel things

11. debbie you play with my heart strings with this edit but I will let you because you also blessed me with this edit of zayn and this edit of louis @softlouve 

12. I couldn’t not mention this, look at this blessing of zayn in makeup by @angelharry 

moodboards:

1. zayn as flynn rider anyone? thank you for blessing us with this gillian @heyangels

2. pop punk louis and assertive zayn, need I say more? thank you for giving me these @thechampagnelovers

3. walls but make it desi by @stylinsuns had me gasping the first time I saw it

4. I said it so many times but this moodboard just lives in my head rent free, thank you for making this @badreputatiom

5. a golden louis mb? yes and thank you jess @blue-eyes-tattoos

6. this magical louis mb by @essercipertuttienonperse

art:

1. zouis as literal partners in crime and yorkshire boys by the talented @divorcedzouis

2. this zouis drawing by @louisjaan that kinda hurt my feelings so now you’ll have to see it as well 

3. the sheer talent that went into this drawing of zayn? thank you for sharing this with us @dddarkbrain

4. this incredible drawing by @thedudetomypal that combines tarot cards and louis, what else could I ask for

5. zouis kisspering to half a heart? yeah I’m hurt thank you maria @tomlinsno

6. this zouis drawing that simply left me speechless by @vulcains

7. this drawing by @falloutlouie but honestly I love this artists style so much it could’ve been any of her drawings

[friendofhayley]

In the midst of chaos, it’s healthy to sometimes soothe ourselves with fiction so thank you, fic writers, for providing us with a safe space. Anyway here’s a list of the best fics I read this month. This rec includes 18 fics from Game of Thrones, One Direction, Teen Wolf, and The Witcher fandoms. The starred ones are *special*

Sanrion (Game of Thrones)

1. A Change of Fate by TheTruffalo | time travel fix-it fic - slow burn - BAMF!Sansa - all the unexpected friendships - 119k+

What would happen if Sansa Stark travelled back in time to the beginning of Game of Thrones? How would she change the future? With her knowledge of the future, marriage to Tyrion Lannister, allegiances to the Targarian Dynasty and lets not forget her tutelage under the notorious Lord Baelish, what will she change? She is not a Little Bird this time, no, now she is a wolf. This time she will come out on top. The question is, who will she bring with her and who will be the collateral? It is all in the days work when playing the Game of Thrones; and she has learned from the best.

2. *The North Remembers* (series) by K_R_Closson, tasalmalin | BAMF!Sansa - the revenge tastes so sweet - time travel fix-it fic - more action than romance - 3 parts

When Sansa and Theon flee Winterfell, they encounter someone who can give Sansa a chance to start over. Sansa has to determine what she can change and what she has to accept to get a future she wants.

Larry (One Direction)

3. haunted by the ghost of you by @missandrogyny | real estate agent Louis - angst and fluff - memory loss - enemies to friends to lovers - 49k

“Hi,” the boy—the ghost—says to Louis. His face shifts; somehow his dimples dig deeper into his cheeks. His eyes flit from Louis, to Niall, to Liam, and finally to Zayn, and his face goes from shocked to elated. “I’m Harry.”

At in that exact moment, standing between three of his best friends and staring at a (quite handsome) ghost, Louis can only think one thing.

Nick Grimshaw was right.

4. I’ve Been Hoping You’d Be Somewhere Better Than This by @runaway-train-works | enemies to lovers - rough sex - unrequited love - Louis is such a bottom brat - 39k 

The one where Louis is up for a promotion, he just has one tiny, little problem standing in his way.

5. thinking about the t-shirt you sleep in by @absoloutenonsense | friends to lovers - heavy mutual pining - misunderstandings - fluff and angst - 52k

Harry’s alpha fraternity donates to a local thrift shop (because of Liam’s latent crush on a cute beta in his lecture). Louis’ financial situation (and confusing omega instincts) lead him to make some interesting fashion purchases. Lots of pizza, feelings, and not-really-lying.

6. *What’s It Gonna Be?* by @shesarealphony | GOD TIER FIC - based on this music video - there are lesbians!! - gay found family !! - 35k

Louis and Bebe, best friends since childhood, have crushes on two of the most popular kids in school, and in an attempt to increase their respective chances, Louis befriends Harry Styles, quarterback of the football team, while Bebe befriends Clare Uchima, head cheerleader. Only… the plan… doesn’t go exactly as planned.

Zouis (One Direction) 

7. Gravity Always Wins by @writeivywrite | canon - friends to lovers - ot5 - misunderstandings - 17k

The truth is: if they weren’t in a band together, Zayn wouldn’t be friends with someone like Louis.

8. keep you like an oath by @ohnokonecny | strangers to lovers - Louis is a force of nature - American AU - fake relationship - 18k

Zayn doesn’t recognize the man through the peephole, but he looks harmless enough, so Zayn swings the door open, barely able to get out a greeting before,

“Hello, would you be interested in being my boyfriend?” The stranger asks.

“Uh,” Zayn mumbles, looking between the man and the space behind him, waiting for someone to jump out at him and tell him what’s going on. No one does. And the stranger is still grinning at him, blue eyes shining and teeth on full display as he waits. “Who are you?” Zayn finally asks, when the stranger makes no move to give him more information about what’s happening.

Sterek (Teen Wolf)

9. hope is the thing with feathers by @shanastoryteller | author wrote Survival is a Talent and you can tell because it’s amazing - first of a series - BAMF!Stiles - alive Hale family - 28k

Then he’s facing a burning home, and he wraps the hood of his sweatshirt around his mouth before he pushes the door open and steps inside. There’s Mr. Hale asleep - he hopes asleep - on the couch, next to - Stiles thinks that’s his brother but there are so many Hales, who can keep track. He rushes over and starts shaking him, can see the rise and fall of the man’s chest so he knows he’s alive, but he’s not waking up.

He shoves away his hood so he can shout, “Mr. Hale! You have to get up, there’s a fire! Mr. Hale, get up!” Nothing, he’s not even twitching, both of them taking in deep even breaths like they’re having the most peaceful of rests, and Stiles is going to cry. “Wake up, wake up, wake up!”

There’s a moment, where all Stiles can hear is the blood rushing in his ears and not the roar of the flames or the creak of wood, then with a violent, silent pop it’s all back and both of the men are gasping awake, eyes open and jumping to their feet.

10. Every stumble and each misfire by @everchanginginks | future fic - deputy Siles - BAMF!Stiles - soft Derek - 14k

Stiles hasn’t seen or heard from Derek in ten years. It’s a bit of a surprise to find out about Derek’s return to Beacon Hills through Tinder.

11. Hide Of A Life War by @etharei | BAMF!Stiles - Sheriff finds out - suspense - found family - 26k

The one in which Stiles has lived to (legal) adulthood and, along the way, become a bit of a badass himself.

12. Pale Skin and Fragile Bone by fakinbrilliance | BAMF!Stiles - mates - don’t underestimate the Hale pack - found family - 62k

Stiles asks Derek to teach him self-defense.

13. *Sweet Buns* by @pantstomatch | omega Stiles - misunderstandings - pining - Derek is bad at feelings - 17k

Stiles hasn’t seen Derek Hale this close up for over a decade. He looks almost exactly the same, except somehow he seems even bigger and broodier—criminally handsome, with soft-looking dark scruff, heavy brows, light hazel eyes. His gaze zeros in on Stiles almost immediately, and his scowl lightens minutely in what looks like surprise.

Stiles is acutely aware that he has melted butter and cinnamon all over his face, and tries to surreptitiously wipe it with the ends of his sweater-sleeve.

14. The Seven Lives of Stiles Stilinski by @glorious-spoon | angst with a happy ending - pining - time travel - hurt/comfort - 25k

Stiles disturbs an abandoned temple and catches the attention of a goddess of time and fate. When he starts time-traveling involuntarily through the past, he’s not sure if she means it as a curse or a lesson–but no matter when he travels to, he always seems to end up at Derek’s side.

7. *I know that you love me, even when I lose my head* by LunaCapisLupus_22 | amnesia - internalized homophobia - omega Stiles - BAMF!Stiles - 135k

“We’re not mates, Cora,” he insists. “I mean look at him-“

“Ouch,” the kid says, no longer pushing that shit eating grin.

“He’s- he’s,” Derek tries, at a loss of how to explain why this can’t be possible. Why it shouldn’t be possible.

15. Daybreak by TheObsidianQuill | SO much angst with a happy ending - slow burn - BAMF!Stiles - PTSD - 70k

The pack was gone. He had nothing left. He had no one. With nothing to lose, Stiles puts everything on the line to go back in time to try to prevent the future from becoming his past. Broken, guarded, and haunted by his past, only one overgrown-pup of a wolf seems able to get past his defenses. Changing the future? Easy. Finding a place for himself in the Hale Pack? Impossible.

16. *Not Your Disney Romance* by Rawren (Deshonanana) | THIS IS SO GOOD - the perfect mix of crack and angst - disabled Stiles - mind control - 42k

After a long-forgotten agreement of an arranged marriage between Derek and the daughter of another pack’s alpha resurfaces, Stiles takes it upon himself to become the most amazing fake fiancé that a clueless, desperate alpha werewolf could wish for.

Geraskier (The Witcher)

17. Landfall by round_robin | merman Jaskier - soft Geralt - future fic - trust porn - 10k

Geralt spotted Jaskier’s blue breeches neatly folded in the sand by the rock, his boots next to them, doublet unbuttoned and blowing in the wind. Those too blue eyes looked even brighter next to the sea and his heart skipped a beat. “Jaskier,” he sighed. He didn’t know what else to say.

While relief flooded Geralt—Jaskier was alive and well, no evil befell him after Geralt stupidly pushed him away—Jaskier didn’t seem to share his feelings. His lips turned down, shoulders slumped. Finally, he said, “Are you here to kill me?”

18. ‘My Own’ by @valleyofwitcher | creature Jaskier - found family - Kaer Morhen - they’re soft for each other -  43k

Jaskier has been hiding his draconic ‘heritage’ for as long as he could remember. And travelling with Geralt and Ciri, it didn’t seem to be an issue. That is until a notice comes up about hunting dragons.

All of a sudden, everything is thrown into disarray as he has to face feelings and impulses he had been suppressing for years, nothing seems safe anymore. Geralt tries to fix it.

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Louie Tag Game

Thank you for tagging me @britpopstarlwt 🥺💖 I loved doing it 💖💝

Fav body part:

I can't explain it but I really love his eyelids. His beautiful rose gold eyelids and his prefect eyelashes. These pretty please crinkle when he smiles and I just wanna lay a kiss on them.🥺💋🥺

Fav quote :

These two quotes have helped me through so much. I can't explain how beautiful he is inside out and it reflects in how easily he can reassure people and spread positivity as if he was giving away oxygen. The small things he says which hold a lot of meaning and honesty really spread happiness and hope in purest form.

Fav quote about him:

Have you seen how his fans talk about him, with so much love and adoration. They have such beautiful things to say, you can literally string poetry out of the appreciation louies put out for him 🥺💋 but if you're asking for famous person then this one has to be it 🥰🤩🙈

Fav 1D song: End of the day

Fav lyric from it:

The priest thinks it's the devil

My mum thinks it's the flu

But girl it's only you

Yk I became comfortable with who I am because I could relate with so many of his written songs, this lyric right here, not only is it an epitome of superior poetry but literally anyone can relate to it 💝🥺💋

Lyric from Walls that makes me happy:

Don't you let it kill you

Even when it hurts like hell

Oh, whatever tears you apart

Don't let it break your heart

These lyrics right here put such a big smile on my face. This whole song is a bloody story and an example of no matter how bad things seem right now, they will eventually get better; just trust yourself. Louis tomlinson put it in a song for me and I don't know how to thank him for this.

Lyric from Walls that makes me sad:

'I just wanna be loved by you '

This is just one line. One line and it takes away my absolute breath. The vulnerability, the voice that backs these lines, it knows how it feels to be left with absolutely no love from someone you never expected to hurt you. Half of us spend a lifetime trying to get approval from people who won't bat an eye at us and it hurts. It makes me so sad that Louis had to go through this but this shows that in the end he is human too and needs love and appreciation to thrive. This is a song which helps me vent out all the pain I might hold within. The vulnerability that this song shares almost feels like a soft embrace. Louis put it so beautifully on paper, it make some wonder how blessed we are to have him. And I promise to spend my days loving and supporting the people who need just a little love to make it through bad days including lou 🥰😍💌

Describe each in one word:

Lilo: affectionate

Liam treats Louis with so much affection and light touches here and there to assure him he's around, no matter how bratty Louis might be liam will stand his ground and reassure him that he won't budge. Liam will literally fall down headfirst if Louis will smile and Louis in turn makes sure Iiam can keep his point and puts him in the centre by engaging him continually, by telling him he is the best version of himself right here, right now.

Nouis: Brothers

Louis is protective of niall and so is niall. Louis supplies niall with appreciation and niall in turn wishes Louis love and respect. The admiration niall holds for Louis comes from the fact that he has seen Louis put his best foot forward and try his hardest to get the band where it is and he supported Louis every step of the way.

Zouis: compassionate

Zayn and Louis have a very gentle and unspoken devotion towards one another. They don't jump in front of cameras don't crave attention. When it's them, its them. They want to genuinely comfort one another and stand by one another. Such compassion and empathy that exists between the two is what we call friendship. And I don't have a better example of friendship than this. They might have fallen out but they gave us something to cherish all our lives in name of most beautiful relationships ever where there was no profit sought just pure concern and love for each other.

Which photos of Louis do you prefer, candids or photo shoots?

Louis is what I call the comfort beauty. You see very few people can look beautiful wearing what make them comfortable too. Not only did he say it out loud that 'fashion and comfort should go hand in hand' but also showed us that being comfortable in what you wear makes you beautiful. It's the grace. I love his photoshoots but I can't help but feel inclined towards candids. They bring out his purest expression to go along with his beautiful aura and I think, we can't handle sometimes with how pretty he is 🥰💝💌

Just look

I hope he always keeps smilning and never ever feels like he is alone. He is beautiful inside out and louies do a beautiful job in showing him that 🥰🤩😍💗💝

[meyhew]

Hello! I was reading your #s and I agree in general but do you really think Louis can be compared to Harry regarding the public statements about Zayn? I mean Louis, imo, speak like a wounded friend, perhaps still angry but honest, better than fake statements of a friendship that no longer exists in reality! he squeezed my heart when he said last year that he is not ready to talk to Zayn and he believes that neither is Zayn, he did not give us the real reasons ok, and it's their business anyway, but he gave us something honest. No? he never allowed himself to say anything about Zayn's decision for his health if I'm not mistaken.. I hope I don't piss you off because I'm a Zouis Baby still in love with the two of them separately. that deep in her heart she wanted Louis to go away with Zayn 💙💛

hi ! i also have the softest spot for zouis but i still think louis (publicly) mishandled the situation. i think he has every right to feel what he feels, esp with the jay/xfactor situation, but that doesn’t mean he has a pass to say or do whatever without any responsibility—not to mention that a lot of the pettiness happened before jay passed. the twitter feud? that’s all on louis. zayn was minding his own business and louis decided to run his mouth publicly bc he was hurt. his feelings may be understood and justified but he rlly didn’t have to do all that. same with harry & louis’ mitam promo nonsense. in 2019 louis offhandedly mentioned zayn and zach sang caught on, to which louis said smth along the lines of “zayn made his bed, now he has to lay in it” like what was that a dig at? zayn leaving the band and “betraying” them all? looking after himself? letting louis down?... and this was after he previously said that, upon jay’s request, they’d worked things out. their business is their business and their feelings are fucking valid bc we don’t know what happened but their handling of the situation publicly was shit. harry was just plain petty and louis has been inconsistent and it makes them look like asses if u take off the fandom goggles and look at the facts we know

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What happened after that quote that made them archenemies again

I sincerely hope they aren’t archenemies, but I think this is one of the biggest mysteries of our time. Like, don’t talk to me about Bitcoin or the Bermuda Triangle until we have figured out what happened to Zouis!

I wish I knew all of what went down between them, I really do, because then it would help to make some sense of it all. I think there is (or was?) some hurt, a lot left unsaid, probably some regrets and stubbornness too. We know Louis was hurt by Zayn’s decision not to attend his "Just Hold On” performance after Jay died, which is understandable. I think that may have been one of the final nails in the Zouis coffin- in terms of Louis realizing that maybe Zayn really was just done with it all. While some of the relationships in 1D were definitely played up for the fans, Zouis was not one of them. Those boys had a real, genuine bond and I just hope they’ve found a way to at least make peace with each other. I think they both have sensitive hearts, so I do feel like there’s still some love there. I don’t think we’ll ever again see the Zouis of the past, but I’ll happily eat my words if I’m wrong.