#zaz motormouth

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To those with abusive mothers, who have have a miscarriage, who have had to have an abortion solely due to circumstances, who are still waiting for technology to help them become parents, who are struggling to conceive, who have had to give a child up for adoption, who are hounded for their decision not to be a parent, to those who may not know their mom, who have been forcibly separated from their family- You're not a bad person or broken if today stings, be gentle with yourself.

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FUCKING TAKE ME OUTTTTT

MAINTENANCE CAME A DAY LATE.

I JUST RAN INTO THE BEDROOM DURING INSPECTION, AND ACCIDENTLY LEFT KATSUKI PORN UP ON MY COMPUTER SCREEN.

THE 4K COMPUTER SCREEN.

I AM NEVER GONNA BE ABLE TO LOOK AT THESE MEN IN THE FACE AGAIN.

[razzle-zazzle]

Bruiseshipping…

Oh my god ninjago.... how long it's been since I've thought of you..... anyway yeah season 3's love triangle sucked ass and Nya deserved so much better but damn if Jay immediately attacking Cole and Cole responding in kind with no idea what Jay was even angry about wasn't the funniest fucking thing. They should kiss about it <333

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You know the Oral Fixation is acting up when you've had 3 tootsie pops and you're texting your dom for more dick pics. (;テ﹏テ)

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You ever just start giggling evilly as you type smut, cause you know you're about to make some moots screech (｀∇´)ψ

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So today I'm at home, fixing my own dishwasher.

Cause after the Porn Incident, I will die before I tell the maintenance people I need them to 'clean my pipes' (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

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That GQ China 'heat stroke' photo reminds me of the first time I was in the desert lmao I stupidly thought my southern mediterranean skin could handle a winter desert day, and boy was I fucking wrong when I woke up from my nap in the shade. I took a picture of how the nasty sunburn went right down the middle to send to my mum and I'm making this pathetic blue-steel 'wtf' look with bad bedhead, and sadly it's the only picture I still have of when I had pure white Gojo hair (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

[toasted dork below↴]

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Great News! I got my back blown out, in the best way possible, in the middle of the week. Bad News: I got my back blown out in the best way possible, in the middle of the week.

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-Strolling up to your dash a week late wearing a singed shirt, espresso powder & protein drink in hand, and blackout shades on- So my prince turned into a toad, and I'm back on tumblr after a week cause Briggs says isolating after a breakup is "bad for your health" or somethin'

Answering my inbox and getting caught up over the weekend, I really hope you all have been having an easier time of things this past week.

Updates Below

◈ I broke up Aymeric, and even though I chose it- it still fecking sucks. I live in a place that enacted a strict abortion law that will put prosecuted doctors in jail. I have a genetic condition that makes birth control and pregnancy Highly Risky (as in organ rupture/ stroke are the major concerns), so I mainly have to rely on condoms. Maybe it's entitled of me, but if I say I don't feel comfortable having PiV/PiA sex from the end of June (when the law will be in effect) to December (when the appeal kicks in)- I expect my partners to support that, not fucking chuckle. Rereading Neon's Ambivalence to soothe the sting, but damn guys I really liked this dude.

◈ I have just been autopilot since, mainly focusing on my part of Luigi's Mansion remodel. It's still creepy, and I'm glad my job is done. Not happy that I won't be on the schedule for the next week while the actual engineers and housing experts finish up though :[ but it'll give me more time to spring clean the apartment and maybe work more on writing.

◈ I've added a Caretaker Katsuki, Caretaker Inumaki, and Expectant-Dad Gojo to the official WIPs list since there's 3k spread between 'em. I've given up on giving ETAs on fics because if I'm being honest- writing with adhd is a gacha pull lmao

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Giggling as I ask if I can top tonight, like I'm not about to have your knees over your head and make you cum on your face 😇

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I need an espresso IV drip, but I'm up and on my way to work. Luckily, Neon sent me some really calming music last night, and it really helped me get some sleep- or else I would probably be calling out to catch up on rest x.x

Last night was really weird. Especially since my cats are normally very scared of people-so it made me really uneasy that they sat waiting at the door for almost an hour, like they used to when he came home from work. I want to be overreacting but they haven't done this since, and there was clearly someone out there on-and-off for an hour.

Gonna check with the front office when I get home to ask them if they saw anything odd. Cause our community gate is broken, but there's a couple cameras all over the complex. Briggs isn't happy either, since he knows Dabi-Ex tracked me down before to a friend's house, and sat parked outside after I got the restraining order.

Gonna be extra cautious over the next few days, but hopefully it will end up being nothing to worry about. Luckily Briggs will be here in a week and that'll make me feel much better.

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"Keep talking like that, and I'm gonna go feral"

"...That supposed to get me to stop?"

This man is gonna drive me crazy

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Bratty Beta Switch who thinks they're topping their new Beta boyfriend Deku that night, only to find out that spring fever hits Alpha Izuku way harder than it does them.

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I had some extra funds on my local cafe giftcard, and figured that since Briggs was still sleepy I'd grab us some coffee from around the corner. Which led to this confirmation of my himbo status (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

Me, seeing a pair of hands plant on top of the brick wall across the street: oh this bastards gonna try to hop over, that's cool.

Me, seeing the guy in black cargo shorts/black tank/black beanie vault clear over the wall facing me: oh, oh that's kinda hot.

Me, actually getting a good look at his face as he jogs over to the coffee shop: wait- that's my hot bastard.

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It's been really sad to watch the relatively quick demise of a 2yr long CharDM group that I originally made with friends.

It started off really strong, and we even did care packages since we live close to each other. Making fancy truffles for the person I had used to be one of the highlights of my month.

And then we had a new member join a few months ago, which was great at first but then 8 of the 12 in the discord group made a WhatsApp group. Pretty soon those 8 were only posting in the WhatsApp GC, and me & 3 other people were left with a mostly dead discord because we were the only ones interacting with each other. Pretty soon, the other 8 were only popping in to the discord to ask for when their next letter/package would be or drop hints as to what they wanted in them.

So I tried to warn them that I had been in rp groups like this in the past, and this is usually what dissolves them. You may not have "sarah" as your author- but sarah's extra special letter to your author then inspires them to send you something special, it's a cycle of fuzzy feels. It is absolutely your choice to invite whoever you want to a group chat, but when you exclude 1/3 of a group of friends and stop talking to them in the discord- you can't expect them to stay in the CharAnon group.

I left the group around Valentine's Day, when the person I had told me that I'm bad with finances- when I told her I couldn't afford to make the fancy truffles with expensive liquor this year because I lost my job at the hospital. Over the past few weeks, the discord has practically become just the 8 from the WhatsApp asking for updates on their surprises from their blurbo. It's just really depressing...

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Back from my vacation. Not anything fancy, just had a few interactions and absolutely nasty anons that made me need to take a step back from the internet for a moment. I hope you've all been well! Gonna spend the next 2 days trying to catch up on the last week and half that I missed, but I gotta delete the anons first.

I do have good news though!

♦ I can finally share that the dude creeping outside our apartment complex has been arrested for breaking into an apartment a few doors down. i cannot thank those who donated money towards my camera enough because I'm pretty sure that's why he moved on from our landing. I still owe a few letters since finding out someone was actually breaking into units took a lot out of me-but I will get more out soon!

♦ I got a job, it's not the dream job (which still hurts) but it'll pay my bills and that's good enough for me rn. It sounds like I'm gonna have a lot of downtime between classes during training so I'm hoping to get some writing for FFG done, but we'll see. I was reminded of a very katsuki-coded interaction Briggs and I had awhile ago involving a thirst cooking tutorial that I think people would find entertaining ^^

♦ Made a dozen yaki-onigiri for this week's lunches and they came out so good! It's lemon-chive rice, with a general tso's minced chicken filling, and extra sauce on top. It went really well with the stir-fried zucchini ^^

♦ It's been so long since I've worn a skirt that I forgot I have shoujo manga legs lmao With the heat wave we've been having, I think it's gonna become a more regular occurrence (thigh warning below)