#zadr-day official

[zadr-day]

Here is the completed piece for the 2023 Invader Zim anniversary colab!

Thank you again to all who participated 💚 this is WAY MORE than I expected would join! This experience has been truly joyful ^w^

List of Featured Artists :

Top row (left to right)

@confusednoctis

@project-doomsday

@animatorfun

@xenowzl

@labbynan

@verm1c1de

@dada-dandy

@2logako

Middle (left to right)

@cosmicriff

@its-elsy

@kittykathalo

@aperfecttimeforscreaming

@space-bugs

@bonniecupcake

Bottom (left to right)

@theorginalcryptidfilth

@red-roka

[REDACTED]

@v1p0

@butter1knife

HIDDEN BEE DIB: SHMOOPS 

[anonymoosen]

*ZIMHALES* RAAAAHHHHDHSHDSUDISJDJ THISBIS SO SO SOOOO PRETTYYYY!1!1!11! I LOVE THE OVERLAY COLORS U GAVE IT LIKE IT GIVES ME A DREAMY AND MAGICAL SORTA VIBE AND ITS FUNNY CUZ DIB IS SUFFERING EVEN IN THAT KINDA VIBE DJSJDJS

ANYWAYYAYAYY AGAINN, UR FRIGGINNN STYLELELELELLRWKRKEKD IM SCREAMING ITS SO CUTE AND FLOOFY I WANNA HUG EM ALL DIB SHLD KNOW HOW LUCKY HE IS TO BE STUFFED IN THE FACE BY A LOTTA FLOOFY AND ADORABLE SPACE BOYS AND THE SPACE BOYS SHLD BE HAPPY THAT THERES A FLOOFY WOOFY CUTIE DIB THERE CUZ LIKE- THEYRE ALL SO CUTE AND HUGGABLE!?

I ALSO LOVE THE EXTRA DETAILS GIVEN LIKE FOR CAT ZIM— THE CAT CLAWS WITH THE PAW PADS, THE CUTE TONGUE AND TOOTH AND THE CAT EYES LIKE FJSJDK SO CUTE AND PATTBLE!! AND FOR THE OTHER ZIM, THE ANTENNAE REDESIGN IS SO PRETTYYY!! AND THE HEART EYES <33 THE DIFF EXPRESSIONS ON THEM ARE SO CUTE AND FUNNY TOOOO AHDHJSJD

Cover redraw

Og cover under the cut

[strawberryxfieldz]

Invader Zim Masterlist

Series:

Invader Zim: Doomsday (Zombie AU)

One-Shots:

(Sorted in alphabetical order.)

Heart To Squeedily-Spooch

ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 3,802 | Rated M

Dib has a certain craving for Zim and Zim is more than happy to fulfill it… on one condition. He gets to eat his heart out. Literally.

I Was Just a Boy

ZADF (Zim & Dib) | Post-Canon/Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 7,510 | Rated M

Dib is sent to the Crazy House for Boys after finally completing his mission and killing Zim. Unfortunately, the world isn't as appreciative as he'd thought, and, possibly more unfortunately, he's starting to have doubts about his actions. Meanwhile, Zim becomes official property of Membrane Labs, ready to be tested on when he suddenly wakes up. Realizing he's betrayed his Tallests by dying, he sets out with a new determination to be rid of Dib once and for all.

Keeping Up Appearances 

ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 2,805 | Rated G

Today was one of those days, in which Dib would stay bed-ridden and do nothing but feel bad about himself. Except, this time Zim won't leave him alone and Dib may just have to confront his feelings with his new boyfriend, even if the Irken doesn't quite understand it all.

Written for Invader Zim Prompt Meme Event 2022.

A Little Taste

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ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 468, Rated M

Irkens had a distaste for anything that wasn’t overwhelmingly sweet but, to Zim, Dib’s blood was an exception.

Love-Pigs

ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 3,063 | Rated G

Prepare for the most romantic night of your human life!

Zim whisks Dib away for a night of romance under the pretense that he wants to celebrate the first month of their relationship. Dib suspects he has ulterior motives, however, and sets out to convince Zim he has nothing to prove.

Written for Alt-ZADR Week 2022. 

A Moment of Peace

TAGF (Gaz & Tak) | Canon Rewrite, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 2,894 | Rated G

Gaz and Dib are on their way to break their dad out of Moo-Ping 10, the space prison Zim sent him to. Unknown to them, Tak's ship has plans to break Tak out of the prison as well.

Raspberry Pink Eyes

ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 11,728 | Rated T

There, sitting in a bush, caked in BigFeets' urine, hot and sticky under the summer sun, Dib began to realize what it meant.

Dib wants the day alone to hunt for BigFeets. Zim insists that he help him find GIR, who's somehow gone missing. Dib ends up finding much more than the robot-dog over the course of one eventful, taco-filled day.

Written for Alt-ZADR Week 2022.

Suds

Fem!ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 3,286 | Rated T

Dib reeks. Having just fought an alien blob monster, she desperately needs a shower but doesn't want to take one. Leave it to Zim to force her to, initiating a string of moments perhaps too intimate to be shared between two sworn enemies.

Written for Invader Zim Prompt Meme Event 2022. 

Tenn’s Christmas on Meekrob: A Holiday Special

TATR (Tenn/Tak) | Post-Canon | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 2,813 | Rated G

Tenn celebrates a very special holiday on the planet Meekrob upon the arrival of a very special guest, Tak.

The Vast and Vicious Void

ZA2R (Zib/Zim 2) | Pre-Zimvoid, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 4,509 | Rated M

Dib has lost everything and is determined to get it all back. He finds a Zim instead, a Zim not quite like his own. Dib thinks he'd like to be entertained by this Zim, at least for a little while.

Written for Alt-ZADR Week 2022. 

Zimmie

one-sided ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Post-Canon, Alternate Universe- Canon Divergence/High School | Chapters: 1/1 | Word Count: 5,949 | Rated T

Zim is determined to go to the Hi-Skool dance and earn the title of "Prom Kween"... except attendance with a partner is mandatory. He convinces Dib to go with him, who hatches a plan of ultimate revenge. Only, he realizes his mistake all too late, making for a night neither of them is sure to forget.

Written for Invader Zim Prompt Meme Event 2022. 

Collections: 

ZADR - Year of the OTP 2023

ZADR (Zim/Dib) | Chapters: 4/12 | Word Count: 4,607

A collection of one-shots/drabbles for the Year of the OTP 2023 event about ZADR (Zim/Dib)!

Written for Year of the OTP 2023. 

All of my Invader Zim works (AO3)

Fanfiction Masterlist

[mittonianinvader]

You do realize official artists on ENTER THE FLORPUS drew ZADR? lol Most ZADR artists have Dib as an adult. Also a Zim and Gaz ship (ZAGR) picture was in the studio before, which she's a year younger than Dib. Zim in the IZ bible was noted as being a kid alien. This whole age thing is something Jhonen pulled outta his ass one day, and he's a big ol' troll. Lots of us see Zim as he originally was, a kid who grew up with Dib, and when they're adults, they got involved. Do some research. 💖💖💖💖

Good point. I will ignore this and not change my opinion. One Must Sneed to Feed.

[toxicfucksaround]

I posted 4,084 times in 2022

That's 1,802 more posts than 2021!

22 posts created (1%)

4,062 posts reblogged (99%)

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I tagged 854 of my posts in 2022

#digital art - 103 posts

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Longest Tag: 140 characters

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I swear to god if Twitter users come to me and yell at me for stupid shit

I will virtually pepper spray you

That’s right

I’ll block you!

With no warning!

Back off, twitter users!

14 notes - Posted October 27, 2022

#4

Welcome to my blog!

My name is Max, I’m an oc artist who occasionally dabbles in fanart, oc x canon, and self ship shenanigans. If you don’t like that, that’s fine, just follow someone else instead.

Some general rules, bigotry of any kind will get you banned. Be kind and respectful. If I ever say something offensive please correct me, I’m doing my best but everyone makes mistakes, and I’d like to learn and grow from them. Just please be polite, thank you.

Blog Links

My main blog, you’re here!

My art blog, here

My mature art blog, No Minors, here

And my sims blog, here.

And the official blog for a story im working on called Tails of the Wicked.

Socials

My commissions are here!

Here’s my TikTok.

My YouTube channel.

My DeviantArt.

My Ko-Fi, if you’re able to donate or want a commission, let me know!

Some blog rules/things to keep in mind.

Harassment of any kind is not okay. If I do something wrong, correct me kindly, because I’m an idiot and probably don’t know what I did.

Bigotry of any kind is NOT allowed. I will block you. Any racism, lgbtphobia, all of it is not allowed. YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE.

I do not give a fuck about pro shipping/anti pro shipping nonsense. Like I don’t care, as long as it’s properly tagged, and no real people are harmed, leave me alone. Don’t send me asks about it, I don’t care.

I am a strong believer that as long as something is properly tagged and out of reach of children, they’re free to do whatever they want with fiction. As long as no real people are harmed, that is. That includes writing fan fiction about real people, it’s gross, don’t do that.

But like, zadr? Don’t care, like. Fuck off. Are people shipping the undertale bros again? I don’t like it but also I can just, ignore it, and mind my own business. Dead dove don’t eat.

Like

Idk I just feel like, tumblr gives us a good system to block tags, use it.

But yeah no DNI list because I just like, don’t care. If you bug me or upset me I’ll block but like

Anyone can come enjoy my shit, I need all the likes and reblogs I can get anyways lmaoo.

15 notes - Posted January 22, 2022

#3

So, this is something I meant to share my opinion on for awhile, but I was nervous to bring negative attention to myself.

This is in regards to the Your Boyfriend fandom, more specifically, the official game and creator.

Tw now for brief mentions of sexual assault and abuse.

Now, I’m not gonna sit here and complain about how the game ruined the personality I came to Peter for or anything, because frankly, I like yanderes, I don’t really care. Am I kinda bummed he’s not as unique and interesting as before, yeah, but I don’t care about that.

What I do care about, is that Fuboo, the creator of Your Boyfriend, marketed Your Boyfriend Peter as a character that is friendly to survivors of sa and abuse, and to aromantic and asexual people through the blog (which is going to be deleted soon from what I heard). She got everyone attached to his interesting take on yanderes, only to turn around and pull day three on us.

For those unaware, day three of the game involves Peter admitting to sexually assaulting you in your sleep, and then using pointless violence on you in every route.

That on its own is fine, classic yandere stuff. The problem is, that again, Peter was marketed as survivor and Aro and Ace friendly. Specifically exposing survivors of abuse and sa to something that could trigger their trauma.

Yes there’s warnings in the game that it’s not for certain audiences, that warns of certain content, however, there is no warning on the site about sexual assault. None.

Technically sa and abuse survivors fall under the triggered category, however, I believe it’s irresponsible to not advertise that there’s mentions of sa in the game.

I understand that this is just the warnings for day 1, however, you should have the warning before any of these survivors get this game, in my opinion.

That and, well, it’s entirely unfriendly to aro and ace people now. I doubt any ace or aro people wanna see this freak go against their lack of love or sexual arousal like this. The blog specifically stated that he would just want to be your closest and only friend if you were aro or ace, so to see this is upsetting. I’m not aro or ace, but I did feel it was important to mention.

All of this is just to say, I am no longer supporting any of the canon or official YB content. I will stick by certain fan creators, but not Fuboo.

I will still probably make fan content myself in regards of loving my OC Mc too much to give them up but, that being said I’m probably gonna redesign my version of Peter to make him stand out from the original game version more.

If you’ve read this far, thank you, please try to keep things civil in the notes. I’m not looking to argue, or persuade others, just stating my opinion and stance on canon.

I have nothing against those who continue to support canon, I just cannot do it myself.

Thank you, I hope you all have a nice day.

25 notes - Posted April 4, 2022

#2

Shout out to all the demiromantic people out there who never crushed on a celebrity but felt left out so they faked a crush to fit in.

Or to the demiros who always felt weirded out by the thirst of fans for celebrities.

To the demiros who think all these real people x fans fanfics are weird or uncomfy

The demiros who may have not experienced love

To the demiros who experienced love once years ago

The demiros who just experienced love for the first time

To the demiros in love with a best friend

The demiros in queer platonic relationships

To the demiros who only experience attraction to fictional characters

The demiros who don’t know what labels they are yet.

To all the Demiromantic people I have yet to mention

I rarely see anyone talk about being demiromantic

So to those who feel left out, here’s a post for you

I see you, I feel your experiences

You’re valid, you’re welcome in this community

You’re experiences are real, your label is real

You may not experience love the same way, but that’s okay

You’re okay.

Don’t let people tell you you’re too picky, or weird, or anything else people like to say.

In a world filled with an emphasis on romance, know you’re okay with, or without it.

Sometimes the best love, is self love, or platonic love.

Sincerely,

A fellow Demiromantic

46 notes - Posted May 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

LMAO LOOK WHAT ME AND MY BRO GOT IN OUR DHMIS HUNGER GAMES

115 notes - Posted October 26, 2022

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[zimathan]

In celebration for @dibothy​ and I’s marriage, I’ve made a Draw This In Your Style for everyone! :D Details, bonus images, and more under the cut!

Fun fact, this was meant to be a 2000 followers on tumblr DTIYS! I just, uh... couldn’t finish the original arts. I am now up to 2600 followers, SO, UH... BIT LATE. But!!! Today, the day this is being posted, May 30th, 2022, I and my fiance, @dibothy​ have officially been married - so it is the BEST time to finally finish an attempt at this DTIYS and post it for the masses!

Forgive me if anything’s a little weird, I’ve never hosted one of these.

RULES - Happy Pride Month! This DTIYS will be hosted from May 30th, 2022 until July 10th, 2022. (A happy birthday to my husband, too, since it’s ending on his birthday!) - Pose changes, outfit changes, design changes - they are ALL welcome! The ONLY requirement is that it is a wedding between Zim and Dib! This is (alas) a ZADR only DTIYS! - While I know it’s a DRAW this in your style, I know a lot of wonderful writers exist in the ZADR / IZ community - so we will be accepting both art AND written submissions! ;w; - All submissions on TUMBLR OR INSTAGRAM should be tagged with #zimathanDTIYS! Very important step! (Also, feel free to TAG ME @zimathan​ so that I can see anything, just in case tumblr fucks up and I can’t see something!)

PRIZES A big disclaimer on this bit - I struggle with art at times, and it may take me a while to complete a prize! So long as you guys are respectful and patient, I am absolutely okay with creating prizes for the TOP THREE that @dibothy​ and I choose! I hate having a tier list, so each prize will be the same for the three that we pick! Which is... -drumrolls-...  A full colored piece! You can pick the style (of mine, posted within my art tag) you would like the piece in, you can have UP TO four different characters within said piece, and I will treat the art like a commission! Meaning I will give updates, show progress, and try my best to keep you in the loop! :D (Also, as a note, I am a person with limits, so please be kind, understanding, and respectful if I need you to give me another prompt or idea.)

BONUS CONCEPT ARTS For inspiration, mostly, I’m going to post a few uh... attempts! At finishing this DTIYS!

1-2. My first attempts! I got very far, but it was originally a two-part DTIYS. Very cute art, I just left it sitting too long and forgot how to finish it. <3

3-4. My attempt at a redraw for the original two! I like them both, I just couldn’t motivate myself to finish them! It’s okay, though. :3

5-6. The original concepts for Zim’s dress, and the more Updated tm version of Zim’s dress!

[reynaruina]

It is day 7 of the ZADR Week 3, and as promised, here are my pics for the whole week!!!! Desc of each one underneath:

Prompt 1, Awkward Beginnings: Zim came up with a plan to destroy Dib, but halfway going to enact it he remembered they’re dating now. Oops.

Prompt 2, Emo/Scene: More like punk/hipster if u ask me, but still stylish B)

Prompt 3, Cryptids: Samara is wondering if they realize they’re gonna have to step off the circle at some point.

Prompt 4, Possesive/Protective: Dib's got a bit of leftover guilt for all those times he's splashed Zim with water. Zim's more bothered by his attitude than anything else.

Prompt 5, Hurt/Comfort: More like Hurt/Lovingly berate in this case?. Membrane is this close to getting a boot shoved down his throat.

Prompt 6, Space!: As far as I know this was the official ending of Invader Zim BD

Prompt 7, Late Nights: Kind of a follow up to this, the boys learned to get along <3

Thank you so very much @zadrweek3 for hosting this event and to the wonderful ZADR community for filling my dashboard with lovely art all week.  You guys are the bessstt!!!! <3

[amyisherenowitsokay]

You know what just to SPICE it up a bit imma say zadr too bitch

This bitch tryna give me arthritis smdh. Making me out myself for my dual-ship on main, can't even believe a bitch.

PRE-RELATIONSHIP

1. How did they first meet?

School. We must never forget the infamous handcuffs scene.

2. What was their first impression of each other?

Pure, unrivaled loathing.

3. Did any of their friends or family want them to get together?

Gaz said "kiss already" and throws things at them when they're getting too far away from "I want you dead" territory and well into "you want to fuck me so bad and it makes you look stupid" territory. Professor Membrane thinks they're adorable.

4. Who felt romantic feelings first?

Dib. Hormones get the best of us all. You can only be obsessed with someone so long before motivations get blurry.

5. Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Zim would nearly break his PAK and commit accidental die trying to delete the emotions or install an emotional inhibitor. Dib would have a full mental breakdown trying to sort through it, which would manifest poorly in his behavior and negatively impact his ability to engage in their usual altercations. Pro tip: if you are painfully attracted to someone, being in a position where they pin you to the asphalt or lean over your desk to hiss insults at you is a bad idea.

6. If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

I stand by what I said on my ZAGR post in that Zim doesn't know what a soulmate is, or the concept of a soul, but given this is in regards to his arch-nemesis instead of a creature he's mostly indifferent too, he'd be pissed at the insinuation he was in any way bound to Dib. Dib's fragile psyche would not survive the revelation.

7. What would their lives be like if they had never met?

Really empty. Their rivalry and parallel situations regarding neglectful authority figures is what keeps them going for so many years.

GENERAL

1. Who initiated the relationship, and how did it go?

As someone who thinks Zim doesn't understand even the concept of not being a possessive jackass, I think Zim just sort of concludes after awhile that, regardless of Dib's feelings, or even Zim's own feelings, whatever they have makes them wholly and entirely each other's. Just completely and hilariously misunderstanding the concept of a relationship, but still being incredibly presumptive in assuming they already have one. He also doesn't let Dib know of this revelation either, so eventually Dib explodes about his crush, and Zim's like "we are already together???? moron???" Dib could argue, and he kind of wants to, but he also never expected Zim to reciprocate, so he just sort of nods and is like "you know what, sure" and that's the end of it. They do not have an anniversary, but Dib's not really like that, and Zim doesn't know anniversaries are a thing anyways.

2. Did they have an official first date? If so, what was it like?

Again, stealing from my own ZAGR post, but I don't think Zim's really a 'date' person who would plan out that sort of thing. Dib is an awkward moron with arguably worse social skills than even Zim, and mentally comes to the conclusion that dragging Zim on investigations is basically like a date, and Zim doesn't bitch about it anymore than expected, therefore he is a master of romance, so it's fine.

3. What was their first kiss like?

Awkward, and quick. Dib is not a great communicator, nor is he great at explaining things like human demonstrations of affection, especially not when Zim's scowling impatiently at him through is fumbling and stuttering. He just goes for it, and it's quick and he misses his mouth almost. Zim is extremely surprised, especially when Dib makes terrible excuses about needing to be elsewhere and flees. Zim does his own research, and their second kiss is predated by a lecture about being better than Dib at everything/Dib being bad at everything. It is much more successful, even if afterwards Dib instigates a fight about Zim's tongue being weird.

4. Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?

First everything, except kiss. Gretchen kissed Dib in high school as a dare. Zim will never forgive her for it.

5. What’s their height difference? Age difference?

I'd die to make them the same height, but I think the image of Zim being average height while Dib is a gangly big boi is just too funny. Zim would be pissed, and Dib would be so smug but so uncoordinated.

6. What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

Gaz interacts with them as minimally as possible, because they are loud and gross and annoying, but she's okay with Zim overall. They have a mutual understanding that Dib is stupid, completely reckless, and requires constant supervision to keep him from getting eaten by a ghoul or something. Gaz does genuinely trust him to skewer anything that tries to kill her brother, but she also knows that Dib isn't the only one with 0 sense of self-preservation. Dib was initially wary of Professor Membrane's reaction, because his dad is sort of unpredictable when it comes to his only son, but the Professor's only commentary is that he is glad his son finally made it official with his 'little green friend.' Dib then realizes that the implication in that perpetual comment about Zim had air quotes around that "friend" part all along.

Dib thinks Gir's gross and loud and doesn't get him, but he likes to team up with him and/or use him as a means to annoy Zim. The Base hates him, because now there's two morons with no sense of self-preservation that it needs to keep track of. Minimoose and Dib are bros.

7. Who takes the lead in social situations?

Zim, if only because he is arguably more 'charming' than Dib's fumbling attempts at communication with non-paranormal parties.

8. Who gets jealous easier?

Zim. Dib I think would have his 'HTTYD Hiccup moment' as he gets older, but still has that ingrained low self-esteem from years of ridicule and abuse. He is completely oblivious to the new attention he gets. Zim, however, is not. Dib never really notices the cause of his weird snarling and clinginess, but he shrugs it off as Zim just being weird and continues with whatever he was doing.

9. Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear?

Zim is a slut, I will die on this hill.

LOVE

1. Who said “I love you” first?

Dib. He says it casually, in the dark, when they're on a stake-out to find some wood goblin or something. He says it like he's talking about something plane and unremarkable.

I think a ZADR relationship would need Zim to be a lot more independent in terms of researching how romantic relationships 'work,' since Dib's not a great communicator, and there's an ingrained rivalry that will never dissolve between them, no matter how many times they kiss, so Zim would be a lot more motivated to figure things out on his own. He would, in this circumstance, know the weight of Dib's way-too-casual admittance, and it would be a huge shock to him. He'd be pretty shaken about it for awhile, and Dib's not bothered when he doesn't reply. Dib would be pretty sure Zim would never admit it, but he does, eventually, because he refuses to be a coward about it.

2. What are their primary love languages?

Verbal affirmations. With their self-esteems firmly in the toilet in Zim's kitchen, being able to have someone validate them who they respect would mean a lot to them.

3. Who uses cheesy pick-up lines?

Dib. He uses it to start fights with Zim about linguistics and metaphors. Also, he's 99.9% positive Zim secretly is flattered by it, but hates that he is.

4. How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA?

Zim is very clingy, but Dib's too on the move to really pin down for a good cuddle frequently. He's twitchy and his minds always racing, but every once in a while when Zim's completely fed up, or Dib's running on fumes but still forcing himself on, Zim will all but pin him to a cushioned surface and force him to sleep. Neither of them are PDA people.

5. Who initiates kisses?

Zim. Dib's really shy about it, and also normally too distracted to pay Zim the attention he so obviously deserves, and often misses Zim's 'signals.'

6. Who’s the big and little spoon?

PAK not comfy against sternum. It's also easier to force Dib to sleep if he's the big spoon, because he can pin his limbs.

7. What are their favorite things to do together?

Paranormal investigations, and morally ambiguous and/or largely dangerous experiments.

8. Who’s better at comforting the other?

Dib, which is hilarious, because he's about as smooth as a cheese grater, but he is very attuned to the person he's been obsessed with for years, and he can also relate to a lot of his issues. While Zim usually shrugs off the sentimentality and the empathy, dismissing it as 'pity,' the affirmation means a lot to him.

9. Who’s more protective?

Zim. He has to anticipate his lover's stupidity to make sure he stays alive to hunt ghosts another day.

10. Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

Verbal. Hormones are real, but there's something that eases the sting of years of abusive in a crooning praise or a sincere compliment.

11. What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

https://open.spotify.com/track/3IvUhEVbbA81QnEVhsFHiH?si=b3c5787c9ff14105

12. What kind of nicknames do they call each other?

It is primarily age-old insults that lack the bite and sincerity they once had.

13. Who remembers the little things?

Dib. Zim isn't inattentive by any means, cataloguing all of Dib's weird habits and nuances and what not, but for all the compensating Zim does to keep Dib safe and healthy, Dib reciprocates in meaningful gestures. He remembers to pack Zim-friendly snacks on their road trips and ways to keep Gir entertained, if they have to bring him. He always checks the weather and has an extra coat, just in case. Never makes Zim feel bad about needing to check, just one more time, to see if he got any incoming messages from home.

DOMESTIC LIFE

1. If they get married, who proposes?

Dib.

2. What’s the wedding like? Who attends?

It's just Gaz, Minimoose, and Gir. Membrane is too far away to attend, but that was deliberate. Dib didn't want his tendency to make things about 'the Membrane line' effect the intimacy and importance of the ceremony. Also, Zim insists on incorporating some Irken rituals into it, so it'd be hard to make excuses and explanations to why Zim wants Dib to fuck with his weird pink backpack during their wedding.

3. How many kids do they have, if any? What are they like?

No kiddos. Neither of them would be interested, even if it was biologically possible.

4. Do they have any pets?

Seriously, Gir counts, right?

5. Who’s the stricter parent?

Dib. Zim refuses to parent Gir when Dib is more inclined to do it, since he's more irritated by it.

6. Who worries the most?

Dib has perpetual anxiety. So does Zim, but he masks it better.

7. Who kills the bugs in the house?

Dib, to prevent the gooey grossness that is Gir's bug-breath.

8. How do they celebrate holidays?

Just with Gaz.

9. Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

Zim will strap Dib to a bed himself to get him to go the fuck to sleep, because it's been over 48 hours you insufferable human, and--!

10. Who’s the better cook?

Dib's idea of cooking is a microwave, salt, and pepper. Zim is forced to learn the wonders of human food to keep his idiot from dying of malnutrition.

11. Who likes to dance?

Gir.

[dorkzilla-exe]

Zim, Dib, and Seven Smeets

A ZaDr series: Ep 1, Hatching Day

Dib: Zim, will you come down.

Zim: *sitting on top of the fridge* DO NOT DISTURB ME WHILE I'M IN MY PANIC SPOT!

Dib: Im just-

Zim: *crying* DIBBERSON, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE, I'LL BE DOWN IN A MINUTE!

Dib: you said that an hour ago, I've got everything set up for the celebration, so at least be down before 3, ok?

Zim: wait, you did the decorating? You did EVERYTHING?! ON YOUR OWN?!

Dib: *smiles sinisterly* yes, yes I did, all on my own, probably made some mistakes in color arrangement-

Zim: LET ME SEE! YOU BETTER NOT HAVE MESSED ANYTHING UP!! *jumps down from the fridge and scurries into the living room*

Dib: works every time...

Zim: Dib, you didn't actually mess any of the decorations!?

Dib: I studied hard when you were decorating for Gaz's birthday, so I applied your decoration tactics to this room and... well... ta-daa!

Zim: you really are amazing, Dib. You know that, right?

Dib: I got the hint the day you gave me a ring-pop and asked for my hand in marriage.

Zim: I swear I didn't know it was candy, the person who sold it to me said it was worth 5,000$ and would sell it to me for 4,900...

Dib: I really didn't care about being proposed to with a candy ring, a ring is a ring to me, wether it's candy or not. Although, it is very concerning how someone managed to sell you a ring-pop for that much.

Zim: don't remind me...

Dib: would you believe me when I say I still have it?

Zim: no, I actually wouldn't.

Dib: well I do, I had it dipped in resin so it wouldn't deteriorate.

Zim: wow, how have I not noticed it?

Dib: remember that box I where keep stuff like pendants and pins? That's where the ring is.

Zim: that's sweet.

Dib: wait a minute, I just remembered we've got one more thing to do...

Zim: The Smeet's play-pen! We've gotta decorate that! Get the streamers! I've got some decorating to do!

[About an hour later]

Dib: alright, living room decorated, snacks and cake ready, little gift bags customized for every guest, flowers and other table decorations, and Zim's in the play-pen with the eggs. We are ready for the guests to arrive and it isn't even-

[Knocking from the front door]

Dib: right on cue, must be dad cause he's been early to ever other party. *answers the door* hey- uh...

Tallest Red: hello there, you must be Dib

Tallest Purple: How has Zim been? We haven't heard too much from him since he layed the eggs.

Dib: uhhhh... Hi I'm Dib Membrane, Zim's husband. Zim's been doing wonderfully, aside from the random anxiety attacks and his weekends of depression. Please come in! We have plenty of Irken friendly food and drinks ready, but remember to save some for the other guests. You two apparently aren't the only alien guests on our list.

Tallest Red: Thank you Mr. Membrane, we appreciate your hospitality. *enters with Tallest Purple*

Zim: My Tallest! I didn't expect you to be here until 10 minutes later.

Tallest Purple: see, I told you we were too early!

Tallest Red: EUGH, we could've brought the little ones Paks...

Dib: actually, we already thought of that. My Dad works at Membrane labs and designed him "Membrane Paks". They are designed to make it easier for them to identify us in a crowd, immediately begin healing if injured, ward off any diseases and illnesses, higher pain tolerance, and give them a longer life.

Zim: the only major differences are the Designs and application process. Instead of implanting electonics in abruptly, we will apply them more delicately, carefully and less painfully.

Tallest Red: hmm, I see, it would also be much easier to identify them if they ever decided to work for the Irken Empire.

Zim: i mean, you're not wrong. But I also invited here to ask for permission to retire.

Tallest Purple: retire?

Tallest Red: eumm... sure? Why not?

[1 hour later]

Dib: Dad, Gaz, the tallest, Skoodge, Tak, Tenn, Keef, Z, Zita, Clembrane, Prisinor 777 and his kids.

Dib: that seems to be about everyone, all we're missing are-

Anne: *annoyingly beating on Dib's Door* DIBDIBDIBDIBDIBDIBDIBDIBDIB!

Dib: Anne and Flish...

Dib: *opens the door, making Anne fall into the house*

Anne: Crikey, you've grown! You're 'bout as tall as Flishey now!

Flish: howdy, Dib. Sorry we couldn't make it to yer wedding last year.

Dib: it's ok, come on in you two.

Tallest Purple: oh yeah... we banished HER here too...

Tallest Red: I feel like Zim isn't our biggest concern anymore.

Anne: My Tallest! It's been YEARS! how've ya been!

Tallest Purple: good~

Anne: *gasp* OH MY GOSH! The eggs! Aw, they're absolutely precious! Zim, you oughta call yourself lucky! 'Lotta Irkens can't lay eggs y'know.

Zim: eheh, I know. Which is why I didn't fully expect it.

Dib: you should've seen him, he cried his eyes out the whole time and more.

Flish: Heha! sounds like Zim a'right. But don'cha get all concerned and stuff. It's completely normal to cry during egg laying. Er, from what I've heard at least.

Dib: it's official, everyone's here.

Tallest Purple: great!... Now what?

Dib: Um, we talk.

Tallest Purple: sounds boring.

Gaz: I have Videogames.

Tallest Purple: Ooo, sounds intriguing! What do you do?

Professor Membrane: son, may I speak with you for a moment?

Dib: sure.

Professor Membrane: let's go into the other room, ok.

Dib: *nods and walks into the bedroom*

Professor Membrane: something is wrong and I can tell.

Dib: *walks over to the bad, grabs a pillow, and screams in it*

Professor Membrane: I know your stressed, but everything will be just fine. I'm sure you and Zim will be great-

Dib: But what if we arent?! I work weekends at a coffee shop and Zim works at a clothing store in a mall. We can't provide for SEVEN babies! It took a lot of saving to get this party set up! I rarely get any tips and the one tip I got last weekend was from Gaz and it was a penny.

Professor Membrane: Ok, now that's just sad.

Dib: I don't know what to do! It's hard for me to get a different job, a barista was the closest I could do because I apparently make really good lattes. *sob*

Professor Membrane: have you ever considered working with me in the labs? You already know everyone there and know the place well. Plus, I could adjust your schedule so you don't have to come every day and you get paid just for being there.

Dib: you'd do that for me?

Professor Membrane: of course! You really do need the money, I could have you work as a lab assistant, but that's a little dangerous. I could put you in the mailing room? Or-

Dib: what about food service? I can cook, I can make coffee, tea, and plenty of different desserts.

Professor Membrane: that's a wonderful idea! I could make you work down at the cafeteria so your talent isn't wasted on Lattes!

Dib: Consider me hired! Ill be there tomorrow evening-

Professor Membrane: no no, you should stay home for a few days.

Dib: but dad, I-

Professor Membrane: Dibberson, I know you want to help out as soon as you can, but right now, Zim and your children need you here. Besides, it's hard to bond with a child while you're away, right?

Dib: I guess it is.

Anne: *Bursts through the door* Dib! It's about to happen! One of the eggs moved!

Dib: bwha?! Already?! I didn't think it would be this early! *runs to the living room*

Zim: Dib! There you are! Hurry over here, you don't want to miss this!

Dib: *looks over the pen* which one moved?

Zim: This one right here. *puts egg in lap*

Dib: When will they-

Zim: any moment now...

Dib: *puts hand on egg, feeling for any movement*

Zim: Dib, can I admit something before they hatch?

Dib: go ahead.

Zim: I knew about the eggs since the first day they began developing.

Dib: wanna know something? The 4 months before I helped you with the eggs, I was suspicious that you might've been pregnant. I was kinda right.

Zim: yes, yes you were. AH! DIB, IT'S HATCHING!

Dib: *removes hand, watching both the eggs hatch and his family grow before his eyes*

Zim: thank you, Dib

Dib: hm?

Zim: thank you for everything. I'll love you forever and on.

Dib: *pure panic* wait, you dont die after the eggs hatch, do you?

Zim: No, no I don't, but I'll love you longer than you'll ever know. And that's a promise.

From then and on, Zib and Dib lived a happy and eventful life with 7 beautiful Human-Irken Smeets.

The End

Zim: Or is it?

Dib: Not really, but for now, yes.

[skrilli-draws]

The Official Junkyard AU Post

Okay! A few people showed interest in this AU of mine, so I posted the basic premise and a WIP. Now with this post, I can go into the finer details of the AU and characters! Yay!

Zim:

Zim was called back to Irk once Impending Doom Part Two was completed. The Tallest decided that they were going to get rid of this pest once and for all, but before they could do that they were under attack. An unforseen presence was wiping out massive swarms of Irkens in under a day. The Tallest called back every Irken to fight but they quickly lost. To protect his leaders, and species, Zim managed to shrink the Tallest down so that they could for into a capsule that later became his false eye. The Tallest are lucky unconscious, so don't worry about them. On a less humorous note, most of the Irken race, technology, and allies are dead and gone, including GIR. Zim wanders around different planets, hoping to find non enemy territory so that he can free his Tallest and rebuild the Irken Empire. Unfortunately, he has yet to find such territory. He has, however, found Earth once more. Along with that, he found Dib, his old nemesis. He's actually just a Dib clone that escaped from Membrane labs. He has no memory of Zim or anything. Part of this is Zims fault, as he was the one that messed with his Dibs memory.

Tin Man:

A defective S.I.R. unit made during the desperate fight. Not only is his build wrong in many places, he goes against direct orders when he sees fit. This was a fatal defect, especially when it came time for him to fight. Zim found him and decided to form an alliance, knowing that he needed extra help even if he didn't want to admit it. He got his name from Dib Clone, originally intended to be an insult. Tin Man doesn't like Dib Clone at all, but chooses not to just up and kill him because he sees how much Dib Clone affects Zim.

Dib:

When Zim left, the original Dib went hysterical. In the end he hadn't protected anyone from anything. This sent him over the edge. Luckily for him, the space apocalypse came right before he could do anything self harming. Do to no other options, and his new ACTUAL insanity, he joined Gaz and her cult like following of fans. He is being in use as a weapon, brought out for interrogations and overall destruction. He is still obsessed with Zim, so who knows what would happen if he were to find him...

Gaz:

She was probably the most prepared for the space apocalypse, due to her extensive video game sessions. Because of her sheer skill, people and aliens alike came to follow her. Over the years she's grown quite the ego. She is the biggest reining force in the galaxy. She and Dib are the only ones I don't have solid designs for.

Dib Clone:

Soon after most humans fled from earth or died, Membrane labs shut down it's security system. This Dib managed to escape and survive, using a modified version on the food shooter we see in the Pilot. He has no memory of anything that happened. He's learned to live on a world that is riddled with garbage and foes. When he meets Zim, Zim is in his human disguise. Because he has no memory of Zim, and has learned to live in this world by himself, he very eagerly accepts the idea that he has found another human with the additional idea that he was experimented on by aliens. He swears to protect Zim from any aliens or enemies. He despises Tin Man but leaves the robot be as he considers that he showed up with Zim. This is a ZaDr AU mind you, so Zim develops feelings for Dib Clone. Unfortunately, Dib Clone sees Zim more as his child and does not reciprocate those feelings what do ever. That may change though.

This is my first fully fleshed out AU so I can't wait to get your reactions! If you have any questions or head cannons I'd love to hear!

[zadr-day]

Attention meatbags!!

Ready your hazmat suits, dust off those Geiger counters and take your iodine tablets, it's time for... ☢️A𝙩𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙘 A𝙜𝙚☢️ A𝙥𝙧𝙞𝙡  

This is a prompt for ZaDr art inspired by the atomic age, 1950's, 60's, cold war and government scandal. fallout shelters and cursed gelatin deserts.

Interested in submitting something for the Atomic April art prompt? Post to the @zadr-day submissions and tag with #zadr-day, or post to your own blog and zadr-day will priority reblog it!

Event art credited to: @xenowzl @aperfecttimeforscreaming

[shadowofthelamp]

so! read issue 50. thoughts under the cut, but tl;dr, not only was I not insulted at the clear jab at the fandom with the zadf/zadr circles, I’m almost insulted that I wasn’t insulted. it was too tame to hate. overall I liked it but it just kinda felt... middle of the road.

first off, kinda cool that I mentioned in TD gaz sort of facilitated the stuff in return of keef by letting him into the house because she thought it was funny, and then she did the same thing in the official comics. +1 for me for characterization!

this was 100% meant to recreate return of keef. however, chammy isn't NEARLY as intense about it as keef was- that kid was physically FORCING them to be together, and had way less boundaries about it. it isn't as funny because it doesn't go as far, and she's more one-note about it- he wanted to jam himself into their dynamic too. keef was stalking them and trying to force the friendship thing for days, if not weeks. (the show was big on comedically overstating timeframes, so I’m gonna go with weeks even though the montage was pretty short) chammy brought it up... three times, and considered backing off before gaz kept egging her on. she wasn’t delusional and rabid enough. 

I think the other problem is it never really escalates. she's OH YOU SHOULD BE BEST FRIENDS right at the start and stays that level all the way through, and a joke like this needs to build. also, her magic friendship-powers should have had a role like forcing their feelings to change, and they chuck her into the brain-dimension to stop them. that would have been genuinely funny and a better parody of the fandom anyway.

the big golden shining above-all rule you should follow when making content that's poking fun at or shouting out to your fandom is 'does this still make sense/is this still funny to people who don't know the fandom exists'. this one's a waggly hand and and an 'eeeeh' noise.

anyway, this franchise has never been one for subtlety and it’s weird they left on such a muted note. 

overall though, I did like it! I just think if they were going to go this route, they should have leaned in, made her completely bonkers and try and duct tape zim and dib together or something, or like I said use her weird friendship powers.

[yumotohakone]

One of my many Invader Zim ocs, a RAPR kid--Indigo! (He/Him)

He’s shown Naked, in casual wear/the jumpsuit he wears under his other clothes, his Tallest formal robes, and his Elite soldier uniform

More about him under the read!

He was an experiment by the Control Brains to create a perfect Tallest smeet through biological reproduction. (Red and Purple flipped a coin to decide who would carry the smeet.) And bc he’s an experiment, he was also allowed to grow and develop naturally--so he doesn’t need a Pak (but he still has one bc they have extra benefits).

His official title is “My highness” bc he’s taller than everyone else (6ft2, taller than his parents by 2 inches), but he’s not officially “Tallest”

He’s a spoiled rich kid who’s stuck in the Massive all day. He’s highly skilled and great at his studies, but he’s bored of them very VERY easily. He’s also highly competitive and has some anger issues (bc that’s the only way he really knows to process/express emotion), but he wears his heart on his sleeve and is incredibly earnest.

He likes playing pranks on the drones, but he’s pretty lonely bc he’s basically just surrounded by servants + teachers, and his parents aren’t....very “parental” or nurturing. (Sometimes Red and Purple let Indigo lead the Massive for a day so they can go fuck around and have a break.)

When he was a kid, he tried to bond with his parents/get their attention by making puppets and putting on puppet shows for them, and that ended up inspiring a lifelong passion for puppetry. Indigo is proud of his puppets bc he taught himself to make them by hand, and there’s a lot of high skill that goes into making and maneuvering them. Because of this, he’s also great at building/fixing fine machinery, throwing his voice, mimicking others’ voices, and writing/telling stories.

The only reason he’s embarrassed by his puppets is when he’s caught playing with them and and making his own little stories where he’s a Big Cool Hero and he goes on dates with his Crush.

Who, by the way, is Resisty Commander Nix Membrane (my eldest ZADR child). He met them by accident and fell head over heels. Absolutely shmoopy with feelings bc they are his first love <3 Nix calls him “Indy” and they are the ONLY person in the world allowed to call him that.

[chaoticpolarity]

I can’t wait until the day I’m finally not so stressed out by my senior year of college, so I can finally make Invader ZIM/ZaDR content.  Then, perhaps, I can get anti/anon hate, and become an official ZaDR blog, like I’ve always dreamed

[senseki-chan]

HOLA ! ! ! :,D  Mis Amores,por fin termine mis exámenes y por fin estoy de vacaciones y darme un pequeño descanso para seguir trayéndoles mis dibujos,Si van agarrar mis dibujos no tengo problema alguno mientras me den créditos respectivos. uwu

-Si quieren que haga algún Re-diseño de algún personaje que no ha sido Rediseñado Oficialmente,ya sea Tak,Gif,la  Señorita Bitters o cualquier otro,soy toda oídos para traérselos.

-Me considero Fan de la waifu Gretchen y quería crear un re diseño cercano al personaje,en un futuro mas adelante les creare algún cómic del Gretchen x Dib y si no les gusta esa pareja pues ignoren y eviten tirar arena innecesaria.

-Estén atentos en estos días tal vez ,ya les traiga el comic zadr que les prometí hace tiempo,sin mas que decir estaré escuchando sus opiniones y tratare de subir contenido a mi Tumblr muerto. See you~ ♥

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HELLO ! ! ! : D My Loves, finally I finish my exams and finally I'm on vacation and give me a little break to keep bringing my drawings, If they go grab my drawings I have no problem while they give me respective credits. UwU

-If you want me to do some Re-design of some character that has not been officially redesigned, be it Tak, Gif, Miss Bitters or any other, I'm all ears to bring them.

- I consider myself a fan of the Gretchen waifu and I wanted to create a design that is close to the character, in the future I will create some Gretchen comic x Dib and if you do not like that couple ignore and avoid throwing unnecessary sand.

-Stay tuned these days maybe, and bring them the comic zadr that I promised long ago, without more to say I will be listening to their opinions and try to upload content to my dead Tumblr . See you~ ♥

[awesomenessg]

OMFG, IT’S YOU. IT’S REALLY YOU. THE CREATIVE MASTERMIND BEHIND THE LEGENDARY IZ ZADR COMIC THEMSELF.

You have absolutely no idea how insanely hyped I was when I saw the notification pop up on my phone that you posted on your blog again after all these years. I truly did think that the project was officially dead, but I didn't wanna be too sad about it since I understand that some projects don't always see to completion.

But then I saw this post, decided to skim through the first couple paragraphs and then...YOU ACTUALLY SAW MY COMIC DUB THAT I MADE FOR MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL??!!

Dude, this is honestly such a huge honor for me. I never intended for that video to get big, I was just in a strong Invader Zim ZaDr kick at the time, and I had instantly fell in love with your comic the moment I finished reading it, so I just had this sudden spark of inspiration to do a dub for it, since there were so many jokes and lines that I felt were too hilarious to just leave on paper and not be voiced aloud. It was just something entirely for fun, it was dumb and silly and it wasn't meant to be taken seriously at all. But now to know that not only so many people saw it and gave positive feedback on it but THE CREATOR OF THE COMIC watched it and loved it and was eventually INSPIRED BY IT to continue the comic after a four year hiatus?! It feels so unreal, I've never felt so noticed before in my entire life lol (Tbch I wasn't sure if you would even be okay with me posting it up in the first place, I sent you a message in your ask box asking for permission but never got a response, so I ended up just deciding to post it up anyway and deal with the consequences later lmao)

Okay, real talk though, when you started talking about how stressful and overwhelming it can be to try to keep up with a project that you promised everyone you would deliver...I could not relate to that more. To tell the truth, that's actually how I have felt about the future of my YouTube channel. After that comic dub video blew up people were begging me to continue to make more videos in the same vein, and at first I thought it could've been the start of something great for my channel, to use this one video as a branching off point to become a regular comic dub making YouTuber. But what went wrong was that I had made the exact same mistake you made, I made promises to everyone that I just couldn't keep. I had so many more ideas for videos in the works, but eventually life got in the way, COVID happened, other things became a more important priority and I just never had the time, until I reached a point where what originally started as nothing more than a hobby turned into a chore that was just too exhausting and draining for me to enjoy doing anymore. I've always had a terrible habit of starting projects but never finishing them, if you just took a quick look at my old high school art class folder you would see what I mean lol, mostly just unfinished WIPS that will sadly probably never see the light of day U.U

I don't wanna make this post too long with my rambling, but what I'm trying to say is that I've been there. I know how hard it can be, to set expectations up for yourself so unbelievably high to where no matter how hard you try to reach it all you ever do is crash and burn. But the fact that you have been doing better and now returned after all this time because of something I MADE that wasn't even originally supposed to be anything special, well that right there just proves to me that maybe there is hope after all. If I really can inspire someone to come out of a dark place and become motivated to enjoy working on their craft again, then...then I now feel inspired to do the same.

I am so stoked to see what more hilarious, adorable, awesome content you have in store for us, just remember to please take your time and don't feel like you need to rush anything. Your mental and physical health comes first and foremost before anything else, so if you ever need to take a break to prioritize that I'm sure we'll all understand, I mean after all we've still stuck with you after four fucking years, so I doubt we'll be going anywhere any time soon lol

One last thing, about your Kofi, I personally would love to support you and your comic, it's just atm I'm not super financially stable myself, but I will still do anything I can possibly can to help, I apologize in advance if it's not much though. Maybe once I finally find a new job and have a regular source of income I will be able to provide much bigger and better support in the future.

Thank you oh so very much for the shout out, I am so glad you loved the dub and that you got some laughs out of it! You've inspired me just as much as I have you! Love and hugs!!! <3 🥰🤗💖

~ Nessa G. 💚

Four Years Later

So, I was deep-cleaning my room the other day for the first time in like two years (god, the dust was disgusting), and I found an old sketchbook of mine. Like, OLD old. The earliest drawing was labeled March 23, 2009–I was 11. 

Most of what was in there was TERRIBLE anime art; you know the stuff. Scoopy noses, eyes that float around on the face, characters conveniently holding their arms behind their backs so you don’t have to draw their hands. Edgy character deaths and thinly-veiled self-inserts comin’ atcha full force. But I’m flipping through this thing, and I’m finding that for the first time in forever, I… don’t hate myself for it? I’m actually finding it cute! Like, “Aww, she’s learning.” Mind-boggling feeling.

So I figured, for old times’ sake, what the heck, let’s go reread Trainwreck too. So I googled the name of the blog (because I’m the kind of person who googles URLs instead of just typing them into the damn URL bar), and I happened across THIS comic dub, by Nessa G.:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55skXrjaY-Y&ab_channel=NessaG.

I fucking died.

Seriously, I hope it’s not narcissistic, but I forgot most of the jokes, and everything I drew here was so 100% my own sense of humor that I CRACKED. THE FUCK. UP. (”Fan… squirrels?”) God, I haven’t laughed that hard (or that sincerely) in a long time. And hearing the words I wrote read out loud by another human being was so weird! In a good way, obviously. Thank you for the dub, Nessa. It brought me so much joy. And it’s that video that’s inspiring me to come back to this blog and at least explain what’s going on.

So… Imma be straight with you. (Prepare to be hurled headfirst into a steaming hot pile of TMI.)

When I said I was “busy”, I was flat-out lying. 

I was in a bad place, I had been for a while, and I just… couldn’t draw anymore. Like… at all. God, it was terrifying, it just snuck up on me out of nowhere. I think I worked on maybe three or four projects between 2018-2019, all to help out a family member, and then I just… stopped. Drawing became terrifying, talking to people became terrifying(er)… I basically gave up on art altogether, ghosted everyone I knew, and spent the last four years cooped up studying alone, barely eating or sleeping, scared of anything with a shadow… ACK, it was bad. I looked like a fucking skeleton by the end of it.

Now, I’m not telling you this because I want comfort or sympathy. I’ve actually been doing a lot better over the last six months. If I weren’t, I’d never post something like this–I don’t tell ANYONE my genuine feelings unless I’m already over it. Which is… ~Probably Not Healthy!~ hAhaHAhA *finger guns*

But seriously though. I’ve been reconnecting with the people I love, I’ve been eating more and putting on some weight, I got a long-term freelance position with a translation agency, and I had a breakthrough recently that took away a ton of fear… things are going okay. Importantly, I’m also starting to be more mindful of my own behavioral patterns. I’ve been trying to figure out which habits keep getting me into trouble, and work towards changing them.

One of those bad habits is MAKING PROMISES. 

I have this tendency to promise the moon to people because I’m scared of disappointing or angering them (and because I constantly underestimate how long things will take me). Then I wind up skipping meals and sleep so I can get everything done, getting further and further past my deadlines, stressing and stressing until, before I know it–SKRRCH!–my entire brain comes to a screeching halt, and I shut down.

Obviously, this is bad for me, because I’m putting a ridiculous amount of strain on my own body and mind. Obviously, it’s also bad for other people, because I’m promising them all this stuff and then ditching them out of nowhere. This is just all-around bad, and it’s gotta stop. Sure, there’s this whole sad backstory as to why I do this, but that doesn’t make it okay to continue the behavior.

SO! What I’m getting at here is! When it comes to picking Trainwreck ZADR back up:

I make zero promises.

Drawing a fan comic–ANY comic–is a lot of work. Towards the end, it was taking me like 6-8 hours for just one page. I think I have finally gotten to a place where I want to start drawing again, but… I’m broke as all flying hell. I don’t have an ATA certification or any experience in translation, so I’m working… the kind of job you can get with no credentials or experience. (Bruh, this shit makes less than minimum wage.)

So, jaded though it sounds, if I’m going to be investing that much time and effort into anything other than my translation career, it HAS to be something I’m being paid for, because anxiety or no anxiety if I am not out of my parents’ house by the age of 25 I am going to jump off a fucking bridge. Into a lifeboat. Which I will then sail to the Arctic tundra to live out the rest of my days in obscurity, sucking frozen algae out of a straw for sustenance.

BUT, on the other hand… god, there were so many jokes and gags in Trainwreck that I never got to see to fruition. Watching Nessa’s video made me remember that.

Zim was going to kidnap a goat while wearing a very silly hat. Zita was going to be possessed by a demon, and then “zITARATH” was just gonna BE THERE for the rest of the comic, in the background, nobody addressing it. “Nice dress, Zita!” “tHANK YoU. IT WaS SEWN from tHE SKIN OF MY ENeMiES.” “*gasp* It’s homemade??”

Oh my god, and there was a second song!! I wrote a whole song to the tune of Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious where the Tallest find out about The Zadr™ and use it as an excuse to fire Zim! I don’t remember most of the lyrics, they were on my old laptop, but I know it started with “You’re~ in~ an~ interspecies, highly inappropriate relationship!♫♪♪ “

God, that would be fun to draw.

So… possible compromise. No clue how many people are still hanging around, but just a shot in the dark: Would anyone be willing to commission me to finish this comic? I have no clue what my rates would be, cuz I, uh… *ahem* I really haven’t thought that far ahead. I’d have to google copyright laws too, but I… think it’s allowed…??

Alternatively, I could set up a Patreon, and post X number of pages X often depending on how much the monthly income is.

Last option, if there are only like three people still here and you’re all just as broke as I am, I could at least rummage through my old sketchbooks, post whatever snippets I can find, and just tell you where the plot was gonna go. It’s the least I can do after ditching you guys for so long.

So… yup.

Please let me know what your thoughts are about where this comic should go. I’m gonna go finish an assignment, eat something, and possibly fall asleep. I’ll check back with this later to see if there’s any response.

By the way… I’m genuinely sorry for ditching you guys without saying anything. Seriously.