#youve earned it

[matchbet-allofthetime]

He did so much... He made change of all kinds, but most of all, he made us smile.

A smile wasn't much, but it was honest work.

[fieldsandfurrets]

In need of help!!

I haven't really been active on tumblr (im really bad at even talking to my friends on discord enough to keep them updated on my life, so keeping an active tumblr account was never realistic) but im in a bad situation, and i need some help with it

I am trying to get my name legally changed, and my mom was completely supportive in this endeavor

she was the one paying for it as well, but i told her that i also wanted to change my last name, and she completely retracted her support, as well as her payment

i am now without the funds to get my name legally changed, so i resorted to this:

i know its a long shot, but i cannot do this without help, and i dont currently have a form of income (unemployed + in the process of getting long term disability payment + still living with parents = no money)

any help, be it any form of sharing, donation, or even just a kind word, would be very much appreciated, and help a ton thank you for reading have a lovely day!

[astraskylark]

I saw a lot of people bring up that post about loving someone so much you resurrect them but then come back wrong but this is clearly not the case? Falin looks beautiful? She's so pretty and strong and has wings? How is any of this wrong my girl got an upgrade

[pinkseas]

(bighugemassive isat spoilers vvv)

thinking about loop in the sif is out au has me experiencing a very special kind of agony

just. just. siffrin, alone!! looping completely alone, none of their party members, not a soul in all of dormont, no star under the favor tree. only them, for years-decades-thousands of loops, until they finally, finally give up. until they can't do it anymore. and then waking up. in a world where their entire party is stuck in that time loop EXCEPT for them.

having to watch themselves over, and over, and over again, messing up and being utterly useless and holding every single one of the others back. the only idiot who doesnt remember. loop, working with a party that is no longer theirs to save a version of themselves who has never known a day of real hardship or suffering. a stupid, aimless traveler trapping each and every one of them here, loop included, who doesnt even have the decency to know theyre doing it! funny how there are two of them, now, and yet BOTH of them have completely and utterly failed their entire party in such drastically unique and awful ways. forcing them to relive this for eternity.

at least none of loop's party remembered. at least loop was useful in that they could take away the other's pain, shoulder it all on their own. siffrin can't even do that. all they're doing is hurting everyone more. and they don't know.

they're the reason, they're the key, it's their fault everyone is suffering and they dont even know!!!! useless. worse than useless. if only one of these loops they would just stay dead. it'd be better for everyone, that way, for their party and loop and even themselves. loop knows how it feels. loop understands. yeah the others have each other and loop had no one but at least loop is capable of helping the others now!!! at least loop can remember!!! siffrin doesnt deserve this he doesnt deserve the love and care and affection (affection he doesnt even RECOGNIZE, doesnt appreciate or cherish, takes for granted over and over and over again) he doesnt deserve to wake every day in blissful ignorance of the way hes ruined everything and everyone around him!!!!!!

loop who knows it all and who gets to watch the entire party except for siffrin work together and support each other. gets to see just how much better off they are without sif in the way. loop isnt even siffrin, anymore. theyre Good now theyre Useful now they Understand now. siffrin doesnt and never will. watching the careful, quiet way siffrin falls further and further behind. another timeline and still completely alone. thats just what the universe wants from them, loop thinks. for every siffrin out there to suffer.

and ohhhh if/when they break the loops depending on how that goes... siffrin who did nothing to contribute who did nothing to deserve this who shouldnt even EXIST being handed victory and unconditional love on a silver fucking platter and loop who just has to watch............

[intotheelliwoods]

enjoy the water bottles 👍👍

Stay hydrated out there!

@tmntaucompetition

[astralscrivener]

keith and lance are so ride or die for each other it's not even funny

[ratatatastic]

ekky saying "i didnt know they were coming" in concerns to practise being open either suggest staff do not tell players when it happens (not fucking likely) or ekky just does not pay attention to anything at all which makes this paul quote

even funnier in retrospect and not a "pauls just joking around you know how he is" moment as he tends to do no this man just DOES NOT LISTEN???

[lovesickeros]

lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...

it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy

also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]

gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.

anyway.

there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.

imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.

a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.

the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?

but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.

[risk-of-flight]

Oh Jasper. You were the best team mate I could've hoped for. I'm sorry the world tormented you despite your love.

Alright so by this point I'm probably dead! SO what do we do when we have deep thoughts past 9pm that tell me I'm gonna die soon? We make a tumblr post!!! Earlier today I was named polites and that scared the shit out of me! So here's my last ditch attempt at clearing the waters.

I heavily doubt nico is gonna kill me but this is just in case he does. And if he didn't yippee! If he did...ah...

ANYWAYS

I'd like to start off by saying..

I'm sorry. I'm sorry to tim for being the first cause of your spirals...I'm sorry for not trusting you at first when you warned me about roach. I'm sorry that I had beef with Henry. And I'm sorry for not being able to fully give you all my love before my untimely end. Thanks for this kiss at least.

I'm sorry to Henry. I still think you're a jackass but meh. I shouldn't have been so hostile with no reason even though I can smell the red flags from a mile away. Congrats, you win...cause I'm like probably dead as fuck. I'd say treat tim good for me but I'm 99 percent sure you're just going to destroy the poor guy more.

Grim I'm sorry for calling you a habit kisser that's very mean and childish of me. You probably have decent reasons for why you do the things you do and you just need people and companionship..

Jay, thank you for being a great ass leader and I'm sorry I may have cause issues in the past. I'm sorry for dying on you

And nico...

I'm sorry that I drove you to kill me if you did...

Man this is gonna look silly if I lived ha.

[lazycranberrydoodles]

mxtxtober day 2: rain

@vampirefaun’s fic Thousand Gold Come-And-Go Stew is the canonical Hua Cheng memory loss extra to me so go read it if you haven’t already! I’ve wanted to make fanart of it for a while, and even did a sketch in August (below the cut) but finally got around to it because of today’s prompt :)

the sketch i made in august ↓. the colors on this were already pretty harmonized so i colormapped them a little bit more to use as a palette for my final drawing.

[lord-squiggletits]

Honestly it annoys me that pride, ambition, and generally having a big ego are always villainous/evil-coded personality traits because personally I think if you genuinely are a prodigy at what you do you are 100% within your rights, perhaps even deserving, of flaunting your skills and being proud of the fact you can do something that only a small fraction of other people can do. Is it even ego at that point if you genuinely are as good at your field/skill as you say you are? Are people not aware that becoming a prodigy at something is something that takes lifelong sacrifice and practice sometimes to the point of giving up on having a normal life, relationships, etc even potentially destroying your own health???? God I fucking hate how pride in your own skills and ambition are so villain coded all the time. As if it's evil to want to be good at something and be recognized for what you rightfully earned

[beansinjeans]

tlc

[kaal-naagin]

Smart person. Smart person. (I just asked because I'm from that field of study)

You can call me Ani . What should I call you?

Hi.

I saw your ask on a Mutual's page and couldn't help but pop in.

Are you a student of microbiology?

Hiya!

No way 😂

I have a masters in chemistry and i am currently pursuing another one in enviornmental science 😊

I have a subject named Epidermology and Ecotoxicology tho

[liferetainsitssparkle]

um anyway i looked up the wolf man trailer bc id only ever seen the like six second teaser they jam in between youtube ads, and im gonna see it anyway but i had no idea what it was about if it was gonna be a modern adaptation of the wolfman etc, and i found a bts video where the crew were showing off all of their freaky prosthetics and practical effects and talking abt how excited they were to have made all of them as gnarly as possible and now if the movie isnt good its gonna be even sadder :((

[uhuraborealis]

was talking about expressions and turns of phrase that we use and undertsand what they mean even if we dont know their origin [think 'bite the bullet'/'kick the bucket'/'the whole 9 yards']

and i think money expressions are like that for younger federation folks in trek,

like some kid on tng enterprise is like "i don't get paid enough for this!" when theyre exasperated and deanna trys so hard not to lose it

[oscconfessions]

She battle on my island till I dream

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