#youre not special anymore not useful

[redrobin-detective]

I keep thinking how sad Quill Kipps' whole deal is. He's brought up as a child soldier and he becomes quite good at it, good enough to work at one of the best agencies. He works hard, suffers, loses people, carries on because it's all got to be worth it. He ages in a system that prioritizes youth and feels everything special about him slowly starting to slip away. He has put everything into being an elite agent and he's about to age out of everything he's ever known.

He gets tangled with an unruly bunch of independent agents. They're annoying rule breakers but god they're amazing. Part of his beef with them is he can feel their talent rolling off them in waves making him acutely aware of how his is almost used up. When it becomes unsafe for him to pretend any more, he does what other agents do and becomes a supervisor. He keenly feels the separation from himself and agents in the field and finds he now can't just sit on the sidelines and watch others put their lives at stake when he can't help.

He's adrift, nothing to his name but his old reputation and a set of skills that are no longer useful. He ends up tangled back with the independents because they trust him - need him - and by god does he want to be needed. He wants so desperately to be part of their world again. They find some goggles that allow him to see visitors again and he's like a kid at Christmas. He can finally be involved again! It doesn't have to be over!

While working with them he learns everything he was taught to believe in was a lie, the prestigious agency he gave his entire being for is causing the rise of spirits. Once his involvement is found out, he loses his pension and privileges. He is cut off entirely from his old support system. With nothing left, the independents take him in. He's useful but he knows it's more out of pity. He works hard, almost dies and fights to dismantle the very establishment he spent his best years serving. The battle is won but things stay the same for him.

He is still a young adult clinging with aching fingers onto his childhood and teen years because that was the only way he had purpose. His closest friends are still young teens, five or more years younger than him. He chastises them for their childishness even as he desires more than anything to be one of them. He is Peter Pan, refusing to grow up because there is nothing for him as an adult in haunted England. He does not even look towards his future because he cannot let go of his shining past where he was actually needed.

[wyvernspirit]

I know most people want gentleman Husk to Angel

But I would like to argue back that gentleman Angel?? Kissing Husks knuckle after he gives him a drink? Making him a fully homemade (Italian) dinner with drinks? So many ideas I have

(the superior answer is that it's both of them in different ways at different times and everyone around them is honestly jealous) ((and wants them to finally kiss god dammit))

[dollya-robinprotector]

I know I have a habit of always keeping things to myself… But why am I still surprised when people don’t know what I know?

[luminarai]

You know when you read a piece of fiction - book, short story, fanfic, what have you - and there’s just one tiny detail that just takes you completely out of the story?

I just read a passage in a piece of original fiction where the main character hugs a friend and tells us she smells like the ‘delicate rose and jasmine of her familiar Chanel No 5’ and my brain just screeched to a halt. Tell me you googled ‘famous fancy perfume’ and picked the first two scent notes you saw without telling me. Many things can be said about that particular fragrance I don’t think anybody with a working nose would describe it as ‘delicate florals’.

[widevibratobitch]

something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

[origamihoshi]

can you tell us more abt mono-a? ur padjal girl

Sure, thank you for asking I love talking about my fucked up daughter!

This is my girl, Mono-A-Milla, she's totally a normal girl and there is nothing wrong with her 🥰

But yeah she grew up very differently from other padjal, after she accidentally disintegrated her parents she pretty much became property of the Elementals, yeah sure they could have just taken her horns once seeing how powerful she was that she could mimic the greenwrath at the age of three, but where's the fun in that? So Mono-A grew up deep within the forest far away from other people and had to raise herself (Elementals aren't gonna be able to act as parents let's be real), she was only allowed to go out to where people are when it came to the qreenwrath, so she grew up seeing disintegrating people as nothing more than a game she got to play.

I feel like growing up with only the Elementals around for company can fuck you up, yes she can understand them really well (maybe better than most others can) but there's no good true translation of their language to Eorzean and the seedseers and hearers are all probably better at translating it than her anyway, becasue her understanding comes from her needing to survive and not being able to bridge the gap that padjals normally do. She's not a normal padjal because she never got to learn what padjals are normally meant to learn. Sure she can talk like the Elementals somewhat but becasue she's not an Elemental I feel like she'll never truly have it down.

She's very sensitive to aether and can kind of like hear it, her life has been one of nothing but noise from aether, or as she likes to call it singing. She's so used to hearing aether that if she's in a place with hardly any aether around she freaks out, like full on panic.

Like in ShB the light was so loud it was hard for her to focus on anything else, it was everywhere and taking in that light didn't do her any favors. (making all her spells light base is probably the best out come for what the light could do to people but still not great in her eyes)

She doesn't know how to control her emotions very well so when growing up the Elementals just overwritten her emotions with hers so she's kind of fucked up for life not being able to tell when it's her own emotions or theirs, really a lot of stuff with her is that she's been fucked up for life becasue of everything.

Because if you think about it padjal are kind of fucked up, people who have to grow up really fast to spend their whole lives having to please the people and the Elementals to keep the peace, but also they stay looking like a kid forever. It's messed up so of course when making Mono-A my whole thing was wanting to go into that things could really mess the kid up. She's probably in her 100s but she'll never look like it, she can be wise and act much older but most of the time she's super childish but in all the wrong ways, fighting is a game to her, she didn't get to play games like normal kids do, instead she got to kill those who wronged the forest. This kid doesn't even know her own emotions.

Before the seventh umbral calamity she was simply known as the Bringer of Greenwrath, someone to be feared becasue if you saw her you're dead. She was a sign of death, a story to tell the young to keep them in line, so it's kind of funny now that she's the Warrior of Light, she's seen as a hero. A dangerous hero who if emotions left unchecked could easily probably kill everyone, she's kind of a ticking time bomb if you think about it.

I like to think the Scions are like older siblings to her, yes she's older than all of them, but she doesn't look or act like it most of the time. But also I just like imagining her and G'raha sitting somewhere together as she reads a book out loud for her becasue she can't read.

But yeah Mono-A-Milla, my beloved padjal has never known normal and never will, becasue either she is feared or beloved and either one will only fuck her up more, there is no fixing her.

this is probably a mess but hopefully can be understood.

[teplejtrouba]

every so often i now notice my first beard hairs coming in. it's incredibly euphoric but also scary as i Do Not trust myself with sharp objects and am a coward and im already dreading having to shave. but i am also a snob and an aesthete and don't want a few stupid stray hairs on my neck. i also miss my smooth luscious baby face because of sensory reasons.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent-ish life pictures and etc.

[microwavestim]

what's the word for a best friend but like the kind that drains all your energy if you have to interact with them

[homosexualcitron]

If you're curious about some animations i did btw!!!! again, all for fun

[girlcalledwhatsername]

Femme and butch aren't your replacement quirky words to say 'effeminate' and 'masculine' stop throwing these words around to describe non queer people geez, there's a culture that belongs to these terms, Taylor Swift isn't 'femme' or 'butch' and she most certainly is not 'a dyke'. When you get so careless about using those words, and often in a fully serious way, about non-queer people, they also get just as comfortable appropriating our words and jokingly throwing slurs back at us. Read the room once in a while

[empress-hancock]

I’m sure they’ll going to make changes in the live action but I do hope Sanji still gets to beat that dude almost to death for spilling soup, like that’s hilarious. He almost kills a guy over soup. Me too, man, me too

[tchotchkez]

damn y'all work really does got me Tired About Eyeballs

[boyapologist]

I don't really get why Taylor would write an album about a guy she had a summer fling with vs a guy she was in a 6 year relationship with?? Like is it possible songs you think are about MH would be about Joe?

anything is possible to be honest, after all, I don't know her, none of us do... that's just what I got from a single listen to the album.

but hey, it's taylor... she did wrote 1989 about a guy she dated for like 3 months lmao

[deus-ex-mona]

eat the [redacted] anime pen, kaito-kun

[soullessjack]

i think we need to start talking more about jack's powers actually and how cool he is for them and the fact that he SHOULD be more terrifying they shouldve given him more genuine horror moments i think <3 - 13x02.

need u to imagine harper learning about what a fucking Critter jack can be

i actually have thought about it before and I think she would be soooooo into it like holy shit. Imagine her stabbing jack and thinking she can finally zombify him but he doesn’t die and she’s like oh my goddddd you’re not human what are you Oohohohoh they are so perfect (〃´𓎟`〃)

꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷

also the fact that jack has been fully aware of how powerful and dangerous he is since like day one but only really uses it as a threat or leverage and to be a downright bitch to people he doesn’t like while still being adamant on maintaining his silly normal small town boy image … he is so very special