#your old pfp has conditioned me

[pheroyyay]

hi @cheekyvank just for you here is every single detail i saw and can remember about the sister daniel underwear in phrisbane

based on shape/length it was either a pair of boxer briefs or really really really short bike/dance shorts. they were a beigey-yellow colour and there was a random black pattern on them but it was hard to make out with the lighting and movement! they pretty much only covered his ass.

the only time you could see them was when he turned and you got a view from the side or behind, he was very cautious about the front of the costume the whole time and did some things super slowly and carefully because of it (i'm not sure if this lines up with what normally happens though).

my suspicion is they were the best he could do under the circumstances so he was a bit less comfortable and secure than he normally is!

[antirqlacey]

Hi. I want to talk to someone because I’m feeling really scared and alone. I have bad age dysphoria. Like, bad. I’m a radqueer. I mean, I used to be. I don’t know anymore. I’ve been looking for support for my identity (I call myself transage) and I found it in the radqueer community. While I was there, I heard from people who claimed that they were suicidal because they looked in the mirror and didn’t see a Japanese person. I would support them and encourage them to transition. That’s part of the reason I stayed radqueer, because I don’t understand the inherent harm in transitioning race as long as it cures dysphoria. Dysphoria is a horrible condition I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I tried to join a radqueer server today. I want to meet people like me. My alternative is crying into a pillow. There was so much pro-contact advocacy. It was a server made up of child predators. I was forced to confront the sheer amount of child predators in my community. One of them had the transage flag as their pfp. Seeing someone using my flag to justify that… it hurt. A lot. And now I’m debating leaving the radqueer community. But I don’t know where else to go.

hello anon, you’re very very brave for being able to come to talk to ANYBODY about this. and i think you’re doing good even just by acknowledging the faults in your community. i’ll leave you some resources below but, i want to let you know that you are not alone with your dysphoria. i also have age dysphoria and I understand how it feels. addressing the last part, i believe a safer community would be the mogai / liom community and the general atypical dysphoria community here. i know this experience has to be terrifying but just know that you’re not alone and that you again, are so so brave for being able to get the courage to try to leave. i hope that you’re able to leave smoothly and safely.

resources:

dealing with atypical dysphoria :

coping with age dysphoria

general positivity

reaffirmations

reaffirmations

reaffirmations

while not being a resource some tips i could find that might make things easier is:

blocking radqueer tags

making a new blog and deleting the old one if possible.

again anon, i hope you’re able to leave safely and smoothly.

if anyone else can leave anymore resources that i left out please leave them in the notes!

[prettyboykatsuki]

hi fang!!

i apologise if this is something u get asked often, but ur writing is most definitely my favourite to consume and ive never felt feelings the way i do when i read anything you've written, and was wondering if you have (or have already posted) any writing tips that u could give me?

reading your creations for so long has honestly really inspired me to write too but i have no idea where to start in terms of anything. i've never attempted to write before, i've always been more of a reader, but if i could make anything even close to what you do for beloved characters and fandoms then it would make me so so so happy.

if you need me to be more specific about what i'm having trouble with i could try and narrow it down but honestly everything is pretty accurate T-T

anyways thank u for posting everything u do, i am eternally grateful! at this point im conditioned to get excited every time im scrolling on dash and see the green katsuki pfp <3 hope ur 8 hours wherever u are isnt too perilous >:(

this made my lower lip tremble how could u think so highly of lil ol me.... im very glad my writing could invoke such feelings you!! enough so to even inspire like how huge is that... im a very unpolished and messy writer by nature so im extra moved when people are kind to me about this kind of thing. like.. ough. i have moved u... what a world...

i dont know if i have any good writing advice to give you!! im very clumsy in my own writing. here is some advice i have given people before

my biggest piece of writing advice is stop worrying about it and do everything lightly. i think there is a lot of pressure and expectation on people who are trying their hand at any creative thing to hit a point of being objectively good. im a huge perfectionist in my normal life - but because of that, i always miss out things i could actually do. being that caught up on the details made it so that i never actually tried at anything

a lot of my writing has typing errors and things i could do better but i have to intentionally allow myself that grace because if i don't - i would've never finished a piece of writing in the first place. i only get better if i write and i only write if im not so caught up on the details. there is always going to be a learning curve. im always going to look back at old writing and wince a little at all the things i can do better.

but at the time, i had the confidence to put that out into the world. now that its out, i can look at myself critically. posting for me is a way of holding myself accountable if that makes sense. everyones already seen the flawed version, so there's no longer any reason to not improve or be embarrassed. its also why i dont delete fics even when i hate them later. there was one person who liked the cringe worthy sincere aspect of me. how nice would it be if i could make something even better than that.

writing can be anything you want. it can be the most important thing you've ever done or the thing you do on the bus ride home. it can change your life or you can forget about it the very next day. its yours. your voice is always all yours.

but you it can never be anything to you if you don't just give it your most honest try. do everything very lightly. pick an idea, map out a beginning middle and end, and write a story.

more practically - it will help immensely for you to observe the way other people write first. try to read critically instead of for enjoyment and see what you like. what inspires you? a persons flow, diction, dialogue? and emulate that in your own way. when you start your voice will not be much more than a mish-mash of all the things you love and that's okay. that's what all writers with very distinct voice tend to do anyways.

i know it seems counter intuitive and pointless to stress but really - the best thing you can do for yourself when it comes to writing is just sitting down and giving it a try. pick any idea, plot out a simple 3 point beginning middle and end, and just see what you can do. you can be critical and edit as much as you want after. just get it down on paper first the best you can and don't worry yourself sick over each sentence or nothing will ever get written

i can try and give you more practical advice if you let me know what you need!! ive given writing advice before but im very under qualified for that i fear. even so i hope it helps you a little to give it a shot. i know it sucks to hear u just have to try and see but it rlly is true

[siennaditbot]

This post is for those of you who feel unlovable or ugly because of your weight.

It's always good to work towards healthy habits, don't get me wrong. Still, no one should feel unlovable because their stomach is soft and squishy, their chin folds when looking down or their thighs chafe holes in their pants.

I don't feel very good at my current condition, but you know what's helped me? Reminding myself that not everyone wants a partner with the perfect body. I for one definitely prefer a huggable teddy bear type over washboard abs. Squeezable cheeks over defined cheekbones. Also the whole "personality over looks" thing but that's nothing new.

Also also, another thing that has helped me. Insecure about the stomach bump over your pants? Wear a (mini) skirt. I put on thick leggings or like actual pants and throw a simple black or like red tartan type skirt over them. (Works even with those old shirts that are too short and shrinked in the wash!) The skirt covers the tummy and I actually feel cool and stylish and maybe even attractive sometimes! My mom even asked if I had lost weight! (I hadn't!)

This is my fav outfit rn, really comfy but makes me feel like a kpop star lol. Also new pfp

Anyway, just wanted to get these thoughts out there, hopefully they helped someone somewhere, even a little.

(Also please be mindful that it's not just as simple as "eat healthy and exercise". I, for example, have to deal with PCOS that makes weight loss harder, and have medication for it that made me gain 18kg in under 6 months and it's stayed around the same since.)

[samscompliment]

hbfjbgj im so sorry i am. going to hell for this but. i can't figure it out. please who r you!!! you changed your url right?? or am i just very unaware. i don't remember following this url and i have icon prosopagnosia (a very real and actual condition i just made up right now where i can never remember whose pfp is what and who changed what when) so im just cluelessly scrolling ur blog like ! this stranger has very good opinions! they are very funny! they seem very nice! WHOM.

im not gonna like, UN follow even if i don't actually know you, i just want to know if we're already friends or if we SHOULD be friends.

please dear stranger-who-is-possibly-actually-a-dear-friend, help an old man in his days of woe.. :[

scream i’m so sorry. hi it’s neve nobodydean <3 that’s 100% on me i like to just muck around with urls and i DID get rid of my usual pinned as well. bad etiquette. but this is very cute if we’re not already friends we should be<3

[koko-wa-umi]

thoughts on your top 3 favorite characters :D

Yoooo!! Thank you for the ask >.< I had to think about it a bit because, I do love a lot of characters from a lot of different mediums. Let’s go with these (in no particular order)

Sora from Kingdom Hearts

Joy. Pure joy. The comfort this character brings me is immeasurable. When I’m not feeling good or just feel downright horrible for the day, walking around wacking heartless with my gigantic key feels so good. He’s like an old friend at this point even though he wasn’t my childhood (i couldn’t really understand English back then), he was my early teens and he made it colorful. He’s fun, optimistic, there is something about him that by just looking at him makes me feel extra energised! It’s like magic. He’s the magic Disney is losing but we won’t talk about that oops. Anyways, I’ll take a bullet for him. No questions asked. I’m so grateful that I don’t even mind Square Enix bleeding my wallet dry. Anything for you baby. 

(ALSO THE ENDING OF KH3 VANILLA MADE ME EXPERIENCE FIFTY SHADES OF GRIEF BUT REMIND DLC MADE ME HYPE AS HEEEEEEEELLLLL)

Natsume Takeshi from Natsume Yuujincho

Natsume Yuujincho is that anime that you watch while sitting on your sofa with a blanket and hot coco while rain drops down your window. While the house may be warm it’s Natsume that actually brings you the feeling of safeness and calm. He makes me feel.. understood even though I might not relate to -virtually any- of his struggles, I feel them and I want to give him a hug and be hugged in return. He’s a boy that is learning about bonds and himself. He’s being surrounded by people like he deserves. The beauty of friendship is so.. prominent in this anime that I can’t help but fall in love little by little. 

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Okay first 2 is easy to pick. Oh no what do I pick for the 3rd T^T Maybe check here for 8 others!!! If you want me to cry about a specific one I shall. Just tell. ((I probably can pick a lot better if you give me a genre as well, like romance, action, BL. Anything heheh) - Wei Wuxian, Hua Cheng and Xie Lian are as always, honorable mentions :3 Also Sakata Gintoki for being my pseudo-dad for all these years (even though I’m almost his age someone get me a t-t-t-t-t-time machine)

 Right. Let’s pick.. that one. The obvious one. My old pfp.  

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Zack Fair from Final Fantasy VII- Crisis Core

DID ANYONE SEE MY ULTIMATE HUSBAAAAAAAAND?!?!?

Alexa, play The Price of Freedom by Takeharu Ishimoto. 

“Hey, would you say I became a hero?”

(Why am I making myself cry? I’m making myself cry. I promise I’m not a masochist I just have permanant dust under my eyes it’s a medical condition, trust me.)

Yes, Zack. You did. Because I believe being a hero is not about the fame -look at pretty boy Sephiroth, right, it says enough. No, you saved Cloud, you took down all these people when you realised what was exactly going on, to protect him and passed your legacy to the one who deserved. That’s enough. 

Such a courageus, delightful, inspiring boy- growing and maturing- ending in such a sad note. But it’s okay. I’m proud. All of us who played along with you are as well!

“Embrace your dreams. If you want to be a hero, you need to have dreams.” I’m still searching. But when I do... :)

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Am I dramatic with this? Possibly. But this blog has always held my extra-ass :D No shame now. I just love writing >.< 

Thank you so much for taking the time to ask me stuff. I just love these boys in particular!!!  Take care~!

[red1sweird]

ALLLLLLL of the creepy asks things

Well then, anon, prepare for a long-ass post

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Yeah, it was my mom, so of course she meant it

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

What the fuck, no, I’m still in high school

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

Uh, proooobablyyyy when I summoned my fourth Eliwood, a really good unit, but I kinda wanted Leo and/or Ike?

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

Probably not, I’m really shy

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

No, I’ve never been in a relationship, and I practically don’t have a love life (I have had crushes now and then but really they’ve kinda came and went)

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

Today? No, and I can’t remember if I’ve heard a song at all that reminded me of someone

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

Jeans, socks, a volleyball t-shirt, nothing fancy

8. How often do you listen to music?

It really depends on how I’m feeling, sometimes it’s often and sometimes it’s not

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

I only own one pair of sweats, so jeans but I wish it were sweats cause they’re way more comfortable

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?

??? It’s 2017??? But I guess it kinda did since I got my first laptop (I’m using it rn actually) 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

Antisocial, no question

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

Nope

13. What about ‘R’?

No14. Can you drive a stick shift?

A what?

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Well, I try not to, but it hurts

16. Are you going out of town soon?

Yep. I go to my mom’s home country of Honduras every summer, and I’m going to Tampa this summer too

17. When was the last time you cried?

When I summoned my Takumi, Robin, and Roy simultaneously

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

Does my family count?

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

Nah, I like my brown eye color

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

I dunno, school I guess? But My last day was today so :/

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

What kind of stereotypical straight girl wrote this?

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

I’ve never been in a relationship, and it would be incest, because it was my sister

24. What are you sitting on right now?

My bed

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

No, my best friend says he loves me as a sister but that’s it

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

No, I have no interest in relationships

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

My sister

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

No not really

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

A volleyball tournament

30. Does anyone hate you?

Probably, i just don’t know (My sister doesn’t count cause we’ve said that since 2004)

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

No, I’m a minor, so I can’t drink, and due to past experiences, I don’t want to drink when I’m 21

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

Fuck no

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

Why??? Would I want that???

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Third grade

35. Did you have a dream last night?

Not that I can remember

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

This morning

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

No, I’ll literally be in college and that’s a bad idea

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Maybe, today someone told me they had a crush on me last year, but got over it

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

If you don’t count my mom, who loves me and my sister to death

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

Yeah, I went to Milwaukee with my class and it was fun

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

Please see questions 5 and 23

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

Yeah, everyone in my class, actually, because we’re having a little end-of-the-year thing

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

My parents

44. What’s the best part about school?

I guess hanging out with my friends

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

I don’t have a facebook lmao, my parents probably have pictures of me on their accounts tho

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

One time 2 years ago I did

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Yep

48. Were you single over the last summer?

Please see previous questions

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

No, I was in middle school back then

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Nothing, actually

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

Not really, he’s just some dude in my class

52. Are you nice to everyone?

I try

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Depends on the context. Crush? No. As a friend? Yeah

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Yeah, I’ve gone through a lot of bullshit that had to do with cheating (long story) and I’m pretty sure my partner is gonna have a very loyal wife/girlfriend

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

I don’t know lol

56. Do you think you like someone?

Nope

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

No

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

Either is fine

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

Uhhhh no

60. Do you hate anyone?

Trump Eh, not really

61. How’s your heart?

It’s in…perfect condition…?

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

Oh, yes. A million times yes

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

These relationship questions are stupid, no

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

Probably my sister or my step-sister lmao

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

Pink isn’t my color, and I haven’t painted them in a while

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

It’s probably gonna be my dear mother, so no

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

Who wrote these?

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

Thankfully, no

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

I had to call my mom to pick me up from the bus stop when I got back from Milwaukee yesterday

70. How do you look right now?

A mess

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

Nah, not really

72. Can you commit to one person?

In a romantic or platonic relationship?

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Yeah, his name is my best friend (I respect his privacy okay)

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

Tons of times

75. Did you wake up cranky?

Not this morning, but I have yeah

76. Are you a jealous person?

Kindaaaa

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

Nope

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

(Don’t tell him I said this) My best friend is kinda overbearing, and a little show offy, and he’s kinda being really annoyinh to everyone soo…

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

My older sister (not the other one, who is younger)

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Go to church (I was raised catholic)

81. Last person you cried in front of?

I don’t think I’ve cried in front of anyone since I was a little girl

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

My entire class is pretty unforgettable

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

I don’t have feelings for anyone lmao

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

Talking about memes, my older sister is pretty lit

85. Are you over your past?

If you don’t count that one embarrassing thing I did years ago, yea

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

Nope

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

They’re called parents who are good at parenting, maybe when you’re a parent, you can try it

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

Lmao what “true love”

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

I’d let my mom in, she lives here

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

I don’t think so

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

Nooooope

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

Yep, he’s the shortest person in the class lmao

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

No, but I know a Matthew

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

See the other relationship questions

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

I haven’t had a crush since the fifth grade lol

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

My mom is really pretty

97. Who do you have texts from?

Mainly my parents, my siblings, sometimes my friends

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

I wouldn’t care as long as they’re happy

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Not counting family, no

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

No one, on instagram, it’s literally Takumi, on here it’s chrom, but I did have a pfp with my cousin once

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

I’ve never kissed anyone ever lmao

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

When i had my last ‘crush’ in fifth grade

Wow that took a long time, but there you go, anon