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this season we got to see a whole new side to caitlyn's fighting: close counters. something that she used to be so, SO terrible at.
This season, not only did we see her physically fighting twice, but she also went against the 2 most badass fucking terrifying butches on the show: Sevika and Ambessa. and in both times, she WON.
how does that make any sense? is she now an amazing crazy brawler who can kick anyone's ass??? hardly. of course there are factors at play that helped her achieve this other than raw strength (the hextech malfunction and mel's magic, respectively). but just how the hell did she even hold on her own in physical fights with these beasts of women without them literally flattening her in less that 5 seconds?
that's where a whole side of Caitlyn that i don't see discussed often comes in: respect. or at least, lack thereof. Caitlyn is one of the least respected characters in the show, by other characters. i've addressed it in a post before with Jinx, who doesn't want to acknowledge Caitlyn as a human, for many reasons, but it can definitely come across as disrespect. we saw it with Salo on 2 different occasions. Singed did not give a fuck about Caitlyn's threats and basically called her an impatient baby. she is referred to as a "child" or a "girl" more than fucking Isha. if we go back to season 1, seems like her own parents struggled seeing her as an adult that can make her own choices. her coworkers make fun of her dedication. Marcus thought she was an entitled brat. when they first met, VI didn't respect Caitlyn at ALL.
the 3 characters who know Caitlyn and respect her are: Vi, Jayce, and Mel. that's so fucking sad. Caitlyn wants to be acknowledged for who she is and her capabilities, yet she has to fight harder for it than anyone else around, despite her privilege. or maybe because of it. notice how it's something Maddie preys on: "Piltover looks up to you. i look up to you". she knows Caitlyn desperately wants be taken seriously.
back to fighting: if you notice, Sevika and Ambessa are doing the exact same thing here.
during their fight, Sevika looked like she was mostly just pushing Caitlyn around, trying to hold her off, while Cailtyn was fighting for her life.
we know how ruthless Sevika can be when she actually puts effort into fighting, but in this case it looks like she was playing with her food for just a little too long, and then the hextech weapons started freaking out. and that cost her the fight.
with Ambessa it's even clearer. yes, in a way she sees Caitlyn almost like a surrogate daughter, but does she? notice how she calls Mel by her name. she addresses Caitlyn as "child", and she's not even HER child. it's belittling. Ambessa mostly tries to mold her, and she clearly did not expect Caitlyn to be intelligent enough to pick up on it.
the whole fight in episode 9. Ambessa letting the mole she planted in Caitlyn's bed to execute her? not even doing it herself? disrespect. mocking her for being desperate? disrespect.
when they actually fight, Ambessa shows the exact same symptoms Sevika did. maybe its a Noxian ritual or something, to torture your victim before u publicly execute them, but in certain points in the fight she couldve had Caitlyn killed and just chose not to. it's especially noticeable after she gauges Caitlyn's eye, and Caitlyn rests defenseless on the floor, bleeding on 2 fronts. what does Ambessa say? "you fought well, child." if that's not the disrespect of the century i don't know what is. and AGAIN, this cost Ambessa the fight. and her life, in this case.
the saddest part of it all is that Caitlyn is the character that shows respect the most, to almost everyone she meets. regardless of how they treat her.
#moral of all this is respect the mongoose or she'll come for you.#caitlyn kiramman#youll be the death of me#arcane#arcane season 2
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This Might be Shen Qingqiu
#sorry guys im done dancing around it everyone who follows me please go play or watch death mark#i cant say youll definitely enjoy it . and i also cant say that you should just go in blind. but i think you should consider it
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i havent seen anyone else point out yet that ivan reaching for till's neck was already a consistent theme, strangulation aside
all the way back to round 3. in both that and after the karaoke scene, he's doing it specifically to release his restraints (post-karaoke specifically, it doesnt even seem to be for a real reason other than to bring him some temporary relief/comfort after that). even if its not shown in the other shots, i think thats what his desire is there too.
and with the strangling too, in the end i still think he was trying to save him through it, in whatever way he could at least. you could take that in the "it was a farce to save him" way or the "it was an attempted double suicide" way, but i think its just interesting. we see consistently ivan reach for till's neck to give him freedom, until the same gesture strangles him instead. isn't that ironic?
#alien stage#i have thoughts on the karaoke scene too but.#i mean its very blink and youll miss it but once you do i feel like it changes a lot of context for following stuff#which is why its important character-wise but damn if it isnt genuinely the hardest part to talk abt#more so than the kiss or the death are. to me at least. so. ill just have my thoughts on my own for that
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Head in hands. I forgot to mention Mike also said he's afraid of looking in mirrors. He's afraid to look at himself
Is he afraid to find out how much the torture changed him? Is he afraid that the mirror will be corrupted just like it usually is in dreams and it will all be a dream? Is he afraid to look in his eyes and find out whats broken?
Forgot to add AGAIN. He also said he can't close his eyes. He feels his eyes permanently wide open and he can't go back to his normal expression as before (trauma 😎👍)
I'm so.
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........I've been watching f1 for 10 years so he's always been #33 to me? + I started this blog 5 years ago, before he was a champion so it's just a point of continuity for me to use it bc #33 remains reserved for him??? ++ I'm genuinely wondering if you have the wrong blog bc I've literally never used mv0? Would you like me to lol? ????????
#saying cOmE oN nOw bE a lItTLe bRaVer while you're here on my blog embodying brain trauma behaviours... okay!#youre blocked :/// now youll have to hit me with it off anon 😔#not you having to suffer through more 'kate setting the narrative' trials and tribulations it must be sp tough for you meemaw#the eternal battle between me feeling guilty for not answering asks vs the immediate regret i feel the moment i actually open my inbox#death + taxes + weirdos camped in my inbox
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-> cringetober day 2 - tsundere
nice boat!
#i just think shes neat!#analiceoriginal.png#school days#cringetober#sekai saionji#saionji sekai#idk why school days never picked up traction in edgy 2000s anime circles nowadays#wtv sekai youll always be famous to me for the train death scene n wearing the cutest outfit to be murdered in#also shhhh she counted for 5 seconds tv tropes said so#cringetober 2024
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runs on stage
ITS DONE GUYS I FINALLY FINISHED IT IM SO LATE BUT WE BALL
#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#narilamb#cotl narilamb#cotl fanart#cotl au#fatestwine#fatestwine mara#fatestwine paean#my art#glitchydoodles#leyendeckers your narilamb trend#something something drawing the god of death in bright flowy clothes with dark accents#and the god of life in stiff dark clothes with bright accents#life is cruel death is kind smth smth#do u see the vision#i GRINDED for SO LONG on this#but im so proud of the finished product!!#id like to thank squish for running to my ask inbox to snap me out of my stupid perfectionist bullshit#ive learned so much through drawing this that i never wouldve if she hadnt#and im actually a lot more comfy rendering now!!#so maybe youll see more rendered art from me in the future :3#(depending on how long i have to draw stuff)#onto the ice cream truck meme!!
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"An Hour."
• Masterlist •
Warnings: Hospital settings, aftermath of captivity, mentioned death.
Medic, despite what their job would suggest, wasn't a caregiver. They were just a mechanic working on circuits, not who carefully kept the whole mechanism running. They could fix people, but it was that. Someone would have to take over the aftermath.
Much to Medic's relief, Leader was a caregiver. A good one, even.
Too good, they lately noticed. Too good that it was starting to make Medic worried. But just like every other day, Medic knocked the infirmary door in exactly same time, before opening it fully. Youngest was asleep in the hospital bed - Medic had said Leader that it was unnecessary, but Leader brought one anyway - and at last drops of their IV.
"An hour," Leader muttered. At this point it felt like a ritual. So, without a word, Medic moved and changed Youngest's IV to antibiotics as Leader deserted the room silently. Probably to sleep.
Good, Medic thought. Leader needed it.
Medic made their way to the armchair, only to see Leader's office keys on it. For a moment, they considered giving it back. They respected privacy, but they were also curious. For the last one month and a half, all Leader did was looking for Youngest, caring for Youngest or staying in their office. The first two was understandable, but the third...
Now Medic could learn whatever Leader was doing in their office.
Medic hesitated. They shouldn’t invade Leader’s privacy—Leader had done nothing to earn suspicion, at all. And Leader never broke anyone's boundries, so Medic doing it to them was just wrong. But something had been gnawing at the back of Medic’s mind for weeks now, something beyond the usual worry for Youngest. Leader’s behavior, so single-minded, so intense, felt wrong. So wrong for someone almost obsessed with making the future better. And if there was something in that office that could explain it...
Steeling themselves, Medic turned and walked down the hall to Leader’s office. The key slid into the lock with an ease that almost felt too simple. "Where's Leader?" Medic shouted. Leader's room was wide open and Leader wasn't there.
"Went for a quick walk," Right Hand shouted back.
Medic took a deep breath. "Okay," they muttered. With a simple twist, the door creaked open. Medic slipped inside, shutting it quietly behind them slowly. The room was dim, the only light filtering through the half-drawn blinds, casting long shadows across the walls. At first glance, it looked like any other office—neat, organized, professional. Just like how Leader liked to keep everything. Medic opened the lights.
Notes. Dozens of them, pinned to a board on the wall, scattered across the desk, and even taped to the edges of the bookshelves, almost creating a wallpaper. Most were in Leader’s precise handwriting, detailing locations, names, dates, and other pieces of information that, together, painted a picture out of a detective's office. Medic’s gaze was drawn to a map on the wall, marked with pins and red string connecting various points. They moved closer, recognizing the locations as places where incidents had occurred—break-ins, disappearances, attacks. All related to Youngest.
Their heart pounded as they picked up a file from the desk. It had a picture, the person's face partially obscured, but there was no mistaking who it was. Medic had seen that face around Whumper—one of the underlings of them. The person had been found dead two weeks ago, the cause still under investigation. There were detailed reports about them, autopsies, locations, biographies... informations that Medic doubted Leader had the authority to kno let alone storing.
They set the file down, their hands trembling slightly. Leader had been gathering evidence, but it wasn’t just about finding Youngest. It was about something more.
Another photo on the desk caught their eye. Medic took it, revealing more photos, more notes underneath. Some were crossed out, others highlighted. A list of names—people connected to the kidnapping—each one with a note beside it: confirmed dead, under surveillance, possible lead.
Some of these people were no longer a threat because they were dead. Was it coincidence, or had Leader...?
The sound of footsteps in the hallway snapped Medic out of their thoughts. They hurriedly closed the folder and placed thr picture back on the desk, glancing around to make sure everything was as they’d found it. The door clicked shut just as the office door opened.
Leader stepped inside, looking tired but alert. They froze for a moment, eyes narrowing as they stared in the sight of Medic standing in their office.
“What are you doing here?” Leader’s voice was calm, but there was an edge to it, a warning.
Medic tried to keep their expression neutral, forcing a casual shrug qs if they weren’t digging through the room for the last ten minutes. “You left your keys on the chair. Thought I’d drop them off.”
Leader’s gaze flicked to the keys in Medic’s hand, then back to their face. For a moment, neither of them moved. Then, slowly, Leader crossed the room, taking the keys with a nod.
“Thank you,” they said, their tone polite but distant. “Please wait for my return next time.”
Medic nodded, feeling the tension in the air like a physical weight. They turned to leave, but couldn’t help one last glance at the desk, at the folder now lying innocently on the surface.
Leader didn’t miss the look. “Is there something else?”
“No,” Medic replied quickly, shaking their head. “Just... take care of yourself, okay? You look like you haven’t slept in days.”
Leader’s expression relaxed, a smile so soft and tender taking over. “Don't worry. Byt you should get some rest too.”
How could Medic be suspicious of them when all Leader did was worrying and caring for the team? Shoving the guilt down, they forced a smile and left the office.
-•-
Later that day, Medic was in the break room when the news broke. The television mounted on the wall buzzed with static before the anchor’s voice cut in, somber and urgent.
“We interrupt this program with breaking news. Henchman, a key figure in the recent string of criminal activities linked to the late terrorist Whumper, was found dead earlier this evening. Authorities are investigating, but details remain scarce at this time.”
Medic’s blood ran cold. Henchman—another name on Leader’s list. Dead. Just like the others.
They stood frozen, the room spinning around them. The timeline didn’t add up. Leader couldn’t have done it—they had only left the office for ten minutes, not enough time to cross the city and back. But the coincidences were too many, too pointed.
When Medic next saw Leader, they couldn’t help but study their face, searching for anything. But Leader looked even more drained than the last time, still trying to hold it together desperately. When Medic mentioned the news, Leader’s response was calm, almost indifferent.
“Tragic, but not unexpected,” Leader muttered, shrugging slightly. They weren’t even focused— they looked like they could just collapse and take a twenty four hour nap. “Agency was after them. It was only a matter of time.”
Medic nodded slowly, but the uneasy feeling in their gut only grew. There was something, something that was beyond their understanding. But as Leader walked away, Medic knew one thing for certain— Leader was doing something wrong. It was either their sleeping habits or the team had a huge problem.
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Soo, have another random one. This is standalone, but I wrote this with "A Score to Settle" in my mind. Not quite part two, but I began writing with that intention.
#whump#whump writing#hospital setting#aftermath of captivity#mentioned death#proofreaded but mught have typos#spoiler alert for the next tag >#implied murder#love me some overprotective leaders#have a dialogue that didn’t made into the piece:#“Do you think im capable? i failed. i failed to keep youngest safe.#And now im failing to take care of them. Do you truly believe i have the strength to go after the culprits?#yes i want to see all of them burn for what they did but look at me#all i can do is sit next to youngest and hope that i can lift some weight from their shoulders#because i'm not enough to do anything else#ive been never enough and now im paying for my shortcomings#now if youll be so kind i want to suffer alone#because im not even strong enough to stop myself from snapping at someone who did nothing but worry about me.“#and medic gets kicked out like that. just my brain decided to make a calmer leader so this doesnt fit anywhere#might use later in somewhere but just wanted to post#seriously someone stop me from posting at night or i ramble a lot in notes#anyway#im out#thanks for reading
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my favorite baby style ncu continuity is cute tiny hopeless romantic kindergarten disney prince stan falling in love with kyle broflovski at first sight and buying every flavor of ring pop trying to propose to him like 'you are...the most Beautiful person i've ever seen.'
and evil feral kindergarten nj kyle threatening to bite him, fight him and end his pitiful life like 'and you are...so Gahdamn WEIRD. stay the hell away from me, yA FREAK!' and trying to bear mace him skdhs
— but then k-garten stan doing something incredibly wholesome, mindboggling stupid and storybook chivalrous to save k-garten kyle's life, the ice around his cold black heart melting, bein forever changed and falling head over heels in love w boy hero k-garten stan...
...all to take the fATTEST L OF ALL FUCKING TIME because he is too emotionally constipated to confess his feelings and end up gettin stuck in the super best friend zone FOREVER bc every day perfect stan marsh gets lovelier, handsomer and....Fucking STUPIDER.
#nina speaks#i really do feel for ncu kyle...i do#that man got shafted#please note: if the super popular extremely pretty dark haired boy w/ big blue eyes confesses his love to you on day one#just say yes like just go along with it#however i will say that kyle being unapproachable and hating him and wanting to bear mace him did make him obsessed#which is soooooo mentally ill i am actually CRYING#but yeah because then youre going to realize that he is actually v sweet and cute and kind and wonderful and special#and your chest will start to swell and youll get light headed and want to start smiling and singing and swinging#and then you think he's gonna ask you to marry you again and he just asks you to be his super best friend forever#because he doesnt want to push it clearly u dont like him and he is just happy to be near you and spend time with you#and you want to push yourself off a cliff because now every person on planet earth is in love with stanley marsh#including you#and you are legitmately FUCKED#they really are who fell first who fell harder and i mean it#i love insane yandere black lab bf kgarten stan he is so funny like he has mental problems but i admire his detirmination#i also love emporer of evil probably has rabies new jersey potty mouth orange cat bf kgarten kyle who without a doubt 100%#would have a crush on a boy and send him death threats and be like Get Out Of My School because he makes him nervous#obsessed with my silly gay opposite attract sbf sons#ft baby stan like aw! u wrote me something <3#( can't read bc he's illiterate ) ( hugs kyle ) you're the BEST! ( ft kindergarten kyle having shaking and having convulsions )#pour one out for kyle#specifically jersey#because his stan d*ed he never recovered and then fell in love with the sexc rockstar vers
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rewatched murder drones for the 508303859438202th time and got inspired to draw bat uzi weirdly enough HAHAHHAH also: doodled this per request of a friend
bat uzi JSDVSFGHKJHSK
#i also got inspired to draw that one other idea thats been circulating in my brain but i ran out of inspiration#maybe tomorrow hmm hm#murder drones#murder drones uzi#uzi#uzi murder drones#dont mind the hands in the background that was when i was first learning how the fuck to draw them#i had to bring back my inner undertale artist for the hands fr#dont ask me about the 2nd wing#youll regret it!!!#im also going to beat skig to fucking death the tail gave me so much trouble IMM DONE!!! IM DONE!!!
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The worst part about being too depressed to go to half of your classes is that every time you miss a class it makes you feel like even more of a worthless failure, which makes you more depressed, which makes you miss more classes, which
#every single first term of the year i start desperately looking for a way out of the death trap i meticulously crafted for myself#sorry! too anxious to be worth anything! sorry! too anxious to deserve anything! sorry!#guess youll have to go home and never become anything worthwhile! now thats a shame. anyways#shut up me#vent#I wish i didnt have to fight so hard for scraps of things that come so easily to other people
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i still cant find the words
#akira toriyama#dragon ball#ooc#if you dig deep enough into my post history#which you shouldnt but#youll find a single ooc non community post i left up announcing the death of greg martin#who did the american box art for sonic that i got my start drawing trying to replicate#toriyama was every bit as essential in making me the artist i am today#this post will remain up as well
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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself
#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated#and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it#if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place#but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself#continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone#and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner#you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter#and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault#maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life#saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do#so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time#your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going#and then at the end of your journey#you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey#the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them#is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save#so um. The Guilt is even worse now#now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control#and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad#but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally#you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful#things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be#its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma#you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch#but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander#FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it#mother 3 swap au#mothfics
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#media literacy gang!!#proship#proship safe#proud proshitter#anti anti#death note#op is a proshipper#light yagami#yagami light#dn#lawlight#l death note#l lawliet#light death note#yagami raito#light imagay#non rb#l x light#light x l#if ur not proship youll be way happier blocking me and not wasting the time to interact w this post:3#if u are proship..we should talk fic ideas idkk :3:33 twirls hair#if yall interested in the specifically “”“problematic”“” stuff im into..#uhh. exploring toxic/abusive and sometimes incestuous dynamics mainly?? as ships go#i enjoy analyzing and writing dead dove content/scenarios in general :3#dead dove#dead dove do not eat#the 12 or so essays ive written in 48 hrs on virtually no sleep r making me ramble srry gang#ugh anyways. feel free 2 msg me if u wanna chat ab silly dn things idk !!
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Old hymns go so hard. Modern Christian rock just doesn’t have the guts im afraid. Old hymns are full of organs and connective tissue and viscera and that's why they're good 🫶
#i think its because modern christian rock refuses to contemplate death and sin in a meaningful way#its all like#pretty pictures of jesus carrying you on the back of an eagle or whatever#stare into the abyss and let it stare back at you and maybe youll be able to write another 'just a closer walk with thee'#this is also the reason why modern christian romance is shitty#this post brought to you by abide with me#i was editing my funeral playlist and thought of this
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some of the girls at work who are my age or younger were saying shit like "oh man i really wanna have a baby :(( me and my boyfriend were talking about it" and the 19 yr old who just quit yesterday had a 2 year old daughter already and its like. bro i can barely take care of myself how the hell are you guys even thinking about having babies in this economy. not to mention the horrors
#Interestingly enough the 19 year old mom was the most understanding about me never wanting kids ? If that makes sense#cuz the others were like oh haha i bet youll change your mind later kids are so cute . not malicious or anything i just rolled my eyes#and shes like yep its certainly not for everyone i love my daughter to death but i would never try to change anybodys mind about something#like that
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