#you're malleable :33

[slushfaerie]

you and art were invited to his grandma's friend's holiday party. you really don’t want to go.

art donaldson x introverted!fem reader (or fem reader that would just rather stay home and have her way with loverboy art and vice versa..bc like...) incredibly self-indulgent and hastily written. inspired by my desire to stay home and also my desire for art donaldson. nsfw elements! way steamier than what i've written before. happy holidays and/or happy wednesday <33

it was almost time to leave and you'd put off getting ready for as long as you possibly could.

art looks up from his spot lounging on the couch with bated breath as you emerge from the bathroom, steam billowing through your hotel room.

his mouth all but hangs open as he sees you, cheek resting against his hand as he takes you in, probably wrinkling his pressed collared shirt he’s chosen to wear, sleeves rolled up to his forearms.

there you stood like some sort of angel - wrapped in a silky white robe, still-damp locks of hair framing your face. he would stare at you forever if he could. 

art’s attuned to you as you let out a soft sigh, your gaze a million miles away. holiday gatherings - gatherings in general - weren’t your most favorite thing. but you’d at least have art to buoy you through the evening, trying to make you laugh with aptly timed snide comments whispered in your ear at the expense of other partygoers. he'd reach his hand beneath the dinner table, thumb caressing your thigh acting as a life preserver. anything for you. 

art was agreeable, malleable in social situations, but he could think of a thousand other places he’d rather be - almost all of them having to do with you wrapped around him in some way. 

as you reach for your moisturizer on the dresser, art’s hand covers yours before intertwining your fingers. you melt against him as he slots his body behind yours, kissing the sensitive spot behind your ear, leaving a trail of kisses down your neck. he has to hold back a moan as he inhales the scent of your shampoo, of you. 

art undoes the tie of your robe, peeling it off and putting you on display to him, only in your cute bra and panties. you watch as he grabs the tub of moisturizer himself and unscrews the lid with diligent fingers, warming some between his hands. 

the way art massages your shoulders, it's as if he hopes to melt away your nerves and tension, leaving kisses in their wake. he hums approvingly as he feels you exhale.

you turn around to face him, your robe a silky pool at your feet, a look of momentary bliss on your face from his ministrations. he turns his head to press a gentle kiss to your palm as you cup his cheek with your hand.

art lets out a gasp as you lace your fingers in his hair, pulling his lips to yours. he kisses you back in earnest, licking into your mouth as his warm hands wander down to palm your ass, massaging with as much devotion as he'd given the rest of you, pulling you against him. he'd drown in you if you'd let him.

art lays you down on the bed as he continues to massage the moisturizer into your arms, pressing kisses and giving attention to each hand, each individual finger. looking down to meet his gaze, you see his pupils dwarfing the depths of his blue eyes with that little kiss of brown.

you can't hold back your moans as art leaves lingering kisses on the tops of your breasts - he's all lips and tongue and gentle nips, teasing the hardening buds of your nipples through your bra, trailing his way down your stomach. 

art’s lashes flutter shut as he licks the sensitive skin around your navel, tracing teasing shapes with his tongue right above the cute little bow at the top of your panties. god, you tasted so sweet.

art gives you a crooked grin as you squirm, cheeks flushing, breath now coming out in sweet, shallow pants.

"y'know, you're making me wanna keep you here all to myself."

you mumble with weak protest something about being worried about being late, about making a good impression on his grandmother. art chuckles and rolls his eyes with resignation.

"okay, if you say so." he crawls up your body, giving your cheek a tender caress with his thumb as he leans in closer.

"just wait until i get you back here," the words of encouragement more for himself than you at this point as art pulls himself away and goes to retrieve his sweater from the hotel dresser.

a little motivation to get you both through the night never hurt anyone.

[drabasp]

Union Politics and the Karrakin Trade Baronies, or, Why Union Lets the KTB Do All That

Let me open this post with a small disclaimer: what I am saying here is not necessarily meant to be argumentative, nor is it targeted at anyone in particular. Lancer is a TTRPG setting, and as such is infinitely malleable in terms of setting alterations in order to suit you and your playgroup. This behavior is explicitly encouraged in the core rulebook and I encourage you to do it yourself, in order to better set the limits of what you might want to engage with in the course of play.

However, it has been my experience that it is usually best to understand the material that you're bending when you do so and I'm not entirely sure that some people do- an understandable problem to have when you do not just consume guidebooks in one sitting or fixate on the particularly fucked politics of some aspects of the setting. Of particular concern to me is the Karrakin Trade Baronies (henceforth the KTB,) one of two parts of the setting to get its own dedicated guidebook and the subject of the forthcoming module Shadow of the Wolf. It's a repressive aristocratic state that is home to some of the worst sanctioned atrocities in the setting, but also its a part of Union, so why does the "utopian" Union let them do that?

It's simple: the KTB is a vassal state in an extractive colonial relationship. This is text.

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies, p. 3)

The long and short of it is this- the KTB's initial encounters with Union were short and violent, as these encounters were with an expansionist Second Committee who coveted the KTB's rich resources. The first of these wars featured SecComm nearly securing an incredibly quick victory via an initial refusal to engage in ship combat in favor of simply barraging civillian populations instead:

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies p. 33. I recommend reading this entire section actually, as I find few Lancer sourcebooks willing to go this into detail about single events- the Battle of Kantus Void (starting p. 32) is described in great detail and is frankly quite horrific)

Only to retreat at the last minute in order to deal with the Deimos event.  (e.g. the emergence of Ra on Deimos, followed by the First Contact Accords. One of the ramifications of this is that Union gets access to blinkspace and NHPs, which one might consider a Big Deal technologically.) The second war was won via an overwhelming technological advantage from SecComm as a result of the Deimos event , to the point where the Second Union-Karrakin War gets scarcely a paragraph in the book, and the result is the New Prosperity Agreement, as follows:

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies, p. 34.)

So: Union gets a treaty-guarantee that the KTB has no military fleet, a regular supply of the resources mined in the KTB (explicitly to fund the growth of Union Core), and the KTB gets the Dawnline shore, reparations, and the guarantee that Union will not depose their government. This treaty remains on the books with the transition to ThirdComm, because the demand for resources did not end with the end of SecComm:

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies p. 36. Note the term “printers” here, this is not Star Trek, there are no replicators, your mech was built with raw material that was probably sourced in part or in full from the KTB.)

That is to say: why has the Third Committee allowed the KTB to continue doing what it does? Because 1. There is a treaty saying protecting the existing government and specifically the nobility 2. That treaty is the thing that feeds its shipyards, printers, and the resource demands of its core worlds 3. The First Utopian Pillar says "All should have their material needs fulfilled," so any action that threatens Union's supply lines is viewed as a threat to Union's ability to uphold the Utopian Pillars:

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies p. 36, this one is actually a bit more of a stretch but this is the only thing I can imagine "Union relies on the New Prosperity Agreement to... uphold its principles" refers to.)

You may be asking a few questions.

Does this make absolve the KTB/make their existing structure okay?

Absolutely not. The existence of the structure of landed nobility over an ignoble population is a power structure that itself produces the problems like those seen on Free Sanjak- this is something I see a lot of existing ink spilled over and I think this is made explicitly clear just about everywhere. However, I think it is important to understand that the conditions that the Ungratefuls fight against are those involved in resource extraction, and those are ones that they identify as being ultimately in service to union, as Tyrannocleave says:

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies p. 82)

In fact, even the core guidebook notes that the Ungratefuls tend to regard Union as hostile for these reasons:

Lancer Core Rulebook p. 415, notably the edition that contains the GM rules and setting notes. All other citations from this source are the same.)

They also will target Union openly:

(Lancer Core Rulebook p. 415, paragraph truncated due to page limit in source, the opening lines were "Beyond this, Ungrateful activity ranges in scope from the local to the interstellar. Some cells focus on direct...)

The actual politics of the Ungratefuls are their own discussion, though, and this post is far too bloated as-is.

The same conditions that incentivize resource extraction as a precondition of survival also incentivize existing power structures in the KTB to sanction and allow the kinds of abuse on Free Sanjak. Resource limitations (also noted in the early pages of the KTB guidebook as growing) in the KTB are not a result of lack of material but a demand for export, and those limitations are never going to be felt by the nobility, who will inevitably guarantee that they will be fed, but rather the people.

That is to say- the conditions of the nobility existed prior to Union, but the continued abuses are informed by the Treaty obligations imposed by Union, and this is something that the Ungratefuls textually understand.

Is Union doing nothing?

As shown in that second to last rulebook excerpt, also no. However, the actions Union is taking are broadly informed by the necessity of maintaining plausible deniability. Union is funding and maintaining the Ungratefuls, but are unwilling to put pressure on what is an unstable larger diplomatic situation:

(Field Guide to the Karrakin Trade Baronies p. 81)

That is to say- their larger aid to the Republican Houses (Water and Dust) filters into support for the Ungratefuls, and the UIB hires free agents to run support for them in order to make Union's hands in the conflict seem clean. However, this does not mean any sort of direct intervention by any forces that have clear ties to ThirdComm, as they are unwilling to jeopardize diplomatic ties to the KTB writ large. Or, in short: Union Navy and the DoJ/HR are hands off for this one.

Wait, isn't ThirdComm supposed to be utopian?

I read Union as being a government with a complicated history that seeks to act in the direction of Utopianism. I think that what is textually true about the KTB and the way Union interacts with it, however, is proof of how complicated that project can be. To sanction the KTB is to remove the resource flows that make the Union Core a society that can easily uphold the First Pillar. To maintain this relationship is to continue the colonial legacy of SecComm and continue tacitly endorsing both the aristocratic, exploitative present in the KTB and the extraction that it now seeks to maintain. The compromise that Union has come to is to accept the resources while funding freedom fighters, a position that I wholeheartedly disagree with as a citizen under American Empire who finds that this "compromise" uncomfortably echoes similar situations in the real world, but I think that the inclusion of this in the setting serves to pose the question: what should be done, when you are building Utopia on still breathing body of Empire?

There's a larger discussion to be had here about Lancer as a Utopian setting, but that demands a word count that I think this post has no space for. Suffice it to say- I think that discussions of the KTB should consider this context more, because I think that this is a question the setting is asking, and it is one worth engaging.

[hiskillingjar]

Augh ur mc for Ren is so perfect<33 I'd LOVE to see her become an OC like Echo 🩷❤️

thank you!! and never say never, but an MC for ren feels like it has to be more...mm, malleable, than echo or my mc (just me) for strade usually is.

like ren fits well with shy and submissive, bratty, dominant, he's a really great character in that respect (and hence why he has so many survival endings lol)!! whereas law and strade are more. sturdy from my perspective. they have character traits they're a perfect match with, otherwise you're just kind of a cat toy to play around with, you know?

BUT i appreciate any love for my OCs, even if im using them to play dolls with the murder boys (gender neutral)

[ohithankyou]

yknow you're actually malleable to me bc i wanna squish you anytime i see you on my dash and give you a loving bonk BUT with a side of hyperfixated so it's "no thoughts, head bucktommy" instead

mimi <33 i’ll take the squish and loving bonk and cherish it thank you! also “no thoughts head bucktommy” i think you just gave me my own personal catch phrase/slogan because yeah. no thoughts head bucktommy is incredibly accurate lmaoo

[yuufujimaru]

what do you think will happen if we attached a magical gem to a wand??? (this is def impossible but i wanted your thoughts on it lmao, hope you're doing well w/ ur health lately <33)

Short answer-Fucking explosion.

Long Answer-It would be complicated in the fact that the person would need to have the ability to produce or make a Unique Magic as well as having a magical core. Yuu is a unique case in and of himself as he is able to manipulate his magical core to produce a UM, because he was not essentially indoctrinated into the Magical World of HP. Once you have wand it becomes locked on your core and essentially trains it to work as well as possible for your chosen wand and attributes attached to that wand. Because Yuu was in Twisted Wonderland first his magical core became much more malleable and open compared to other wizards, enabling him to use wandless magic more than a usual wizard. Twisted Wonderland is a Land that does not fear magic and integrates it into daily life, allowing all people, magical and non, to experience it their day to say life making it easier for them to handle compared to wizards.

Back in the first story the wand tried to compensate for Yuu's flexible magical core by embedding itself with Emeralds to try and emulate a magic pen but the two opposing magical forces don't meld together, making it highly unlikely that a wand/pen mix will ever come to fruition.

Note-Thank you for your concern, it's some mental things I am working through as well as intense burnout from life, work and school. I will try my best to keep moving forward though! Hope this anwsers you question!

[accessible-tumbling]

ID 1: A screenshot of a series of green bubbles as if in a text conversation.

"If it makes you feel any better (about turning 20)"

"I'm waaay hotter, more confident, physically stronger, and talented now at 33 than I was at 25 or 20 or 16."

"Don't let the Advertisers get in your head"

"We didn't used to say that people were "over the hill" until their 60s"

"You're NOT "past your prime," you're just getting STARTED"

"the reason all the Narratives are about 16-24 year olds is because that's about as old as you can make an "Everyman" protagonist. People get...specific, as they age. You can't tell a story that resonates with all 40-year-olds the way you can with 16-year-olds because the older you get the more 'specifically you' your lived experience gets"

"20 is the end of the PROLOGUE"

"NOW the REAL plot begins"

ID 2: #narratives are about people young enough to not be missed at a job when they're sucked into a fantasy world #not missed by a spouse and kids they don't have yet #young enough to return home and not find the house repossessed #the landlord emptied out their apartment and left their shit in the gutter #narratives are about people whose lives are still malleable and unchosen #in the type of narrative we're talking about /End ID

[mewos-laptop]

guhhm guhhh meeeeow furr the ask game :33

You're malleable, holy smokes, and meeeooowwww :3

[lacunasbalustrade]

To me, you're meeeeow + hyperfixated + holy smokes :33

AW! THANKS!!! (⁠つ⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)⁠つ you're malleable, meow, and are you ok

[arabella111]

[🏹] get what you want in seconds !

!! pls read this !! - this isn't something i am "creating." it's just a compilation (?) of methods which i think are really easy. idk if that makes sense haha, you'll get it as you read the post! i am just clarifying this because i don't want any comments like, "you're copying abc." i'm just reciprocating what neville has taught!! pls read the whole post! thank you :))

firstly, decide what you want. it can be anything. LITERALLY. go wild. you're limitless, you can get anything. don't think about the how or shit. you want something? you'll get it. okay, now that you've decided it. let's go to the next step!

okay, so i want you to choose an affirmation that implies you have/will get your desire. if you're struggling with choosing one, just go with, "i already have what i want." that's more than enough!

now close your eyes, and just visualize/feel how you would be living your life if you had what you want. and when you visualize/feel, i want you all to vividly do that. use all your senses, and it's okay if you can't visualize is 1st person, doesn't matter. use some music if you want (you all can ask me for song reccs, I AM A PRO AT THAT!). don't think of anything else, throw away your doubts. for some time, immerse yourself in your little daydream. feel that gush of emotion flowing through you. you can do this for as long as you want. after you're done, open your eyes.

now, repeat that affirmation for some times. don't just repeat it like a robot. do it with feeling. that affirmation will be your reality in seconds!! remember that. affirm once or twice or any times, but do it with some feeling.

now that you're done, i want you to close your eyes and tell yourself how powerful you are. basically self concept stuff, just motivate yourself by saying things like i'm the god, i have the power to change my reality in literally seconds. nothing can stop me, everything is possible for me. just say stuff like these, and remind yourself that the moment you open your eyes, you're gonna see what you want in the 3d. that means you're gonna have whatever you want once you open your eyes.

DONE! THAT'S IT! CONGRATULATIONS, YOU HAVE WHAT YOU WANT!!

now, even if you don't see your results (which is HIGHLY unlikely to happen) persist! please, don't give up. assume that whenever you feel like giving up, that's a sign you're one step away from getting what you want. just do it. i know it sounds stupid, but who cares. GOD ISN'T STUPID AND GOD IS YOU!

this works only if you assume it does. so it really just depends on you. it might sound to good to be true, but once you murder logic and bury it, it'll be a piece of cake for you. manifestation is easy. you don't even have to do all of this, this post is for people who think methods really help them! you're so damn powerful, and your 3d is malleable, it doesn't have any power. nobody has power but YOU. you wanna live your dream life, isn't it? so don't give up. this post WILL help you, i promise. if it doesn't, bully me or whatever.

note : if you all really really REALLY want to manifest in seconds, please follow these. it'll really help you. i've tried it and IT WORKS!! trust in yourself and believe in your power. DO NOT, I MEAN IT, DO NOT DO THIS if you're gonna check the 3d very 2 seconds or if you don't wanna acknowledge your power! this is really effective, there's no chance of not getting results, it's literally impossible. and i actually mean it. it HAS to come to you, there's no other way, i am literally so confident, i can bet all my money on this. yes you can change some things if you want, since you're the god and i am no one in your reality to comprehend you from doing so!! i am really excited for this HAHA. all the best mwah, i love you all <33

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

First thing I thought of when I heard of the abyss was the abyss in the deep sea sense and I have not been able to shake that off

Foul Legacy is that big because Deep Sea Gigantism, also Bioluminescence, most deep sea creatures not being able to see that well or at all, like some straight up don't have eyes, the teeth, being able to sense movement, the camouflage abilities, malleable skeletons, acting as a water filter

The last ones seem a bit silly but oh boy I will cram all my deep sea fascination into this Creature of the Abyss

oh anon you and i have the SAME BRAINCELL we are sharing it <33

maybe Foul Legacy identifies you by your scent and voice since his eyesight is so bad- he's already got awful depth perception and his eye really isn't made for sunlight :(( he was so scared when he first came to stay with you since all he sees is something vaguely human-shaped, but once he got used to your scent and voice he stopped being frightened, instead perking up and running to greet you whenever you got home. since sound is so important to him he often replies to you with his own chirps and trills!! it's very much like you're having a conversation, especially when he tilts his head and nods along to whatever you're saying. it's also extremely reassuring for him to know that if you're ever in danger he can find you by scent,,,, he really just wants to protect you <33

you on the other hand- you've developed very sharp eyes!!! or at least, sharp eyes for Foul Legacy- somehow despite him being very tall and colorful with pretty sparkly wings, he's VERY good at camouflaging himself- you've had a few scares where you couldn't find him, only to be gently headbumped in the back by a whining Foul Legacy (who got worried because you were worried). now you can spot him a mile away, and it always surprises him into letting out an adorably shocked little squeak!! if you want to get flustered little warbles and chitters out of him, all you need to do is compliment his bioluminescence- it's something that's very normal to see in the Abyss, so having you fawn over and admire his glow makes him blush like nothing else!! he'll pull his claws up to his face and let out stuttering chirps until you gently pull them away and give him a kiss <33

[septembersghost]

swiffers making fun of Austin's voice are particularly annoying/funny considering she faked a country accent for years lmao

actually, you bring up a great point in that taylor developed that accent through training and immersion (and some necessity of the country industry) in nashville, and to a degree it permanently altered her voice - the twang still sneaks out at times, and she can certainly summon and exaggerate it when she wants. because, in a concept the internet is apparently unfamiliar with, when you do intense coaching to sound a certain way, or spend years immersed in or around a particular accent, it is natural for people to adapt that into their speech and pick it up by ear. it happens all the time. my dad grew up in brooklyn but has now lived much of his adult life, five decades, in texas, and he naturally picked up a bunch of the accent despite the brooklyn still hiding underneath, so he has this ny/texan amalgam. it's why english people who live here in the us for a long while can lose some of their accent, or why americans living abroad can pick hints of one up, and so on. the voice is malleable and adaptive and we respond to what we hear and how people sound around us, even unconsciously. he was absolutely right to compare what he did to prepare and portray that role as spending time in another country. voices also very naturally deepen when they age, listen to any famous person at 23 and 33 and they're not going to sound exactly the same (men especially! elvis himself didn't!!!), and if you're intentionally lowering your voice, it's probably going to have that effect indelibly (ask jackles, who has a notably deeper voice from dropping that register). it's understandable and not a big deal! also, as a friend pointed out, it sounds sexy! why is anyone complaining?!

[intothecometverse]

I posted 134 times in 2022

That's 134 more posts than 2021!

46 posts created (34%)

88 posts reblogged (66%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@halokisses

@daisys-reality

@qrettyinpink

@babygothprincess

@viol3tlavender

I tagged 33 of my posts in 2022

#law of assumption - 16 posts

#neville goddard - 15 posts

#loa - 12 posts

#shifting - 8 posts

#reality shifting - 7 posts

#shifting realities - 6 posts

#manifesting - 6 posts

#shifting community - 4 posts

#reality shift - 4 posts

#loassumption - 3 posts

Longest Tag: 100 characters

#i wrote this entire post and then tumblr glitched and lost it so i had to retype this shit again >:(

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

𝒷𝓇𝓎𝒸𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒸𝒶𝓉𝒽𝓎 || 𝒷𝓇𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃 𝓇𝑜𝑔𝑒𝓇𝓈 𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓅𝒶𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓈

See the full post

40 notes - Posted June 17, 2022

#4

what i’ve manifested successfully AND INSTANTLY within the past days or so

spending time with my sp (and i mean time for like, just the both of us 🦋🦋) on a school trip

TRAFFIC on a school trip so i could stay on the bus longer 🤣

rain during a specific time

all these were INSTANT manifestations— i just visualized about what i wanted and it all came true immediately. i’m going to use this method to manifest bigger things in life <3

47 notes - Posted November 9, 2022

#3

your 👏 reality 👏 aka 👏 3d 👏 is 👏 like 👏 play-doh 👏

i want you to think of your reality, or your 3d, anything you're like, conscious in rn as play-doh. fun, malleable, able to mold into anything the creator wants.

you can do whatever the hell you want with the 3d. it's just that malleable. as the god of your fuckin reality, you can mold it into whatever tf u want. it's that easy.

and whenever the 3d shows u something u dont want, think of it like u make a mistake while making ur play-doh figure. maybe u added a lil lump somewhere, and u want to fix it. so u do. u dont just sit there and cry about how ur play-doh isnt changing shape when u aint doing shit. obviously, if u want ur lil play-doh figure to get better, u apply the changes u want. so in the end, u get the play-doh figure u want.

See the full post

60 notes - Posted July 25, 2022

#2

literally

138 notes - Posted June 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

💌 affirmations for getting into the void state 💌

i am in the void state

i am pure consciousness

i am pure consciousness, not attached to any body or reality

i am more than a body

i will wake up in the void state

i intend to wake up in the void

i am in complete control of where i want to go

i will wake up in the void state if i want to

i am sure of the fact that i will wake up in the void state

i will wake up in the void. because i said so :)

245 notes - Posted June 25, 2022

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lol the edits were before i started @highassho

[wakeupmoonchild]

from strangers to fuck-lovers?

a/n: was unsure if i could post this on ao3 since it's quite short so i thought to post it here

tags: markjae, domsub undertones, bratty jaehyun, daddy mark, aged up characters

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You're now chatting with a random stranger.

You both like Roleplay.

Stranger: M

You: M

Stranger: Age?

You: 27

Stranger: 33

You: That's alright with me, sir

Stranger: I'm glad to hear it.

Stranger: Do you have any favorite roles?

You: I'd like to be a brat who's tamed

Stranger: Brat taming is too easy. Just don't give them what they want.

You: Yeah but the thing is, I have the patience to push all of your buttons

You: I'd get so annoying, you'd think you bit off more than you could chew

Stranger: Is that a challenge?

You: Oh gosh, you caught on that late?

Stranger: Nah. When you said brat I knew it would be a challenge. I've just developed several things to annoy you right back, that being one of them.

You: Hm, you think you're my match? Things are just getting started. Are you sure you can keep up at your age?

Stranger: You're cute

You: And you think you're funny

Stranger: Careful now. Don't wanna say something that will get you punished so soon.

You: Like what? Like how you won't admit that I got your tongue for a second?

You: You couldn't even come up with a better comeback than cute

Stranger: When was the last time you drank water?

You: Just now, while waiting for your slow ass to snap back at me

Stranger: Good. Now get the biggest glass you can, fill it, and start hydrating.

You: Let me guess, you're gonna try and handle me around, huh?

Stranger: Well I'm definitely not going to snap on you and give you what you want. That would just be too easy.

You: I see. Well, I'm not just gonna follow your orders. You have to make me

Stranger: I could force it on you. But that would just be giving you what you want in another way. So I'd probably let it go and just continue to be passive until you gave up and actually listened.

You: Pft. Weak. You can't even pull through with your word. Bet your dick game's that weak too

Stranger: With that attitude you definitely won't find out. However, that is actually me keeping my word. I did say that I wouldn't give you what you want.

You: And I did say I'd push all of your buttons. Look at you trying to ignore the fact I called your dick weak

Stranger: It's easy to ignore when I know what you are trying to do. If you think I can truly be rattled by a stranger on the internet, you are mistaken.

You: Classic diversion by a stranger on the internet where it's obvious he wants to see me crumble

Stranger: I couldn't care less about you crumbling. The fact of the matter is that you want to be here. Otherwise you would have left me for easier prey.

You: And yet...you're here too. Why is that? Is it because for fucking finally, you found someone worth all this effort on?

Stranger: I don't know if you are worth the effort or not. Why I'm still here actually has more to do with the kind of person I am. Though that's not exactly the topic we are on. And if that is the road we are going down, that requires a redefining of parameters.

You: Well, I know which road I'm going down on. The question is, do you wanna shift lanes?

Stranger: That depends on what your intent is. Are you trying to find someone down for the long haul? Or just some entertainment for the night?

You: Hm, I'm the type of person that can go both ways. But if you're the type to be faithful to one outcome, I can always take myself elsewhere

Stranger: I'm not partial to one or the other myself. I can be quite malleable in that way. So at this point I'm gonna leave that one up to you. Mainly because I'm mot.gonna force something on you that you don't want. I'm a dom, not an abuser.

You: If I may stray a little bit from my role, I'd like to say that's sweet of you. Thank you

You: And if I were to be honest with you (role aside), I just want you to rail me

Stranger: I don't see the roles as something that must be held onto 24/7. Don't ever feel like you have to maintain the brat.

Stranger: To be honest, I kinda figured. Are you the kind of brat that likes the funishments? Pushing my buttons until I "break" and just pound you like a fuck doll?

You: Truthfully, yeah. I wanted to rile you up so much that you'd just have your way with me

Stranger: Be honest with me. Did you like that I wasn't giving in?

You: So damn much. I wanted to drag that on until you got so damn frustrated that you'd take me without question.

Stranger: Oh believe me. I want to. And at the rate you were going, if you had been here, you would be crawling away with bruises. Assuming you would let me be that rough.

You: I'd let you force my legs open, throw me around and even hurt me a little if it meant I'd come out of this marked all over by you

Stranger: Don't threaten me with a good time

You: Well, I am. I'm threatening you with such a good time, you'd leave my hole loose

Stranger: Pump you so full of cum it's leaking out of you for days.

Stranger: Or is that off limits?

You: I'd stay naked so you can fuck me anytime. Even when I'm asleep. That's the extent of my limit

Stranger: Oh? Free use for me? Definitely a good thing.

Stranger: And speaking of limits, what limits do you have?

You: I'd even let you fuck me without a condom because I want to feel every inch of you

You: Don't actually hurt me? Like no blood, no piss or anything of the sort. Even emotionally too. You can call me names but don't demean my worth

Stranger: Just to be clear, slut or whore is ok, but no calling you worthless or good for nothing?

You: Yes, exactly :)

Stranger: Sounds good to me. And I don't hurt those that don't want it. Not seriously anyway. The fun ends if you are truly broken. And if I cross a line like that, it also means I failed. And I don't like failure.

You: I love a man like that. God, that turned me on

Stranger: Good to know

Stranger: Do you want long term?

You: Why did I admit that? Well, better than telling you my dick got hard--fuck!

You: Honestly? I do

Stranger: I've been hard so it's good to know I'm not the only horny one here.

Stranger: And honestly I do too.

You: Oh god, you just had to say that. Now I want you to fuck me

Stranger: If you were here I would be fucking you.

You: Maybe we can take this somewhere? Like Snapchat or something? I'll regret it if I don't get a taste of your cock

You: I want you, baby. I want you so bad.

Stranger: I'm fine with snapchat

Stranger: What is your username?

You: @prettypeach

You: What's yours?

Stranger: @mkl000

You: So, I'll see you over there?

[uncanny8ellen]

Random Angst Lines from my messy post-its (free to use as writing prompts

1. "So I have to lose you too, huh."

2. "Fucking- look at me!! You call this a human?!?! A person?!?!"

3. "It's so messed up that I'll end up forgiving you. Eventually."

4. "We all die. That's what is so comforting."

5. "I know. I've always known. You just never asked about what I have to say about it all."

6. "I promise I won't let your death tear me apart. Memory of you will keep me going. You can rest now."

7. "To what? I have no one, nowhere, to go back to. This is my life now."

8. "Pleasepleaseplease just be alive, crippled, brain damage, don't give a fuck I'll take care of them. Just be alive, please God let them be alive"

9. "I got to meet you. I'll be cut down 10 times over just to get to this point again. You were worth it."

10. "You can't even fathom the kind of hell I've been subjected to, so stop pretending like you know shit"

11. "Please just stop......just........just end me...I don't even know how to live anymore..."

12. "Everytime you die a little bit inside, I feel it. It's fucking killing me."

13. "And here I thought that for once in my life, someone sees me as more than a means to an end."

14. "There is nothing you can do. You wanna help? Get as far away from here as possible."

15. "Take mine. I won't be needing it soon."

16. "My days are numbered. And I bet them all on you."

17. "No I-I didn't even get to apologize! There's no way those are the last things they heard from me before...before........no."

18. "I'm sick of being hard-to-kill, while everyone's dying around me."

19. "At night, I think of ending it all. Better than any meds I had. Helps to sleep when things get tough."

20. "Why would I be mad. You are right. I do deserve all that's happened to me."

21. "Don't look for me. I never existed. We never met. You can't save me. Go live your life."

22. "Shut the fuck up, just hang on, hang on, you can tell me what a, a bastard I am, hell, just punch me in the face after this. Just keep breathing....."

23. "Getting me so malleable in your hands, so pliant, so weak, playing me around as you please, all the while searching for the best moment to strike and destroy me. Tell me, how did it feel, to see me acting like such a fool whenever you whispered those tantalizing lies, while looking straight into my fucking eyes?"

24. "What are you doing. Goddamn it, I'm not worth dying for! Stop!"

25. "Blame me. Insult me. Berate me all you want. Just please, please talk to me."

26. "You have the last piece of me. The rest died with all the people I lost."

27. "How much more do I possibly have to go through? If this is a test, I know one thing for sure. I'm about to fail."

28. "I never asked from you. Not once. Just this once, I'll be selfish and ask you to stay."

29. "Every waking moment I thought of you. Knowing I'll never see you again."

30. "They have nothing to do with this. It was all me. I did it. Just let them go please!"

31. "Did you really trade off your life for mine?"

32. "You swore we'll get out of this hell together. Together."

33. "Don't say anything. I'm leaving."

34. "You forgive so easily. Like what I did to you is something forgivable."

35. "Stop saying that. You don't know what I am. And you sure as hell don't love me."

36. "I'm not killing you again. I'll kill myself if I ever even think about it."

37. "Just...ju-just don't move and....stay like this. Just a bit....longer.."

38. "Don't fucking touch me! Leave!!! Don't you fucking hear me?! Get out!!! Get the fuck away from me!!"

39. "You want to get rid of me, do it. But once you're done, don't look back."

40. "Just because I don't react the way others do doesn't mean I don't feel pain."

41. "Oh you can leave, after you're done murdering me."

42. "This is where I end, and you start."

43. "I don't 'pity' people. I'm trying to be with you because I see you. A human being, struggling in agony. So fuck it. Guess I'll suffer with you."

44. "I know you don't want me standing in your way, but. I know what's at the end of this road. If I have to block it with my dead body I will. Better me than you."

45. "You're not even close to a monster. I know my kind when I see one. And I see no lost cause."

46. "Was any of it even real? Kisses? Hugs? Smiles? Or even you coming here in the first place was also a part of the ploy?"

47. "I understand. I was a parent too, once."

48. "You said you'd die for me. So, die."

49. "Where I *stabbed/shot/burned etc.* you before. Does it still......hurt?"

50. "You told them about me. You didn't mean to say it, I get it. Well, not my first time being tortured."

51. "How are you so calm about this?! Must be the blood loss, that gotta be- hey, hey!! Stay awake you hear me??"

52. "Breathe out, slowly. Slowly. This'll hurt. I'll make it quick."

53. "Always thought I'd.....die alone. This is not bad."

54. "I only have you to ask for this. Before they take control of me, take me out."

55. "You should have said it before you threw me away. Can't go back now even if I wanted to."

56. "Let this be the end, so I may rest at last."

57. "They won't come after me. They'll come after you to get to me."

58. "I relapsed. You leaving me yet?"

59. "...How do you even get these scars."

60. "The more I kill the worse it gets."

[thearcadiumarg]

Audio Recording #4

TW: Minor distress Begin Recording

[00:00:00:00] Can you hear me? Is this thing on? That is what he would say, I suppose. Or...something or other. He never did seem to care for anyone else but his so-called "friends". Perhaps now, he'll be more...reliable. Malleable.

[00:00:21:42] [There's the muffled sound of a voice in the background. A sharp inhalation. A laugh]

[00:00:31:33] Now now, don't be like that, hm? I promise this'll be over soon. It's...well, what's the date? Can you tell me?

[00:00:39:78] [Silence fills the room. A crash, a muffled groan and silence once more.]

[00:00:46:26] No help. As...always. For the record, the date is June 14th, 1973. Location is not to be disclosed due to liability. Persons involved, also not to be disclosed. Funny how I'm leaving out such...important details, hm? It's alright. It's alright. You should know better than to move as much as you do.

[00:01:15:58] [The sound of a drill screeches through the recording, a scream piercing the room. Another laugh, then a cooing sort of whisper. There's sobbing that's heavily in the background.]

[00:02:02:28] Well, would you look at what you've done with the place. Making such a mess. Come on. I could have sworn you knew better than that. Keep it all in, not outside of your body. Just think! Think of the legacy you're paving! You'll help me, Jack. You'll help me keep our family name going, Jack! This is what we wanted, isn't it? Oh, don't look at me like that. I'll fix this. I'll make this right. Just you wait.

END OF TAPE.

[thunderheadfred]

If you're doing the OC questions, how about 41 for Jane and Garrus, 33 for Albacus and 28 for Nihlus? Hopefully that's not too many?

Not too many at all! Thank you for asking!! :D

41. What’s their sexuality? What do they find attractive? Physically and mentally? What do they like/need in a relationship?Jane and Garrus are both bisexual - in Jane’s case this is mentioned explicitly (she fools around with some asari on the Citadel, and seems to have a bit of an itty bitty crush on Liara) whereas with Garrus it’s more a matter of leaving things open to interpretation (as far as it’s relevant to Red Streak) but I definitely consider him bi, and I’ve tried to leave the language about his previous sexual experience - with other turians in particular - gender neutral. 

In her own words, Jane has a soft spot for loudmouths with hearts of gold. Regardless of species, she’s physically attracted to people who are unpretentious yet disciplined - she wants to know you work out, but she doesn’t want to hear you bragging about how much. Plus she’s got an uncomfortable fixation on turians males in particular, and it makes her worry that she’s got some Freudian problems… and maybe she does, haha. In a relationship, she needs space. Lots and lots of space. I don’t think she’s comfortable with the idea of being  “a couple” with anyone. Relationships would be low-key, private, arguably hidden, because she doesn’t want to advertise what she sees as a massive, person-sized weak spot. 

Garrus is a lot less picky. I imagine he’s slept with… ahaaaaa… a lot of people. Always for fun, always a great time, but never for keeps. When people get attached (like Dr. Michel), he feels like he’s been dishonest, somehow, because we all know why he was sleeping through half the human population on the Citadel. In a relationship? He’s never really let himself explore anything serious yet, he’s been too chickenshit, and too afraid of missing his chance to find that mystery woman again. But I’d guess he needs honesty, first and foremost. Relationship “rules” and romantic crap and maintaining the mystery would all chafe. Just be honest. Hell, leave the bathroom door open and brag about what you’re doing, he doesn’t care, as long as you’re not making shit up.

Get… get it?

33. What underwear do they wear? Boxers or briefs? Lacey? Comfy granny panties?Oh my god, I’m sorry. Envisioning Albacus in granny panties is terrifying, hahahaha. I don’t really know what kind of underoos turians wear, but I imagine Albacus is used to some expensive ones, and has to get used to like… crates of garbage retrofitted tighty-whitey equivalents as he settles into life on a human colony. That’s pretty goofy to think about, LMAO.

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?Oooh this is a good question. Nihlus has been pretty tight-lipped about his past, but we know his dad was a mercenary wife-beating scumbag, basically. I think most of who Nihlus grows into - this stoic, snooty cosmopolitan, a guy who seems like he’s absolutely always in control, the ultimate lone-gun Council Spectre - is based around the idea of being a better person than his father was. He does all he can to avoid inheriting his father’s legacy of selfishness, and to do it, he had to claw his way out of a deep pit of violent, abusive, Terminus lowlifes who only cared about the next payoff. By the time Shepard meets him, Nihlus is operating alone and has a difficult time making interpersonal connections, but that’s not because he wants to be alone, at least not deep down. His reticence and outward chill are founded in the same fear: a fear of hurting people unintentionally, or even worse, hurting people without any remorse at all. 

No matter how close he and Saren might have been (I don’t ship them romantically, but I imagine Saren was a bit of a surrogate dad to a very angry, very malleable teen Nihlus), when Nihlus watched Saren growing more and more corrupt, he saw his father in that growing shadow, and finally gave up on his would-be mentor and oldest friend.

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