#you're a life savior

[skylie-spiderlillis]

I know most of the DBDA fandom probably thinks at paineland at the trope of "x fell first, xx fell harder" is Edwin falling first and Charles now falling harder; because Edwin was obviously shown first to express his feelings.

But consider this-

Charles falling in love with Edwin slowly a little more every day, falling a bit deeper for him every day they spent side by side.

And at some point later- Edwin is crushing hard. Realizing "oh shit, I love him-" and falling hard in a chaotic storm of feeling he doesn't know how to deal with, he's a complete mess.

Idk, I personally prefer the second version more but both options can be great interpretations of their dynamic.

[rinadragomir]

here’s some TID couples for you i’ve illustrated 🫶

Oh my god 🥺

You— BUT THEY LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL

The way Lottie is looking at Henry and he's just smiling with his adorable little smile

And PLEASE allow my delusional ass believe that it's Gabrily in Wales right after Gabriel arrived to meet her parents. They're literally shining here🥺

And NO YOU DIDN'T JUST MAKE SOPHIDEON LOOK AT EACH OTHER LIKE PURE PUPPIES THEY ARE. They're so in love it hurts

[ghouldtime]

That anon ask about what Konig would do if his neighbor/love interest was jeopardized was so sad omg and it got me thinking.

What if they just confronted him on his distance? At that point in that scenario they have no idea he was even involved in the slightest. To them they just went through something so put of pocket and traumatic and the sweet guy they've assumedly fallen in love with has started packing his things, not talking to them so they go to him and ask if they are okay, if he's okay.

Que the tearful (but not over dramatic for the love of god) trauma dump about what happened to them and how they miss him and crafting nights. Would he come clean, so to speak? Would König still leave or would he try to work through it? Would he coldly reject them and tell them to just forget about him?

Oh hell, what if they piece it together?? Like you mentioned they saw his eyes beneath the mask and thought he sounded ever so slightly familiar, would they say anything?

Though i agree that it would be a massive reach for the whole thing to be able to happen in the first place, like you said unless there's a rat in KorTac or he some how slipped up, which tbh doubt it highly. You'd have better luck shooting a straw up the ass end of a gopher from 100 yards away. Homeboy probably doesn't even keep his gear and mask at his personal home, keeps it as far away from his civilian life as possible, I'd wager.

I'm going to break your hearts more - you don't even GET the chance to talk to him there.

Basically, your stuff is being already packed, you're being told to zip your mouth and not say anything to anyone. Your old identity is being erased, you're given a new one. They're not going to have that jeopardized because you wanted to talk to someone. You're just going to have to "Disappear". Which means new phone number, no contacting people from your old life (minus family if that's even applicable and they're feeling generous), and you're going far, far away.

As far as the world is concerned, you've fallen off the edge of it and disappeared. Giving you contact to ANYONE in your old life can jeopardize that. Trying to talk to ANYONE from your old life to reveal or ask anything - jeopardizing that. Refusing witness protection after THAT would be a really, really terrible idea and quite frankly, not worth it.

Not to mention, König wouldn't give them that chance either. You're not getting back and lounging around and having the luxury of time or goodbyes. The reality is, they're getting you out of there and you can't talk to anyone - they're already far in motion packing your things and shipping you off. König isn't going to make his appearance known, he isn't going to try and approach - you won't even see him. Your number and email are blocked, he's not letting you take that risk and possibly get another chance to be hurt because of him.

That's just the reality of going through something like that. You have to leave everyone and everything behind. You're not getting a chance to say goodbye or to confront him. That's it, what's done is done. Not his fault because that's just witness protection 101. I mean, he's not helping but he won't interfere, he knows how important it is and he wants you to have the best chance at life.

If they even tried to approach him during the initial rescue while they're still flying back to base after having been saved, he's not coming clean. He's not saying anything. He'll just deny and tell 'em to go away. It hurts, yes. But it would be even worse to have that confrontation and to put things together and have them confirmed.

"But doesn't he want to say goodbye?" Of course he does. But that only makes things harder. Like I said, he'd rather stick in your memories as the person you loved and lost due to circumstance than the person who did this to you.

What good would that do? He'd still have to leave you. You're not allowed to contact anyone and going back to him would literally just be putting you back in the ring of fire. He's not going to let that happen. That would feel even worse.

It hurts beyond anything else, but he's doing the right thing in his mind. A goodbye isn't worth tearing you up apart even more. You know in movies when someone has to let an animal go and ends up having to throw things at it and yell to get them to leave? Yeah. That's what's happening here.

There's not going to be a happy ending or scenario for this. There's not going to be closure. There's not going to be a chance with him.

Which is WHY he specifically put so many safety measures in place to ensure that this wouldn't happen. He doesn't want his work life encroaching on his domestic and he never wants to bring it back or expose you to it. Like I said, literally everything would have to go wrong. He's a careful man, he knows what the world can do. He's preparing specifically so that will not happen to the best of his ability. If he even thinks there's a compromise, he's acting. Better safe than sorry Also I love that gopher saying 😭

And you're correct! He doesn't keep his gear at home. The 'just in case' box which has some spare gear is locked up with a chain and all, shoved away in a back corner in the basement, and covered. He has 0 reason to have that stuff with him in civilian life. What's he going to do with it there? That's not to say he doesn't have weapons and guns hidden, but he doesn't have anything personal that would give his identity away. Everything work related stays at work, he's very serious on keeping them separated. If they needed to call him in, he'd have to go there anyways, so it makes sense to just... keep it there where it can be secure.

And just saying, I'm never writing that for the neighbor! Au because it's not happening. It's extremely improbable and I want to give him a happy ending 💚

[keen-eye]

fallen idols is so disheartening because it could've been the turning point for sam and dean's relationship. it's right after the end where 2014 dean tells 2009 dean to do things differently because he drove sam away and everything went to shit. and then in fallen idols, the very next episode, dean continues to treat sam the same way (to bobby about the apocalypse: "yeah well we all know whose fault that is"), although sam does tell dean that they have to do things differently because "before" is why things went wrong between them in the first place. dean still doesn't get it but he eventually comes around and admits that he also had a part to play in starting the apocalypse and that he should let sam grow up so that they can be equal partners. but the problem is that you could remove this episode entirely because the rest of the season isn't affected by it at all, except the last episode. and it's because dean couldn't let sammy go. dean deeply loved sam, but his love and concern were laced with mistrust and disrespect because he blamed sam for taking sammy away from him all those times while dean wasn't watching over him. and dean's conditional love is evident throughout the entire series.

if all of this + the fact that it's the 'paris hilton/gandhi beats up sam' episode doesn't sum up supernatural then i don't know what does

[eye-in-hand]

I really hate commenting on intracommunity issues between the different branches of Judaism. I really fucking hate it. But what I hate more is when people sit there acting like their shit don't stink

Really wish orthodox Jews would stop saying they don't see reform converts as real Jews as if they have the final say or monopoly on Judaism. As if they're the ultimate authority. Sorry, my rabbi and congregation say I'm Jewish and the antisemites also think I'm Jewish so. We all end up in the same place idk what to tell you.

And we're allowed to criticize orthodox practices. It's not an attack on orthodox Jews. I swear you say one thing about how orthodoxy has harmed you and people immediately get pissed off at you for calling it out (not just converts. I've had plenty of talks with reform Jews who grew up Orthodox and had a lot of insecurities because of that. My Rabbi has flat out said there's a lot of unlearning of harmful orthodoxy that needs to happen, and I 100% agree.)

There are real issues in the Orthodox movement, and while I'm glad things sound like they're getting a little more progressive, we can't sit here and pretend there aren't problems that are more inherent in orthodox movements than other ones. And this pseudo authority is annoying. Reform Jews are real Jews. Patrilineal Jews aren't "converting", they're born Jewish just as much as Matrilineal Jews are. They can be as connected or disconnected as any other Jew. Jews in inter faith marriages are real Jews. Secular Jews are real Jews. You are not the gate keepers of jewery, all Jews get a say in who is and isn't Jewish.

Are there problems in the other branches? Yes. But we're allowed to talk about how orthodoxy has harmed us without that disclaimer.

So while I don't need your approval on my Jewish identity, you constantly going around saying "sorry, you're not a real Jew unless you follow my specific idea of what being a Jew means" is such a slap in the face to all the hard work reform converts put in. Sure it's not exactly the same as an Orthodox conversion. But it's still living a Jewish life whether you like that or not.

Judaism is about interpreting the texts and the laws. Reform Jews interpret things differently. That doesn't make them less valid than orthodox Jews. That's the whole fucking point. Get this religious purity shit out of here. It's condescending and unnecessary.

And I say this as someone who's interested in converting to Orthodox jewery, but I can't. Because I live in rural America and the closest synagogue is an hour+ away and it's reform. The next one after that is reform. And so is the next one. The closest Orthodox Jewish community is over 6 hours away. I can't afford that shit. And not just that, but I'm trans. And I've already been told on online Orthodox Jewish spaces that "well you were born a woman so you still have to do what the women do" fuck that transphobic shit I'm a fucking man, and I will live my life as a Jewish man.

I love Orthodoxy. I love a lot of its ideas. But it is not accessible to me and never will be unless there's significant changes to how the movement treats LGBT+ or Jews they "don't approve of."

Reform Jews are real Jews. It's a Jewish movement made by Jews for Jews. The conversion process is valid, ya'll are just full of yourselves. No Jew is more Jewish than the next. We are all living a Jewish life because we are Jewish and we are alive. It's not a fucking competition.

[pochapal]

rounding up all princes on white horses and leading them straight to the glue factory

[juliareed]

Fandom: Alias Relationships: Sark/Irina + Nadia/Elena, Nadia/Roberto, Nadia/Sloane Song: Would've, Could've, Should've by Taylor Swift Summary: Exploring some of the parallels between Sark and Nadia, by comparing Sark’s relationship with Irina to Nadia’s relationships with Sloane, Elena and Roberto. Content warnings: Character death, child abuse, needles, torture, violence, flashing lights

[frootbyethefoot]

actually sick to my stomach i love half life so much

[halenhusky309]

JC stans rant about people holding JC to a higher standard when it comes to repaying life debts, and then pretend that WWX never paid his debts to the Jiangs clan (Which is absolutely nonsense) as a gotcha is funny to me, when that weak-ass spineless loser never ever repaid any debts he owned. Like shut up about us calling him an ungrateful bitch, and stop pretend that we wanted him to sacrifice everything. If he couldn't outright explain the nature of his life debts to the Wens siblings to the cultivation world, he's weak man with weak moral.

[pondscummy]

the "also sick" comment isn't like "btw I'm SICK, how dare you not know" it's me saying I'm sick like how 2/3 of my roommates are

but like I'm so;;;; it feels so rich that L is like wtf do you want from me about me not replying for 45 minutes when I had to beg his gf over hours and hours of texts every so often to not force me to sit in unwiped shit after my surgery bc she had openly told me she just didn't rly feel like setting up the attachable bidet after telling me for weeks she would, and I never ever got a reply from her or L ever acknowledging that they were wide awake hanging out and laughing while I was like stuck in bed barely able to move begging for follow through on a commitment they made in advance and i eventually had to spend over $100 to hire someone to come out the next day and do it for me and I had to hold my shit for hours lmfao

like L is sooooo great at couching things in flawless tumblr wellness speak but only to talk about how valid they are for not showing up for you and how fucked up it is that you MIGHT ever have a moment where you can't be 100% there w them. like idk what to tell you I've been laying in bed with a sore throat and cough and fever passing out and waking up to roll over in buckets of sweat like the rest of the house. I do genuinely get being annoyed by a lack of response but it's also right back to this whole thing about Always assuming I'm mad at them which is legit one of the only things that actually makes me mad fjdkddhk like bro I do not THINK about you when you're not acting like I'm a bomb about to blow (also, as an aside -- we all take turns buying TP and it's usually me who does it like it's not out of pocket for me to say hey you are the One person who is out of the house already rn, can you get this on your way bc None of the bathrooms have back up rolls and one is totally out and I had to text our sickest roommate telling her to use the bidet and drip dry like.... "am I the first person you asked" yes bc you are the person who makes the most sense dumbfuck. I'm not being "overly needy" toward you or whatever jfc)

they literally told me at one point that the reason they're so scared of me is that my face is "triggering" for them when I'm angry or not feeling good and puts them "back in a really bad place" they have seen my face angry literally 3 times and each time it was on my way back to my room to decompress and each time I said nothing to them other than that I was in a bad mood and I was going to go to my room. I didn't yell either I just said it normal. like I genuinely feel gaslit here like I'm this horrifying monster of a man when it's like dude sometimes people are mad I don't know what YOU want from ME!! I do all my venting here where they can't ever see it even tho we've blocked each other, I censor their name like anyone even knows who they are, I isolate to chill out and it's literally been less than a handful of times like should I fling myself from the roof??????? would that fix it???

I literally know it's bc I'm a man too. none of this was like this until my facial hair came in more and it got crazy worse after I got top surgery and they're so so vocal about how much they despise men and think men should all fuck off and die and there's only a handful of acceptable men that they've personally vetted. despite them pretty clearly having a trans woman fetish bc they only date or look at porn of trans women and they do the whole step on me mommy thing about it even tho their gf has complained like. lmfao you're just a baby te//rf even tho you ID as trans masc yourself. like that's all this even is. I'm a big (5'3") scary (spent the whole weekend w my coworkers asking if I was 12) man who's obviously going to snap and kill you all bc sometimes I *checks writing on hand* get frustrated and go lay down about it

[ayo-edebiri]

hi lovely, just thought you should know in the last gifset, the gif where crowley is in heaven is a bit glitchy and has a spelling mistake (the sentence doesn't make sense) i'm sorry this is not a criticism i adore your gifs 🥺

Thank you so much for telling me! Photoshop was crashing, I was fighting for my life 😬 (i also always make mistakes :')). It's fixed ❤️

[attentakaaz]

if I survive, if I'm found alive, if I'm okay after this in general

I'll stop putting on this facade and show my true intentions

two hours left. . .

[encodedkismet]

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[meticulousmaker]

another random thing that stands out to me rewatching Steven Universe as an adult:

throughout the show there's this clear Vibe that Steven has inherited some big magical destiny, right? and it makes sense narratively: he's the son of Rose Quartz, leader of the rebellion, now being raised by her friends who were the last remaining survivors of an interstellar war. he's like a human child in most ways, except he has magical powers that start to become more obvious as he's getting older. no one like him has ever existed before. it's a big deal. raising him and figuring out how he's going to grow is its own unique challenge, because nobody knows what to expect. so of course there's this magical destiny vibe, given all that.

What's interesting to me, though, is that this magical destiny is in no way literally, physically present in the story, it's just something everyone kinda feels. Like, there's not some ancient prophecy about a half-gem, half-human savior. He's not the Chosen One in any literal sense, he just happens to give off Chosen One vibes. And I say that's interesting because it means that the fact he was kinda raised with this Chosen One vibe is completely a decision everyone around him made, for better or for worse. And the show is aware of this, because the weight of Rose's legacy and everyone's expectations of him is a constant theme, and as Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl all grow and develop, they also realize the downsides of them putting those expectations on a child. Like, Steven spends his whole childhood being told about how great Rose was, and how because he's inherited her gem he will probably inherit her powers - and that's not necessarily a bad thing. Imagine how awful things could have been if Steven had no exposure to the Gems and no knowledge of what they were or how they worked, and then his powers started coming in? It was hard enough even when he was surrounded by the most qualified Gem Experts on Earth. But being primed for all of this "you're going to have your mother's magical powers" stuff put a heavy weight on his shoulders, and then the fact that nobody else quite knew how his abilities worked meant he was constantly faced with the adults in his life looking to him with concern because they didn't know what was happening with him. That's gotta leave an impression on a kid - and, well, throughout the show and especially in SU Future we definitely see that it does.

I like the way the show handles the pressure that's put on him, and the fact that everyone is just... trying their best in a completely unprecedented situation. Nobody knows what to do or how to raise this kid, and that inevitably causes problems but everyone is trying. And Steven can feel that everyone is trying without knowing what to do and he just wants to help and not be a burden and none of his caretakers have said that he's a burden but he can feel everyone's confusion and concern and the expectations he's not living up to and he cares so much, about everyone, about everything. He's in an extremely unique position that grants him opportunities to help that nobody else has, and he feels like he's failing everyone if he can't fulfill that, and in the end it never should have been his job to fix things but somebody had to try. Somebody had to try, and he was one of the only people with the ability to stop the Diamonds, stop the war, stop the lies, stop his world and everyone on it from being destroyed... and he was just a kid.

[nurs3lovl3y]

𝑸𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝑶𝒇 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑫𝒂𝒚:

𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝑺𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝑮𝒐𝒕 𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝑪𝒉𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒎𝒂𝒔? 🎁

🦞❤𝑰 𝑳𝒖𝒗 𝑯𝒊𝒎❤🦞

[expressionless-fr]

I'm sorry you felt so bad that you needed to hurt yourself Kian. Are you feeling any better now? I mean,,, probably not but still, how are you feeling ? You going to be ok?

🍨

I dunno really :( but tysm for asking <3 it means the world to me <33 !!

I hope I let go of her tbh she wasn't that great of a person she reclaims yandere and I can go as far as calling her a conditioner , I'm not really into dying over some girl™ (*°ｰ°)ﾉ