#you’ll never know which one is me

[kyndlyng]

How I feel with my friends

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[qwakque]

been thinking abt book 4 again,,,

[lunerabo]

Women: every waking moment I am in debilitating pain. My entire body is on fire and I can barely go to work. I have been waiting for an actual diagnosis for three years. My mother had this and it killed her. Please help me

Doctors: that sucks lmao hope it gets worse faker

Men: dick no worky :(

Doctors: ohguhh oh mym fUCJKIGn god we have to DO something about this

[twinstxrs]

thinking about how gorgug + kristen perceive both their own deaths & each other’s, and how that impacts their relationship. bc i feel like freshman year kristen was too caught up in her newfound knowledge of the nature of her own god to truly clock & process gorgug’s internal revulsion of where he went after he died, & freshman year gorgug wasn’t familiar enough with the complexities of other people to truly lock onto the sorrow buried within the chaos of kristen’s upward/downward/sideways spiral until she was seemingly on the other side of it. & i wonder if they’ve ever really talked about it (unlikely), or if they’ve just cracked very few jokes that didn’t land and decided to never quite do the work & dig through that part of their relationship. but there’s a kinship there; kristen specifically singles out gorgug to tell him she died again, and gorgug apologizes that he wasn’t there with her this time. gorgug takes one of the finger bones off kristen’s newly/long-time decayed corpse to have an anchor to something in the world. despite the fact that they were in different places after death, having been together during it means everything.

anyways what i’m trying to say is i think they should talk about it.

[boxwinebaddie]

Now Miss Nina...THOSE TAGS

i said what i said!

ALSO: i think he said "I-I Lo--" before he passed out </3

[t-tomuras]

Wanna grind my clit on his pelvis and his hands gripping my hips while he tries to get me there first before I get pinned to the mattress and used in turn

[danothan]

everyday i log onto the internet i am forced to fisticuffs combat the halbarry default yaoi allegations. THEY’RE NOT A BASIC BRUNETTE/BLONDE JOCK/NERD DYNAMIC THEY’RE MORE THAN THAT (coping)

[sainamoonshine]

Listen guys I know I will never be much good* (or even enjoy, tbh) calligraphy, but my mother-in-law keeps giving me old “the basics of calligraphy!!” sets that she finds at goodwill that obviously someone got as a gift in the 90s and never even opened and I enjoy collecting the inks and tiny ceramic bowls and inkstones so, so much ☺️

*this isn’t poor self esteem btw this is clear eyed & serene knowledge of where my skills lay and the answer to that is in art forms that do not require steady hands and good spatial awareness. I like digital art and fiber crafts lmao.

[ozimagines]

(Got a request involving him so I figured I’d post this first just to lay the groundwork for what I think of him.)

Dating Nikolai Stanislavsky would include…

Want a man who’s Russian, from Russia, and was born in Russia? Have I got the man for you lol

Dude strikes up a conversation with you on the street. He thinks he’s more suave than he is.

Prides himself on being a gentleman. He offers you his seat on the bus.

“So, what is nice girl/guy/person such as yourself doing in a place like this?”

You can’t help but smile at the cliche. You tell him you’re just going to get groceries. He asks if he can come along, showing you his bag as well.

You go shopping, and he compares them to the shops in Russia, missing his home a little but also excited that he can get green apples year round at Walmart.

He’s charming, letting you enter anywhere first and holding the door for you. Making sure he walks in front of you to clear the aisle. Reaching things on shelves you can’t.

He’s old fashioned.

You thank him for everything, and he asks for your humber.

“Might need someone to show me around the city.”😘

He texts you “good morning” and “goodnight” every single day.

You flirt at first. He’s cute in a gentlemanly way.

You don’t start getting serious until he takes you out one day, and give you diamond jewelry that he can’t tell you where he got it from.

You start to understand why he’s so sparse in his details of his background.

When he feels he can trust you, he mentions that you may not want to mention his name to any police. You take the hint but are understandably a little freaked.

He promises you that he’s not there for violence, and you take him at his word.

He takes you in classy dates; bookstores where you get coffee and read, sushi bars where he surprises you with his knowledge of world cuisine, and art galleries that he gets early access to.

You decide to surprise him for a change. You find out there’s a famous Russian pianist in town doing a small concert.

You take him, not telling him what you’re taking him to.

First song is Romance by Dvorak. There’s a violinist there too, and the piano and violin almost seem like they’re talking to each other. Like the romance is between them.

His eyes are closed for the first song, he’s transported back to his home in Russia, when shit wasn’t going sideways, practicing the piano for his mother. 🥰

He grasps at your hands, holding them for the duration of the concert.

He thanks you profusely afterwards, holding your hands, face in your neck, kissing it softly.

He takes you back to his to make love that night.

Stanislavsky doesn’t fuck very often; he makes love.

Candles and soft music and silk sheets.

He kisses all over your body, lips touching every sensitive point, thrusting firmly but gently into you. 🥲

You cohabitate pretty quickly. I think Stanislavsky is pretty domestic.

He can cook like a BEAST.

Memorizes different recipes around the world.

His draniki (дранікі) are seriously orgasmic tho.

His kartoshka (Картошка) are also quite delicious but it’s literally impossible to fuck up anything chocolate.

Reads the paper every morning even though phones exist.

Not big into social media. Like really really on the outs.

When you send him videos you have to text him a link. 😂

Often wears jeans in casual mode. American jeans. Feel way different than the knock offs he’s used to. (Based on my non-American exs’ opinions)

Recreates that photo with you of the solider coming home and kissing that woman in the streets ⬇️

Exceedingly and disgustingly romantic

Like very Eastern European views of love and traditions

Insists on holding the door for you. Will genuinely be butthurt if you don’t let him.

His favorite place to kiss is right behind your ear. It’s intimate and it lets him smell whatever fragrance you’re wearing that day.

Gifts you with things you can use together; pajamas he’d like to see you in, perfumes/colognes for him to smell, puzzles you can work on together.

After dinner every night, you sit on the couch and read together

Not a big TV guy

Often turns on music so he can dance with you; simple waltz’s and such🎵

When he loves you, truly, he tells you.

He’s European, he doesn’t consider it weird to express love that way.

“I have something to tell you. Just sit. I love you. More than all else.”

He gets protective over you too

Not a super violent dude, but he does what he has to for you

Will put himself between you and anything he considers to be a threat.

He calls you Russian pet names, but in English so you can understand: “my beloved”, “little sparrow”, or “mousy”

You call him “Nikki”. He doesn’t like it but he knows you do. ☺️

“Nikki?”

*sigh* “Yes, my wondrously beautiful?”

Has cold feet in bed. I’m sorry, he just does. 🙃

He enjoys being kissed on his collar bone. Turns him on more than anything.

Enjoys going to bed early and waking up early. Loves to see the sunrise.

He proposes to you during a sunrise. You two are having coffee, and you bring him his just right.

Two hits black cane sugar and a splash of goat’s milk (lactose intolerant boi)

While the sun comes over the horizon, he leans in, kisses you, and slips something into your finger

It’s his great great grandmother’s engagement ring, a beautiful starburst emerald in the center.

“Ready for another adventure?”❤️

“I love you, Nikki.”

“I love you too, Y/N”😘

Bonus: I think he’d genuinely be interested in Native American culture. Like genuinely enthralled by their history and resilience. That’s the only way you can get him to watch TikTok is if he’s learning something, but he follows Tia Wood and Shiva Nova. (Or makes you follow them, lol)

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

That awkward feeling when a PIMI childhood friend sends you an invite to a party in the summer; but you know you’re going to be out of the cult and shunned by then.

What do I even say? Do I lie and say I’ll be there? Do I just not respond?

[cats-in-the-clouds]

it is unfortunate when i go to prayer and cry my eyes out and the only response i really hear is that i simply have to bear it. like usually i can get my emotions out and once they’re settled i hear a rational solution but it sucks when i don’t get the answer i want. i just have to keep waiting. like normally i hear something that gives me strength but wow apparently i’ve hit a new low

[amongthepoets]

the inherent horror of being trans and in the Wrong Body can’t catch me if I dye my hair and wear cute skirts

[iniziare]

Tag drop: Solas

[goldenhypen]

i randomly found my old blog again and WOW ,,,, TELL ME WHY IM SAD i even stalked my old moots’ blogs too and i- 😭 the way so many things have changed since then :(

[fingertipsmp3]

2024 affirmation: I will not dislocate my knee