#you turned into your worst fears
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you know I didn't want to have to haunt you
but what a ghostly scene
my tears ricochet, taylor swift. (x)
#merlin#merlin web weave#merthur#im back on my bullshit#hehe#bbc merlin#arthur pendragon#bbc arthur pendragon#merlin edit#okay but hear me outttt#i didnt have it in myself to go with grace / and so the battleships will sink beneath the waves#you had to kill me but it killed you just the same#(<- destiny)#you turned into your worst fears#(<- whattt !!!!!!!!!!)#and you're tossing out blame drunk on this pain / crossing out the good years#(gnfngnfngnf)#having thoughts and emotions about post camlann merlin. can u tell
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"my tears ricochet" but it's luke castellan and he's both people in the song
#and i can go anywhere i want. anywhere i want just not home.#you turned into your worst fears#in different contexts ofc#luke castellan#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#the last olympian#pjo hoo toa#taylor swift
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I’m sure it’s been said before, but my tears ricochet is so Annabeth & Luke coded…
#percy jackon and the olympians#annabeth chase#luke castellan#just listening to it right now#you had to kill me but it killed you just the same#cursing my name#wishing I’d stay#you turned into your worst fears#and you’re tossing out blame#drunk on this pain#crossing out the good years
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being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one
#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts#course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism#being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn#i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus#cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself#into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation#but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy#and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system#you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao#yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic#aromanticism#aro positivity#aroace#arospec#sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon#you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better#life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not#i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao
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characters/ships that remind me of certain taylor songs:
my tears ricochet - james + peter (james potter + peter pettigrew, marauders)
#lily too#and#sirius and remus#but like#you had to kill me but it killed you just the same#tossing out blame#if i’m dead to you why are you at the wake#you turned into your worst fears#it’s just#the betrayal#it’s them#marauders#the marauders#atyd marauders#all the young dudes#marauders atyd#marauders angst#marauders era#james potter#peter pettigrew#lily evans#remus lupin#sirius black#moony#wormtail#padfoot#prongs
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My tears ricochet - taylor swift
songs that make you think of Anakin and Ahsoka lemme know!
#specifically the season 2 finale of rebels#every time i hear this song i have ahsoka in my mind telling vader I WONT LEAVE YOU#i can go anywhere i want just not home#when i’d fight you used to tell me i was brave#you had to kill me but it killed you just the same#cursing my name#wishing i stayed#you turned into your worst fears#and you’re tossing out blame#drunk on this pain#crossing out the good years#a lot of this song also works with anakin and obi wan but i like it better with ahsoka#because she left#ahsoka tano#anakin skywalker#star wars#clone wars#anakin and ahsoka#star wars the clone wars#snips and skyguy#ahsoka and anakin#skyguy and snips#star wars rebels#swr#sw rebels#twilight of the apprentice#obi wan kenobi#my tears ricochet#taylor swift
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#rosebird#strqrock au#if you squint .#hello everyone. saw jesus today. enjoy the silly sappy rosebird!!#running out of captions thog don’t care. woman are my favorite guy ❤️😎#fighting a very perilous battle with backgrounds rn if I die I dieeee#oh my god i forgot. okay brown eyes summer in this. finally some colored contacts....THEY ARE PRETTYYYY OKAYYYY#‼️‼️‼️💣🔨#the babygirlyest raven ive ever drawn i fear...(worst thing ive ever said)#they just had the most embarassing phone call so bad that raven turned the weather channel all the way up so no one can hear her scream#“’YOU WANNA WHAATTT‼️“’ like yeah bro go crawl up to her window for a kissy rn… or I will >:|#or get your spine rearranged idk mannnn GET OVER THERRREEE!!!
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Imo, I think part of the problem with antis is that, since most of them are young, they haven't experienced a lot of things so they have a limited pool to draw comparisons from.
We like comparing what we're currently experiencing or about to experience to past experiences.
Is this game similar to other games we enjoyed? Does this show have the same tropes as a show we disliked? Does this moment in this book remind us of something that happened to us?
We like comparisons. They help us quickly find things we like or help us not waste our time by trying things we're probably not going to like or they help us get more invested into a show.
But antis, because they haven't been alive long, haven't seen many shows so they're very limited in their comparisons.
For example, someone I know irl who sadly leans anti-ish plays a certain new and popular farming sim. Farming sims don't have specific "ages" for their characters, but when they have romance systems, all the potential marriage partners are adults, that's a implicit given that really shouldn't need to be said. But when she saw one of the characters she told me that she wasn't going to go for him because he reminded her of a teenager and she didn't want that teenage drama. Because he reminded her of a Fruits Basket character. I haven't played this game yet, but when I looked at his profile, I couldn't see what she saw. I haven't seen FB but I have played and read a lot of farming sims and romances, including some set in high school. This character is just the typical grumpy blacksmith(/animal rancher) that's common in these types of games. Being grumpy isn't inherently a "teen" thing. And he's competitive, but that's typical in a lot romantic comedies where the two leads work at opposing companies or the, usually male lead, is in a high position at the company the female just got a job at, or when the two leads are exes. He's also apparently bad with his feelings. But that's any brooding male lead or male leads in general in older romance novels, like Mr. Darcy. None of his traits scream teenager to me. But that's where her mind went to because she needed to compare him to another character but she doesn't have that many to choose from. And a "teen" character was the closest fit she could get.
Another similar game has a character that antis love to scream is a child. She had a debilitating illness for most of her life until the player character cures her. As a result of not being able to go outside much, she's a little naive (though I hate how anties think naivety is a trait only kids can have) and still gets tutored by another character even after she's cured. She's also the only child of wealthy parents, so you could see how she could be a little sheltered. None of this makes her not an adult. Even in the official artwork she looks like a young adult, a college student, at the youngest. She looks older than the actual "kids" in the game, and is definitely more emotionally mature than them. She just hasn't been able to experience much because of her chronic illness. But just because she's not a super mature business woman who knows everything there is and because she doesn't act the same as this other character her "age" (he's an older brother who works on a farm and has to do a lot of the work himself because his father has a disability, his sister is too young to be able to help much, and his mother has to attend to a shop. People who've had different lives have different personalities also shouldn't be surprising) she's a child to antis. If anything, she reminds me of the female love interest in those old adventure novels for men. The young and "pure" women who have been "trapped" in their stuffy homes who need the manly men protagonists to "free" them and show them the world you know?
Again, we all like making comparisons. It's just that, for antis, they don't have many things to compare to. They haven't had the time or opportunity to do much so their world view is kinda limited. So when they see these characters, they compare them to real people instead of understanding that they're an amalgamation of tropes and character archetypes that have been done again and again no matter how realistic they might look.
I just feel like it's beneficial for people to try a variety of genres. Not that you can't have a preference that you stick with, but just occasionally find something outside of your circle you think looks interesting. Even if you don't like it at least you'll learn what doesn't work for you. And when you encounter something new you'll have a bigger variety to compare it to and won't need to go for the thought that makes other people look like terrible people. Cause speaking from personal experience, that gets draining after a while, and has led to a few health problems. Honestly imo being an anti sounds so unhealthy for your mental and physical health.
#vent post#long vent#proshipper#proshipper safe#proshippers are welcome#proshipping#proship#although I don't know why they always need to assume the worst about others#or why they absolutely need to go for the option that puts what they view as a real kid in danger#even going through a lot of hoops to do so#it's not normal or healthy to always go for the worst option#or to always have the fear that you'll run into a criminal at the front of your mind#or to always think criminal activity is going on with little to no evidence#making this character romanceable does not mean the developers are criminals#she's not even a kid#why are antis so eager to make everything about molestors and turn everyone but themselves into one?#antis you're not going to catch one and be a hero that goes down in history for it#antis are weird#in the bad way#the majority of characters are not based on real people#trying new things is fun#even if you don't like them they're still a valuable experience#but antis don't seem able or willing to that#a lot of the things I read as a kid would make antis clutch their pearls#I don't think they realize how much stuff is actually “proship content”#and how it's always been around long before even their grandparents were born#acting like proshippers are a new plague when in my experience it's the default and how the world's always worked since a long long time ago
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My best laid plan Your sleight of hand My barren land I am ash from your fire Stood on the cliffside Screaming "Give me a reason" Your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in
We gather here, we line up, weepin' in a sunlit room And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes too Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me? 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you 'Til my dying day
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#light- and L-narrated songs respectively btw#YOU HAD TO KILL ME BUT IT KILLED YOU JUST THE SAME CURSING MY NAME WISHING I STAYED YOU TURNED INTO YOUR WORST FEARS#AND YOURE TOSSING OUT BLAME DRUNK ON THIS PAIN CROSSING OUT THE GOOD YEARS#AND YOURE CURSING MY NAME WISHING I STAYED LOOK AT HOW MY TEARS RICOCHET
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#i think getting nearly firecracker-bombed the other evening affected me more than i realized at the time#because this has been by far the worst new year's ever for me#in the past i was never more than mildly annoyed by it and even enjoyed the midnight fireworks climax#but i think i might have actually gotten a bit traumatized by that experience two days ago#and hadn't acknowledged it to myself / processed it. as today/tonight has demonstrated#it's past 3 a.m. now and i'm still crying too hard to sleep#and my whole body has been shaky for the past... 10 hours. or so.#even though the fireworks at midnight weren't really that bad at all#not even close to being as terrifying as the three explosions earlier this evening#which in their turn were easily outdone by the street explosion on saturday night that deafened me#i think i may be having a legit delayed trauma response to that now#re-triggered every time a firework goes off near me#i've never been someone who feels much fear#i feel stress and anger and discomfort and i worry and overthink sometimes#i've done a lot of things in my life while thinking 'well. this might be about to kill me. but we all die someday'#and never till this weekend did i feel terror on this level#(a technically unjustified terror too. bc inside my flat i'm almost 100% safe. so that again suggests a trauma response)#i don't think i've ever cried from sheer fear for my safety before#and every post i see saying 'happy new year' makes me feel sick bc it reminds me of this horrible weekend#it's wild how my lifelong feelings about fireworks could change so completely in the course of just three days#for the first time in my life i feel the need for one of those drugs that blunts your emotions and helps relax you#what is that... xanax or something like that? how do you get it? do you need a prescription?#i feel like a doctor would just scoff if i told them that NYE fireworks traumatized me so bad i need medication now#i've been trembling for hours. i'm so tired. i wish i could sleep#*three days ago
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Miro missed an opportunity to make the other transmutation spell turn stones into bread omg
#Fear and hunger#Funger bpt#Religion#For context in this game there's a transmutation spell associated with Alll-mer (a parody of Jesus)#You can turn water (almost a useless item) into wine (it heals mind which is great)#And you can turn one loaf of moldy bread (actually not the worst food in a cursed dungeon) into three loafs of moldy bread#So if you get your hands on this spell you get an infinite source of food and mind healing#(all emptied vials are kept in your inventory which you can fill with water at a water source)#^for those that follow me and or haven't played the game#This spell would be just as game breaking though there's an infinite (bug) source of stones in the game#This is one of my favorite spells in the game because of just how broken it is. Not so fearful and hungry now are we#Art
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can’t believe she literally wrote this abt merlin & morgana’s divorce arc
#i can anywhere i want just not home btw.#and you had to kill me but it killed you just the same#and i didn’t have it in myself to go with grace..#you turned into your worst fears tossing out blame.#or whatever#merlin#mossy posts#music
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Gonna slap the people who named bugs
#found a bug in my room- thought it was a sandbaby- turns out I don’t remember what a sandbaby looks like#so I do a bit of research and the first thing that I see that looks right is wind scorpion#now I need everyone here to understand that I love bugs deeply they are neat they are cool they are friends#but I have a deep fear of scorpions#zbznnsnsbsns they are extremely cool just not when they’re by me#so my first thought is shit I have to abandon my room and everything in it now it all belongs to the scorpion#but it’s late and I’m already in bed and I’m doing more research cause d u h#and turns out it’s not really a scorpion at all???? I mean like. same family tree#but it’s not your traditional scorpion- it doesn’t have a stinger and it’s non venomous#worst thing about it is it’s a little speedy a bit aggressive and can/will bite#but the REAL worst thing is it likes to cozy up in blankets and clothes#and it’s in my bedroom where I so happen to keep my blankets and clothes dhdhdhhdjdd#anywho I’ll try to catch it and put it outside tomorrow after work if I can find it again#whole point of this is for just a second I was like oh fuck a scorpion and was not okay about that djdjdjdjd#tw bugs#it’s also called a sun spider#cause why have one name when you can have two???#dhdhdjjsjsjs anyways uh everything is fine and I’m going to bed#I will see to cleaning my room and maybe capturing our little friend tomorrow
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"scary? my god you're divine" but it's sirius talking to remus and remus talking to sirius
#they both think they're monsters and that the other is perfect#teenage love with rose colored glasses yknow#and then war happens and it all falls apart#the reflection in the mirror is starting to warp into the monster the night turns you into and the monster you've been molsed to be#but the comforting hand on your shoulder is gone#and the person it belongs to is starting to look like your worst fear: betrayal#wolfstar#i go like 3 weeks without thinking about them at all and then it hits me#A N G S T#sirius black#remus lupin
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I need to clean my room now. It is dire.
#im so embarrassed it looks like shit over here#i cleaned the kitchen bc my ex was picking up stuff but i KNOW she saw my room#what a fucking shitshow#that box of her things is gone now all ive got left is a handful of rose petals and a second hand coffee maker#and a flannel#all that for a quick 2 monthish relationship#i deeply regret rushing into things but I have poor judgement so.#heres to ruining everything good thats ever happened to me via my own choices 🍻 free will baby#I'm so mad right now even though i shouldn't be#the text thing really got to me idk if things can be ok#like yeah turns out when you hear all your fears verbalized insultingly by another person instead of just in your brain it hits harder??#Just felt like a line was being crossed#anyway#when you spill your guts to another person i guess you gotta expect to have shit flung back at you in the worst possible moment#I suck at keeping my mouth shut that's what happens when you stop journaling#you want to actually confide in others#And don't think I don't know that thats what im doing now#online!!#im unbelievably tired of it all#i wasn't built for this kind of life#ive got no friends. my job doesn’t pay me enough to live. ive got no will to feed myself. etc etc etc#worst of all i have to live with myself#because God knows i can't do anything about it#vile-wizard.txt
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Me when we don't speak anymore by bears in trees
#lizzierants#had a sudden unplanned job interview today. i wanted to cry the whole time but managed to keep it together and now the anxiety has suddenly#caught up to me and it feels BAD the sudden thought of that what if my friends just dont actually like me and they like me purely because#theyre worried for what would become of me if they stopped being friends with me when purely of course id be fine eventually but i worry#that cause im on antidepressants people just think im automatically suicidal when something bad goes wrong which is not the case im doing#good i dont want to die but what if all my friends hate me what if this whole time i have loved them so so much and they just tolerate me#someday my friends will die and i had that i hate that someday we wont be friends even if its decades in the future i love all of them with#my heart that sometimes i feel it is overfilling i love them i love them and what am i without them i am everything i have ever loved i am#overthinking however i cannot stop this what if my own best friend is avoiding me? why am i thinking this? what evidence do i have to back#this up? nothing only for the fact my own brain feels as though i love people too much and they are uncomfortable with it i feel awful wtf#i have learned to keep my emotions from people because i dont want them to worry. i dont want people to do something or not do something bec#ause they think it will upset me i want people do do as they please i want to be open for my friends to share their issues i want to help#and im sitting here wirrying if they hate me so i turn here to shout in the void because the only person i know irl who follows me on here#most likely doesnt read these tags and if you are please ingore this i misjudged your terrible attention span also i love you very much#anyway a few weeks ago i realised my worst fear is no longer death. but the death of my friendship with my beloved friend. and thats fucking#terrifying prospect however if they were to be like yo i dont like you anymore id respect that decision and id be okay because their happine#is the most important thing to me and thats okay but i couldnt bare with the fact that they feel like they had to be ffiends with me because#they have to. i hate the prospect of them feeling trapped in a friendship theh dont want to be in. all the while i feel i cannot communicate#this to anyone because how would i go about it im very anxious i am shaking i am having a bad time very bad time actually im going to start#crying but its okay <3 crying is good for stress and health and its been a while since ive cried so maybe this will help me feel better <3#i will heal and ill be okay <3
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