#you say disaster and im there

[half-great-adventures]

Random Hospital Happenings

Called a code on the floor for a kiddo, this particular kids' second time in a week. Managed to turn off the lights TWICE trying to unplug O2 from the regulator. Just wanted to turn the place into a disco I guess

Said coding kiddo was going brady and hypertensive, classing Cushing's Triad. After an extensive medical work up, found out he was likely vasovagaling. Kid literally trying to die while pooping. My nightmare.

Had a very frequent flyer, that was pretty healthy, get a sudden and totally unrelated life threatening illness. Mom was spiraling in my arms and I gave her my favorite hospital cocktail of sprite and OJ. Closest to a mimosa I can get in a children's hospital.

We had to transfer this kiddo to PICU, wound up bringing her to the same room where my all time favorite primary teen spent several weeks. I used to go down there every night shift I worked and talk to parents while the kiddo was sedated and intubated. She ended up passing away after that admission.

Realized it's been almost 5 years since she passed away and maybe why that's why I keep seeing her mom's face out of the corner of my eye, even though parents moved out of state years ago.

Got overtired after working 3 in a row (which I hate) and became obsessed with thinking through how I would put an NG down my cat. Then looked up cats with NGs at 1am on Google. Rather than just going to bed like a sane person.

Taught 5 hours of CPR this week (usually I'll do 2-3 hours in a month). 3 of those hours were to families, 1 in Turkish, 1 in Spanish and 1 in English. Then teaching BLS for PALS today my lungs popped on one of my adult mannequins, and then my replacement mannequin's batteries died. So I performed a lung transplant and replacement pacemaker. Pretty good for an RN scope of practice.

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

[freyadragonlord]

Finished Heavenly Tyrant and my first comment is.........

......... Qin Zheng was WAY too funny for how much he sucked. Made me feel so conflicted.

Anyways, Heavenly Tyrant is an amazing book, highly reccomend!!!

Power to the people ✊️

[bandsandwristbands]

what are they getting up to hmmm??

[quirinah]

i! ro! ha! (six years edition)

[galaxicnerd]

fears of inadequacy

[potatobugz]

i feel like im going insane

[naamahdarling]

The "Get help!" hotline/warmline 988 211 "Help is available, reach out!" lip service paid to mental health, and the gross prioritization of physical survival and the uninjured body over the nuance and clinical inconvenience of a person genuinely struggling with the difficulty of a world that makes no room for them, is genuinely infuriating.

The unwillingness of the whole mental health field to acknowledge that thoughts of suicide and self-harm are understandable, common, and dare I say pretty fucking normal reactions to extreme situations, and to treat people as though the problem is that they are having these thoughts instead of treating people as though the problem is that they do not have actual material support in their lives, is utterly irresponsible.

Stop asking me about wrongthoughts and no-no naughty actions. Start asking whether I need someone to come fix my stove, sink, and dishwasher so I can cook.

I love my meds and my therapist has worked wonders, but I still desperately need someone to help me clean the house and guide me through legal paperwork that might protect me from Social Security when my father dies. Your outdated list of food banks is great. Now give me the name of a disability lawyer who works pro bono on anything other than applications and appeals.

If you want me to stop casually thinking about dying a dozen times a day, fucking help me live.

[weregonnabecoolbeans]

Obi-Wan's look of exasperation when Anakin starts flirting with Padme the second he sees her will never not be funny

[kirkwallguy]

if i wanted to start an argument i would say that calling lucanis a bisexual disaster is a product of the trivialisation / memeification of bisexual people that paints them as hypersexual or "attracted to everyone" in the exact same stereotype that has existed since the beginning of time. lucanis is literally just a guy who happens to be bisexual but because the current perception of bisexual men by cishets often includes being nonthreatening partners for straight women where attraction to men is less of a part of their identity and more of a "green flag" that makes them less likely to be misogynistic (untrue btw), his bisexuality was expected to give him specific characteristics (easily flustered, flirty, sexy.) emmrich and davrin didn't get this initial treatment because they dont fit into the idealised relationship mould these people would expect (davrin being black is a major factor given how people see queer people of colour and emmrich being Too Old To Be Bisexual) however when lucanis' romance had no sex and was. uh. boring. this demographic quickly pivoted to emmrich and acted like they were risqué for wanting to fuck a man in his 60s. but i don't want to argue so i'll just smile serenely and remember when the only bisexual man in dai had a bdsm sex tower.

[emloafs]

and what's everyone gonna do when they find out i've got a hawkmetri to all the boys i've loved before au half written in my drafts

what would happen if i said that

[livingasaghost]

i bought into the :/ vibes of captive prince as well because for a long time i didn't care to look beyond what everyone else was saying about it and frankly i wasn't interested in reading the books but when i see readers saying we shouldn't read captive prince because it glorifies slavery and non-con while the same readers praise colleen hoover and fourth wing and the after series and every shitty dark romance mafia book... i am not saying captive prince is the greatest book series ever and i definitely was uncomfortable with parts of it (because i am definitely not as intellectual as others who read and analysed it) but there's so much worse books out there that get praised A Lot (and especially on booktok) and yeah idk where i am going with this sorry atsjdkf

SAY THAT!!!! like listen i get it, if you're into dark problematic shit kudos, because i looooove me some fucked up books but if you are pointing fingers while ALSO reading a different brand of problematic shit....maybe you're the problem! i feel like people who read books like captive prince or aftg are usually the first ones to analyze how fucked up they are, to think critically and engage with the darker parts of those series whereas a lot of colleen hoover stans on booktok just gloss over the abuse and toxicity because it's all about romance? (or supposedly about romance) like sure captive prince is a love story in the end, and aftg is kind of about a love story in its own way, but i think both of those stories are first and foremost about overcoming abuse and healing from trauma and learning how to trust other people in the wake of all that. the romance is just a wonderful addition to some complex series that allow you the space to exist in the gray areas of human nature.

[datamodel-of-disaster]

Just a reminder.

People you meet online trying to make friends with you IS NOT "PARASOCIAL BEHAVIOUR".

I get that people have hangups and anxieties and may in fact be playing pretend with their online identity and/or have no interest in fostering connections with strangers. That's valid.

But you are most likely NOT a celebrity, public figure, or 10k+ followers account engaged in specifically turning yourself and your online persona into content. YOU ARE JUST A REGULAR PERSON.

And another regular person reaching out to you in an online space is NOT engaging in some kind of pathological behaviour by daring to hope you might want to become friends. THAT IS NOT WHAT PARASOCIAL MEANS.

You can just decline if you're not interested. It's literally that easy.

Like, fuck man. When did we collectively become so desocialized?

[peach-s0up]

quick ford before bed, tried mixing my pencil sketch w ink outlines and i actually really like it

[coldflasher]

was rewatching the pilot again yesterday for fic reasons and thinking again about the sherlock-style screen annotations they had when barry was doing CSI work that they literally only did in the first ep and then never revisited again, presumably because they realized it'd be far too much effort to work out the details on such a precise level

and thinking about like. that barry allen with the hyper-precise exact measurements that he did by eye (with joe shaking his head in awe so you know that he's a CSI supergenius) vs. the leonard snart who timed his heists to the exact nanosecond (which again, presuming they ditched because it's a logistical nightmare to write dialogue that nitpicky and obsessive, and would be such a fucking pain to do on a week-to-week basis). like. yet another reason they are soulmates tbh. is audhd4autistic a thing the same way t4t is a thing? if it isn't then i'm making it a thing