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windsweptlassie · 4 years ago

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On Love

So as you know I made this uquiz with an open-ended question at the end, tell me something about love, and I’ve gotten the most wonderful responses! They range from descriptions of wonderful partners:

Lauren: oh, how long I went without being myself until I met him and he showed me who I truly was and that my worth was higher than I ever thought was possible

Levi: I love who we are with each other. I love who I am with you. In your company I am me. In your company I am the best of me. The best with the best, I've told you. I wouldn't give you up for anything

Daniel: i fell in love for the first time when i was 17... at the time, i didn’t realize it was the first time, i thought i’d been in love before, a couple times actually, but falling in love at 17 was such a fulfilling experience, it felt so forceful yet so right. it’s when i first truly understood what love was. never before had i felt so understood and so cared for as i did when i was in love with her, and she was in love with me. it’s been nearly 4 years since then, and nearly 3 years since we broke up and stopped talking, and still, i think about her almost every day. i’ve never known anyone like her; to me, she was love itself.

El: oh i’m in love with everyone that i know op!!! especially my girlfriend, of course ,but also my friends and my family and random people on the street and uh

Grace: i’ve met my soulmate and we plan on getting an apartment and marrying after college

A: I’m going to ask the woman I love to marry me and I just wanted to tell someone because I am so excited

Jeremy: you ever have that feeling where basically after years of denying that someone couldnt understand you in a way or love you and then the next thing you know you happen to find that person and its just great from then on out? idk how to explain it anyways I love my boyfriend so much he means the world to me

Lucy: i am so happy i have found the one i love

to descriptions of best friends and favorite people:

Nightbyrd: Love is a hug from an alzheimer's patient who hasn't the foggiest idea who you are, but they know you're worth hugging.

H: I have been doing so much yoga with my roommate recently!! It's a great way to center my mind for an hour

Riv: [platonic] i’ve literally never met anyone who understands me in the way that my best friends do. they’re literally the best people in the whole world and i genuinely don’t know what i’d do without them. i love them with my whole heart

Cillian: when i talk about how much i love my best friend i get so teary eyed because i cant believe that such a genuinely wonderful person wants to speak to me every day - i care for her more than anyone else on this planet

O: my two besties are my sources of happiness and they’re so pretty i would die for them :D

to beautiful quotes:

Kai: "you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on." DARCYYYY PLS MY HEART CANT HANDLW THIS PAIN

Dorian: When the plane went down in San Francisco, I thought of my friend M. He’s obsessed with plane crashes. He memorizes the wrecked metal details, ____the clear cool skies cut by black scars of smoke. Once, while driving, he told me about all the crashes: The one in blue Kentucky, in yellow Iowa. How people go on, and how people don’t. It was almost a year before I learned that his brother was a pilot. I can’t help it, I love the way men love. (accident report in the tall, tall weeds- ada limon, bright dead things)

Adam: every day I think about lemony snicket I will love you if I never see you again I will love you if I see you every Tuesday or however it goes. and it KILLS ME. love only fits in small things

Hero: “Your heart beats in my ribs and mine in yours, and both in God’s… The divine magnet is in you, and my magnet responds.” - Herman Melville to Nathaniel Hawthorne

Mary: "Love is watching someone die."

Alex: "meet me at blue diner, i'll take coffee and talk about nothing baby"

Sparrow: "How dare you love me like you've never known fear?" and "For you, the world," and "Darling, I was born to press my head between your shoulder blades," and "Will you start where I end?"

V: " You want to die for love. You always have. " and "someone will remember us, I say, even in another time" are living rent free in my mind 24/7 and I'm shaking. When will I finally be not the only one falling ?

Sahar K: To love another person is to see the face of god!!!

Miriam: all the love in the world is useless when there is total lack of understanding- kafka

Juls: Don’t you think they are maybe the same? Love and attention

to practices of love:

Leo; i love feeling happy bc somebody that i love is happy and comfortable....like its not about me i just love seeing you smile. we are safe together...idk i just feel it bro

A: I like to think love is leaning on each other during the light or dark days. Its a personal mission of mine to find out who I am and what I want. Yet I never seem to find my place in this world and as I look and look , I realise the only place I can be myself even with or without the efforts to find myself was done on that day or not, I am always tired so shall I lean on you? And you can lean on me as well. I shall be your fig tree and you shall be my favourite willow tree.

L: It's too late at night to be soul searching, but it's a journey we all seem to find ourselves on these days.

Anthi: feeling safe and at home, I guess (also I love frogs)

Julia: ive found that loving someone is like becoming your own thesaurus. you have to find or come up with infinite ways to say, you’re beautiful, or, i love you. it’s a gift

Galexies: ive been writing letters to the person i'd love one day since i was 14. i write them in a little journal usually, but i've been digitizing them into emails and sending them to one account that i'll give to them someday. i'd like to put pictures, but i haven't been outside much recently so theres that. i wonder if they'd like the sunsets i have on file, or if they'd find my cat cute in a bowtie.

Caeles: Love is sharing fruit slices and making someone tea at random

Dundy: Love is sending your friends cursed shit and watching them react in horror

to crushes and potential loves:

Jess: I have a crush on my roommate. It sucks, but it's also wonderful. I get to be around him all the time when we're at school. we share a life together; it's rather domestic. I think a lot about marrying him and being domestic with him forever. It won't happen, and I'll move on eventually, but I'll be happy with him for as long as I can. I hope you feel loved tonight, because you are. Sleep well.

Aki: I so desperately want to believe that love is fake because I’ve seen what happens when loved ones leave but whenever I start to convince myself that I’ll never love anyone my best friend messages me telling me she loves me. She’s the only person I’ve ever pictured having a future with but love scares me and I don’t really know what to do but I think as long as she’s with me in some way, I’ll be fine

Hi: her her i keep thinking abt her.... gonna see her in 8 days or so i really miss her. its ok if shes never gonna love me like i want her to really being her friend spending time with her makes me the happiest girl on earth.... outsold antidepressants

Kit: this guy i have a crush on has hypnotically dark brown eyes and he's wonderful and shows me kindness like no one else

Juno: my crush has all the stars in his eyes

Mads: When I have the courage to meet my eyes with hers, the world stands still

Be Nice To Me: Look bro I never do these but I am yearning to hold them SO badly right now and someone needs to know it besides me

to the trials of love:

Pppppp: I just wanna love like from the movies and what I read about.. but everyone tells me that that’s fictional and rare to find in the real world and it sucks bc it seems like all the guys I’ve met are terrible and the norms of society are all about not respecting women and uthdjdjdk

Manny: I have been in love before and I will be again but I’m not now and I miss it

Ok: I don't think I've ever been in love, though I love many people. I am waiting for the day I look at someone and can say, YES. IT'S YOU.

Chloe: idk rn i'm like okay with my love and i'm happy so we'll see i'm just a little cautious rn bc my last partner told me i didn't know how to love

L: love is so fucking complicated I don't even know where to start

Corrin: He’s not real and it worried me that I will never allow myself to live or be loved because I will always be waiting for him

Sean: Good luck it dont exist

Serena: i want 2 b in love :(( </3

13: I don’t know anymore

M: I just really don’t like dealing with it lol

to beloved characters:

Janaya: I’m madly in love with my comfort and kin character and I hope maybe in the afterlife I can relive a life with him in some sort of dimension

Jhgjdf: when i was a kid i had a crush on ash ketchum from pokemon and id always daydream about being a female pkmn trainer and meeting him and we fall in love

to advice and prose:

Mikolai: Love is earth, gentle and soft at first flight but upon being broken, drowns you in the dry choking wastes of its consequences...

Thex: Your hands will not go cold without someone to hold them. I am here. I will be here.

Kat: it is the nearest proof to god that i find myself surrounded by people who love in a way that complements so wonderfully the way i love

H: believe in love out of spite believe in love to prove everyone wrong believe in love because you were told not to and we will not do what we’re told anymore believe in love because it’s the strongest act of teenage rebellion we have left believe in love because it’s easier not to and when is easy worth doing? believe in love because everything says otherwise but you are untouchable, you are your own, you are not made by their design believe in love because, perhaps, you are love

Ali: I used to want a kind of love that feels like coming home and now I want nothing more than to be away from home on many different adventures

Em: you dont need to love yourself to accept it from others

to the small, the simple, and the sweet:

Ireal: Poems

O: Flowers

Fay: ah im sorry that i’m feeling unmotivated but you are very kind.

Ad: we love LOVE

A: <3

Isak: small things

H: intense

Hey: Listening to a clock ticking away

S: her

E: <3

Hania: Amorous, I adore that word ^^

Catboy: wholesome

J: i love love so much it hurts

Emmy: hi i love the song darkest of discos!! try and give it a listen!! <3

Nora: Love is painful, but most of the time love is great

Ariel: i like the comfort it can bring

M: i love love

to food!

Cool Whip: Matzoh ball soup!!

Woop: I love sausages.... I hope that's ok with you?

and animals too <3

Nee: hmm i have pet geckos and i love them very much!

96: raccoons ????

DJ Big Penis: cats

:3: I Love frogs,,, love is stored in the frog,,,

I hope that this serves as a sweet compilation of what love means! Love to all of you, it warms my heart so much to hear about your people and your geckos and your characters and soup and all the songs and quotes you love. <3 Strength to all of you who are figuring out to do about your feelings for your crush, and congratulations to you who are proposing or moving in with your person! Your words are a source of light to me, truly.

#on love #love files #uquiz #mine #shut up queenie #long post

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yievie · 5 years ago

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whew! what’s up everyone! my name is crissy and yes, i am the clown who sent my account ask on anonymous last night. luv that for me! I GOT A COOL FAMILY ICON IM CRYING!!! now this is yi eun hye, better known as evelyn yi or evie, paging dr. sexy md don’t call her that though, she’ll kill you omg the second eldest princess of the four neglected korean princess sisters aka the mom friend sister or the buzzkill responsible sister.

~`click anywhere here for a link to my app ~

under the cut i’m gonna throw some important personality and background stuff along with maybe? half-formed plot ideas? if not i’ll make a follow up post later, but pls like this plot if you wish to plot, i’ll try to come bother u. my ims are open hmu anytime (also bc im anxious af to b first message bc im BABY) and I ALSO have a discord located at quarantine queen#2918 where i’m usually v v v active. (lmk if u cant add me shoot me a message on here and ill fix it) ok imma shut up here is cranky daughter! ITS LONG SRRY

( pS: also if my blog is too hard to read just stick /mobile on the end of the url xx )

background

the empress and emperor of korea had 5 kids, 4 daughters, 1 pampered son and evie was the second oldest daughter after dianna but like, she’s bossy and high strung and acts like the oldest anywayS so it doesn’t matter!

woo! however, korean tradition is rooted deeply in patriarchy and other backwards thinking, >:(((( so evie’s parents basically pretended like their son was the only kid they had and sent evie and her 3 sisters off to swedish boarding school to ROT as they each turned 10 and forgot abt them while they groomed their son for the throne! thx mom n dad! luv u too! sdjlaksjd

during her time at boarding school evie was expected to not learn much of anything, not do anything spectacular, she wasn’t expected very good grades or to be smart or successful or anything bc that was Men’s Work and so evie did . . . THE EXACT OPPOSITE.

evie EXCELLED in school, straight a’s, top of her class, honors, ap valedictorian, which meant all nighters, nose bleeds at 2am from studying too hard, looking dead walking through the hallways, eating ramen 25/8, falling asleep w her face in her textbooks, getting bullied a lot for being a nerd and Not looking like her sisters and like...the creature from the black lagoon.

her parents, understandably, were not very happy with this but it wasn’t until she wanted to go to medical school that her parents were like FURIOUS. to them, women, esp the princesses, were only supposed to get married, have kids, THAT WAS IT. so evie wanting to be a doctor enraged them. STAY MAD!

they tried to have her engaged SO. MANY. TIMES. but she has a really repellent personality, she’s very kat stratford from 10 things i hate about you. and is rude and states her very liberal very socialist opinions often, dresses sloppy and hurts mens feelings a lot just for fun so they all went rUNNING from those match appointments! her parents literally are losing their minds they don’t know what to do w her theyre like god why did we give birth to the aNTICHRIST!?!?!?

not wanting anything to do with her parents, evie got into college and medical student on scholarship based on her own merit and skill. evie went to the seoul national university for 4 years then did a 2 year residency at the country’s top hospital, becoming one of the best on call heart surgeons there.

the korean media likes to clown on her A LOT! bc shes scary and angry and cares very little abt her appreance is A DOCTOR and not a princess really for the opposite reason they clown on dianna but evie does not really care she doesn’t care abt impressing people, just saving lives and proving people wrong. finger guns

but yes! thats what u missed on glee. evie was a heart surgeon in korea before being shipped off to thailand! shes v salty by the way ... even more than usual.

fun facts?

evie wears massive grandma glasses to see bc shes BLIND when shes in line with her sister people do not think she’s related and are like “OMG OMG THE PRINCESSES!!! BUY WHATEVER U WANT ON THE HOUSE I--oh? maam? uh? can we help u, ahjumma?” HELP

very dry, mean, will call you out on ur shit and hurt ur feelings probably. doesn’t really know how to Chill or have fun, stays out of drama and parties for the most part literally that old man that tells u to get off their lawn

LOVES HER SISTERS!!!! LOVES THEM!!! moms them and nags the FUCK out of them tho abt everything. wear a sweater its cold, drink water, dONT DO THAT GET DOWN FROM THERE, i told u to eat before u drank all that soju pabo!!!! skhaslkfh BUT SHE LOVES THEM VERY MUCH HER WOOOORLD the only people shes kind of nice to

as stated, has tried to been matched up before but has basically scared away all her matches by being A Lot and not polite or dainty and burping probably

her mom calls her all the time to talk abt how shes having a heart attack bc her second daughter is an unmarried, childless, spinster with a cat who is embarrassing her by being a doctor and being loud and obnoxious and outspoken against the royal heirarchy and right wing politics. evie just puts her on mute and lets her keeping yelling at no one for the next hour

loves beer, loves fried chicken, very unladylike, wears oversized sweaters and her hair messy and watches love island australia and the bachelor just to make fun of the people being in love and stupid i think secretly she kind of wants it but...thinks shes unlovable and will die before she says that shh

bisexual legend! cue mr and mrs yi screaming somewhere

not that it matters bc she cares little abt romance and sex and always put work and school before everything so everything touchy like that she either ends abruptly or stays the hell away from

never parties or goes out but when she does get really drunk gets very cute and touchy and happy there is one video on the internet of her like on a table ashdkh yikes

is soft deep down just like *shrek voice* donkey, orges are like onions they have layers and u gotta get past a lot of them for her to get past her level 4 tragic backstory and into the soft, vulnerable part of her personality its nice i promise she is SQUISHY

weird plots???

best friend? im sure she has one somewhere. or friends at all? people who arent scared of her who shes nice to....mostly

enemies woo! hate her its very easy to hate her so do it

u want to do a daredevil thing like when matt shows up bleeding and dying or after a fight or something and she patches u up

just anyone need a doctor bc paging dr sexy md~

past loves? boyfriend? girlfriend? weird flings? weird tension unresolved stuff WOOO

ANYONE who broke her heart for the angst and drama

hit on her itll b funny

anyone who she was previously matched w who she scared off

someone shes currently trying to be matched or betrothed to GOOD LUCK

someone she has a crush on YIKES or vice versa

any of the college kids need a tutor?

roommates?

ANYTHING PLS HMU <333

#;;ooc ( out of crissy ).#hello this is angry daughter shes scary but we stan #sorry this was so long pls hmu #ALSO LOOK AT MY COOL ICON!!

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greensleevesredlipstick · 6 years ago

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my first howard/cleves fic in awhile because i lost my one and only brain cell after finals ended and wasn't able to find it. in this one anne came out as bi, and katherine and cleves are both lesbian. hopefully i start writing again lol but well see cause im lazy~~ hope u guys enjoy!!

kat yawned. she lazily shuffled out of bed, thinking about what to do on her day off. she rolled her eyes as she passed boleyn pounding on the bathroom door on her way downstairs. anne, evidently giving up on taking a shower with hot water, followed her to the kitchen. “watcha up to, kitty?” she asked. “got any fun plans for today?” kat shrugged. “i was actually gonna ask the group, i cant think of anything fun. what did you do last week?”. boleyn grinned mischievously. “well if you’re really looking for some fun...i did happen to find this gay bar that was honestly the most fun i’ve had since i’ve been back. it even beats out the ball i held when aragon finally moved out of the castle. cleves and i went and i don’t even remember all of it, but i know it was a good time” she winked. Kat said shyly “well... i would like to meet someone...” she played with her pink hair. she’d never gone to a bar alone, but she would definitely feel safer knowing that the men there wouldn’t be interested in her. anne, sending the younger girl’s hesitation said “what if cleves and i met you there after the show?”. kat replied “no i know how tiring they are, i wouldn’t want you to have to come out because of me”. “c’mon” laughed Anne “you know that cleves and I are always down for a night out”. Grabbing her cousin’s hand, Kat said “okay, ill give it a shot!”. the pair skipped down the stairs and devoured the pancakes that Jane had prepared. the six of them chattered about the upcoming singalong. Jane was a little nervous about singing her heart-wrenching song alongside 400 people, but the queens reassured her that all would go well.

After the arduous process of cleaning up, they retired to their rooms to get ready for the upcoming show. Cleves popped her head into Katherine’s room. “so...i hear you're going to Flame tonight. should be a good time” she said awkwardly. Kat replied “yea! i hope i actually, you know, see a cute girl tonight” she swallowed. “its been awhile”. Cleves didn’t know what to say. had Kat not noticed her flirting for the past several weeks? she didn’t want kat to go out tonight, but she couldn’t exactly stop her. “well, don’t have too much fun before anne and i get there” cleves said, shutting the door before kat could see the disappointment etched on her face. as they bustled about doing makeup and hair, no one seemed to notice that anna was a little extra quiet that day.

once the other girls had left, Kat nervously started getting ready for the club. She chose her favorite pink skater skirt, one she knew made her look good but wasn’t so short that she would attract unwanted attention. combining it with a black top (stolen from anne’s closet), she pacing in front of her mirror. She thought about a new hairstyle, but decided to go with her classic high ponytail. she went downstairs and was about to call a cab when she got an alarming text on her phone. it was in their group chat with the six queens, three alternates, and their stage manager. their manager said “VICKI-anne just threw up offstage. GET DOWN HERE NOW!!!”. as if mirroring her cousin’s illness, kat too felt sick to her stomach. how could she go out knowing anne was ill? she quickly sent anne a text saying that she hoped she felt better, and that she would be waiting at home with some soup and tea. when she didn’t get a reply, she called the manager. the instant the phone was answered kat shouted “how is she?? can i talk to her? will she be okay??” the manager chuckled. “don’t worry katherine, it’s just a bit of food poisoning. she needs a day or two of rest, and she’ll be fine.” from the background, she heard “IS THAT MY COUSIN?? BRING THE PHONE OVER HERE”. the manager put the phone on speaker and set it on the bathroom sink. “annie, are you okay?” Kat asked, the concern obvious in her voice. “yea babe, must have bene the leftover sushi i had. please promise me you’ll still go out tonight!!!” Kat sighed. she had been looking forward to it, but she wanted to make sure anne was okay. “c’mon, for me?” the brunette urged. “i really want you to go. Cleves will still go meet you”. Kat replied “well.. if you insist...”. Anne squeaked “yipee!!” then quickly hung up the phone as another wave of nausea hit. Kat hesitantly went outside and hailed the nearest taxi, still feeling guilty about abandoning her cousin.

back at the arts theater, the queens quickly hurried offstage as soon as the mega six was over. they wanted to make sure that anne was okay-she had nearly fainted after her number and barely made it offstage before throwing up. they took the stairs two at a time-anna style-but were stopped at the entrance to their shared dressing room. the manager informed them that anne was feeling much better, but that they had sent her home with an assistant so she could get some sleep. the manager pulled cleves aside and said “im not really sure what anne was talking about, but she said that you had to go tonight or kittys gonna be all alone”. anna sighed. the evenings excitement had tired her out, but there was no way that she would leave kitty there-with dozens of single girls-by herself. she didn’t even bother to take off her stage makeup, simply adjusted, threw on a black jumpsuit, and was off. the only times the thoughts of getting to Kat were interrupted was by concern for anne but Jane reassured her that the brunette would be well taken care of.

when she got to the club she anxiously scanned the crowd to find Katherine. her worst fears were confirmed; she spotted a pink ponytail flirtatiously dancing with a group of women, looking particularly cozy with a blonde. spotting her friend, kat gidily ran up to her and tried to pull her onto the dance floor. Anna could tell she was a little more than tipsy. “C’mon” she slurred “don’t be a downer. have some drinks with my new friends and I!!”. Anna grabbed her friends hands “Katherine, you don’t normally like to drink like this. or dance with too many people”. Kat replied “well, I used to. I used to go out and have fun all the time, before, well, they happened. that's why I wanted to come out tonight, because I thought I would feel safer, and I did. Now CMON” she said insistently. Cleves followed. She wasn't just worried about Kat, she was a little jealous. Still, she allowed herself to be pulled onto the dance floor. Kat picked up where she had left off, flirting with the blonde and drawing attention from girls around the club. Anne quickly downed two drinks, but they did nothing to make her feel better-if anything worse. She muttered “bathroom” into Kat’s ear and tok off before the queen would notice something was wrong. what in the world had gotten into her?? she was always down to have some fun, why couldn’t she pull it together for Kat’s sake? she put a damp towel to her eyes, trying to conceal the puffiness that signaled the start of tears. she took a deep breath. she would go out there and tell her she had come down with whatever Anne had, and take off. Kat was doing more than fine on her own. Just then, the younger girl burst into the bathroom. “Anna?” she shouted, a little too loud for the small bathroom they were in. Catching sight of her fried, she stumbled over to the sink and wrapped anna in a hug. Cleves tried to disentangle herself, saying “go back out there babe, I’m just not feeling-” “anna I can tell somethings wrong”. Even in her drunken state, she was paying attention. “please tell me I just want to help” she said sloppily. The tears began to flow. Anna cursed; she didn’t want to ruin Kat’s night and crying in front of her crush was not exactly considered a “cool move”. she finally decided to go for it. nothing could be more embarrassing than this, so she figured she had little to lose. Anna stuttered “well i just-I don’t like seeing you dancing with those other girls.” she paused. Kat was confused. “I thought you wanted me to get back out there” she said. Anne laughed again then shakily replied “well I wanted you to be happy, always. I just hoped that maybe...it could be with me.” a wave of understanding hit Katherine, even in her impaired state. she paused for a beat, and cleves feared the worst. she imagined herself moving out of their flat because of the awkwardness, having to explain to the other queens that she had been rejected by her best friend. she was interrupted by Kat’s lips pressing against her own. her mind went blank. Katherine pulled back, but Anna leaned in again. she wanted this moment to last as long as possible. Katherine giggled into their kiss. she said shyly “you seemed so much older and cooler. I thought you saw my like an annoying little sister”. Cleves buried her face in katherine’s shoulder, overcome with emotion. the girl of her dreams had just kissed her. she tightly squeezed the smaller girl. “I’ve always seen you for just what you are. Adorable, funny, sweet, and kind. always the pretties girl in the room, too”. They kissed again, they dirty bathroom melting around them. Anna said “lets go love” Kat blushed “lets get you home”. they walked out, arms wrapped around each other, in a state of shock at how the night had turned out. they felt safe in each others arms.

#I've wanted to write this for like 2 weeks but been INCAPABLE #im just so happy that i finally finished #even tho its trash #six fanfiction #six fanfic #six the musical #six the musical fanfiction #six the musical fanfic #six imagine #anna of cleves #katherine howard #anne boleyn #catherine parr #catherine of aragon #jane seymour

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sammy-jo1977 · 5 years ago

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The Party

An: First time posting something I’ve actually written. Hope it turned out okay. This is my admission for the Little Darlin’s All Things Fall Writing Challenge!! @littledarlinhavefaithinme @sourpatchkidsandacokecan this is it! Hope this turned out as well as I hoped. And I hope I did that right…

Prompt: “ Okay, who’s raising the dead when I’m trying to sleep?”

Word count:3307😱

Warning: None! Just a bit of fluffy maybe flirting

Matt Murdock x Reader, but later onish. Foggy and Karen have decided that a Halloween party would be a great idea. Now they just have to get Matt on board.

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Karen poured herself and Foggy a cup of coffee to each liking. Even set out Matt’s cup for when he came into the office.

Foggy was by her desk, getting more excited as he spoke. “Think about Karen. Really. We could dress up. I could talk Marci into even coming. And hey what about that guy you were talking to? Ryan? Bryan? Invite him too. We need this. Plus it could be fun.”

She laughed as she passed him the mug and shook her head before taking a drink from her own. “Sounds great Foggy. Think we’d have to talk Matt into the idea though first. And it’s Ryan thank you.“

“Matt will be easy. Leave to me. I can talk him into almost anything.” Karen had started to say something but noticed Matt walking up to the door.

"Really Foggy? I’m almost afraid to ask what you’re trying to talk me into now.“Karen couldn’t stop the laughter that escaped her lips as she moved to fix Matt his coffee.

“Nothing like in college calm down. No sir. This is about the impending awesomeness that is Halloween.” Matt turned to his friend with a bit of confusion and amusement. “Halloween? Really? Fog that’s what almost two months away.”

He gratefully accepted the coffee cup that Karen passed him. “Exactly! We are running out of time. So, what are we planning?” Matt headed towards the small conference room while Foggy and Karen followed. He laughed again at his friend’s excitement. “Don’t you think we’re a bit old for trick or treating?” Foggy glared at Matt. Which made Karen laugh. “He’s glaring at me isn’t he?“

The laughter was barely contained in Matt’s question. “Yeah I am jerk.”

“Alright. I’m sorry buddy.” Matt laughed again. “Can we get through today and we’ll talk later about it okay? Over drinks at Josie’s, yeah?“

His friend nodded to himself and quietly added a , “Fine alright.” The day went by. A few breakthroughs on a couple cases were made. Things were gathered and the three made their way to Josie’s. After a couple rounds and the massacre on the pool table that prompted round two. Foggy and Karen finally talked Matt into joining in the excitement of Halloween.

“Okay! Alright. What’s the plan then? Do you have a plan?”

“Of course I have a plan!” Foggy explained. Karen and Matt both looked at him expectedly waiting to see if he really did have a plan. “ Okay so maybe I haven’t worked out the details yes. But there is definitely a plan."

Matt just shook his head and took another drink of his beer with a low chuckle. Karen went back to the bar to buy the next round. "What about a costume party?! With a theme and everything?”, Foggy had turned quickly to Karen as she came back and handed each of the men their drinks.

“That could actually be fun.”

“Yeah?! Yes! Okay but what theme?”

Listening to the two of his best friends get excited about the idea of dressing up and everything actually got Matt liking the idea himself.

“Classic Monster Movies?"

"Eh maybe.”

Karen and Foggy tossed a couple more ideas around, neither being really set on anything yet.

"Matt? What do you think? Ideas buddy?“ He perked up, took a drink and shrugged. "I don’t know guys, I mean are we thinking the cheesy type stuff or what?”

"Anything?!“

"Yeah Matt, what do you want to do?"

He sighed and chuckled, "Well I mean, I don’t know. Not like I did a lot for Halloween as a kid.”

Foggy groaned when he missed whatever shot he had been going for at the table. Karen hummed in thought for a moment, but gasped quietly when the idea struck her. “Guys. I got It! Think about this. The 20’s. Great Gatsby type. Maybe?"

"HA! Yes I love it! With the mobster look, and the flapper girl dresses, YES!” The excitement in Foggy’s voice was again contagious.

It was agreed. They had a theme. And a few weeks to put it into action. Foggy agreed to help Matt plan his and told Karen that Marci could possibly help with hers. Matt again found himself laughing lightly as he listened to his two friends. The excitement brewing and bubbling over as Foggy decided that they would have it at the office.

“Guys I’m calling it a night."

Foggy just shook his head. "Still a lightweight.”

Matt playfully pushed him as he stood to unfold his cane. “Need help getting home?” Karen had chimed up.

“Nah. I’m alright. See you both tomorrow.” Matt made his way back to his apartment. The night was quiet. Little foot traffic passed him. The light chill of the breeze had him pulling his jacket closed just a bit tighter.

Fall in Hell’s Kitchen felt like was like anywhere else. The leaves changing colors and cooler breezes. But that was one of the things Matt Murdock missed. Seeing the many color variations the leaves would turn. The definitive crunch from the leaves on the sidewalk when stepped on. The crisper change of scent in the air. All helped paint the picture of what he once knew. He made it home in time to catch his neighbor across the hall as she headed into her apartment.

The subtle hint of cinnamon and vanilla surrounded her. “Hey (y/n)"

"Matthew.” Her voice was always just a little teasing. He kind of liked it if he was being honest. And she never just called him Matt. Its was Matthew. They had talked some before.

She had actually knocked on his door one evening when he had spent a rare night at home asking if he had any alcohol. Which prompted a brief night talking over a glass or two of whiskey before she left for her own bed. Even after he had tempted her. She had told him that night that he was trouble. Her voice holding that teasing tone that seemed to be reserved for him now.

He smiled at her and stepped inside his apartment. Went about getting changed to head out for the night.

Few nights later… It was late.

Matt didn’t know how late. All he knew was that there was a very persistent banging on his door. His body went into high alert for they first few moments. Until he heard his name being yelled, quite drunkenly from the other side of the door. Followed by another voice also calling out his name.

“Matt!!"

"Matt Come on!”

More banging against the door. “Come on buddy!”

Matt pulled himself from the bed and made his way through to his living room. More yelling came from his two friends through the door.

Something about drinking the town dry or something. Among other ideas that only made him chuckle to himself.

“Matt Come on! Karen says she cant drink alone with me anymore!”

“Its true Matt. You gotta help me."

After a few more bangs and the chorus of giggles from both Karen and Foggy mixed with more calling out of his name, he moved to the door.

Just as he was about to open the door, a new voice chimed in. "Do the two of you realize just how loud you are? Could raise the dead if you really tried.”

"Okay who’s raising the dead when I’m trying to sleep?”

He could feel her half hearted sleepy glare as soon as he opened the door. His neighbor from across the hall stood in her own door leaning heavily onto the frame.

Foggy turned too quickly and almost fell back if not for Matt steading him. “oh shit. Sorry."

Then in a not really hushed whisper, "She’s hot. Did you know she was hot Matty? Oh wait course you do.”

Karen had at least enough wits about her to apologize for him and for waking her. At least for a brief moment before leaning in close to the two boys and in the same not whisper, “She really is though.” before failing to contain a small fit of giggles.

Matt just shook his head, his fingers pinched the bridge of his nose. “Sorry ,(y/n). Didn’t mean to wake you.”

(y/a) couldn’t really blame Matt. And out of his two companions that stood outside, Karen muttered a quiet Sorry once again. Her hand covering her mouth. Foggy turned to her finally and did apologize before almost bursting into a fit of giggles. But he quickly turned back to Matt and pointed a finger to his chest.

“Actually that kinda works. You do sleep like the dead." Karencouldn’t help it, she burst into her own fit of laughter and almost slid down the wall.

"Sure you don’t want a hand with those two?”

Matt shook his head. And made a move to usher both through the door. “Nah I got them. Thanks though. And again I’m sorry they woke you.”

“Yeah we’re sorry!” Foggy yelled from inside the apartment. (Y/n) just laughed and shook her head.

“Good luck with them Mathew. Think you’ll need it.”

He chuckled, “Yeah think you’re right. G'night Kat.”

She bid him good night and closed her door. Matt turned back into his own and headed into the living room where his two friends had at least made it to the couch.

Karen on one end, half curled up with her head back. Foggy was half falling off, half laying down humming some random bits of songs that didn’t really go together.

All Matt could do was laugh. He went to go get a couple blankets and covered each of his friends as they started to doze off. Karen’s breathing evened out first, Foggy was still struggling to stay awake. “Matt… matt we gotta…” His arm stretched out to try and grab his arm. Matt took his friends hand and patted it. “Tomorrow buddy. Not tonight.” Foggy’s hand dropped back down and with a heavy sigh, he started to drift off. Matthew just chuckled and headed back to bed.

Of course the next morning was fun. Pained groans emitting from the couch as Matt closed the refrigerator door maybe a little carelessly.

Back in the office…

After a few cups of bad coffee both Karen and Foggy seemed to be a little more humanized from the zombies they had been that morning. Once they had made it through the day, a few clients had filtered in.

Now they sat around the table in the small conference room. Conversation had turned to the Halloween party again. Karen had put together a list of a the clients that would be able to attend. Matt had managed to get Claire Temple interested in going. Though she might not be able to make it due to she was technically on call that night. Of course Foggy had told Marci and she had decided that she would help Karen decorate. He had even talked to Brett. Though he had also been a little less likely to attend with everything that could possibly happen with it being Halloween.

So the guest lists had been prepared. All that was left was the costumes.

"Hey Karen have you found your costume yet?“

"No. But Marci did send me the address to that place where she found hers. What about you guys?”

Foggy came back into the room after grabbing more napkins. Several food boxes set around the table. “Not yet. Matt are we still going to the shop this week?"

Matt nodded around the mouthful of food he had just taken. "Yeah uh.. We can go later if you want."

Foggy was all for it, the excitement starting again breaking through the left over of the hangover that had hung on through the day.

After working through some left over paper work, the men bid Karen goodnight when she caught a taxi home.

Foggy flagged down one for them and they made their way to their destination. A shop that sold mainly vintage clothing and such. Specialized in alterations and custom designs.

After going through the racks of many different styles, they settled on different styles. Each still with the Twenties era.

In the next couple weeks, the party was coming together. With costumes found, Foggy’s excitement only grew. The weather grew colder.

Halloween finally rolled around.

The boys chose to get ready at Matt’s apartment. Matt had even invited his neighbor, though wasn’t sure if she would show.

Foggy’s outfit consisted of a dark pair of slacks, tannish grey waistcoat over a white button up, and dark buttonhole suspenders. Along with a dark brown wool flat cap and an almost matching bowtie.

Matt’s was more of a mobster look. Dark pinstripe pants and suit jacket. Paired with a black button up and dark red buttonhole suspenders almost matching a deep red tie. And to top it off black fedora with a red band.

Foggy’s excitement was everywhere. Matt more then once laughed at his friend when he noticed him practically bouncing on the balls of his feet.

"Karen agreed to meet us at the party. Wonder what she picked. Hey Brett is coming too."

The short trip to the office only fueled Foggy’s enthusiasm, Matt too. His own excitement feeding off his friend’s energy.

Music filtered down the hall as they got closer to the door. Foggy let himself and Matt into the office to the small crowd mixture of clients and friends, catching Karen’s eye.

Foggy gave out a whistle causing Matt to ask how she looked. "Breathtaking man. Wow."

She made a quick twirl before stepping up to them. Her deep blue dress almost form fitting with a v neck and wide shoulder straps. The black beading and sequins forming a streamline design that drew attention to her slight curves. The fringe extending just past her knees as the dress itself stopped mid thigh.

"Foggy I gotta say. This was a great idea.”

"I do have a few of those every now and then. You two always seem shocked.“ He spotted Marci further in the room and excused himself before taking off. Her burgundy and black beaded shift drawing the attention of almost every man in the room.

"Matt. Wow you look great!"

"Ha thanks. I bet you do too."

She started to question before he spoke up again. "Foggy said as much.”

There was a quick knock at the door before it opened again. “Matthew?” (Y/n) stepped into the room and shut the door behind her quietly. Matt turned towards her and smiled.

"Yeah hi! (Y/n) this is Karen, she’s a good friend of mine. Karen uh this is Kathrine. She’s my neighbor from across the hall.“

"RIGHT! Yeah. I think I remember. Um I am still sorry about that night we woke you.”

The women shook hands briefly, (y/n) giving Karen a smile.

"No worries. I wasn’t that upset. I must say though, you look incredible.“

"You too!"Matt listened briefly to them before taking quick stock of the room. Foggy had dragged Marci to the food table.

He did catch Brett’s voice somewhere in the room making small talk with someone. His tweed three piece feeling much different from his typical uniform. His hat much like Foggy’s hanging up with his long coat.

Claire’s voice carried from somewhere else in the room saying she really was relived when she had been given the night free from being on call. Her almost white shift dress dotted intricately with beads coming down just passed her knees. Though she deemed to wear flats. Refusing to go in heels.

Karen steered them both a little further into the room and excused herself for a brief moment.

"Well. You certainly clean up well Matthew.” The teasing not in her voice made him smile like it always did.

"I can only imagine how well you clean up as well (y/,n). Must be pretty damn good.“

"Hmm. Why’s that? A few heart rates jump when I came in?”

He turned to face her leaning on his cane slightly. His head tilted as he made sure no one was paying attention to the hushed conversation.

"What makes you think I could know that?“

She stepped closer to him and whispered. "Oh Matthew. I know who you are. Have since my second week in that building. How you do it I haven’t figured out yet."

His grip on his cane tightened to the point of his knuckles turning white.

"Don’t worry. I haven’t told anyone. And I won’t. You have my word on that."

He relaxed only briefly.

"But I must say. Black and red really are your colors.” Her teasing made him huff out a laugh. "And you?“

She hummed and shifted her weight a little. "Black naturally. Maybe a but too low cut but it suits me."

Matt shook his head with a smirk.

"Though your friend Karen does look gorgeous in the deep blue she chose.”

"Ha, Im not surprised. Foggy told me with her blonde hair and blue eyes that any blue looked great on her. Though he did say that Anything looked great on her.“

Karen returned with drinks in hand. Conversations flowed easily. The three making it into the crowd. Matt made his short rounds to talk to a few others.

Karen and (y/n) had made quick friends with one another. Though Matt joked with Foggy that he wasn’t sure if that was good or bad.

Claire called it an early night. Eager to get home and into her pajamas and curl up with a classic Halloween movie. When questioned she admitted it to being Hocus Pocus. Foggy agreeing almost immediately that it was the Best Halloween Movie in History.

Brett had to leave to head back to the station to deal with a few vandals that has been caught later on.

Karen offered to take Matt home when Foggy had told them he was taking off with Marci after helping clean up to an extent since the party had dwindled down to just the five of them.

Informing them he would be alright didn’t convince them until (y/n) had said she was heading home and could make sure he got back to his own door in one piece. Each bid their good nights after most of the aftermath had been taken care of.

And once back in the hall, in front of his door, Matt turned to (y/n). "How did you find out?"

She sighed, shifted from one foot to the other before leaning against the wall. "Mathew, you are many thing. But convincingly secretive is not one of them. Between the bruises, cuts, and whatnot. The being up at literally all hours. I work nights. And you are not always quiet. Also, I saw you and your friend Franklin stumbling up the stairs one day. Blood across your face and in the daredevil suit. It didn’t take much to connect the dots even before that.”

He let out a heavy sigh and banged his head lightly against his own door, quietly cursing.

"Like I told you before. This changes nothing. Your secret will be kept.“

He tilted his head toward her, noting her steady heart beat thrumming. "Thank you (y/n).”

She only nodded and pushed off from the wall. Taking the few steps closer to him she kissed him ever so lightly on the cheek and whispered. “You’re welcome Matthew."

He turned his head but she pulled away before he could initiate any more contact. "Good night Matthew.”

He smiled, and turned to face her as she backed toward her own door before turning and unlocking her own. “Good night (y/n).” He waited till he heard her door latch and the turn of her lock before opening his own door and stepping inside.

#idatfwc #matt murdock #foggy nelson #karen page #fall #halloween #hope i got everyone in character #matt murdock x reader #daredevil x reader #daredevil #roaring 20s #do not lose #sammy jo's stories

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14x15 Commentary

Special episode where a bunch of tired and caffeinated Europeans ( plus a sleepy American) scream together, and then die and try to get on with their day ( lol AS IF)

Hello and welcome:

@purpleskiesandcherrypies (Nat)

@dean-winchesters-bacon (Kat) good night babe

@waywardbaby (Zee)

@ain-t-bovvered (Giulia)

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14

Giulia: Oh the music is the stupid episode kind of music

Nat: awww

Zee: Baby dean

Giulia: THE WHIMPERING

J: I didn’t want to leave it there. And I didn't want to just kill it.

M: I’m looking for a new home

Giulia: I can be your new home bb

Nat: NO

Giulia: I DON T TRUST IT

Zee: Bamf Jack!! Two words I never thought I’d use In the same sentence

Nat: We're in Lawrence aren't we

Zee: In what year?

Scooby doo matinee 2$ . WHAT

oh look a Metallica poster. I still have that CD

Giulia: oh look My aesthetic

Giulia: That James Dean vibe tho

What’s this stupid music.

Zee: Charming acres???

Nat: "Where Everybody's Happy" Are we in Pleasant Ville?

I don’t trust shit.

Zee: Splash

See..?

Nat: Brain-mush

Giulia: CLEAN AISLE 3

Nat: Well, good morning to my breakfast

Giulia: TRUEST REACTION on supernatural EVER

Giulia: he loves that snake

Nat: SNAKY

C: *knocks* Hey Jack?

J: I’m good Castiel. [OMG DAAAAD stop breathing on my neck]

C: [sigh, semi-soulless teenagers]

Giulia: What’s up with the all black

C: How's the snake?

J: I don't think he's feeling well. He won’t eat.

well...doesn’t snakes eat rarely tho? like....once a week or something?

Zee: He misses his previous owner

LOOK AT THAT CUTE FUCKING SOFT SMILE . FUCK YOU MISHA

C: He's been through a lot of changes in a short period of time. I guess that's something you have in common.

Nat: He's going dark

Zee: Concerned dad

C: Jack, you killed Michael. You consumed his grace.

Giulia: I. DON T. TRUST. THIS. DID HE THO?

but also.....right now I’m that granny that mistook Cas for her 3rd husband , : “you are so pretty Charles”

Nat: I feel different now.... YA THINK

J: You want to know how much of my soul I had to burn off to kill Michael.

Yeah fuck I wanna know ok.

Nat: How could he know?!

Giulia: can’t cas look it up

Nat: He could stick his hand in there.

Giulia: HE COULD

Nat: That sounded wrong

Giulia: IT DID.

Zee: Deep inside. There I made it worse

J: I try not to think about it.

BAD.

I don’t like that hollow stare Jack, I swear to fucking god Imma slap your soul back into your body.

so I’m listening to the ep with my headphones and BOOOOOOY DID I HEAR THAT SIGH [cranking up the volume to the max and goes back]

Nat: I could eat him alive. And the sandwich

A wild Castiel appears.

C: Oh. Thought you, uh, were gonna sleep until the cows dragged you home.

D: That's not the -- Never mind.

THE *claps* DOMESTICS *claps*

AWE Cass asked about Rowena. [ what was the ship name again? Rostiel?, Caswena?Witchywings?

AWE CAS ASKED ABOUT SAM. [SASTIEEEEL]

D: I think they're both full of crap.

Of course they are, this is Supernatural. Cue painful montage!

*jazz hands*

Giulia: Poor sam

Zee: PTSD

Nat: Sammy :(

Giulia: They were his people

Sam and his fucking trembling lips

Nat: Aw Baby let me hug you

[Dean eating]

Giulia: Das me

Nat: I'm still hungry

Zee: Damn that mouth. It’s big

Giulia: What does it do tho ? wiggling eyebrows

Zee: It eats!! Everything

S: Yeah, well... I'm leaving in ten.

C: Maybe I should go with him. And you can stay with Jack.

me : GASP YES

D: Why do you think he'll talk to me?

hE ‘S YOUR SOOOOON!

C: Well, because he looks up to you.

Dean don’t you roll your eyes at your hub. It’s impolite.

D: I was not great with Sam, you know, when he was, uh...

STOP right there. Don’t give me flashbacks

D: Well, how am I supposed to figure that out?

Cass, your Misha is slipping out, put that voice back into the cave it came out of

C : Just talk to him. Get him to open up.

Audience : * SNORTS * yeah riiiight

C: Sleep until the cows come home.

D: There it is.

C: That's the saying.

*CLAPS* DOMESTICS

Nat: I'm hungryyyyyyyy

Zee: We’ve established that Nat

Nat: I mean.... APART FROM THIRSTYYYYYYYYYYY

Giulia: I’m eating nuts

Zee: I bet you are

Nat: Nut juice. Food against hunger and thirst. New Bumper sticker

Awe Cas is driving BB. [but where is the pimp mobile]

S: I'm good, honestly

C: YEAH I KNOW EVERYBODY IS GOOD

UUUUUH Cas baby, get me all tingly with your sarcasm

Also write that under the series main title as a warning really.

SUPERNATURAL : EVERYBODY IS GOOD

Listen Sam, baby, I can hear your voice breaking, stop with the bullshit.

C is like....you can fill so much bullshit in that moose body

S: we don't have as many Hunters as we used to.

OUCH

Zee: Cas learnt how to use his badge

Giulia: Lame

Nat: "We're FBI..."

Look how cute my baby is...look at him *sobs*

C: Was it more "Scanners" 1, 2, or 3?

OH WOW, IS CAS BEING DEAN RIGHT NOW? (because I’m all for it.)

Giulia: I bet dean made him watch that.

Nat: Charming Acres

Nat: I don't wanna live there

Giulia: I DOOOOO

Zee: It’s creepy ffs

Nat: It's all shades of fucked up. I mean, look!

LOVE IT

C: It's like we're stepping into a Saturday Evening Post. I look at them sometimes after you fall asleep at night. They're very soothing.

I had to google that , not gonna lie. Also....HOW FUCKING CUTE IS THAT?!

Giulia: DEM HAAAAAIR THO.

Giulia: FOXY WIFE

Zee: Foxy wife

S: What was that?

Giulia: i love that time, minus the racism and patriarchy and the war.

Nat: What is wrong with these people

Giulia: Living my dream ok

Zee: Oh shut up babe

Nat: I don't like perfect

Giulia: Cas and his bed hair

Giulia: DEM MILKSHAKES. I BET THERE IS SOMETHING IN THERE

Zee: Something fishy, lass

Sammy likes them milkshakes tho

Is it just my impression or Cas is running out of fucks this season?? I love it.

FLATFOOTS

Zee&Nat: We take care of each other.

mmm, don’t like that

Zee: Don’t like the way that sounded

Giulia: suspicious

Mayor: They said something about an aneurysm or something?

Zee: His head exploded

Nat: His head exploded

Giulia: OH NO HIS HEAD EXPLODED

Zee: Gotta love Cas

Giulia&Nat: Like a ripe melon on the sun

Giulia: GOTTA LOVE HIM

Sam panicking.

S: "Like a ripe melon on the sun"?

C: It was an apt metaphor.

As I said : Angel out of fucks

S: Okay, well, maybe next time try to be a little less...apt.

C: The entire town is so strangely picturesque.

Giulia: I KNOOOOOW! , Can I go there?

Zee: NOOOOOOO

Nat: We wouldn't let you

Giulia: Dat dress.

Nat: Bonding time

Jack just gave the snake the cookie crunch , sobs so pure....for now

J: I think he’s sad

Nat: Have you tried bacon

Bacon....the solution to everything. I mean....not wrong, it’s delicious.

Giulia: so dorky

Sniffs Chinese food

D: Well, anyway, you and the, uh, snake...want to go for a little dri-ive?

gets mice .

Nat: mice scare him?

ok but Dean is that squeamish sometimes . It’s hilarious.

...because the mice scared me and I need confort. Also I’ll probably avoid Chinese food for a month so there’s that.

Nat: Ahhh... Jack really talks to that thing

Woman: Not people. Men. I only rent to young men. It's not proper -- young women living alone?

Nat: MORALS. GOTTA HAVE MORALS

*looks at Castiel*

Woman: You know.

...C i like....what

me: sHe fLirtS

Nat: Ya still wanna go there, @Giulia

Zee: She’ll say yes

Giulia: YEAH. Y’all can’t stop me

Zee: See? I’ll tie you down bitch just watch

Nat: Ya CAnT LiVE oN YOuR oWn

Giulia: I’ll work at the diner

Time for some SNOOPING

Giulia: So much hand porn for me

C: - they're...surprisingly passionate.

Sam with a tiny ass cup ready for some gossiping: Passionate how?

Castiel without a speck of blush: She spends, uh, quite a bit of time talking about the -- the shape and the heft of his --

Zee: Such a tiny cup

Please tell me there a DICK PICK in there lol

S: It's getting late, Cass. And you're right. I-I probably need some rest.

oh noe

C: You want to stay here?

S: Why not? Ms. Dowling's making pot roast.

OH NOE

Nat: I can smell head explosion

Zee: I can smell the bleach they’ll use

Nat: And there you go

Giulia: NICE I can live in that fantasy idc

Nat: You won't have us

Giulia: I wouldn’t know

Zee: Impossible. We’re seeped in your bones

Giulia: You can’t miss what you don’t remember

Nat: Yo head's going to explode when you remember, Giuls

D: Why don't you grub up? We still got another couple hours.

J: I'm not really hungry.

I DON’T LIKE IT

D: Give him one of these. I bet he's never had that before.

DEAN NO

J: I don't think you have a firm grasp on what snakes eat.

Zee: Uncomfortable dean

D: Yeah, I always thought they were kind of cool, though.

Nat: Aww...adorable Dean

Giulia: I thrive out of these moments

Zee: Road trip with dad

D: Mm. Well, it's not the snake that's dangerous. It's their...bite.

J: Is -- Is that a saying?

D: It is now.

Nat: hahah... is Dean looking with one he's going to pick?

Nat: Dad move

Giulia: Was that really a way to test jack? With CAKES

Nat: Dean move

Sam’s room is empty

Giulia: Weird Sam time

Zee: Not good

Nat: I told ya

Giulia: Das me jamming

Giulia: He so awkward

Giulia: HALLO!

Giulia: No i don t eat.I'm looking for my partner.

Mrs B: Oh. The very nice, the very tall fella?

Castiel angel of the lord? more like Castiel angel of I’VE RUN OUT OF FUCKS

Mrs.B: Hm. He said he's going for a walk. [pause ] And a milkshake.

Giulia: Still me jamming, ‘He’s got tan shoes with pink shoelaces’

Nat: yeah i mean, what's with her. all of a sudden a new husband?

Nat: My partner

Giulia: I’m looking my partner

Nat: The tall man - yes the very tall man

Zee: The very tall. Man

Giulia: I WOULD HAVE DIED. CAN HE GRAB MY HANDS TOO

Nat: Mr smith is gone long live Mr smith

Giulia: I would like a martini yes

Zee: I was waiting for this

C: Hair? ---He has beautiful hair?

Giulia: HE HAS

Nat: he has beautiful hair

Giulia: BEAUTIFUL HAIR

Giulia: THIS IS COMPLICATED . Cas is like...... WHAT IS THIS I WAS NOT PROGRAMMED FOR THIS. PEOPLE . PEOPLE SKILL. NOT FUNCTIONING .

Giulia: OH LOOK THAT’S MY MOM

Nat: what

Nat: the

Nat: fuck

Giulia: i’m loving this cas

C: I'm so sorry, but last night, his head, um --

Giulia: he had to pause

Giulia: That laugh was creepy

Nat: How about that martini?

Mrs. Smith : No...my husband he’s good.

[ SNORTS ]

Nat: OH god... no I need a drink

Nat: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Giulia: ...

Nat: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Giulia: EW

Nat: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Nat: That pony tail

Zee: I don’t like this

Giulia: THAT’S SWELL

Nat: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JUSTIN NO GOOD

what’s up wITH THE FUCKING POT ROAST ?

Nat: Honey, make me one too! Dammit

Giulia: SAME I NEED 5

Zee: A round of martinis please

C: This is not your house.

Justin!Sam :

Justin!Sam : You're right. This is my wife's house. I am simply living here.

Giulia: OH YOU

C: Something terrible's happened.

you right, those hair happened

Justin!Sam: I'm feeling adventurous.

Nat: Rawr ?

Giulia: NO

Giulia: I CAN T

Zee: I can’t process

Justin!Sam : So that's a no-no on the hooch?

I think Jared had too much fun in this. I WANT ALL THE BLOOPERS PLEASE PLEASEEEEE

Giulia: I’m laughing so much

Nat: You watch your mouth

Giulia: SIR U WATCH UR MOUTH

Zee: Skedaddle

Nat: I don't wear a hat , dammit I.... uh

Zee: Bitch

Giulia: WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT

Justin!Sam : Sir, using language like, uh, "H-E-double hockey sticks" --

Nat: Wash your mouth out with soap?

Giulia: GUYS, I haven’t had this much fun on spn in a long time.

I can’t breathe

Zee: I’m dying here

Nat: Double hockey sticks?

oh....OH.....I GOT IT NOW....GOLLY...WHAT THE HECKIE

Nat: STILL WANNA LIVE THERE?

Giulia: YEAH SHUT UP

Nat: ZETa

Zee: What?

Nat: Giuls is willing to leave us and go live there

Giulia: I LIKE THE AESTHETICS

Zee: As I said. Not possible. The amount of the insanity that she has shared with us won’t let her

Donatello : Ah, I am just the picture of health. Except for my prostate. It's shaped like a papaya.

...THANK YOU BB

also...do you guys think the Winchester get their prostate checked? or do they call.....Doctor Novak? (͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)

Nat: Dena really doesn't like snakes. Dean. Not Dena. Well, maybe Dena too. I wouldn't know

Giulia: We don’t judge

Zee: Never

Giulia: I LOVE HIM

Giulia: God sister snacked on it

Giulia: That’s a big ass cup

Nat: That's a big cup

Zee: Black hole

Giulia: ...

Giulia: This succession of texts is cursed

Nat: Not going there, Giuls

Zee: Again. I concur

Giulia: I ain’t said shit ya pervs

Zee: YET

Nat: You were thinking it. That's enough

Zee: ABOUT TO SAY IT

Giulia: You two were thinking it too , get off that high horse

Zee: offended gasp

J: And when it was gone, how did you -- how'd you feel?

Donatello: Like...the galaxy. You know, Jack, our galaxy's all bright and shiny and spinny, but in its center lies this very large black hole.

Donatello: I'm all bright and shiny, obviously. Not so much spinny But inside? Empty.

Donatello : Losing your soul doesn't make you bad It doesn't make you anything. It's, um... an absence of...of pity, of empathy...of humanity.

J: I know I don't feel...nothing, but I don't feel the same, either. And maybe I just don't know what nothing feels like. Mostly, I just don't want Sam and Dean and Cass to worry. I just -- I need time and space to figure things out on my own, but everywhere I go, there's someone looking over my shoulder.

Giulia: I get that boo

Nat: MAKE ME CRY JACK

J: Sam and Dean are the best men I know.

Nat: FUCK YOU. I'M CRYING

Donatello : whenever you don't want them to worry just think "WWWD" -- "What Would the Winchesters Do?"

Giulia: Pew pew pew pew pew pew. That’s what they’ll do. Sex stares. Bitchfaces. Bacon. Rocking off. Kill monsters. BOOKS.

Zee: Kicking asses, taking names

Giulia: Kick names , take ass

Nat: there goes giuls

Zee: Oh babe!!! Right there

Nat: I should not engage in this convo because it's going to be dirty

Zee: He’s not like you?!

Donatello : I suppose the first question we must ask ourselves is, what is a soul?

D: Donny.

Donny: What?

Nat: He seems ok

Nat: SEEMS

Donny: Jack's probably the most powerful being in the universe. [Creepy music starts to play....I sweat] I mean, really, who knows what's going on inside his head?

Giulia: I like donatello

D [ with the anxiety of a thousands suns ] : ...thanks

Zee: Erotic musings

Giulia: Cas saying “steamy” and “erotic” is making me tingling

Zee: Rip it from your ...

YOU KNOW WHAT HE CAN RIP OFF ME THO?

Nat: BAMF CAS

Giulia: And this too

Nat: Of course it's him

Zee: What are you ?

Nat: Sam's so tall

Zee&Giuls: The squint

Zee: Giuls shut up

Mayor: and no matter what I did, people would turn to drink or drugs, they'd move away.

Giulia: Oh boo hoo .Let me do drug in peace.

Mayor: ...And you know what happened next?

C: No, but I have a feeling you're gonna tell me.

[I’m all out of fucks anyway ]

Giulia: THE SNARK

C: I won't hurt you, Sam.

Justin!Sam: Golly, I told you my name is Justin!

Giulia: GOLLY

Nat: Justin!Sam is this a thing now?

Giulia: i hope

Zee: Giuls. That’s all for you. Cas kicking ass

Giulia: I know I’m sweating. Look at this shit

H O T

Giulia: NO IDC ABOUT THEM LEMME SEE CAS

C: Fight this!

J S: Why? I'm happy in Charming Acres.

Giulia: THAT’s US

Nat: That's us against Giuls

C: Sam, I know you want to be happy. And I know what it's like to lose your army. I know what it's like...to fail as a leader, Sam. But you can't lose yourself.

You have to keep fighting.

You can't lose yourself, because if you do, you fail us. You fail all of those that we've lost. You fail Jack. Sam, you fail Dean.

Nat: make me cry

Giulia: omg I’m crying

Giulia: I’m cryiiing and I’m tired of seeing Cas and that fucking blade like that ok.STOP IT. [ going into MOC Dean ptsd ]

Zee: Lool

Nat: OH no no brain explosion please

Zee: I’m god

Giulia: We met god. God has a beard

Zee: God has a beard

Giulia: God is ma dad

Nat: NO

Giulia: YAS QUEEN

Zee: I like her now

Giulia: make his head go splat

Zee: Vegetable

Giulia: Psh lame

Nat: hey, not bad huh?

Giulia: Laaaaame

Zee: You needed the splat!

Nat: you know lame when you get there giuls

Zee: Nat. We’ve established we won’t let her

Giulia: BuT ThE dREsSeS

Giulia: God dean

Nat: Dean stop being adorable

j: It was...illuminating

D ... the fuck, stop talking like your angel father.

D: Heard you wore a cardigan.

C: Yeah, I told him about the cardigan.

S: Great. Thanks.

D: And the wife.

Giulia: What about the ponytail

Giulia: Wait, Cas and dean talked about it on the phone [dies]

D: Well, not a lot of happy goin' on around here.

Nat: Wow, Dean feel a stab in his heart

S: I hate this place right now. I hate it.

S: Everywhere I look, I see them. I see Maggie. I guess that's why, uh -- why I was so desperate to get out of here, why I kept running us ragged. But I got to stop that. I-I can't keep running. I -- This is my home.

This is our home.

Dean, I think I just need some time.

Giulia: Yeah same

Nat: Sammy babe

Zee: How couldn’t they have

Giulia: Awe this is the hurt Sammy season. Again

D: Okay.

Giulia: STAPH

Giulia: WITH

Giulia: THAT

Giulia: LOOK

Giulia: JARED

Zee: Sam needs a million years in therapy

Nat: You need help

Giulia: NO

Zee: Oh no

Giulia: I DON T LIKE IT

J: Sam and Dean would help you, so -- so I'll help you.

Nat:. Nah, Dean wouldn't

J: I'll help you see your friend again.

Giulia: FUCKING

Nat: No

Giulia: NO

J: In Heaven.

Nat: What

Giulia: JAAACK

Nat: Jack

Giulia: THank god cas saw it

Nat: Wtf

Zee: Yeah. That wasn’t good

Giulia: Oh shuttttt uuuup

Giulia: PROMO

Zee: Dean in a suit. Alien vs predator

Nat: Creepy, me likey

Giulia: Eh

Nat: OK babes, i gotta go. Nat: See ya! it was a pleasure.

Zee: Always

Giulia: Go have some milkshake

If you want to get tagged in the future ones send an ask HERE or to @waywardbaby or a smoke signal, idk whatever I’m tired af.

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#14x15 commentary #spn 14x15 #14x15 spoiler #peace of mind #14x15 peace of mind #Episode commentary #spn episode commentary #spn commentary #commentary

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kylorenpunk · 6 years ago

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Well I challenged @masonjar828 to do this ask meme like 200 years ago and he challenged me back but I’ve been busy so here we are.

200: My crush’s name is: don’t have one. men suck. 199: I was born in: Mickey Mouse’s lair aka Orlando 198: I am really: trying not to make a self deprecating joke rn 197: My cellphone company is: Not being disclosed bc I don’t need stalkers 196: My eye color is: brown 195: My shoe size is: 8. I’m pretty sure I’m supposed to be taller than I am bc of that shoe size 194: My ring size is: Uh no idea. Maybe 9? 193: My height is: Five foot three inches 192: I am allergic to: A couple of antibiotics but that’s it 191: My 1st car was: 1995 Honda Accord. RIP Goldeen. 190: My 1st job was: Technically I was an assistant for an occupational therapy clinic that paid me under the table. My first paid job was a pool attendant for a hotel. 189: Last book you read: My professor’s shitty textbook. 188: My bed is: currently unmade. 187: My pet: doesn’t exist. Bro is allergic to the entire animal kingdom 186: My best friend: I have multiple and love them all very much 185: My favorite shampoo is: Just recently bought a new shampoo from OGX (coconut curls I think?) 184: Xbox or ps3: xbox 183: Piggy banks are: Not a bad concept. I have upgraded to using mason jars to save money 182: In my pockets: Not wearing pockets atm. Usually I only carry my phone tho 181: On my calendar: Is a bunch of doctor’s appointments 180: Marriage is: Fantastic with the right person 179: Spongebob can: ??? do whatever he wants? idk what op was thinking 178: My mom: is great and shouldn’t have to deal with my shit 177: The last three songs I bought were? I haven’t bought music in over two years. Spotify is my life. 176: Last YouTube video watched: I watch so many a day that I forgot what I last watched. 175: How many cousins do you have? 5 on paternal side. 3 on maternal. But I’m hispanic so it’s def more than immediate family 174: Do you have any siblings? 1 and he’s a pain but I love him 173: Are your parents divorced? nope. fun fact. I used to think divorce was normal as a child and wondered when I would get a second set of parents. 172: Are you taller than your mom? No I’m like 4 inches shorter 171: Do you play an instrument? is mayonnaise an instrument 170: What did you do yesterday? future job training and watched my brother [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: Lust at first sight 168: Luck: kinda 167: Fate: sure 166: Yourself: a lot more than I used to 165: Aliens: why not 164: Heaven: in a way 163: Hell: sure 162: God: the catholic in me says yes 161: Horoscopes: yes and no 160: Soul mates: tough question. 21 year old me would have said yes. 23 me is on the fence. Maybe for other people but I don’t really believe it for myself. 159: Ghosts: I love ghost walks so I hope they’re real 158: Gay Marriage: Of fucking course 157: War: No 156: Orbs: Isn’t this the same as ghosts? 155: Magic: No [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: Either one has it’s benefits 153: Drunk or High: Never been high so I guess drunk 152: Phone or Online: they mean the same thing now 151: Red heads or Black haired: dark hair 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 149: Hot or cold: hot 148: Summer or winter: summer 147: Autumn or Spring: spring 146: Chocolate or vanilla: depends. rn I want vanilla 145: Night or Day: day 144: Oranges or Apples: oranges 143: Curly or Straight hair: doesn’t matter. I feel more myself with straight hair tho 142: McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonald’s 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk 140: Mac or PC: pc. Apple is a peice of shit. 139: Flip flops or high heals: heals 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: this is a weird question 137: Coke or Pepsi: depends on whether it’s a can, glass or on ice 136: Hillary or Obama: lol was this made in 2008 135: Burried or cremated: not sure. i wanna say burried tho 134: Singing or Dancing: I’m bad at both 133: Coach or Chanel: neither 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who 131: Small town or Big city: small town 130: Wal-Mart or Target: target 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: ben stiller 128: Manicure or Pedicure: pedicure. my hands never last 127: East Coast or West Coast: east 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas bc I can see my family 125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers 124: Disney or Six Flags: six flags despite the fact that i’ve never been 123: Yankees or Red Sox: I don’t give a shit about sports [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: dumb 121: George Bush: dumb 120: Gay Marriage: I’m hoping for a day where the LGBTQ+ community is no longer discrimated against 119: The presidential election: dumb 118: Abortion: No woman should be denied a right to abortion 117: MySpace: yeah this was made in 2008 116: Reality TV: dumb 115: Parents: great wonderful 114: Back stabbers: dumb 113: Ebay: useful 112: Facebook: kinda useful 111: Work: a necessity 110: My Neighbors: I don’t talk to them 109: Gas Prices: could be lower 108: Designer Clothes: I don’t care 107: College: a scam but education is worth it 106: Sports: depends on the sport 105: My family: great wonderful 104: The future: idk [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: yesterday 102: Last time you ate: when I started this thing 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: last month 100: Cried in front of someone: Two weeks ago 99: Went to a movie theater: going tonight 98: Took a vacation: three years ago. going soon tho 97: Swam in a pool: I don’t even remember. 96: Changed a diaper: never 95: Got my nails done: a year and a half ago 94: Went to a wedding: a year and a half ago 93: Broke a bone: never 92: Got a peircing: three years ago 91: Broke the law: probs when I was underage drinking 90: Texted: yesterday [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: all of my friends 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: free food and family 87: The last movie I saw: toy story 4 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: starting my career job 85: The thing im not looking forward to: taxes being taken out of my paycheck 84: People call me: Karina, Kari or Rina 83: The most difficult thing to do is: let go of someone in your life 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope 81: My zodiac sign is: cancer 80: The first person i talked to today was: no one. Update my boss just called lol 79: First time you had a crush: 1st grade lmao 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: myself 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: uh recently I think 76: Right now I am talking to: Romantic? no one Normally? No one lmao 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I’m grown but I’m not disclosing my job on here 74: I have/will get a job: already have one 73: Tomorrow: I’m working 72: Today: I’m cleaning 71: Next Summer: No idea 70: Next Weekend: no idea 69: I have these pets: no I don’t 68: The worst sound in the world: styrofoam 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my mother 66: People that make you happy: family and friends 65: Last time I cried: Thursday 64: My friends are: cool great wonderful 63: My computer is: working 62: My School: I’m graduated 61: My Car: I need to wash today 60: I lose all respect for people who: have no respect 59: The movie I cried at was: toy story 4 58: Your hair color is: brown 57: TV shows you watch: Sabrina, jane the virgin 56: Favorite web site: twitter 55: Your dream vacation: new york 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: wisdom teeth 53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare 52: My room is: a mess 51: My favorite celebrity is: chris evans 50: Where would you like to be: on vacation 49: Do you want children: yes 48: Ever been in love: three times. Ironically only one was with someone I actually dated 47: Who’s your best friend: I have multiple 46: More guy friends or girl friends: good mixture of both 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: makeup 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: a few 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: hell no 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: not a physical list 41: Have you pre-named your children: kinda 40: Last person I got mad at: no disclosing 39: I would like to move to: the smokey mountains 38: I wish I was a professional: MUA [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: lifesaver gummies 36: Vehicle: hondas 35: President: obama 34: State visited: TN 33: Cellphone provider: ATT 32: Athlete: n/a 31: Actor: i can’t choose 30: Actress: cant choose 29: Singer: can’t choose 28: Band: currently little mix 27: Clothing store: rip charolette russe 26: Grocery store: publix is the only acceptable floridian answer 25: TV show: jane the virgin 24: Movie: high school musical 23: Website: twitter 22: Animal: meerkat 21: Theme park: busch gardens 20: Holiday: halloween 19: Sport to watch: soccer 18: Sport to play: none 17: Magazine: n/a 16: Book: eragon 15: Day of the week: friday 14: Beach: n/a 13: Concert attended: hannah montana? 12: Thing to cook: beans 11: Food: rice 10: Restaurant: taco bell 9: Radio station: n/a 8: Yankee candle scent: n/a 7: Perfume: anything fruity 6: Flower: rose? 5: Color: pink or blue 4: Talk show host: ellen 3: Comedian: n/a 2: Dog breed: black lab 1: Did you answer all these truthfully? wouldn’t you like to know

#ask meme #personal shit #why do i curse myself with these #sorry mason

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wondermentishere · 3 years ago

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i tend to not be very vocal about my internalized transphobia but i just had a very scary random moment and this is my safe space so i figured why not. i love kat blaque’s podcast and turned it on when work was winding down. the show’s topic was about dfab nb and trans men’s experience with dating straight men and lesbians. very interesting (and affirming) stuff being discussed. im genuinely excited about these conversations and love to hear queer people talk amongst ourselves without fear of invalidation.

being invalidated is big thing for me i have learned throughout this journey. i fear being denounced, judged, criticized, laughed at, rejected, silenced, and ignored. its very human to not want to be forced through the humiliation of what ive mention. my anxiety is shot through the roof knowing being trans is the worst thing you can be according to so many brain washed people. it makes sense that my brain bugs out over my identity sometimes because i exist in a world where my existence is straight up denied. i just dont make sense to alot of people. sometimes i question if i make sense to myself. i run through scenarios of having to stick up for myself as a way to “prepare” for future scenarios, i guess. its sad to me that im afraid if i cant defend myself “properly” what others say about my identity will mean more than what i say. i replay transphobic memories i have of my mom then i put myself in her shoes and just imagine how fucking crazy shes gonna think i am when she finds out. my therapist says its normal to have these fears but allowing them to deter me from doing what i want is extremely unhealthy.

im just trying to figure out what i want. im dysphoric some days to the point i wish i had t to inject immediately. other days (doesnt happen often) im content with how i look and wouldnt change a thing. i spend alot of time just trying to figure which route i would be okay with living like for the rest of my life. i told myself recently that im definitely not going on t and that was my final answer, but since that day the thought has been creeping in over and over again. i see cute trans mascs on tiktok and squeal over how good they must feel in their bodies. i know t would be fucking awesome but i dont completely hate how i am now. im gonna hop on reddit to see how people who were in my position came to their conclusions. im getting tired of fighting myself in my head constantly. i feel crazy sometimes

#diary #trans journey

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pcyheartgirlx · 7 years ago

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Legacy of Legends [PROLOGUE]

Genre ;; Fantasy

Pairing ;; Chanyeol x Reader

Word Count ;; 3.4k

Summary ;; “We are only one if we are twelve.”

Whatever happened to a normal life? All you wanted to do was move out of the ghetto with your boyfriend and two best friends, Azura and Kat. But things took a drastic turn when your boyfriend died. When you and your best friends decide to backpack through Asia, you find that you aren’t just ordinary college graduates. That your life serves a greater purpose and that the fate of the world rest at the hands of you, your 3 friends and 9 men that call themselves The Legends.

A/N ;; I’m baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack. This is my latest and newest fic and it’s quite quite different from the last series. There isn’t going to be as much smut in this fic but there’s a lot of really cool scenes and scenarios I’m extremely excited to write about. Anyway, enjoy guys. Small warning, there are character deaths in this fic/prologue. I am an avid OT12 stan but for the sake of this fic, it is what it is. lol

“Kyungsoo! Minseok! Look out!” Jongdae screamed from across the battlefield. The red eyed robot, RF-05, was fixing its aim at the stone structure where the two crouched behind.

“Fuck!” The titanium metal claw broke through the stone wall and sent Kyungsoo flying back, crashing into another broken stone wall behind him, the remains of their castle.

“You’re okay, Kyungsoo. You’re okay!” Minseok cried as he crawled over to him. “We just have to get the shield charged, that’s all Jongdae has left.”

“I don’t know how much longer we can last,” Kyungsoo winced, rubbing the back of his head and clutching his gun closer to him. “Can you see Kris anywhere?” Minseok shook his head and raised his wrist up to his mouth.

“Sehun! Luhan! Do you have eyes on Kris?” Minseok whispered into the watch while Kyungsoo looked over their make shift shelter, eyeing the robot’s next move.

“He’s still circling the battleground. Next to head out are myself and Luhan,” Sehun spoke into the walkie as he shot blindly at RF-05, also crouched behind another stone structure.

“Sehun,” Luhan started as he clutched his gun close to him. “Now’s our chance.”

“Not yet!” Sehun grabbed onto Luhan’s elbow, forcing the blonde to look back at the black haired man who had worry brimming in his eyes. The sounds of laser guns being fired and the kinks and metal gears running filled the atmosphere. Their comrades were scattered all over the robot crouching and plotting behind what used to be gigantic stone structures. Sehun and Luhan covering Jongdae as he constructed a reflective shield, Baekhyun and Tao on it’s left waiting for the next move, Junmyeon on right with Chanyeol and Yixing who were next to create a distraction and Jongin who had just ran over to where Kyungsoo and Minseok were hiding to check if they were okay. Kris was on the motorbike, trying to keep an eye on the enemy at all angles.

“Sehun, it’s distracted! We have to take this chance!”

“Kris hasn’t give us the okay yet! We can’t just go out blindly!”

“I’m going!”

Luhan turned away, darting with confidence as he lifted his weapon to aim at the giant robot in from of him. Junmyeon, who was to create a diversion by darting across the battleground, was only mid way through, when the robot heard the footsteps behind him. Instantly, the robot snapped to his side, flashing it’s red eye at Luhan who stood below.

“Not today, Rowanel,” Luhan snarled shooting his laser straight for the red beam, but that titanium claw shot across it’s front, deflecting the shot Luhan was so sure of.

“Get out of there! Now!” Jongin called as he ran passed the field to get to Luhan, but it was too late. Luhan was swept off his feet and in the clutches of the robot’s metal claw. Luhan was constricted, trying to wriggle his body free as he stared into the eye of the robot watching the beam change colors.

“Light blue!” Tao cried from the left, doing his best to aim for the arm of the robot.

“Frost! It’s going to freeze him!” Baekhyun popped up from where he was standing, picking up where Tao left off so Tao could recharge his laser.

Right before the 11 men’s very eyes, they saw Luhan’s complexion dull, turning his glowing skin into a purple hue while he froze in the clutches of the enemy. Kris came zooming past the robot. But the robot remained unfazed as Kris did circles around it.

“Guys! A-Aim...f-f-for th-t-t-h--” Luhan’s jaw locked in place, not being able to control the stiffening of his frozen body. Luhan was now immobile. His carnal body just a shell of frost, lifeless and colorless. When the robot was done with him, he tightened his grip around Luhan until the man cracked under it’s clutches, breaking him into pieces as if he was just an ice cube.

“Luhan!” Kris cried as he watched his friend fall to the ground in pieces. Everyone’s breathing stopped. You could hear Sehun wailing from his spot and Chanyeol calling out to his fallen friend. But still, they were in battle and they had to keep fighting. “Everyone! Plan B!” Kris called out, tears started to well in his eyes.

Plan B.

It was time for Tao to shine. Everyone except for Tao and Jongdae made their way over to Chanyeol, Yixing and Junmyeon. Kris drove past the robot, creating sharp turns and even reversing backwards to create a diversion for the rest of the group to get to their position. Once Kris noticed they were all where they needed to be, he signalled Tao to commence the plan.

“Tao! Now!”

“Hey, You red eyed piece of shit! This is what you decided to come back as? A bunch of gears?!” Tao jumped up from behind the stone and shot at the robot, knowing damn well it would just be reflected off it’s titanium claw. The red eye gleamed at Tao, causing him to swallow hard but never falter. He kept shooting, waiting for Kris to come through on his motorbike and save him.

Kris sped to Tao, pushing down on the gas with all his strength to gain as much momentum before the robot had a chance to grab Tao. The plan was to have Tao create a distraction while everyone ran to one side of the battlefield. Kris would race to him, scoop him up before the robot decided to kill him and they would meet their brothers over on the other side. When RF-05 was ready to attack, Jongdae would jump out with the shield he had been building, reflecting the robot’s attack and destroying it. In that, they hoped their orbs would remain safe. The orbs that contained their power. The orbs that RF-05 stole from them.

But the minute Luhan died, the whole group became uneasy and unsure. It caused a ripple in their confidence. If one of them could die, then any of them could die. Kris kept that in mind as he sped closer to Tao who was emptying his laser charge on RF-05. But the closer Kris got, he saw that red eye power down, blinking an array of colors as the claw deflected Tao’s attacks.

“He’s changing powers!” Kris screamed over to his friends who were grouping toward the right. “Be prepared!”

“You fucker,” Tao muttered as he noticed his laser charge powering down. Kris was only a few feet away when the Red Eye changed into a golden color. Tao lowered his weapon, his muscles were tense and he was about ready to jump up on the robot and rip it’s gears out. “You’re using my power against me!? Who do you think you are?!”

In that moment, the moment Kris was about to grab Tao and throw him over the back of the motorbike, the moment where Tao was about to let all his offensive go for even thinking about using his power, that was when time froze. But only for Tao and Kris and the debris that surrounded them.

“We have to go save them!” Chanyeol started for the opposite side of where he was huddled, only to have Yixing and Junmyeon grab him arm before he left the group.

“Chanyeol, we cant!” Junmyeon used all his strength to bring the tall man down to his behind while Yixing put a hand on his shoulder to stop him from running away. That was a moment Chanyeol would regret for the rest of his immortal life. As the 8 peaked over the wall, they saw their friends frozen in time and the claw of the robot turning, as if changing it’s setting.

“Almost done!” Jongdae called from the side. “Prepare to get in position!”

“Copy!” Baekhyun responded, clutching onto Yixing beside him as they watched the claw manifest was looked like a ball of fire, turning the claw into a steaming mess.

“He’s going to burn them! Jongdae please hurry!” Sehun cried through bitten back tears. Chanyeol wanted nothing more than to bolt over there but the way Yixing and Junmyeon held him back, all he could do was scream. A scream that could have been heard all over the planet as he watched Tao and Kris become engulfed in the flames sprouting from RF-O5’s claw. All 9 of them watched, their hearts being ripped from their chests and tears pooling in their eyes. They had just lost Luhan; and now Tao and Kris.

“That’s it,” Kyungsoo growled, wiping the tears that were running down his face. “I’m going out! Jongdae! Hurry the fuck up!”

“For Luhan!” Sehun screeched as he followed Kyungsoo to the front of their hiding spot. Jumyeon nodded, still in shock but with determination as he motioned for the rest of them to take position. Once they all were facing the robots, 8 laser guns went off continuously, creating dents against the white metal, bouncing off the titanium arm. They huddle together, protecting whatever was left of them, whatever was left of EXO planet. And if they were to die, they were to die together.

It wasn’t until Red Eye’s claw started to rotate, almost using the momentum to create a large blue electrical current just as it had created the fire ball that killed Tao and Kris. The 8 stood there, never seizing fire before Minseok spoke.

“If we don’t make it out of here!” he screamed over the sounds of their lasers going off simultaneously. “Just know I love you all and I couldn’t have asked for better comrades!”

“We’re going to win!” Chanyeol snarled as he kept shooting.

“For our fallen brothers!” Jongin’s voice was loud and cracked, holding back a sob as he kept shooting, his aim wavering.

“For EXO Planet!” Yixing followed, his finger constantly pulling back that trigger, never taking his guard down. Until now when they were all forced to. The claw set in front of them, the blue energy in it’s metal palm gaining more strength and doubling in size. The 8 of them huddled closer together, holding their guns up and watching as their fate was nearing. It wasn’t long before the blue energy separated, coming at them with speed and pure vengeance.

But when they opened their eyes, they saw Jongdae, standing there with the shield that had taken him almost an hour to construct. An hour of battle that felt like a lifetime

“That was a big mistake, Rowanel.”

What the robot didn’t know is that Jongdae’s shield was constructed with replication technology they had borrowed from a distant planet. Just as they borrowed the watches that opened the line of communication for them and the laser guns they were now using to shield themselves with. As Jongdae held the the metal construct up toward’s RF-05, another blue light started to glow. This time is was coming from Jongdae’s shield and shooting directly toward the robot.

That was the last of RF-05.

It was an explosion that shook the whole planet. Jongdae ran for cover, while his comrades did the same as pieces of RF-05 shot through the air, flying and landing wherever gravity allowed it to. There was smoke, dust from the battlefield and an aura that was almost calming. RF-05 was defeated...but who had really won this battle?

When the smoke and dust cleared, that’s when the fact settled in. Luhan, Tao and Kris were dead. Junmyeon scrambled to his feet and ran over to the charred bodies of Kris and Tao.

“No, no no no no no,” Junmyeon chanted, kneeling over their remain or what was left of them. Somewhere else on the battlefield, Sehun threw himself over Luhan’s cold cracked body that was shattered into pieces. The only thing audible in this world was Sehun’s cries and loose gears still turning on the ground.

“Yixing!” Sehun pleaded at the man standing beside him. “You have to bring them back! Please!” Yixing looked over at Jongdae, who was covering his mouth with his hand as he watched Sehun cry to him.

“I...I can’t.”

“Why not?!” Chanyeol boomed as he walked over to Luhan’s body and Sehun. Chanyeol knelt down next to Sehun, putting a hand on his back.

“You have to try,” Minseok grunted, dragging Tao’s body from behind the stone wall he was hiding behind before he died. Junmyeon followed, dragging Kris’ lifeless charred body along with him.

“I can try,” Yixing started. “But I don’t think I will be able to.”

“Their orbs aren’t here!” Baekhyun called out, digging through the rubble left RF-05 behind. Baekhyun picked up a white orb, closing his eyes as it shone brightly. The orb levitated from his grasp, shining brighter and brighter as it started for his chest, digging disappearing into his sternum. When the orb was absorbed, Baekhyun looked down at his hand. A faint and almost pained smile played on his face as his palm started to light up, closing it again as he looked over to the 8 men crowded around the dead bodies. He grabbed the 8 orbs that were coated in dust and brought them over to his comrades. “It worked. My powers are back.”

“Quick! Yixing!” Jongin pleaded, taking his grey orb and letting it absorb into his chest just as Baekhyun had done. As soon as the dull grey light emanated off his body, he snapped his fingers, disapparing into smoke before reappearing a few feet away from him, next to Kyungsoo.

They all followed suit. Orbs all being devoured by their rightful owners before the light of their badge glowed off their bodies. The Legends were back...at least what was left of them.

“It’s not going to work,” Junmyeon said as a single stream of water seeped from his finger, running the dried blood off a cut that had healed during the absorption.

“Why not?” Chanyeol begged, crawling to Kris’ body while tears freely fell from his eyes. Kyungsoo looked down at the broken man, putting a hand on his shoulder before speaking.

“There has to be a way.”

Yixing knelt down next to Luhan, staring into his lifeless broken body. He ran his fingers over the cracks in his face, hoping to hear the chimes that followed the white mist permeating from his hand. But nothing. The cracks stayed separated and Luhan laid there as an empty vessel.

“Why isn’t it working?” Sehun sobbed, clutching onto the jagged pieces that were left of Luhan’s torso as he watched Yixing’s failed attempt.

“Because he died in his human form,” Junmyeon’s tone was full of melancholy, the droplets that clung to his cheeks where not a manifestation of the water legend through will. They were tears of sorrow and loss.

“Their orbs disappeared...so that means--”

“They’re gone. Forever,” Yixing sighed, finishing Baekhyun’s statement. The men all looked at each other, disbelief and defeat washing over them. Even though RF-05 was defeated and they all got their powers back, the universe was still at risk. Partially because Rowanel, the red eye of evil, was going to be back and they knew that. But what really set the universe fate in stone was the lost of 3 of the Legends. 3 of their comrades. 3 members of this small family.

“So what do we do now?” Chanyeol swallowed back a sob, grabbing what was left of Kris’ fried hand.

“We give them a proper funeral. Burn their bodies and mourn,” Kyungsoo stated, gripping his hold on Chanyeol’s shoulder hoping to comfort him.

“And the universe? The tree of life? How do we plant the seed? How do we stop the universe from dying out?” Jongdae pleaded, watching as Jongin broke down just as Sehun did, falling to his knees by Tao’s body. Junmyeon and Yixing walked over to each other, looking up at the starry sky and the two moons that hung over them.

“We don’t,” Junmyeon stated simply. Yixing bit his lip and ran his hand through his inky black hair.

“So...does that mean--”

“Yes, Jongin…” Baekhyun stood over the man who’s sobs started to get the best of him.

“It means we are all going to die.”

Even though Yixing stated this with the calmest tone and the utmost simplicity, the words were spoken in heightened volume, ringing in all 9 of their ears like a persistent siren.

It wasn’t long after that, the remaining Legends said their goodbyes to their fallen equals. Kuyngsoo used his strength to form vines that sprouted out from the dirt ground before them, wrapping them around the three bodies until they were completely encased. Chanyeol, crippled by grief and sadness, created an almost unruly fire. A circle pit of flames that crackled and popped as it roared over the silent cries from the rest of the 8 men, who were carrying the bodies over. One by one, they were thrown into the fire and watched until there was nothing more.

A cascade of ashes rose from the flames and 9 Legends said their goodbye that went uncommunicative but followed tears that expressed loud grief. As the ashes fell over them and the remaining land, Junmyeon caught Baekhyun looking over what was once their home, a Utopian castle formed by the greatest goods on earth, destroyed. Much like their fallen comrades, all was left was remains and ashes. Broken down walls they used as defense, rubble and glass had showered the beautiful grassy lawn and garden that was now a dirt land.

“We’ll just rebuild,” Jongdae said, catching the two men off guard. He came between them and put a hand on their shoulders. “In memory of Kris, Tao and Luhan.”

“W-we’ll build a bigger g-garden,” Sehun sniffled, wiping away the dampness on his cheeks as he started for the 3 men who overlooked their ruined home. “F-for Luhan. He lo-loved moving and plowing the field with Kyungsoo.”

“I think a bigger garden would look beautiful,” Junmyeon smiled sweetly at Sehun. It was a faint smile but it gave Sehun a sense of security. His best friend may have been gone, but he still had 8 other men who loved him just as dearly.

Suddenly, there was a shift in light. One that Baekhyun was not in control of. It was as if a surge dulled over EXO planet and the light flickered over them in starry sky that blanketed this damaged planet. 9 noses and chins to the sky, they all watched as one of their moons started to dull. The moon that used to hover over them was now shining below a glimmer and pieces of what used to be a perfectly spherical mass was suspended in midair, deteriorating into the ebony sky.

“What’s going on?” Kyungsoo’s voice was small and almost inaudible. An unusual trait that the Legend of Force and Earth never typically had made a sudden appearance. Baekhyun put his hand up in the sky, trying to feed a source of light to the moon but it didn’t and couldn’t repair the damage that was already made.

Chanyeol sighed heavily, watching Baekhyun’s failed attempt to salvage their moon before coming to a sudden realization.

“It’s starting...the end is coming.”

The days went by with ease but the loss of their 3 comrades and the pain that followed only got harder. They rebuilt the castle, bigger and more secure than ever. This time, they were lucky enough to have kept their treasure safe. The treasure that holds the fate of the world. A treasure that cannot be used anymore.

It was pouring on EXO planet. Jongdae stood high above Mt. Mama, watching below as his hands outstretched in front of him. Lightening clapping against the grounds below him, Jongdae kept a steady eye on Sehun, who was standing on a boulder below him. The clouds started to move in sync with Sehun’s arms. To Jongdae, it was a beautifully choreographed and the way Sehun’s powers matched his own personality and quirks brought a small smile to his face. Sehun moved as fluid and as effortless as the winds did, creating the properties for the perfect storm. Then there was Junmyeon, who stood directly behind Jongdae. With just one motion downward, his hand falling gracefully at his side, the rain trickled down. Light at first, just as Sehun’s movements were, just as Jongdae’s first round of lightening. But as the men walked away, the storm picked up.

In a blink of an eye and the passing of a thick grey smoke, Jongin appeared, stopping the three men in their tracks.

“We were just heading back to the castle,” Junmyeon commented, taken aback at Jongin’s abprut appearence.

“The flowers are going to bloom so beatifully, don’t you think?” Sehun probbed, cocking his head to the side as he smiled at Jongin. But Jongin didn’t smile. In fact, he looked panicked.

“Jongin, what’s wrong?” Jongdae moved toward the man, trying to read him to his best abilities even though these days it was harder to for them to keep the psychic line of connection stable between them all. Jongin held his hand out, signalling for the 3 men to grab on to him before he brought his free hand up for a snap.

“Baekhyun...he senses the 3 missing orbs...and they’re on Earth.”

A/N ;; HHHHHH i am really really nervous about posting this! Please let me know what you think, if you’re excited for this ff and if you’re just bored I guess. Don’t forget, I will be writing BTS one shots in between chapters and I’m totally up for requests depending on what they are :) Thank you for reading! <3

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kat-lockhart · 7 years ago

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Finding Forgiveness in Freedom

Kat got directions to Rey’s new home and marched there without delay. She couldn’t hesitate or give herself time to think about it. When she had seen Lord Boyle a few weeks ago, she had considered stopping in to chat with Rey. Unfortunately, that passing thought had not been enough to bring her before the man who had once been her brother. Even knowing his reason, knowing he was trying to protect her, could not soothe the anger she harbored. He had framed her as an accessory to murder and that would follow her now.

Before the hurt and anger could stop her again, she found herself at Rey’s door. With one final push, she knocked firmly.

“Yea? What’s –”

Rey froze as he stared down into the face of the woman he once betrayed. While in prison he had rehearsed what he would say if she ever came to see him, but all that practice was lost as he saw her in the flesh.

“Hello, Rey,” Kat sighed. “May I come in?”

He was still stunned to silence but managed to nod and step out of the way. She entered the modest domicile and felt a flutter of guilt for what she was about to do and say. This was all Rey had ever wanted. It was the reason he joined the Black Knuckle Brothers. He wanted the same thing everyone wanted.

Security.

“I wanna get something out and then I need to ask you a question. Then I’ll go, if you want me to,” Kat said as she turned to face him.

Rey was not the sort to put off a submissive aura, so it was another blow to her heart to see the towering man’s ears pinned back to his mane. He didn’t say a word, only nodding in acknowledgement of her statement.

“Lord Shepherd told me what you talked to him about. All of it. I know you claimed me in the gang to hurt Colton. I know you didn’t plan on lovin’ me, or touchin’ me. I know it was all vengeance for what happened to your mate. I didn’t know it at the time, but I know it now. I also know that you sendin’ me off to jail to serve a seven-year sentence for your crimes was you tryna keep me safe. Or you were still just tryna deny Colton further.”

Rey opened his mouth to protest but Kat silenced him with a stern look and small hand.

“I ain’t worried about why you done it. It hurt, Rey. I thought I loved you. I trusted you with…. with all that I am. I spent seven years plannin’ what I would say to you when I got the chance and all of it was angry. I wanted to punch you square in the face. I wanted to scream at you and hurt ya. But…well now I gotta ask you a question and I need you to just answer yes or no. You say yes, I’m walkin’ outta here and you’ll never see me again. You say no, and…well, we’ll see. Did you know Crawford and Colton had my brother Cody?”

Rey’s jaw dropped. He was braced for questions about his sexuality, his feelings for her, and even about the crimes he had committed. Nothing could have prepared him for that.

“No, Kat. Course not,” he gasped.

“Good,” Kat replied. “May I sit?”

Again, Rey only nodded until he could collect his thoughts.

“Is he…alive?”

Sinking into the closest chair, Kat nodded and sighed. A burden had been lifted from her heart knowing Rey may be as goodhearted as Darsa believed him to be.

“Yea. And the Daniels are gone. I reckon you heard that, though. Lord Shepherd, his sister Malura, and Mr. FitzWalter took em out and saved Cody. It’s all over, Rey. The Brothers are gone.”

A sigh raced from Rey’s muzzle as he also took a seat. He had wanted to believe in Darsa, but he always had his doubts. He looked to the urn beside his bed and would have wept if he thought he could.

“Good,” he grunted. “I’m glad you’re safe. And, I didn’t mean to hurt you. It wasn’t my intent, ever. I did a selfish thing and then I realized I cared about you and I didn’t know how to handle that. Stocks was safer than…”

His words fell off as he saw her face again. It was a serene sort of patience he didn’t realize the girl was capable of.

“I forgive you, Rey. For all of it. I don’t need to know why you done it or nothin’. I forgive you and I want to try and be friends, because, I do owe you my life. Lord Boyle, too. See, Colton sent men in after me, but they never made it to me. Because of you, I was able to fight this fight. So…I forgive ya.”

Rey cracked a ghost of a smile, even huffing out an amused breath.

“Friends, huh? You going visit me in this mountain? Cause I’m staying and moving with these folks in a few months. I’m going to help however I can, too. Make myself a home here, so you won’t see me skulking in those woods anymore.”

Kat smirked and nodded.

“Yea. I’ll be here sometimes. I got friends here and a means to travel pretty fast, so I’ll pop in when you aren’t busy.”

The laughter sounded so foreign in his ears when it shook loose. It almost startled Rey how good it felt to laugh. Part of him wanted to wrap the small, angry woman in a hug, but he managed to keep that urge concealed.

“So, you and the Lord Shepherd?” Rey asked, still chuckling. “Never saw you for the noble lover sort.”

The groan that escaped Kat was more aggressive than she intended. She stood and looked as though she would retreat, so Rey was quick to amend his phrasing.

“Sorry, Kat. I just meant, you never liked nobles, so you taking a chance on him is a surprise.”

“We’re just friends,” Kat huffed.

“I know. I know about his loss. I know that you are a good friend, too. I didn’t mean to imply more.”

“What about you? Have you made friends yet? What about Mr. FitzWalter?”

“Who?”

“Uh…His names Robar. He’s one of Lord Shepherd’s advisors. Slender. Wears robes. Short hair. Black and silver. Lord Boyle says he has shown some interest in getting to know you, because he’s like you.”

Kat shrugged and turned back to him, catching the slight cant in his head as he tried to determine how the other man could be anything like him.

“He’s a worgen?”

“No.”

“He’s a jeweler or former jewel thief?”

“Uh…no…”

Rey furrowed his brows for a moment longer before his expression melted into something deadpan.

“He’s gay, ain’t he?”

“Yea.”

“Light damnit, kid. Just because we are probably the only two gay men in the mountain don’t mean I am going to make friends with him,” Rey exclaimed standing and throwing up his hands.

“Well, I don’t know. Maybe you’ll hit it off?”

“Go home, kid,” Rey laughed as he herded Kat towards the door.

“Alright! But I think you should talk to him, okay? Try and make a friend? He’s part of the reason we’re all free now.”

“Bye, Kat,” Rey said as he slowly shut the door on her.

[ @darsacarrington for mentions of Darsa, Moonie, and Robar]

#story

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shinymixedbag · 7 years ago

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If you get the time can you please post a quick summary of Jealousy .Kat Division posted the raw of the last chapter .I'm just curious about what's going on with Rogi and Akitora are they now official lovers since it seems like he is visiting the house (and making out) and the wife and asoda knows .

First of all, I do not read the raws of jealousy, I just look through without reading it and wait for the chapter. And I have no idea what happened in chapter 7, so.. :|But, I’ll post a quick summary just this once. I’m so sorry but I’ve got so much work to do, and trying to read the kanji from photographs is incredibly difficult ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉД`)･ﾟ･｡ I can work on one (Given) but I can’t handle more ＿|￣|○Thank you, @kat-division ! (๑´ڡ`๑)

I apologize in advance for the mistakes. (I was in a hurry)_____SPOILER ALERT_____

This is only a brief summary as there are pages and pages of complex stuff being discussed in this chapter (which i did not read through)

Continuing from where chapter 7 ended,-Asoda wakes up to find Asami (Akitora’s wife) sitting beside a sleeping Akitora, wiping his brow (his fever broke)-Asami wonders aloud if Akitora would die from the pain if he didn’t get his medication (she is DEFINITELY JEALOUS)-Asoda is shocked. Asami laughs saying it was a “joke”

~~next morning(?)~~-Rogi asks Akitora about Asami being too accepting of the situation-The pair (Rogi & Akitora) bicker like kids discussing doppelgangers.-Asami serves the food. Rogi asks Asami if the food has been poisoned. She says shes got friends at the pharmacy who can help with that if he wants it-Rogi asks her if she is plotting something but she tells him he should take a bath cz he stinks~~scene change~~-Some complex Yakuza stuff, Shareholders meeting, Asoda puts an old man in hot water (“chairman” appprently). Shit goes down. Chaos. Asoda gets kicked out of the meeting somehow. He catches a glimpse of some old dude (I couldn’t see who)~~back to Akitora’s place~~-Asoda and Akitora discuss business (more complicated shit)-Akitora tells Asoda that he “wants to kill” his dad(?) [he uses the word “oyaji”]-Asoda agrees and they continue with their discussion. Akitora asks Asoda if his ways are wrong and wants his honest opinion. Asoda then pours his heart out to his “waka”-A pretty nice conversation ending comically with Asoda displaying his enthusiasm wielding a paper cutting knife(?)

-Asami and Rogi return from grocery shopping-Rogi immediately runs to Akitora -Asoda is shocked and follows Asami and asks her if Rogi did anything to her-Asami: “He carried the bags” “I bought him sweets to thank him” (poor Asoda LOL)

-Rogi is chattering away to Akitora about the “Moai” and “Nazca”-Then asks Akitora what his wife is planning. That she’s really chilled out about her husband and the man he slept with, staying together-Akitora defends her saying shes not “that kind of a woman”-Rogi says he will be troubled if she is not. He’s irriated that she is too cool and he wants her to say something mean-He also admits that he thought he could win if they had sex but it didn’t work-Akitora changes the topic. Tells him there is something Rogi can do which Asami cant. And quizzes him about stocks and shares-He takes the bait. (apparently Rogi’s hunches are always spot-on) So, he lures Rogi into helping make more money “together”-Rogi jumps Tora (well, almost)-Akitora continues talking and finds out Rogi made a lot of money for Mr.Handa-He asks Rogi to help HIM make more money and not the family. And they talk some more.-Rogi leaves immediately “to strike while the iron is hot”-Tora tells him not to sell his body-Rogi kisses his forehead before he leaves. He is ecstatic because he thinks Akitora needs him~scene change~-Asoda tells Asami she doesn’t have to take care of Rogi-She says it cant be helped because Tora brought him. She thinks they’re like kids “even though they had sex”. Not that she isn’t irritated, but she’s being the dutiful wife and she’s going to see how things go, for a while.-But if “Uichi” were to replace her and become the “woman”, there will be no need of two females. She chops the cabbage savagely as she says that (yup, definitely jealous)~scene change~-Asoda’s monologue, he feels guilty for being so small-minded when “ane-san” is performing her role perfectly. He wonders if she cries when no one is around.-Tora calls for him to inform him that he has asked “Uichi” to help them with their work-(Asoda, feeling shocked and jealous) thinks the plan they both knitted together and his place (?) is being stolen by Rogi ~scene change~-Rogi is messing around with three homeless men-He helps them out by jumping in front of passing cars, and conning the drivers out of their money for medical fees-The last car he jumped in front of belongs to Psycho-Yakuza-Mads-Mikkelsen look-alike-scary dude-He steps out of the car and asks Rogi “what are you doing?”, “are you okay?” (the dude is CREEPY AF)

Thaaat’s it. Did I say “brief”? Well, I tried (°ー°〃)“Jealousy” is a fitting title for this series 0_0

#spoilers #anonymous #answered #jealousy chapter 8 #scarlet beriko

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fatesinthenight · 8 years ago

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Their Heroes and Hearts (part 4)

Amy looked at Ken feeling tears at her eyes. Ken is looking down not wanting to meet the girls eyes in shame. Signe who was standing was not sitting on a chair hands on her lap. She had some tears already coming down and wiped them away. Marzia's lip was shaking and she took Ken's hand.

"Ken it is not your fault you know." Marzia gives his hand a squeeze. "You know Felix cares about you. He wanted you to be home and everyone. Even if he doesn't show it as much he does care."

"But... Felix had to come back to you too. As should have Mark and Sean... We could have done something and it just happened so fast we... I'm so sorry..." Ken's heart feels heavy.

"You know even if you tried to do something they wouldn't have let you. They put others before themselves. That's how they are." Marzia gives Ken a soft smile.

"What happened to the others?" Amy asks softly.

"I don't know for sure. I washed up alone at a river close to here and then made my way to town." Ken puts his head in his hands. "I don't know where they could be. I thought we would all end up together but I knocked out in the water and got taken by the current."

"They will be fine I know it." Signe saids hopefully.

"Ken thank you for telling us what happened. I really needed to know after all this time."

"All this time? I don't understand this all just happened yesterday." Ken looks confused.

"Mark always wrote to me every day and he hasn't for the past three weeks." Amy was starting to get confused too.

"No.. he sent you a letter yesterday... I couldn't have been out for that long." Ken's head is spinning. Just as he wants to say something the door to the room opens.

"Ken!!" Mary is at the door in tears holding Layla. Marzia moves and helps Mary sit down. "Ken I though I lost you..."

"Hey come on you know im a fighter. I had to come back to see my girls." Ken smiles at Mary.

Layla whimpers and Ken sits up more holding his arms out. Even if he is still in pain he wants his little girl. Mary gives her to him and he holds her close to his heart. "Its ok little cub im here now. Daddy isn't going anywhere ok." Ken smiles and feels a tear coming. Mary moves and sits on the bed and lays next to Ken snuggling up next to him smiling but still with tears.

The girls all leave slowly and Marzia closes the door behind carefully. They all look at each other feeling the same thing. Marzia smiles, "You know they wouldn't have it any other way right..."

"Marzia... its ok to let it out." Signe saids softly.

"I mean he always did his own thing right. He always was so stubborn." Marzia was trying to hold it in. "Six years so I know him very well right. He would have wanted it like this right... Right..."

"Marzia. We feel it too. Its ok." Amy whispers tears already coming out.

Marzia lets it out. She cries softly at first then lets it out more. Amy does too and Signe follows and pulls them both in for a hug. The three of them huddle together crying, slowly one by one they stop. Amy wipes her tears with her arm and takes a breath. "That dummy."

"All of them are dummies." Signe laughs softly. "But that's why we love them right?"

They all smile at each other. As they make their way downstairs into the tavern the people look at them. They want to say something but none of them do not knowing what to say first. But someone breaks the silence. "Are they dead..." A man asks.

"For now all we know is that Sir Pewdiepie, Sir Jacksepticeye, and Sir Markiplier have been taken by whatever this think is. As for the others they are still missing. From what Warrior CinnamonToastKen has said to us they were being taken by a rushing river." Signe saids.

"I would be best if we all looks at any river to find them. Please spread the word." Marzia said.

"What about the King what will you tell him?" Another Man speaks up. "We lost our three best knights and now more of our finest men have been lost. His thing is taking us all out bit by bit. Soon what happened when it gets here. Its going to kill us all!"

The people were getting scared. They began to talk to themselves worried and nervous. Their hope of defeating this Nothing was dying just as it had wanted. Just then someone runs into the tavern. "We found them!!! They are alive!! The others are alive!"

Marzia, Signe, and Amy run out fast. They run to the end of the town and see the troop walking up. Tyler is holding up Cry who looks like he cant move. Dan and Arin are both arm in arm helping each other move forward. Nate and Matt are limping but are holding up on their own. Chica is holding up her paw hurt but keeps going. Ethan is passed put on Chicas back not moving. All of them are dripping wet and look exhausted. Tyler falls over and cry falls with him rolling on his back.

"Ummm owe... I thought you had me." Cry saids tired.

"Hey I took you most of the way didn't I?" Tyler said breathless. He is on his knees and cant get back up.

Amy runs to him and hugs him. "Tyler!! Your here..." She feels the tears coming back. Chica sniffs Amy and whines and lets herself lay down beside them. Amy rubs the pup's nose lovingly. She then gets up and goes to the side to see Ethan laying on Chica's back. "Ethan!" She crawls on Chica making her way to Ethan and holds him up. "Ethan are you ok? Please say something..." Amy worries as Ethan doesn't stir. Then he starts to groan. "Ethan?" Amy looks at him hopefully.

"L... La..." Ethan tried to speak.

"Its ok Ethan your safe now." Amy saids softly.

"La... Lasagna.." Ethan whispers out.

Amy's worries go away. "I haven't seen you in forever and I hear you were hurt badly and your first words to me are lasagna..." She laughs softly.

"I still cant think right. Give me a break Amy." Ethan saids smiling weakly.

"All right! All right! let me see the damage." Kathryn walks in looking at the men. "I need all of your butts in a bed now."

"Kathryn can we just plop here for a while." Arin is swaying with Dan.

"I second that motion." Nate saids slumping to the ground.

"If you do then I cant help all of you back up. Here I will give you all a boost." Kathryn lets out a soft light from her hand. It goes to the guys giving them a slight boost enough to make it to Kathryn's infirmary.

"Thanks Kathryn. Your the best healer ever." Dan stands up straighter but still feels an ache in his back.

"Come on lets get you guys healed up." Kathryn helps up Cry.

Amy, Signe, and Marzia help the guys into the infirmary. Chica cant fit in so she lays outside and Tyler lifts Ethan from her back and caries him inside. They all get a bed to lay on and Kathryn goes straight to work. She looks at everyone carefully making sure they are treated properly. She is able to heal anything broken and cuts or bruising. After looking at the guys she goes outside to look at Chica's paw. She does what she can for it and wraps in carefully. Chica gives her a big lick for thanks making Kathryn smile. "Thank you Bub. I missed you too." She gives Chica a treat and walks back in the infirmary. "Alright you guys should be good for now but even if I fixed anything broken I recommend you still rest because it could still be sore for some time. Ethan you healed yourself enough to stop your bleeding and I fixed up the rest. You need to most rest so I better not see you out of bed blue boy." Kathryn looks at Ethan.

"Kat I'm fine really. I got thi- owe.." Ethan was trying to sit up and his wounds still ache. "Ok going back down."

"That's what I thought." Kathryn pats Ethan's head.

"Your so bossy Kathryn." Cry jokes.

"I have to be now I am dealing with all of you and knowing you all your going to still try to get up and go but you all still need rest. You have been missing for three weeks already." Kathryn is serious.

"Wait three weeks?" Matt sits up fast. "That's not possible..."

"That is what Ken said when we talked to him." Signe looks at Matt. "Did you all think it has only been a day since then?"

"It has thought.. I mean it should be right?" Nate looks at the others confused.

"That mist we were in back there. Nothing could have held us in their for that long making it seem like it had only been a few minutes. He must be able to make the time around us stop in place when it actuality everything was going by like normal... That is the only theory I have on that." Matt tries to think harder but his head begins to throb.

"Matt don't think so hard right now." Amy can feel his head going through so many theories for an explanation on what is going on. "Just rest for now and we will all talk tomorrow."

"We don't have time for that!" Matt looks upset. "That thing is coming for us all. It wants to make all of us loose hope and fear it. That's how it gains power, it eats off of fear and helplessness. With Felix, Mark, and Sean gone the people are going to be loosing hope and by the look of it they already have. Am I wrong?"

Amy has a worried look that gives Matt his answer. "We need to figure this out now. We have to for them." Matt looks sadly at everyone.

Just as he finished there is a heavy feeling in the air. "No... Not here. Not now!" Tyler tried to stand up but slumps back in his bed, Kathryn already by his side helping him get up. "It's here."

A shadow of a person comes out from the floor. No one moves, they feel paralyzed. The presences is stronger than it was when the men had faced it before. "Well look here. Your all safe. At least most of you are." It chuckles.

"What did you do to them!!" Tyler is glaring at Nothing.

"O you mean your champions." It makes some mist form into a mirror and shows a vision.

"Sean!" Signe yells.

Sean is cut up badly and his armor is off. It looks like he has claw marks all over his body. He is held up by chains on the wrists and he is breathing heavily in pain. Sam pops out from his little pouch and floats over to Signe looking at his master. Sam lets out a small whine feeling guilty he is not there with him and Signe holds him to her.

"Mark!" Amy's heart breaks.

Mark is in the same state as Sean. His floof is a mess covering half his face. He groans in pain and hands his head low. Chica lets out a sad howl peeking from the window seeing him in a bad state. Amy doesn't know what to do looking at Tyler and Ethan. They are both looking that the image of Mark in pain and guilt.

"Felix..." Marzia wants to reach out to the image.

Felix is still hanging on. He looks just as bad but is tugging at his restraints with what little strength he has left. His body is so beaten but he keeps trying and he looks exhausted. Edgar and Maya huddle to Marzia's feet whining and trying to comfort Marzia.

"Why are you doing this to them!!" Marzia yells at Nothing.

It looks at her and makes it way to her. The pugs growl at it and stand protectively infront of her. "You must be the girl he keeps calling out to." It looks at Amy and Signe. "Aww yes you girls are their loves aren't you. It must be so hard to see them this way isn't it." It laughs darkly. "Your champions are not as strong as you think."

"Yes they are!!" Singe said firmly.

"Are you so sure about that? Aren't you looking at the state they are in right now. It really is pathetic." Nothing has a smile form from the shadow.

"Your wrong!" Amy steps in. "You don't know them like we do! They are much stronger than you think and they will not let something like you get to them."

Nothing begins to get annoyed and the room gets darker. "By the time I am done with them you wont recognized them anymore... you all will be complete strangers to them. They may be able to resist me as of now but they will lose and I will have them for myself." It chuckles deeply. "You have lost admit it. No one can save then now. These men have already failed. I just wanted to see the look on your faces knowing your demise is coming. Farwell." In a snap Nothing vanishes and there is a light back in the room.

Everyone doesn't speak. They don't know what to say. Finally Dan speaks, "We failed..."

"That thing is winning. It already feels more powerful now than before." Arin sighs.

"It's going to take over Felix, Mark, and Sean like those villagers..." Cry hands his head. "And it cant be reversed."

"That's why it wanted to make them especially mad when we first encountered it. It wanted them all along because they are the symbol of peace here and without them the people will feel hopeless." Matt shakes his head.

"We still have time." Tyler said confidently.

"He's right. It said that they are fighting it back. As long as they are fighting it then we can go save them before it's to late." Ethan gets up slowly but winches.

"I told you all your going to have to rest before you get back out there. You were all hurt badly and even with my healing abilities it still will take some time to fully recover." Kathryn reminds them.

"We cant just sit here and do nothing!" Tyler gets frustrated. "They risked themselves to save us and we cant just let them suffer until we are finally better. We need to go now... If not us who?"

"Me." A confident voice saids.

Everyone turns to Signe who looks ready. "I will go out to get my green bean back. He would do the same for me."

"Signe you cant go alone." Nate said concerned.

"Who said she was going alone." Marzia stands beside Signe. " I mean Amy already gave us the plan in our heads. Right Amy."

"Well no one noticed me poking around their heads for information on the quest so I got all the details for it. Sorry guys." Amy smiles slyly.

"So you three are going to find them." Kathryn smiles and puts her hands on her hips.

"Yes we are." Amy saids.

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omgkittymonster-blog · 6 years ago

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KAT'S KETO STARTER GUIDE

a quick guide to starting keto easily and without worries!

⦁ intro ⦁ science ⦁ myths and misconceptions

⦁ breakfast ⦁ lunch ⦁ dinner ⦁ snacks ⦁ food list CHEAT SHEET:

⦁ intermittent fasting ⦁ what to do when you go out to eat ⦁ what to drink and when

⦁ "carb cycling", cheat days, and how tos: ⦁ things to avoid that are a waste of money

INTRODUCTION TO KETO Keto is an amazing diet and/or lifestyle that when paired with multiple other forms of healthy choices can be a quick way to lose a few pounds or a healthy way to live longterm allowing you to still enjoy life without estranging yourself from your friends and family. It is very flexible and people that stick to keto find themselves in love with it and raving about their success, as long as they gave it the proper chance! I myself lost ten pounds the first week I did strict keto and I knew then I was hooked!

SCIENCE BEHIND KETO AND WHY IT WORKS The common american diet is very high in sugar, carbs, unhealthy fats, caffeine, sodium, etc. This recipe is a disaster waiting to happen, heart disease, obesity, cancers, diabetes, among a plethora of other terrible life stealing diseases that effect millions of americans. Whether you do a low carb, or low calorie, or low red meat and fat diet, the idea remains the same. Reduce calorie intake vs output, avoid foods that cause inflamations or gastro-intestinal upsets, and eat filling whole foods that offer a lot of nutrient density. Now, the reason that keto works so good is the science behind the diet: When you reduce the amount of sugar (glucose) your body intakes, which is its normal source of fuel, it panics, uses what it has, burns glycogen which is stored in the liver and muscles, and finally switches your body to KETONES (which burns FATS for fuel instead). When your body is in Ketosis, it will burn your body fat and consumed fats for energy, to do normal body functions. This sounds like a miracle, and I can honestly say it is. Most average americans have anywhere from a 20%-50% body fat ratio, men usually on the lower end of that, where anything over 30% is usually considered overweight. That being said, most people have a lot of fuel to burn that they would never have burned if they were eating a large amount of carbohydrates that the body prefers to burn first. You literally have your own fuel just waiting to go, and you will feel awesome when you see the fat melting off your tummy, thighs, back, face. :D

Myths and Misconceptions When I first started keto I thought I could eat as many hot dogs, burgers, chicken wings, ranch dressings, etc as I could stuff in my face. Truth be told you can, but your body will be severely lacking vitamins and minerals that you need to be healthy so I would suggest making sure to vary your diet, always include a healthy fat (example: salmon, avocado, macadamia nuts) and lots of greens whenever possible. If you absolutely cannot, taking a high nutrient density multi vitamin is really smart, as well as looking into electrolyte mixes or supplements. People will try to bully you or shame you for not eating "just one this" or "you have to try a bite" and after a little while, you absolutely can! But during the first month or so, til you become "fat adapted" it is best to be as diligent as possible, and you will be really proud of the results. Not all fats are created equal: While dirty keto does exist and sometimes is necessary, try to remember that quality of your fuel will always dictate how you feel. Will you feel better after a slice of greasy pizza or a big salad with lots of veggies and roasted turkey? Easy concept. You don't have to starve yourself. This was the hardest part for me to learn at first. Keto foods are filling, yummy, and full of flavor, so eat til you're about comfortably full and give the fork a rest. You'll find you're sated for many hours! Not all people get the keto flu. Some adapt to eating high fat really well with minimal issues. If you are feeling dizzy, lightheaded, or stomach sick, make sure you have plenty of water and if you need to, have a shot of pickle juice or a sprinkle of salt in your water. Vitamin water ZERO is also a decent way to get electrolytes without having to spend a lot on a supplement. I'd avoid zero sugar gatorade though, the sweetener in it is sucralose which is bad for ketosis.

NOW TO THE FUN PART: THE FOOD! I do most of my shopping at a normal grocery store, and most of the things I mention can be bought at meijer, target, walmart, or whatever your local chain is. Buy organic if you want! But it isnt necessary. Meats and dairy foods are best when bought all natural or organic if possible. Look for words like grass finished, or pasture raised.

Breakfast ideas: Omelets - add whatever meats veggies and cheeses from list fit your choosing Cauliflower "hash" - sautee pieces of cauliflower with meats, veggies, top with cheese and let it melt :D keto "cereal" - 2 cups unsweetened coconut, sprinkle with cinnamon, stevia, coconut oil, pecans, macadamia nuts, whatever. bake two minutes per side around 375 til toasted. cool and serve with unsweetened hemp, oat, almond or soy milk and fresh berries if you want! Chorizo and eggs with avocado and sour cream - they do make turkey chorizo too! or make your own by adding hot sauce and spices to ground turkey. :3 "Two Good" Makes a super low carb yogurt that tastes amazing - i eat it with berries or a "Quest" brand protein cookie for breakfast! Chia pudding - 2 T. chia seeds, milk substitute or water, stevia, and whatever flavor you want to add! Peanut butter, cocoa powder for PB cup, raspberry/almond, blueberry/pecan. Chill overnight, awesome grab and go Egg muffins - mix up eggs like youd be making scrambled eggs, add some ricotta or cottage cheese (full fat only), add toppings, bake for 5-10 mins til middle is set (use a tooth pick). Can freeze and pop in microwave or last a week in the fridge. I like mine with pesto and mozzarella with tomato on top.

Lunch ideas: La tortilla factory low carb wrap "blt" - these tortillas are amazing and come in many sizes. If you cant find those, find any brand that says "low carb" - look for net carbs under 6 for best choices. Add avocado, turkey bacon, mayo if desired, lettuce, tomato, peppers, etc. Eat with cheese chips (recipe in snacks) Soups: Creamy chicken chili, broccoli cheese (substitute heavy cream and broth in place for milk in recipes) bone broth veggie soups (imagine PHO or Ramen with no noodles!) MAKE A BIG ASS SALAD WITH WHATEVER MEATS AND CHEESE AND VEGGIES YOU WANT (that are safe on the list ofc) this is what i do a lot, and i put the dressing on the side so i can just munch on it throughout the day without it getting soggy. If you find yourself picking certain parts out of your salad right away, try to focus on those more until your body is craving other things. Some days i eat my meats right away, others i eat all my veggies. Your body often tells you what you need without even realizing. If you're a grazer make a fruit and nut tray, or "lunchables" almost. There is a recipe for whats called CLOUD BREAD. It's basically like a fluffy meringue that is made with cream cheese and eggs. I dont make it a lot, I almost always would rather have those wraps. They're that good and last longer :D Try to keep things with you that you know you will eat, rather than things you think you're supposed to eat, because cold fish sounds disgusting vs that yummy five piece chicken tender with hot sauce. >_>

Dinner Ideas: Dinner is my forte because for a long time I was doing OMAD keto, aka "One meal a day keto" where I would fast until dinner every day, except for coffee, tea and water. During these times I dreamt up many cheat meals that I JUST HAD TO HAVE and went home and keto-ized em. If there's a will there's a way, bahahaha. OMAD is not recommended at the start of ketosis because you may feel low on energy or dizzy sometimes and we want to avoid bad feelings during initiation so when you see the success you have you won't have a negative feeling as to why it happened.

LITERALLY IMAGINE YOUR FAVORITE DINNER. Whatever you're craving. You can hack it. We got this. Chinese/Take out? Easy mode. You can make stir fries, fried cauliflower rice, sweet and sour chicken (using parmesan for a crust!), peanut "noodles" or "zoodles", egg foo young, etc! American: Wings, burgers, brats/sausages, grilled chicken, etc - most cook out foods in whole form are totally safe. Pair with grilled veggies or a salad, or make a pasta salad from zoodles with homemade italian dressing. YUMMMM bish Italian: Low carb tomato sauces and "noodles", Fat head Pizza (link to fat head dough recipe will be at bottom. This shit is dope. I never even liked pizza before this). Chicken Parmesan, "Spaghetti and Meatballs", Lasagna: AND OMG GUESS WHAT. Alfredo is like totally fair game, and its really good with mushrooms and chicken. :P Mexican: HOLY FUCK I EAT THIS STUFF SO MUCH. Like, pretty much everything but the chips and rice are totally gucci for keto. Taco/Burrito bowls, fajitas, ceviche, salsa, avocado salad, guacamole, and for dipping I make cheese chips or thin slices of cucumber spritzed with chili lime and salt. Greek: Greek salad, schwarma, gyros (either without bread or use the low carb wraps), hemp seed "Falafel", tzatziki sauce, feta cheese, olives, etc. I have even made indian and thai curries, moroccan food, middle eastern We have made chicken tenders, french fries, chips, "nachos", fish fry, breaded mushrooms, mozz sticks, cheese curds. All your craving foods! The internet is wonderful for this, just make sure you are paying close attention to how much a portion is, or if its higher in carbs than you're allowed for the day.

Above I posted a picture for a shopping list.

This is a nice shopping list but I find it is sort of strict. Try to stick to these items to start but You can add in things like more nuts or avocados, almond and coconut flours (to make cakes and breads!), and higher starch veggies and fruits as time goes on. I get down on some cantaloupe pretty often, and have a cupcake at least once a month.

Intermittent Fasting IF is typically considered an advance technique or body reset especially after big meal days or cheating, and while it has amazing health benefits, I would suggest you research it yourself and decide if it's right for you. I had a lot of luck with it because I hate to keep track of my calories on an app so I knew if I ate whatever I could within a five to seven hour period that the chances that I would eat more than 1800 calories would go way down. Each person is different, if you feel physically hungry, don't deny that feeling. Here is a link that describes and explains types of IF. https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/intermittent-fasting-guide#methods

What to do when you go out to eat We live in a time where many people eat low carb, or restaurants are very willing to wiggle with ingredients or substitutions. Remember that nicer restaurants appreciate this less, but if you know that it will be happening, you can always call the restaurant and let them know in advance. Many chefs are reasonable and want your business and willing to help. Always check the menu for words like, naked, ask for sauces on the side, try to stick to things that are usually safe, blue cheese, ranch, vinaigrettes, mayos. When a dish comes with a carb side, most places will double up on steamed or grilled veg for very little extra or no charge. I get steak with a literal dick ton of broccoli or asparagus and lotsa butter and its good and filling. :D Burgers can be put on top of a side salad , or ask for a lettuce wrap. Make sure wings and chickens arent breaded before frying or baking. Chinese restaurants usually have a section that has all the same ingredients but sauce on the side and veggies steamed, good for when you go out. Egg drop soup is usually ok as long as you don't eat a gallon of it. If something comes that you really want, but can't have, just have one small bite and cover the rest of it with too much salt or ketchup or something than you can handle, or trade it away. This will prevent you from eating it all. There's lots of options and understand that whenever you go out, there is a chance that you might slip out of ketosis. Don't be discouraged because a small slip is a lot easier to deal with than a big one, and you will feel fine within 12 hrs.

What to drink and when Coffee, espresso, unsweetened teas, club soda or la croix like drinks with zero fake sugars added (look for aspartame, sucralose, dextrose, erythritol, etc), pure liquors with no added flavor or sugar (vodka, gin, whiskey, rum, tequila), dry red wine (cabernet, merlot) dry white wine (sauvignon blanc, brut champagne, pinot grigo, chardonnay). Keep in mind that alcohol still contains a lot of calories and while it will not likely bump you out of ketosis, it does delay your body burning calories because it is too busy trying to destroy the evil alcohol from your bloodstream (dramatic music) so limiting intake in the first month really helps you to get in the swing and feel good and hydrated :P. Side Note: Ketal One makes new no sugar added Botanical Vodka and the Peach one and the cucumber mint one are fucking amazing, the end.

"Carb cycling" cheat days, and how to IF YOU KNOW YOU'RE GONNA CHEAT mentally prepare yourself for that. Know what you want to eat, what isnt worth it, and how to stop yourself when you are done. Ever been on a bender where you drank like three days in a row and by the end you're like dude wtf happened all I wanted was to drink friday night and now its sunday where did it go". This has happened to me lots with holidays and special occasion weekends, and the best advice I have for you is to pay attention to how cheating makes you feel. Don't feel guilty unless you feel bad for your progress or your body. Sadly, potatoes make me feel like garbage so I try to avoid them like the plague even when I do cheat. Try to not eat for as long as you can handle after you cheat to allow your body some rest and to burn the glucose and glycogen that may be still in your system. If you feel good enough some cardio or lifting may help to get you back in faster. Ultimately, if keto is a lifestyle for you, remember that life happens and its ok to be human, and eat things that are unhealthy as long as its not the normal. Remind yourself that you deserve to be happy as well as healthy and balance that in your mind. Being positive and recognizing this will help you to not fall off the deep end either way, by being too strict or completely abandoning keto, which often in the early phase will lead you to gaining all that weight you lost back. Carb cycling is a form of keto diet for athletes or very physical people who benefit from a quick carb before intense activity in order to feed their muscles or whatever but as I am not one of those people, I just stick to my higher carb fruits and veggies when I think I might go for a run or walk, or drag my ass down the road, whatever you'd like to call it. >_>

Things to avoid that are a waste of money Don't buy "exo ketones" or "Keto drinks" or powders, anything "bullet-proof" is basically bullshit, you can make the same things for zillions of dollars less and it will taste better as well. Keto urine strips are pretty much just a waste of money, they aren't really indicative of where you are at. Expensive "keto" supplements aren't necessary, take your multi and drink your electrolytes and you should be good to go. Keep in mind if you are an intense athlete I am not so like talk to your doctor or coach dude.

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unalomero · 6 years ago

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Let's g0 g0 gadget

This belt was not equipt with the tools neccessary to let Sarah know I need time as a single lady.

Funny because the feeling I had when she kissed me was v similar to the time when I was getting over Cait and held hands with Kat that one night at the party. I cried myself to sleep that night because I felt myself losing my feelings i thought were forever.

Except ya girl isnt crying over that! Ya girl is focused on the positive and focusing on the now! Ya girl has herself surrounded and reminded by people on the daily on the love she got!

Because if I don't, uff there sure is a lot bad to focus on, but bay blade wont let that RIP on this dance floor tonight or any nights upcoming.

Talked with Cait again today too. She will always be my #1 rock and soulmate. Our mateship is friendship, but the kind I know lasts. Which is nice to be able to recognize! I am blessed to have had truly amazing friendships and the capacity to have great connections. I prefer cait and I as friends that we are now. We talk way too much on raising kids together though, which she would be such a great parent partner! She and I click so well and we both are always commenting how we need someone like each other, just not one another l0l which I agree 10000 % She always makes me feel safe and unjudged. She may not be the smartest when it comes to relative truths, but she is so well habile in the absolute truths. Seeing her grow has been such a pleasure too. We both thank one another almost every time of everything we have been through and of the things we have learned along the way and how we help one another.

Felt good to also cry a bit today to Cait. I needed to release what happened a month ago. I was getting p upset and felt how I initially wanted to place blame on Kat oddly... my poor brain has been v inclined to thinking negativly of her, but that's brain trying to teach itself to not play with fire anymore.

So sex bots. You know that big fear that kept me up for about a week at school and a week before leaving to MN? Well I got to meet my fear! I knew I deserved to fight and fought harder this time. What, Another??? family!!! friend!!! decided??? to assume that all a young female's body is for is takin and fuckin it?!?!?!

Do I have a sign tied on my back that says "Hey she doesnt deserve to be respected and treated kindly"? Cause jee, seems like that's a lot of what my life has consisted of. But dont get me wrong, more of my life has been spent being taken care of, dont fixate gurlll. ... But alas, what hasnt killed me has made me stronger and each of the bad makes me treasure the good. If that makes me seem "too happy" for you fucks, then try getting almost raped 3 times, not to count the 2 successful attempts, having to witness and break up parental domestic violence, 2 stalkers, an alcoholic and suicidal brother, not to mention also an occasional suicidal mother, losing a friend, being mugged 2 times, and losing family and friends to drugs, suicide, and gun violence. So yeah, I may be a little eccentric for you boring bots out there, but to me I'm happy I'm alive and the people around me are too. Yikes does it feel weird to type that out... Haha and the most painful of it all wasnt even when the worst of the worst was happening (except when mom was in the hospital for 4 days from what my dad did to her. That, that was as worse as the fear gets). WhT was worse was how consumed I let my everyday thinking get clouded by the drama and the pain.

When someone compliments my intelligence. Thank you. I didnt have parents that were always around or the best role models to help me learn. I mainly taught myself a lot to keep me distracted and keep me somewhere else. Which, when I think about it, a lot of the factoids I carried around like prized pieces went away a year ago around now. I let go of what kept me in an anxious check all the time. Relative truths are just but relative. They require an attachment to the material world, an unhealthy one a lot of the times. We get so convinced of a view and we let it change us and the relationships around it. All for the sake of what? Some hierarchy that has again found itself where it need not be.

No wonder I have problems with physical intimacy? No wonder Matty does too. So crazy how such similar trauma has created in my mind and experience, such similar minded people. I feel like I just get her thinking space a lot.

So another experience of having someone force themselves on you.

"Well Ashley you should have known"

Mother trucking sex bots, should I have??? Someone who helped raise me and was there for me as a baby? NO gosh darn it. But apparently things change when you have tits. I hate them sometimes. I hate my body.

When people say "you're just so beautiful" to my naked corpse, I get an uneasy feeling in my stomach. It's not because I dont see beauty, but those words almost always followed abuse. Why cant I be told that when I'm in sweats and my favorite hoody, rocking a hella fun laugh and smile? Because that, that's when I feel beautiful.

So Deno,

I forgive you. I dont understand your actions, but I'm glad at least you ended up listening to me and wasnt as horrible as some men have treated me. I had courage this time to step up and not back down. What you tried to do and what you got away with is beyond what any apology would allot you. You could have further sent me into my distrust in men, but I wont give you anymore power than my other abusers have.

I am still getting over what happened before and I am still wrapping my mind around how so many good people keep coming after my ass. Ann said it best, "you're short and cute -a seemingly easy threat."

Well mother trucker, best be a scooting because I'm proud that I was able to stand up taller and not let this past indiscretion pull me down. It happened and well life can be shit sometimes. But guess what life is also amazing.

I have amazing friends and family who support me so much. I could be hella depressed and probably would be hadn't it been for working extremely hard on being mindful and present in the moment.

What I try not to think about are the words he said to me and how easily he could have not been so kind to let me go. I've had that. That's the kind of fear that

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