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snkpolls · 4 years

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SnK Episode 67 Poll Results (for Manga Readers)

The poll closed with 254 responses. Thank you to everyone who participated!

Please note that these are the results for the Manga Readers’ poll. If you wish to see the results for the Anime Only Watchers’ poll, click here.

RATE THE EPISODE 246 Responses

The response to this week’s episode remains overwhelmingly positive, with 97.6% of responses giving it a score of 3 or higher.

This is the first episode where I have absolutely no criticisms, so im quite happy with how it turned out.

Voice acting was top tier

perfect

Emotional

Great Job! I'm glad my favorite character's death was so emotionally misered.

Forget Attack on Titans, this episode was Attack on my Feelings ! 😭

I want to rate it a 1 because of Sasha but a 5 because of how well it was done... so 1.5

Absolutely loved it

Perfect

ASIDE FROM SASHA’S DEATH, WHICH MOMENT WAS THE MOST EMOTIONAL FOR YOU? 247 Responses

Connie’s heartfelt admission to Jean seems to have stolen the hearts of the plurality of responders (36%). That is followed by a tie of 18.2% responses noting Eren’s breakdown or EMA’S tense reunion as the most emotional moment for them. In third place is Gabi’s tragic declaration about her struggles with 11.3%. Other responses were, in order, Jean lamenting all of the deaths occurring, Gabi and Falco realizing that Zeke betrayed them, Hange scolding Eren for forcing the SC to intervene in Marley and Levi and Eren’s confrontation.

Connie telling Sasha and Jean that they're special to him made my heart hurt knowing what was going to happen mere minutes after. I honestly saw me and my two best friends through them, and it was gut wrenching seeing Connie and Jean's reactions. Even Mikasa's reaction broke me, to be honest. They all lost a huge light in their lives.

WHICH MOMENT SURPRISED YOU THE MOST? 222 Responses

So this question was meant to only go on the anime watchers poll and ended up here somehow. Thanks to the 222 who were good sports and responded anyway! :P The most shocking moments that took place in this chapter/episode was the revelation that Eren went rogue from the Survey Corps, that Zeke was collaborating with the Survey Corps, how the Survey Corps treated Eren, and that some Paradisians seemed to be turning to nationalism, in that order.

Not sure why we're being asked as manga readers which moment shocked us the most since we already knew everything that was going to happen this week

HOW MUCH DID SASHA’S DEATH HURT YOU? 249 Responses

When it came to Sasha’s death, it would appear that it broke the hearts of the overwhelming majority of responders, with 81.1% giving it a rating of either 4 or 5 on the tragic scale.

Broke my heart and I'm still crying over it three days later. Honestly though, it was greatly done.

3 years later it hit me, Sasha is dead ;_;

Cried my whole soul and body. Rip sweet Sasha

I thought Sasha's death would've been more emotional.

WHOSE REACTION TO SASHA’S DEATH AFFECTED YOU THE MOST? 250 Responses

Sasha’s death elicited various reactions from the main cast. Two different responses tied at 36.4% noting Connie and Mikasa’s reactions to Sasha's death as the one affecting them the most. This was followed by Eren’s at 13.2%. The rest were, in order, Armin, Jean, Levi and Hange.

I don’t cry at fiction much, but Sasha’s death got me more than I thought it would. I feel like seeing Armin and Mikasa’s reactions in particular is what got me.

The way they animated Armin and Mikasa bawling over Sasha's body and the inclusion of Call Your Name made it all the more emotional. I think by "Assassin's Bullet" they also meant a bullet through my heart because man did that hurt to watch. 😭🤧

WOULD YOU PISS YOUR PANTS IF LEVI WAS GLARING AT YOU WITH MURDEROUS INTENT? 248 Responses

A bit of a joke question, but we wanted to know if Levi appeared as threatening as he seemed. 80.2% seems to think so, admitting their incentive to piss their pants. In contrast, 19.8% don’t think the Captain’s such a scary guy!

THE FULL VERSION OF “ASHES ON THE FIRE” BY KOHTA YAMAMOTO (THE PREVIEW SONG) IS NOW OUT. IF YOU’VE LISTENED TO IT, WHAT DO YOU THINK? 236 Responses

“Ashes on the Fire” has been released to rave reviews, with 88.1% of responses giving it a 4 or a 5. Nobody gave it a 1, either. Yamamoto-san, thank you!

OVERALL, HOW WELL DO YOU THINK MAPPA ADAPTED THE MARLEY ARC? 251 Responses

In spite of the relatively vocal complaints about the adaptation of certain elements of the Marley Arc, it would appear that the overwhelming majority of responders seemed pleased with it, with 51.4% giving it 5 and 37.1% giving it a 4. 1s not present.

I've been a bit bothered how Mappa follows the Manga like a slave, using the panels as scenes and not adding anything in between. Sure it works for Manga, but it feels weird to me to watch in Anime how Eren grabs Armins hand and they don't give a transition where Armin pulls him in, but just show him inside the airship next. Just little things, but bothers me a bit. Overall I'm really enjoying their choices.

The show looks BETTER

I was fine with the episode. The quality of animation dropped but I understand that every scene cannot be animated on highest level. MAPPA has done a great job with the Marley arc. They shown the character development and bonds between the warriors perfectly. We had some cuts here and there but overally was okay: 8/10 for me.

I’m so pleased that MAPPA has taken the anime. I’m still more of a fan of this particular series’ manga than anime though.

DID SASHA’S DEATH AFFECT YOU MORE WHEN YOU READ THE MANGA, OR SEEING IT ANIMATED WITH VOICES AND MUSIC? 249 Responses

As noted above, Sasha’s death seemed to be a hard hitter for most. Comparison of the adaptation vs the original allows to discern which hit the readers/watchers the hardest. Just one percent shy of a majority (49%) thought that the anime made it much more tragic. 30.9% noted that the impact was roughly similar across both mediums. On the flip side, 10.4% thought that the initial depiction of it in the manga was the hardest hitter. There were also a couple of write-ins.

I dont remember I sped run reading the manga, kinda regretting it

I knew it for the first time in the manga, so it had a more powerful impact (I cried for a whole week. Not kidding) and the anime managed to make me cry as hard as in the manga. Though, I already was aware and grieved so it wasn't as bad

Got Spoiled :( so kinda meh, saw it coming

When the music kicked in after Connie announced she was gone, my heart broke into a million pieces.

Let's be honest, Sasha's role was over after she killed the titan in the village and saved Kaya. After that she was just there. She got zero development, zero important moments, zero depth. Her death effected many characters and helped them to develop. Sasha's death was sad but at least brought some important changes in others.

Not a Sasha fan so I was not really that affected but having a death in the series always feels sour

I think for me, they're both even.....mostly. There's just something about having been waiting for the chapter leaks on reddit with a bunch of other people and most of us collectively grieving at the same time. Once bigger pages of the chapter started coming out, it made me cry. I didn't even cry during serumbowl when I first read it and that had plenty for me to be even more upset about.

Honestly while reading manga I hated that Sasha’s last word was „meat”, it seemed so ridiculous. I’m happy MAPPA made it look more serious with music. Actually everyone’s reaction for Sasha’s death had more impact on me than the death itself

HOW DID YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SAW GABI KILL SASHA IN THE MANGA? AND HOW DO YOU FEEL SEEING IT AGAIN NOW, KNOWING HOW GABI’S ARC DEVELOPS? 247 Responses

Gabi is perhaps the most controversial character introduced post-time skip. Whether you’re a proud member of the Gabi Gang, proud hater of the 12 year old or just a neural party, everyone can admit that. With Sasha’s death at her hands, many seemed to offer up their opinion on the kid, back then and now. A slight plurality, 31.2%, stated that they did not hate her back when 105 first released and they don’t hate her now. 23.1% note that although they were rather upset with her back down, they are not (upset/angry) any longer. On the flipside, 25.5% state that they still hate the kid, as they did back then. Finally, some were simply neutral. Classic.

Quite a few write-ins, as well.

I hated her in the manga but after watching the anime, I’m not happy about it but I understand why she did what she did and don’t hate her as much anymore.

I was extremely upset about it before and am still extremely upset about it now, but for different reasons. I hate her less but am not any less annoyed by her brainwashed hatred of the Paradisians, although I understand her much better and realize and empathize that she's just a kid who's been used by her country in the worst way.

Gabi Braun Must Die

Broke my heart and was upset, but understood where she was coming from (thought about her perspective only)

Sasha shoulda killed this cunt while she had the chance

It’s war, she did as she needed to. Her arc is fantastic

love hate relationship

I didn't like her but not because of Sasha death (that's war consequence) and it's the same now

I really hated her with my whole heart and soul, but now that it has been all explained, that she had character development, I even like her now

I used to be angry about it but I understand why now, Gabi is just a victim of Marley’s control just like anyone else is, it’s a shame this is the results of it. She’s still at fault but I can’t hate her so much for it

I feel tired of Gabi hate. I disliked her in the manga back then but now I feel neutral towards her, because she has changed. Yet, I wish she took less screentime.

SORRY for ranting! I don't understand the hate on Gabe. Yes, I know she killed a Paradise character which was present in series since its beginning and I understand Sasha's fans are upset Sasha is not here anymore because of her. but those people do not analyse Gabe as they should be. Every character belongs to a different side and each side is blinded by what heir belives in. It is okay to not like Gabe but I don't tolerate hate on her. I THINK THIS QUESTION SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN INCLUDED AT ALL.

Initial hate, understanding after some thought

Understanding her situation I know I shouldn’t hate her, but I’m choosing to be petty and hate her anyway

I liked her much more than I like her now. She was a much better character back then, her killing Sasha (a one-note comedic relief) was cool and brought some spice to the story. Now she just exists to spout themes and convenient exposition and to be an aimbot

i dislike her, even if i understand her

I dont like Gabi. Never did. It isnt because she killed Sasha tho. I just dont care for Gabi tbh BUT i can totally understand her actions and do not blame her for it after seeing the destruction and killings

I was and still am upset about Sasha's death, but from the start I blamed it more on the circumstances than Gabi.

I loved her then, I love her now and it probably wouldn’t change even if she killed my favourite characters. She’s my cinnamon roll

Gabi did nothing wrong, killing a soldier in the battlefield is not a crime.

See, I WANT to like Gabi since she's obviously changed, but knowing she killed Sasha nonetheless will ALWAYS prevent me from having any love or respect for her. She will always be my most hated character

MAPPA ADDED AN EXTENDED SCENE OF FLOCH AND OTHER SURVEY CORPS RECRUITS BEATING GABI AND FALCO. HOW DID YOU FEEL ABOUT IT? 240 Responses

MAPPA added an extra scene of Floch and Friends raining down copious amounts of gratuitous violence upon two 12 year olds (MAPPA is pro-child violence???????? Find out when 111 is adapted). 48.8% seemed to think that it was a decent addition, even if just for the SC’s characterization (or perhaps you enjoyed seeing that?). 22.5% thought it was a bit over the top to feature. Finally, 16.7% did not care.

I didn't like it. But, it was def a believable reaction from them.

I just wish it was enough to kill her

I liked the additional characterization of Floch & co.

Great addition, it was implied in the manga so the scene fitted well. Still, it was horrifying to see how vile the scouts were to two kids

How about an option where we're glad Gabi got beaten to a pulp but not when Falco was?

ORA ORA thing, but we viewers get hurt too.

Didn't feel bad about Gabi getting beat up, but I did feel bad seeing Falco get beat up. Poor boy didn't deserve that

A nice addition

I thought it was a great choice to highlight the continuing violence and feelings of vengeance from both sides even more. and I thought it contrasted really well with Jean's decision not to throw the kids out of the airship.

The people glorifying this scene annoy the shit out of me

It's a good way to hint the "Yaegerist" perspective to anime onlies

MUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDA

The Gold Experience memes are funny

It was an IC scene for people like Floch + I feel bad for the kids

The way they shot that scene made the recruits seem like mindless, gross-faced animals storming towards the kids to beat them up. I liked how they were dehumanised like that, considering that most faces amongst them belonged to the ones who support the rumbling.

It hurt to see that but good scene though

Feel empathy for Gaby. Violence don't solve problems

Now THAT'S what I call fan service! Who needs big-boobed, big-ass females or shirtless guys with and when you can just have the most hated character get the tar beaten out of them xD

I can see why they did it. MAPPA's not dumb and I'm sure they anticipated a massive onslaught on hate towards Gabi specifically, so it was their way of trying to satisfy the haters. Falco didn't deserve it tho.

It was a good addition

GREAT JOB MAPPA

I hate Gabi too but that was too much beating up a child, yet it also showed how shit Floch and the others are.

Apparently some people never noticed that Gabi and Falco got beat up, probably because it happened in the background. So it was good for MAPPA to call attention to it.

I love Gabi but she had that coming. No need to hurt Falco though. :(

OVERALL, HOW WELL DO YOU FEEL MAPPA EXECUTED THE REVEAL THAT ZEKE IS A TRAITOR TO MARLEY? 240 Responses

The reveal that ZOOK has been working against Marley for years on end is one of the most important ones in the series, really. So it was important to have it be executed in a rather decent manner. The vast majority of the fandom thought that MAPPA did a fine job. 52.1% gave it a rating of 4, 27.5% gave it a 5 and 17.1% gave it a 3. The couple of the other respnders gave it a 2, with no 1s.

IN THE END, DO YOU THINK EREN’S ACTIONS IN MARLEY WERE ULTIMATELY JUSTIFIED? 242 Responses

A question to remember… Were Eren’s actions in Marley ultimately “justified”? A plurality, 44.6% seems to think so. In contrast, 24% disagree. And 31.4% still aren’t sure to this day.

SIMILARLY, DO YOU THINK THE SURVEY CORPS WAS ULTIMATELY JUSTIFIED IN TREATING EREN AS THEY DID? 244 Responses

When it comes to the SC treating Eren as they did, the division is much less pronounced however. The majority, 60.7%, think that the SC had quite the justification for treating Eren as they did. On the flip side, 19.7% think that there was such justification for behaving in such a manner towards Eren. Finally, the same amount of responses stated that still can’t be sure to this day.

NOW THAT WE’VE GOTTEN A CLEAR SHOT OF YELENA, DID MAPPA DO HER JUSTICE? 243 Responses

YELENA is here. Queen 👑. Or well, maybe not. Who am I to say? In any case, her appearance was received well. 52.7% thought MAPPA did very well and 33.7% went on to declare their love for her. Just shy of 10% noted that MAPPA could have done a little better though.

Kinda wish her hair was like neon or something idk

Need more eps of her to decide, she didn't get much screentime and lines here.

I don't like Yelena, but yeah I guess they did good.

In the manga she was a creepy-looking person. MAPPA made her unique, interesting and mysterious. I love her voice and her stoic, relaxed self. MAPPA did a good job.

QUEEN!!!!!

Great adaptation but I still don't like her as a character

Don’t care about her

don't really care

I hate her and I don't care about her.

WHICH SCENE FROM THE PREVIEW ARE YOU MOST LOOKING FORWARD TO? 247 Responses

Such a colorful chart for this one. It would appear that slightly over a quarter look most forward to seeing Crykasa at Sasha’s grace. Slightly less (21.9%) want to see Sasha enjoying Niccolo’s cuisine. In third place is the scene with Connie, Jean, Mikasa and Niccolo at Sasha’s grace. The rest are, in order from most to least, Onyankopon and Yelena teaching the Survey Corps about the Port, EMA talking at the shooting range and Hange and Armin learning about Marley’s technology.

HOW HYPED ARE YOU FOR THE UPCOMING TIMESKIP FLASHBACKS? 239 Responses

The time skip flashbacks seem to be a hit. A little over 51% are super stoked about seeing them animated. Slightly under 24% state that they’ll enjoy them, but are looking forward to other things more. In contrast, 22.6% are ready to go crazy (from a positive standpoint)! Wooo!

Enjoying AND dreading it at the same time

I just want the centipede

Boring. The only thing what interests me is Historia teasing Mikasa about her crush on Eren. The rest is too jolly.

I'm looking forward to see Yelena's insane self be animated. That, and more Zeke.

THE MOST RECENT LIST OF FUTURE EPISODE TITLES SHOWS THAT EPISODE 12 WILL LIKELY END AROUND CHAPTERS 109-111, LEAVING CHAPTER 112 (EMA’S ARGUMENT) FOR EPISODE 13. EPISODE 67 WAS ALMOST ENTIRELY ADAPTED FROM CHAPTER 105, PROVING THAT ADAPTING DIALOGUE-HEAVY CHAPTERS FAITHFULLY CAN EASILY REQUIRE THE FULL 20 MINUTES. WITH ONLY 16 EPISODES - AND SO MANY WHICH ARE DIALOGUE-HEAVY - DO YOU THINK THINGS WILL END OFF WITH THE INITIATION OF THE RUMBLING (CH. 122), AS HAS BEEN SPECULATED BY MUCH OF THE FANDOM? 238 Responses

The manner in which the Season will end is a mystery to even the manga readers. Where will it end? Will it have many cuts? These are the questions. 36.6% seem to think that MAPPA will somehow manage to both end it at Chapter 122 and cut as little as possible. 26.5% don't believe ending on 122 is possible. 12.2% do believe MAPPA will end the Season on 122, but only with many notable cuts. Finally, just a little under 20% are simply not sure. There were a few write-ins as well.

I hope not, too many cuts would be required

The is no way they're making it up to 122, at first I thought they were going to finish it off with Eren's head getting blown off in 119, but now that seems like a reach too. Now I think MAPPA is probably going to end this first half of the season with Eren and Pieck's "where is the enemy?" and the warriors arriving to Shiganshina

I’m not sure right now so I’ll have to see for later episodes for the cut-off point, if it isn’t the Rumbling then it’ll be when Gabi shoots Eren

MOVIE

I'm conflicted. I'm sure they'll end at rumbling because it's the only reasonable point to cut it, but I feel like they're running out of episodes. Then again I'm feeling the same about the state of Manga, there's just too little chapters left to end things up well.

I don't really want to think too much about it, I just want to enjoy the anime lol

I fully expect 119 to be the end

What was the point of rushing Reiner's chapters if you are going to slow down later. Goddamn it MAPPA.

It'll really depend on the pacing for the next couple episodes, but I'm with a bulk of the fandom that see Chapter 119 Two Brothers being the end point for The Final Season. IF they were to skip the opening and maybe the ending, I can see them transitioning from Eren's head getting blown off immediately into his transformation and the beginning of the Rumbling. But even that is quite farfetched.

I have no idea, I'm a little worried now. Wouldn't be the first time a lot of content gets cut but if they insist on reaching ch. 122, I just don't see how you do that without butchering a lot. If that happens, it would probably lessen my enjoyment of the season.

Yeah, I think it will have a lot of cuts, but I believe that it will get there because Ymir falling in the tree was in the trailer

ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS ON THE EPISODE?

It's amazing seeing how each week, something with SnK trends! ^^

It still baffles me just how much people insist on hating Gabi, especially when her arc has shown tremendous growth in the manga. Reiner was no better than her when he was a child and continued to insist that Paradisians are devils and chose to further destroy their lives even after sleeping under the same roof as the 104th for 3 whole years and forming personal bonds with them. Yet, his actions are forgivable but Gabi's are not? Both characters have shown remorse for their former beliefs and misdeeds against Paradisians. Both realized that they were in the wrong. The characters have forgiven Gabi. Why can't y'all do the same? People who want Gabi to suffer are no better than they accuse her of being.

Well done episode which managed to capture the emotions of sasha's death perfectly

monke

I really appreciate Gabi as a character. She has spunk and a strong character arc in which she changes and grows more than anyone in the last 30 chapters of the manga, save maybe Mikasa (ignoring how Eren, Reiner, Armin and maybe a few others changed during the timeskip). It makes me sad seeing people wishing for her to die and praising Floch and the others for kicking her.

Gabi absolutely deserves the hate she gets

I absolutely love to see the anime-onlies mass hate of GabBitch, does my heart good xD

Boring ,too much Gabi she is annoying

Time to strap in: wild ride ahead!

Gabi Braun is the WORST character, her arc was poorly written and the moment she kills Sasha solidifies her rightful place as most hated character

No development has made me stop hating Gabi. The wound of Sasha's death will ALWAYS overshadow any crocodile tears Gabi may cry.

Kudos to Jean's and Connie's voice actors. Emotions were so raw and natural.

so good! they're really nailing down the emotional beats so far!

Dialogue-heavy but still amazing! Also the music was great

I didn't felt anything when Sasha died. Even the first time, in the manga. She hasn't enough personnality for me to care. Erwin and Bertolt's death were more saddening for me. Stop hating Gabi. She was in grief and she did what Marley brainwashed her to. And Sasha killed people right in front of her, so…

1 chapter was too little to be adapted for an episode, you could tell some scenes were stretched to fit the runtime

The music they chose for the scene of Sasha passing was also the same music they used when the Survey Corps first donned their capes and Eren found out Marco was dead... man, that song is gonna hit harder than ever now

It didn’t help with the overwhelming amount of hate Gabi is getting. I hope Mappa does her justice because she’s a great character but the Anime only seem to hate her because its a “funny” “popular” thing but it really isn’t... shows who really is paying attention to the story and the people who are watching it because it’s popular and trendy

People who are hating on Gabi do not understand the themes portrayed in AoT

Pretty solid overall. Wonderful bits of animation such as the ODM bits and the solid character acting from Sasha going down, Mikasa and Armin is distress, personal highlight being Gabi's reload animation. Good ost choices, nice addition of Samuel and Daz to foreshadow their conflict later on in the story, and great work from Connie, Gabi and Eren's VAs.

Friendly reminder that just because we hate Gabi does NOT mean we don't "understand" the story or themes. We just don't care because Gabi is a bad character.

U mad at Gabi for what she did ? Did she kill Potato girl for no reason? Imgine a kid, at least 3 years younger than the 104th, made fighting on WARS and praised for it, brainwashed by Marley that Paradisians are devils, and these devils came in her home, killing her friends and this WOMAN killed in front of her eyes two people who tried to protect her. Don't be mad at Gabi. Grieve for Sasha, okay, but stop hating Gabi. You're the worst when you do it

Hey Gabiatans: as long as you're not threatening the VA or other RL p olle, it's PERFECTLY fine to hate Gabi. Period. We don't have to like her, and it's not like we don't "understand" her just because we hate her. I "understand" a lot of Germans were forcibly coerced into joining the Nazi regime, but I don't have to pity then for any consequences that came for them.

Leviiiiiii

I was surprised that Mikasa and Armin crying over Sasha had no voice over. I thought it was still effective but I'm not sure if I prefer it. Other than that, the character animation was amazing this episode. Gabi's hands as she reloaded the rifle and Armin crying were my favorites. Overall, everything was pretty perfect and I love it when a chapter gets adapted in full with basically no cuts. One of the best episodes in the series and a proper send off for Sasha.

Wonderfully done episode! They truly did Gabi and Falco's perspectives justice. Also, seeing Eren's expressions and reactions in animated format was clarifying and super well done, too!

WHERE DO YOU PRIMARILY DISCUSS THE SERIES? 227 Responses

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yuna-dan · 4 years

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MASTERPOST PT 2

So back in 2017 I did a masterpost of all my fics, but I changed my name so then the links don’t work anymore. It’s still there, in case I skip any fic (which I might’ve), though I deleted some old bad written fics.

I have written a lot of this things, i am actually concerned.

Please https://ko-fi.com/danyuna buy me a kofi and help me pay for my studies.

Copy Paste the link, all of them work, but Tumblr can be a little b*ch

Avatar:

Tittle: Dying

Summary: “You are okay Jet.” Fuck. “You are gonna be okay.” He kiss his forehead.

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125908414835/71-jetzuko-please

Tittle: Train

Summary: When they train together, somehow their bodies synchronized in the perfect way.

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/147588445260/32-zukaang

Tittle: Of busses and rules

Summary: The tan boy smile to the scarred one. “Yeah, you see all the sits are used and I’m kinda tired, so can I sit here?”

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125905951620/of-busses-and-rules

Tittle: Love

Summary: “Zuko, do you believe in love?”

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125712759925/93-sokkazuko-just-because

Tittle: Just Watching

Summary: “Nothing, I just wanna se you training, you know. I’ve got to see you shirtless.”

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125952999770/just-watching

Tittle: Drowsy

Summary: It was normal for Zuko. Totally normal. Some night, they are light just taunting him when the times he used to be happy, other nights they are bad, about how he was banished or making him remembered all the bad decisions he take. Other nights he remember that and how terrified he was.

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125779917805/drowsy

Tittle: Another Kiss

Summary: If one year ago someone tell Sokka he was going to hide from the fire nation soldiers in the summer house of the Fire Lord with the prince of the Fire Nation, he would’ve laugh. Bu then again, who in the world would say something like that? Sokka smiled at that thought.

Link: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125725734360/another-kiss

Coco:

TÍtulo: Cinco veces que Imelda le dijo que no a Héctor y una vez que dijo si.

Resúmen: Cinco veces que Imelda le dijo que no a Héctor y una vez que dijo si

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167951844390/cinco-veces-que-imelda-le-dijo-que-no-a-h%C3%A9ctor-y

Prince of Tennis:

Tittle: Earth

Summary: Kaoru was like earth.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158357493600/momokai-52-please

Tittle: Slave

Summary: “You can’t take it anymore, huh?” His voice was cruel and hard. “Maybe I should give you back to the market, huh?” Another slap.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/138468937265/80-inukai-preferably-kaidoh-as-the-slave

Tittle: Arms

Summary: Fuji loves Tezuka’s arms. They are strong. Hard. Warm.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/147588583890/tezukafuji-6-thank-you

Sanders Sides:

Short Fics:

Tittle: Head Kiss

Summary: Couldn’t sleep, huh?

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158421521000/62-with-prinxiety

Tittle: Red Puffy (or the one with the dress)

Summary: Prince, the fanciful creativity, slayer of dragons and gorgons, love wearing dresses.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158498774020/red-puffy-or-the-one-with-the-dress

Tittle: Shut up

Summary: “Shut up.” “Make me.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158537684955/if-youre-still-looking-for-prompts-prinxiety

Tittle: The way they sleep

Summary: Logic knew that sleeping with so much people in a bed should be uncomfotable, but somehow he manage to sleep a little.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158896063675/anything-with-poly-sanders-like-how-they-got

Tittle: Namesless

Summary: I’m a disease I have no name. I’m not supposed to be here. I just bother here. I’m worthless. I do not belong here.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158894363805/nameless

Tittle: Feeling

Summary: The feeling you when you see your significant other being held by another one.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158867213420/feeling

Tittle: Geografía

Summary: “This song remind me a lot of you.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158618922035/i-have-a-dar%C3%A9-for-you-write-a-songfic-in-english

Tittle: How could you love me?

Summary: “I’m like a machine.” “No. You’re not. You’re like the sun. You’re like the rain.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158933475635/how-could-you-love-me

Tittle: Same Face

Summary: “Are you hitting on me because we have the same face?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158966900380/same-face

Tittle: Daydream mode gets out of control

Summary: “You shouldn’t have risked yourself like this! Are you stupid? Let’s face it, Thomas doesn’t need me but he does need you. I’m not worth putting yourself in danger to save.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159017507695/prompt-daydream-mode-gets-out-of-control-the

Tittle: Touch-starved Anxiety

Summary: The next time they watched a movie, Anxiety was sitting in the middle.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159103302255/can-you-write-a-touch-starved-anxiety

Tittle: Make up

Summary: Anxiety was the only one that knew how to apply make up but apparently not the only one who wear it.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159154426205/make-up

Tittle: Hold on a diddly darn minute

Summary: Roman did, at the end of the day, he was with Morality.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159167174880/47-and-48-with-prince-and-anyone-else-of-ur

Tittle: Heart

Summary: “No one has a heart of stone.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159168233095/21-anxiety-and-logic-please-have-a-good

Tittle: Tease

Summary: “I don’t know if I should kiss you or slap you”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159174148275/42-i-dont-know-if-i-should-kiss-you-or-slap

Tittle: Questions

Summary: “Okay. Okay. I can with this but… Do you think someone can like me more?” He whispered and Logic moved his head to the side a little confused. “I don’t understand your statement.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159206078560/questions

Tittle: Drunk

Summary: “Pardon me?” Anxiety was shaking from nervousness and excitement.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159216004845/are-you-drunk-morality-and-anxiety

Tittle: Alive

Summary: I’m alive… I can tell because of the pain.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159229958825/im-alive-i-can-tell-because-of-the-pain

Tittle: Put me down!

Summary: “We’re going to cuddle!”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159320417225/for-the-prompt-could-you-do-put-me-down-with

Tittle: Pants

Summary: “Where are your pants?!” “On the floor”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159322992035/hi-could-you-please-do-the-where-are-your

Tittle: Attention whore

Summary: “To be honest,” Logan spoke first, “I think you’re an attention whore.” Morality’s eyes snapped open. “Logan! Language!”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159340208475/i-for-one-would-like-to-see-tbh-i-think-youre

Tittle: I won’t say I’m in love

Summary: It was stupid how much you can related to a fucking song. Honestly, the most ridiculous thing in the world, and even more if it was a Disney song.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159346797635/i-wont-say-im-in-love-pinxiety-ewe

Tittle: Clumsy!Anxiety (1)

Summary: “Why are you limping?” He asked worriedly. “I fell down the stairs, I’m fine though. I just scratch my knee.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159229157290/hello-i-love-your-writing-and-i-dont-know-if

Tittle: Clumsy!Anxiety (2)

Summary: “You know I would help, but making fun of you is so much more satisfying”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159321901095/would-you-do-you-know-i-would-help-but-making

Tittle: One Last Hope

Summary: “You gotta be kidding. Why me? C’mon gods I haven’t trained someone in ages!” Roman’s shot him a confused look, “Look, Princey-”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159347189965/one-last-hope-prinxiety

Tittle: You’re welcome

Summary: Prince has said plenty of times he didn’t enjoy the covers of the Disney movies.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159347575285/youre-welcome-with-logicprince-who-ever-can-be

Tittle: Close it

Summary: And it’s nothing like I’ve ever known before! Love is an open door!” He yelled-sang. “Then close it!” Anxiety snapped already mad.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159350548330/for-the-disney-song-thing-love-is-an-open-door

Tittle: I don’t get it

Summary: It could be easier.” “At least out loud.” Morality agrees shrugging.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159360922890/i-wont-say-im-in-love-logicmorality-with

Tittle: Colors of the wind

Summary: “Don’t go there, Logan.” He hissed mad, “The savage is me and yet, the one that don’t understand reality is you.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159361260850/colors-of-the-wind-logicality

Tittle: Tie

Summary: Against all believes, Logan actually was the one that hated mornings

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159362375650/roman-tying-logans-tie-oh-my-god-things-couples

Tittle: Amusement Park

Summary: They deserve a break from school and just act like a couple, which yeah he knew it would be difficult but still.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159379064010/all-four-of-them-go-to-an-amusement-park

Tittle: Cereal

Summary: Who wouldn’t be angry you ate all of my cereal and faked your death for three years!

URL 1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159365924910/hehe-hello-again-my-friend-the-new-one-was-just

URL 2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159366130710/who-wouldnt-be-angry-you-ate-all-of-my-cereal

Tittle: Summoning

Summary: "This is the tenth demon summoning this week"

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159379929100/this-is-the-tenth-demon-summoning-this-week

Tittle: Hints

Summary: “I’m really cold”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159381615510/for-the-prompts-can-i-request-dropping-hints-so

Tittle: Sorry

Summary: “I may have accidentally sort of adopted five cats.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159381828705/i-may-have-accidentally-sort-of-adopted-five

Tittle: Out Loud

Summary: “We don’t have to say it”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159393247285/i-wont-say-im-in-love-anxiety-and-logan

Tittle: Fort

Summary: “This is stupid” “Your face is stupid.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159393648745/building-a-fort-together-for-prinxiety

Tittle: Trampoline

Summary: “I don’t get this, we can sleep in the mindscape.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159396131525/sleep-on-a-trampoline-with-blankets-and-pillows

Tittle: Short

Summary: “The skirt is short on purpose”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159396710300/please-please-please-the-skirt-is-short-on

Tittle: Crash

Summary: “You idiot! How many times I’ve told you to look both ways when you cross the road!”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159400264550/fuck-i-feel-like-i-got-hit-by-a-car-wait-i-did

Tittle: Skirt

Summary: “What are you wearing?” Anxiety asked when he entered his shared room with his boyfriend.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159402003330/the-skirt-is-short-on-purpose-anxiety-and

Tittle: Kiss the boy

Summary: Morality smirked at that, grabbed Logic’s tie and yanked him towards him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159411413140/kiss-the-girl-logicality

Tittle: Sandwich

Summary: You can only suffer through my whining for so long until you get up and make me a sandwich

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159425183765/100-for-logicality

Tittle: Banish

Summary: You can’t banish me! This is my bed too!

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159430917095/one-more-sorry-for-flooding-your-asks-lmao-how

Tittle: You can’t sleep

Summary: There it goes the moment and his possibility of a proper nap.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159431703445/62-for-prinxiety-or-logicality-or-both-cheeky

Tittle: Baking

Summary: “Jeez, Logan this is not the first time I’ve done this.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159441818880/baking-together-for-logicality

Tittle: Breakfast

Summary: “Can you help me preparing breakfast for Roman?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159443108270/surprise-each-other-with-breakfast-in-bed-for

Tittle: Bubble baths

Summary: “So what? I lay there like and idiot and wait for a miracle to happen?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159445402935/take-a-soothing-bubble-bath-together-prinxiety

Tittle: This is fine

Summary: “Oh my god! I’m sorry!” Roman tried to apologize, kissing his lips and neck a few times.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159446563855/just-jam-your-knee-right-up-my-crotch-this-is

Tittle: Move

Summary: Their bodies were entangled, naked legs intertwined with each other while words of love were whispered. It was a magical and beautiful moment.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159454018475/hand-is-accidentally-on-a-boobnippleprivate

Tittle: Trust

Summary: “I can’t trust you” “Doesn’t mean I’ll leave you alone.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159469423495/hey-sorta-new-to-this-ask-thing-but-ythink

Tittle: Marry me

Summary: “Would you marry me?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159472221685/hiya-would-you-do-will-you-marry-me-with

Tittle: Safe

Summary: “Oh, Mo.” he kissed his forehead. “I’ll take care of you today.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159480579160/prompt-illness-youre-very-flushed-are-you

Tittle: Bad day

Summary: “So you’re gonna just sit on your ass while I have to make breakfast?” “At least it’s a cute ass.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159482340665/also-600-special-prompts-number-17-with-whoever

Tittle: His own voice

Summary: He was crying. There’s no shame in that. He cried more often lately.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159482532855/four-words-prompts-with-someone-saying-i-cant

Tittle: Sick

Summary: It was in the middle of the night when Morality heard a horrible coughing sound. For a moment he thought it was actually his imagination, combined with the fact he was asleep.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159494324195/was-that-you-or-did-a-goose-with-bronchitis-flew

Tittle: More than I do

Summary: You cant possibly hate me more than i do!

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159495439170/promt-you-cant-possibly-hate-me-more-than-i

Tittle: Soul

Summary: He was in a white room and for a moment he thought it was the hospital, until he noticed that there was not any window, nor a door or even bed.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159497768875/i-really-thought-i-was-going-to-die-i-know-but

Tittle: Not a secret

Summary: No one knew. They suspected, however. Morality and Anxiety were not precisely secretive, since they were now suddenly joined by the hip, cuddling and holding hands, but if Roman or Logan asked they would just laughed.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159499381660/i-would-throw-my-phone-across-the-room-for-a-fic

Tittle: Shirt

Summary: “Is that my shirt?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159549869065/hey-could-you-do-is-that-my-shirt-with

Tittle: Scary stories

Summary: “Let’s tell scary stories!!”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159628862690/the-sides-telling-scary-stories-and-morality

Tittle: SemiCatAnxiety

URL 1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159382296705/you-need-to-stop-leaving-dead-bodies-in-my

URL 2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159397846490/im-going-to-need-you-to-put-on-some-underwear

URL 3: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159402379675/so-what-if-i-broke-my-arm-im-still-doing-it

URL 4: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159411865145/for-the-drabbles-challenge-22-for-prinxiety

URL 5: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159456102190/right-as-one-person-is-about-to-fall-asleep-one

Tittle: Darling

Summary: He saved himself. He was the responsible of his life choice. He was the one who put a limit. Because he needed, because he wanted. Not because some stupid prince Charming told him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159630947500/hey-can-i-request-some-sort-of-songfic-for

Tittle: Cute

Summary: “We’d make a cute couple.”

URL: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159631764840/50-with-morality-and-anyone-because-damn-gurl

Tittle: Alone

Summary: “Don’t hurt me like this.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159646982850/20-with-either-prince-or-morality-because-there-is

Tittle: Wings

Summary: “You’re not a weirdo. You’re different, so?” He kissed him again. “They are beautiful,” he left a little kiss on the right wing, giggling at the sensation. “Just like you.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159881874330/theyre-not-powerstheyre-more-like-special

Tittle: Outlaws

Summary: “For someone who always uses bad clothes, you sure know how to design some nice ones.” Roman said when he saw his reflection in the mirror, wearing a beautiful sparky white with feathers costume, having slight greyish.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159848195360/outlaws

Tittle: Flirting

Summary: “Dude, you two have been flirting back and forth for like, a year and a half. If you don’t kiss him I will! It’s annoying!”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159703876790/pleaes-write-that-logince-promt-i-need-to-get

Tittle: Ice skating

Summary: “Logan, want some help?” He asked once he was closed enough. Logan huffed, but remain silent trying to stood straight.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160191644970/is-there-already-a-logince-fanfic-about-them-going

Tittle: Rockabye

Summary: He tugged his twins i the crib, kissing their forehead. His phone buzzed in the back of his pants but he ignored it, he already knew what was it.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160179906850/rockabye

Tittle: Two Pieces

Summary: They fit like two pieces of a broken heart

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160026962095/two-pieces

Tittle: When I was your man

Summary: Alexander laid on his bed, eyes burning with tears that refused to fell. Besides him, a bouquet of white roses. This was stupid, he shouldn’t be here.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160018163625/when-i-was-your-man

Tittle: Oh, I know.

Summary: Anxiety had a vast collection of different skirts and dresses. From all kind of colors, not only black, but pastels, yellow, flower print, etc.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159988132345/can-i-please-get-a-story-about-anxiety-in-a

Tittle: Blush

Summary: Roses are Red, I have a crush, whenever I´m around you, all I do is blush

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159976499790/for-the-subscriber-thingy-roses-are-redi-have

Tittle: The don’t know about us

Summary: “People say we shouldn’t be together, too young to know about forever”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159904257960/they-dont-know-about-us

Tittle: Need you now

Summary: It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159890821785/need-you-now-snow-logicality-congrats-300

Tittle: Better.

Summary: Post!Growing Up. Anxiety knew how much words could actually hurt. He was aware of that. He knew it more than anyone else. That’s why he was ashamed of himself for what happened. It hurt to see Morality’s face flinching at every word.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160231803110/better

Tittle: All the ways (To say I love you)

Summary: 10 + 1 ways to say I love you

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160379070555/all-the-ways-to-say-i-love-you

Tittle: Protection.

Summary: Pre!AcceptingAnxiety. “I am nameless.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160395028685/protection

Tittle: Roman(tic) outings

Summary: “Do you like food?” “Yes” “Do you like romantic outings?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160559203880/roman-tic-outings

Tittle: Intertwined

Summary: What do you do with your hands while walking? Shove them in your pockets? Casually let them against your jeans?

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160887821320/intertwined

Tittle: Soul searching

Summary: Everyone in the kingdom held one. Everyone was born with a special tattoo in their body, hoping to find the one who held the same. However, sometimes the one is actually the ones. It was not weird but clearly not normal, to be born with two marks. Yet, Prince Roman was born with four marks.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160928957630/soul-searching

Tittle: Pretty

Summary: “Oh nonsense,” Ben batted his hand, putting his palette aside from Anxiety face, trying to see what color would be better. “You’ll look great.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160955571425/pretty

Tittle: The meaning of flowers

Summary: 4 flowers, 4 meanings

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/161175317430/the-meaning-of-flowers

Tittle: Musical Memories

Summary: 10 songs, 10 fics

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/161223996295/musical-memories

Tittle: Tonight

Summary: Logan knew the symptoms his host was presenting, but quickly brush it off considering the change of seasons, and the lack of sleep it was something almost meant to be.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/161483877665/tonight

Tittle: Moxiety drable

Summary: I passed out in a public place, and you sat with me for several hours to make sure no one harassed me? That is both sweet and strange.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/161590341135/9-moxiety

Tittle: Here comes a thought

Summary: Thomas breathing was out of control, Logan was at his side, holding his hand like a lifeline, and exaggerating his own breathing, hoping Thomas could match it. Roman was rubbing his back, glaring at him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/162854518495/can-you-write-a-dic-based-on-the-heres-comes-a

Tittle: Tu tanta falta de querer

Summary: The first time sleeping alone, after so many years. He closed his eyes feeling anxious, he wanted to call him, to make sure he was alive,

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/162889084405/prompt-hey-podr%C3%ADas-hacer-un-fic-de-prinxiety

Tittle: Flowers

Summary: Maybe roman should’ve known better. Maybe he should’ve act nicer. Maybe, and just maybe in that way, he would’ve notice his own crush before it was too late.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163099406085/flowers

Tittle: Comfort

Summary: Roman sometimes would sneak into Logan’s room

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163243670755/comfort

Tittle: Cereal & Nightmares

Summary: “It’s three am in the morning. Why are you eating cereal?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163601475018/its-three-am-in-the-morning-why-are-you-eating

Tittle: Moxiety drabble

Summary: “I wish you could see what I see when you’re looking in the mirror.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163679809587/i-wish-you-could-see-what-i-see-when-youre

Tittle: Logince drabble

Summary: I feel just like a nerd watching birds

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163688736135/i-feel-just-like-a-nerd-watching-birds-logince

Tittle: Jar of Hearts

Summary: Who do you think you are?

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163718507475/ohh-would-you-plz-do-jar-of-hearts-with-patton-and

Tittle: Moxiety drabble

Summary: “I just love you, I don’t need anything else.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163727505382/your-eyes-are-the-brightest-of-all-the-colors-i

Tittle: Prinxiety drabble

Summary: I know, somewhere deep in my soul, that love never lasts.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163757201623/i-know-somewhere-deep-in-my-soul-that-love

Tittle: Whiskers and Tails

Summary: Roman’s a cat. That’s it

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/164034464195/whiskers-and-tails

Tittle: Need

Summary: “There’s a difference between loving and needing…”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/164659966470/need

Tittle: Meant to be

Summary: He blushed, because goddammit his friends were such nerds. They didn’t even try to fake a different letter, everything was like them. And Roman loved every part of it.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/164988583945/meant-to-be

Tittle: Remember

Summary: “I love you too, son. Besides, you can always play with your guitar and remember me…”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167256961425/remember

Tittle: Gone

Summary: “I thought you were beside me, but I reached and you were gone.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167401124780/i-thought-you-were-beside-me-but-i-reached-and

Tittle: Cheat

Summary: "How could you do this to us? To our family?"

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167488717005/how-could-you-do-this-to-us-to-our-family

Tittle: Wrong

Summary: "I loved you, and I thought you loved me. Turns out I was wrong"

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167500736460/i-loved-you-and-i-thought-you-loved-me-turns

Tittle: Amnesia

Summary: Suddenly a man was hugging him, and crying while hiding his head in his neck. It was comforting but weird… really weird. “E-Excuse me?” He said, holding the shoulders of the guy.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167611587190/im-sorry-i-dont-remember-a-thing-virgil-to

Tittle: LAMP Drabble

Summary: They believed on different things

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/167931901530/could-you-do-a-lamp-soulmate-au-im-a-sucker-for

Tittle: Prinxiety drabble

Summary: “I’m just not good enough for you.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168017713640/prinxiety-i-wish-you-could-see-what-i-see-when

Tittle: I’ll take your hand

Summary: “Logan-Logan I’m scared.” He whispered, hugging him tighter and trying to escape the coldness inside his bones.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168095943600/you-know-ill-take-your-hand-when-it-gets-cold

Tittle: This place your home

Summary: “It’s weird.” Patton admitted, “but a good weird.” He tried to smile, seeing the small house in middle of the field, it was more of a farm.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168096465805/im-going-to-make-this-place-your-home-with

Tittle: The Stars

Summary: Logan would always love to stare at the stars. When kid, he even used to have neck pains, since he was always looking up, and up, and up. Wondering about possible life, who made the stars so beautiful, who named them all.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168447823990/the-stars

Tittle: Broken

Summary: “I’m broken.” He confessed one day to his best friend, under a tree. The air moved the flowers around at a soft speed and the sun was starting to set, a lovely wat to confess feelings.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168732497305/24-couldnt-ever-figure-out-how-to-love-logince

Tittle: Emotionless

Summary: Sometimes Morality would cope different. Sometimes the humour wouldn’t be enough. They all hate when that happens. They could deal with a happy but sad Patton. They couldn’t deal with an emotionless Patton.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168733078470/i-just-want-to-stop-feeling-lamp-plotanic-or

Tittle: Impossible Possible

Summary: In case you had a soulmark there are 7.442 billion people on earth, how can you find them? The coincidence of your soulmate living in the same continent as you were practically impossible.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168849756090/impossible-possible

Tittle: Late(r)

Summary: Virgil knew it wasn’t Patton’s fault. He knew that he was probably overreacting and that yes, Patton did care about him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169023493280/why-is-it-you-never-seem-to-care-until-its-too

Tittle: I love you

Summary: Roman didn’t want this to happened. He knew he had to take actions the moment he felt Logan’s hand like fire against his own and when he got the desire to kiss him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169097009935/you-can-trust-me-alright-i-love-you

Tittle: Dance with me

Summary: You know that feeling when you’ve heard one specific song over, and over, and over again? That no matter how hard you tried you can’t seem to scape it.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169106600155/dance-with-me

Tittle: (I’m not) Ready

Summary: Roman looked at his computer, feeling hot inside his stomach. His arms were shaking a little and yet he knew he was not doing anything wrong.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/160308945485/im-not-ready

Tittle: Best for you

Summary: “Would you sing Disney duos with me?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169313008620/best-for-you

Tittle: Somewhere only we know

Summary: “Sing to me?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169705605465/somewhere-only-we-know

Tittle: Are you flirting with me?

Summary: “Are you flirting with me?” Logan said, almost out of breath. Roman chuckled, and jump to sit over the counter, “Yeah, have been for the last couple of months.”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/170062225000/are-you-flirting-with-me

Tittle: Hate

Summary: “You still love him,” Roman sat next to the spectacled boy, holding his hand.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/170347634525/hate

Tittle: Five Times Patton tried to help and one time he actually help

Summary: 5 + 1 Moxiety

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/170486957855/five-times-patton-tried-to-help-and-one-time-he

Tittle: Night Cookies

Summary: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/170617994974/night-cookies

URL: “You aren’t allowed to make omelets at 3am anymore.”

Tittle: Care

Summary: They’ve been fighting too much. They’ve been yelling too much. They’ve been cruel to each other.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/168732200950/why-do-you-care-logicality

Tittle: Definition of words

Summary: Unexpected, what a beautiful way to describe it. Unexpected, that’s the best way to describe what happened.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/171873753560/definition-of-words

Tittle: Under

Summary: Roman couldn’t understand how he could get into situations like this. First it was Patton’s bellsprout who was always bit him for no reason, and that even now as a Victreebel would bite him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184089913070/why-is-it-always-snorlax

Tittle: 10 songs for you

Summary: Another 10 songs, 10 more fics

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184212794460/10-songs-for-you

Tittle: Logince drabble

Summary: Logince adopting little Patton

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184420739485/logince-adopting

Tittle: Logince drabble

Summary: It wasn’t as if Logan wasn’t used to this kind of messages from Roman, so when he received the text u free? He was already on his way to buy chocolate ice-cream (He still didn’t understand why always bought ice-cream, but that makes Roman happy).

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184488895815/6-logince

Tittle: “If I died, we’d be together now.” He heard the was Roman’s breath hitched and the way Richard swallowed, but he carry on.

Summary: The floor was wet, that was the first thing he noticed. He didn’t knew what he was feeling, but the floor was wet and he tried to only think about the wetness on the floor.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/190924331365/4-mcr-moxiety

Tittle: Alone

Summary: “They began to drift away, I was left alone”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/190936915885/any-with-patton-20-disney

Tittle: Lies (Truths)

Summary: “You lie so good, that it taste as a truth.” He said, which was odd because Logan didn’t understand language like that. “But I can see right through you”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611362498492481536/13-you-lie-so-good-that-it-taste-as-a-truth

Tittle: Surroundings

Summary: Remus didn’t really understand his surroundings. He sometimes would stare into nothing and the rest of the world would stop existing.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611448476540289024/six-of-the-spanish-prompt-deceit-wanyone

Tittle: Okay

Summary: “I thought my heart had learn it’s lesson…”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611620772549689344/i-thought-my-heart-had-learned-its-lesson-with

Tittle: Without you

Summary: “What the hell would I be without you?

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611627543965073408/le-gasp-1-with-virgil-and-the-light-sides

Tittle: Out

Summary: When Patton decided to study laws, it wasn’t the very first decision. It wasn’t that he was three years old and he already knew what he wanted to be.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/612692969096691712/for-the-au-lawyer-au-since-u-are-a-lawyer

Tittle: Like

Summary: “Look, Remus, I know you know that I like you, but you don’t have to make fun of me.” “You like me back?!”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/612809931402444800/dukexiety-2-for-the-dodie-prompts

Tittle: Stereotypes

Summary: He will learn to love him, eventually.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613249881535053824/hey-are-you-still-doing-the-dodie-prompts-if-so

Tittle: Like you

Summary: “Why aren’t we boyfriends?”

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613257715220889600/how-about-2-royality-for-the-dodies-songs

Tittle: Mistakes

Summary: “Hey, there. God, it’s been so long…” “Fifteen years.” Damien said.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613873686503669760/12-im-going-to-try-to-fall-in-love-with-you

Tittle: True love

Summary: "Only true love" the witch has said, and Patton just wondered how his life turned into that cliché.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613891214176108544/if-youre-doing-the-dodie-prompts-what-about-4-i

Tittle: Right

Summary: “I want to hate Roman, and I know I should not feel like that. He’s supposed to be my soulmate, but I just need to know what happen to Rosaline.” You're supposed to have the name of your soulmate in your wrist. Logan didn't understand why he was different

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/614441151867551744/1-soulmate-au-with-logince

Tittle: Falling (out of love)

Summary: Why can’t we all be together the way we used to be?

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/614695544307269632/6-why-cant-we-all-be-together-the-way-we-used

Tittle: Break

Summary: You break hearts as easily as you break promises.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/614876166400196609/you-break-hearts-as-easily-as-you-break-promises

Tittle: Paranoia

Summary: Black tendrils were created, and this weren’t from Remus, because his were green and this weren’t octopus-like, but blob-like lines who were trapping him. He had never seen something like this, but then again, imagination was weird.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/615146188456542208/hey-if-you-are-doing-those-steven-universe

Tittle: Happiness

Summary: And he did get it, he was the romantic side, of course he understood that love works weirdly, this wasn’t anyone’s fault, but he couldn’t help but feel… sad? jealous? angry?

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/615324132180099072/p-16-for-the-angst-prompts-p

Tittle: Dukexiety drabble

Summary: Remus was humming between the small kissed he was peppering all over Virgil’s face.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/615515180477169664/p-steven-universe-prompts-song-b-p

Tittle: Sk8r Boi

Summary: Roman, to this day, regretted the way he turned down Dee. I don’t date freaks. He laughed at his face, and Dee, so kind and sympathetic smiled at him.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/615796686925758464/sk8er-boi

Tittle: Heaven

Summary: Virgil knew this was wrong, he knew that staring at him, that feeling this way about him was wrong, and yet, here he was.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613169652413120512/6-for-dodie-songs-prinxiety-please-at-first-i

Long Fics:

Tittle: Blame the kids

Summary: Logan was a dedicated teacher. Marion was a social worker with two kids. The kids were jerks.

CH1: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158571005320/blame-the-kids

Ch2: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158612697360/blame-the-kids

Ch3: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158645531405/blame-the-kids

Ch4: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158670824710/blame-the-kids

Ch5: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158830953930/blame-the-kids

Drabble1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159386247160/2-morality-and-anxiety-please

Drabble 2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159406210415/theyre-not-your-kids-back-the-fck-off-dads

Drabble 3: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159889795725/i-wont-let-anything-hurt-you-ever-again-morality

Tittle: Ink on my skin

Summary: Patton didn’t know why his soulmate never replied back, maybe he was shy, maybe he was a jerk.

Ch1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163162329325/ink-on-my-skin

Ch2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/163296196130/ink-on-my-skin-words-i-couldnt-say

Ch3: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/165238014935/ink-on-my-skin-across-the-world

Tittle: The Walls [COMPLETE]

Summary: The world was supposed to fill with colors once you met the special person. Once your soulmate came and you first saw each other, the colors would have appeared in your world, because you finally find them. In an ideal world that would happen. In that same ideal world, maybe Logan Sanders haven’t gone blind.

Ch1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169527984870/the-walls

Ch2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/169791601560/the-walls-ii

Tittle: Counting (on you)

Summary: You owe me 5,000,000 kisses and apparently you take that seriously. Soulmate AU. Reincarnation AU. Also knowns as the fic where Logan and Roman reincarnated to meet each other.

Ch1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/170773255340/counting-on-you

Ch2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/181540924990/counting-on-you-2

Tittle: Home [COMPLETE]

Summary: “Let’s create a home together.” Virgil never understood the implications behind that.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/171636761895/home

Drabble1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611906369199685632/can-u-write-something-related-to-ur-fic-home-the

Tittle: Only the Ocean

Summary: Pirate AU. “It was almost as if the ocean would talked to me, you know" Remus did know, of course he did.“Yes, I understand."Logan have always feel a deep connection with the sea, for some reason.

Prelude: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613272952165761024/only-the-ocean-prelude-hey-there-lonely-girl

Ch1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613950425861963776/only-the-ocean-ch-1

Ch2:https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/615396862237753344/only-the-ocean-ch-2

AUs:

Ghost AU: http://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159554117120/ghost-au-or-hautedsanders

Drabble 1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159594014910/omg-could-you-please-write-the-anxiety-calling

Drabble 2: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159611548890/how-did-they-bond-like-roman-and-logan

Drabble 3: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159650462680/just-wanted-to-say-i-really-love-your-ghost-au

Drabble 4: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159654108230/roman-and-alex-bonding-plsss-ghost-au

Drabble 5: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159654552130/how-did-thomas-meet-the-ghosts

Drabble 6: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159678297110/maruo-reacting-to-anxs-injuries-and-everyone

Drabble 7: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/159979891240/im-sorry-but-i-need-more-ghost-aus-in-my-life-i

Drag Queen AU: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184242978535/drag-queen-sides

Drabble 1: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184312618735/thrilled

Youtuber AU: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184253745495/youtuber-au

Drabble: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184332996175/angst-better-yet-give-me-the-forbidden-patton

Avatar AU: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/166162214500/that-avatar-au-no-one-asked-for

Total Drama:

Title: Second Chances

Summary: Alejandro didn’t believe in second chances.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158355217870/alenoah-77-or-58-or-maybe-both-thanks

Tittle: Friendship

Summary: It was weird, what they formed.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158357717570/could-you-do-a-team-escope-with-94-thanks

Tittle: Animal Instincts

Summary: His mother used to said that if an animal didn’t like a certain person, then that said person was cruel on the inside. Somehow, Noah grew into that phrase, and most of the time that was correct.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/147736924505/36-alenoah-thanks

Tittle: Scars

Summary: Four facts of two different people.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/147737685060/for-the-free-drabble-nowen-6

Yugioh GX:

Tittle: Bittersweet

Summary: Don’t forget what we had.

URL: https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/158362367885/so-how-about-a-rivalshiping-gx-89

My Prompt Lists:

https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/125690533615/leave-me-a-number-emoji-and-pairing-free

https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/613899604018249728/another-promptlist-the-musical-edition

https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611447398678577152/dodies-songs-prompt-list

https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/611360983579066368/prompts-songs-in-spanis

https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/184374183115/lady-gagas-songs-prompt-list

https://yuna-dan.tumblr.com/post/614710295386079232/steven-universe-prompts

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jeonchan26 · 4 years

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Love Me Not (Part 3)

Theme; Angst...Very Angst.

Warnings; Heartbreak, Saddness. Super Low Self-Esteem. Abuse & Toxic Relationship. Mention of sex.

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“I’m sorry he is your what?” Jimin asked you looking confused.

How were you going to explain to him that you were dating a guy that not only embarrassed you in the public eye but also had the audacity to put his hands on you. But you were trying to move on from Jimin, why was he the only Happy? Why couldn’t you be happy?

Looking down at your hands you answered him, “Yea we started dating a few days ago. He is really nice once you get to know him.” Lies that was all that was coming out of you mouth but you wanted to show him that you were doing better.

“(Y/N) you cannot be serious!? This is the guy that put his hands on you not that long ago. & was screaming on you for bumping into him. I don’t like him.” Jimin exclaimed getting up from his seat walking back and forth, pushing his hair back. He was trying to process the new information that was giving to him. He saw the way he treated you today. Theres no way you would date some like him. Why were you dating him!?

“It doesn’t matter if you like him or not Jimin. We are not together anymore” even though you said it in a small whisper it still made Jimin stop his movement and turn to you slowly giving you a shocked face.

“I still care about you!? How can you that someone like him when we just broke up a few months ago!!” Jimin was angry at you for dating someone else but mostly himself because he broke you beyond repair. He could see it on you face, your body. Everything about you changed in a matter of months and he was scared that he might lose you.

“I didn’t love you anymore. Why would I stay with you if I didn’t love you anymore? Everything was changing between us and by the looks of it now. You’ll do anything to get my attention. I didn’t know you were so stupid to date a low life like him. But I guess you’re that much of a desperate whor-” he was cut of by you hand striking his cheek. He was shocked he never thought you would hit him.

This made you angry, how dare he judge you. “You don’t get to call me a whore. Because YOU LEFT ME! YOU LEFT ME FOR YURI & 3 DAYS LATER AFTER YOU LEFT ME YOU WERE DATING HER ALREADY SHOWING HER OFF TO THE WORLD. You didn’t even bother doing that with me. But I understand you were ashame of me. Fuck I mean look at me I’m nothing compared to her!” You were pulling you hair. It was so much to take the pain everything was driving you crazy. Couldn’t he see how much you were hurting because of him. He decided to end you relationship and move on days after. And now that you are trying you turned out to be the bad guy.

This wasn’t fair.

“(Y/n) I’m sor-”

“Get out. I never wanna see you again” you cut him off looking so defeated. Jimin was scared to leave the look on you face said everything. He saw you were tired, hurt, sad, but mostly angry. He didn’t know if it was towards him or yourself. He wanted to hold you and apologize, he didn’t know what came over him and he just snapped not only were you dating someone else but this was mentally and physically abusing you and you were just letting him.

This wasn’t the girl he fell in love with. The girl he fell in love with was strong, independent, loving, caring, kind and so many other things. But this girl was different she looked broken and he was the reason why.

“I told you to get out. I never wanna see you again.” With one last shove you opened the door for him, jimin stepping out but not before looking at you with a sad look.

“What have I done? Why would I hurt the girl that I love the most?” Jimin thought as you slammed the door on his face. He heard you slide down the door and cry. Jimin put his hand on forehead on the door silent tears running down his face. He still loved you, so deeply. He needed you back in his life just didn’t know how.

Weeks later....

You were back in school, you noticed that Jake was becoming more demanding, making you do everything for him. He didn’t treat you like a girlfriend, he treated you more like a slave than anything. And god forbid you got anything wrong or said the wrong thing. The bruises from last week were barely getting better. You were label as the quiet girl, had no friends but was still dating the hottest and richest guy in school. The students couldn’t find an explanation but they didn’t bother either.

Every day you would see Jimin drop or pick up Yuri at the same spot. You were so numb from the pain, you didn’t know if it hurt because of Jimin or because of Jake.

You completely changed and Jimin took noticed. Especially after Jungkook and Yoongi has informed him about what they saw last time they saw you with Jake.

“Hey Jimin have you talked to (y/n) at all lately?” He heard Jungkook asked him as him and Yoongi walked into the living were him and the rest of the members were watching tv.

“The last time we talked we ended in bad terms. It’s been weeks since we’ve talked.” Jimin said grabbing the attention of the other members.

“We saw here at the store with some dude and she didn’t look too good. Did she start dating someone” Yoongi stated. Jimin felt his heart stopped. He knew exactly what they were talking about.

“Oh yea that’s her umm new boyfriend?” Jimin felt the venom in his mouth as soon as the word boyfriend left. He hated to think that you had someone else, someone that didn’t fucking deserved you. It made him angry, his hand clenching into fist.

“Wait, she has a boyfriend. How come you never told you” Taehyung asked him.

“I didn’t think you guys would care plus it’s the same dumbass that screamed and touched her at the park” Jimin stared shrugging his shoulders.

“Wait hold the fuck up. You mean to tell me that she is dating the fucker that treated her like shit in public!? And you fucking knew and didn’t tell us about it! What the fuck is wrong with you?” Namjoon stood up from his sit looking angry. Namjoon had always had a soft spot for you. You were like a little sister to him. He hated himself for pushing you to the side when you and Jimin broke up but he figured you needed space.

“Hyung he doesn’t look like a good guy. He was yelling at her and pushing her for grabbing the wrong thing. We stepped in but the guy pulled her away before we could ask her anything. She had bruises on her body. She looked like she had a black eye but he took her away too fast to confirm” Jungkook said in a sad voice.

“What happened the last time you saw her?” Him asked him. The boys were shocked to hear what Jungkook had said.

“Well it didn’t go so well. I confronted her about it because she attends the same University as Yuri. And she was with that guy, he was being stupid and screaming at her. He force her to agreed to go to her house even after she has declined the offer. I got to her house hours later and when she opened the door she was wearing my tshirt but she has bruise in her body umm sexual bruises” Jimin felt his jaw tighten after he said those words out loud.

The members were quiet waiting for Jimin to finish the story but he could tell they were getting angry, “anyways so we started talking and she told me she was dating him and I flipped I told her that how could she move on to someone as low as him in the matter of weeks. Fuck I even accused her of being a desperate whore begging for my attention. She slapped me and told me I had not right to judge her since I had moved on after 3 days after I left her. I just don’t know what happened. I flipped and she kicked me out but she looked so broken. It’s all my fault” Jimin was looking down at his hands, to scared to look at the members.

He knew the members cared deeply about you and the fact that he said that to you, he definitely deserved the slapped. When he looked up he noticed the flares from his members he knew they were pissed at him for his actions.

“You mean to tell me that you fucking knew that bastard was touching her without her consent and you decided to call her a desperate whore.” Hoseok asked him with a disbelieved look on his face. He was angry, Jimin couldn’t have been more stupid.

“You left her Jimin for a someone new. You had to fucking right to judge her because if anybody was meant to be judge it would be you!” Hoseok finished looking like he was ready to punch something or him.

“Fuck I know okay? I was angry it took me that to realized that I still love her. But I just don’t know what to do. I’ve only been with Yuri to keep an eye on her but every day she looks worse and worse and I can’t take it anymore. I know I should of told you guys sooner but I just didn’t know how to tell you guys. I feel like shit because just starting at the dumbass makes me angry. I just FUCK I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. HOW TO GET HER BACK!” Jimin was at the average of pulling out his hair.

“Look you made a mistake. We are humans after all. You should’ve told us as soon as you noticed. Not let it go by months and waited til now. The first thing we gotta do is get her away from that guy. If you don’t love Yuri you need to break up with her. She doesn’t deserve for you to be playing with her. Once (y/n) is better and ready maybe you can try and see if you can get her back. But right now what matters is her. Not you. Her. So if you really want her back you need to understand it’s going to take some time and you have to be patience. She is broken not only by the guy but by you too. We will help because you are our brother but don’t ever let something like this happened again.” Yoongi told him while she took a seat next to him patting on his shoulder.

Jimin knew his brothers wouldn’t leave him behind. He was going to get you back no matter what happens. He loves you, you are it for him and he knows this is a fight he is willing to fight for.

Part 4 Finally Coming Soon🦋

Sorry if this wasn’t good and the grammar.

#bts series #jung hoseok #kim seokjin #bts jimin #park jimin #jeon jungkook #jimin scenarios #park jimin angst #min yoongi #kim namjoon #kim taehyung #jimin angst #bts angst #bts scenarios

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baekhyuq · 5 years

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“Mister Off limits.” | Baekhyun (m)

Part 1

Genre: Smut

Word: count: 3k

Mini Playlist: Baby Dont Play - Wonder girls

Summary: Your brothers friends were off limits, your dads coworkers were off limits. But if one your dad’s coworkers are too handsome to resist, you might have to tip toe around his rules.

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You yawn crossing your legs under you desk, the day had started boring and ended the same way. The bell to start 7th period rang and you tried paying attention through out the class period.

Your friend Jongin tapped you on the shoulder, making you turn around.

“Yes?” You whispered giving me a smile.

“When does this class end?”

“I think at 3:20.” You guess.

“Alright, do you want to hang out later? It’s the first day of winter break.” He sends your a smile.

“Yes! As long as my dad doesn’t text me to bring him dinner.” You groan, your dad would usually skip lunch and ask you to bring him food since he’s so busy. You would always come without fail.

Your father worked at a huge magazine company, as the CEO. After seeing how busy your father is all the time at the office you didn’t want to work there. Your father promised you a spot as an assistant for the winter break. It gave you something to do and a way to earn money. You regretted saying you would, knowing he won’t be easy on you. You couldn’t let your daddy down, not after what he’s done for you.

As if on que, your phone buzzes indicating a text. It’s from your dad of course.

“Hey sweetie can you stop by somewhere and grab me dinner, sorry, love you.”

You read it in his voice and can’t help but to feel bad your poor father being so busy he doesn’t eat. Of course you will bring him food.

You text him back quickly. “Yes dad, love you too.”

The bell sounds for 7th period to end and you stand and sling your back over your shoulder.

“Hey, Jongin I have to deliver my dad food. Sorry we can hang out another day I promise!”

Jongin smiles at you and ruffles your hair. “It’s fine, go deliver your food pizza boy!” He teases and runs from your swatting hands.

You stop by a local restaurant that sold soup. The weather was cold so your father should be eating something warm. You order two bowls of broccoli cheddar soup with a side of toasts. Minutes later your order was made, steaming emitting from the bag. You picked up the paper bag, thanking the employee.

The drive to the office was short, it being about 5 minutes from the soup restaurant. You tried to park in underground parking by your fathers silver car but you noticed a black 2018 RS7 Audi parked in your usual space. This fucking tool! The space is reserved for you, always! Well it’s technically for the COO aka Vice President but since the company doesn’t currently have one it’s always empty. But who the hell would dare to take your spot? Unless that is the company’s Vice President? You huff and put your car in park by the Audi, you write an angry note and stick it on the windshield wipers for when they come back. They’ll get a piece of your mind today.

Heading toward the automatic doors with food in one hand and your pass and phone in the other. You get to the guard and you show him your pass, he nods and allows you through. You press the elevator button and enter it, it’s just you and some man in a black coat. You press the top floor and the doors close.

“Ah its so cold outside.” The man says, his voice is deep.

You nod offering a tight smile, not looking at the man.

“We’re going to the same place?” You ask noticing he hadn’t hit a button.

He nods and you finally look at him, to say he’s handsome is an understatement. His hair is light as the clouds in the sky and his eyes are as dark as the night. His contrasting features cause you to stare longer than you meant to. The man clears his throat.

“You must work here. I’m new.” He says smiling, he glances down at your pass and you forget you’re delivering food.

“Oh no! I’m just here to drop of food for my father.” You giggle.

The elevator door dings and you look at him allowing him to go first. He shakes his head and gestures for you to exit. You kindly nod and leave the elevator walking toward your fathers office. You notice the mans walking the same way. You quirk an eyebrow, becoming suspicious of the man. Is he here to speak with the president?

You stop at the doors to the office and you hear the man stop as well. You turn around to find the man with his hands behind his back.

“So you’re the presidents daughter?” He asks before you turn the knob.

You nod with an eyebrow raised, if he’s new it’s normal for him to be meeting with the president but usually the president calls for the newbies himself.

“I’ll wait out here then.” He says.

“Y/n, my sweetheart. What did you bring today?” Your father smiles at you lovingly as you enter his office and sit the paper bag on his desk.

“It’s broccoli cheddar soup, from that restaurant across from the book store.” You’ve fallen in love with their cooking. “The weathers getting colder so you should eat warmer now.” You take out the bowls with seals on them. You notice they’ve given you three.

“You’re always looking after me, Y/n. This is going to be delicious.”

“Daddy, they accidentally gave me three?” You look at him asking if he wants two bowls and he declines.

“You should give it to Baekhyun outside he’s been working hard all day, I don’t think he’s had lunch.” Your father says eating the soup already. “He’s our new Vice President you know.”

Your body freezes in its place. The new vice president? You mean the new vice president that drives a 2018 RS7 Audi and currently has a very angry sticky note on it? You mentally kick yourself in the ass. This was going to be great to hear about later.

You turn to the door and stiffly walk over and open it. Baekhyun’s standing there with his arms crossed, bright yellow sticky note in between his fingers. He has a smirk on his face and it’s scaring you slightly.

“Oh ahaha. You got my note...” You nervously laugh. “Listen I’m so sorry I would have n-never wrote that if-if—“

“If I wasn’t the vice president?” He laughs at your stuttering speech. “I like how you called me a ‘poopy head that can’t park where they’re supposed to.’ That really took the cake as the worst diss.”

“Ugh, don’t rub it in.” You groan, he laughs at your embarrassment and you speak again. “I have a third bowl of soup, my dad said you didn’t eat so..”

He looks at you funnily. “I’d love some soup.”

Your father looks delighted to see you eating alongside his new coworker Baekhyun. You’re annoyed with his teasing manner and the fact that he keeps joking about the sticky note. You want to hit him on his head but you refrain.

“Actually Y/n and I met earlier.” Baekhyun says finishing his soup. You’re hoping he doesn’t bring up the note. “Even though it was one sided, she gave me this lovely note on my car. Even though I was in said car at the time.” He chuckles darkly.

You plead with your eyes for him to drop the matter, you father would scold you if he knew what you did.

“Oh? What does the note say?” Your father stops eating and puts his attention on Baekhyun.

“Why don’t you read it yourself, President.” Baekhyun passes the note to your father who reads it quickly before looking at you sternly.

“Y/n L/n!” He says your full name, “Why would you say these things to Mr. Byun! He’s our vice president you know!”

You groan in your chair at your father beginning his lecture about you being respectful to your elders. Which you completely understand, but the lecture is a bit unnecessary.

“Dad, I know..” You say meekly.

“As punishment your winter break job will be to be Mr. Byun’s personal assistant.” Ypu open your mouth to say something but he cuts you off.

“No if ands or buts.” Your fathers words pause you from objecting.

“Yes dad...”

Baekhyun’s shit eating grin was appalling to you right now.

“I’m going home now, Dad. Finish your food don’t let it get cold.” You hug your father. You turn to Baekhyun who playfully opens his arm expecting a hug.

“No hug and goodbye father to me?”

You roll your eyes and mouth “Fuck you.” to him. “Goodbye, vice president.”

The next day isn’t what you were looking forward to. The first day of your job as Baekhyun’s stupid assistant. All because of some dumb parking spot.

The minute you begin getting ready you realize you have no idea what to wear to work. You look up examples online, most of them involve the color black and skirts or dresses. You opt for a long sleeve wrap dress that hugs your body and stops at your knees. Obviously you would be wearing your huge winter coat because it’s literally freezing. You sling your purse on your shoulder and grab the car keys from your bedside table.

You make it to work on time, parking in a different garage from your normal spot since it’s...occupied. You take the elevator up to the top floor and you let it sink in that you’re basically this mans slave till winter break is over. You close your eyes and rub your temples, lets not get a headache so early in the morning. The elevator stops at a lower level floor and someone enters.

“Morning Miss L/n.” The voice belongs to who you think it does.

Byun Baekhyun. Vice president. Mister kiss my ass.

“Good morning, vice president.” You use formal titles no matter how mad you are with him.

The elevator door closes and it’s silent. You can smell his cologne and the scent of his aftershave almost. It’s intoxicating to you, you would never admit to him how good he smells.

“I smell good?” He asks.

You choke on air. “What?”

“You keep taking deep breathes you either have asthma or I smell good to you.”

“No—“ You shut your mouth remembering you’re his assistant. “I can smell your cologne, it smells nice.” Your cheeks redden at complimenting him.

He quietly hums, turning back to the elevator doors.

You both get off at the top floor, you greet your father before returning to Baekhyun, who you can’t seem to find at the moment.

You look left and right, in and out of rooms. You look like a lost child wondering around the office.

“Are you looking for somebody?” The voice scares you shitless. You turn to find Baekhyun, a grin on his lips his eyes kind.

“Yeah, you.” You roll your eyes and he walks to what seems to be his office. You follow behind closely. You both enter and you close the door behind you.

“What do you need me to do?” You ask, you’ve never been an assistant before. You’re not sure if you just stand by his desk all day till he needs something or do you make yourself busy.

“Ah, I want some coffee.” He takes off his coat, revealing his dark turtleneck underneath. He sits in his swivel chair, leaning back.

“Okay. I’ll be back.” You rush off to the small coffee shop downstairs, ordering a simple coffee. He didn’t say what kind so you guessed what he might like. You also ordered a pumpkin scone and a chocolate milk for yourself.

“Here’s your coffee.” you sit down the steaming cup on his desk, making a make-shift coaster. “I didn’t know what coffee you like so I just guessed.”

“First mistake, you didn’t ask to confirm.” He says, but nonetheless takes a sip. He makes a face at the taste, wiping his mouth. “This is really sweet, how much sugar is in this?”

“I’m not sure...you looked like a guy to like sweet coffee.”

“Get me another coffee.” He waves his hand at you shooing you off.

How dare he! Just because he’s vice president he can treat you like a bug. It’s not your fault for not knowing his preference. Now that you think about it you still didn’t ask, but you’re too scared to go back in and make his mood worse. Maybe he likes his coffee black?

You place a black coffee down on his desk, biting your lip in anticipation as he takes a sip.

“Are you trying to kill me?” He glares at you, his eyes stern.

You frown, “I thought that you would like black coffee if you didn’t like anything sweet.”

“Second mistake, you thought.” He rolls his eyes. “Go do it again.” He waves his hand.

You huff, crossing your arms. “What kind.” You’re not leaving this room without an order.

Baekhyun’s lips curl up in a smirk. “You understand now. Americano, make it quick.”

You return with his stupid cup of straight up tar and you slam it down on his desk. “Drink up buttercup.” You thought, he wouldn’t know you spit in it right? You laugh as he takes a sip and hums contently.

You finish your milk and are munching on your scone as Baekhyun goes through his emails.

“What are you eating?” He stretches his arms over the desk to grab it from your hands. You protest with a ‘hey!’

He smells it and looks at you and down at the scone. He takes a bite and smiles.

“That’s really good. Why didn’t you get me one?” He’s taking giant bites and you’re sitting in disbelief that he literally took your food.

“Well for one you didn’t ask and two you don’t seem to like a lot of things.” You said glaring at him as he wolfs down the rest of the scone.

“I want one tomorrow.” He orders, you nod rolling your eyes. “Your attitude is really bad did you know that?” He comments.

“Really? I didn’t know. Most people call me an angel.” You cross your arms in front of you, he’s irking you with every passing minute.

“They’re wrong, you’re more of a brat than an angel.” He laughs licking his fingers, you catch his eyes and your face reddens. His stupid handsome face looking sexy like that! He’s the sinner.

The day carried on with Baekhyun giving you small tasks to complete, they were very boring things. Like copying papers, stacking papers, organizing papers. Papers, papers, papers. You couldn’t get enough of the word. It was time for lunch and now that you’re at the office you can remind your father to eat on time. You stand up from your seat, Baekhyun’s eyes are on you.

“Make sure to eat lunch, i’m going to see the president for a second.” You mumble embarrassed that you’re reminding him to eat as well, like some wife.

“Why are you going to the president?” He’s playing with a pen on his desk.

“To remind him to eat lunch.” You respond with your hand on the doorknob.

You hear the smile in his voice as he says “Alright, you’re dismissed.”

You knock on your fathers office door, and hear a quiet ‘come in.’ You enter with a smile, seeing your father smile back you close the door behind you.

“Hello sweetie, do you need something?” He asks and you shake your head.

“I’m here to remind you to eat your lunch. I made something last night for you so you wouldn’t miss it.” You lecture him with a finger pointed, it’s all playful fun.

You set his lunch on his desk and he thanks you saying he’ll eat it on his lunch break.

“So hows being Mr. Byun’s assistant going? I’m assuming no complaints?” He asks folding his hands.

You blow out a huff of air, “I have a few.” You mumble.

“What was that?”

“Nothing father..” Your cheeks redden.

“I saw how you looked at him the other day. There’s no relationships in the office Y/n.” Your father says sternly.

Your eyes widen to the size of golf balls, you can’t believe your own fathers words.

“Daddy it’s not like that! I-I wouldn’t so that with him.” Your face is getting more red by the second.

“Am I making myself clear?” He says seriously.

“Yes father.” You leave the room and try to calm down, but your face is too red to disguise your feelings.

“Woah fire cracker, what’s going on?” Baekhyun passes you in the hallway. You want to yell at him scream at the top of your lungs that it’s because of him that your fathers lecturing you about hooking up with your superior.

“You’re the problem Byun!” You start, “My father was fucking giving me a lecture about not fucking my superior because he thinks I like you!” You yell at him, you’re lucky you’re in a part of the building where it’s empty. And no ones around to hear your embarrassing situation.

“You like me?” He’s taken back, a smile on his face.

“N-no you idiot.” Your stuttering doesn’t convince him.

“No?” Baekhyun grabs you and drags you into an empty room, he closes the door and slams you onto it.

“Listen here little girl. I won’t let you ruin my chance at this job, being the first vice president here is big news.” His tone is sharp, his grip on your arm is hard. “But when you tease me like this, giving up this job sounds tempting.” He leans in to whisper.

“So don’t tempt me, vixen.”

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dreamer95 · 4 years

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Love Me Not (Part 3)

Theme; Angst…Very Angst.

Warnings; Heartbreak, Sadness. Super Low Self-Esteem. Abuse & Toxic Relationship. Mention of sex.

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“I’m sorry he is your what?” Jimin asked you looking confused.

Looking down at your hands you answered him, “Yea we started dating a few days ago. He is really nice once you get to know him.” Lies that was all that was coming out of your mouth but you wanted to show him that you were doing better.

“(Y/N) you cannot be serious!? This is the guy that put his hands on you not that long ago. & was screaming on you for bumping into him. I don’t like him.” Jimin exclaimed getting up from his seat walking back and forth, pushing his hair back. He was trying to process the new information that was giving to him. He saw the way he treated you today. There’s no way you would date some like him. Why were you dating him!?

“I still care about you!? How can you that someone like him when we just broke up a few months ago!!” Jimin was angry at you for dating someone else but mostly himself because he broke you beyond repair. He could see it on your face, your body. Everything about you changed in a matter of months and he was scared that he might lose you.

“I didn’t love you anymore. Why would I stay with you if I didn’t love you anymore? Everything was changing between us and by the looks of it now. You will do anything to get my attention. I didn’t know you were so stupid to date a low life like him. But I guess you’re that much of a desperate whor-” he was cut off by you hand striking his cheek. He was shocked he never thought you would hit him.

This made you angry, how dare he judge you.

“You don’t get to call me a whore. Because YOU LEFT ME! YOU LEFT ME FOR YURI & 3 DAYS LATER AFTER YOU LEFT ME YOU WERE DATING HER ALREADY SHOWING HER OFF TO THE WORLD. You didn’t even bother doing that with me. But I understand you were ashamed of me. Fuck I mean look at me I’m nothing compared to her!” You were pulling you hair. It was so much to take the pain everything was driving you crazy.

Couldn’t he see how much you were hurting because of him. He decided to end your relationship and move on days after. And now that you are trying you turned out to be the bad guy.

This wasn’t fair.

“(Y/n) I’m sor-”

“Get out. I never want to see you again” you cut him off looking so defeated. Jimin was scared to leave the look on you face said everything. He saw you were tired, hurt, sad, but mostly angry. He didn’t know if it was towards him or yourself. He wanted to hold you and apologize, he didn’t know what came over him and he just snapped not only were you dating someone else but this was mentally and physically abusing you and you were just letting him.

“I told you to get out. I never want to see you again.” With one last shove you opened the door for him, Jimin stepping out but not before looking at you with a sad look.

Weeks later….

You were label as the quiet girl, had no friends but was still dating the hottest and richest guy in school. The students couldn’t find an explanation, but they didn’t bother either.

Every day you would see Jimin drop or pick up Yuri at the same spot. You were so numb from the pain; you didn’t know if it hurt because of Jimin or because of Jake.

You completely changed and Jimin took noticed. Especially after Jungkook and Yoongi has informed him about what they saw last time they saw you with Jake.

“Hey Jimin have you talked to (y/n) at all lately?” He heard Jungkook asked him as him and Yoongi walked into the living were him and the rest of the members were watching tv.

“The last time we talked we ended in bad terms. It’s been weeks since we’ve talked.” Jimin said grabbing the attention of the other members.

“We saw here at the store with some dude and she didn’t look too good. Did she start dating someone” Yoongi stated. Jimin felt his heart stopped. He knew exactly what they were talking about.

“Oh, yea that’s her umm new boyfriend?” Jimin felt the venom in his mouth as soon as the word boyfriend left. He hated to think that you had someone else, someone that didn’t fucking deserved you. It made him angry, his hand clenching into fist.

“Wait, she has a boyfriend. How come you never told you” Taehyung asked him.

“I didn’t think you guys would care plus it’s the same dumbass that screamed and touched her at the park” Jimin stared shrugging his shoulders.

Namjoon had always had a soft spot for you. You were like a little sister to him. He hated himself for pushing you to the side when you and Jimin broke up, but he figured you needed space.

“Hyung he doesn’t look like a good guy. He was yelling at her and pushing her for grabbing the wrong thing. We stepped in but the guy pulled her away before we could ask her anything. She had bruises on her body. She looked like she had a black eye, but he took her away too fast to confirm” Jungkook said in a sad voice.

“What happened the last time you saw her?” Him asked him. The boys were shocked to hear what Jungkook had said.

“Well it didn’t go so well. I confronted her about it because she attends the same University as Yuri. And she was with that guy, he was being stupid and screaming at her. He forces her to agree to go to her house even after she has declined the offer. I got to her house hours later and when she opened the door, she was wearing my t-shirt but she has bruise in her body umm sexual bruises” Jimin felt his jaw tighten after he said those words out loud.

The members were quiet waiting for Jimin to finish the story but he could tell they were getting angry, “anyways so we started talking and she told me she was dating him and I flipped I told her that how could she move on to someone as low as him in the matter of weeks. Fuck I even accused her of being a desperate whore begging for my attention. She slapped me and told me I had not right to judge her since I had moved on after 3 days after I left her. I just don’t know what happened. I flipped and she kicked me out, but she looked so broken. It’s all my fault” Jimin was looking down at his hands, too scared to look at the members.

He knew the members cared deeply about you and the fact that he said that to you, he deserved the slapped. When he looked up, he noticed the flares from his members he knew they were pissed at him for his actions.

“You mean to tell me that you fucking knew that bastard was touching her without her consent, and you decided to call her a desperate whore.” Hoseok asked him with a disbelieved look on his face. He was angry, Jimin couldn’t have been more stupid.

“You left her Jimin for a someone new. You had to fucking right to judge her because if anybody were meant to be judge it would be you!” Hoseok finished looking like he was ready to punch something or him.

“Fuck I know okay? I was angry it took me that to realized that I still love her. But I just don’t know what to do. I’ve only been with Yuri to keep an eye on her but every day she looks worse and worse and I can’t take it anymore. I know I should off told you guys sooner but I just didn’t know how to tell you guys. I feel like shit because just starting at the dumbass makes me angry. I just FUCK I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. HOW TO GET HER BACK!” Jimin was at the average of pulling out his hair.

“Look you made a mistake. We are humans after all. You should’ve told us as soon as you noticed. Not let it go by months and waited till now. The first thing we got to do is get her away from that guy. If you don’t love Yuri, you need to break up with her. She doesn’t deserve for you to be playing with her. Once (y/n) is better and ready maybe you can try and see if you can get her back. But right now, what matters is her. Not you. Her. So, if you really want her back you need to understand it’s going to take some time and you have to be patience. She is broken not only by the guy but by you too. We will help because you are our brother but don’t ever let something like this happened again.” Yoongi told him while she took a seat next to him patting on his shoulder.

Jimin knew his brothers wouldn’t leave him behind. He was going to get you back no matter what happens. He loves you; you are it for him and he knows this is a fight he is willing to fight for.

Part 4 Finally Coming Soon🦋

Sorry if this wasn’t good and the grammar.

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keeperoftheboys · 5 years

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Broken Crystals Chapter 5 (Kylo/Ben X Female Reader)

Part One, Part Two Part Three, Part Four

Story Summary: (Set Before the Force Awakens). Supreme Leader Snoke has arranged s marriage between Kylo and the Princess of a rich outer planet. The Princess could be a dangerous threat to Kylo.

Story Warnings: Death, Violence, Blood, Swearing/Cursing, Steam (Eventual)

Chapter Summary: After the attack at the Gala, Kylo and the Princess find peace on a planet far away from Snoke and the resistance and the fighting.

Chapter Warnings: FLUFF, Cursing

I woke up on the floor of the light cruiser to the warm feeling of the sun on my skin. I curled up like a cat before stretching out my limbs and immediately knocking my hand into something. I shot my eyes open in pain.

I was alone on the light cruiser, the bay door was open and sunlight poured in. Ben had landed in a field at some point last night but most of it was a blur. I was angry and crying and screaming and then, I remember nothing. Slowly, I made my way to the door basking in the sunlight and breeze as it washed over my skin. The cruiser was surrounded by tall green grass and flowers. It was a paradise.

“I’ve missed you,” I said looking up at the sun, closing my eyes, reveling in the feeling.

“Good Morning” Ben’s voice pulled me from my thoughts. He was standing at the end of the ramp wearing trousers and a black undershirt. Although I had seen him in less before it was still startling to see him so undressed. He was beautiful in the sunlight, freckles that I had never seen before dotted his face his eyes were a warm brown color reflecting in the sun. His pale skin had begun to glow in the sun's warmth if he stayed out long enough he may even tan. He was handsome. Truly handsome. Suddenly he laughed. “You really think I’m handsome?”

I glared at him, “Stay out of my head Ben”.

“Let’s go on a walk”

“What about people seeing your face?”

“Were safe here. People dont know me here.”

“What about me?”

“No one will recognize us.”

“Get changed.” He pointed to a neatly folded pile of clothes. They were for a man, probably him. A long white tunic and belt, black trousers and a vest. I looked down at my gown still covered in blood and decided changing would be smart. I pulled off my dress and Ben looked away pretending to be interested in the field. I ditched the trousers and made the too long tunic into a dress securing it with the belt. I went barefoot, wanting to feel the grass under my feet.

Ben helped me down from the cruiser keeping my hand in his before I shyly pulled away.

“I’m sorry about your friend.” He said, after a few minutes of walking in silence.

“Me too, she was a good person.”

Hey. He paused, turing to face me, “I’m not sure who that man was or how he knew me. I think it was Snoke, controlling someone.”

“It doesn’t matter. It’s done. They’re both dead.” No emotion laced my voice.

“You were amazing. You’re powerful.”

“Sure, thanks to your training.”

He smiled at the compliment. “You know you have to choose me right?”

“You’re truly so naive that you think I have a choice?” I don’t look up at him as I spoke. Focusing on the flowers around our feet.

“I’m not an idiot. You have no choice. But if you don’t pick me. They’ll kill you.” He spoke with urgency. Grabbing my hands to get my attention.

“I’m dead either way. If I don’t pick you they’ll kill my family and then me and then take over my planet and destroy it” I yanked my hands from his grasp. “ If I pick you. That’s it, I’m a First Order sympathizer. My life is over. The princess becomes the dark Queen.”

“Of you choose me you can help protect your family and your planet. You’ll have a say in how the first order uses your planet. Your people.”

“Bull shit.”

“Please. Pick me, don’t get yourself killed.”

“My options are, death or be a slave to the first order.”

“You will not be my slave.”

I scoffed, “Not yours; Snoke’s and Hux’s.” He didn’t deny what I had said this time.

“When we get back to the base. They will call for a meeting. They’ll need to know what happened. Who you're loyal to. What side you choose.”

“Ben, please stop.”

“What.”

“Please don’t do this. Don’t use this fake ‘I care about you’ bullshit. You only care about yourself.” I waved my hands around as I talked, anger building up.

“That’s not true.”

“This has never been about you being interested in me. Hell, I’m supposed to kill Kylo Ren. Revenge for my sister.”

“Then why haven't you?”

“I don’t know.” I turned from him taking two steps away. “I can’t”

“You won’t”

“No, I can’t”

“Try.”

I turned to find his hand stretched out, his saber in it.

“Try.” he tilted the weapon at me a hint to take it from his hand. He had the intense look in his eyes again. The one he got when we would spar and I got hurt, or when Hux would address me in a way that Ben thought was inappropriate. He looked through me. His gaze a warm heat in my chest. I reached out, taking the blade from his hand. “Please.” He whispered. I locked eyes with him trying to dip into his brain but he blocked me. My hands shook and he used the force to ignite the blade in my hand stepping forward so it nearly touched his chest.

“Stop it, Ben.”

“I thought this is what you wanted. Me dead.”

“Not you, Kylo.”

“Then what do you want?” He leaned forward, I reacted quickly, taking a step back, so the blade didn't touch his skin.

“Peace.” I cried. “I just want peace.”

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry I killed your sister. I reacted poorly. I didn’t understand my power, or maybe I did. Truly. If I could bring her back, I would. Please, forgive me.”

I turned the saber off and tossed it aside. “Thank you.” He stepped forward. Wiping the tears from my face as he did in the cruiser.

“They will find us. They will need you to make a choice.”

“I know.”

“You would be by my side, safe.”

I tilted my head to look up at him. The look in his eyes was soft, his breathing slow. I reached out placing my hand on his chest. “They’ll want a dark queen.”

“Then give them one that fights for herself, right under their nose.”

I thought about it for a moment. He was right, it was the safest option, and the best way to fight for myself and Ben and my planet and family.

“I choose you, Ben Solo.”

He smiled leaning down and capturing me in a kiss, his hand wrapped around my waist pressing me into him and his other held my cheek. Finally, we had to part. He rested his forehead on mine.

“Thank you.” he whispered kissing me again.

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shadymultiverse · 5 years

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I remember laying on my bed in highschool, sophomore year. I was exhausted. I had reached the point where every person id managed to scrape out of the hell hole that is middle education had turned against me. Rumors, as they do, flooded my small community. Things like lesbianism and sluttery being the least of it and incest and beastiality the worst. Theu were also convinced I was either possessed or the spawn of hell, which remains to be a point of pride for me.

My delicait social circle had collapsed under the strain of one thing, teenage hormones. Not my own, but that of my brother and his girlfriend, the girl coming from my group of friends. Their relationship had been incredibly toxic, but as Im realizing, everyone who comes into contact with my brother experiences the same kind of manipulation and fear. Not that she was innocent, none of them were. Ive always known a bad person when i meet one, but I also have the fatal flaw that cruelty and misguided affection will always taste like home to me.

They were the school bullies, though I would have shot you if youd said it at the time. I suppose by extention I was probably a bully, though I dont remember being one. It just explains why there was not a soul to catch me when I fell. There nnever was, not once in my entire life has someone actually caught me when I needed it, so its not like K was suprised.

'Oh but you were' My mind so helpfully supplies. I always viewed myself as kind. Sweet. Loving, even.

Yet there I was laid across my bed, too tired to get up, too tired to cry. It was after an episode from my brother.

It stands to reason I should describe him, he was not a small man. No. He stood at 6'1 back then, a weight lifter through highschool, he was a physically imposing person. Being the malnurished, overweight, gaslighted and generally abused little girl that I was, I was never any match for him. I had one fought against him, and my sister- who was always thin as a fuse and leading to something dangerous- but it was always them that were rewarded and I who was punished. My mother, who I struggle to speak ill of even now, was an enabler. She refused to see the cruelty that my siblings put me through as anything other than normal, but any kind of defense that I levied for myself was something of an act against the pure, Goddly love that was my siblings.

Now Ive realized that it was just too much for her to bare, too much for her to understand. She is a very fragile woman for how strong she is. She knew that as long as I was taking their abuse, she wouldnt have to think about it. She didnt want me to get better.

That said at that point my sister was long gone. It was just me and my brother.

He was in the bedroom next to mine. A trailer, so any sound or move I made was hyperly monitored. I was too tired to do much more than breathe and even that was a fete. He must not have been satisfied by that because his door opened and then so did mine. He stared at me, I looked in his dirrection, at his eyes. He was still angry. This was the fifth or sixth day in a row that hed chased me ariund the house, screaming at me and cornering me. He hit me all the time, always in the same spot over and over so that it wouldnt look like Id been beaten, but I was being beaten.

I remember thinking how much I was struggling. In everything. My school work, my home life, my social life, everything.

He told me to make him something to eat. I told him no.

I almost always did. I hated the way that he spoke to me, hated that I was nothing more than a slave.

I didnt have the energy tk try to fight or get up or get out of the way but he jumped on top of me and wrapped his fingers around my throat.

I remember thinking 'I just wanna go. Let me go, please just let me go' I didnt realize it at the time but I was praying that he would kill me. I was so tired....

He would put his knees on top of your hands and sit in your chest, then squeeze your throat just hard enough to not actually bruise. Cut off the circulation but ot actually kill me. Its this strange in realm between pain and peace.

This time, however, he was squeezing so hard I thought my head might pop. His eyes told me he wanted me to die. Truly intended to finally end the charade that was my life. I wasnt scared. Just tired. Ready.

I was almost gone when something changed. I was there, floating up put of my body and his face felt slack, his eyes lost their psychotic glint and he let go. He got off of me and left the house. I can still feel the gasp that tore through my lungs. If yoive ever blown up a baloon and held it against your hand to feel the way it sticks to your skin then you know whay it feels like to breathe into empty lungs.

Its most painful part of being choked

Strangely enough, I started thinking about what I should do with my life. If he wouldnt do me the kindness of finishing the job, then I needed to plan how I was going to escape.

I was tired though, and the one thing i jad always wanted seemed absolutely impossible to attain. Brain Surgeon.

I could barely pull myself through a day in highschool, the idea of two decades of college was impossible to imagine. I decided I needed to do soemthing else. Something...easy. I had earned easy, hadnt I?

It was Tom Hiddleston that made me decided I should go into theater. Ironic, since it was earlier that same year that I had been in theater, had auditioned for a monolouge and a duet for our state competition, gotten it, only to have it ripped away because I wasnt good enough. Ive always had trouble commiting to things like afterschool practice. Though, maybe ita because out practices were just delaying the inevitable abuse Id be put through at home. I only ever wnated to sleep, to stay after shcool for three hours and practice was like eating broken glass before going home to drink rubbing alcohol.

But Theater was the way to go. I liked acting, I preferred make up and set design. That way, maybe Id get to meet Tom Hiddleston. Silly, looking back. What a way to decidee the fate of my life.

He seemed caring, you see. Like he wouldnt let anyone hurt me. Not even in a husbandry kind of way, just in the human way.

He would see whay was happening and say 'This isnt ok'. He didnt have to rescue me or anything. He would just understand.

By extention, the world would see me, delight in me, applaud me.

So I started focussing on this fantasy of becoming famous.

At every turn the rug was yanked out from under me. Every time i got a line or a song or something that I craved, it was taken away before it could ever be preformed.

Just like my home life, I kept being told that I did not matter. I didnt deserve to feel anything but disapointment and anguish.

Maybe thats why Ive run away from every job that Ive ever had.

#writing #child abuse #abandonment #choking #death is inevitable #death ideation #abuse #the deep dark abyss that is my soul

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scorpiointuitiveenergist · 7 years

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Experiences with the Hellenic Gods: APHRODITE

Friendly Reminder: They are gods, but they are very human also, so they make mistakes. They look and act like us because in that way, we can relate to them. All of this are my own experiences, so if you had something different, you are welcome to comment, still doesn’t invalidate my opinion, neither yours. Caring is sharing so if you find this useful, share this to someone that might need some enlightment in the subject.

So here we are, the real deal, my beautiful sea-born mom, my lady, my queen of love and aesthetics. Yes this is going to be a loooong post! Lets talk about my current tutelar deity, the one who is teaching me a lot, the Star that shines the most! (yes she wanted a lot of epithets before anouncing her name, lol) Aphrodite, goddess of love and beauty has arrived on stage! As I said in previous chapters, She is the one who took me in her guardianship, when I prayed for which one of the twelve gods wanted to be my patron, I suddenly went outside and saw in the west a huge pink cloud shaped like a heart. Before that I she took me as her student, I had once prayed in tears in front of Venus at that time, I was conflicted a bit with Christianity, but praying to her star, that time, was so inside me I had to cry, because since I am gay and everything I do is bad to their believes, I broke the mold, and cried after making it, because inside my soul, I knew she was going to understand me. She made me break the chain my mind had that what I was doing was wrong. I was a pretty rebel guy, but still that christian background kinda haunted me. So now I dont feel guilty anymore and I am able to perform better on spells and contacting other gods. I can’t talk you a lot about what she makes me to do because tutelar deities secrets are personal stuff, but still she told me I could give you some advices she have given to me. Aphrodite can be a very lovable, energetic and happy woman, but she can be very strict and if you dont respect her way she can be fierce. So after doing that prayer, the next day, I was walking when suddenly I felt her purifying, fresh and energetic energy, I wanted to dance and smile, it was a very nice sensation. But it was short timed. Another day, I was deppresed about a boy, and Aphrodite told me that I should try ivoke her energy into me. I was kinda skeptical about it, because I feared she take my body and made me do things at my expenses. I did my proper research and found out that actually you dont get possesed, but rather get spirited, you are you, but with different perceptions that outside people can see, feeling diferent too. So I did it, it lasted about an hour or so. I saw my eyes in the mirror and I saw the glow, Aphrodite’s glow in my eyes I started smiling and feeling much better. My brother even saw me and felt stranged, he told me I had puppy eyes and felt my energy pretty... entuthiast. I went to the bus and felt how Her powers, was fixing my hurted heart. It felt like the shattered pieces were getting healed and made me feel much better. After the bus stop, I had to walk to college for my test and an english teacher, a young handsome atheltic guy, gave me a ride to college, we are very friendly with each other, but that day, he never stopped staring at me, even I felt his face come too close to mine that time, nothing inappropiate happened but still it was fun! I always felt he had a small crush on me and that day it seemed a bit obvious. Still I went to the exam and everything. The teacher is a young handsome dude too, but he is pretty much an arrogant guy that could be nice sometimes, he had a bitchy attitude with me sometimes. That day he saw me and I smiled to him back. God, you would have loved to see his smile, he smiled like if I actually made him really happy! I did my test and everything, even finally met the guy who I was interested in (not in a romantic way, but he was new and spoke with argentinian accent, so I felt pretty drawn to him... I am not going to lie, he is hot, still I wanted to know him in a not romantic way!) Her energy can help you ease situations and people, even other gods! Ares for example got more fond to me after getting a bit of Aphrodite esence. (After that situation and banished her energy from me, I felt a bit of her inside me, I checked with my magical energist brother and he told me that was like a back up just in case my feelings got damaged and could help me right away) I told you these because Aphrodite likes to show off how can adventurous can be on her side, so she was like, “Tell them that story!”, so if you found it pretty offensive or weird I apologize.

So in my experience Aphrodite has been a great teacher, friend, and goddess! She likes to hang out a lot, laugh, joke and look pretty. But remember that she is a Goddess, and deserves respect. She can be strict and get angry, because love is a very serious matter to her. You know, the love is the strongest force, no surprise why she could protect Paris from Zeus thunderbolt using her girdle to protect him. More importantly, many women seems to despise her for being a slut, sex slave driven by men desire or weird shit like that. She actually hates when a man or woman talk about sexuality as if it is a piece of meat. For her making love is connecting to somebody else, enjoying you and your partner’s body, soul and mind. She can be quite liberal, yes, but she makes love because she desires to share a good experience and enjoy her body, rather than please or fullfill an arousal. She DECIDES who to give and make love too. But an most important aspect is that She likes to teach is about self love. Straight, Gay, Bi, Trans, Ace, NB, all and nothing, she loves them and teach them to love themselves. Thats why she is happy, and healed my heart, not because I wanted to attract someone, but because she knew I had to feel better, and in order to shine in your beauty, you have to smile. She is more of the beauty in happiness and Persephone beauty in sadness (I will explain myself in that chapter). She wants you to smile, enjoy yourselves, fertilize your feelings and make the fruit that others will perceive and find them attractive. She believes anyone has a star in their hearts and you can make it shine by loving yourself. So keep practicing self love, she likes to remind that the most important thing is to feel good and embrace yourself. She also loves people who fight for their happines, she can be lovely but a brave soldier too. Fight for love, not for anything Ares was his lover ;). Rember this is my experience with her, so I share how I perceive her. She likes pretty things roses, seashells, jewels, roses with honey, but rememeber, if you are going to offer her something, cheap or not, try to be in the best condition it can, wilted flowers are a huge no for her LOL.

Blessings to everyone and I’m sorry for the long post, I hope Aphrodite bless your life dear readers!

#greek deities #greek gods #theoi #hellenic polytheism #hellenic deities #hellenic pagan #aphrodite #*aphrodite

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Latin 14

Ok lets start with vocab

https://www.memrise.com/course/313058/cambridge-latin-course-book-2-9/2/

Lets do some adjectives

Notice that the adjectives change their endings to match the case of the noun they describe

servus stultus non laborabat

the stupid slave was not working

agricola servum ignavum punivit

the farmer punished the lazy slave

dominus servo fesso praemium dedit

the master gave the reward to the tired slave

lets refresh noun declensions, go write it out some.

Rufilla

Rufilla is sitting in the bedroom. Two hairdressers are standing near them and composed hair. Salvius enters. Rufilla, at once sees him, she sends the hairdressers out of the bedroom.

Rufilla: Salvius! You are a cruel man. I did not want to come to this house. In the ciry of london I wanted to stay. London is a beautiful city, where I have many friends. It is difficult for me to leave friends.

Salvius: Rufilla! How inconsistant you are! When we were living in london, every day you were coming to me. Every day you were saying to me ‘ I also want to have a house in the country, but you give to me nothing’ at last I gave to you a house,but even now you are not content.

Rufilla: But I want to have a house near the city. This house is long from the city

Salvius: You yourself chose her. I, though the price was great, gave gladly to her. Surely this house is elegant? Surely it is also magnificent

Rufilla: but winter is now approaching. it is not convenient for me to winter in a country house. My friends always winter in the city. In this location I am alone. My Friends are not able to visit.

Salvius: What do you say? You are alone? Ten slave girls you have, nine slaves. two hairdressers, and egyptian slave...

Rufilla: And a very cruel husband. You understand nothing! You care for nothing!

( she leaves crying)

Domitilla prepares the bedroom

‘Domitilla! Domitilla! Where are you?’ shouted Marcia. Marcia was an old woman.

‘I am in the garden, Maria. What do you want?’ responded Domitilla.

‘It is necessary for us to prepare the bedroom’, said Marcia, ‘ relatives of the mistress are invited to the house’

‘oh no!’ said Domitilla. ‘ I am tired, because I have been working for a long time’

‘You are a lazy girl’ said Marcia ‘the mistress herself sent me to you. It is necessary for you to sweep the bedroom. It is necessary for me to wash the pavement. run to the kitchen! find the broom!’

Domitilla was walking to the kitchen slowly. She was angry, because she did not want to sweep the bedroom.

‘I am a hairdresser’ she said ‘ it is not proper for hairdressers to sweep the bedroom’

sudennly Domitilla had an idea and hurried to the kitchen most quickly. As soon as she entered the kitchen, she handed over tears.

Volubilis astonished, ‘my dove’ he said ‘why are you crying?’

‘I cry because I am miserable’ the slave girl responded to the cook. ‘ Trhough the whole day I have been working. I am most tired! Now it is necessary for me to prepare a bedroom. I am not able to work any longer.

‘ my dove, dont cry’ said volubilis ‘ I can prepare the bedroom for you’

‘Volubilis! you are most kind!’ whispered the slave girl

The cook returned witht he slavegirl to the bedroom. He worked diligently and made the bedroom clean.The happy slave girl said ‘ my honey’ . ‘ my delight!’ and gave a kiss to the cook.

The cook blushing to the kitchen returned

Then Marcia entered the bedroom. The old woman was hardly able to proceed. Becuase she was carrying a heavy bucket. Domitilla, when she saw Marcia, shouted

‘ Look! I have worked diligently. I have made the bedroom clean. Now it is necessary for you to wash the pavement.’

Marcia, though she was astonished, said nothing to Domitila. She washed the floor alone. At last she finished the thing.

Domitilla at once rushed to Rufilla.

‘ Mistress’ she said ‘the bedroom we have prepared for you, and the flood we have made gleaming’

Rufilla entered the bedroom with Domitilla and looked around

‘ well you have worked, slave girls’ she said ‘ but, though the floor is gleaming, it is not proper for my relatives to sleep in this bedroom. for the bedroom is inelegent. It is necessary for us to decorate it’

‘The study is elegent’ said Domitilla ‘in the study ,where the master works, are many pretty things’

‘yes’ said Rufilla’in the study is a chest very elegent. In the study are a chair of bronze and a candelabrum made of gold. Come on! Domitilla, it is necessary for us to go to the study.

In the study

the next day Salvius and Philus are in the study. Rufilla enters.

Ruffilla: My dear salvius!

Salvius: I am busy! It is nexessary for me to dictate letters. Where is my chair?

( salvius searches for the chair in vain)

hey! where is that chair?

Rufilla: My dearest! I want to say something to you.

Salbius: You I am not able to now hear. I want to dictate lesters.

Look! Here philus is ready here. Stylus’ and wax tablets are here... hey! where is my chest? who took it?

Rufilla: Salvius! Listen!

( at last Salvius gives in to the wife and dismisses Philus)

Salbius: Oh no! Go away Philus! It is not convenience for me to dictate letters.

Rufilla: Good! Now I can say something to you. When I was in the city of London recently, I met a family member.

Salvius: So many relatives you have! They are not able to be counted.

Rufilla: But this family member is Quintus Caecilius Jucundus. When the mountain vesuvius destroyed Pompei, Quintus fled from the city. He is most corteous. Quite fashionable.

Salvius: By hercules! I dont trust pompeians. A few are honest, others are liars. When I was in the Campanian military, many pompeians I knew. Merchants of pompei were always decieving us soldiers

Rufilla: You are very stupid! My family member isnt a merchant. Quintus is a noble man. I invited him to our house.

Salvius: What did you say? You have invited a Pompeian? To our house?

Rufilla: It is proper for me to invite my family member to this house.

The slave girls have prepared a bedroom for my family member.The slave girls, because the bedroom was inelegant, your chair and chest into it they have set.

Salvius: You are insane, wife! Pompeians are more liars than Britains. surely you have not taken the chair and chest out of the study.

Rufilla: and the candlestick

Salvius: Heavens above! Oh my candlestick! Oh wretched me!

Quintus arrived

Quintus arrived at the house. Salvius rushed out of the house and greeted him.

‘My dear quintus’ he said ‘You are very welcome! We have prepared a very good bedroom for you’

Salvius lead quintus to the study, where rufilla was sitting.

Rufilla, after she greeted her relative, smiled sweetly.

‘ I have prepared a modest meal for you’ she said ‘ for you I have prepared oysters and pompeian sauce. After dinner I want to show you your room’

Salvius, after Quintus ate dinner, asked about the city of pompei.

‘when I was in the Campanian mlitary, often I was visiting the city of pompei. wasn’t that disaster terible?

Ruffila interupted,

‘ Why do you vex our Quintus? it is not proper. It is difficult for quintus to talk about so great a calamity. ‘

Ruffilla turned to quintus

‘perhaps Quintimy quintus you are tired. I prepared a bedroom for you. The bedroom is not ornate. In it are a modest chest and a small candlestick

Salvius angry, said nothing

Quintus, after he saw the bedroom, exclaimed,

‘how elegant is the bedroom! I have seen noting as elegant’

‘I agree’ said salvius ‘ your bedroom is more elegant than my study’

Tripods of gold

Quintus sits in the bedroom. Anti-loquax enters quick;y.

Anti-Loquax: Helo! It is necessary for my master to go to the palace . King Cogidubnus invates all the nobles to a sacrifice

Quintus: we visit the king today?

Anti-loquax: Yes. every year the king makes a sacrifice, because he wants to honour the emperor claudius

Quintus: why does he want to honour claudius?

Anti-Loqueax: It is proper for Cogidubnus to honor Cladius. for Cladius was the emperor who made Cogidubnus king.

Quintus: Now I understand the thing. It is necessary for me to carry a gift to the king. In my strong box are two tripodes made of silver. Those tripodes are very good gifts.

( anti-loquax left the bedroom and told Salvius of the silver tripods. Salvius at once hurried to the steward)

Salvius: it is necessary for me to visit Cogidubnus and I want to bear him a gift

Steward: It is not difficult for us to find a gift, master. Look! A vase of bronze. It is ancient. does it please you?

Salvius: It does not please you. I dont wont to take a bronze gift.

( The steward shows salvius a wine jar)

Steward: Is not the wine a very good gift, master?

Salvius: No! Cogidubnus has many wine-jars, and much wine. The king imports wine from italy every day.

( suddenly Salvius sees a small statue)

Hurray! this statue I can carry to the king. It is a gilded statue. Quintus wants to bear a gift of silver to the king. I however, can bring a gift of gold.

Steward: Master! you mustn’t

Salvius: Whay mustn’t I?

Steward: Cogidubnus gave you that statue

Salvius: By hercules! It is necessary for me to bring this urn to the palace.

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newtismybloodyinspiration · 7 years

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Migraine

Character: Newt

Song: Migraine by TWENTY ØNE PILØTS

Warnings: Depression and thoughts of suicide

Am I the only one I know

Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat

Shadows will scream that I’m alone

Life seemed harder now then it did before daily chores now seem impossible. Newt walked around with walls built around him afraid someone would notice the sadness hidden in his eyes. Everybody else always seemed so happy most of the time, somhow able to live a normal life not always thinking about the bad things. Oh the bad things thats a thing all in it’s own: bad things seemed to be all newts mind was made up of, it was a whole bunch of bad moment put together. Not that it was anybody elses fault but his own,he wasn’t smart enough, he didn’t have abs and he lived a poor life, a sad life, a life alone.

Whether it’s the weather or the ledges by my bed

Sometimes death seemes better then the migraine in my head

Let it be said what the headache represents

Its me defending in suspence it’s me suspending in a defentless test

Being tested by a ruthless examiner

Some days were better then others but the good days still weren’t good days they were just better then the bad ones. The bad ones were spend in bed looking up at the ceiling with a feeling of numbness not sure what to do but not wanting to do anything. The days after those were the worst getting out of bed was like trying to win an unbeatable war, except the war was against my mind. The mind is always going to win and there isn’t much you can do about it, atleast not over night. You can figure out ways to beat it but you will always be a slave to it. It’s a never ending unstoppable force that can kill you without even trying. Somedays were better then others but that didn't mean they were good days because Newt forgot what a good day felt like.

I am not as fine as I seem

Pardon me for yelling and telling you green gardens

Are not what’s growing in my psyche its a diffrent me

A difficult beast feasting on burnt down trees

Freeze frame please let me paint a mental picture portrait

Something you won’t forget it’s all about my forehead

And how it is a door that holds back content

As much as newt didn’t want people to see what happened behind closed doors he wanted them to see him and not walk past without a smile. He wanted them to see that he almost never left his apartment and that he was never with anybody but himself. His friends, newt had friends he had great friends or so he thought. He had tried to act normal when his friends were around. He would go out and party he would go on their crazy adventures and would smile a normal amount. It was never good enough though, they started to notice something was wrong.

“Newt are you okay” Minho asked?

Newt froze in place afraid to do anything but knew he had to do something. He turned around slowly and looked his friend in the eye.

“I know your not” Minho said answering his own question.

Newt looked at him as fear clouded his vision. “I’m totally fine, I don’t even know what your talking about” newt lied. Minho looked him over as if trying to get him to tell the truth but newt had been hiding this secret for too long and he wasn’t about to give it up now. Minho stood silenly as minutes passed not doing or saying anything.

“Why are you lying to me, I just want to help you?”

Newt knew he was lying and he knew he needed help but for some reason hearing somebody else say it made him angry. “I don’t need your help even if something was wrong, why won’t you just leave me alone?”

As soon as the words left his mouth Newt regreted it but he could’t take them back it would bring up questions he didn’t want to answer. Newt looked up at Minho expecting anger or surprise but he looked casual he looked the same as before. “If you do ever decide you want me for any reason you know how to find me.”

“I don’t need you and I won’t need you what part of that don’t you understand” Newt screamed without thinking! Minho nodded his head walking off and newt hadn't seem him since.

Behind my eyelids are islands of violence

My mind ship wrecked this is the only land my mind could find

I did not know it was such a violent island

Full of tidal waves suicidal crazed lions

They trying to eat me, blood running down their chin

And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win

I begin to assemble what weapons I can find

Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill you mind

Life was still managing to get harder, Newt looked back to just a week ago and laughed at how easy he had it then. He could no longer look in mirrors not wanting to see himself he didn't want o go out and witness couples finding love and friends becoming closer. He knew he was getting worse and he knew if he got any worse he wouldn’t be able to handle it. He already couldn’t handle it, he constanly thought how easy it would be to take those sleeping pills or to just slide that knife up his arm. Everytime he came close to doing it his mind would stop him, telling him how selfish he was for only thinking about himself and not thinking about how others might feel when they have to clean up his body.

This was a constant cycle if he didn’t have to work this is all he would do. He would poke at his skin for hours somehow thinking if he poked hard enough muscles would grow. Newt was getting worse by the second and he needed it all to stop so he tried counseling. He was still going but it had been three months and he only seemed to stay the same but he supposed it was better then getting worse. After that he tried to excersise and try new hobbies but all that did is make him tired faster which in the end made things worse. he was so close to the edge one more step and he was gone.

And I will say that we should take a day to break away

From all the pain our brain has made, the game is not played alone

And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it

And keep it frozen and know that life has a hopeful undertone

As much as things were looking down Newt was tired of it. He had tried everything and as much as his therapist didn’t want to admit it therapy wasn’t working. Newt didn’t know what to do so he sunk deeper and deeper into his depression. After so long of sinking he no longer felt like there was a way back up so he gave up trying. He no longer cared about himself.

Newt was packing up boxes as he had to move out next week and he had been to tired to pack anything until the last minute. He worked hard for hours trying to get atleast one room in his apartment done. He started on his bookshelf shoving hanfuls of books in boxes and works his way around him room. Newt pauses when he sees a picture on his nightstand. He walks over and takes a quick look at it. It’s a picture of Newt and Minho at the carnival from three years ago. A smile slips on his face as the memory washes over him.He stopped in his steps as he realized he was happy even if it was only for a second. Newt stopped everything he was doing and rushed to his car. Newt did’t even think about where he was going he just went without a second thought. As he pulled in and parked he rushed up a flight of stais and stood at the door. He was too afraid to knock but also to afraid to leave. He stood there for a few minute before knocking. He moved back and forth on his feet suddenly second guessing his desicions but before he had the chance to leave the door opened.

“Newt is that you” Minho asked a hint of happiness in his voice?

Newts eyes started to tear up but he tried to stay strong “I ju-just need help.”

Minho brought him in for a hug and let him in his house and slowly newt got better. It took time and patience but with those things and love he somehow made it through.

Remember if you are going through something there is always somebody to help you through it. Dont be afraid to ask for help it doesn’t make you weak. You are worth it and you are important!!

#Maze Runner #maze runner imagines #maze runner au #minho #minho imagine #newt #newt imagines #newt x reader #newt au

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reverthelp · 8 years

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Selam alaykum,I am very particular about islam especially in worship. But sometimes I can not help myself thinking that Allah is really good or merciful. What is the problem? I feel as if Allah loves to hurt the souls of His servants.Teach me

Wa Alaykum as-Salaam

Imagine your 5 years old sister is running fast towards a window and might fall from a very tall building. What would you do? Would you grab her and try to save her? Would you care if she is a little hurt when you try to save her? How would you feel if she did not understand why you did it and blamed you for grabbing her a little hard?

Sometimes we cannot analyze correctly why things are happening. We want things our way but we dont know if it is good for us or not. When we dont get what we want we get angry. BUT:

Allah says:

Holy Qur'an, al-Baqarah 216: It may well be that you dislike a thing but it is good for you, and it may well be that you like a thing but it is bad for you. God knows, and you do not know.

Look what Imam Shafi (rahimullah) says about the topic:

“ My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me, and that what misses me was never meant for me. ”

He also said:

“If you knew how Allah deals with your affairs for you, your heart would melt out of love for Him.”

We have to be sure that Allah would never be unjust or punish us:

Holy Qur'an, an-Nisa 147: What should Allah punish you if you are grateful (to Him) and believe (in Him)? Allah is Ever-Responsive to gratitude, All-Knowing.

Allah also says:

Holy Qur'an, an-Nisa 40. Assuredly, Allah wrongs (no one) not even so much as an atom’s weight; while if there is a good deed, He multiplies it (with respect to its outcomes and the reward it will bring), and grants (its doer) a tremendous reward purely from His Presence (beyond what it may have merited).

Prophet (salallahu alayhi wa sallam) teaches us that Allah is more merciful to us than our mothers:

Umar ibn al-Khattab (radiallahu anhu) said: “Some prisoners were brought to the Messenger of Allah (salallahu alayhi wa sallam), and there was a woman among the prisoners who was searching (for her child). When she found her child she embraced him and put him to her breast. The Messenger of Allah (saw) said to us, ‘Do you think that this woman would throw her child in the fire?’ We said, ‘No, by Allah, not if she is able not to.’ The Messenger of Allah (saw) said, ‘Allah is more merciful to His slaves than this woman is to her child.’ (Muslim)

Please try to convince yourself that Allah loves you the most. Sometimes you might feel like you are not getting what you want but remember it is for your own good.

Finally, always have a good opinion about your Rabb:

The Prophet (salallahu alayhi wa sallam) said, “Allah the Most High said, ‘I am as My servant thinks (expects) I am. I am with him when he mentions Me. If he mentions Me to himself, I mention him to Myself; and if he mentions Me in an assembly, I mention him in an assembly greater than it. If he draws near to Me a hand’s length, I draw near to him an arm’s length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.’ [Sahih Al-Bukhari]

And Allah knows best

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2018-20(MAR)-25th--Sunday (Early afternoon--rain forecast then no rain but heat then rain and uncertainty about anything as almost usual.

I had to go to the corner shop and get some milk for dear Sam & dear Max and myself, just so could have some plain cornflakes or something like that to eat. They alwaya need milk because of their growing bones in their massive dog body's. And of curse I need milk too even though nobody sycj as dear Fliss or Cath doesn''t seem to now ever care about me. And I do mean that. It's part of my being in utter hell.

My own brother doesn't care about me and wishe me dead dead dead forever exepcially so Can never tell anyone the truth. Especially any truth about him.

Fliss alwasy understood that about me and loved me for it, being a truthful person, as well as our love for each other. I still love you dearest Fliss and I will love you even after I am dead dead dead. Dear Fliss I want to be with you, I truly do. Please let it be so. I am being driven insane without you.

This is not just another loves-lost message dear reader, never ever assume that. We are couple who loves each other and has been so for over 10 years but have been ripped apart by dear Fliss's physical and mental ailments. which I never ever blamed her for desite what others may think, but her own parents tell nobody abut the ailments dear Fliss has because they are so utterly destroying and how they parents (especially dear FLiss's mother alwasy said to me via Fliss herself, 'She just wants back the daughter she once knew, but that daughter is never coming back to her again no matter how much she tries. I' myself for better or worse, most people say it's the worst.......'

Then saying such to me, dear Fliss would break down in utter sorow for many hours and sob and cry and wail. And I comforted her and of course I loved her. And of course I believed her, even before and afterwards for how she was so very very harshly treated by her own semi-estranged interstate mother and her own family and relations. This is yet another reason dear Fliss was always with me ad relied upon me so much. Dear Fliss considered me the ONLY person she could EVER tell the truth about ANYTHING.

And this lonely sad person that I am trusting and honest, sincere, truthful and gentle, was as Fliss herself in her own word would constantly say to me, "I tell people you're the wall at my back and the wall in my face. You (she would use my name) support me in everthing I do but stop me from doing anything stupid that I do. Espceially anything that's liable to get me into trouble. I ma not liek it at the time and I kick up a stink and a fuss, but you stick by me....and THAT'S why I'm getting better. You're there with me at my worst times. All the stuff NOBODY KNOWS ABOUT and nobody cares anyway. I don;t care what they think. I love you. Please don't ever leave me or give up on me!"

And I'd alwasy promise I wouldn't, and I NEVER EVER HAVE......

And for all of that I have been made out by unkowing uncaring others to be all just utter lies and deceit, a fool, an exploiter, a person who abuses her (NEVER!!), a person who cause(s) dear Fliss to have mental break downs (NEVER!!!), a person who asaults dear Fliss (NEVER EVER EVER!!!!!).

And on and on and on and and on.......

It was a hell of its own kind. Only dear Fliss and I ever knew of her despair and everything. She REFUSED TO TELL ANYONE ANYTHING real or truthful, even her dearest friend(s) Cath of Queensland who now was across on the other side of Australia from us, a fact which despaired dear Fliss tremendously. And which was also part of her first breakdown and all others.

I thought yesterday that I had gotten a personal email (or like) from dear Fliss yet again, but when I went to search for it later I could find no trace of it having existed. That is how dear Fliss often operates in real-life. I always gently berated her about doing that but she alwasy felt she was being persecuted and constantly 'watched'. - Truly. It was something that we were having to constantly deal with. And I never knew if anything was real or not about all that.

When I seriously brought this up with Fliss's own physicatrist, (a seemingly inept physicatrist working here in Midland that dear Fliss cherished), I was told it was all 'nothing' and not to ever worry about it all.

Many years later I told another physicatrist of the same company (now existing not in a ramshackle giant old house across from the Midland Police station, but now in a brand newly built concrete and brick multistorey building around up the road and around two corners from there.) ...... and he thought nothing of dear Fliss at all,not even though she had been a patient of their company and a fellow physicatrist still working there at that time. (dont; make the mistake they were al frinedly to each other....they were adversarial to the extreme, not to least was gathering and harvesting and holding on to patients whom they considered 'forever income' to forever keep exploiting in any way they could. And they thought more of always forever getting and keeping any money than of any patient themselves. - Truly.

And dear Fliss thought so too over her time there.....years.

Dear Fliss ws kind about it all and respectful. But becase dear Fliss as she refferred to it as, "I've played all their games before....I know the rules far better than 'this lot' even does! - I could be a better physicatrist than them!....and I'd be rich and wouldn't have to keep working as a slave like I have to do forever for peanuts and a pittance as I do now!"

That would lead to her being angry, and again I would have to work with deaest Fliss to calm her mind down. She would be becoming frantic. Self-detructive yet again, Utterly secret about any and everything she did. She would confide tiny selective snippets to unknown others.....

And I would ALWAYS say to dear Fliss not to do all that, for her to etll teh truth abut any and everything and not be lying by selcting what bits of truth to sting togther to make a lie-of-truths. It was damging to them, damging to her and most damaging of all was damaging to us because of how it was doing to her.

She would laugh it all away. (literally) and then launch into yet another diversion....diversions which would somhow drag me into because I had to oncreasingly keep and watch upon her. (I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE! dearest Fliss) more than anone else wants to accept. They think it is just simple love, or that I was only out to us her for myself (NO, NEVER EVER THAT!).

And so FLiss and I would have verbal arguments and people once again assumed I was 'going crazy' and just atatcking her for no reason, they made up in their tiny minds ANYTHING thay could to explain why I would be arguing with dear Fliss....and Fliss herself ecouraged all this! And NEVER WOULD CORRECT THEM! -- It was part of dear Fliss's self-defensive mechanisms she had learned years before she and I had ever met. And of course I had known nothing about.

Sorry! - I've just right now caught sight of my hands and seen how gaunt they are since dear Fliss has abdanodned and let me years ago here at this hellhole, whislst she fled back to her parents once again lying so much all thw way. THEY TOO because of all that utterly despise and hate me and wish me utterly dead. And they stop any and all communications with dear Fliss and I that we have tried over the years. - This 'total micro-managing control aspect' is how they had been manging dear Fliss even long before I had ever known of or met dear Fliss on the oher side of Ausralia from me here.

And of course all this mental and physical mental/physical maladies that aflicts dearest Fliss I knew nothing of but THEY did. But even THEY had cut her off and partly away from their family contact....perhaps hoping she would get better as if it was just a common flu cold?

Dear Fliss and I came here to Western Australia and we started a new life together, and everything was fine for several years....until Fliss suffered major mental breakdowns and mental assaults upon her through frst through employment conflicts and disasters and also through being exloited by others (NEVER EVER ME!) who were constantly "AT HER" and alwasy trying to not only exploit dear Fiss for their own ends, which were often vicious and cruel, but they wanted her out of the way so they could exploit ANYTHING & EVERYTHING. -- Truly, it was vicious.

NOBODY has any idea of it all. Wehenever I've tried to anybody ANY part of ANYTHING about ANY of it, they instead just can't understand AT ALL, and BLAME ME! - Andor they dismis from ever getting involved with anything about dear Fliss and myself. - It was more than if a bomb exploded in dear Fliss's faces and my own. It destroyed businessness (MORE THAN ONE!), employess lives (including Fliss's!) and including my own including trying to destroy our very relationship and life existing together.....

Can you see now why dear Fliss often said to me crying and sobbing, "My life is cursed....CURSED I TELL YOU! - EVERYTHING I DO ONLY HURTS OTHERS! - EVERYONE ONLY ENDS UP GETTING HURT! - THEY SHOULD CONSIDER THEMSLEVES 'LUCKY' THAT THEY ONLY LOSE THEIR JOB....THEY COULD END UP LIKE ME INSTEAD AND WANT TO DIE AL THE TIME! - I DESERVE NOT TO HAVE CHILDREN! - I'M NO GOOD FOR ANYONE OR ANYTHING! - I'VE SHOW THAT THEY'RE RIGHT! THEY MUST BE RIGHT! IT KEEPS HAPPENING! I ONLY WISH YU WEREn"T INVOLVED IN ALL THIS CRAP....YOU DESERVE BETTER.....YOU DESERVE SOMEONE GOOD......"

"You ARE GOOD Fliss!"

"I MEAN SOMEBODY 'NORMAL'....I'M NOT NORMAL......I'M DAMAGED GOODS! - IF ONLY I HAD NEVER TRIED TO HELP ON THAT TRAIN THAT DAY LONG AGO..!!!!! - OH HOW I DESPISE THAT DAY!!!! AND WHICH IT HAD NEVER EVER HAPPPENED!!!!! - IT RUINED MY LIFE!!!!! - IT'S RUINED YOURS! - IT'S RUINED EVERYONE'S!!!!!! - KILL ME NOW, PLEASE KILL ME!!!!!!"

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Because what I have written above of that conversation has happened so many times, that in myself writing the above for teh worl to know (YET AGAIN BCAUSE NOBODY AND NOTHING CARES!), especially all that conversation parts is JUST like dear Fliss is here herself. I can hear our voices and our crying, and her wailing, and our poor dear dogs howling and scrabbling to get outside, or the dogs always trying to comfort dear Fliss but getting ushed away from her and yelled at which they could never understand.....

And once AGAIN I have revealed to the uncaring, unfeeling world that does NOTHING AT ALL to get me and dear Fliss back together, and I know I will again without being with dearest Fliss have terrible nightmares about it all....just as our dogs do all the time without us being without dearest gentle Fliss....and we live in a perpertual HELL of which NOBODY & NOTHING is ever made of to get dearest sweet innocent Fliss and I back together again.

It's dark and colder.......that is NOT an analogy but could very well also be one.......

I need to go outside with poor Sam & poor Max before it rains so they can do their doggie ablutions again.

I KNOW there is no mail in the mailbox from dearest Fliss (I've checked already)

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Shortly afterwards.....................

I have taken dear Sam & dear Max outside.....Max was DESEPRATE and did massive ablutions and Sam was too he decided he'd betetr do 'somthing' after Max. Or vice verse I have no idea becase they both did it all out of my sight. I was ready to whisk them inside throuh the back door safely because it KEEPS sprinkling rain as it has been all day, is always overscast, yet NOBODY (not even the official weather department) makes a forecast EVER applicable to reality even for the very day or a few hours beforehand....NOTHING is APPLICABLE AT THIS HELLHOLE AREA..........it's been hot then cool, too-warm then cool.....cool then horrible and cool-but-overhumid.....and that's in the space if a few hours let day after day after day after day....

The criminal aboriginals have been running AND around ON the roads at fatguts criminal housheold and PLEASE do NOT ever believe I'm racist or ANYTHING LIKE THAT. I AM NOT NOR HAVE I EVER BEEN! - Dearest Fliss herself she was alwasy telling me tis herself, she is aboriginal she was always keeing silent of it to all others. She told me she would otherwise not be hired for jobs or would be discrimnated against. I don't know how true any of that was, I am only repeating what dear Fliss always told me and promised me to keep secret which I did, as so MANY things you even know never know she made me promise NEVER to tell anyone.....

The Western Ausralian Police early this morning did a flying. momentary 'look' at the place and the area there early, why I have no idea. Probably for any andor all the usual criminal reasons, but they simply did as they alwsy try to do....the least amount of time about there as possible, and they left as quickly as they could. (NOT with any speeding off or sirens sounding and lights flashing though that as is what usually is constantly the case sometimes.

THIS IS A HELLHOLE LIKE NO OTHER......

So many abo feral kids have been also been on the roads and roaming all about.....ALSO as still OTHER adult abo's have been coming and going from s many other places in Koongamia and elsewehere. AND THAT's just in the times I have happened to dare look and see.

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(my internet is crashing and totally stopped for no reasons AT ANY TIME......AGAIN).....

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I want to be with you dearest Fliss just as you promised me and yourself. Please. And dear God please allow it to be. PLEASE.

WITHOUT BEING WITH DEAREST FLISS, I WANT TO BE DEAD AND NEVER EVER BORN EVER AGAIN, NOT EVER.

I have to go now and give poor Sam & poor Max something to eat again, something small, and perhaps eat soemething small/tiny in amount for myself. I have no desire to eat or live without being with dearest Fliss.

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garrettvc · 8 years

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Weed is special to me. It's the first "thing" that popped the Christian bubble that I grew up in. I thought most people were Christian, like no one was racist, like it was a nice bubble. My thoughts on weed was why would anyone willingly throw their lives away, based on media I had seen and the stereotype the general public had. I always wanted to be someone who could give good advice based on experience. So I had to try smoking so that I could tell people I've done that, don't do that and after I did, I was so amazed at how happy it made me. I always said that my best conversations with God was when I was high. This was the first time in my life I felt lied to. Especially after I researched why its illegal in the 1st place (racist) and to this day (pharmaceutical money). It made me realize that even if 95% of people believe something they can all be totally wrong. The second major time I felt lied to was a Black Studies class, where we learned American history from a perspective other than the victor. EVERYTHING made sense to me after this class. It made me angry that I had to pay for a college class to learn this material when I should be mandatory for every American. It changed almost everything about me; I knew who I was after this class. Immediately I was so upset that I was taught history from such a biased perspective and then I understood why high school was so weird for me being one of the only black kids. It made sense that they all saw me as their "favorite black person" instead of just a friend. I was raised very religious and am very thankful to my church family who has always been there for me and my family. I love my church and I love the people in it. The 3rd major time I felt lied to was when I started reading the Bible for myself. I never read it when I was younger because I thought it had a whole bunch of rules in it and I thought if I never read the rules then God couldn't hold me accountable for what I didn't know. Like how can you possibly know what you don't know, ya know? After my Black Studies class, I needed to know truth at all costs. So naturally I started reading the Bible in search for answers. I would read the Bible and take notes like it was a class. I would go visit old stories I remember and just go from there. With cell phones I loved reading the Bible. I could Google stories to find the exact Bible verse and then basically read a book from its first chapter to understand context. Technology gave me 300 translations in one app. If I was reading a verse and couldn't believe what it said I would look at it in 3 or 4 different translations like damn it really says that in every version lol. Even in church when pastor started preaching I would go into my own little world intently studying the word. Ultimately, the Bible became too difficult to defend from myself. I would try to reason my way out of things like thats the old testament, we don't live under that law anymore. God works in mysterious ways arguments. No human could ever comprehend God's fairness. But the more and more I read the closer I got to doubting it's truth. There are 3 main verses/ideas in the New Testament (countless in the old testament) that I can very easily morally disagree with. And my thoughts on the Bible is either its 100% absolute truth and God's inspired word or it was made up by humans for control. So even one verse in the Bible that is "wrong" discredits the whole for me. To prove something you need to show that it works in every case, to disprove something you only need one example. My 3 main examples are: 1 Timothy 2:11-15 1 Peter 2:18-19 Revelations 12: the whole chapter 1 Timothy 2:11-15 Read it for yourself in several translations to be sure. But what it says is God doesn't allow women to teach men or to tell them what to do. I'm reading this verse basically because of a woman teacher (and preacher) who changed my life for the better. The verse also says that she must listen quietly because Adam was made first and Adam wasn't the one who initially ate from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Side note: From a Christian perspective all death and suffering in the world come from humans wanting knowledge. Lil peculiar to me. From God's perspective he likes us better when we are dumb and blindly follow. I guess that's why he calls us his sheep. This verse opened my eyes to how shitty women are treated in the Bible and most religions. The Bible teaches the woman to be subservient, I can't teach that shit to my daughter. It lead to questions like who's your favorite woman in the Bible not named Mary. Or why does God have a gender in the first place when that's something assigned based on physical appearance. As ab-soul says, in 66 books they didn't let a lady say one word. 1 Peter 2:18-19 These verses are simple. It says that slaves should obey their masters. Okay, cool I guess I don't agree but I don't disagree either. Then it goes on to say that slaves should obey their master even if the master is bad to them. I can pretty easily say fuck that. As I have gotten a bachelor's degree in Black Studies, these are verses that were used during slavery to convince slaves to behave. I always wondered how masters and slaves could read the same text and interpret it so drastically different. I guess perspective is realer than reality sometimes. So I guess a black woman homosexual should be the least likely Christian American, if we actually read it. Revelations 12 I gotta say that this is my favorite chapter in the Bible. The amount that happens in one chapter is mind blowing but I disagree with this from a science perspective. And I KNOW your not supposed to talk about science and religion together but hear me out. I had no problem with Jesus miracles, I can believe in the Jonah and the whale story, I can even believe most of the chapter. Brief summary: There's a woman with the sun as her clothes and the moon under her feet. She's having a baby and Satan who has shape-shifted into a red dragon with 7 heads and 10 horns is trying to eat the baby (can't make this up). What's crazy is I'm okay with all of this, it doesn't bother me scientifically but then it says that the dragon (Satan) swept it's tail and swept (1/3) or 33.3333% of all the stars out of the sky and flung them to earth. This is so scientifically illiterate its crazy. Googles estimate of stars in the observable Universe (meaning only the ones we can see with telescopes) is 100,000,000,000 or 100 billion stars. Quick math divide by 3 and that's 33.33 billion stars being flung at earth from the devils tail in the future. Also quick astronomy lesson is the sun is an average star. Meaning there are sun's much much bigger than ours. Also our sun is 109 times larger than the earth. So basically I'm saying that if 1 star was flung at earth let alone 33 billion, then the earth would be completely engulfed not hit. The chapter makes it sound like a bunch of asteroids will hit earth. This is like the Bible saying the earth is the center of the universe, it's just wrong. I can let stuff slide all day that can't be proven like miracles but when it talks about something we know for fact, it feels like Kelly Anne Conway trying to convince me there is alternative facts, like bitch I got eyes fuck you talking bout. To put it simply the Bible is translated in English. Read it, it's not that hard. We are the only animal that loves his neighbor as himself and kills over religion. In whatever way God talks to you whether it's the still small voice, that feeling of feeling led to do something or even if He appeared burning bush style. If God asked you to kill your child would you? And before you say he would never do that, think about Abraham and just try it. It's a thought experiment that made me realize morals were more important to me than "god". I dont care what anybeing says I'm not going to kill my child because something bigger than me told me to. To conclude, I'm not an atheist and I never say never but I believe I never will be. I think someone who says that they know God doesn't exist for a fact is just as crazy as someone who says that they know for a fact that God exist. I admit that I don't know and I believe it is something that can't be known. I don't really even know why I started writing this or if there's a point but it feels good to express myself in words. Weird.

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