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Thinking of the Nie disciple that told Nie Mingjue it was Meng Yao who stayed behind to clean up corpses on the battlefield today.
Nie Mingjue didn't just randomly stumble upon poor lil meowyao eating bread in the novel, he was already looking for him to thank and reward him for his work.
That's what makes it so fun that nieyao's first conflict will end up being about someone else taking credit for Meng Yao's work.
And I'm sure that Nie Mingjue's actual opinions on plagiarism are a lot more nuanced, all we really get from him in this scene is "well you shouldn't kill someone over it!" which leaves a lot of room for what punishments he thinks are appropiate. But I bet that it isn't occuring to him in this moment that the only reason he knows Meng Yao at all, the only reason he got such a capable deputy, is that he noticed someone was taking care of the dead and cared enough to want to know their name. And then the Nie disciples didn't lie to him. The disciple he asked could have said "it was me, Zongzhu" to rise in the ranks himself, but he didn't. He went and asked others, who all also could have taken the credit, but they didn't. Someone saw Meng Yao working and decided to be honest about it and that simple decision is the catalyst for Meng Yao becoming Nie Mingjue's deputy.
Meng Yao can't just work hard to get results, others have to acknowledge that work. If they don't, it's as if he didn't do anything at all.
#i'm very proud of the phrase poor lil meowyao. i'm sure i'm not the first one to come up with it but i'm proud nonetheless.#mdzs#mdzs meta#nie mingjue#meng yao#anyway this isn't a nmj bashing post i think 'ok that's bad but don't do MURDER' is overall a pretty reasonable reaction#but the emotional disconnect is fun to ruminate on. I bet meng yao IS thinking about that moment while coming up with his fake-suicide plan#anyway i always laugh a litle whenever anyone wonder if meng yao looking a bit pitiful was all some master stategy to get nmj to like him#because like... no. no that would be a stupid plan and also involved way too many factors he couldn't control.#and also!! he was already doing something else to try and get nmj's attention. all of that fucking work!!#if you plan on getting nmjβ guy famous for valuing merit and hard honest workβ to like you what is more useful:#looking a bit like a sad little wet cat in case he comes across you? or. Working really hard and being more useful than everyone else?#ding ding ding it's the latter.#nmj is ALSO a bit weak for someone looking like a kitten left in the rain but that's not well-known at all and meng yao didn't know him yet#anyway the fact that that is his plan does mean he's very aware how much it hinges on other people not just lying and saying they did it.#i wonder what networking efforts lil heijan meng yao was doing. trying to make friends with all the other disciples.#walking the tightrope of being accomodating but not a doormat so people see you as someone to rely on rather than take advantage of.#as much as we know not everyone in the nie is as righteous as nmj it does seem like there is a culture of taking pride in your own work.#even the cultivators who bully him in the novel just seem think it's funny he's working so hard.#using someone else's actions to prop yourself up is kinda like admiting they're better than you. a wound to their pride if nothing else.
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sorry him saying he has no idea where the misogyny thing comes from when ludwig just talked about how he sent him a big apology for calling his friend a whore when it was about THE WRONG WOMAN is funny as fuck
i dont think he realizes that the reason no one gives a shit about his apologies and honestly just straight up ignores them is because EVEN IN THE EVENT THAT THEY ARE TRUE he's been proven to lie soooooo many times to the point where you really cant believe a word that comes out of his mouth. he says something and im like "damn maybe i was wrong about that one... i'll look into it" and you get more info and go "oh. he just made that part up. and misworded that. and lied about that part... oh it was actually WORSE than i initially thought!"
#im sure tommy has done some dumb shit#i am MUCH more likely to believe he can change and grow as a person than you can π§#im willing to stick by him and watch him become a better person and own up to his mistakes#i have been trying so hard to see the good in you for like 4 years now and i just. cant. every time i think i might be wrong im right again#i HATE to bring it back to this bc it's such a non-issue and not very relevant but#the speedrun issue really was where he showed his true colors#the actual subject here doesnt matter im talking about the way he handled it. im still pissed off all this time later i'll never get over i#he cheats. BLATANTLY cheats. gets proven. sends his mob after the mods. denies everything#hires someone with all this money he has to say he didnt cheat (BUT THE GUY NEVER EVEN SAYS THAT HE JUST CLAIMS THE GUY SAYS IT)#(BC HE DOESNT EXPECT ANYONE TO ACTUALLY READ THIS DOC HE THINKS HIS SUMMARY IS ALL THAT MATTERS)#finds out he did cheat But On Accident (supposedly)#DOESNT SAY SHIT FOR MONTHS AND LETS EVERYONE CONTINUE TO HARASS THE MODS. GEO IS SUICIDAL#and then does a stream where he's like haha hey guys so umm i did an oopsie π but i didnt cheat this isnt cheating it's just. lying!#anyways it doesnt matter bc this was so fun and i had a blast making content :) and besides it isnt a big deal anyways it's just a game :)#months of harassment didnt affect ME so you should be fine :D was a lot of fun thx guys :)#THAT SHIT was where i lost all respect for him#THAT was where i saw this same pattern every damn time#doesnt matter how big or small the issue is it's the same damn thing every single time#even when you're right. you've destroyed all your credibility by continuing this behavior!#yeah you're valid in thinking tommy downplaying your videos is just mean but. frankly i dont give a fuck!#you're probably right about a few other things too and again i just dont care!! he can change and grow and you never will!!!#i'm willing to give him a chance. you've had PLEEEEENTY of chances and havent taken a single one#chat#discourse#i guess? idk this is the only angry rant i'll do. i feel bad might as well add to it lmao
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its so silly but i just keep thinking abt being in norway and seeing for the first time kinda ever that like governments can do things to make peoples life better. for no other reason but just to improve things. like im sure norway has lots of problems i didnt see on a trip but i cannot stress how insane it was that the government had done things because it would be nice. to take care of people. ?????
#tour guide like yeah the minimum wage is decent here its 220 NOK (roughly ovr $22) but its not perfect and literally evryone in our group#being like $22??!?!?!???!?!!? MINIMUM!??!??!!?#i keep thinking about taking the bus and trams in oslo :( and abt walking IN THE STREET in bergen wjthout getting run over#or the restaurant on top of the bergen funiculr mountain getting state owned this year bc it was mismanaged ans going under but#everyone would like there to be a restaurant there so the government just decided to make sure there would be one????#instead ofbjust letting it die???#or ALL THE OIL AND POWER BEING STATE OWNED. HELLO?#its just insane idk. that things can for real be different. where i am theres a revolutionary amt of public teansport for a not huge city#but its still basically one bus and then the slowest most fucked up train in the whole world (40min drive = 2.5 hours by train)#assuming uh thw train doesnt get stuck again lol#it mostly exists to take mormon missionaries to the airport i think lol.#the 'walkable' old town section still has 4 and 6 lane roads you have to cross every block.#i dont know its just... its. augh!!!!!!!!#birdenest#we told one guy the minimum wage for waitstaff was about 21 NOK and he didnt believe us and got upset that we were lying
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This whole day I have just been yelled at by patients on the phone for long periods of time one after the other Iβm at my limit truly
#riv rambles#people are so mean#calling me slurs over the phone because your doctor denied your refill is literally so uncalled for how is this my fault to begin with π#I had another guy yell at me for charging him for βtoo many pillsβ#and it turns out he took 1 pill a day instead of 2#yeah duh ur gonna have extra#and then he had the audacity to tell me I wasted his time for not telling him that sooner#how was I supposed to know#another lady asked if we had something for 2.5 milligrams so I said yes we have it in stock#the doctor sends in a 5 mg prescription which we do not have in stock#she called and yelled at me for lying to her#maβam you need to ask the right strength when u call thatβs on u#thereβs 6226 more reasons I got straight up BULLIED over the phone but#I canβt even begin listing them all#I think I answered maybe 15 calls today#Iβm pretty sure only like 3 of them were nice regular phone calls#Iβm gonna go home and have a good cry session deadass#I mean it#Iβm gonna get in the shower and fucking cry π₯²
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Crying on the floor bc there aren't any greed/ling hanahaki disease fics
#greed is THE emotionally constipated guy like how has this not happened yet#*greed coughing up flowers* wow humans sure are weird#*ling in the back of the mind as greed coughs up his favourite flower* oh for fucks sake#ling could never be the sick one bc he actually does shit instead of pining and lying to himself about it#bc its very hard to feel unreciprocated when you want the manifestation of wanting everything#and ling can read greed like a fucking colouring book that homunculus cant hide shit from him. he knows how greed feels about him#whether it be platonic romantic or other ling would get over it and just be happy to have greed (assuming post canon)#unless its like a βi love him i know he loves me but hes too stupid to realise it and im paying the priceβ situation#so yeah most of the time its a case of ling knows whats up and is trying to gently nudge greed in the right direction#all while greed doesnt understand whats happening to him and is trying to play it cool#OH yknow what could be fun: putting a lil twist on it. only homunculi get it but instead of simply flowers its literally their stone#inspired by that one 03 greed scene (you know the one)#every time they lose more and more life/energy until. yknow. and its not very known about bc homunculi dont rlly exist#but some alchemists would know (eds the only important one bc what other alchemist does greed know)#(butttt could be fun that hoenheim knows and when they meet him hes like β...thats an interesting coughβ)#okay my brain is falling asleep so ill leave it there#greed the avaricious#fma greed#ling yao#fma ling#hanahaki#fmab#greed x ling#greedling#< i suppose. i mostly use that tag for the guy/possession situation not the ship but eh#moss' madness
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I am only going to say this about the accent discourse: I stopped taking accents as seriously/trusting my understanding of them when:
1. My dad grew up in an area with a very distinct accent culture and he never developed one. His dialect might change slightly around certain company, but not enough for anyone to claim he has an accent.
2. I was 16 years old when I realized my mother, who grew up in the same city as my dad, had an accent. And this wasnβt a deal of me having grown up in a house with her or anything, I recognized others around her had an accent β just not her. And itβs the same bloody accent they had.
Accents. Are. Weird. And inconsistent. Sometimes they happen, sometimes they donβt, and other times they do but theyβre kinda wonky depending on the person and their experiences. π€·π½ββοΈ Case in point: I just headcanon that Copia, if not raised in Italy, spent a hefty chunk of some earlier part of his life there, and spent his formative years chowing down on American media and let that inform his accent and dialect morphing. It can happen. Either side can potentially be right but it doesnβt really matter because Tobias doesnβt even care that much. Weβre all just here to watch a family of mainly old men quite literally fuck around and leave breadcrumbs of backstory that we scatter at like rats in a dungeon, so can we just eat our morsels and chillax?
#Iβm going back to bed because I had to be sure I knew the difference between accent n dialect#headcanon as you will#I personally just think theyβre Italian but it doesnβt matter#plus Terzo is a lying shit I could see him fucking around with people to insinuate heβs ambiguous#I have lived on and off in the city my parents grew up in and have lived here nearly a decade now#no accent. I inherited my dadβs inability to gain an accent#ππππ#(this is a good thing trust me tge accent is NOT sexy save for like. ONE character who makes it good)#I normally keep my head down during discourse but like#cβmon guys :/ canβt we all just get-a-schlong?
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that post about putting on the dune audiobook at a party where everyone was on lsd except it was my friend playing the dead flag blues when our group was wizard high in our second year of college
#this was fall of 2020 for some additional perspective on everyoneβs sort of mental state#most of us had only been high a few times before at that point too lmfao#i just remember lying on the couch going wait what the fuck am i listening to and how long has it been playing#meanwhile another friend was insisting he could see the future#we were really only all friends for a semester but god what a time that was#for one reason or another Iβm not friends with any of them anymore and that hurt for a long time#but slowly Iβve started being able to remember those times with fondness#and yeah. that was a core memory for sure lmao#anyway if you want to know what kind of freak would do that. you know the βeven now there is bucket of wet slop. grinsβ guy?#this friend was exactly that category of guy. just picture a 19 year old bipolar leftist version of slop guy and thatβs him#we still follow each other on ig and heβs posting the same incomprehensible memes as ever. I hope heβs doing well#op
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hearing "how are you feeling? are you getting enough sleep? are you taking anything for it? are you drinking water?" from the besties: π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ίπππππ₯°π©·β£οΈπππππππππππππππβ£οΈπ©·π₯°ππ₯°π₯°π©·ππ₯°ππ©·ππ©·πβ£οΈπβ£οΈπβ£οΈππ₯°ππππππππππ₯°ππ₯°ππ©·β£οΈππ©·ππ©·ππ©·ππππ₯°π₯°π₯°π₯°π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί
hearing "how are you feeling? are you getting enough sleep? are you taking anything for it? are you drinking water?" from your parents: πππππππ₯π¬π₯πππππππππ₯π¬ππ¬πππππππ¬π₯π¬π₯ππ¬πππ₯π₯πππ₯π¬π₯ππ¬ππππππππ₯π₯ππ₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯
#idek man#when cherry asked earlier i fucking Melted it was the sweetest thing ever#but my parents asking me the same shit just now made me want to kill#something something knowing someone genuinely cares about u and cares abt the answer vs#the amt of times i used to hear well are you really sick? are you too sick to go to school? yeah of course you are#really convenient of you to be sick today huh. yeah sure go miss school not like youre missing multiple classes or anything#<- when im sick my kneejerk response is to '''play it up''' bc i know i feel bad but i dont know how to express w/ my face and voice that-#-i feel bad so theyd always assume i was lying and i had to learn how to actually act sick instead of them trusting me at all#.#is that an autism thing. is having to teach yourself how to express that you dont feel well bc your face and voice just Dont Do It an-#autism thing guys be honest. <- learned a lot abt facial expressions & autism the other day and now things r starting to click#alyalyoxenfree
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the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier
#and also it's nice to know exactly what your food is going to taste like before you eat it#like when i get unfamiliar takeout. half the time i'm like. oh.#i'm going to have to eat all of this. or be judged.#so i just do my best to suppress my gag reflex and Get Through It and then it makes me sick so what was even the point#i think my parents spoiled me. and the most annoying thing is they're significantly better at cooking now than when i was a child#so when i go over i eat three delicious home cooked meals + snacks and they're all different and amazingggg#and then i come back to texas and i am like. googling 'how to feed myself healthy vegetarian'#because I do NOT have the time or money or energy to cook three beautiful delicious meals Just For Me#i think this would be easier with a partner#this whole week i bought a fuckton of mediterranean groceries and i have been making and eating food!!#mediterranean is close enough to indian that i like it well enough#unfortunately for me. i am def going to have to learn how to cook indian food to get through life. because i cannot fucking eat american#i don't know HOW you guys do it i'm so spoiled#i'm assuming meat is this really amazing wonderful thing that just adds flavor to everything#(it is physically repulsive to me and the couple times ive accidentally tasted it it's bleh so i refuse to partake)#i think it's an acquired taste but it magically makes ur food better. that is my understanding of how meat works#cause american vegetarian food is the saddest fucking thing i've ever tasted#i still think about my coworker i was talking to about my food issues and he was like. 'do u understand that you have been given a gift#by having constant access to tasty food your entire life. i ate unseasoned green beans every day of my childhood. learn how to fucking cook#indian food already.' truly a horrific thing to hear. but i'm calling my parents more and going HOW TO COOK VEGETABLE? BEAN? PLEASE HELP??#and by god i am not going to turn into my coworker.#anyways we start with baby steps. lentils and rice it is next week .-. going to the indian store to buy pickles to make it more tolerable#and i have my cabinet full of spices already at least#i wish i was less pickyyy#sometimes lalita cooks indian food for me and i'm like wow. i love and appreciate u for feeding me. but this sure is south indian food#i don't understand How they use spices. it feels like they toss as much of as many bottles as they can into every dish#and it's. the taste is just OW OW OW and nothing else. where's the nuance. the flavor.#and i like it when things are spicy!! i can even eat things where the flavor is just Hot. but not when she cooks it.#she will like watch my face when i take a bite and then go 'if you don't like it i'm throwing away all my pots and running away'#which. honestly a fair reaction. the problem is that i am incapable of lying
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(single loud AA) (the forest goes silent immediately after) (birdsong returns moments later)
#i am once again begging everyone to recognize that we do not live in a world where pointing out the little idiosyncrasies of these people#causes them to spontaneously combust like a scooby doo villain#like yes cool you can report to me on these matters#but can we stop talking at length about how#'omg!! this PROVES this guy was lying!! about this thing everyone clearly knows he's lying about!!'#'because the playbook for this thing includes specifically lying about it!! surely now everyone will see this for what it is π'#like sorry to break it to you man but the atrocities happening in our world aren't happening because the people in power#just somehow don't know about them#and if someone just points out all the right things#then the people in power will be Enlightened!! and will immediately act in the most just way possible to prevent evil-doing#like newsflash idiot: Everyone Knows.#Everyone Knows Especially Those In Power And It Is Their Vested Interest For This To Keep Happening#it's the same frustration i have over people going#'omg!! this guy doesn't even realize it but there's a CLEAR DISCONNECT between his actions and his stated beliefs!! fail!!'#as some kind of gotcha#as if the people in question are not Literally Doing That On Purpose Because#SPOILERS folks ! ! ! !#the stated beliefs are either fake or deliberately misleading#it's part of the playbook folks#pointing it out won't cause them to have an ace attorney freak out where they're crushed by the moral and logical inconsistency of it all#sorry. i'm just. really sick of reporting that frames every little fucked up thing politicians are doing in the world as#'woah!!!!!! how can they not see that this is bad!?'#they know it's bad. put your outrage towards their goals not the funny little words they use to get there.#i don't need this gaping that acts like listening to gossip and activism are the same thing.
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hello it is the uninvited you said u can talk about Raphael's complexities for hours. please do i want to know about this GUY <3
hiii i'm late to this but YAYYYYY thank u sm for asking about My Guy >:3 complexities under the tag for length
Raphael (23) is the eldest of six children. Since Raphael was six years old, he's helped take care of his younger siblings one by one. He does love them dearly, but a large part of him also resents how his life was dedicated to being the "third parent." He's held his tongue out of gratitude, given the hardships his parents fought through trying to raise them, but that's really only served to let his resentment simmer. His relationship with his parents is tense at best because of it. It hurts his mother in particular to see him distance himself, and truthfully Raphael hopes it keeps hurting. Despite that, whenever his siblings - or indeed anyone around him - needs help or comfort or protection, he will always be there at a moment's notice. By now, it's an instinct he can't ignore. Being of service to others while also being their guiding or protecting hand is the way he was taught how to love.
Raphael's mother Rikke became a household name when she exposed new biotechnology being quietly developed in her home country (Nattenheim) to the neighboring country (and planned future recipient of said biotechnology) of Teothe. The developmental methods of the technology kickstarted a civil war in Nattenheim, and the scandal ended all trade and diplomatic relations with Teothe. Her partner Florian helped her flee to his home in Teothe for refuge, but they remained unsafe from assassination attempts for a decade afterwards all the same. Raphael was both conceived and born during this timeframe, making his first five years of life deeply unstable and full of uncertainty. He does not remember having a safe home in which he could just be a child until he was six, by which time he became the "third parent" almost immediately.
Raphael, being his mother's spitting image, cannot escape association with "Rikke the Traitor" or "Rikke the Savior" no matter where he goes. Every person he meets is immediately aware of his connection to Rikke, and judgments frequently follow that awareness. As a result, he bases his presentation largely around what people think of his mother. If they believe she is a traitor, then Raphael plays up being dishonest, selfish, even outright cruel. If they believe she is a savior, then Raphael presents himself as selfless, honorable, and gentle-hearted. This might seem like loyalty to his mother, but in actuality, he just throws on whatever veneer "validates" any one person's judgment of him. Very few people actually "know" Raphael, given how much of his public behavior is a front.
To the above point: Raphael is, at his core, desperately attention starved. He craves recognition like his life depends on it. If someone believes his mother is a traitor with no morals, he will lean into that belief to guarantee that he is equally reviled, because that promises attention. He does not fear being disliked, because he can always get some measure attention from people who find him annoying or unlikable. He pursues goals, passions, and people he believes can satiate his attention needs with obsessive fervor. If he fails to achieve them (or god forbid loses them to another's efforts), he can become deeply bitter and even violently jealous. Raphael wants to be lauded, wants to be wanted, wants to be cherished, wants to be noticed, wants to be the specialest person in the room to something or somebody at all times. He does not care how he gets that or who or what he gets it from. He is someone prone to insanely toxic relationships that he charges headlong into, or corrupt workplaces where he can undercut others to get recognized. By the same token, though, he is also perfectly at home in a deeply loving relationship with a steady partner, or in a workplace where he can feel fulfilled helping others and be regularly thanked for it, such as emergency medical services. He has made his personality and standards very malleable in order to slot into whatever niche best rewards him with attention.
Whether an acquaintance or a close friend, everyone knows that Raphael is vain. Of course, he wouldn't describe it that way so much as that he's "meticulous" about his appearance. He takes great care of his hair in particular, but preens quite diligently in general. The point of this (though he isn't aware of it) is still an attempt at recognition. Styling himself is the easiest way to get attention, after all. If he can be the prettiest man in the room, the most fuckable person at the grocery store, the cleanest and shiniest person in the chapel, then people are paying attention to him exclusively. In fact, calling Raphael "plain" or "boring" or "dull" are probably the most surefire ways to making a permanent adversary of him. He will never, ever accept the implication that he is in any way mediocre or average. He can't accept that in others, let alone himself.
In Nattenheim culture, the number, style, and fastener-of-choice of braids a person has are all communicative of various social aspects such as marital status, profession, and class. Raphael almost exclusively wears his hair in one long, singular braid fastened with a dull tie at the ends. Due to its simplicity, this style has no translation in Natten culture. It is essentially communicating that the wearer has no identity.
Raphael's insecurities get the better of him in ways he can't always control. His fear of being replaced, forgotten, or growing irrelevant constantly gnaws at his subconscious, and it is a powerful beast. If he feels that his companionship or work is slowly being edged out of relevance by another's, he can fly into irrational and accusatory behavior in a blink. Without intervention or reassurance, it can become devastating fallout. Raphael never wants to hurt or scare people he cares about, but he just doesn't have the skill to calmly communicate how terrified he is of being replaced, forgotten, or made irrelevant. He has burned quite a few bridges this way, all of which he deeply regrets. He knows all he can do is apologize when he comes down from his state of panic, and accept if or when that apology doesn't grant him forgiveness. He genuinely wants to be a better person, but he has no idea where to start. A part of him thinks it's probably too late to improve.
Raphael would not be able to answer the question of "who are you" with anything besides his name. If asked about hobbies, passions, even personality traits, Raphael would struggle to provide an answer. If asked about childhood memories, he wouldn't be able to describe any that did not include his siblings or watching his parents fear for their lives. He has spent most of his life either playing the role of the responsible eldest child and protective big brother, or being a mirror of others' perceptions of him. He refutes vulnerability on instinct. He doesn't necessarily fear it, but he cannot afford to risk it with the wrong person. Not when his family relies on him, and not when "being himself" could also risk losing the invaluable attention that catering to people's expectations brings him.
Raphael is also, to some degree, a stanger in his own career. He joined a faction not because he believes in their beliefs or even cares about the work, but because it put the most distance between himself and his family. His joining was controversial and he was very nearly rejected, due to his mother's infamy. To avoid more scrutiny, he interacts very little with his coworkers. He is comfortable in his own company, which is perhaps the only saving grace for the situation. Isolation leaves him alone with his thoughts and feelings, isolation makes him bored, isolation makes him crave attention more and more. Most of his coworkers don't know him as anything beyond "the guy who stays out of the way," but Raphael's more destructive tendencies are always just around the corner.
Though very few people have seen it, Raphael is remarkably - even startlingly - different in private vs in public. His fronts in crowded public spaces are often loud and flirtatious, impossible to ignore and easy to be annoyed by. He brushes off criticism as easily as he charms strangers into becoming friends, all while ensuring he's the focal point of every eye in the room. One-on-one in public, he comes across as anything he wants you to believe he is. Shallow, generous, vapid, mean, funny, shy. Whatever he thinks you want him to be. In private, though, the facade drops. He's far more subdued, softspoken, and patient. He seems exhausted, even if he manages to keep up appearances with a smile at least. Particularly if he's caught off guard in private - if he wasn't expecting company - the difference seems like night and day. If asked about it, he won't acknowledge the difference. Depending on who he's speaking to in private, he can recover the facade quickly, though it's never quite the same as when he's fully prepared for a crowded room.
Despite it all, Raphael does very much want to have his own children someday! Aside from simply wanting to be a father, he wants to "do it right" as far as raising a child goes. He wants to be able to do it on his terms, with a person he chooses, with a home he establishes that is safe and quiet and comforting. He wants to give his kid the childhood he didn't get, the love and attention he just couldn't be provided, and the security he lacked in his early years. This is something that's deeply important to him, and not something he's ever discussed with anyone. He isn't sure he'll ever get it, or if he'd even be any good at it. He's worried he'd be too selfish, too insecure, too shallow. He's afraid he would end up traumatizing his child. These are worries he's never voiced aloud. Not even his parents are aware he wants to be a parent someday. He quietly mulls over whether or not he could do it - and whether it would just be kinder to let go of that desire rather than risk his problems overwhelming a kid - alone.
#anonymous#answered#my ocs#wip: arbor of the wicked#this all makes him sound like such an asshole . and he sure can be ! but he's my little guy :3#i could go on about him even more actually but i think this is already too long KSJHDBGJSHDBG#i am normal about him ur honor . he's normal and so am i (lying)#he needs to be put in a box by himself for like 10 years. and given time to just be a person instead of an actor#he's soooo crazy he's so sane but he's crazy. he has a thousand issues he's normal he's never going to be normal he's fine#he'll make out with someone who just called him worthless just so he can slash their tires later . he's also a great big brother ^-^#sorry i sound fucking nuts. do you see my vision tho#and for the record everyone in the aotw wip is This Insane . arbor of the wicked is my 'all of you people are fucking crazy' wip
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imagine being on the phone with me heaving crying for two and a half hours as i talk abt how betrayed i feel because you lead me on and i gave you parts of myself i can never take back and loved you so much and your reaction is like Wait but can we still be friend :( and you still text me good morning after i tell you iβm not sure i want to know the person iβve discovered anymore because youβre kind of awful. can you imagine that. if youβre even halfway decent you probably canβt imagine this!
#lol itβs so fucking unfair#i gave him so fucking much#and he just gets to throw it all away#and admit he never wanted it in the first place and was just lying to me#but still wants my love and affection and attention in the way HE can handle it#go fucking die#iβm sure some of you are in close physical proximity to this guy#if you see him you should beat his ass fr#</3 posting
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when working in health care college will never truly prepare you for the absolute psychological horror of people actually knowingly lying to your face and people lying to you unknowingly and the difference and figuring out how to tell the difference and how to deal with it. like you just gotta do it.
#few days ago a guy called and when i humg up i was like: he's lying#and sure as hell when he got there URGENTLY#he was like i lied cuz i wanted to come asap#like#go fuck yourself honestly#on the other hand i had a person who when i asked about alergies was like no??!?? ππ€¨ and i was like......#did you ever take that antibiotic before#and they were like yeah but i got a rash from it#like my man#thats an alergy#but i guess its ok to be confused#thats why you always gotta ask 7 times and then 3 times more#garrulus#teeth
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stop blaming people blame their governments
stop blaming people blame their governments
for fucks sake STOP BLAMING PEOPLE BLAME THEIR FUCKIN GOVERNMENTS
#do some average ppl maybe engage in the bad bullshit? sure! but they do that under the influence of their govts propaganda#it all goes back to how the govts ran and who runs it. any take trying to make excuses to hurt average ppl fucking suck fuck you.#if its not a govt official or the cops or literally the guy giving the orders then fuck off#if its life or death? obvious-fucking-ly you preform self defense. not talking about that and ik you fucking know im not.#stop acting like everyons opinion on here about this doesnt basically boil to these very basic ideas#stop assuming every jewish person on here wants to suck israels dick#stop assuming most ppl on here you're sus about want the entire opposite world of you where everyones dying and suffering#unless the persons an outward nazi or fash or auth you have no reason to fuckin assume that you paranoid shit#its either being disingenuous and bad faith or being paranoid#bitch this is tumblr.#this isnt twitter.#pretty sure this is one of the more left leaning fucking sites on here motherfucker.
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All the #RyouSweep propaganda got me thinking like. Yeah we all criticize Ryou for STILL FUCKING GOING BACK FOR THE DAMN RING in Battle City (and every other time lbr), and rightfully so, but if weβre being honest. In his defense it WAS kind of horrendously irresponsible of the Yugis to just leave two wholeass Millennium Items just sitting on a table and then leave the room. Why did they do that
#LIKE DID THEY NOT JUST SPEND THE ENTIRE ARC TRYING TO GET THOSE SHITS OUT OF THE HANDS OF EVILDOERS OR WHATEVER#YOU KNOW THE IMPORTANT PLOT ITEMS THAT THEY NEED FOR YAMI TO GET HIS MEMORIES BACK AND ALSO THAT ARE VERY DANGEROUS#And I guess they were just like. 'Surely nothing bad will happen if we leave these unsupervised in plain sight of all the former bad guys'#HOW THEY FITTING TWO KIDS IN THERE WHEN THEY CLEARLY DON'T EVEN HAVE ENOUGH BRAIN CELLS FOR ONE#Either one of them could have said hmm we probably should not leave these lying around#Let's put them in our pocket or maybe even idk under the bed or some shit where people can't see them!!!#BUT NOOOOOOO#OF COURSE RYOU TOOK THE DAMN RING AND WHY NOT JUST GIVE HIM YOUR WALLET TOO WHILE YOU'RE AT IT#THEY'RE LUCKY HE DIDN'T TAKE THE MILLENNIUM ROD#THEY'RE LUCKY THE RING GOT STOLEN BY THEIR FRIEND AND NOT SOME RANDOM ASS KAIBACORP EMPLOYEE#Puts my head in my hands. I guess Yami truly is a suitable nemesis to Yami Bakura#Seeing as Yami Bakura is constantly possessing Yugi's classmate/friend and yet at no point has he thought to simply stab Yugi#I love Yugioh no one in this series has ever thought about anything other than games in their fucking life
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