#you do NOT want to know how much ive thought about this concept over the course of my shizunfucking life

[shizunitis]

mark I saw this on bsky and thought you'd go feral with me so here you go: bsky.app/profile/adamwithspice.bsky.social/post/3laljijzk4k2f

HOLY FUCKING SHIT AND FUCK BINGHE MOVE. IF YOU WONT APPRECIATE MURDER SHIZUN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE CROWDING UP THE SPACE LICK THE BLOOD OFF HIS MOUTH AND STOP LYING TO YOURSELF!!!! WEAKLING!!!!!!

[808airsoftbros]

Protective Scale of Vampire IVE

Author: Some Vampire concepts I came up with and if you want to check out more of my Vampire content check out my Masterlist

Rating on scale of 100...

An Yujin (Alpha)

Score: 100/100

Why?: Yujin, the Alpha of the IVE sister clan, oversees everything that goes on, protects you with her life, and will sacrifice herself if necessary. She wouldn't even allow you to go outside the world as she knows well how fucked society has become over the years and doesn't trust anyone but her Vampire sisters. She'd kill and threaten anyone that dare gets too close or even make eye contact and have strict rules you must follow without question because well... Yujin knows best.

Kim Gaeul (Enforcer)

Score: 100/100

Why?: Gaeul is just about the same as Yujin though a bit older by a shy 100 years, her parenting style is quite controlling than your typical human parenting, Gaeul always wants to know where you are at all times otherwise she will get worried, she is quite the mother of the clan and you are her most prized possession and doesn't want anyone snatching you away from her and she'd never forgive herself for losing you.

Jang Wonyoung

Score: 60/100

Why?: Wonyoung is quite laid back compared to the rest of her sisters, though that doesn't mean you can just go out and party with random strangers at night. Nope, Wonyoung does have her limits on your free time, she'd prefer going out with you more and loves to spend quality time with you, Wonyoung always tends to crave your attention and love as she'd given you ever since you were an infant. Wonyoung always wants to keep you company no matter where you go to ensure your protection and no evil human tries to kidnap you.

Naoi Rei

Score: 90/100

Why?: Being a Japanese Vampire, in her own culture of origin, she takes pride in her parenting duties, and keeping you safe is one of them... Even if she is seen as overprotective and overbearing but she doesn't care one bit about what others think. Who are they to talk about how she raises you as she sees fit? They don't know the sacrifices and hardships she had to go through to ensure your happiness and well-being.

Kim Jiwon (Liz)

Score: 85/100

Why?: Liz though is quite protective of you, she wants you to learn to solve problems on your own though she will step in if she sees that it's too much for you to handle alone. However, she'd never allow clubbing, drinking, or anything that can get you seriously hurt, not to mention that people will take advantage of you as she was a victim of it once and she doesn't want the same happening to you. Liz would follow you around wherever you go and would be cautious of whoever you interact with making sure they don't have sinister intentions.

Lee Hyunseo (Leeseo)

Score: 95/100

Why?: Leeseo may be the youngest of the clan but that doesn't mean she's naive and inexperienced enough not to take her duties seriously, Leeseo always puts your safety and well-being first before her own. Leeseo always checks on you often making sure you are safe and not doing anything foolish that can get you hurt as she cannot bear the thought of you getting injured. She wouldn't hesitate to discipline you as she sees fit to ensure you don't do break her rules again.

[81folklore]

older - LECLERC

pairings: charles leclerc x male!singer!reader (fc: luke hemmings)

summary: singer yn ln releases a love song with his boyfriend, and the public are not prepared for who it is about

authors note: this has been on my mind for SO LONG. i honestly dont like how many fics ive been doing on the same people (charles, lando etc) but whenever i go to start a new one on my list for someone else i think of something that i have to do😭 also in this reader is not a part of 5sos but close friends with the 3, wfttwtaf is readers album and older is exclusivly the readers song

authors note 2: i wanted to quickly clarify i am NOT speculating that charles or luke are gay/queer and this is not my intentions. luke obviously sings older and i find it easier to visualise it this way, while the reader in this is male, this could also be read as gn!reader. this is FICTION please do not tkae this as me speculating anything

authors note 3: i didnt really know what i was doing with this so its kind of all over the place and very rushed :/ but then again when arent my smau all over the place?? also can you tell i hate writing comments by the way i just dont😭

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we started this song together back in 2020 and picked it back up at the end of 2022

'Older' was originally a voice memo of a 50’s-style love song that we wrote together, then forgot about. when thinking of concepts for my debut album i stumbled across the memo and fell in love with it all over again, but i put it aside yet again as to me, it deserved more than the album

the song has changed a lot from the original voice memo, but the meaning has stayed the same throughout. despite all the beauty, the ups and downs of a long-term relationship over many years, there’s inevitably going to be the worst moment of your love because one of you is going to lose each other

capturing those feelings in a song was tricky but ultimately we wrote from the heart and i think it shows in the song itself

this has always been a song between us, so having him play on this song was very importnt to me and im glad he said yes

older is now yours

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im very pleased to announce a very special one off show at the Royal Albert Hall in London this November 18th. I will be playing a bunch of tracks from my debut album and may be joined to play some others aswell! Tickets on sale this monday at 10 am BST. Lots of love always, yn x

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thank you for an incredible night at the royal albert hall

looking back at the best night of my life, i need to thank each and every one of you who allowed this dream to come true, i will never be able to thank you guys enough

performing in my dream venue, with my favorite people in the world was something i never thought was possible and yet here i am, writing this still on my high from last night

thank you to my friends; michael, ashton and calum who took the time to come to london and perform their songs with me, thank you for always loving me and agreeing to my crazy ideas

to my team and everyone who worked to make this night as special as it could be, thank you. thank you for making my htoughts a reality and making this night as wonderful as possible

thank you to the staff who worked throughout the show to make sure everyone was safe, well and looked after. you truly do not get as much credit as you deserve and i apreciate the hard work you put in to keep everyone happy

thank you to those who joined me, i wish each and every one of you who wanted to could have been there. thank you for singing along and listening to me pour my heart and soul into my music

thank you for letting me do this x

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user55: not the pcd hitting already☹️

user1: and im supposed to pretend i didnt see yn and 5sos perform os/co??

user89: CHARLES?? YN IS DATING CHARLES??

user91: AND HE CAME ON STAGE?? AND THEY PERFORMED OLDER??

user50: i cant believe i saw this all happen live

user47: THANK YOU TO WHOEVER WAS RUNING THE GRAINY LIVESTREAM I OWE YOU MY LIFE🧎🧎🏻‍���️🧎🏻‍♀️

ashtonirwin: thank you for everything yn. youre a real life angel

user16: NO CHARLES MENTION??

user9: BESTIE HE HAS A WHOLE POST

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after having time to process this show, I feel so overcome with gratefulness. my music means so much to me and seeing so many people resonate with it in a live space was so special for me.

charlie, my life would literally fall apart without you and this would have never happened without you giving me the confidence to do so, i hold so much love and admiration for you

thank you for joining me on such a special night and performing our song with me, thank you for sticking with me through it all and thank you for allowing me to share this part of my life with you

i sometimes wonder where i would be if i didnt find you, if i wasnt blessed with your love. i try to think about the times before you, before us, but both feel impossible to do after feeling your love

life with you is so special and i promise to always cherish and love you

merci de m'avoir laissé vieillir avec toi, merci de m'avoir laissé t'adorer, merci de m'avoir choisi (thank you for letting me get old with you, thank you for letting me adore you, thank you for choosing me)

yn x

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charles_leclerc: mon ange, je t'aimerai toujours (my angel, I will always love you)

charles_leclerc: je suis tellement privilégiée d'être celle que tu aimes🤍🤍 (I'm so privileged to be the one you love)

yourusername: vieillir avec toi ne semble pas si effrayant🖤🖤 (growing old with you doesn't seem so scary)

[drchucktingle]

Good day Dr. Tingle. I haven't read your stories, but I've known about you from afar in this website for a while. Your recent post about separating Ideas and Message is very similar to how I teach a class. I wanted to ask you, if you could share some of your Messages, in whichever structure/length/complexity you think about them before writing, to have some real world examples to show in class.

Personally I tend to simplify and shorten my messages as much as possible, like "everyone deserves forgiveness" for example, so that I can permeate it throughout the story, and so that anyone experiencing the story can come to a similarish conclusion.

I'm curious as to how your Messages look like inside your head, during the creative process. Not the refined versions used for marketing and sales and stuff.

Thank you!

sure buckaroo.

high concept idea of the book STRAIGHT was this: zombie apocalypse story but the rage only effects straight cis people (there is also a second high concept idea in there which is: what if zombie plague only happened one day a year? how would culture handle this politically and otherwise?)

so i had this idea that i thought was good, but before i can write it i think 'well what do i want to SAY about this? what am i FEELING?'

and i realized that i was a little torn about how to write this story because of the one day a year thing. when is it okay to fight back? can you hurt a zombie if it turns back into a person the next day? is that right or wrong? and WHEN is it right or wrong? what situations?

then i realized that with the metaphor of this story what i was really asking was something bigger: why is it up to the victims (in this case queer buckaroos) to be forced to make these decisions? marginalized groups have TWO kinds of violations done to them, the first is the obvious act of violation, but the second is that they are forced to use their time and mental space and emotional tolerance to learn how to HANDLE the first violation in an 'acceptable way'

so THAT became my message. if you want to know how i feel about these questions you can read STRAIGHT and find out.

CAMP DAMASCUS high concept idea was (SPOILERS IF YOU HAVE NOT READ CAMP DAMASCUS STOP READING HERE) what if the church really DID decide the ends justify the means and instead of stopping demonic possession they were inflicting demonic possession to counter sinful acts.

but that is not the message of the book. that is just the idea. if i just had that idea i would not write it, but as things evolved i realized WHAT i wanted to say with this story

in this situation WHO is the force of 'evil'? would it be the demons? would it be the possessed? or would it be the SYSTEM AND MENTALITY that was creating this situation in the first place? so the book sets out the answer this question and express the conclusion that ive made for myself

i also noticed that many churches who are anti gay have a sort of infantilizing trot with how they handle their young buckaroos. this idea that gay feelings will just go away if they are ignored and that they can almost keep young queer buckaroos from ever aging into fully realized adults. obviously i think this is WRONG and so fighting back against this mentality became part of the message as well, and that informed most of the metaphor and symbolism in the book.

it is important to keep in mind that sometimes the message can change. as the book trots along i am LEARNING myself, working out these thoughts on the page and coming to a conclusion of my own. this is actually VERY true of BURY YOUR GAYS, which is probably most autobiographical thing i have written. i will save talking about that MESSAGE and HIGH CONCEPT for after book is out though

EDIT FOR CLARITY OF MY WAY:

when i say i write MESSAGE FIRST that does not mean i think of the message first in TIME (although that does happen sometimes) it means the message is the most important thing over plot or characters or anything like that (although those are important too). it means that i write with message as my north star, which is rare, but it is how i make art

[scaranation]

hi hi !! could you write an ANGST with Dottore and Zhongli where we break up with them? maybe in dottore we break up because we can't bear(?) his experiments anymore and in Zhongli one we feel not enough/that he loves someone else (maybe Guizhong?)

Gn reader or Fem!reader(if u write for fem. sorry if u do not,i couldnt find rules and im really really sorry ! :( ... )

p.s will there be To love another 3rd part? it's my fav fanfic ever !!

love your work ♡♡

hihihi i know this is like super late but this prompt is literally so good 😭 also im thinking of writing another part to that fic, but i just dont know where to take it so ive been procrastinating haha

dottore’s part is kinda ooc bcs let’s be real if he’s that whipped for reader he wouldn’t let them break up with him, but im going to pretend that he’s not as much of a red flag as he actually is 🤭🤭

༊*·˚ 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 𝐈𝐓 𝐎𝐅𝐅

Pairing: Dottore x GN!reader, Zhongli x GN!reader (separate)

Content: Angst, no comfort. Mentions of canon typical violence, assumed past Guizhong x Zhongli

DOTTORE

“It seems my beloved has finally thought to visit me.”

You cringed from the overpowering metallic scent as you stepped into your boyfriend’s laboratory, trying hard not to look at the borderline gruesome sights on the clinical beds.

Dottore cleaned the blood off a bone saw he was holding, setting the instrument down carefully before walking towards you - eyes lit up, but holding a gleam different to the maniacal one he usually possessed.

“How was your day, my love?” His voice was humorous. He seemed to be in a good mood, humming lightly while opening the door for you.

“It was fine.” You sighed as you felt the weight of Dottore’s harbinger coat settle across your shoulders, registering the touch of his hand as he pulled you into him and away from the Snezhnayan cold.

“Has that coworker of yours still been bothering you?”

“… Don’t try pretending.”

“Whatever could you be talking about?” The Doctor’s grip on you tightened.

“I wouldn���t wish death on anyone, even if they annoyed me to that extent.” You sighed, finally tilting your head to stare into the planes of your lover’s mask.

“Oh, they’re not dead. Rather, they’ve been subject to some biological modifications of an experimental kind - would you like to see?”

You gritted your teeth.

“I’m hungry, don’t make me lose my appetite.”

“Good thing I have a nice place booked for dinner, my love.”

His compliance was almost uncanny.

-

Normal couples gazed affectionately into each other’s eyes over meat and wine, fingers fondly interlaced over the dining table. And yet, you couldn’t bring yourself to return Dottore’s adoring scarlet gaze, and his hold on your hand felt more like a death trap.

“Is the food to your liking?” He asked. He hadn’t touched any of the vegetables on his plate, only biting into the steak.

“Yes. You should eat greens, too.” You commented.

“Mm. Why don’t you feed me, then?” Dottore only tilted his head, smiling eagerly. Recently, a fear of you being turned into one of the harbinger’s countless experiments had taken hold, and it was this same fear that drove you to play right how he wanted. And so, lifting your fork, you fed him with all the patience you could muster - staring into those deep red eyes, feeling like nothing more than prey. Those eyes would’ve been the last thing many others had seen before their death, the end of their lives marked by that sadistic grin. You almost shuddered at the thought.

Normal couples slept under starry nights reflected in their star crossed hearts as they cuddled close under soft sheets. Normality was such a strange concept, you decided. Despite the fact that you were doing just what normal couples should, the situation was still absurd. However, your fear of becoming another one of the harbinger’s lab rats wasn’t unfounded. You mulled over this fact, almost snorting at the juxtaposition. Here you were - wondering if the man who cradled you in his arms would strap you down to a table in the name of research.

“My love, are you still awake?” You felt Dottore’s breath ghost over your neck, his face pressing into your nape. With a rustle, he readjusted the blanket over your shoulders.

“Yeah, I can’t sleep.”

“Nightmares, perhaps? I have a pill you can use for those.”

“No, just… thinking.” You squirmed in Dottore’s hold. His comment only reignited your spiralling train of thought, pushing you further to the point of resolve.

If he could kill his clones - literal versions of himself - then what would stop him from doing the same to you? Even if you remained alive, would you have to continue to tolerate being exposed to such grotesque horrors?

It was simply better to break things off, before you no longer had the option to.

Breakfast.

The first meal of the day, and the last meal you’d share with your boyfriend.

“Dottore.”

“Yes?” The Doctor’s head jerked up immediately from where he was chewing. You could feel the undivided weight of all his attention sinking into you, and for a moment, you faltered. He was notorious for paying little mind to anyone else, and yet, he treated you with the utmost attentiveness. You steeled your resolve.

“I think… we should break up.”

Silence. Then, the grating scrape of cutlery against crockery.

“Why.”

Not a question, more of a demand. You gulped.

“Do you want me to be honest with you?”

“Yes. Is it something I did?”

“I can’t bear your experiments anymore, Dottore. They’ve gone too far, and I don’t think I can stomach living normally with you as if I don’t know the kind of things you do. Even worse, every day I’m wary that I might be your next test subject - whenever I walk into your lab, I wonder when I’ll be the one under your needles. It’s exhausting.”

Another beat of silence. You could see Dottore’s chest rising and falling at an increasingly fast pace, his jaw tensing.

“I would never, ever do that to you. It’s ridiculous that you’d even think that, and as for your prior reason… I can arrange for you to come to the lab less often…”

“So you’re just going to cover my eyes and act like you’re not doing anything with those experiments? I just can’t be ignorant here, nor can I trust you. If you can get rid of your clones so easily, then what am I? What value do I hold-“

“Those creations do not even compare to you.” Dottore finally snapped, slamming his hand down on the table. You flinched, and he felt as though his lung capacity had been halved. His head spun in tandem with the rapid tightening of his heart, his mouth twisting into a scowl.

It hurt Dottore, realising that you didn’t trust him. That all those fond, intimate memories together were just you acting out of fear - or at least, the most recent ones were. It hurt, beyond anything Dottore thought he could inflict on his patients. And even worse, you were frightened of him. The light shaking of your shoulders and the way you flinched were enough indication.

The Doctor enjoyed seeing his victims become terrified, but that same terror on you almost made him feel like he’d been the one stabbed with a scalpel. Foolishly, he’d fallen victim to his own maniacal research tendencies.

“Listen, I didn’t mean to scare you. I just meant to say… that you can trust me.” Dottore raised his hand towards you to cup your cheek, wincing when you avoided the action.

“I tried to, I really did. But I don’t think I can do it anymore.”

“My love, please.”

The second harbinger was begging. What a strange sight.

“Let me go, Dottore.” You murmured shakily. You saw hesitation, hurt, and anger flit through those vermilion eyes you’d used to love. But that love you held for him had only smouldered into disgust and fear.

“… Then go. Get out of my sight.” Dottore hissed, his teeth clenching at the wary expression on your face.

It was painful, how you walked out without a second glance.

“My love…” Dottore whispered. He stared at the closed door, almost expecting you to return. He repeated the phrase, over and over to himself - his face contorting into an expression he himself couldn’t name. Was there truly an emotion as human as this? It was a twisted, unimaginable feeling the Doctor couldn’t categorise. The syllables came off his quivering lips, as though by uttering them he could make you come back.

But the truth was, your not-so-normal relationship was over. Perhaps, Dottore would return to the normality of his heartless experiments, and you’d return to the normality of a better fate than one you’d endure by his side.

He only regretted not being able to hold you more.

ZHONGLI

There were only two letters between you and your lover, but those two letters seemed to stretch wider every day - ‘I’, and ‘M’. The seemingly infinite synapse between mere ‘mortal’, and ‘immortal’.

Zhongli was undeniably a mortal vessel, but he as a being was not. He’d lived eons before you, loved and hated thousands. He’d experienced things you couldn’t even fathom, and yet, you couldn’t comprehend how he treated you as though your fleeting existence was the centre of his much larger world.

Whenever you looked into Zhongli’s amber eyes, heard his deep laugh, or felt his gentle caress, you could only feel insignificant. After all, he used to be a literal god. You couldn’t help the guilt that gnawed at your conscience, couldn’t stamp out the incessant feeling that he was too good for you, that you couldn’t compare to whatever lovers he’d had in the past.

“How’s the tea, darling?” Zhongli prompted. He sat with his back to the window, basking in an almost ethereal glow.

“Ah, I have yet to try it.” You shook yourself out of your thoughts to raise the cup in front of you. Zhongli only smiled warmly, but the gesture made your hand shake a little. You’d planned to break up with him today, and yet the way he still stared lovingly at you - full of infinite trust - made you feel terrible.

But how many others had he also treated this way? In his life, those others were probably far more special than you, possessing talents far more worthy of a god’s attention.

Suddenly, a shattering sound pierced your ears, and a scalding warmth set into your thigh. You looked down in a daze, before snapping out of it upon realising that you’d dropped the teacup.

“Are you okay?” Zhongli was at your side in an instant, mopping up the spilled tea and collecting the broken fragments of the cup.

“Yeah.” You gritted your teeth again. How dare someone as insignificant as you make Rex Lapis get down on his knees to clean the mess you’d made. It simply made you feel as though you didn’t deserve such a wonderful man at all.

“You’ve been distracted lately. Is there anything I should know about?” Zhongli asked slowly.

“No. Well, yes.” You stammered. You hadn’t planned this out very well, and your heart squeezed tighter.

“Go ahead. You know you can tell me anything, darling.”

A warm hand came to rest against your cheek. You closed your eyes, feeling tears build and slip down your face.

Zhongli wiped at your tears, holding your hands in your lap as he looked up at you worriedly - his thumbs tracing comforting circles on your knuckles. He thought of saying something, before deciding against it. He knew it was better to let you speak first.

“Let’s break up.” You blurted, feeling Zhongli’s fingers come to a complete stop.

“We can work through this, tell me why first. Has something been upsetting you?”

Your tears fell harder. He still showed you so much kindness, never jumping to any conclusions.

“I feel like I don’t deserve you. You’re too good for me, it makes me feel guilty that someone like me can have you.” You sobbed.

“Darling, you know it makes me happy to just spend time with you. That in itself is fair exchange, no?”

“But what makes that so special? You’ve lived for so long, you could’ve done this with anyone else, and you probably have. Who am I in comparison to someone like Guizhong?”

Through your blurred vision, you could still see Zhongli’s form kneeled by your side. He seemed to be choosing his next words carefully.

“You and her are both special, in your own way. Why don’t you calm down a little first? I can pour you some more tea.”

“I’m so selfish, Zhongli. I really don’t think I can stay with you.”

“Do you really want to leave that badly?”

Your heart twisted. You didn’t want to leave. You wanted to stay in his warm embrace, his soft understanding gaze. And yet, you couldn’t bring yourself to.

“… Yes.”

“Very well then. You know I won’t stop you, because I just want what’s best for you.”

The light grip on your hands released, and as you stood up everything seemed to spin.

“Thank you… for everything.” You murmured, stealing one last glance at the man you loved - before leaving.

Zhongli remained where he was for some time. In his life, many things came to an end, but this hurt a little more. When Guizhong had left him, it was due to her passing - the youthful Rex Lapis had found someone to blame, to ventilate his grief. But the most crude fact in this situation was that you were still alive, and had chosen to leave him of your own volition. Zhongli himself had made this happen.

However, an archon’s most prized trait was impartiality. Therefore, Zhongli knew that he had to maintain indifference. He refused to let himself chase after you, or force you into anything. It was only unfair, if an immortal were to impose such a fate onto a mortal.

And so, he could only watch as you faded from his life, like the cyclic ebb of waves on an ocean shore.

[yoru-no-seiiki]

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def something w/ canon eren! but other than that you can could go as wild as u want! :p

god where do i start?? i’ll mostly write for early seasons eren since i refuse to watch the whole thing until i’m done with season one on my quotev book as a motivator but i’ll add some tidbits that i got from other fanfics. go check it (my book) out btw!! it’s called Walk With Me!! (currently on the next chapter which is around 10k words atm huhu)

as always he’s aged up to 18 during enlistment and massive spoilers for those that don’t know the lore/story yet.

MDNI. DDDNE!!

yandere! eren is a force of absolute willpower. he is obsessive, he is protective, and very much goddamn possessive. he needs you, he needs you to need him too if not moreso. he grew up in a very traditional household and expected to be the provider in the family. the least you could do is have him in your thoughts at all times.

if you want max yandere! potential with him, it’s best to have known him even before armin. be close family friends. maybe your parents worked with his dad since marley and were similarly banished (but not turned into mindless titans).

as children he’d always been protective of you. he’d always stick to you like glue. and because of future him’s influence over grisha and essentially your parents, you were arranged to even sleep in the same bed.

but this sort of backfired in the long run cause you saw him as this annoying brother figure that just wouldn’t stop bothering you.

and one day you just blurt out, tired of the suffocation you felt with your friend, with your parents that vehemently kept pushing you two together, of everything in your life that you couldn’t control.

“i wonder what it’s like beyond the walls.”

i feel like armin would still be the true trigger of eren’s obsession with the outside and freedom (after all, he doesn’t give a shit about yours so why and how would you influence him in that area?), but you probably pushed him in terms of the survey corps.

you were dumb at the time. i mean as a kid, who isn’t? so you announced to literally everyone you knew that you planned to join the military and eventually explore the outside world.

you didn’t really understand the concept of death and all but whatever that was, you still thought it would be better than eren’s basically isolating you from anything that moves.

you dont truly understand death until eren kills those intruders in mikasa’s house right in front of you.

you were supposed to help him, but only stood there frozen in fear.

thankfully mikasa awakened just in time, with eren shouting at her to save you.

speaking of mikasa, her true allegiance/ackerman blood thingy is still with eren in this fic but i headcannon that since his first command was to for her to fight for you she also has the same knee jerk reaction for whenever she perceives you’re being harmed.

in anycase, that day ™️ happens and you all start training.

it had already been obvious since you were teens but eren started looking at you from a different angle. the sexual kind.

your lack of contact with other people due to his influence had made you a bit of a pushover, as such he’d often coerce you into sex or other related acts.

i mean, you had to pity him! he never had the opportunity to explore and act on his urges. mans stayed a virgin til he enlisted and he’s pent up. you try to argue that it’s cause he was so hung up on revenge that he’s bitchless but that only leads to him questioning you if you’ve been seeing other people behind his back.

i mean you two were basically together, why would he see other people? don’t tell him that you’ve been … cheating on him? how could you!

so yeah he does the same thing to mikasa (the manipulation not the sex lol) and forces her to guard the two of you during your ‘trysts’ (which is just him, the inexperienced boy rutting into you and getting off while you stood/laid there uncomfortable silence)in addition to basically shutting down whatever feelings she might have brewing for him (poor mikasa dude)

but surprisingly eren is the most lax to you during this time period. despite the literal r*pe, he basically allowed you to roam around and do whatever for a change. frankly, it was mostly cause he had to catch up in terms of training, but also cause his FREEDOM ideal is the strongest during this phase.

anddd depending on your behavior you might get pimped out. only to those that he can trust though. god even jean got a taste of you because he lost a bet. he promptly beats up the man afterwards though.

if you’re more focused on training and acquiesce to his demands (hormones) however you’ll be enjoying the only three years of your life where eren’s presence wasn’t looming like dread of your death by a titan’s hands.

now i can’t vouch for how accurate i can portray later seasons eren but basically he’s the worst in yan levels at that point.

once he can fully utilize his powers there is literally no escape for you, not even his death, unless you have some sort of power that hides your ass. he’d already prepared for everything from your captivity to how your life will be like after his inevitable demise.

like i said before, he’d be the type to give you an illusion of freedom. he hates the idea of being caged and vice versa. so specifically speaking after his death and the end of the series, you’ll go from being stuck in a remote area to being free but with hundreds of armed guards watching your every move. hell maybe even the whole “town/village/city” you live in will all just be paid actors he had staged. he will never let you move on from him. whether you like it or not, you’re his in life, in death, as he is dying, and beyond that.

[anemoiashifts]

a collective shifting reading.

hi guys :) if you’re seeing this on tumblr that means you’re getting this three hours early but 7.10 is the anemoiashifts tiktok accounts first birthday 🎂🤍 !

i wanted to do something special & originally i wanted to talk about the first time — and only time — that i have shifted but i don’t think im ready to share something that personal to hundreds of strangers on the internet. then, i was going to do a q&a but i thought that would be a little lazy, then i thought about going live & doing live shifting readings on tiktok but im a pretty shy person so that idea went out the window as quickly as it came. so i hope this video will do :) !

this is a collective shifting reading for all of my followers or anyone who comes across this. this reading is going to be a little longer then my previous ones because i want to provide as much clarity as i can to try & help you guys ⊹ ₊ ⟡ ⋆

who this is for ₊˚ෆ

this reading is for everyone who has shown me support within the past year or decided to stick around for whatever reason; even if this video magically stumbles upon your path. but here are some specifics that ive picked up on:

star or heart shaped jewelry (rings, bracelets, necklaces, etc.) specially, silver jewelry or silver in general. maybe you’re someone who doesn’t take well to criticism. if you have a connection to foxes, mice / rats or house cats. shiny & holographic clothing. soft makeup shades (baby pink, nudes, baby blue).

reading ₊˚ෆ

your biggest “blockade” is your over commitment to your desired reality & shifting as a whole. there needs to be balance or you are pouting yourself at risk for losing your sense of self & going into a downwards spiral. your relationship with shifting is filled with limerence instead of taking control of your life & looking at your life (here or in your dr) long term. you may have multiple dr’s which only fuel that fascination with shifting as a concept. you want to experience so many different things, but you can’t do everything all at once. you have made too many commitments at once. to provide that clarity to yourself, focus on one place at a time. the reason you are so disconnected to your dr is because you’re trying to simultaneously connect with the ten others that you have in that works.

you already understand what doesn’t serve you, doesn’t serve you. weather that be patterns or methods or mindset. you have already let go of them. you don’t need to rehash what you already know. while nostalgic, the era of 2020 / 2021 shiftok has ended & looking back on the past is pointless. because of this looking back to this era with such a yearning to re-spark that initial excitement that you had when the idea of shifting was shown to you, it can quickly become a distraction; reminiscing instead of reigniting.

if you feel stuck, it’s because you feel directionless in your shifting journey. you have so many ideas & so much you want to do but feel lost at sea. you are struggling yo see progress or success. without looking back on what no longer serves you, go back to what you want to get out of shifting. to get out of this never ending cycle, you need to take responsibility for yourself & journey. you also need to recognize the power you already hold. nothing separates a “successful” shifter from a non successful shifter other then how you personally choose to define it. this could be a reflection of your lack of self confidence & be a sign to honoring yourself. how your view yourself, dictates your relationships with other people & how you show up in the world. you could be repressing traumas & emotions & trying to put a band aid over them though shifting. if you feel shame or stupid for putting in energy to reality shift, don't. if it brings you joy then know anything that brings you happiness is worth it & never a waste.

thank you for reading & i hope this resonated with you & you were able to maybe see your journey in a new light or get some clarity. i love you so very much !! ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀ !!

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

love all your thoughts on eridan so much!! ive had erikar as a passive concept in my head since i started slowly rereading homestuck, bit i never invested as much thought into it...it makes a LOT of sense.

very curious on your thoughts on eridan and nepeta, if you have any? i dont really see much around of the two of them and how they may act around each other (most likely because, iirc, they have basically no substantial interaction in the comic....) but its a concept ive twisted around in my head a little.

Hahah, one of my friends is a Nepeta roleplayer, so we have hashed this OUT. Basically, I think if they talked a bit more, under the right circumstances, they might try pitch for a bit, but resolve to normal friendship. TL;DR, at the end of the day, they just don't really have anything to particularly hate about each other, or to particularly love, but I think they'd make for really good friends actually, if Eridan gets his shit together and Nepeta comes out of her shell a little more. She might wind up having to play auspice for him because... he has a lot of problems... and as a Heart player, with more proximity to him, she'd realize "oh, wait, he's not that bad, hes just mentally fucking ill," and there are people on the team who would not give him that kind of grace.

Flushed is pretty canonically off the table - despite having hit on her several times, Eridan seems to have accepted the rejection, and Nepeta herself comments that it always came off as "cr33py and insincere", which it probably was - he's clearly not over Feferi, and has a kind of "please god anyone would be fine I just don't want to be alone" vibe. Nepeta is definitely looking for more sincerity than that, and although Eridan's Type is very much cheerful, bubbly, nice girls (what he thinks Feferi is), I think they're pretty incompatible overall.

His antics and Emotional Issues would probably be super taxing on Nepeta long-term, he'd wind up in a million fights with protective Equius (Eridan is a crazed murderer even just objectively), and he's really not a particularly kind or pleasant person.

Meanwhile, although he's basically willing to go along with anything that'll get him attention, I think he'd be very puzzled by Nepeta's expectations that he do Romantic Things, or otherwise adhere to certain romantic tropes and social norms, which he can't do; when this inevitably leads to hurt feelings, his response to perceived danger is "fight," so he'd probably end up making it worse. So! Flushed is flushed. Down the load gaper, I mean.

Trying on pitch, I think if Nepeta was already a little bit out of her shell - say, Equius has died, or she's otherwise locked in a SGRUB dungeon with him, or something like that - she and he would come to blows over Eridan's performative casteism. Nepeta's the anti-casteism troll, after all, and if she's worked up enough, she's quite spirited and opinionated, and Eridan is down for anything, so it would be something I can absolutely see forming.

Actually, hilariously, when my friend and I RP'd this out, Nepeta wound up with a pitch crush, and Eridan wound up with a FLUSHED crush, because he was THAT BAD at differentiating between good and bad attention. Nepeta was totally floored, she was like, dude i was calling you stupid and terrible??? how the fuck did you interpret that as FLUSHED??? and eridan was like i dont know... maybe... i might have mental illness......

The problem is, I don't see their pitched dalliance lasting, for two main reasons - the first is that Eridan wouldn't hate Nepeta long-term, even if he can work up some caliginous energy because he's desperate; she's too genuinely nice and kind and he loves nice and kind people. Similarly, Nepeta wouldn't be able to hate Eridan the more she got to know him - since he's kind of the least casteist highblood, despite his initial impression, she would lose her fundamental reason for opposing him, and would instead start going "oh god, hes so traumatized, he's like that because he's really messed up inside."

The second is because I think they're dangerous for each other, physically. Eridan is a volatile highblood with severe emotional problems and a bodycount in the thousands, and Nepeta is very reckless in the face of danger; I can genuinely see them going a little too hard and Eridan getting a bit of a highblood buzz and winding up severely injuring Nepeta, which he would feel completely fucking terrible about, and then not allow himself to ACT like he feels terrible about it. Even if they stay in the relationship, it would kill his vibe, since when he isn't on an outright murder spree, he doesn't want to hurt his friends ("wwhat kind of friend wwould i be"). And that's not even factoring in how much EQUIUS would flip out over it.

I also don't think Nepeta is particularly equipped to deal with Eridan's problems, even if she does recognize and sympathize with them more than most on their team. Although she'd have more success than others, I think it'd leave her exhausted, because Eridan is exhausting. A Heart player obsessed with true feelings and sincerity and genuineness is just a bad match for the kid who's 90% façade.

So, ultimately, I think they'd resolve to really good friends, and Nepeta might wind up being a middle leaf for Eridan in an auspicetism situation, since Eridan... tends to draw aggro, and Nepeta at least would care about him enough that she doesn't want to see him get killed (even in the comic, as Nepetasprite, she expresses sadness that Eridan is dead, although she doesn't seem to know about his murders).

Eridan is also a roleplayer, lest we forget, and if Nepeta is able to draw out rare flashes of genuineness, they do have a bunch in common - she could commiscerate with him over the thrill of the hunt (although she'd have to be careful not to get too into the weeds about the, uh, Troll Murder aspect), RP with him (in a safe environment), or gossip about romance. They're both pretty painfully sincere people at their core, so while I ultimately don't see them being particularly romantically compatible, I do really love the idea of them being close friends. If only Eridan didn't always make things Fucking Weird.

And also since I really love pitch FefNep, Nepeta becoming friends with Eridan would help fuel her hate dates with Feferi - ":33 < do you even realize how messed up killing lusii fur YOU left him???" "W)(at would you )(ave preferred, t)(at my lusus went )(ungry and krilled everybody? 3X0"

[drdemonprince]

Any chance you'd expand on the hank hill trans guy post? (Sorry, best indicator I could come up with.) The concept interests me as I decidedly know my maleness, yet don't feel impeded by for the most part, any male gendered norms/boxes. I am fairly masculine, though I rarely use those kinds terms to describe myself. I have found I often do stray outside of what society pushed for me when I transitioned, yet I again do not feel it has taken from my right to maleness whatsoever. I am just me, who happens to be male. I have had friends try and suggest I am NB adjacent but I do not feel this way whatsoever. I feel more people are outliers to gender expectation than we care to admit and it's disappointing the way cis-people deny that. Hope this wasn't too long winded, I value your writing and perspective, and wanted to hear more of your thoughts on this.

Yeah, well so many things all get conflated by gender labels, and it's all so personal, you know? Masculinity does not have to mean maleness, and a person's gender identity might be a reflection of some innate quality they experience themselves as having, or a general summary of their tendencies, or their desired presentation, or their sense of affinity with other people, or an interpersonal tool, or something they just go along with because it was given to them by society, or any other number of things.

I think my recent substack piece on detransition goes into this pretty well, and I have an upcoming piece of what @pastimperfection calls "bilateral dysphoria" that comes out next week that delves into it too.

I think I mostly saw taking on a male identity as a means to an end more than any kind of innate reflection of who I was, though I did feel an affinity with effeminate men for a lot of reasons. I think I also discounted how much I have in common with my fellow nonbinary people of all stripes, because that identity became so strongly associated with being an annoying type of queer person that everybody else just wrote off as ultimately being their assigned gender at birth anyway no matter how much they protested. it doesn't help that 'nonbinary' is a catchall term for literally thousands if not millions of very distinct experiences and desires.

transitioning gave me control over how i was perceived, finally, but hormones are a throttle that only go in one very specific direction, and you don't really have all that much control over which changes kick in at which times and what people will make of you once you do start registering to them as some identity other than what you were first saddled with. it's an incredible gift to be able to toggle that throttle. but it's limited, not because medical transition isn't incredible and needed for so many, but because there is no escaping the goddamned binary cissexist logic that influences everything about how people treat you, how you navigate institutions, who finds you desirable and what they want out of you, and so much else.

if you're able to cast a lot of the external societal bullshit aside and feel strong in your maleness, maybe you're stronger than me or maybe our orientation to these things is just different, i don't know. i was never all that sensitive to feedback that i was doing the whole being-a-woman-thing all that wrong. i reveled in violating those rules to an extent. succeeding at being a woman despite my best attempts was what felt super dysphoric. and now i guess im succeeding at being a man, insofar as im always read as one, and it feels just as uncomfortable and objectifying and false. i thought that with manhood i could probably just grit my teeth and deal with it, but i'm finding that i can't.

ive always been very open that for me, gender is a thing I Do, and i guess to those who know me well it wouldnt be surprising to hear that i have gotten tired of Doing Being a Man and dont feel like playing that particular gendered game anymore. I tend to get bored of things! and find the flaws in things. and find my comfort in being fault-finding and contrarian and not being a joiner. and thats okay. i learned a lot along the way. not having to try any more is a huge relief. i can just do whatever. and know actively that people will more often than not be wrong in what they make of me.

maybe it was natural feeling for you to decidely 'know' your maleness without a care for masculine standards because that is the right identity for you! and maybe i only feel secure in the "not knowing" realm and in letting go of what people think of me or finding any kind of tidy categorization for it because that's the right spot for me. for now. until i find a new interesting way to be unhappy and striving for more and different again. :) that's just part of being alive, for me.

[kyuummie]

read about my sons NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!’!

recently ive taken it upon myself to turn glitterduo (argbur and incelbur/simpbur) into my ocs, allen (he him) and salem (he she they) after realizing how much i was attached to them and might go as far as reclaiming even more relevant burs

theyre kind of like a gag anime with a broad plot that has only 50% to do with the actual episode youre watching. They just kind of exist and go through day to day things together because theyre buds. maybe you will like them too if you liked bur sonas…i just wanted to share something that gave me joy. theyre like if triple baka was double baka mesmerizer if it was awesome

who should be the third baka or the yellow one that wasnt in mesmerizer vote down below /hj

more random stuff about them under the cut

no salem is not an incel. Thought i should preface that LMFAO (i still think its crazy how much the fandom (using that term lightly cause of how fan driven the concept of burs were) “woobified” incelbur/simpbur seeing how much of a creep he apparently is. its ok i was a part of it and i never do anything wrong ^_^)

i originally had a really hard time trying to figure out a plotline for these two, my first draft “salmon alley” was about them being platonic soulmates and having to figure out how to live together. one, i didnt like the name cause it sounded to much like salmonella. Second, i didnt really know where to go with the soulmate thing and i didnt even know if i wanted to have a story for them

then, i wanted to go the unconventional route and make them little magical girls (“1-chance duet”) with the point of them being tied together as two magical girls who were destined to save, well, mentally unstable people 😭, before they could save themselves, and i gave salem a bunny hood which is where his current hat comes from

i might use some of this as au ideas or their general “plot”. but i kind of like them just being there and only serving as comfort and a source of joy? these two just Happened to both be my faves and also be created by some douche. so, if you were also a bur sona liker, youre like a sleeper agent 🕵️ maybe theyll go ghost hunting and find blue (gb). Travel back in time to find an old timey president at a bar (lmanbr). go a couple months forward to find him depressed, and deceased the next day (pogbr). maybe theyll be taken by the mad scientist who sent them back in time(malpractice). maybe theyll meet god himself (100p??). Hey allen why do all these guys look vaguely like us and all have brown shoulder length hair

i remember i had my designs for og glitterduo memorized like muscle memory, i have no idea how i got over them so quickly but when i was reminded of them i couldnt keep the demons inside…i drew arg all the time in class and i love edgy characters so he was my perfect little guy. i might still refer to them (especially allen) as arg/incel/simp. Maybe this is another 2 week phase but i love them

also, i dont know what to call their “series”. i have two in mind: amygdala’s resonance/just amygdala, or hatena (as in question mark) but i think amygdala seems way too dark and edgy for what im thinking

[consultingfujoshi]

can you please share a bit more of your thoughts on the spoilers? i haven't seen them anywhere and it would be nice to know them coming from you

hiii tumblr mobile does not give timestamps for asks so idk if this is in regard to the spoilers from the interviews or the screenings but all my thoughts are kinda connected to both so SPOILER WARNING FOR THE FIRST TWO EPISODES OF SEASON 2 UNDER THE CUT LALALALA

I don't even know where to start like. I have been in a state of shock all day because literally everything my friends and I speculated about is real. literally all of it. all of our wildest theories about aziraphale and crowley's first meeting were confirmed by the fans who saw the screening. I have never won this fucking hard and ive won AT GOOD OMENS OF ALL THINGS. 2022 me would be laughing. june 2023 me would be laughing. two days ago me would be LAUGHING. I genuinely think this may be one of the best seasons of tv ever guys

like. do you understand. how much this changes. how our understanding of crowley and aziraphale's dynamic throughout time has been totally flipped on its head. aziraphale approached crowley first. crowley was the one who sheltered aziraphale with his wing. so eden was aziraphale returning the favour. DO YOU UNDERSTAND. AZIRAPHALE FELL FIRST. HE DIDNT TAKE SIX THOUSAND YEARS TO CATCH UP. HE HASN'T BEEN CLUELESS THIS ENTIRE TIME. they've literally been connected this entire time, right from before sides or the concept of evil or hatred or enemies were even invented. of course they'd never buy into the whole "hereditary enemies" thing. AZIRAPHALE KNOWS HIM. HE KNOWS CROWLEY. HE'S ALWAYS KNOWN HIM.

and it doesn't even feel like a retcon. it doesn't feel like we need to ignore a bunch of stuff from season 1 to accept or enjoy the added content this season. it's literally just. more shit to help quantify the depth of their love for each other. their connection over countless millennia. I mean if you go back to the very first scene in season 1, aziraphale literally does a double take when crowley appears next to him. that's him realising who it is. he fucking recognised crowley and freaked out for a second. that's why he didn't hear what crowley said!!! he was processing!!!! AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON HOW MUCH MORE SHIT FROM SEASON 1 HURTS NOW. AZIRAPHALE PLEADING WITH CROWLEY BECAUSE HE WAS AN ANGEL, ONCE. CROWLEY WANTING TO TAKE AZIRAPHALE AND RUN AWAY TO LIVE IN A GALAXY THEY HELPED BUILD TOGETHER. AZIRAPHALE ALWAYS TELLING CROWLEY NOT TO QUESTION GOD AND BEING SO AFRAID TO DO THE SAME BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT'S EXACTLY WHY CROWLEY FELL IN THE FIRST PLACE. it's not retconning its just making everything worse!!! azcrow is canon and everything is worse now!!!!!!

the biblical minisode. well. I cannot think about that without having to pace around my house like a person going into labour. I literally stress cleaned my entire house earlier to distract myself from thinking about it. crowley has always always ALWAYS protected aziraphale. always. literally the only reason aziraphale has never killed anything is because crowley has protected him from ever having to do that. crowley's dedication to preserving aziraphale's goodness and allowing him to be his own definition of angelic/holy is the greatest act of service he could bestow upon him and it makes me SICK because him pushing aziraphale to kill adam in 1x06 after all that shows just how desperate he was. both of them realising and understanding at the exact same time that the only person in the universe who really understands them or knows what they're going through is the other, the only person they can rely upon is the other, its just. we've been so wrong. about aziraphale. about the extent to which he knows how important crowley is to him. he's always known. he's just been so afraid. him being prepared to fall to keep doing what he believes is right is so fucking heartbreaking and weve done him such a disservice all these years for calling him naive and mocking him for being slow on the uptake. HE'S ALWAYS KNOWN. HE JUST COULDN'T DO ANYTHING WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE. AND THAT'S SO MUCH WORSE

basically I have never been more scared in my entire life because if they packed this much into the first two episodes and it was deemed tame enough to show ahead of release then what the fuck is in the next four. what are we getting ourselves in for . it's really dawning on me the scope of what this experience is going to be and I simply dont think im going to survive it. again I never expected any of this. this was my definitive "high hopes low expectations" season of tv and it's now it's shaping up to be one the best things I've probably ever seen in my life and. it's cognitive dissonance in its crystallised form. how did we fucking get here.

AND GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVER BOY??????? PLAYING IN CROWLEY'S CAR AS HE GOES TO MAKE UP WITH AZIRAPHALE?????? SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW THIS ISN'T FUNNY

in conclusion

[voxxisms]

vague wishlist thread ideas sorted by character (types?) i have some thoughts sometimes about things i wanna do with vox, plots && ideas. some of these are vague or more specific, && some are just settings or aus. putting a cut for dashboard sake. might link in pinned, will tag appropriately. might add more later.

general interactions / with anyone

vox at the hotel in either seeking redemption or as an investor

vox being injured or your muse fighting him in some capacity

vox stepping in to protect your muse with the goal of taking advantage of the dynamic. soul contract / employment or even just general favor owing

redeemed vox in heaven?? hello?

overpowered au content. this post sorta explains the vibes. he's super paranoid, very powerful, but surprisingly easy to be chill with if you behave well.

role swap vox with anyone literally. the only real one ive considered is alastor, in depth. he's an old - fashioned box head, perfectly modern inside for efficiency but looks like he belongs in the decades he lived in. very gentle, very empathetic && sweet. contracted to lilith (mine unless someone else wants to contract him) && helps the hotel.

vox being contracted to someone else.

arranged marriages / marriages of convenience

human verse stuff!! from either when vox was alive (1898-1945) or i'm happy to play with timelines in aus

bridgerton au, vox is george taylor, a wildly sickly man with too much money && a rake mostly. a lord by blood.

hanahaki. unrequited love that gives them diseases, any ending.

his self - punishment room being discovered.

vox in therapy lmaoo

fake dating.

with valentino

valentino having to fix vox

their toxic / possibly sweet relationship when they're on

vox being jealous / possessive

a break up?? if they're on / off it feels like something that happens a lot, i find them fun to write

marry each other smh tax benefits or domestic, either

valentino saving vox / vox saving valentino

with velvette

vox saving her in any way

her having to fix him post a fight or something else

vox modeling for her

ship stuff is fine, just as like, qpr stuff or mentorships

vox being over protective even if he really shouldnt be

with charlie

vox investing in the hotel for any reason (be it her askance, his own idea, or someone else's, or even seeking redemption ). might be genuine, probably more for info gathering

vox offering to personally assist in repairing the hotel

vox saving charlie from danger for fun bc its always good to have someone owe him something

with husk

knowing husk in his overlord times ( pre show / au )

vox having invested in husk's casino

vox being husk's contract holder for some reason?? could be fun

vox n husk fake dating for any reason i saw art for it once listen

with lucifer

vox seeking lucifer's creation expertise in early years (he was an entrepreneur once)

vox doing work / helping with lulu world being created as resident like, electronics man

vox making a deal with lucifer in some capacity, not necessarily Big Deal but you know

with angel

vox protecting him

vox saving him from valentino's ire (on acccident or otherwise)

vox having to step in for valentino on set lmaooo

angel && vox bonding over their similar experiences with val

vox caring for angel post a valentino encounter

angel for some reason being under contract with vox (different work/different expectations)

with rosie

the two having been close during vox's active relationship with alastor?

vox doing business with rosie / i.e. providing her with bodies or people from his territory in exchange for allyship

him investing in cannibal town somehow. owning property / providing funds for rennovation

tea parties?? him cooking for her?? her teaching him how to make cannibal - based food??

with alastor

alastor having been a mentor to early - hell vox

au in which the two have always remained working together, i love the concept. very media husbands coded but also not necessary to be romantic.

all the backstory, their friendship pre - show, especially the event that actually led them to split. i like to hc that they several things that slowly pushed them apart until vox invited him to the vee's right before alastor disappeared (this is dependent of course on the alastor / those hcs but)

au where alastor actually joined the vee's

au where vox offered alastor his soul in exchange for them remaining "friends". does not have to be a very sweet dynamic ofc

vox cooking for alastor / other vaguely domestic things

generally reconciling bc yknow

vox dying!! in alastor's arms!! or the other way around!! (not necessarily permanent but yknow)

RadioStatic of all flavors, unrequited/unspoken/QPR/exes/anything.

the role swap from above.

with other vox's i love duplicate interactions

the girls are fighting

playing into the doubling && working together

vox trying to help the other vox get back home properly

other vox (or himself) being a clone on purpose

upgrading / fixing each other

protecting each other

left brain right brain vibes???

au swaps? a role reversal vox meeting a regular vox? timeline swaps? one vox is from the 70's one vox is from modern times? one vox who is still friends with alastor && the other who isn't?

[chcrryade]

posted by justbcmb⠀⠀⸻⠀⠀July 4th,  2O21.

Here we are.  Back again.  Don’t worry,  I’m not going to stay here and rehash everything I already said in the last intro.  This second  (and final) part is centred around the groups that make up the lineup of CHERRYADE,  for the most part.  It’s safe to say that if they didn’t implode from the inside and get scrapped because of it,  or simply just fall into the depths of nugudom due to overwhelming disinterest and were quietly disbanded,  we wouldn’t be getting this too-sweet-on-the-tongue group coming next month.  So I guess this is a raise-your-glasses moment  (or a dancing-on-the-grave one,  if you weren’t too keen on any of these boys).

PART iv. algorhythm.

The idea of ALGORYHTHM was only really thrown around on a whim more than anything, at first. A general concept was thought up, thoughtless demos made, but there was no real drive to actually make it happen. Until, of course, they saw the seven trainees that would come to form the final lineup slowly rise in the ranks, and started to make more concrete moves to bring the vision into practice. Everything seemed to be going better and better over the months and months they were active, despite the minor cracks that were starting to appear—in the forms of the leader and the maknae taking more and more shots at one another, until eventually the maknae upped and left. Which, in the end, even with how they tried to dress it up with various other made-up issues, was pretty obviously what caused their end.

METRONOME Media’s first (and only) project, ALGORHYTHM was a seven-made-six-piece fictional South Korean boy group. With a lineup featuring members Daehoon, Seon, DJ, Haeil, Caiden, Youngmin, and finally Levi, the group boasted a concept that told a tale of exploring the wonders of music in a dystopian-like world, one where everything was too clean and too sterile to be natural. They ran from the law and found more and more melodies as they went, making new and like-minded friends on the way. It was something that drew crowds in from the get go, and brought them a largely successful June 2016 debut in the form of the mini album ‘REPEAT.’ Things were already looking bright, their future seeming promising and good reception for all releases to come feeling guaranteed. 

The only problem they faced was mainly between the leader and the maknae. They didn’t get along too well, which didn’t really seem like too much of a problem at first—they never really vocalised their dislike for one another during the first couple of comebacks, the only issue really being the growing tension between the pair. But just after the release of their first full album in February 2017—named ‘OUT / ABOUT’—was when the arguments began. At first it was just petty fights over minor grievances; one of them missed a step in the choreo, the other pronounced a word wrong, so on and so forth. But slowly it started to get a little more personal, began to dig at things neither particularly wanted to bring up. It was an open secret among the seven that there was a trainee Daehoon would have much preferred to be in Levi’s place—a boy by the name of Taewon, who had since upped, left, and cut off all contact with the leader after not being chosen for the debut lineup (a somewhat cruel thing to do, seeing as it was also common knowledge Daehoon only signed up to METRONOME because Taewon did first)—and the fact he didn’t really want Levi in the group to begin with was something that Daehoon slowly started to bring up again and again, finding a way to slip it into every squabble they shared somehow.

The fights were practically a daily occurrence by the time their second mini album rolled around in November 2018 (named ‘RHEMIX’), but this era was the first time the public would be in the know about it. Sudden rumours began to arise after a performance of the title track ‘Toxic’ on Inkigayo, of a fight between the two turning physical for the first time. An anonymous Twitter user backed up their egregious claims by leaking a five-second (albeit very grainy and low quality, the audio even worse) video of this alleged fight, and METRONOME went on the defensive immediately—refuting the claims by saying that the group had left straight after their performance in order to attend another schedule, and then vaguely threatening to take legal action should any more accusations arise. The thing was, though.. The claims were true. The video itself wasn’t exactly what had happened, but the pair did follow through on the various physical threats they’d made to one another over the years, and were escorted out as soon as it had happened. METRONOME had lied on their name purely because they were still basking in the constant success ALGORHYTHM continued to give them, too high on the feeling to let it all fall apart just yet.

It only went even further downhill after that. Their public reputation was (mostly) unscathed from the incident, but relations inside the group were anything but. By that point it was almost a waiting game, to see who’d break first. It was fight after threat to one leaving the dorm to find somewhere else to sleep for the evening to the other stumbling into practice late and still drunk from wherever he’d been the night before—or, to put it plainly, it was all a mess. One that felt like it was never going to end, at that. The remaining members were doing more mediating than singing, more covering their ears or rolling their eyes than dancing. There was practically no extra content released between the eras because staff were worried it’d devolve into yet another Daehoon-Levi fight. And although a few were suspicious, most were blissfully unaware of how ALGORYHTHM were practically falling apart from the inside out.

Until, of course, one of them broke first—and it was Levi. A complete surprise to most of the general public, but something that was a long time coming to everyone else. The announcement was made in March 2019, but he wouldn’t stay inactive for long, going on to join the group SLOW MOTION only a month later in April. And while Daehoon was happy he was gone, the company (and at least half of the remaining members, as while they tried not to take sides, after so many months of enduring it all it was hard not to) didn’t share the sentiment as much. ‘ROUND / AROUND’ was their first release as a six piece and would turn out to be their last as a group, underperforming and pretty much spelling out the end for them when it became crystal clear that, without the maknae, they didn’t really have enough as a leg to stand on as they were. August 2019 came the announcement, and after that ALGORYHTHM was no more. A quite tumultuous ride from start to finish.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀ALGORHYTHM

LABEL⠀ㅇ⠀METRONOME MEDIA

DEBUT DATE⠀ㅇ⠀JUNE 12, 2016

GREETING⠀ㅇ⠀THERE’S A CODE IN THIS BEAT! WE’RE ALGORHYTHM!

FANDOM NAME⠀ㅇ⠀CYDENCE’s

ACTIVE FROM⠀ㅇ⠀2016—2019

PART iv. (2) the members

i.⠀송대훈

Daehoon was the leader, no doubt about it. He commanded attention every time he stepped into a room, took nothing but best, and pushed the limits as much as he could get away with. It was very much tough love during his time as the head of ALGORHYTHM, but that was just what the industry had spat him out as—a cold, no-nonsense leader born to.. Well, lead. He used to be softer, kinder, more compassionate, but that side of him walked out alongside the boy he’d given up all of his hopes for a normal life for in the first place. The same boy that’d go on to drop out and leave Daehoon alone to train, and train, and finally to debut (even if it all turned out futile). He’s been quiet since disbandment, only making an Instagram and posting dance covers every once in a while.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀SONG DAEHOON ( 송대훈. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀SEPTEMBER 20, 1996

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEADER, MAIN DANCER, SUB VOCALIST

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀JEONG YUNHO

ii.⠀설선

Mostly forgotten about by the masses in the present, Seon was one that blended easily into the background, acting as a quiet pillar of support for his members when they needed it. But on the rare occasion when he came out of his shell and was given a chance to shine he worked well as a moodmaker, always having a joke to tell or an anecdote from his past to share. His love and friendship came easy, and he was never not reliable. He was mostly passive, easy-going, calm, and it would’ve taken something truly awful for his temper to be triggered. He’s a figure that his particularly devoted fans miss dearly, seeing as after the disbandment notice he sort of.. Faded into thin air. He hasn’t been heard from since.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀SEOL SEON ( 설선. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀MAY 14, 1994

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN VOCALIST, DANCER

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀JUNG ILHOON

iii.⠀段揭阳

All DJ wanted to do in ALGORHYTHM was make good music, and get rid of the stage name that had been chosen for him—he hated it with a passion. It felt so.. On the nose. And a bit more than mocking. Oh, your dad owns a club? And you worked in it? We have just the name for you! He hated it, and refused to let anyone refer to him as such when they weren’t on a public schedule. He kept his head down and his nose out of all the infighting that was brewing between the other boys, and made demo after demo after demo, hoping even just one of them would get chosen for the upcoming comebacks. He rarely got any chances to speak up or have many moments to himself in any group content, but he didn’t really mind—although his fans were of the opposite opinion, and are now hoping to see far more of him during his time in CHERRYADE.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀DUAN ‘DJ’ JIEYANG ( 段揭阳. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀APRIL 27, 1997

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN VOCALIST, SUB RAPPER, DANCER

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀QIAN KUN

iv.⠀전해일

It felt like all Haeil did in ALGORHYTHM was put his head in his hands after Daehoon went off on one again, sing the only two lines he was usually given on stage, occasionally rap three-second-long verses he wanted to pen himself but wasn’t given the chance to, and have even less of a presence online than Seon (which in itself was a massive achievement, seeing as the oldest of the group only posted once in a blue moon, and that was if he even remembered any of the passwords to their social media accounts). At times he looked like one of Daehoon’s only allies within the group, even if really he was just trying to make him realise that the latest reason he snapped at someone or other (or rather, snapped at Levi) was just a little uncalled for. He wasn’t the most popular, but he wasn’t practically unknown, either—sitting at a sort of middle ground during the group’s runtime that a lot hope to see increased while he’s in CHERRYADE.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀JEON HAEIL ( 전해일. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀NOVEMBER 15, 1999

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEAD RAPPER, LEAD VOCALIST

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀GOO GUNIL

v.⠀안연태

Never not having a thing to say, and always filled to the brim (and often overflowing) with energy, Caiden (birth name Yeontae) had a knack for ending up at the centre of attention, the person who could never fail to make a whole crowd laugh. His creative mind was one that was often utilised, and he always put his all into anything he contributed. He just wanted them to do the best they could, despite all the fights that were getting more frequent, and the rumours that were starting to grow in number. His bond with Youngmin was one that was a massive fan-favourite, fans coming to refer to the duo as ‘the twins’ due to their closeness, and after ALGORYHTHM’s disbandment they went on to leave METRONOME and work independently as the duo DOUBLE-Y (Caiden since having ditched the stage name), releasing a few self-made tracks and making general content together.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀AHN ‘CAIDEN’ YEONTAE ( 안연태. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀FEBRUARY 19, 2000

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN RAPPER, LEAD DANCER, CENTRE

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀ERIC SOHN

vi.⠀교영민

A little quieter (but no less enthusiastic) than his counterpart Yeontae, Youngmin was similarly one that enjoyed his time in the group to the fullest, jumping at every chance he got to contribute to anything related to their music, to extra content, to merch and album concepts, and the like. Anything they were allowed a say in, he was one of the first to jump in. He didn’t ignore the increasing amount of fights as much as Yeontae, though, and attempted to play mediator a few times (although, admittedly, he was more on Levi’s side than he was Daehoon’s—and was devastated when came the time that he left the group, although the then-maknae promised he’d keep in contact; a promise that he stuck to), always stepping in before it escalated too much. Now that the group is no more, he made sure to stick with Yeontae and, as mentioned, the pair now operate as a duo, making music and stupid videos purely consisting of them having fun to their heart’s content.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀KYO YOUNGMIN ( 교영민. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀MAY 2, 2000

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN DANCER, LEAD RAPPER, MAKNAE

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀KIM SEUNGMIN

JUN 2016⠀HOT COLD⠀(FROM MINI ALBUM: “REPEAT”)

FEB 2017⠀DOWNTOWN⠀(FROM FULL ALBUM: “OUT / ABOUT”)

NOV 2017⠀TOXIC⠀(FROM MINI ALBUM: “RHEMIX”)

JUN 2018⠀WON’T STOP⠀(FROM FULL ALBUM: “RHYME AND…”)

JAN 2019⠀NO PAIN⠀(FROM MINI ALBUM: “REWIND”)

MAY 2019⠀ANTIDOTE⠀(FROM FULL ALBUM: “ROUND / AROUND”)

PART v. slow motion.

Really only formed with the best of intentions in mind, a fun concept ready to explore throughout the eras they were anticipated to have, SLOW MOTION was—in theory—what anyone would want in a group. They all got along relatively well, despite a few fights back in their training days, and all had the shared drive to do well, to go far and attempt to make some sort of impact with their music. However, in practice, once they’d finally been released to the public as a final group, it seemed not everyone liked them as much as their company had originally thought. Interest dwindled, even after the addition of Levi to their lineup, and in the end it was all pretty much for nothing. Just another failed attempt.

Put together by FNC Entertainment, SLOW MOTION were a four-turned-five-piece fictional South Korean boy group. Debuting in November 2018 with the mini album ‘STUCK IN FUTURE,’ they—that being members Doyeon, Hoyoung, Seongjin, and Daejun—were met with.. Moderate attention, but didn’t seem as if they would be topping any charts or grabbing any headlines anytime soon. Nevertheless, they carried on as a four-piece, enjoying their time together as a group both in and out of the public eye. Despite the minor scuffles and adversities they faced before debuting, they all liked one another and were all excited about what the future would bring them, how the concept that had been created (a storyline that involved jumping around different time periods and discovering both new music and a new member each time, the theory being that whatever different genre they discovered would then be a main element incorporated in the next comeback) could be explored further. 

In between their debut and first comeback, in April 2019, they were joined by a new member. Levi (or rather Junyeong, as was his birth name) came from a group named ALGORHYTHM, driven to leave by the constant fights between him and leader Daehoon that were steadily getting worse. He was welcomed warmly to the group and integrated almost seamlessly, as if he was there all along. His popularity from his previous group worked well to bring some attention to SLOW MOTION, which then boded well for their next release in June 2019: ‘SINCE WHEN?,’ their first (and what would turn out to be their only) full album. The album seemed to be the start of a good period for SLOW MOTION, where things felt like they were looking up. More and more people were tuning in, the title track ‘Timeline’ earned them their first music show win, and all in all everything felt better than they had in a good while.

But, slowly after that first win, no sooner than a month after the comeback, attention began dwindling again. Numbers started dropping, sales were dipping lower and lower, and by August 2019 things were looking worse than even their debut era. Extra content just stopped being posted of them, seeing as there were practically no fans in the fanbase that were going to watch it, and soon enough it was looking more in the interest of FNC to cut their losses and put an end to them before profit started turning into debt. And so, in December 2019, just over a year of activity, SLOW MOTION were announced to have disbanded. You could say that many look back on them and mourn over what could have been, but the reality is that most have no idea who they even were. It’s the minority of people that are doing the grieving over lost opportunities and such.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀SLOW MOTION

LABEL⠀ㅇ⠀FNC ENTERTAINMENT

DEBUT DATE⠀ㅇ⠀NOVEMBER 19, 2018

GREETING⠀ㅇ⠀STUCK IN TIME! WE’RE SLOW MOTION!

FANDOM NAME⠀ㅇ⠀TRAVELLER’s

ACTIVE FROM⠀ㅇ⠀2018—2019

PART v. (2) the members

i.⠀길도연

Not quite as confident as he’d go on and grow to be, what with SLOW MOTION being his first years of being a real idol, Doyeon didn’t think he was quite cut out to be the leader—a notion that Hoyoung more than agreed with, in their earlier days, believing that he’d be much better suited for the role. He knew when to take the lead when it really mattered, but handling his members on a daily basis was a major struggle. He was an uncomfortable mess of nerves and festering insecurity during their mere year of activity, usually turning to practising late into the night to take his mind off of it. Increasing the strain on himself physically definitely wasn’t the best of ideas, sure, but at the time he felt as if dance was all he knew. So he carried on. Since the disbandment, nothing was known of where he’d end up—until the announcement of CHERRYADE.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀KIL DOYEON ( 길도연. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀FEBRUARY 11, 1998

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEADER, MAIN DANCER

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀JI CHANGMIN

ii.⠀홍호영

Hoyoung was a fuse impatiently waiting to be lit. The slightest thing could set him off, the littlest irritation could spark up into a flame if it was a particularly bad day. Brash, overconfident (but, admittedly, with the charisma to back it up), he was a person you had to make an effort to like, to get along with, but there was no one who disagreed on the fact that he was good in all he did. The decision to make Doyeon leader instead of him was one that didn’t exactly make him the happiest, and it caused a few heated arguments back when they were trainees, but they’d since made up and all was fine. Since the disbandment he’s been spotted enjoying himself on various nights out in Hongdae (even being filmed behind the DJ booth once or twice), but nothing’s been said of anything happening in future.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀HONG HOYOUNG ( 홍호영. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀AUGUST 22, 1998

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEAD RAPPER, SUB VOCALIST, FOTG

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀KIM HONGJOONG

iii.⠀배성진

Ever the calm, quiet mediator, Seongjin’s was a face you just couldn’t hate. He couldn’t speak ill of anyone if he tried (and even if he so direly wanted to. He could never seem to actually get the words out when it really came down to it), and was a fan-favourite even with how short the group actually lasted. A pretty smile was apparently more than enough to make up for how little the masses (or in SLOW MOTION’s case, lack of any crowds at all) were able to see the four-turned-five in action. He was left blindsided by the sudden disbandment and fell off the radar for a year or so, only popping back up again in the form of an anonymous (at first) Instagram account that he slowly began to upload his own content onto and attempt to rebuild himself from there. No official statement was made, but it was assumed he’d long left FNC.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀BAE SEONGJIN ( 배성진. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀DECEMBER 17, 2000

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEAD DANCER, SUB VOCALIST, CENTRE

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀LEE JENO

iv.⠀임준영

Freshly out of the group he’d been stuck in for three years, Levi sadly didn’t get a chance to enjoy it for too long before he was being told, alongside his new four fellow members, that they were being scrapped—six months after his first comeback with them. He’d been full of ambition in ALGORYHTHM, trying to make changes and take them further in his own way—taking far more control over the rest than Daehoon thought was appropriate for the youngest of the lot. Over time passing insults and petty fights turned into yelling matches and throwing things, turned into jabs that went far deeper than all the skin-deep ones that had been traded before, and one day he’d decided he’d just had enough, so he left. But, as it turned out, he might’ve ended up better off if he had just grinned and bore it. Since disbandment he’s mainly been laying low, having made a public Instagram account but nothing on it suggesting neither his return with another group nor releasing any music of his own.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀IM ‘LEVI’ JUNYEONG ( 임준영. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀OCTOBER 30, 2001

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN RAPPER, SUB VOCALIST

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀PARK JONGSEONG

v.⠀박대준

Daejun was someone who didn’t really realise his love for a thrill, for attention, for praise and adrenaline and everything else mixed up with what came with being an idol, until he’d debuted. Even if SLOW MOTION were hardly making any waves, he still felt a little bit of a headrush—overthrowing himself into everything, throwing it all back like a shot and still wanting more after the fact. It had awakened the party boy in him, the thrill-seeker he didn’t know he was. (Or in some critic’s eyes, he was more like an addict searching for his next fix, a fame-chaser who couldn’t seem to find any of what he was looking for in the group he was stuck in). SLOW MOTION’s disbandment didn’t seem to slow him down in the slightest, and he’s another common sight in the downtown clubbing scene—long having split from FNC—and since slowly starting to put on sultry performances of self-made songs at open-mic nights for all the screaming partygoers to hear, looking right at home as he does so.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀PARK DAEJUN ( 박대준. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀JUNE 11, 2002

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN VOCALIST, SUB RAPPER, MAKNAE

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀KANG TAEHYUN

NOV 2018⠀VOICES⠀(FROM MINI ALBUM: “STUCK IN FUTURE”)

JUN 2019⠀TIMELINE⠀(FROM FULL ALBUM: “SINCE WHEN?”)

PART vi. act three: bonsoir.

You have a perfectly good group in the palm of your hand. They like each other, the predebut music is generally being received well, and a fanbase is steadily growing and anticipating the day when they finally debut properly. But then comes along a hopeful, wanting to start afresh and find his footing in a new industry he knows next to nothing about. Some would say the one thing you shouldn’t do was place this untrained and bright-eyed newbie (AKA a fuse) into what could’ve been the number one money maker (which, frankly, they desperately needed at that point) group—but Seungdae was curious. (Over) ambitious. The result was something that he probably should’ve seen coming from a mile away: the fuse lit, and while at first the fire was one that was only slowly smouldering, the flames soon became harder and harder to stamp back out again.

BONSOIR was a fictional four-turned-five-piece (again) South Korean boy group, formed by JAGUAR. They first released the predebut single ‘MAYDAY’ in November 2018 as a four-membered group—consisting of members Jiyeol, Mai, Hyeonmin, and Yijun—both as an attempt to generate a fanbase for the group in anticipation for their actual debut, and to take the media’s attention away from the untimely suicide of who had once been JAGUAR’s reigning king and one of the public’s favourite soloists: YOON (known to everyone else as Choi Yoonhae) earlier that same month. Although many saw it was not a particularly nice thing to do, it worked exactly as hoped & intended: now the attention of the masses were more focused on the constant stream of predebut content JAGUAR were releasing of the four members (ranging from introduction videos to behind-the-scenes of ‘MAYDAY’ to a general social media presence consisting of selfies and playful videos and the like) than any of the blurry details the company were being vague about surrounding YOON’s passing.

This presence—that some called too much, almost overwhelming—kept up with no signs of stopping until around mid December 2018, when everything abruptly fell silent with no explanation as to why. Unbeknownst to (most) of the public, though, this was around the same time that once-actor Ahn Jaehee made the decision to try his hand at the whole idol shtick, and also made the choice to sign to JAGUAR to start his journey. CEO Seungdae thought the best course of action would be to add him to the BONSOIR lineup, and so the reason for the sudden absence of the four members was that they were being given ample time to adjust with the addition of their new member and start to practise as a five-piece group moving forward, ready for their October 2019 debut with the mini album ‘BETTER IS MORE.’ 

But Jaehee’s addition went the opposite direction to what Seungdae had hoped. Instead of taking him on under their wing and him slotting into the relationship the four had already gradually established over the years spent together, the new maknae fit with the rest of BONSOIR like oil and water—which is to say, he didn’t. They just.. Didn’t get along. Even after the near year they had to try, Jaehee still didn’t click. By the time debut rolled around they could all be civil, obviously, and knew how to keep up good enough appearances for the public, but after the cameras were off they all mostly acted as if they didn’t know him. He got it from Yijun the worst, who—after a few months of attempting surface-level kindness, even if it was only because of Hyeonmin’s pleading—dropped all pretence completely and let him know any time he was able to that, in his eyes, BONSOIR was a group that Jaehee just didn’t belong to. Wasn’t meant for. And never would be, however hard he tried. It never went as far as outright bullying him, but he never had a nice thing to say any time he was in conversation with him, either.

BONSOIR continued promotions as normal as a five-piece after their debut, coming out with as much non-music-related content like any other group does. Relations behind the scene were more dismal than ever, though. Yijun was still firmly holding grudges against both Jaehee and Jiyeol (the latter for a petty fight they’d had after the rumours of Jaehee joining them had first arose), Mai was playing instigator any chance he got, and in the middle of it all was Hyeonmin—who didn’t really care about any of the fights nor take any sides, and just continued his day-to-day as he always did. It seemed they were just going to carry on this way for as long as they were active—that was, until the article dropped.

Late March 2020, the (mostly unknown, at the time) journalist Song Kyumin dropped a piece detailing all of what Jaehee had been put through by the hands of his members up until that point. Mainly criminalising Yijun and Mai (although Jiyeol did receive a few blows, as well as Hyeonmin for his lack of doing anything to stop it), the article was quick to blow up—fans and nonfans alike expressing their shock over the cruelty the maknae was victim to, as well as theorising on who and where Kyumin got the information from to spill in the first place. JAGUAR made no such statement on the article, not acknowledging it at all—and not even the insiders had any information on what was going on inside their walls, not hearing word of anyone being blamed for the incident or any dismissals from the company. All group activities came to an abrupt end, and in a similar fashion to how they had predebut when Jaehee signed to the company, BONSOIR went entirely silent. Nobody would hear anything more of them until the official disbandment notice in early May that same year, a simple one-page affair signed off by Seungdae and left at that. They were a group that didn’t last that long at all (although admittedly they had a longer run than SLOW MOTION) and their demise was kind of their own fault. After that JAGUAR would go on to have a 14-month long period of absolutely nothing happening—until the news of CHERRYADE dropped in July 2021.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀BONSOIR

LABEL⠀ㅇ⠀JAGUAR

DEBUT DATE⠀ㅇ⠀OCTOBER 22, 2019

GREETING⠀ㅇ⠀THE CLOCK STRUCK MIDNIGHT! WE’RE BONSOIR!

FANDOM NAME⠀ㅇ⠀SOIRÉE’s

ACTIVE FROM⠀ㅇ⠀2018—2020

PART vi. (2) the members

i.⠀길지열

Jiyeol was relatively quiet with his ambitions (ever the pessimist, not wanting to have too high hopes lest they get scrapped—which, as it turned out, he was right for), straightforward and blunt with his leadership. He was realistic to a fault, not being able to read the room well enough to realise when people want things buttered up or watered down—he was just unable to give anything but the cold, hard truth, which caused a few major rifts in relationships with a few people over the years (Yijun, to name one of the main ones). He could let loose and have a little fun sometimes (namely when Mai dragged him out to one party or another and wouldn’t let go of him until he managed to get a smile on his face), but the majority of the time he mostly maintained his apathetic and almost-bored attitude. Despite the fact not much has been heard from him since BONSOIR’s end, some people think there’s something coming. No one’s sure what, exactly, but.. We’ll see.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀KIL JIYEOL ( 길지열. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀JUNE 1, 1996

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEADER, LEAD RAPPER, FOTG

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀NAM YOONSU

ii.⠀매일우

More than anything else, Ilwoo wanted fun. More than responsibilities, more than pleasantries, more than any other false pretences. He wanted entertainment, for himself and himself only—and if that meant making other people the butt of the joke, making a few too many jabs at their expense to be considered friendly, then he’d do it anyway. All he wanted was a quick laugh, an easy fix—a want that translated to a few of his other habits, also. He’d lay off and play nice if he knew he wouldn’t get a reaction out of whoever he was tormenting (although he wouldn’t call it that, of course), but as soon as he knew it was a one-way ticket to get under someone’s skin it would be practically never-ending. Not much has been heard from him since their disbandment, bar from his appearance in the background of a few non-friend’s photos and some scarce sightings of him at some club or another.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀MAE ‘MAI’ ILWOO ( 매일우. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀MARCH 10, 1998

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN DANCER, LEAD VOCALIST

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀KIM JUNGWOO

iii.⠀오현민

You could spend years side-by-side with Hyeonmin, and by the end of it you still wouldn’t have been able to tell how he felt on any given day. He was a book full of blank pages to even his former members for the first few months they knew each other, written in an unknown tongue in invisible ink. Impossible to get to know, and seemingly unkeen to make any of the first moves to talk to them, either. Once you put the effort in and break down the walls, though, you’ll most likely be rewarded—he’s reliable, not mean-spirited or likely to hold petty grudges, and can even crack a good joke here and there if he’s really in a good mood (or drunk). Similarly to the three of his bandmates that didn’t end up in CHERRYADE, Hyeonmin has been silent since they were scrapped—although he has been spotted hanging out with Yijun a few times, which came as no surprise seeing how close the pair are.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀OH HYEONMIN ( 오현민. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀NOVEMBER 13, 2000

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN VOCALIST, SUB RAPPER

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀CHOI JONGHO

iv.⠀喬宜君

The Yijun from now compared to the him from back then is, to some, completely unrecognisable. He was a little on the quiet side during his years as a trainee, only really starting to shine when alongside his to-be groupmates and whenever the evaluations came around and he knew he had to put his all into it. The more bubbly side came to stay during the MAYDAY era, but then it all came to a grinding halt in the form of Jaehee joining the four. He kept up the act of liking him just as much as any of his other bandmates for the public, but most of the time behind the scenes put no effort into trying to play nice. The shift in personality was permanent, it seemed, and it’s assumed that the happier side of Yijun will still be long gone during his time in CHERRYADE.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀QIAO YIJUN ( 喬宜君. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀JANUARY 26, 2001

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀MAIN RAPPER, LEAD DANCER, CENTRE

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀ZHONG CHENLE

v.⠀안재희

Eager to prove himself after making the impulsive jump into the idol industry, Jaehee was throwing everything he had into every appearance he made in public after the official BONSOIR debut, trying the best he could to find a place for himself in amongst the already long-established bonds between the four boys he was shoved in with. For the most part, it didn’t work in the slightest. While Hyeonmin could at least stand to spend time with him whenever they weren’t on a schedule, to the rest it was like that sounded like the worst possible way they could spend their days. He spent his years with the group wishing he could be anywhere else—and with CHERRYADE, he might get his wish, but with the cost of Yijun being right there beside him. So, really, it might not be so much of a win after all.

NAME⠀ㅇ⠀AHN JAEHEE ( 안재희. )

BORN⠀ㅇ⠀JULY 8, 2002

POSITION⠀ㅇ⠀LEAD RAPPER, DANCER, MAKNAE

PLAYED BY⠀ㅇ⠀CHOI HYUNWOOK

NOV 2018⠀MAYDAY⠀(FROM PREDEBUT SINGLE: “MAYDAY”)

OCT 2019⠀MORE⠀(FROM MINI ALBUM: “BETTER IS MORE”)

And there,  finally,  is that.  Discographies from these boys look pretty dismal compared to who I covered in the last part,  so sorry for that,  but I guess it’s not really my fault—blame them.  (Or the public,  in the case of SLOW MOTION.  Is that a low blow?).  I hope this information means at least a little bit of something to you,  and that with it in mind you come to form your own opinion about the possible fate of CHERRYADE.  Personally,  I’m rooting for them,  but you might’ve read all this and decided you hate their guts already.  I don’t suppose anyone would blame you.  Anyway,  bye again.  Once more,  I’ve been justbcmb,  and enjoy your night!

[commsroom]

happy birthday! ive been meaning to ask for a while if you have any spare minkowski thoughts, just in general. if not, are there any other characters in w359 that you see as trans or queer?

thank you!! sorry for not getting to this one on my birthday; i've been trying to come up with some minkowski thoughts for you, but i'm not sure if they'll be new!! one of my favorite things about minkowski is how much she really, truly has "guilty pleasures" in the most typical sense. when emma sherr-ziarko said the track name "minkowski watching 50 shades of gray with a tub of ice cream and enjoying it nonironically" informed her perception of the character, etc. i love that. all of the best characters are self-contradicting in very real and human ways, and minkowski has a ton of that. her love of musical theater gives us such insight into her interior world; she treats so much of her life like these separate, practiced "roles" to play, as if there can be clear divisions between them.

minkowski is a great leader, but she's not a natural leader, and - in fact - everything that does ultimately make her a person worth following is completely at odds with how she tries to lead, or how she thinks it's supposed to be done. i think she was in a dozen different clubs in high school, but didn't really have friends. i think she could get really into historical reenactment (and i would love for eiffel, hera, and minkowski to go to a ren faire - i think they'd all enjoy that, but for very different reasons.) i think minkowski earnestly believes in the concept of a "cheat day" and marks when she allows herself to eat a whole bunch of ice cream on her calendar - this is horrifying to eiffel, but she finds it sincerely motivating. i think minkowski's interior decorating sense is at least 30% more "live, laugh, love" than anyone else around her would be able to take seriously. she's the kind of person who needs everything in her house properly labelled and put away in the same place every time. eiffel is the kind of person who leaves everything out, all over the place, and forgets it exists if someone puts it away. making them live together is hilarious. i think minkowski likes romcoms and hallmark christmas movies; she's easily moved by very sappy media, and very defensive / embarrassed about that. she's used to being mocked for her taste, and for how it goes against her image as a career military woman. i do not think hera would share her taste in movies at all, but minkowski + hera girls' night is very important to me.

what else... oh!! i've talked to my friend @hephaestuscrew a lot about minkowski's parents, and i agree with the assessment that they are probably... pretty laid back? like, the kind of people who encouraged her to be whatever she wanted to be - the pressure she puts on herself to make something of herself is the kind of person she is, and a message she got from the world at large more than her parents, i think. her dad's first name has an anglicized spelling as well, so i think there's something kind of... well, there's something that rings true about minkowski trying to hold onto these parts of her heritage that her parents aren't as concerned about. koudelka's a czech name; we don't know anything about him, but i wonder if maybe she made that connection with him at least partially because they were both american children of (at least one) eastern european parent(s) in paris. and her mother is french, she learned french before she learned english, but we don't really know if she spent time in france before that. there's a sense of displacement to that.

(as for the other part, well... i'm not sure! obviously jacobi is gay, and i would generally agree lovelace and maxwell are as well. i think eiffel is technically bi, but he's straight culture bi. i think it would be difficult to get minkowski to really examine her sexuality. whatever kepler's sexuality is, i think he's done his best to close himself off from any sincere desire. my thoughts on hera's sexuality would require a whole other post, but obviously i read her as trans. there isn't really anyone else i think of as trans, but that's not to say it's impossible - they're mostly military or military-adjacent people born in the 70s and 80s; by and large i think they're coming to these topics of identity from a different perspective from those of us on tumblr dot com. but i think doug eiffel is one of the most cis characters i can imagine.)

[sincerely-sofie]

anyways heres a 'little' travailshipping ramble i had in mind since ive been thinking about twig and ark for a while now.

i think these two are beautiful because of just how much their interactions and their relationship changes over the course of TPiaG.

at first, it's like a house thats surrounded by thorns. ark being there adds another unspeakable layer of shame that twig cannot afford to look at, because theres only so much that she had been forced to confront over the course of that time period that one more tidbit in the form of her curser and elusive tormentor may as well make her hurl.

but what adds further salt to injury over the fact that ark has no idea who she was? to her, he was another painstake in her back, and one of which she allowed into her own home despite how colossal of a bad idea it was.

but to him? twig was but a stranger. a kind stranger, at that, but one he couldn't try to assume harm towards. and even so, why did she not look at him in the eye? why does she seem to feel the fear mull over whenever he is around? he couldn't know, because i'd be rude to pry with unnecessary questions to someone whos only showing him hospitality.

but as time goes on, things change. the walls slowly hucker down, and the heart reveals its vulnerability in the form of things that neither party has the pleasant sense of seeing, feeling and knowing. this sickening feeling of the past gripping down hard on your neck in the midst of it all, in the form of incidents that you should have never have taken the blame for, or through exiles and mistreatments from siblings whom could only go so far as "well meaning" to "there is a time and a place, and you quite frankly don't belong in neither."

yet even so, there is trust. one proves the other to be trustworthy, even through the worst of it all. twig trusts ark, and he trusts her.

and i believe the 'peak' of it all was when ark finally had his memories intact, and he lashed out at twig for playing him for a fool for how long. he has every reason to be, and she knows it. and in that moment, in that little trial of tribulation, she simply offers him what he 'wished for' all along.

he gets to put an end to her. no worthy blood to be spilled because twig knows what she is, and what ark wants. she wants it to be done, because there is nothing left. nothing to fill in the mold, and nothing to help someone as 'broken' and undeserving of anything such as her.

and for how tempting it is, ark stops. the time has come, the time is at hand. but he freezes. time stands still. nothing but the wind to accompany.

and he realizes. he realizes that, he cares. he unfortunately, through the worst of it all cares. because he couldn't stomach the thought of doing so, and for how repulsed he was at his lack of killing intent.

yes, twig is just a random. a random who, despite the history they share, took him in and cared for him when no one wished for him to be around. she made him feel like home, because he was never familiar with the concept of ever belonging to one. a misfit of darkness, fishing solace in someone who should hate him, yet somehow does not.

he doesn't want to hurt her, because she is everything to his nothing. the seamless moon against his tides in the water. someone whom matters so much to him and could only wish she mattered so much to herself.

gutting her cause a pang of regret, because twig cares when other do not.

and in return, he gives her an (unconventional) helping hand. let all those sorrows break, and let those who you know will catch you when you fall. ark had no reason to play notifier, because he would've taken the opportunity to see how much the world will rip her heart open and stomp it had the opportunity struck.

but he knows. he knows he cannot. she made him feel everything, and he could not bear to lose it all. in his own way, he had to help. because he cares. twig cares, even when she should not.

from the thorns to the blossom, and it all blends in a beautiful symphony. because they care. they both care so, so much.

anyways sorry for the ramble/if it's too long/incomprehensible since it's like. 12:30pm for me. whoops.

Hey I’ve had this in my inbox for ages because I wanted to type up a proper response to something this beautiful but haven’t been able to summon any words in the face of this heartfelt, stunning analysis. So I’m just going to set this ask free and say thank you. You have such a way with words, and I’ve treasured this for a long time, and will continue to do so.

Anyhoo. Time to scream at how cool this is now.

[bluhjeans]

songs i associate with dbh characters / what i think their fav songs would be

pleasee share ur own thoughts & opinions id love to hear them!! and I need to ramble abt my dbh opinions to people (+templates if u wanna make ur own)

explaining my reasoning here if anyones curious

gavin: couldn't decide between rehab and in my feelings because theyre both just so him (and by that i mean fanon him cuz there really wasnt much to work on) 'in my feelings' because I can just imagine him to all' of the lyrics ('Sobbin' in my cup of coffee 'cause I fell for another loser' and 'Who's doper than this bitch, who's free-er than me' in particular) and rehab is a little looser of a connection, it stems from this story that ive been sorta writing that focuses on gavins relationship with alcohol aswell as his friendship with tina, and I just feel like rehab really captures his reluctance to give up the many different problems he has in the story like drinking, smoking & drugs rk900/nines: i dont really imagine he listens to music but but i kinda associate him with the pre-chorus in 'In my feelings' by LDR with the 'get that cigarette smoke out of my face' and the bridge with 'got me feeling so blue, making no sense at all, gotta leave right now' sooo duet with gavin...? 'shades of cool' (u may have noticed i like lana songs by now!!) also really matches nines IMO, the song is about her own pain and disappointment but but it also centers around this flawed love interest she wants to fix and understand, but ultimately can't, which to me just feels like nines and gavin, atleast in my own hc's (can you guess my fav ship yet) connor: whilst this song (a human's touch) could generally apply to all androids in dbh I connect it most with connor, especially in the second verse; "We were still going strong I never did you wrong Until the new me came along It was just you and me We were such a good team But now I’m alone on the boulevard of broken screens" Listening to this, I can really imagine him talking to Amanda after being introduced to his successor, the RK900 ('the new me') - I also can imagine the boulevard of broken screens being in reference to the graves of his previous bodies and I just think thattt hits yk, + whilst the second verse applies to machine connor more, the craving for human touch (connection in general) feels rather apt as by becoming deviant he has severed ties with Cyberlife, causing him to be pretty alone so yeah kara: I can just imagine her, alice and luther all singing country roads together in a car during the summer and it just warms my heart sm like its just sooo cuteee <3 I can also imagine her being a fan of Adele's music in general, I can't really explain why but she just seems like the type of person to be reaalllyyy into adele (me too) (+ i know age as a concept isnt a thing for androids really but adeles music appeals to a large age range making her music appealing 2 families so maybe im connecting adele n kara because of that) markus: I feel like I don't even need to explain history has its eyes on you... i mean come on.. but ohhh emmm geee!! I can not stress how PERFECT 'as the world caves in' is for markus atleast in my opinion, when I listen to it I can really picture this song over markus either choosing to sacrifice himself in BfD when surrounded, but generally I can just imagine this song over him doing anything really. 'run boy run' also feels like it needs little explanation, just listen to the song/look at the lyrics and youll see the connection north: I don't actually have any meaningful reasons for these songs but I just feel like north would like them but I guess 'breakin' dishes' is the one I thought about most because I can imagine her acting similarly in the same situation soo yeah chloe: Chloe doesn't really have a lot to work on with her extremely limited appearance in-game so this is completely based off a fic i read lol, where chloe was in a relationship with kamski but only in private because of his concern for his image anyways, in 'a loving feeling' mitski sings about feelings of loneliness in a relationship where her partner only shows affection alone and yeah that just feels like chloe n kamski to me!