#you can reblog this if you feel like it it's just mild vent art

[mcsiggy]

Stuff I did when I was in middle school around the mid 2000's.

[cringefailroboguy]

Okay narc abuse this narc abuse that

How bout y'all share your favorite ways to cope with a crash

Here are some of mine

1. I join close knit communities involving my interest/s and am active in them frequently. After a while, the people start recognizing me and when I share something I'm proud of (even if I made it pre-crash) some people will notice and comment on it, which boosts my confidence a little! My art means a lot to me and I tie most of my self worth on it, so people complimenting my art by extension compliment me too. You don't have to be an artist for this, just doing anything you're good at and you love and having people notice this might help you feel a bit better

2. When I'm having a somewhat minor crash (or right after a major crash when I've ridden it out and am feeling a bit better) I go on sprees where I do good stuff for people, I give money to the homeless, I buy gifts for my family members, I compliment a stranger etc, people usually notice this and thank me for it which also helps me feel a bit better about myself (note - I do these things one and off without crashes, but I usually binge-do-good when I'm feeling especially low hahaha) (dunno how much this one works about actually upping your ego, but I personally tie worth as a concept to being a good person, so actively and provably being a good person immediately helps me with perceiving my worth as a human being)

3. Tumblr drafts 😭😭😭😭😭 I've noticed that journaling and venting in my notes doesn't help because nobody sees it and the lack of attention makes me get even worse, and venting to people drives them away from me and makes me uncomfortable so I've avoided venting and I bottle up my emotions a lot which usually actually drives me into a crash in the first place. So I started writing and formatting my vents as actual tumblr posts that I'm totally planning to post, and I tag them and everything, but then I save them as drafts. This way, for some reason, my brain sees this as "yes. You will now post about what's bothering you and many people will see this and like and reblog this!!! You'll be so noticed and cool and get so much attention!!!" Which makes me feel better in the moment, except as I get better I forget about the drafted post so I also simultaneously save my privacy while I'm at it looollll

I mean arguably, all of these are for some mild-er crashes and usually for some bigger ones I don't really have a coping mechanism so I just lie in my bed, shake and feel cold for weeks until I finally get the energy to get up, but honestly even if I can make it a little bit easier for me, I will

Anyway feel free to share your favorite coping methods too!

[emotional-moss]

intro post (fucking finally)

hi ! i’m fish, or you can refer to me as Emo Moss if you want !

i use he/him. i am a genderweird genderfreak. i enjoy being cringe and queer as hell !

i also do art and write sometimes. my art tag is [#emo moss draws] my writing tag is [#emo moss writes] and my original posts will be tagged as [#emo moss talks]. my favorite posts will be tagged as [#favs] and posts about my personal life or my feelings will be tagged [#personal]. i sometimes vent on here, but not very often. vents will be tagged with [#vent], [#vent?] or [#rant].

i don’t have a “set” DNI but i will block you if i see fit. i immediately block porn blogs, ed blogs, and sh blogs. i sometimes post or reblog mild sexual stuff or slightly suggestive stuff, but there’s never any actual hard sexual content on here.

i don’t usually trigger tag because I forget to, but if you would like me to, just dm or ask or something. i don’t tag slurs unless they’re used in a hateful way. don’t ask me to tag for reclaimed use of fag/tranny/etc. i do not tag for swearing.

that’s all, thank you for reading this long ass list !

pfp is a screencap of jack pumpkinhead from return to oz, 1985. header is a close-up of primavera by sandro botticelli.

divider credits to @/patches-1105

[ikaroony]

So, I’ve been seeing some Twyla (monster high) playlists on Spotify and

[ID: A playlist named “🌑twyla boogeyman🕸️” with songs including Lotta True Crime (Penelope Scott), creep (mxmtoon), rises the moon (Liana Flores), Bugbear (chloe moriondo), and more in the same vein]

These songs make me think of Twyla, but they are not songs she would listen to. I didn’t understand the playlist was aesthetic at first, I thought it was trying to make one of Twyla’s playlists. These songs ooze Twyla energy. They’re all soft purple like her.

But she wouldn’t listen to these. Well, I can’t speak for her, but I don’t think she would. And here’s why: Twyla’s autistic.

I’m autistic, and I have playlists like this yeah. Genre-specific playlists tend to look like this. But my most played music consists of weird obsession stuff. I have a playlist for sea shanties, modern and old covers. I have a playlist of “alien music” consisting of sounds that don’t really make a beat because it’s just alien core and I like it? My playlist “♾️on loop♾️” is the songs I’m obsessed with at the moment, because I have autism-ed with these.

[ID: A playlist titled “♾️on loop♾️” constructed as follows: Lovefool (Pomplamoose), Choice (Jack Stauber), Choice (Jack Stauber), Choice (Jack Stauber), Rule #4 (Fish in a Birdcage), Rule #4 (Fish in a Birdcage), Rule #4 (Fish in a Birdcage), Coffee (Jack Stauber), Two Time (Jack Stauber), The Devil Went Down to Georgia (Charlie Daniels Band)]

Songs not in image: two more instances of The Devil Went Down to Georgia and one more instance of Two Time.

This is what an autistic playlist looks like. Not necessarily repeating songs, but I find that it’s mostly just songs that make you happy. Not organized or anything. Just vibes.

Now, all autistic people are wildly different. Two people can be complete opposites and still be autistic (this video by Reberra Bonbon on TikTok shows that). So I must say that this is MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE.

I have found myself masking my playlist names or even songs thinking that someone will say “that’s not real classic rock!” or something like that. I’ve had playlists named “Classic Rock and extra stuff”, “animated movies”, etc instead of more specific genre names because I’m worried of others judging it. I’ve added songs I don’t really like to playlists so people don’t think I’m a poser. But in reality, I just want to throw my favorites together. Who cares if I call Fall Out Boy classic rock and it comes after Duran Duran in my playlist? Who cares if a dreamworks original slips into my Disney songs mix? I don’t, and since nobody else currently uses my playlists, I don’t see why people care.

I just like my songs. I like designing/finding aesthetic cover art and making cool playlist names. I like having U2 immediately followed by Blink-182 and then Jimmy Buffet. Why does it matter that Margaritaville isn’t classic rock? It owned its place on that list in my heart.

Nobody can take any of that away from me. Nobody can take away my playlist with different covers of the exact same song because they all have a different vibe. Nobody can take away my playlist from when I reorganized the Luca OST to be in the right order. Nobody can take away the playlists I made for my DND characters and the songs that define them. Nobody can take away what makes me who I authentically am. They’ve tried. I’ve pushed back harder.

Wow, I didn’t mean for this to become a mild vent. But if any of you are listening to this and feel like you’re in the same boat, I’m here for you. Feel free to reblog, send asks, or DM me. I’m still working through this but there’s a few things I’ve realized that just changed… everything for me. You’ll get through this, I promise.

[kozykricket]

Pinned Post (Updated: 06/07/2024)

Hiya! I'm Jake (or occasionally Julia, because gender is a suggestion anyways) pronouns: he/him (but with they/them vibes) I mostly use this blog to ramble about my fav viddygames, ramble about my life (sorry not sorry), and reblog cool art or funnies

I really like posting minecraft ideas or concepts here, because I'm a big nerd for the game, and ... well, is it fitting to say I'm an aspiring game designer? Game design fascinates me.

I'm also a big nerd about writing and stories in general, particularly in games. I'm that one person who'll probably interact with every npc before moving on. I enjoy theories... lore... all that stuff. very tasty

My fav games include minecraft, terraria, undertale/deltarune, pokemon, stardew valley, risk of rain, celeste, oneshot, and much more! i also love music and animals. ive had many cats over the course of my life, and i love them all!!

While I also sometimes vent quite a lot here, I try to tag my different types of posts, so you can filter them out or just browse specific tags on my page. tags are ahead, though as of updating this I am soon going to attempt to mass change many of my posts tags and my tagging conventions:

#jake post - a new tag, just a generic post tag for non-reblog posts (will include self reblogs) #reblog - reblogs.

#jake ramblings - general ramblings of mine, if you care to hear about them. May mostly be me appreciating my friends and cats.

I try to tag games that I talk about, but if it's a big post, I'll tend to also tag... #[game name] ramblings (i.e a minecraft idea, cassette beasts ramblings of how awesome it is, pokemon idea, any fixation really) - because I love thinking up ideas for games like minecraft... or just talking about how much i appreciate game design or just. may be having fun. I sometimes use #[game name] idea(s)

Things you may wish to filter out:

#[game name] spoilers - for if a post contains spoilers or leaks for a game, although any spoilers will also be behind a "keep reading" line.

#vent - a vent post, which I will always include a "keep reading" line in. Don't feel the need to read these, I just like getting them out there sometimes.

#mild vent - similar to the above, but more casual frustrations or woes than serious topics. Same rules apply

#toxicity mention - if you just wanna have a nice time, you can like. mute this. if theres anyone being rude or annoying that im responding to or. yknow. im feeding the trolls. ill probably tag it with this. i.e someone calling game devs stupid and dumb with no good reason (cough minecraft)

[psylunari]

About time I introduce myself

TL;DR Luna's nonsense about herself. Feel free to reblog!

If you're looking for my original posts or my fics:

The tags are #psyluna.txt (for fandom info posts, writing tips, and posts like this one it's the first but you get the idea) and #psyluna.fic (for fanfiction). #psyluna.ask is for ask games and answers. #psyluna.png is for image edits, art, and memes.

The tag for when I get fanart is #I GOT ART. Bless all the people who have ever made something for me, I would like to give you the entire planet, but I'm poor, and taking care of a planet is too much work. So all I can give you is more fanfiction.

If I translate something that's not my work, the tag is #translation I just did.

From lurker to occasional reblogger to regular shitposter to… I don't know. The sky is the limit. Nice to meet you! I created this account in 2019, together with my return to posting fanfiction. I wrote fanfiction on again, then off again, for years, since I first picked it up at the fresh age of ten.

I was never a people person, nor did life make me a public figure, thank goodness. I'm not made for the spotlight, so I didn't see a point in blogging here myself. Anyway. I wanna do it now. Buckle up.

My name: the IRL one is so lame that I won't tell you. Call me psy, luna, or psyluna, as you wish. It fits me better.

My age: I was born in 1995, just so that I don't have to update this yearly.

Pronouns: I go by she/her. Gender is a myth. So is being internet famous.

My home country: I hail from not-so-distant, not-so-unknown Brazil.

Languages I speak: English is my second language (Portuguese is my first), and as per local standards, I can speak and write in English quite well. Before you ask, I write fanfiction in Portuguese and translate later, for reasons I'll disclose if anyone asks. I had basic Spanish in school and can still read/listen to it okay, can't write/speak it anymore. Japanese is my hobby language of choice. I plan on becoming more proficient if everything goes right.

My writing: it was always my favorite way to express myself. It's how I organize my thoughts and communicate with the world. Consequently, I wrote lots and lots all my life, even if not fanfiction, just personal vents. I got better in speaking out loud as I became more confident, less self-loathing, and ran out of fucks to give.

Should you talk to me: I enjoy chatting more than I enjoy people. It's not that I don't like people… Okay, let's not lie here. People are troublesome, even myself. I'll willingly talk to people who talk to me, and even start conversations at times, but getting attached and forming bonds isn't a default expectation. That said, if you wanna talk to me, please do.

Miscellaneous: I was somewhat raised by the 2000s internet. Meaning, I was there for a lot of memes and chaos, too. I miss some things and not others.

You won't see me engage with drama and discourse a lot. I keep many personal opinions private or restricted to close friends, as one should separate personal life from public life. To be honest, no one cares much what I think (again, thank goodness). Won't ever bother putting up a DNI list.

I usually follow back. If your blog is blank (as in you don't reblog anything), I might follow back if I know who you are.

Among other artsy things I like doing: drawing (not too well), singing (okay to well), playing a few instruments (okayish), typesetting (pretty well, actually). If cooking counts, then cooking.

My fandoms: I've been obsessed with lots of things along the years. For every phase, I bookmarked lots of fanart and wrote a bit of fic. My interests come and go. They're mostly anime/animated series and video games. I'm also a “mild kpopper” and a dormant rock/metal enthusiast.

My favorite characters: too many to count. They mostly fit the “well-meaning but kind of a jerk” archetype. They don't have to be morally gray, but can be. I don't vibe with stupid characters a lot. My favorite works of fiction are a bit or very tragic. I love bishounen/bishoujo in character design. My ships are based on if I like the chemistry, not much on the characters' genders.

As for my writing strengths: I'm good at putting one word in front of another and finding mistakes. That's the gist of it. Many writers struggle with low productivity and procrastination, and that isn't my curse, fortunately. I can work with a preexisting idea and propose solutions, maybe even add a thing or two. I'm also very critical of things and quick at noticing patterns.

As for my writing weaknesses: I don't think my ideas are too innovative, and while that doesn't matter a lot in the bigger picture, it makes me a little sad. I recycle ideas and themes a lot and hope no one notices. Whenever I'm forced to create, instead of working with preexisting things, I go ughhhh. I used to joke about how I had one idea worth writing every six months. It's been different these days, and I took notes of all nice ideas I've been having, but it's pretty recent. I'm also bad with prompts I don't click with.

The rest like prose, characterization, style, etc. is up for debate, and to some degree, a matter of personal taste. I like to think I can adapt to the needs of whatever I'm writing.

Do you write original fiction? Yes! I'm just not very far into them. I won't disclose much about it, though. Not now, at least. Some are more slice-of-lifey, others are more fantasy-like.

You can find my compiled social media and writing profiles in this carrd. If you don't feel like clicking on the carrd, here are the fic sites:

Archive Of Our Own (most up-to-date, missing older works and personal vents)

Fanfiction dot net (not very up-to-date because I hate this website)

+Fiction, formerly Nyah! Fanfiction (in Portuguese only, has lots of old stuff and vents)

I have a Wattpad account with nothing posted.

I'm used to talking about myself, since nine times out of 10 I'll be brooding in the corner and people get curious. I don't know why exactly that is. Hope you could get to know me better!

[movedtohypnocus]

ok now i can properly make a pinned post

heyo im Hypno. 20. any pronouns. aroace spec trans swag.

i sign off art with Hypnocus (old art is signed with Kradeloh or Soloiho)

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Art Tags

#hypnart, #doodlz (wips go under doodlz as well)

Text Post Tags

#postnocus

#soloitar (<- guitar posting)

#persolnel (<- mostly ranting/mild venting. feel free to filter!)

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if you need any posts tw/cw tagged lemme know (:

Reblog Sideblog: @macaqaroni

i am bad at talking to people i dont already know & im not keen on reaching out to people lawl, so sorry if i just like. dont respond well or if im slow about it

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heres some links bc i feel like they'd be more helpful than me speaking about myself

Carrd

Twitter

Favorite Songs

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media/things i otherwise enjoy

-Sonic the Hedgehog

-The Owl House

-guitars (specifically electric)

-Deltarune

-Lego Monkie Kid

-object shows

what i use to draw

-really old broken ass Wacom Intuos tablet that has looked Death in the eyes one too many times (not anymore but im leaving this here bc im funny)

-Deco 01 XP PEN Tablet

-Clip Studio Paint

-ibis Paint X (desktop ver.)

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asks are always on with anon allowed

ok bye

[detectivehole]

Go comic feral, i followed this blog for a rEASOn and it's bc i like to hear your random vents and rants and also you reblog cool stuff. But i digress, go comic feral i am hERE for it

fine

PETER PARKER BEING RICH IS STUPID  he didnt even ern what he has himself it was nt even himn he wasnt in his body maybe if i had got to see him start fron nothing to being a cool ceo or whatever id be able to stand it but nooooooo he just GOT is for nothing so it feels stupid like “ha ha what if like tony stark haha” its DUMB and i haven’t read a spider man comic for a long time

deadpool/spiderman crossover comic bad. feels out of character a lot. funny concept and full of funny jokes but as far as characterization its bad in my opinion- was made to capitalize off the hype of the ship and we all know it

don cates should be banned from writing comics bc he fucking sucks and ill never forgive him for what he did/tried to do to venom

deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good dea

the venom movie was a lot of fun but it was very ooc a lot HOWEVER seeing some of the cut scenes and scripts you can see that it used to be actually fairly in character for the comics but a lot of scenes with eddie establishing himself as not actually the most nicest of guys (not that eddie isnt a nice guy deep down but he is a good amount fucked up with a big ol hero complex and a problem with ‘i can do no wrong” mentality sometimes) were cut and considering how the fandom for the movie treats him i can see why the cut those bits out bc i dont think movie goers would have liked him as much wich is a shame bc he is a good guy at the end of the day just fucked up

straight white male comic fans are the worst people in the world and breaking their fingers is a daydream i indulge in 

matt murdock is a himbo

foggy nelson is a good man who deserves better friends

i can tell what deadpool comics someone has read based on how they characterize wade in their fan works and i have a 80% success rate with it. the most common was the daniel way run but now its the spider-man/deadpool crossover series

soulda used miles for the mcu spidey instead of cannibalizing his story for parts like they did. dick move, Disney

mcu bad

i think just the idea of dc’s Red Tool is fucking hilarious but i dont like his character at all

batman and superman should fuck but they wont :/

matt and foggy should to but the comic industry is afraid of making long running characters lgbt bc theyre WEAK

deadpool need a canon bf they cant keep telling us hes pan and not showing us for reals- hell he could just go on one date or be shown having a one night stand or something- something beyond a damn joke

cable gay. no i will not listen to any other opinions.

im excited to read moon knight i have a book waiting i just have to finish my current one

SCUD the disposable assassin is the most underrated comic EVER and i LOVE IT however i think it ended stupid and bad however it went on fucking hiatus for like a decade and then was rapped up really fast so any ending is a godsend

i desperately want a long-form stand alone series abt wanda wilson bc shes the perfect foil for a good Feral Dumbass Woman comic. think abt it; shell sell immediately bc of recognizable brand, and then she can just go on violent stupid adventures without any of the other dp corps. it doenst have to line up with any canon i just want insane lady dp adventure comic. this is an unreasonable dream but mine none the less

i though that agent venom was stupid

tank girl is fucking amazing and i love it i never understand whats going on and i enjoy the confusion

reading early hulk comics feels like watching a weird, poorly produced old black and white sci-fi soap

there needs to be better, more easily accessed, official reading-order guides published and posted on the walls of comic shops everywhere

the 80s and 90s were the best time for marvel comics and no one can tell me otherwise. that was peak comic time

the worst time for comics was the 2000s and early 2010s

sometimes i am shocked by the art that gets the editors pass in comics. some of it is so bad and im not even talking about the disproportionate ladies

the lego marvel and dc movies are way better than the live action movies and im not even being sarcastic

seriously the 2000s made some horrible comics

i feel like committing acts of mass violence every time someone says comics arnt real reading/stories/implies theyre worth less of any value than a novel

i read the first deadpool comic i got so much that the art itself is so ingrained in my mind that people have shown my just the corners of panels and ive identified them correctly

i distinctly remember the first time the woman at the book store stopped asking me for parental permission to buy the comics i was getting (12yos) because i went there so often that she just remembered who i was and that the adult would say its fine

i refuse to talk about comics with people at cons because i am gatekept or flirted with every single time no matter what and there is no in between. and yea its because i have tits. youd think that eventually theyd learn but gross comic men never do and all the others have adopted the same policy as me so the closest i come to positive comic interaction at cons is standing in the same vicinity as another chick, looking at the same section, and the kinda smiling at each other

i think the avengers are boring. really really boring. the x-men are way better

i related to gwenpool too much when she first started and it scared/offended me so i stopped reading for a while until her character developed more and we stooped being so similar

i have spider-man bedding. i picked it out only a few months ago. its good it makes me feel cool in a very uncool way

watching spider-man as a kid made me wanna be a scientist. watching batman as a kid made me want to do martial arts. i ended up failing chemistry and falling on my face a lot instead.

i had a huge venom toy and a huge spiderman toy as a kid and while i did make them fight a lot i also made them hug just as much. i wanted them to be friends

on that note PETER IS MEAN TO THE SYMBIOTE NOW AND HE DONT EVEN HAVE A REASON NO MORE hes just such a dick about criminal reform eddie and the symbiote aint special with this- he says he believes people can be better but he really doesnt show it. he tends to think people are set in their ways and while this makes sense forthe most part considering how much hewas bullied as a kid/adult (that also contributes to his mild “i protect my own” mentality  tho at least he consciously fights that one) it stil pisses me off

i can think way more but i need to sleep i think

[captainharunanase]

*long sigh*

Maybe I am the only Sheither out here but I'm actually not waiting for Shiro to save Keith in some big showdown.

I'm actually completely fine with Keith being the one to save Shiro every season. I personally know Keith isn't doing it because he thinks Shiro is weak or unable to protect himself.

I have been seeing a lot of posts wishing for Shiro to be Keith's knight in shining armor and I can only sigh.

I see what some of yall are trying to say--you want Keith to be rescued too in a similar fashion he does for Shiro and I get that.

But I wish some of yall would stop implying Shiro is weak or unable or just incapable of being both strong and still need saving without choosing one or the other.

I'm tired of seeing posts of ppl saying they disliked the scene where Keith killed Sendak to save Shiro. I'm so tired of seeing anti Keith posts about how "Keith took away Shiro's kill" when that wasn't the reason why Keith saved him. Or how it showed Shiro "is weak and had to once again rely on Keith to do everything for him".

I'm just tired of being a Shiro & Keith Stan and watching ppl hate on Keith doing the very thing he does every single season and then see ppl respond negatively over it and imply Shiro must be weak for allowing Keith to always do that for him.

I've seen ppl do alternate version art of the scene and ppl in the comments praising it as "better version/this should have happened/shiro finally not the damsel/shiro finally not weak" and it deters me from reblogging the art and instead scroll past in mild discomfort.

I see Keith and Shiro as equals. Keith is the main protag so maybe it IS biased that he always saves Shiro I can admit that. But I'm okay with that because most of the time I see characters that look like Shiro that are always the one saving characters that look like Keith. I like the reversal. I like the big strong man not always having to be the hero while the one that looks small and lanky being the hero.

I think whatever way Keith and Shiro save each other is wonderful and if Shiro does save Keith in a big epic battle I'll be fine with it too. I just love Keith and Shiro and I want both to be safe and happy.

Keith never tried to be Shiro's knight in shining armor and Shiro is not trying to be the damsel in distress. They have the trope sure but it's not their entire character trope. I wish ppl wouldn't reduce them to that all the time--I definitely try my best not to but I'm so happy to finally see a big giant like Shiro being protected for once and not be obnoxiously macho or all "alpha male". Same with Keith, he isn't dainty or incapable of kicking ass and taking names or always needs to rely on the big guy to save him.

Like I said I like reversal so their dynamic appeals a lot to me but I also know they aren't trying to live the stereotypes of either. Keith isn't always the hero and Shiro isn't always the one saved--I get that and I'm all on board with them saving each other. I just think ppl wish it was slightly stereotypical and I'm just so tired.

Keith just wants to save Shiro because he swore an oath to him that he would -as many times as it takes-

And Shiro accepted that and it accumulated into a heartfelt "thank you" in s7 when Keith saved him from Sendak.

And sometimes I wonder if ppl ignore the instances where Shiro did save Keith--from himself, from the Garrison, from Zarkon, from the team (like Lance insulting Keith in the BOM ep), from BOM, and from the new robobeast in s7.

Yes I understand it's not the same and yes I understand ppl still want to see a reverse of Keith and Shiro's role in saving each other.

And that's 100% okay.

I just don't think it's okay to tarnish Keith's actions and Shiro's dire circumstances and think it would be better reversed in order to appreciate their characters more.

Keith swore to protect Shiro at all costs especially from himself because Shiro swore to never give up on Keith especially from himself.

They saved each other when they assumed they didn't need it and it shows in the differences in how they do it.

Sorry I know most ppl mean well with their wish for role changes and I get that.

I'm just tired of seeing other ppl use that as another reason to dislike everything Keith does for Shiro because they somehow feel it undermines Shiro's character when it does the opposite--Shiro is alive because of Keith and if Keith had to pause to think whether what he was doing was gonna ruin Shiro's reputation then Shiro would be dead already.

Hence why my heart melted when Shiro brought the very topic up with "Keith, you saved me."

But Keith immediately corrected him with "we saved each other." Like as if he wanted to reassure Shiro that he is always saving Keith too even if he doesn't see it.

Because yes they did in their own way and while I understand ppl wish they reversed it, it shouldn't be the replacement for it like as if something was wrong with their dynamic in the first place.

*sigh* I'm sorry I just had to get it out and I'm not sorry for saying it. I'm just exhausted and this is crude and I definitely am not even sure I conveyed my thoughts properly.

Ugh I'll probably delete this later I just wanted to vent a bit my frustration.

[fuffy2002moved]

psa for people who are following for art

(long post, mutuals ignore)

firstly, thank you! im glad you like my art so much you decided to follow me, its a very nice gesture. but, i do have some requests

1. im a minor. 15 years old. please, dont send me anything creepy or sexual

2. i post a lot of personal things on here because this is a personal blog. i would like for you to respect them and not reblog unless i say so. that goes with some arts too [cont 7]

3. please dont make fun of me. i like a lot of things, and some may be “cringy”, but i genuinely like them and if i feel happy talking about it or drawing things for it, please support me in that

4. dont send requests unless i ask for people to. im in school and so even if i like drawing othe things can become more overwhelming

5. im a 15 year old gay trans black-latino boy. if youre racist/lgbtphobic/a terf/a doujinshi/a pedophile/a porn blog, unfollow me before i find out and block you myself.

6. im really paranoid and i can get overwhelmed easy, so try not to do things to set those off

7. some personal arts ill allow you to reblog, like stress draws or mild vent drawing. i dont draw gore

8. if youre here for 2doc/2nu/nudoc, leave. i only post 2russ, and i avidly hate those ships.

9. please read my links

10. yes, i know, my oc will “looks like taako taco”, but firs of all none of those avenger zone character have an actual canon look, and 2, i made him before taz so shut up about it

11. please reblog my original art too, not just my fanart

12. i post a lot of activism stuff/stuff that looks “anti white” and ill tag thing like “non poc dont touch” - and if i say that its for a reason and i mean it.

if you dont agree with these, unfollow me please. otherwise, welcome, and thank you!

oh also,

13. if you ship abusive things, pedophilia, or incest, LEAVE

this is my personal blog, my safe space. please follow my rules

[nerd-breached-containment]

Introductory Post

Heyiou everybody, this is LPS100′s Gaming Blog and this is the post that’s gonna give the proper introduction of this blog! ... Ignoring the fact that this should have been made a few years ago.

If you wish to have a minimal idea of what this blog is about, click Read More (warning: Wall of Text™), but, if you’re a mobile user and the Read More doesn’t show up, clicking on the blog might do it.

However, if you wish to not see/read what this blog is all about, just ignore this post.

Blog Info:

Reason for creation and Naming:

This blog was originally created to seperate all School of Dragons-related post from my main blog, LPS100 (can't tag it for some reason). It later evolved to a game-only blog and even home to my game-related art.

Because it was originally only for School of Dragons-related posts, the name of Rise-of-Nerd was given, mixing the name of another game (that I also played and reblogged posts about) called Rise of Berk and the fact that I used to call myself “nerd” for the funs (nowadays, I call myself an “asshole”... also for the funs).

As for Oct 1st of 2017, I changed my name to Nerd-Breached-Containment, a name based on the horror game SCP: Containment Breach. I was going to change it after Oct 31st but, I grew attached to it because it seemed to make “more sense in context” and because I haven’t played Rise of Berk in years.

General Info:

This blog is a multi-game blog so if you’re following this blog for Game 1-related posts, expect posts from other games too. However, the amount of posts of whatever game-related really depends on the blogs that I follow (a grand example are the cuphead-related posts: Because the people that I follow posts frequently of said related game, cuphead can be very frequent in this blog).

Unlike my main blog however, this blog is NSFW-free; I’ll only reblog really mild nsfw, if the nsfw is around the mediocre level however, that will be reblogged to my NSFW blog, wiener-friendly (+18 Blog).

As mentioned before, this blog contains my artwork under the tag “#lps100 draws” however, don’t expect really cartoony art, my art is a strange mix of cartoony and realistic which there’s a name for that but, quite frankly, as much as I like my own style, I’m not even sure what to call it. You can check it if you want, not that is really eye-catching to begin with in my opinion. In recent time, I’m learning how to draw in a cartoony way due to Cuphead however, my original style still remains within me.

I may occassionally make opinion-based posts but, it’s really rarely plus, my opinions are mostly unpopular ones and I may or may not agree with it anymore (from having a negative opinion ‘bout something to be just passive-neutral about it) however, beware that I can be a very rambly person about some games that I own (BIG case in point: School of Dragons. And, take this to fucking heart).

While I tag my own posts, I have a tendency to forget to tag some posts under certain tags very easily (case in point: spoilerily posts or opinion/rambling-based posts) so, beware because while “#lps100 derps” in my general posting tag, it also contains various untagged stuffs.

You might have also noted that english isn’t my first language, instead, it’s portuguese. So, except a lot of grammar mistakes, however, I don’t mind recieving asks telling me and correcting my grammar, in fact, it helps me a lot.

Also, I swear like a sailor. Take this really close to heart.

Likings:

Mentioned a few posts ago, I have a page with all my likings and fandoms, so, if you want much more info about my likings and fandoms, click here... unless you’re on mobile. If you’re on mobile (or if you don’t want to read another giant wall of text), here’s a sum up of the games that I own and my opinion on them:

Tomb Raider: A game series that I grew up with and my liking for weapons, giant creatures, parkour and action/adventure styled games;

Anniversary - Childhood game and my all-time fave game; Introduced me to the series;

Legend and Underworld - Mediocre for me but, I still have a soft spot for them;

Angel of Darkness - Quite enjoyed it, despite acknowledging its flaws;

2013 - The least liked one, for a couple of reasons (and experiences);

Cuphead in Don’t Deal with the Devil: A run-&-gun indie game that started as something I found interested to a game I can’t help but just loving it and find it quite inspiring. As well as being a game with beautiful ragequits from other people which, in turn, they’ll be the ones laughing when I eventually get my hands on it (given how easily I can rage a well);

Five Nights at Freddy’s: A perfect mix between anthropomorphic animals and horror (two things that I love); Only reblogged to my main blog;

Sister Location - Was quite cool;

FNAF World - Haven’t finished it;

SCP: Containment Breach: A horror game where a shitloads of monsters, each with their different gimmicks, try to kill you while you try to escape from a Foundation Site. That’s my shit;

Own the game but I can be a bg scaredy cat tbh;

Sonic the Hedgehog: Till this day, I still haven’t understood what it did to bring myself to like it, until it hits me: Sonic Mania, Sonic Forces, Sonic X (gave a little introduction to the characters) and then... Sonic Boom being the fucking gift of a show that it is;

Never owned a Sonic game but, I’d love to play one;

Bubsy Bobcat: With the same deal with Angel of Darkness, this is a series that I do like while acknowledging its flaws and problems; However, I rarely reblog posts about it and usually keep the liking to myself;

I never owned any Bubsy game but, as opposed to nearly everyone in the world, I’d play Bubsy 3D;

School of Dragons: Don’t even get me started with this game that makes me feel like all the dragons that I own are an achievement to my life;

Own this fucking shit which gave me more bad memories than good ones, while still being a guilty pleasure;

Inner Jokes:

Throughout my time in this blog, I may have formed 1 or 2 “jokes” (massive quotation marks here) which only I gets them but, I think it’s time to explain them.

And, on an ironic iside, I only have 1 inner joke that is actually an inner joke, the other three are just self-jokes.

Lonely Island/Outcast Island:

It’s the equivalent of saying “alone in my room because no one cares about me” but, in a more comical way without dragging too much attention. While never used in a vent-like way, it’s mostly used in a “no one cares about me” due to the fact that my actual content (pinpoiting at my art and small written posts that I did, not the small memes that I did like the “he’s just standing there menacingly” post) is mostly ignored (except by my friendos) and makes me feel like I’m talking to myself in an isolated island, with no on willing to rescue me;

As time goes one, my art may be getting attention, I still mention this but somewhat connected to self-talking;

“I’m an asshole”:

The overly used trope of calling yourself a failure/loser/ect..., but, instead of being used for venting and such, it’s really for funs and mostly because I can be a dick when it comes to being honest and angry at the same time imo;

Self-talking:

Roughly around 80% of my posts are mostly me writing everything that I think, adding the fact they rarely have any likes, you can safely assume that yes, I am indeed talking and rambling to myself;

Mating Dance:

An actual inner joke between me and my friendo a-n-n-i-m-i-a, so, it would make sense that only us would get it.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask or chat, I’m always open for discussion!

[pristinepastel]

5 Things About Me Meme!

Tagged by @awakaru ! This time i’ll tag the last few people in my activity- @robtari , @tavros-tardis , and @boundtoanandroid ! 5 Things You’ll Find In My Bag: -My sketchbooks(two of them. same kind but one is vertical and the other is horizontal) -My art supply box, which is pink and glittery and used to be a makeup box that i got for christmas one year -This probly counts as two things, but my plusle and minun plushies! i also have a plusle keychain. -I have a calligraphy pen w/ multiple nibs that I haven’t used very much yet. I’ll hopefully start using it and improving when i start college this fall! -And finally, my tablet with bluetooth keyboard. No mouse or pen for it but that’s fine for now. One day though… 5 Things You’ll Find in My Bedroom: Too many things;; -I have a book bag that I only use when I travel. When I’m at home though, it holds most of my plushies! Including a pachirisu that lost an ear. Which I. Kiiind of fixed? I tore off a scrap piece of a purple scarf and sewed it over the hole with yarn. Maybe I’ll take a pic later, lollo -I keep a cat cube on my bed near my feet. It’s purple and pink, with a leopard print. The outside is a kind of messy texture, while the inside has a soft carpet on the bottom. The cats don’t normally use it but when they do i try to take pictures! -My favorite blanket! I use it to stim. When I was at high school I’d usually take it with me in my bag, as well as my scarves. It was helpful for taking naps during commons, especially after a bad insomnia bout. Also helpful during my depressive episodes- even if I’d still end up going home early sometimes. -I have various posters put up in my room- including some prints from juicyink on youtube, a kingdom hearts 2 poster i got from when borders was still around, a print of Vincent Valentine that I got in the Artist Alley at colossalcon last year, a print i got from a caricature artist i got on my birthday as well as the caricature he made of me, and some old fashioned prints made on corkbord which kind of remind me of lowbrow fantasy art. I don’t know how old they are, I think my mom got them for me at a flea market? -I also have some old drawings of mine on my walls. I used to have a lot more of my older older pics, but i took them down because I wanted to start fresh. These were from my senior year i think? So far it’s just drawings of Osiria and Dahteste so far lollo -I lastly have my desktop computer! It’s a p big screen. My dad got me a new screen, keyboard, and pc box for my birthday, after I told him I wanted mass effect andromeda once it came out. For the specs he said. He’s very enthusiastic about that sort of thing;; 5 Things I’ve always wanted to do in life: -Become a concept artist/character designer -Write a story/Draw a comic about my characters(sadly my imagination is more abstract and my minds not v suited for concrete scripting lollo) -Somehow meet and help my characters in real life. I know that’s impossible, shoosh -Become a side character in someone else’s story/video game. Not physically of course- I mean I want to play as the sort of character that supports the protagonist and helps them get a good ending. -Become a voice actor! I really enjoy the thought of my voice bringing a character to life. I’ve tried auditioning before, but I’m not very confident in online auditions like that cus my mics not the best;; 5 Things That make me Happy: -Philadelphia roll with smoked salmon, avocado, and cream cheese! My fav sushi yums;; -My cat Molly! her purrs sound like a pigeon or a dove coping and she’s so soft -Comforting and emotional characters!! Like Cole, Sandal, and Dog from Dragon Age, Jaal from me:a, Legion from Mass Effect, Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter, Lee from Naruto, Dogmeat from Fallout, etc. -My Mom gives really good hugs and she’s really good at emotional support! She understands what I go through cus she has depression and anxiety too. We even take some of the same prescription! I like her more than Dad cus he gets angry sometimes and I can’t really predict when that happens. He’s not hurting me or anything, he just gets loud and that makes me a lil nervous is all! -Conventions! I’m not really equipped for big social events usually, but these are usually the exception. You don’t really talk to people one on one, and you don’t have to be afraid of being the center of attention. Even buying stuff is easier cus no ones judging you for how much you’re buying or how long you’re at one booth! 5 Things I’m Currently Into: -My mutuals/followers may or may not have noticed the posts about witchcraft ehe;; It started with me researching stuff that one of my brain friends, Elisa, is into. She started out with just general tarot reading, which then developed into her actually being a witch, which led to me discovering i really enjoyed the subject lollo -Dungeons and Dragons podcasts like The Adventure Zone and Godsfall. that is too many capital letters;;; -Modern Girl In Thedas fanfics. I especially enjoy the ones where the protag discovers no one in thedas speaks english. Sometimes people write it so english is qunlaat, but my fav is that the protag has to work at learning common on their own. -I’ve gotten into playing more mobile games again, now that i have a phone that can support them;; I now have Love Live SIF, Fallen London, and the new ver of Kingdom Hearts X(fyi the x is pronounced cross in english- in japan its pronounce chi!) -I’ve been watching doodle videos lately. They’re vids where the artist just doodles random lines and patterns and shapes to fill an entire page. Sometimes there are mandalas too! Sometimes the artist talks quietly and motivationally during it like Bob Ross. if you’re curious one of the artists i’ve been watching recently is called Peter Draws on youtube! 5 Things on My To-Do List: -Finish prepping all the paperwork for starting college. I’ve been accepted, but there’s still financial paperwork to fill out lollo -Make a grimoire/book of shadows/book of mirrors. Atm, all my witchy notes are in my phone. I plan to make a cutesy decoden grimoire once i’m actually in school! -Start doing physical stuff like yoga and walking. School has a public yoga class available, and the campus has a lot of places where i can take breaks if i start feeling light headed due to the scoliosis. I’ve downloaded pokémon go preemptively to help w that -Prepare for june’s various activities! This year i’m not just going to colossalcon- I’m also going to volunteer at a convention in DC! ooo I’m so excited and i wanna pack immediately even tho i know it’s not for a month yet lollo;; my mom is also in this mood - Mmmaybe get a spirit companion? Dunno for sure yet. Not sure if my social anxiety also applies to the ethereal. A bit nervous about the constant-ness of the interaction. Need to research the subject a bit more lollo 5 Things People May Not Know About Me: -I’m really disorganized. So much so that i can’t close my closet door due to the clutter in front of it;;; -Physically speaking, I am only 5'6", I have a lazy eye, and mild scoliosis. My right canine tooth is broken as well.Im kind of self conscious about my teeth so my smiles are usually closed mouth. I also have problems with hygiene, for various reasons- for general cleanliness i just forget to shower sometimes/don’t have the motivation for it. As for the teeth, my sensory issues make it so i very much hate toothpaste. That’s why my teeth are so bad;; speaking of- -I have various mental issues. I have depression and anxiety, which has been clinically diagnosed. My psychiatrist also suspects i have mild autism or aspergers, but the test people never got back to us so heck if we know for sure. My mom, a couple of my friends, as well as me all agree i seem to have it. I also believe i have maladaptive daydreaming. This is a condition that makes it so I have very detailed imaginary worlds in my head- so detailed in fact that I get very attached to the characters in them, who I call brain friends. The daydreams get so detailed and involved that it’s sometimes hard for me to focus on stuff like reading or sleeping. Which exacerbates the insomnia i already have lollo. It’s easier for me to read fanfics than published stuff as a result, cus fanfics are basically written dreams in that sense? i’m also p bad at explaining myself with words lo l l,o;; -Despite most of my posts being happy ones, i tend to have p bad depressive episodes. I try not to vent on here though cus i’m self conscious about how others interpret that. It makes me feel manipulative. I also have trouble with asking my parents for stuff for the same reason;; -I started the positivity tag on election night. I was really shaky and anxious, but all of that was trapped inside and i couldn’t cry, so i just felt stuck there(i now suspect i was disasociating at the time?). I started reblogging all these happy posts to cheer myself up, and thanking all the people who were putting them on my dash. That’s why my positivity tag is ‘thank you’! :^)