#yknow. Everyone has a vision of an ideal.

[recitedemise]

𝗚𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗮𝗱𝗲𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗶𝗺𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗱𝗶𝗴𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲. Even as a child, Gale struggled to find steadfast friends. He had rambled too much, was a prodigious student among overly envious wizard boys, and honestly, to make sure he kept in the good graces of most, he, with some practice, hammered a mold. He didn't wear a mask, of course, more leaning on concealing his more 'unsavory' quirks, but it was not unlike walking like just half of he was--offering, essentially, the more 'palatable' parts. He was proud, sure, riling his share of more insecure peers, but he was good at magic, obnoxiously good, and in time, people weathered that pride to essentially ride his coattails. As Mystra's chosen, however, that doubled in force. He learned to hide himself, learned he was loved exclusively for magic. He made more friends among those lonely evenings in his tower, growing familiar with the voice of long dead authors and finding, of course, fulfillment in words. In fact, his idea of romance comes largely from words. It's partly why when smitten, he's such traditional ideas. He's not socially inept, mind you, but many of his thoughts come taken from stories, and if asked, he'd admit to having his heart steeped a touch in romanticism--though age, blessedly, has tempered the naive.

With the orb, unfortunately, he learned to quell himself only further. Gale could only feel so much, a terrible weight for a man who longs most to be seen and heard. Again, he'd further stemmed his excitements, his babbling passions and the stars in his eyes, and even despair and heartache were halved or quartered, or else, of course, the orb would burst. Now, he's learned not to be burden, that on top of being something half of himself. Suddenly, Gale being Gale wasn't just halfway a nuisance, but Gale being Gale could be more than inconvenient--Gale of Waterdeep is now plainly catastrophic.

Gale doesn't exactly hate himself, but it's hard for him to think anyone would like him for him. He's so starved to show himself just as he is--and it's partly why he rushes to give himself over completely when the moment's right.

[saltyspitoonz]

Idk a short story about Bain returning to the safe house lol:

When Vlad reluctantly dragged Bain out of the med center he was placed in Vlad decided to make conversation while they drove 'home'.

"Aye, yknow everyone is excited to see you? They've all been worried sick about you since all that bullshit happened with the dentist. Especially dallas."

Admittedly Bain had been more worried about his crew rather than himself, It made him feel at least a little better about everything they've gone through. But he remained silent, not having the energy to talk to Vlad.

"Oh, being quiet eh?, don't worry, I understand. But hey, at least out everything that's happened at least your crew has stuck together like...paper and glue! Hahaha!!"

Bain cracked a half smile, he didn't like vlad but he did need some company, Even if the person he was getting company from wasn't ideal.

Vlad smiled at Bain and began humming one of his Russian tunes while they drove.

A couple of hours pass and Bain is awoken in his wheelchair by Vlad, getting pushed to the backdoor of the safehouse. When the door is opened Bain is greeted by bright lights that reminded him of the hospital he was in for a brief moment before his vision clears and he sees his family.

His heisters, all there to greet him with a smile and party favors.

Dallas smiled at Bain and handed him a glass of wine.

It was going to take a very long time to recover. But it was damned good to be back.

[wordsnbones]

i think it’s fascinating from a like…anthropology project viewpoint of a very simplified definition of: okay u took human art we have as data today and made a sausage out of it. i would love to see what that sausage tastes like, and also i love when it fucks up and creates something that makes no sense to humans and makes it feel weird and mindfuck-y.

but the hustle culture grasp on it is…miserable honestly. this has great potential. i mean we’re talking abt developing non-human INTELLIGENCE. thats crazy. but theyre like okay i need to get on this before everyone so i can be the first to make more money without work is so stupid. not even the without work part. the make money part. like this is a chance and a pivotal moment to acc change the whole system… acc, the whole system HAS to change, bc otherwise we’re creating something super powerful and rushing bc competition and money and stupid capitalism that just tunnel visions on profit. without considering how we achieve the ideal scenario, and with an alarmingly small amount of dedication to, yknow, safety. like. powerful thing. the leading ppl on its development dont even super understand how it works… and we’re rushing into it and everyone else too bc profit? i dont see that ending well. and this not ending well is actually much worse than the psychological damages of social media algorithms. we’re talking inconceivable damage.

I don't like AI art or writing not necessarily for any grand notion of what art is or whether it counts as stealing I just am straight up not interested in what the AI has to say. I don't like spam, I dont like stories that are designed via a formula to appeal to the biggest amount of people for the most amount of money. I didn't like it when Marvel movies did it with human writers and I like it even less with the human component being downgraded any further. All it does it take the shitty process of designing something by committee and streamline it to make it easier to shit out even faster.

It's boring, by it's very nature it can only ever be derivative because it relies on data inputs scraped from somewhere else, and it's just not very good. It's spam.

I'm willing to concede a decent creative person could use it as a tool to make something cool but so far all it's being used by is people who are only interested in it from a money making standpoint. Finally the most money hungry among us can be creative too and they're limited only by their imagination, and their imagination predictably enough sucks and is ugly.

It's a sausage grinder where you force human creativity into one end and hotdogs come out the other. Prepackaged, predictable, salty, fatty hot dogs. I'm not morally opposed to hot dogs but I don't want to eat them every day.

[softlymellow]

flaws -- B.B

pairing: Bucky Barnes x ! insecure reader

word count: 1.8k

warnings: angst and talk about body image, insecurities and a persons flaws. 

summary: reader compares herself to Natasha as she see’s her and Bucky getting close. She think’s he doesn’t have feelings for her due to her not being perfect and because of her flaws but Bucky reassures her it’s not. 

note: i hope this imagine isn’t taken this wrong way as me trying to romanticise someones insecurities. if i did please dm me or let me know so i can help fix it!! i promise i wasn’t trying to make anyone feel bad or anything and EVERYONE IS SO BEAUTIFUL IN ALL SHAPES AND FORMS and everybody is insecure about something and that’s completely normal but you are loved and you are perfect and you don’t need a man ( or girl! ) to tell you that. hope you guys enjoyyy

You loved being the reason he smiled or laughed.

 Not that he would do it often, his face masked from the trauma he experienced. But when you were the reason he was happy, it gave you almost a sense of pride, but it was taken away from you.

There she was, Natasha Romanoff. 

Her incredible orange hair that sat on her shoulders was eye-catching, her glowing skin and her full scarlet lips complimented her appearance tremendously. 

You couldn't blame her. She was everything you couldn't be and everything you should be. Yet, the lump that rested in the back of your throat was difficult to ignore as you watched Bucky and Natasha interact with each other. A genuine laugh arose from the male, yet you could only wish you were the reason he laughed.

It wasn't as if you weren't friends with him. Hell, it seemed like a lot more to you. Maybe only to you.

You pulled your knees to your chest and hugged them tightly, watching the pair chatter among each other near the dining table as you reside in the comfort of the couch across from them.

Steve sat beside you, busy fixating himself on his new cellphone and playing around with the features.

You drew small circles on your knee to comfort yourself, ignoring the voice that was calling out to you.

"Y/n!" Your head snapped to your right, looking at a semi-concerned Steve. "Almost lost you there," He chuckled while you rubbed your eyes, gaining your full attention.

"How do you change the ringtone?" He innocently asked, poking his phone.

"Just go to settings and search it up." You told him, relocating your gaze to the pair. Steve hummed as he did what you instructed him. You sat quietly before you began to chew on your fingernails, thinking of every possible explanation on why Bucky would choose Natasha over you.

It almost felt as if you were being toyed with, one minute you'd be two peas in a pod, often being teased as one of the only people Bucky began to get close to other than Steve. On the other, he'd be flaunting off to every girl he would see.

"You know you should stop staring before you make it obvious," Steve whispered next to you,  jumping at the sudden break in thought and looking over to a smirking man.

"Steve," You hissed, glaring at him, "before making what obvious?" You innocently asked, attempting to cover up the embarrassment you felt.

Steve shot you a knowing look and you felt your cheeks flare-up, "Shut up."

"I didn't say anything," Steve responded with a smug expression. You rolled your eyes jokingly before turning your attention to Bucky.

"You should give it a shot, yknow," Steve whispered.

You shook your head 'no', snapping your gaze to Steve, "Trust me," He said in a hushed tone. Looking back to Natasha, you couldn't help the sickening feeling as you watched the pair flirt with each other.

"What would he see in me that he wouldn't in Nat," You mumbled under your breath, not intending for Steve to hear.

"You wouldn't know," Steve cleared his throat, poking at his phone with a pleased look on his face. You tilted your head as you narrowed your eyes at him. Getting up from the couch, you had decided to leave to wallow in your sadness.

You made your way past the pair and you heard the silence that fell among them, their gaze darting holes in your back as you walked away from the room.

Ignoring the distant mumbling behind you, you made your way towards your bedroom. Locking the door behind you, you hadn't bothered to turn the lights on. You dropped on your bed as you felt a swarm of emotions hit you. Once mostly consisting of jealousy.

You took out your phone and headed straight to Instagram. You scrolled through for what could only be interpreted as hours before you paused on a single post that lied on your feed.

It was a picture of Natasha that was posted only a few hours ago. It was taken during Tony's infamous parties last night, one that you had skipped out on due to feeling ill. She sat on a red velvet couch, and she wore a skin-tight black dress that sparkled in the light. She held a drink to her mouth as her red straightened hair fell over her eye. You had noticed that Bucky liked the picture, and you felt the tears brim your eyes. Your grip holding the phone as if your life depended on it suddenly faltered as it fell beside your head, briefly missing your face.

Getting up towards the large mirror that was framed on the closet door, you noticed every imperfection on your figure. Your hands travelled to your shirt as you pulled it off your body, leaving you only in your bra and your negative thoughts.

Your eyes wandered to every flaw, the extra fat and skin on your stomach. The way your body wasn't the perfect hourglass figure. Your fingers traced over your stretch marks that lied on your hips, feeling the slight dent in your skin. Tears began to fall down your face. Your flabby arms and that your breasts wasn't the ideal type.

Sitting on the ground in front of your mirror, you hugged your legs tightly against your chest as you sobbed.

You couldn't fit the standards that were made. The more you looked and the more you scrolled, just end up bringing newfound insecurities. That was a problem you had faced many times during your life and you began to doubt yourself. You would rather be anybody else, feeling unfit in your own body, one that was especially for you. All you saw was what you should be. A happier person, a prettier girl, and a stronger Avenger.

You threw your shirt back on, making your way towards your bed. Lying your head down, you allowed yourself to think about nothing. Empty thoughts. Thoughts that had no meaning and brought you no use.

A knock on the door brought you back to your reality. Getting up, you brushed away the tears that stained your cheeks as you sniffed. Suddenly feeling exposed, you pulled your sleeves down to hide your arms before opening the door.

Your eyes widened as you saw a concerned Bucky waiting outside. His eyebrows furrowed upon seeing your puffy eyes and your red cheeks.

"Can I come in?" He politely asked, his eyes watching every move you made. You nodded, not trusting your voice.

You stood aside, allowing Bucky to slip into your room as you shut the door behind him.

You leaned against the door, your arms crossed against your chest as you waited for him to say something.

He sighed, not knowing where to start, his hands ruffling his hair. "Are you avoiding me?" He obliviously asked. You could almost laugh at how stupid of a question it was.

Your lips could only quiver as you attempted to respond to him. "What?"

"Doll, I don't know if I did something wrong, but you seemed pretty upset back there." He tilted his head and pressed his lips together.

You shook your head as you bit the insides of your mouth, "No, no, it was nothing." You muttered as you sat on your bed, staring at your palms.

"Doll, I know you well enough to know when something is wrong." He shot you a small smile.

"Do you like her?" You instantly regretted saying that, your insecurities creeping in again.

Bucky was taken back by the sudden question, his eyebrows raised in confusion. "Who?"

"Natasha."

"What, no. Where'd you hear that from?" He enquired.

You looked up at Bucky, tears glossing over your vision. "I've seen the way you look at her, Buck."

"No, Y/n. I've never liked her."

"You don't have to lie for me. I mean, what's there not to like. She has the perfect body, face and hair and-" You were interrupted by his sudden grasp on your hands.  

"And you don't have those things?"

"I-I don't." You whispered.

"That's a lie, and you know it." His firm voice alarmed you as if you somehow offended him.

You got up and kept strong eye contact with him. "What are you trying to say, Bucky? Have you seen me?" You scoffed and started to point and poke around your flaws.

"There's nothing wrong with your body, doll." He said in a calmer tone, realising you were insecure about your body image.

"Bucky, you can just stop faking it. Go back to Natasha." You muttered, sniffing as you looked down at your feet.

"I don't love Natasha, Y/n! I love you, doll. I always have." He confessed, slightly panting as he raised his voice.

You stood still, finding it difficult to believe in his words.

"I love you and every part of you." He took your hands in his and planted a small kiss onto your knuckles.

"Then what about-"

"Forget about her, doll. I tried to forget about you through her. Steve told me." He looked up to your eyes, watching your reaction.

You felt the heat creep onto your face as you realised he knows your feelings towards himself.

"Do you really?" You asked, hope in your eyes.

He nodded, still holding your hand and planting small kisses. His kisses travelled up towards your arms as you felt a swarm of butterflies swarm your insides.

"I love your arms," he left a trail of kisses as he went further up.

"Your shoulders," he mumbled against your skin, a tingling sensation was left after every kiss as you felt yourself biting your lip in admiration.

He made his way towards your neck, loving the way you tensed under his touch. "Your neck," he kissed behind your ear as you bit back a moan.

You tilted your head, allowing him to move further, his lips moving alongside your jaw. He finally reached your lips and caught your gaze on his. His lips were mere inches apart from yours, you felt his breath fan over yours.

"Your lips," he whispered, his mouth slowly reaching yours as they gently kissed. Your lips dancing over his, enjoying the moment. His lips were soft against yours and he kissed you as if you were fragile, something to not be tampered with.

He slowly let go of you, his forehead against yours. "I love everything about you, doll. Don't doubt that and don't compare yourself to other women. You're equally if not more beautiful than them." He whispered, pecking you on the cheek.

"You'll realise your worth, Y/n." He kissed you on the forehead.

You felt better after Bucky had come found you that night. Your insecurities didn't go away, instead, you found them as someone else's treasure. And that made you feel better.

-----

a/n: man that last part has me embarrassed. 

[kamuikunt]

woah gay little obito playlist (constantly changing)

commentary and standout lyrics under the cut cause god ive thought so much putting this playlist together and some of these songs may need some fucking explaining

…because i'm young arrogant and hate everything you stand for-machine girl

-mmm general rebellion vibes killing the world anger etc etc. very obito you know how it is. also the so little time/so much pain makes me think of how much shit happened in a short time n when he was so young

Out of the mall

And into the fray

So little time

So much pain

A flash in the pan

A smack in the face

Kill the world with whatever it takes!

coul as a ghoul-the voidz

-fuck if i remember why i put this one in. feels right though

I'm a lush, I'm a saint

I'm a phoney, I'm a fake

I'm going insane

I'm going insane

You made me this way

I'm going insane

mr.manson-max diaz

-song about being fated to be horrible/ do horrible shit. yeag

And I never even had a chance to be myself

But today's the day I'm gonna give hell

うずまき (UZUMAKI)-machine girl

-1. lol. like naruto. 2. spiraling hatred etc

Someday, I will feel no pain

Someday, I'm gonna be okay

Cycle of blood, it's all the same

And then I forget everything I wanna be

Getting a strange reality

hell-clown core

-instrumental. get it cause he says hes in hell. also just a good instrumental

2007-YOU LOVE HER

-initially added as a reflection of his like. use of rin + her death as the symbol of everything being fucked up in the world and him getting to that view of the world; its a twisted version of whatever he felt when they were on the same team that he has bulit up in his head n created a Meaning for. later realized that Oh kakashi did Similar Shit at obitos "death", building him up in his head. perhaps this is even more fitting as kakashi didnt have this love or respect for obito before he died (not romantically in this case, a platonic love of the idea of him). idk

I've been searching for

We've been searching for

I've been searching for a life

You love her 'cause she's dead, because she's dead

Because she's dead, because she's dead

And everything she meant was in your head

Was in your head, was in your head

therefore i am-billie eilish

-entirely the fault of that one amv i do not listen to billie eilish on my own lol. you get it though. like a lot of the song has a lot more. superiority than i think obito to have but it works well enough

Top of the world, but your world isn't real

Your world's an ideal

truth and life-clown core

-another clown core instrumental lol. idk the name felt good and ill take any excuse to sprinkle a little clown core

mamma mia-ABBA

-yes i added this one cause of the edit. it is also just fitting

So I made up my mind: it must come to an end

Look at me now, will I ever learn?

I don't know how, but I suddenly lose control

There's a fire within my soul

ghost (of 7th street)-roar

-hopelessness, unchanging fate, etc you get it

There's so much here to ignore

The world's much uglier than we gave it credit for

It's a shame to make the same mistakes

But I'm afraid people don't change

You'll never save the moth from the flame

niji-shinkuhorou

-this is his one outro song i had to + i really like it

inked in red-vision video

-yknow tragedies, wanting to raise the dead, blood imagery, dreams

A tragedy is written—inked in red

Words bleed onto pages—I try to raise the dead

Whoa, as it seems that this life is a waking dream

Ohh, as it seems that this life is a waking dream

dead man-teddy hyde

-basically an instrumental But its two whole lyrics feel very obito to. anyone. he thinks himself nothing, he thinks of everyone and everything as nothing

I am nothing and so are you

Let’s be nothing together

[potatotrash0]

okay okay uhhh, so yknow how in the 6th chapter, junko proposes the idea where the survivors could just live their lives forever in the tropical life of the neo world program. and projects the player/hajime into a snippet of what that could be like (no killing game, everyone is alive and happy, no sorrow no despair) but chiaki helps hajime realize that this is not the solution.

buuuut, but but buuuut… what if hajime still gave in, gave into the ideal world of everyone being alive and happy, even after all the class has been through. and so, the game becomes “reset” everyone is alive and happy, and survivors forgot everything from the past game. though hajime keeps having these weird nightmares, and what he thinks are illusions of his classmates dying. for example, let’s say he’s hanging out with nagito, they’re laying on the beach together and hajime looks over to him and sees nagito’s mouth taped, blood is splattered on his face and body, and tears are streaming from his eyes. but when hajime blinks again, he just sees nagito with his eyes closed, enjoying the breeze. hajime is still alert after this, wondering what the fuck was that?? but he shrugs it off. he would also see chiaki from time to time, like he would see a figure in his peripheral vision, but once he focuses on it the figure is gone. (the last half of the paragraph goes for the other survivors too)

another part of this game reset is that everyone seems happy. too happy. never sad in a way, only the survivors can still have full range of emotions. and they have an itch in the back of their mind, thinking that “this isn’t right” but they don’t listen to it because they’re having so much fun with their classmates!

also having hajime soon realize and remember what happened before the reset, which makes him isolate himself from others, realizing he fucked up and trying to figure out how to get the other survivors to believe in him and get out of this illusion. GOD i would love a fic like that fucjhyfjb… i sadly can’t write tho so i’m sharing my ideas with youuu <3 (btw this idea was inspired by Leariqa’s “with heads inside a dream” animatic sososooo)

*grabby hands* kozu your brain is so damn HUGE i love this so much?????? Mmmmmmmm I wanna write this so baddddd specifically that scene of Hajime and Nagito bc damn death is fun to write about………..

Also?? Chiaki appearing as a flicker before disappearing when you turn to look at her????? Agghhhh dude I love that I would love to do something with that!!!!! Hhhhh brainrot go brrrrrrr have I mentioned that I love this?

[unproduciblesmackdown]

Ahh you’re postings of the script got me into Bat Boy!!! Edgar is such a good boy,,,and also knowing WRol was the lead like??? Iconic??? So please can you expand on your like Everything’s Alright AU where they finally kill Dr. Parker and Ed gets a cowboy boyfriend,,,it sounds so nice especially compared to how canon ends lol

haunted by the need to see the nyu steinhardt 2011 production ft will roland.......honestly it’s too much like All this cryptid wants is to be accepted....they drag him out of a cave and he’s all earnestness......meanwhile it turns out the local vet is like, three seconds away from a cold-hearted killing spree, and was being heinous even before that, he’s very clearly The problem here and basically the number one agenda in the “what if we were to....avoid the greek tragedy aspects” is Kill Parker (like, prior to when he dies in canon) things are looking pretty bleak by the “i imagine you’re upset” number but even prior to that i suppose things are salvageable......they could just do the three bedroom house thing and fuck out of town, ideally after parker is killed......might be nice to do that prior to when the greek god or deity or whichever pan shows up......i mean, if parker had died prior to the end of comfort and joy, things could’ve even been fine just like that and they wouldn’t’ve had to move unless they wanted to, which like, maybe they’d want to b/c i don’t think there’s much going for it, but it’s kind of fun to imagine the small appalachian town and their accepted local cryptid who is apparently proficient in like five dozen fields honestly i’ve never actually come up with any crystal clear aus, in part because canon is so wild its hard to replicate the kinds of courses events take, but in a much more real sense it’s just b/c i can’t actually do things like “come up with ideas.” 

we’ve got the idea that instead of parker killing the rabbit in comfort and joy, edgar can just adopt it and its continued life is proof that ed isn’t Just cursed with untamable bloodlust or anything although like, it’s not even that, that’s just literally what he eats, blood, and he’s like, more starving than not all the time so....not like parker was ever Actually trying to help. anyways we all always have the idea that he can keep the rabbit as a pet friend. iirc we’ve decided its name is kenneth no name settled on for any cowboy boyfriend...no other features or info settled on either, thanks to the whole “never have an idea” trait of mine. mostly it stems partially from the cowboy/vampire jokes and also the fact that cows are such a big part of this story......bat boy’s purportedly present day so i don’t know that there’d be any mountain cattle drives going on, but, you know, we can call a guy who works with the cows a cowboy. i know it’s a small town but there’s got to be more than two families with teens. if cattle is the new Main Industry, one of them’s got an eligible cowboy boyfriend for ed. and that cowboy boyfriend would be seen as like, the commendable backbone of the community type......the hope for the future.....whereas ed, naturally, is any Unknown Threat and anxiety the community might have re outsiders or any hostile forces....scapegoat.....seen as the total opposite of anything to be hopeful about (pre and post a joyful noise reprise, anyhow, that brief moment of acceptance).......it would be a forbidden romance. also, probably being boyfriends with the half-bat cryptid would make it forbidden even if the whole town Wasn’t already on edge. frowned upon, anyways, surely at least at first half jokingly it’s like, well the opposite of “apology to a cow” would be if he helped birth a calf. but things are pretty messed up by Apology.mp3 already, so ideally things could take a turn prior to that parker could be killed by a cow......meredith deserves to kill him but that way there’d be no Murder involved at all. wouldn’t have to evade the sheriff. which reminds me, the sheriff is alright and is always trying to be fair to edgar to the very end, at least in a “let’s not kill him” way, thanks for that. i’ve always thought it was alright if they wanted to skip town and he could just eff off with them because forget the reelection. oh man just remembered when they rhymed “some of my constituents / seen him stalking through their kitchens”......brilliant but anyways.....the sheriff Could know that parker was deliberately murdered but also realize that it was Justice regardless and just be like yeah lets leave, idk. life on the lam? dropping into some bigger city to disappear maybe? or just, he could help cover up the murder, keep things simpler. 

 really meredith could kill parker during the dance with me darling bit. it was entirely warranted and he was literally threatening to murder her cryptid child unless she had sex with him so like, the crimes are piling up right there. he’s even got a spade and a burlap sack and there’s a hole in the yard out back. he’d just got back from hunting, it’s believable he could have just......never shown back up.......maybe a bit reckless to bury the body right in the backyard but hey. the point is that he needs to die the success of the revival could then play out as-is and parker wouldn’t be storming in to pin his murders on ed and presumably things could be just fine.......and then, idk, eventually in his new life as a Regular Citizen ed could run into said cowboy boyfriend. they meet up at the edge of the fence at night b/c secrecy and ed has good night vision........cowboy/vampire romance. these are all the ideas i can possibly muster sorry i’m not really all That good at hcs that aren’t either too broad or too super-specific-details to be of any real use the ending everyone deserves au: kill parker, rabbit friend, cowboy boyfriend maybe.......ed Could get blood from cows just like.....yknow draw some cattle blood but a safe amount and rotate them out.....gotta get it from somewhere, and if they apparently have a local population of vampire bats, they’ll live through it

[nochedura]

bane “nochedura” bane timeline of events

so the thing about bane is most of the shit written with him in it is a) racist, b) ooc, c) a horrible mix of both, or d) uses him because of his status as Bat Breaker as a way to show someone else’s strength which is often times not realistic (ex. theres a new villain in town and to show how tough they are they clowned on bane). a lot of interpretations tend to forget he is brawn And brain (tbh i tend to write him as a strategist first and a fighter second) and its all just a mess.

this interpretation of bane is an attempt to right these wrongs and also streamline his canon a bit because we All Know comics are a mess and extremely inconsistent but especially with characters who don’t get their own titles. nochedura is an anti-hero and also currently on the path of redemption. obviously he’s still not nice and has done a lot of Fuck Shit but yknow. who hasnt.

with that in mind this is a very broad timeline of events that have happened to this bane in particular (with the links to the comics accompanying these events) to clarify what the heck is happening with this man and why he’s like this. im taking a lot of liberties here but fuck everybody im god. without further ado.

bane is born in pena duro. he grows up under the prison’s influence, gets a vision that he was born to rule and in order to become his ideal self he must kill his fear (which takes the form of a bat, obviously), spends 10 years in the cavidad obscura* after killing a man at 6 y/o, and comes out the biggest and the strongest. he trains his body and his mind (by reading thousands upon thousands of books) as he pursues self actualization. he learns from his ally bird that the greatest city in the world is gotham and it is ruled by batman and he decides to break out of prison and kill him to take gotham by force. he is selected for venom experimentation and is the only survivor of the drug’s intensity. the venom aids him in his efforts to get to gotham (if you read nothing else on this list read vengeance of bane #1 (+ 2) because its Good and its required bane reading material)

bane relocates to gotham after kidnapping and killing pena duro’s warden and studies batman. he’s able to figure out his secret identity within a few months and unleashes everybody from arkham city with the intent of mentally and physically breaking bruce so that he can kill him. this culminates in the final confrontation in which batman isn’t even strong enough to fight back and bane decides that killing him would be a mercy and breaks his back. (knightfall is long and incomprehensible so i’ll just link the directory page and broken bat #11)

bane rules gotham for a while and its sexy up until batman’s replacement azrael clowns on him. the fight’s pretty sexy but honestly i dont care about this that much. (he who rules the night #11)

after losing to azrael bane does some silent contemplation in black gate prison. he was taken off of venom cold turkey and suffers through crippling withdraws but he, and i quote, “bears the pain.” he realizes venom was, in fact, poisoning him and taking him further away from his Ideal Self. he finds out venom is being further distributed and after some nonsense breaks out of prison Again to track these clowns down. he has a confrontation with bruce who he tells he has no qualms with, decides he wants to find his father, and presumably goes back to santa prisca. this is also the beginning of bane coming to the conclusion that he’s an innocent man which comes up later. (vengeance of bane #2)

so this is where im Really taking liberties. this is what i’m choosing to call the switcheroo arc where i clown around and decide im in charge and im going to make this more comprehensive. bane goes to santa prisca and gets told that there are five men who could be his dad and it probably takes some time to narrow down that list (while also finding out who each of these men are) so i’m declaring that’s what he’s doing for a while. this search is ongoing and doesnt stop until, well, he finds him. he’s still a villain at this point even though he claims to be innocent.

this is also where he’s knocking out some loose ends. specifically he tracks down a reporter who interviewed him as a teen and murders him for knowing something that could paint him as sympathetic. (batman secret files #2)

it’s at this point that he joins up with the secret six. he probably does this for the purpose of networking and garnering information, but then gets sort of swept up in everything and grows extremely attached to scandal savage, who he takes in as an adopted daughter. secret six 2008 is long and has a lot going on but its a good time. (SPOILERS) at the end of it he convinces everyone in the group to go on a suicide mission with an ulterior motive of severing his attachments to them because he feels that his affection has weakened him. everything goes according to plan and he breaks out of a police van and fucks off. (/SPOILERS) (secret six 2008)

after some time away from all that he gets into a feud with ra’s al ghul who wanted bane as his heir but some bullshit happened with talia, i forget, this doesnt matter to me, what Does matter is he’s now on a crusade to fuck up all the lazarus pits for funsies. this is also the point where he realizes one of the men on his Dad List is thomas wayne. he confronts bruce about this and everyone in the batfam is, understandably, cross. but bruce is nothing without his rehabilitation shtick so he goes crime stopping with bane in the batmobile until the results of the drug test come out and thomas is not, in fact, the father. this absolutely crushes bane for reasons he doesnt understand (he’s a lonely man and it turns out he Does need a family) but batman tells bane if he proves he’s Actually innocent by, yknow, stopping crime rather than doing crime, then he’ll help him find his actual dad. he agrees, but uses... unconventional (read: horrific) methods. (gotham knights #33-36) (tw for rape)

bane continues fighting crime and trying to prove his innocence and change/redeem himself up until he actually finds his real dad who is.......... king snake! who at this point in the canon is really fucked up and somehow alive in the himalayas and is just a real mean son of a bitch. bane is conflicted because like, hey cool, a dad, but also, he kinda sucks! bane’s kinda fucked up himself because he’s been climbing up a mountain and he’s a little brain sicky so i think hes just like... trying to absorb everything and then the bat crew shows up because they do Not like the idea of bane finding his dad who is king snake who is also at a fucking lazarus pit. king snake gets pissed when they show up and starts attacking and almost shoots batman but bane, distraught, jumps in front of the bullet and takes several in the back, lamenting that he wishes thomas was his father and not king snake. king snake ends up getting killed(?) and batman dunks bane in the remainder of the lazarus pit and gets brought back to life, reborn and changed. (gotham knights #47-49)

at this point this is just. my own writing. i guess. but after bane, yknow, literally died for bruce, bruce realizes that bane truly has bettered himself and is on the path of becoming a good man. he welcomes bane into the vigilante side and, eventually, to the batfam itself. when a man breaks your back and then takes several machine gun bullets for you a few years later i figure batman’s like... alright we’re square. comics are like that.

this is also where bane realizes he was wrong to cut ties with the secret six and seeks out scandal savage and her wives and brings them back into his life as his adopted daughter (and daughters in law)

so bane’s just... clowning now. he’s still like, brutal, and when he’s fighting baddies he’s not opposed to just Wrecking their shit (see: the time he used one of mr. freeze’s goons’ freeze gun on his arm) and i think he definitely does some murders but only if it’s like. the sort of bastard who really deserves it(tm) so like. mass murderers. the joker. sex criminals. etc. he’s not always in bruce’s best graces and he’s still on THIN ICE with dick and tim and the rest but its a work in progress. he’s trying.

anyway i left out a Lot of shit because like. theres a lot. but this is ... the basics believe it or not tl;dr bane is a good man born into horrific circumstances and he did a LOT of bad shit but he’s working on redeeming himself.

[artemis-lesbian]

8 9,11,14,15,16,38,54,58 70,75,81 asfdhdkflghs that's a lot but i'm a nosy bitch

OH JEEZ I appreciate these even tho they're gonna take me a while bc I'm doing it on my phone ahshdhdh. Also this got long as FUCK cause idk when to shut up even when typing lmaooo

8. Describe your crush

Mmmm idk that I REALLY have a crush rn like I send nice anons to a cute femme on here bc shes pretty and I like her personality but I wouldn't say I really have a crush atm

9. Describe your perfect mate

"Mate" agshdhdh UH idk I dont really have any preconceptions abt who I would like, like i keep my options open i dont wanna have this vision of a perfect person for me personally bc i feel like then I'd never find them but like ideally someone who's kind and understanding and is willing to put in effort into a relationship bc relationships are WORK yknow it's not always gonna come easy

11. Do you ever want to get married?

Yes I do!!!

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Nahh not really. See above lol

15. Do you have any piercings?

No I do not! I wanna get my ears pierced and I've kinda flirted w the idea of getting a septum piercing one day but that one I'd try out w fake piercings first cause idk if itd suit me lool

16 for some reason didnt copy and I cant go back to it on mobile but I think it was do you have any tattoos

No I dont! I know of 2 tattoos maybe 3 that I want so far but idk when I'd get them. The 1st I want is a double venus the 2nd is the dates I came out to my parents and the 3rd I'm still thinking abt ahshdh

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

YEAH in hs I had like a MAJOR crush on this straight (as far as I know) girl in my english class who I had barely even talked to she was just v v pretty and I was like....fuck....I didnt wanna crush on a straight girl ahdhhdh

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

Ummm I'd say theres quite a few people I will never forget like they're all people that have made a difference in my life or otherwise people that just stood out to me like for example when I worked at a fast food place there was a deaf family that came in a few times and they're a major reason why I'm gonna take sign language next semester bc I was like wow they cant even order their food bc I have no idea how to communicate w them bc I and so many other abled people dont even consider to make the world a little more welcoming and accessible

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

Oh god ummmm

1. Be kind. If you're a selfish asshole that's an automatic no from me dawg

2. Try to make an effort to actually listen to me and the things I like. There is nothing worse than saying u like something and having someone go "ugh that's dumb" like at least be kind if you dont like it!! Just say like oh that's not for me but it's cool that you enjoy it like?? Or if you've never seen it/read it/etc try it out! Even if it's not something you enjoy and don't continue it the thought is great! I do that for everyone I care about so itd be amazing to have someone do it in return

3. Tell me explicitly how you feel. I'm not a mind reader and I'm EXCEPTIONALLY bad at reading people so I don't like to be expected to guess. If you talk to me and are honest about how you feel that's amazing

4. Little gestures go a long way. Sending me a video or a meme like hey I thought of you when I saw this. That's really sweet and shows that you actually think about me

5. Just be there. Literally just keeping a relationship going even just a friendship like. If we communicate regularly I'm gonna get attached lmao

70. What turns you on?

UH. honestly never having been in a relationship or anything......not a clue. literally the only thing coming to mind is like...a girl dancing for me. GOD thatd be amazing ahshsh

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

I think one of the sweetest things is my hs teacher that I still keep in touch with learning that i was unemployed then trying to help me find a job. Like I'm no longer her student and she doesnt have any obligation to help me but she cares so much about me that she has written me recommendations and sent me links to job postings...like she just went out of her when she didnt need to and I didnt ask her to. It made me so happy that she cared so much about me that she would do that

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

Oh jeez like literally just scroll thru my #beautiful tag ahshdhdh but in no particular order

1. Gal gadot

2. Brie larson

3. Zendaya

4. Katherine mcnamara

5. Emeraude toubia

Like this isnt even necessarily a top 5 but just like the first 5 to come to mind lmao