#yes this is an asshole post I know. i'm becoming more and more uncomfortable about the crush situation because she won't shut up about it

[borealopelta]

does someone want to buy my roommate off me. i'll pay if you take them

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

What do you think about Equius and Eridan's ship? I think this is a pretty entertaining idea (I'm aware that they don't really tolerate each other, but maybe they could share their problems with each other and help each other?)

I won't tell people what they should and shouldn't ship, but it's unsupported by canon & I personally don't think they'd be a good fit for each other, because Equius is kind of a prude who's genuinely made uncomfortable by Eridan's incredibly strong emotional neediness, and Eridan needs attention from his friends and especially romantic partners, which Equius isn't really equipped to provide. But again, if you like it, don't let me stop you!

Uhhh warnings for talking about sexual stuff because unfortunately Equius is just kind of Like That and you can't really discuss him in good faith without getting into it.

Basically, Equius's deal is that he's kind of sheltered. His specific position in the hemocaste means he gets to avoid a lot of the awful shit the other highbloods have to deal with, while still being high enough that he gets to avoid lowblood problems entirely. He doesn't have to worry about being culled or even of having to cull others - at least, not until adulthood - to the point where he's in a position to object to Nepeta killing wild animals. The murder of other real, thinking, breathing people seems like a distant problem for future Equius - not a tangible reality quickly catching up to him.

CT: D --> You e%terminate beautiful, innocent creatures by the hundreds CT: D --> I can't condone such wretched behavior CT: D --> Beasts are meant to be 100ked upon with adoration AC: :33 < but AC: :33 < i eat them! AC: :33 < i dont kill anything i dont eat, that would be mean CT: D --> I guess that's basically acceptable in principle, but I still find it a bit unsavory

He knows that Alternia is dangerous, and that bad, horrible things happen to other people (I mean, he's neighbors with Vriska lmao), but he has the privilege of simply electing not to participate, and that's the solution he keeps presenting to Nepeta: don't talk to the lowbloods, because they'll harm you, don't talk to the highbloods, because they'll harm you, and don't play their dangerous games. I mean, it works for him!

CT: D --> The thought of you fraternizing with and abetting those stink-b100ded h001igans strikes me as scandal beyond measure CT: D --> I'm afraid you're too delicate to withstand that sort of corruption

EQUIUS: D --> Yes, which is among the reasons why I must make your prote%ion a high priority EQUIUS: D --> The highb100d has joined a stable of those who are becoming increasingly volatile and murderous as we remain stranded in this laboratory EQUIUS: D --> I command you to steer clear of them, do you understand

He has a kindly lusus who takes very good care of him, met his soulmate very early on, has a neighbor/friend he gets along with pretty well, and gets to spend basically all of his free time pursuing his hobbies and interests with no pressing duties or responsibilities to distract him. As far as is possible on Alternia, he's lived a charmed and peaceful life.

Now, although I'm going to make the caveat early that he's not actually that casteist, Equius is still the most casteist member on the team, short of post-corruption!Gamzee. The fact that he's sheltered is one of the primary reasons for this: he's never had a reason to question casteism, because casteism has always been pretty correct in his book, and he's never had the need nor impetus to question it any further than that. After all, lowbloods DO wind up getting themselves into horrible situations, and highbloods DO tend to be murderous, dangerous assholes. This is just The Way Things Are, right?

For more specific examples, the Team Charge debacle - which Equius had to know about because he's the one who patched Vriska up afterwards - ended with Tavros unable to walk and Aradia "broken" (most of the team didn't know she was dead until they entered the game; Terezi tells Vriska she thinks "whatever Vriska did to her" must've broken her brain somehow since she was never the same since). Meanwhile, the two highbloods really only got injured by each other. In Equius's eyes, this would've reinforced his views: lowbloods live dangerous lives wrought by their inherent degeneracy, and always suffer worse for it, while highbloods are unstable and violent, but ultimately faultless and unpunishable except by each other.

He also - again - is Vriska's neighbor, and Vriska's psionics work best on lowbloods, so that's the vast majority of who she brings in for her lusus to eat. The two most crass people on the team are also Karkat and Sollux - the latter of which is very much a lowblood, while the former regularly throws himself in with the "gutter bloods"; the fact that they swear and make sex jokes genuinely freaks Equius out, since he's a sheltered little noble boy who refuses to say cuss words.

EQUIUS: D --> For pete's goodfornothing di%ie whistling SA%ES, Nepeta

So with Equius, we see how unexamined and uninterrogated privilege and sheltering can lead to genuinely harmful beliefs. Equius's feelings come from a good place: he sees all these poor lowbloods dying and suffering, and all these high bloods doing horrific, scary shit, and he instinctively knows that something is wrong and the world they live in is dangerous - or else he wouldn't be trying to protect Nepeta from it. He knows that because she's lower than he is on the hemospectrum, she's much more at risk than he is of something terrible happening to her, so as much as possible, he tries to keep her away from engaging with the rest of society.

CT: D --> Well, green b100d is ok, but it's not great CT: D --> But that's why you're lucky to have me to 100k out for you CT: D --> Because you don't know better, and you can't fight the role the mother had in store for you

But because he's had no reason to challenge or question the casteist beliefs he was taught, the horrific stuff he witnesses actually reinforces them. In an attempt to make sense out of the terrible world he lives in, he falls back on the easy answers, the ones he's been repeatedly told since he was a child: lowbloods suffer because they are inherently "worse" than highbloods, and highbloods are inherently "better," so they're allowed to indulge all their most violent and horrific impulses and it's not actually a problem. He's comfortable with his reality; why isn't everybody else?

So um, that brings us to the sex stuff. Basically, because Equius is so sheltered, he doesn't realize that he has a massive BDSM kink, and kind of a voyeurism kink, and that a lot of the gratification and pleasure he feels from indulging in them are... um......... "that kind" of gratification and pleasure. To be honest, I think if someone genuinely levelled with him and pointed it out, he'd have a mental breakdown over it. Because, like, at his core, Equius is a polite, kind, helpful guy. There's a reason he listens to Karkat same as the rest of the team, why he helps with Tavros's robot legs, why Nepeta even likes him so much. A lot of his worst aspects just stem from the fact that he's conflating his desire to be stepped on with the hemocaste being an inescapable, correct reality.

He's basically this post lol:

So about specifically him and Eridan, like. We actually have Equius's outright stated opinion on Eridan.

CG: YOU ARE SUCH AN IDIOT, I DON'T GET IT CG: YOU KISS THE GROUND THIS LUNATIC WALKS ON BECAUSE HE HAS PURPLE BLOOD CG: BUT THAT DOESN'T STOP YOU FROM RIPPING ON ERIDAN, I KNOW FOR A FACT YOU DON'T LIKE HIM CG: AND HIS BLOOD IS EVEN PURPLIER, ISN'T IT? CT: D --> Yes CT: D --> That's different CT: D --> He is a sea dweller CT: D --> Our feud is codified in tradition CT: D --> Neigh, we are obligated to be at odds CT: D --> It's dignified ... CG: THE POINT IS, IF YOU SEE HIM, WOULD YOU MIND SNAPPING HIS STUPID WAND IN HALF OR SOMETHING? CG: AND THEN CHOKE HIM TO DEATH WITH HIS OWN SHITTY PRETENTIOUS SCARF. CT: D --> Do I really have to CG: GOD, WHAT IS THE PROBLEM NOW? CT: D --> I'd prefer not to interact with him CG: WHY CT: D --> It's primarily that his advances make me uncomfortable

See, Eridan... is not really Equius's type. And I can see why! Equius places a lot of importance on decorum and a100fness. Here's him basically telling Gamzee about why he's attracted to Gamzee and Aradia:

CT: D --> See, that's what I mean CT: D --> How is it possible for one of your distin%ion to be so ignorant CT: D --> And loathesome CT: D --> Whereas CT: D --> A member of the most abject, verminous b100dline of all CT: D --> Can conduct herself with such grace and possess nothing but admirable mannerisms CT: D --> I find these striking ju%tapositions perple%ing, and I confess strangely into%icating

He hates that Gamzee acts dumb and friendly, and wants him to be mean and commanding - and is probably lowkey picking up on the fact that Gamzee DOES have that within him, although he's hiding it. At the same time, he's weirdly attracted to how Aradia is aloof, intelligent, and strong-willed, despite being the lowest possible caste. Basically, Equius wants a pretty classically cultured dom to put him in his place - bonus points if caste-play is involved, whether it's a higher caste acting in accordance to their position on the spectrum, or a lower caste degrading him to a point below themselves.

So, initially, you'd think that Eridan would actually be his ideal for such a position, land dweller/sea dweller feud notwithstanding. After all, Eridan is all about acting like a traditional sea dweller, talking up his nobility and how much better he is than the lower castes, wanting the land dwellers dead/in their place, etc. etc.

But that's where we hit a snag. Eridan is pretending. He's pretending in the opposite direction of Gamzee, in fact. Where Gamzee is genuinely quite mean and nasty, but masking that in an attempt to get along better with his friends, Eridan is actually pretty - well, "nice" is the wrong word, but he's desperately presenting himself as meaner and more casteist than he actually is.

Equius wants to be effortlessly dominated, but Eridan puts in 110% at all times. Equius wants someone who upholds the caste system, and Eridan is actually totally indiscriminate when hitting on people because he actually doesn't give a shit about class differences. Equius wants someone who commands respect, but Eridan is kind of the team laughingstock. Also Eridan swears in proportion to his dialogue second only to Karkat.

Eridan's emotional desperation, disregard for the caste system, and cringefail antics are all massive turnoffs for Equius, and in a lot of ways, genuinely kind of scare him. I mean, again, Equius is a sheltered little noble boy who's made uncomfortable by cussing or killing animals for meat - and here's Eridan, one of the team's biggest murderers, genuinely obsessed with death and genocide, mouth of a sailor, willing to shoot his shot with anyone on the hemospectrum. Equius gets along better with Karkat, and Karkat's not even ON the hemospectrum.

It wouldn't even be pitch or ashen hatred to me, because Equius doesn't object to Eridan, morally or ethically - he just finds Eridan uncomfortable to be around, and prefers not to interact with him if he can help it. And that's really bad for Eridan, because Eridan's basically a huge emotional wreck and has a pretty fundamental need for emotional support and attention from his romantic partners - I've touched on it before, I think when I talked about him and Tavros, but Eridan has a genuine anxiety attack when Vriska accidentally ghosts him (because she's mercy killing her lusus), and I really don't think it would be good for him if he were to become emotionally attached to the guy whose whole Thing is standing in the background and watching without interacting.

As for discussing their problems... like, that's kind of the thing? They don't actually have overlapping problems. Eridan's issues primarily stem from the pressures his position on the hemocaste have placed on him, whereas Equius has actually actively benefited from and enjoyed his position in that class structure. Like, even if they tried to share notes on their respective character arcs about shirking the shitty things Alternia imposed on them, it'd be like,

EQUIUS: D--> Did you know that one's position in the hemospe%rum has little to no bearing on their moral integrity or worth as a person ERIDAN: are you a fuckin idiot eq

ERIDAN: guess all that obsessin ovver murder wwas a huge fuckin wwaste ERIDAN: and didnt do me no good nor anybody else for that matter EQUIUS: D--> Well EQUIUS: D--> Yeah

Even if we try to bring in things that aren't strictly related to being a high blood and what that means on Alternia - like if we run with the idea that Eridan's lusus contributed to Eridan's shitty childhood - well, unfortunately, Equius can't relate. Aurthour was incredibly kind to Equius growing up and he loved Aurthour dearly. So on and so forth.

And, uh... this is kind of weird to say, but despite how forward Eridan is about romance, he's actually... kind of reserved, sexually? He doesn't crack sex jokes and his fixation on romantic relationships is more about the act of being in a relationship than about what they do in that relationship. His date ideas are pretty straightforward and traditional, because he tends to prioritize "doing a good job" and "living up to the standard" over how he actually feels or his own personal interests.

What I'm saying is, Equius's horniness would probably make Eridan uncomfortable. Especially before Equius realizes that he's just got massive kinks that he should probably keep under control - which is basically the entire comic - Equius tends to prioritize what they do in a relationship over the act of actually being in a relationship. In fact, he'd probably be just as happy to get domm'd by Gamzee or Aradia even if they weren't actually dating. That's a kind of freedom and trueness to one's desires that Eridan can't manage; moreover, because Eridan tends to prioritize "doing a good job", he's pretty willing to go along with whatever his partner wants - which, in Equius's case, means Eridan doing more of the thing that's actively harmed them both. And I just don't think that that'd be good for Eridan.

So, yeah, overall, not a good fit for each other, but again, don't let me stop you!

The most interesting arrangement of Eridan and Equius, to me personally, is the fact that I think Eridan and Nepeta would actually be pretty good friends once they started talking (and Eridan got a moirail). Nepeta is the Anti-Casteism troll, the only one to outright state that she believes blood color shouldn't matter, and Eridan's whole deal is being less casteist than he pretends to be, to the point of genuinely being the least casteist highblood. And they both RP and hunt for stuff.

However, if there's any example of "dangerous highblood" on the team before Gamzee snaps, it's Eridan, and Equius has pretty deep concern for Nepeta's safety, which actually sometimes comes at Nepeta's detriment. It wouldn't escalate to pitch or ashen, but I really like the idea of the two of them having an antagonistic relationship because Equius does NOT want Nepeta interacting with this insane murderer, while Eridan is like, bro, let the kitty cat cave shipper girl decide for herself, and Nepeta is like, why must boys fight.

[fallen-gabrielle]

Presidential/White House AU Headcanons compilation

Hello KND fandom! With friends from the discord server, we expanded the fake future from Operation: W.H.I.T.E.H.O.U.S.E. and made it an actual alternate universe/future.

I also decided to write a fanfic about it based on the headcanons we came up with 👀: Wrath of The White House, title suggested by @scarlett-v-the-fox. She also came up with a lot of headcanons about Lizzie's alien specie.

Many things come from the fact that President Uno gives major "I cheat on my wife with my secretary" vibes and we all just rolled with the idea. So yes, in this AU and fic, Adults!Nigel/Kuki is a thing and things get cra-zy between them, so I'm warning you, there will be a lot of adult stuff under the cut, such as freaky physical intimacy. If you don't like it for any reason, don't go further.

There's also a few things I left out from the list, because it would be kind of spoilery for the fic, but with this list you already know where you're getting yourself into, so no big surprises.

I will probably reblog this post when we explore the other characters not so mentioned here, but this is a good base to start.

Ok, are you ready for it? Remember, the following might make you uncomfortable so if you don't want to read it, just keep scrolling.

HEY I WARNED YOU, THERE WILL BE REALLY ADULT THEMED TOPICS, THIS IS MY FINAL WARNING, DON'T COMPLAIN ABOUT THINGS YOU DIDN'T WANT TO SEE CUZ I GAVE TWO BIG WARNINGS ABOUT IT! FINAL CHANCE TO TURN BACK!!!

The main things that can be hard to read are: kinks, torture, domestic and child abuse. All of this will be explored in some degrees in the fic.

We good? Okay, here it is then!

President Nigel Uno/Wrath -Won the elections through shady means: bribes, blackmail and other illegal stuff. -He made it possible for him to be President for life -He's in charge of the English mob, who he sent people to do the dirty work -He also has his personal army of demons as henchmen who helped him with the shady means to become president -He has powers, but he hides them very well in the face of the public. -The whole demon lineage is a family secret that he didn't even tell Lizzie. -He is known in the undergrounds as Wrath and you really don't want to piss him off. -His silhouette form is the classic pitch black suit, he has claws and a dragon tail, as well as straight horns on his forehead. His hair is messy in this form as well. -He's an asshole. He cares more about his hair than his heir (plz laugh at this) -He had many love affairs but only a few were consistant (a lot of one night stand). He only had one kid out of it with Rachel. -He uses a lot of hair gel. When he doesn't, his hair are messy just like his son's (they basically have the same haircut if not combed)

Nigel and Kuki (that's where the freaky bed stuff is, guys) -They fuck in secret but some people know what's going on. -They get crazy in the sack, with a shit tons of kinks. -Seriously, they try stuff in the bedroom, they're really creative. Tickling that Nigel actually enjoyed, Kuki liking having her hair pulled a little bit. They both bite and love it. -Their kinks involve leather, chains and extreme role plays (she has a collar with his name on it) -Technically they're switches, they take turns on who's the dominant one, but Nigel secretely likes being the sub in their relationship bc he gets a break from being in charge, and he gets praised. He can't hear "good boy" without blushing. -They can't go to specialized clubs because they can be regognized so they do it in private places -They have a code in little gestures to warn the other when they want each other. When she fixes his ties for exemple. -Their relationship is purely physical intimacy, there is no romantic emotion between them. -Outside of the bedroom, and off duty, they're just friends. -After the act, Nigel and Kuki share some fluff moment, where they simply like the presence of each other and like to snuggle. -She is serious, strict and stern as the secretary but in private with Nigel she loosens up and is a real tigress in bed. -"I will work late tonight honey" => is actually with Kuki -In the morning, Kuki likes to exchange her glasses with his just for fun, but one time they actually had to rush to get out and still had the wrong glasses on their faces. For those who didn't already know about them, that's how they learned what's going on -Kuki always travels with him on his trips

Nigel and Rachel (plus her family) -He had an affair with her during the early years of his marriage with Lizzie. -They're still in love even to this day -They had a daughter together named Lucy, 14 years old -Nigel loves his daughter very much, she's his little princess -He clearly has a favorite, and it's his daughter -They've been keeping their love affair a secret from everyone, mostly -Rachel is also hiding her daughter from most people's knolwedge -Rachel ended her relationship with Nigel and put an end to his secret visits to his daughter because things got sus and Nigel was also starting to change as he became greedier and lusted for more powers. He wasn't the man she fell in love with anymore. -Nigel sends her money to support their daughter but Rachel never accepted the money as it comes from corrupted/dirty money. -Rachel is the head of national security -She knows all the hacking tricks in the book. She can bypass a n y t h i n g -Harvey knows about the secret child and absolutely despises Nigel (and so does he)

Nigel and Lizzie -Lizzie is the same overbearing and annoying person as ever -Lizzie suspects that Nigel has an affair with Kuki Sanban. -She has no clue about Rachel and the illegitimate daughter. But when she learns that fact, all hell will break loose -She will especially be super mad that Nigel got a daughter with another woman and she didn't. -When she does get a confirmation about Kuki, she has to keep it down because the scandal would be too much to handle. Also, Nigel would be worse to her if she throws fits. -She doesn't know the extent of what Nigel is doing with Kuki, just that he's cheating on her with the secretary -When they do get intimate, it's the most boring stuff ever. -Nigel absolutely doesn't know she's an alien. When he finds out, he sends her to Area 51 -He will torture her to know why she was sent to earth

Nigel and his parents/relatives -Actually the only people he's not a complete douchbag to. -He really loves his parents and they love him too. He just never has the time to visit them as much as he would want to. -But they still never approved of Lizzie. They hate her. -Mrs Uno occasionally mentions divorce to her son so that Nigel would someday click and dump Lizzie -Nigel is also close to his uncle Benedict. He taught his nephew how to use his powers when he got them in his 20s.

Nigel and Shirley -They have a very cold relationship -Nigel doesn't care much for his son's existence except when it comes to his own image -Nigel is more neglectful towards his son than he is verbally or physically abusive towards him -Nigel insists on his son being proper all the time. -He combs his son's hair whenever he thinks it's not perfect -When Shirley gets his alien genes activated and apparent, Nigel absolutely hates it and cuts them off violently. -He always scolds Shirley for being ‘too noisy/agitated’ when they visit his parents because they’re old people so therefore they mustn’t be rushed. But Monty and Margaret really don’t mind their grandson for doing what a kid is supposed to do. -Shirley doesn't know his dad has affairs and just thinks he's always busy on business trip and extended meetings. -Viggo finding dogs’ collars in his dad’s stuff: "wait, he secretly has a dog? And he always refused that I get one myself !!!" Poor boy doesn't know what this really means

Shirley/Viggo -He's part human/demon and uvinea (alien part) -He doesn't know his true lineage on either side (yet) -At some point, he will start having flowers growing on his head -His vines can be torn apart and it hurts, but they will grow back -He doesn't know anything about his father's infidelity drama, including his older half sister -He really despises his dad in general -He admires Numbuh 1, whom he doesn't actually know that's his dad -I let you imagine the shock when he'll find out the truth xD -Leopold Lincoln/Numbuh 5'000 is his best friend -Shirley spends some times at the Lincolns', because Leo's dad is so much nicer than his own and wishes to have a dad like Leo's -Despite how dysfunctional his family is, Shirley still hopes that one day they could be a "normal family". -He loves his grandparents a lot (who doesn't tbh) -Nigel and Lizzie fight a lot for small things as well as the bigger ones (Nigel’s cheating for exemple) and it’s too much for Shirley so he goes to his grandparents’ place to have some calm and wholesomeness or sometimes to the Lincolns' -He hates the cold

Fanny & Patton plus friends -They're married and have a daughter -Her name is Sheila and her codename is Numbuh 860, soopreme leader -Patton is in the army but doesn't have a high position -He has to put up with Wally's bs all the time -He's away from home a lot -Fanny, as head of Nigel's security guards, records the shenanigans between the President and his Secretary and keeps the tapes as off-brand for herself. -She's actually supposed to delete anything scandalous about the President but eh, she sometimes blackmails Nigel with it. -She sometimes watches it with her colleague Chad and her husband when he gets back home -They all treat it like it's a fictional tv drama show -Therefore, they know all the dirty little secrets the President Uno has in the sack -She gossips about everything going on in the White House with her colleagues but makes sure nothing get out really (her boss is Nigel, remember) -Fanny actually does know about the Nigel/Rachel affair, because she is friend with Rachel -Fanny talks Rachel into watching the tapes. Rachel reluctantly agrees, and she's speechless until she mutters over halfway in, "Why couldn't we do any of that stuff? Damn."

Abigail Lincoln -Married to Maurice, he took her last name. -She was arrested under false accusations/She tried to organize a coup against his administration and failed -Nigel tortures her to get info from her (mostly about the knd) -She lost her right eye during one torture session -She was never decomissioned as she was tasked as a teenager and later as an adult to look after Nigel. Obviously she failed. -She is constantly tormenting herself about the fact she wasn't able to save Nigel -She was also part of Nigel's administration and she refused to help him in his corruption

Leopold/Numbuh 5'000 -His dad is Maurice -He's Shirley's best friend and always calls him by his nickname Viggo -He doesn't freak out nor is scared of his friend when he gets his powers -He kinda fanboys about it, actually, which makes Viggo cringe a few times -He writes and collect letters from the family for his mom. -He sneaks into the prison to bring her the letters and pastries his dad baked for his wife -He has to make his visits more sparce to avoid getting caught -“Dad misses you” “Dad brought you this” “Dad is working on your case” -He failed to protect his mom from being jailed and feels really guilty about it -He's a brave kid, but he still cries late at night for his mother. -His aunt Cree also helped raising him while Abby is imprisoned

[charmwasjess]

hi! for the choose violence asks: 7 and 13

Hi you!!! Thanks for stopping by ❤️

7: the character I hate not because of canon but because of how fandom acts about them ...well, this is the violence game on the getting too personal website, so I'll get a little too violently personal.

Honestly, a big part of why I stopped writing fic and ultimately left the fandom for over a decade was that I started to hate Dooku. I felt so fed up with having to justify and explain writing him as a Good Master, as a steadfast Jedi, when it felt like the much more popular version was to write him as a grimdark asshole who mainly existed to give angst and whump to Padawan Qui-Gon. (At the time, a major blorbo.) And yes, I got that the guy ultimately becomes a villain, I loved me some Sith era badness fics, but there were so few people writing in pre-prequels era/Dooku's Jedi years as it was, and that idea felt really pervasive. I say "felt." It's funny, over the years I've wondered how accurate my perceptions even were: I had great, supportive friends and a small but wonderful handful of readers, and I was writing mainly in a community of people who cared about the character as much as I did. You know, who was this mean cabal of people who I thought were judging me for not writing him evil enough in his Jedi era?? Was that real, or did I just have that perception because I was an insecure teenager uncomfortable with my own writing and projecting on it?

Over the weekend, I got Boli's kind tag in the WIP Graveyard and I looked at my old account to see about maybe pulling a snippet from my one big WIP from that era. Kind of a cute throwback post. You know, "wanna read my writing from when I was a baby Jess?!" But reading it again made me so unhappy! Not because it was bad or because of not loving my younger self enough or whatever, but that tension in how I was writing Dooku, the way that I could tell how much I was frustrated with and agonizing between how I wanted to write him and how I felt I should write him. How "the good writers" were writing him. The inconsistency all over the page. That's sounds SO dramatic but you know, it was a big deal to me at the time, and I could remember hating that feeling.

I will say now I feel totally differently. Jedi-era Dooku being a categorically good guy or bad guy is missing the point. He isn't an idea I'm defending in an essay, he's a character, he has good days and bad days, triumphs and failures, times when he gets it and times when he totally wipes out. Flaws, loves, moments of valor and moments of ugliness, contradictions, humor, rare sweetness, and above all, the strangeness that makes me love the guy.

13. Worst blorbofication Have you SEEN me with Sifo-Dyas?! My friend, I have no room to be hurling stones about blorbos from my glass house, which is itself shaped like the tragic, yet beautiful figure of Sifo-Dyas.

But probably Obi-Wan. :D I genuinely love him, but just saying... Fandom king blorbo? Probably Obi-Wan.

[koffeebean]

a semi long-ish pressure rant. simply talking into the void abt my exact issues with the state of the game and dev team and why i'm pissy

i don't think that the pressure fandom (or devs) are absolutely evil or weird other than the average fandom wise behavior i have seen from... a lot of fandoms. i tend to ignore things i don't like but pressure has been making it VERY hard to just. do that

don't get me wrong. i can talk about the fandom a lot but it would fall under the basic "fandoms nowadays do not know how to behave with how media has become so mainstream" and it's a topic that is very long for me to just talk about it in a random ramble/rant about a roblox game.

but i especifically want to talk about the devs. not zerum or anything, while i disagree with some stuff zerum has said and how zerum has behaved i think that ultimately sebastian is an oc and that boundaries are allowed to exist. selfships can still exist regardless, the only thing that was asked was for the ship content to NOT be shown in the server as far as i know. that i think it's unprofessional? yes, but also this is a small team of developers doing a project because they want to.

i think what i'm most pissed about is zeal. i am aware zeal has apologized and explained the reasons behind every thing that has been done wrong and looks forward to improve, but i'm disappointed regardless. i understand that owning a game/franchise that had a sudden burst of VERY weird fans can be quite shocking and you might fuck up, but zeal has admitted that the ableist behavior comes from quite a while before developing pressure. i can talk about all the ableist things done and said but also many people who are 10 times more qualified than me have spoken about it (a thread about a portion of the ableism + zeal's apology for everything).

an apology was issued, but i'm still quite irked. the thalassophobia mode was just the cherry on top— i don't think it's weird and honestly knowing the nature of pressure (being an underwater game with underwater entities at its core means that you probably should not play it if you have a fear of the sea), but when you have grown to have quite the reputation on making your fanbase with disabilities and overall things that cannot be controlled feel unwelcome and/or mocked then adding that feature might come off as kind of an asshole move. not that zeal is not right, but when you disregard the concerns of disabled users and then add a mode that essentially goes "lol don't play the game if you can't handle it!" is simply an uncomfortable and off putting statement to say.

but those are just my thoughts. this is just my theory. my game theory

EDIT: zeal talked about some of the issues here. i'm honestly not going to add more to this post (as it was simply my pov of the situation) but it's still good to check it out.

[birlwrites]

Your post about writing Regulus as a fully developed person who exists outside of the context of the Marauders was just so satisfying. Because so many fics miss out on the complicated, emotional mess that would come with Regulus getting extracted from a Death Eatery social circle. They generally focus on the family drama which is rich and compelling yes, but totally neglect any platonic messiness. All this to say I love what you're doing with Regulus, Evan and Barty in You Know it's your Blood That I Bleed.

agjslhgjlsdf im glad it's resonating with other people i was really feeling it when i wrote it (i am always feeling those sentiments to a certain degree tbh) - and thank you!!!

imo it's much more compelling and also more difficult and complicated to write a regulus with a real character arc, because character arcs are hard when they involve starting in a place writers may be uncomfortable with, e.g. being a willing member of a group responsible for frequent hate crimes and acts of terrorism. that can be emotionally hard to write and it's a nerve-wracking thing to post where other people can see it

so, like, i totally understand why we see this very flat pure version of regulus so often - it's just also very dull and ignores the most interesting parts of him as a character in favor of making him ✨unproblematic✨

and that gets even more complicated with regulus's friends!! because if you make him friends with other canon death eaters in his generation, unless you just pick like. snape and maybe narcissa and nobody else, then you're in an awkward position because those friends of regulus's may not even HAVE his redemption arc, which makes them yet more complicated to write. do you make all of regulus's friends assholes who he cuts off without a second glance (the easy way out), or do you make genocidal terrorists likable (and risk getting harassed relentlessly for it)? not to mention that you yourself might be uncomfortable acknowledging your ability to imagine the POVs of these characters, which makes it hard to write

that may make people shy away from giving regulus friends in general, along with the whole 'focus on the marauders, nobody else really matters' mentality i talked about a little in my last post (i have so much wrath)

so there are multiple axes - people's devotion to the marauders leading to treating everyone around them as accessories, the emotional conundrum of regulus himself, and the looming specter of internet purity culture lurking behind everything you post. yay!

i'm not saying this to attempt to glorify myself or say i'm ~better~ than the ~nameless hordes~ - these are things i think about a lot and they do influence what i write as well. (it's just that the way that the devotion to the marauders influences my writing is that i feel spiteful about it and devote myself ever more thoroughly to the marauders' era characters who tend to get caricatured. including the marauders)

regulus is not a simple character and that's exactly why i'm so invested in him - and i think there are a lot of people out there who feel similarly, which is why there's such a hunger (that i've observed) for takes on his character that don't make him a powerless, helpless victim who needs to be saved by the marauders.

the whole thing about regulus in canon is that he didn't intend to be helped or saved, even knowing that meant his death - because of that, i think that making him someone with little to no agency, who exists so the marauders have someone pretty to rescue, really strips his character of its essence. he becomes nothing more than sirius's poor, unfortunate baby brother, and that gets old really fast.

[lunaprincipessa]

ENTRY 198

Okay, so, the whole bear thing has brought up a plethora of discussions with friends and I love to see what each viewpoint is aimed at.

As difficult or uncomfortable as some of these conversations can be, they need to be had for two reasons in my view.

1.) It increases awareness of what women go through.

2.) It invokes communication with men, giving those who have been abused a chance to use their own voice.

Aside from increasing awareness and making change, men and women need to communicate more in general. This is also due to the fact that there are narratives currently being pushed to keep people divided, with gender being one of the factors. Back on topic...

Perhaps with more and better communication, we can all gather around the fact that although men and women live in two completely different worlds, in many cases, we've actually suffered the same.

Now, what I just said doesn't contradict what is being said in the bear post.

We do need to increase awareness on the plight of women, keeping in mind that abuse, rape, and murder does affect us at a much higher rate and unfortunately, we're demonized when attempting to report such injustices.

We often feel that instead of men trying to understand what happens to women directly at the hands of other men, instead of men having conversations with other men about how women should be treated (or at least having a bro-code that prohibits rape instead of hiding it), we are demonized as whores and liars despite very visible emotional and physical injury. It's the world saying, "Yes, you were violated, and I will do everything in my power to hold YOU accountable for your violator's actions." That's not an easy thing to go through, you know.

This is a reality for women, harsh but true. However, we also need to take a good, long look at the other side of the aisle. But, not for the reason(s) you may think.

Ladies, I have a few questions. Try to really see where I'm taking this because I'm not contradicting anything, and certainly not dismissing anything either.

How can we justify telling men to listen if we won't do the same?

How can we justify telling men to see us as human beings if we won't do the same?

How can we justify telling men to get themselves educated on the aftermath of abuse if we won't do the same?

Coming together rather than being at each other's throats will solve all of this!

Here is what I find in our society about the genders and abuse:

*people have somehow become brainwashed into thinking women like abuse, and therefore will long for it and seek it out with the determined goal of being relentlessly insulted and beaten.

*people have somehow become brainwashed that men cannot be broken by domestic violence because they're biologically stronger than women, so it's just a refusal to protect themselves out of mental weakness.

The type of mentalities that this form of brainwashing can accomplish is often what we hear from both genders:

"aLL mEn wAnT aRe BiTcHeS!"

"aLL wOmEn WaNt aRe aSsHoLeS!"

Ludicrous! Ridiculous! Untrue! Men and women want the person the women and men of their lives were pretending to be!!

Abusive men and women do not reveal their dark intentions. They conceal them with things like love-bombing to get you hooked. They make you think they are your dream come true, they are just everything you could ever need. Long story short, once they have a solid grip on your mind and heart, it's over.

It isn't women wanting to be abused and it isn't men just refusing to stand up for themselves. It's being harmed and betrayed by someone you loved, someone you trusted, by someone you let in hoping to find love and companionship.

Once all is said and done, once all the bitches and assholes are done chewing up good men and women, and apathetically spitting them back out, we're all just left behind hurting without answers, finding ourselves in a huge pile of bitterness and pessimism, having daggers for the new people we haven't even gotten to know yet.

This is what actually takes place, not women desiring abuse while men enable it in their lives. Enough of that nonsense already!!! Women have been badly hurt while under the impression they were going to be cared for and uplifted. Guess what? Men have too.

Where do we go from here though?

Women, continue to post the damn bear because some people aren't aware of what's happening right in front of them.

Men, don't get offended by the bear. Read to understand, not respond. Use it as inspiration to get an actual conversation started. Make your own voice heard if you're a survivor too. Start having talks with other men about what is acceptable and what is unacceptable for the women around you all.

If we come together, we can compromise.

More thoughts later.

[scottmemelordsoriginalcontent]

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[madchild-dennis]

Now to continue about the BITCH ASS I'm fighting God about.

You see, in this thread:

or this thread:

...if it doesn't show individuals who can't help but love me off. Yes BOTH. If NOT also capable to show that the dude as much as it was hard for him he OBVIOUSLY was IN LOVE BAD BAD. STILL IS. Jamaicans call it Yamheads, Americans call it Simps.

Or a simple breakdown is. If I got to do EXACTLY what I wanted:

NOT to be with him AT ALL. Live happily without him not even mention him. It would be as if he doesn't exist AT ALL. Whether it's around him or NOT.

He WILL become unable to function AT ALL. He's there already and on his last capability to survive, ONLY because of his mommy. If she left, died or more. DUDE would be WORST than the mentally ill people you see on the streets and he would be irreparable. Or constantly trying to find a way to die.

Him being basically obsessed is from the inception. As I said OBSESSED and because he's Gen Z to the core. ALL of it is OBVIOUS through his Socials especially his Profile Picture.

IT'S SO ANNOYING.

Like with these WHatsApp Profile pictures, I'm going to start with the furthest date:

Above was taken as mentioned in the thread, the day I sat for 4 hours and stare at him like a creep to make him uncomfortable in October 2020.

If you notice the profile picture. It is a picture of a guy looking out at a moon. I notice this picture changed around Feb 2020 after my birthday. I believe it was while I was taking pictures trying to enjoy my life in Canada. The works. Pretty pictured of me smiling and living my life authentically & unapologetically. I think he wished he was there and he found the perfect picture depicting such hard especially not being there with me. Remember the song "Talking to the moon":

Exactly. He had that picture until shortly after I left Jamaica and gave him this letter:

Then THIS became the profile picture for a while. RIGHT after the letter above:

Then my birthday came around. This became the picture for some days:

Fun fact: He had the XO part of the picture in coloured or black and white a few weeks after we met in 2019. You see, I wondered then if it was about me for some time. I also knew after I demanded too much, in his opinion I guess (to answer 10 questions), I knew he got a gf and didn't think it was about me. Plus he was (or still, IDK) a BIG fan of the Weeknd. So, I thought it was about that.

Until his Whatsapp worded status kept using lines I research were lyrics from the Weeknd songs that could refer to me or our situation. So, too many coincidences for them to be coincidences. Hence starting to screenshot them to confront or ask him. Which he subtly admitted.

Any in February this became the new picture. YES a MOON again.

Then May this year when I first called God a LIAR and talked about profile picture (I was referring to posting me on his WhatsApp profile picture not outing his twitter I already suspected was him before APOLOGIZING FOR EVERYTHING especially his lies.):

So all that picture did was show up his ASSHOLE WAYS AND TRIGGERED ME. KMFT.

Then this especially when I talk about the BIG 3 promises in May/June/July:

YEP -_-

With that I say, "I DO NOT CARE. I WANT WHAT I WANT AND I DO NOT CARE if he suffers, hurt or dies because of it."

I know how God stay and Ya'll WILL too. When God say something or wants something. He is RELENTLESS. AND WILL GET IT DONE.

So, as I said if God forces it, whether causing paralysis or more as he has warned/threatened me to get what He said/planned/promised done or prevent me hindering it. I have my terms.

In addition to the mentioned MONTHS ago:

...and in addition to what mentioned here:

IF GOD FORCE ME into that union. To be with MR. FUCKING RAHEEM AKEEM ROMARI FOWLER. He would have to (NOT limited to & determined ONLY by me):

Surrender EVERYTHING TO ME. ALL his devices, emails, passwords, accounts and more.

pee pee clok clok behind me EVERYWHERE unless I say otherwise. But I wouldn't cause once he's there he'd be useful even if it's just as a witness or a silent presence. That means he isn't working, studying or such. Either at my BECK & CALL OR JUST WHERE I AM WHENEVER.

Cut off ALL forms relationships in his life other than this & God's. Friends, family (all), work, school or more. INCLUDING AND ESPECIALLY HIS MOTHER!!! I reinstate or allow whatever, whenever I do/say so. Doesn't stay by them, say or communicate with them other than introductory greetings out of respect if in the same presence with them.

DOESN'T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT MY PERMISSION (other than basic living & surviving tasks like bathing, eating, breathing and sleeping. BUT NOT INCLUDING EXERCISING and not outside my presence or awareness unless given permission).

I am THE CENTER and THE ONLY THING in his world outside of God until I say otherwise.

YES, I MEAN EVERY LAST BIT OF IT. IF God forces it and more that my requirement. SLIP UP WILL RESULT in:

I'LL KILL HIM VERY VIOLENT BY MY HAND

(I wonder if that's how I'd get the replacement. These motherfucker CHOSE to paint God as a liar for over a year and more. Plus God giving them chances upon chances, especially when they crying for it at nights but spitting it back in God's face when given the opportunity. So, God ask me to TRUST HIM that ALL he promised: THE BEST HUSBAND, AMAZING MOTHER-IN-LAW AND MORE. However, IF THEY choose to make God out as a liar, I am free to remove him, VIOLENTLY AND LOUDLY to make way for the replacement. Got it. God doesn't change his mind but ISN'T to be trifled with. So, granting me the FREEDOM TO VIOLENTLY remove him if he slipped up ONCE. It's up to him, cause he can choose to stop loving me, move on and get over me like I have with him. Then he doesn't have that life.)

For his mother:

I HAVE NO INTEREST in a relationship with her. However for a chance to be in his life, my life or our children's (IF GOD FORCES me to be in that union):

Admit, reveal and give me ALL that she knows, have or proof of ALL that was done towards me in the past year plus. From her, my parents and ANYONE ELSE. All that with the risk she could be charged from me.

CUT ALL RELATIONSHIP with ALL including her beloved father. Submitting all devices for communication to me. I reinstate and allow at my mercy. Doesn't stay by them, say or communicate with them other than introductory greetings out of respect if in the same presence with them.

NEVER plot or plan ANYTHING against me or her son.

STOP going & participating in her church until I say so to the congregation I allow.

I and her son become her priority after GOD.

NEVER HIDE ANYTHING FROM ME, EVEN FUCK UPS

IF she slips up AT ALL after CHOOSING this life. HE DIES VIOLENTLY BY MY HANDS. (Obviously that is ALL after God forces me to be with him. Because I have NO interest in ANY friendship with her nor a relationship with him.)

So if he chooses that life, she has to choose between a life without her one and only child: if she/he fucks up ONCE , via death or she chooses not to agree and looses him via isolation.

If he chooses that life and she choose to make sure that she NEVER fucks up and go out her way to make sure he doesn't either. Then she'll have him, me and all that comes with it in her life.

For ALL:

This may seem HARSH, abusive or more. I DO NOT CARE. This is NOT something I have casted unto them or force them into after we agree to any form or relationship. This is making CLEAR wehat it means if they let God force me into it. That means they will KNOW what it will entail and CHOOSE that harsh, abusive and life risking option.

I AM DONE WITH THE FUCKERY. IF GOD GOING TO FORCE ME THAT'S THE ONLY WAY.

[youaremysunshine-court]

Tldr; the wwdits writers know a thing or two about depression and being tired of life, nandor is a prime example, allow them to bring about his character arc in a natural way

Nandor's 'I'm whispering bc I care about marwa and don't want her to know I'm about to replace her' gives me hope and much food for thought. Excuse the rambling because I'm fleshing this thought out as i go.

Because he's just self aware enough to know when his actions are making people sad. It means that he knows when he's doing/ done something wrong, and actually, I was super mad about this episode be guillermo and marwa and freddie deserved better, but now that I'm thinking more clearly, the writers have been leading up to this.

Everytime nandor does something wrong, he does notice. A lot of it is stupid dumb shit like getting locked in a cage at the rescue shelter. But when he pushed guillermo off the balcony during their fight, he has a millisecond of hesitation before he says OOPSIES. Likewise, when he's discussing the freddie fiasco, he considers for a moment that he's doing something wrong, then very deliberately glosses over it like it's nothing. (For more, see nadja figuring out he pillaged her village, leaving benjy alone and hypnotised, turning Gail without her consent, etc)

I believe the reason for this is a very specific turn the writers want to take with nandor as a character. It's a fact that nandor hasn't been happy for a long time, but this fact only becomes evident from the latter half of season 2 onwards. This is also when he starts fucking up more, and instead of taking responsibility the way he did with Sean and the brain scramblies, he starts to write things off like they don't really matter.

Had the vampires not stated clearly that he was going through vampire depression, it would have been evident from the way he just... stopped caring about everything and everyone. Compounded by guillermos apparent betrayal in 3×10, I believe he just kept sinking into these feelings, until he became the nandor we see in s4.

I know in a previous post i said they'd just made him into an asshole incel (which btw I do still think), I believe its a mask for the terrible depression he's going through. He's a lonely lonely vampire who wishes he could be human, who wants a lifeline so badly he'll cling to one made of gum and feathers at this point, and he's been in this despairing state for a while.

First, he clutched onto guillermo, thinking if he made him a vampire then they'd be happy. Then, he decided a wife would fix him. But she didn't, so he thought she needed to be changed. All this while he's struggling both with depression and buried feelings for guillermo. Which means when guillermo and freddie show up, happy and gay, he is intensely envious and immediately latches on to "what he's been missing".

Freddie. Freddie is the stand in for everything nandor wants but can't have. A human, slightly nerdy boyfriend, who dresses like the pits of fashion and knows enough about nandors niche interests to be interesting. He's the "perfect fix". Until he isn't.

This episode made a lot of people, including me, very very angry. But I think we need to look past this to what nandors really struggling with and allow the writers to let him grow without praising them for some episodes and cursing them for other, heartbreaking but necessary ones.

Honestly I'm pissed about the ending they forced on marwa, because yes she deserved to stab him at least once. But once again, I think that last shot of them together just highlights how far gone nandor is. She looks miserable, because he IS miserable. Marwa doesn't like him because he doesn't like himself. Marwa doesn't like living because nandor doesn't like living.

Sure, he smiles and laughs with freddie, but he's uncomfortable not knowing human jokes. Even the second time around he looks deeply unhappy when he's laughing at the roomba joke. He wants to be a part of this little clique humans have SO SO badly, but at the end of the day he is other.

And finally, that shot at the end where nandor cries after leaving freddie on the train. Is he grieving leaving freddie or is he grieving the travels he could have had with guillermo? Is he really crying or just scrunching up his face for the cameras? It all comes down to the original question: does he care? And the answer is, no, not anymore, not for a long time.

In conclusion, this has been long and rambling, but I can't wait to see how far he has to fall before he hits rock bottom, or if this is perhaps rock bottom. At that point I would like to see if he wishes to become human, or wishes that he'd always be happy. Or, my favourite option, I would like to see who the writers bring in as the person who shows him how to heal himself. Either way, the writers have brought the show this far without ruining it, and I trust them with this episode and the bigger picture, and I can only hope that they follow through on that.

[brick-a-doodle-do]

Hi! I saw your post regarding nom prompts/asks :D Could we perchance hear about how noms become a thing in the Wilbur Chocolate AU? I know it was mentioned in another ask that they do happen but given the events in the au so far I can imagine it may be a bit of a sensitive topic at first lol. I hope you're having a great week!

-Indy (fiction-fantasy-fellowship)

hello hellooo!!

yess of course :)) i'm not sure if you want a story but writersblock is for some reason only letting me work on one thing so dshgdnf i hope worldbuilding/hcs will suffice instead :D

yes definitely it will be a sensitive thing for wil. tommy also doesn't really have any interest in doing it, but instincts go brrrr when it actually does happen

tommy ultimately decided (after a conversation that ended with wilbur's permission,,) that he's taking wilbur back to london with him. security and shit goes fine -- wilbur is wrapped in a hoodie to avoid any sighting of him. it works, but that might also just be because some humans in this au are assholes and just figured tommy's trying to torture the man :D but who's saying that's the real reason :) hah...hahah..ha

everything else goes fine. wilbur panics a bit while stuck in the cloth but physically is fine. but, when the time comes and they actually take off, wilbur finds that everything on the plane is overwhelming. i mentioned this, but it's like when you take a dog or a cat in the sky and they get uncomfortable. it's the same thing with wil :D

so the tiny is fucking panicking, and it gets so bad that wilbur is the one who asks if he can be nommed. that makes tommy's instincts take over (which were already there when he first saw wil's discomfort,,), and, despite not wanting to jar wilbur even more, he still follows through with the tinies request and stores him away until the flight is over. it sooths wilbur enough that he ends up falling asleep :]

then after that, tommy brings him back up and they continue pretty normally. noms don't really happen again until tommy, for some reason, gets anxious and asks wil to help.

THEN that's when it becomes a semi-normal thing. they don't do it unless they absolutely have to, usually,,,

I HOPE THIS WAS GOOD

i am going to write this btw but that'll be when i finally write enough for that one wip so my brain moves to smth else rdfjsdnf

[sunshinebuckley]

For what it matters from my small tumblr to yours, it's kinda useless to try to argue right and wrong from a canon standpoint when it comes to the racist Chimney fics. I get the impulse of trying to justify the punch with canon events, or trying to point out how the other characters also do equivalent bad stuff on the show, but then, it becomes a battle of opinions, and that's not what this is about. You can think a punch is inexcusable no matter what, or think about how much mental distress justifies people's actions – it's all debatable but as long as this debate takes place inside of the "canon realm", the actual problem stays ignored. Worse even, these authors are exactly where they want to be – they know canon, they're able to argue their pov, they can pull the "my traumatising personal experience made his actions intolerable to me" card, and someone can very easily be convinced by the "don't like don't read" mentality.

Or, once again, this is not about canon. It never was.

This isn't a question of characters' morality. This isn't a debate over their actions. The truth is, Chimney could have done nothing wrong and these fics would still exist, if in a different form, because the point here is not "should I like Chimney the character/can I write a fic where I'm kinda hard on him for canon events" but "is the way these authors write him racist?" and to that last question, the answer is yes. Without a single doubt.

Writing an Asian man as an absurdly dangerous, abusive, and manipulating individual is writing racist stereotypes. Being uncomfortable with Asian culture being shared, and with Jee-Yun inheriting her grandmother's name, to the point where you rename her is a deeply violent and xenophobic act. Disguising it as Jee-Yun's words is a particularly disgusting way to try to avoid criticism – especially when you make the Asian part of her family sound like an ominous, invisible danger to her own identity, since it's another well-known anti-Asian stereotype.

These are honestly the simplest, most obvious reasons why these stories are deeply racist. Further research into Asian representation and the Yellow Peril idea would make a lot more come to light. It's not about bad faith reading, it's not about Chimney, because writing an Asian character in this way is always deserving of criticism and scrutiny, even when they're an asshole. (Which Chimney isn't, obviously.)

I'm not Asian myself, so my point of view is less important than what they themselves have to say about this issue. But, I want to say, in my experience as an Arabic person, there is nothing more frustrating than to see a fandom racism problem being turned into a fandom debate about rights and wrongs and "which character actually deserves the hate" kind of thing. Posts centering around the punch, even to say that Chimney did nothing wrong and that Buck is completely to blame, seem to completely miss the point of why this is a dangerous tendency in this fandom.

The punch exacerbated Chimney hate, but it did not create it, because it was never so much about Chimney the character as it was about these people's discomfort with a character of color simply existing.

[smol-nevi]

I don't generally make this kind of thing a habit, but I think if you happen to be on the Crystal RP Discord, aka @crystal-rp-ffxiv, you should probably be aware of this kind of behavior, so here goes.

If you're on Crystal RP and the admin team decides they don't like you, you're going to be living under a microscope while they wait for you to mess up, if not bait you, probably while making up conspiracies about you as well. As for how I know this, I was a moderator for about a week's duration and saw it first-hand.

Unapologetically lengthy post. Receipts in the link above, long version below the cut.

From the first time I looked in the mod chat I knew something was wrong. I read backwards in the channel, thinking I'd acclimate myself and see what kind of rules precedents had been set and that sort of thing. I mostly just found out that they had it out for a particular member (at the time using the name Jericho) for not much reason. They'd spent a troubling amount of time over the past few months watching him and another member like vultures, believing them to be the same person and waiting for them to make some kind of mistake that would justify banning both of them...despite keeping different schedules, having different personalities and typing habits, and visibly being two different people. The admin team had come to the conclusion that Jericho was a troll who wanted to make them look bad, and anything he said or did was scrutinized to a ridiculous degree for evidence that would corroborate their belief.

Except none of the things they believed at all were true: he'd had a minor argument via DM with the head admin Benjimir Thursby's wife, Tessariel Aerlinn, who had made an overly broad statement about anime and Asian culture. Jericho had told her that overgeneralization about 'Asian culture' is potentially racist, and she became extremely angry, saying that because she's Asian, she can't be racist against Asians. After that, it seemed that Jericho was considered fair game for whatever retaliatory actions the two of them could justify.

Even a cursory glance at actual racism in Asia pokes Tessariel's statement entirely full of holes, and having personally read the conversation I didn't see anything actually inaccurate in his statement even if she believed it didn't apply to her. I asked what he had done that would merit such a response, because it felt very disproportionate to anything I'd ever seen him do publicly, and that was what I was told. The exchange via DMs had been screencapped and kept in a channel for evidence, and while I didn't get a copy of it, I did read it, and I said that I thought it sounded awfully one-sided and punitive and would have been much better as an actual conversation. I also expressed that I was concerned how much of the channel had been solely devoted to what was basically a witch hunt, considering that some of the server members had over the course of the past couple of months commented that the admins' behavior towards Jericho seemed biased.

I basically got a pat on the head and told that my opinion was "valued" but wrong. This would happen a lot over the course of the week.

Shit continued to escalate. Their favorite punching bag, who was acutely aware of the grudge by now and probably trying to be nice and discuss something that he thought they could all talk about, brought up some articles that stated that LOTRO might be having a graphical overhaul. This actually ended in him being put into some kind of time-out mute, because "everyone knows those articles are debunked already" despite them still being hosted on reputable games news sites. Back-channel, the admin consensus was that he was in fact trying to bait Benjimir and Tessariel into somehow looking stupid in public, because [paraphrasing] 'he knows how important LOTRO is to them.'

Benjimir in fact went off publicly about how he knows the dev team and they sent him 'personalized swag' for 'being himself' and that everyone should just listen to him because he's right. Someone else made a reasonable request for sources on statements that Benjimir made about the LOTRO improvements not happening, and they immediately became the team's private #2 punching bag.

The whole time I reiterated that this was really uncomfortable and I had serious concerns about the way they were handling Jericho. And as always I received a pat on the head and was told to not worry about it, there were really good reasons for it, really. He was 'bringing down the quality of discourse' on the server somehow. Benjimir decided that the only way he would unmute Jericho is if Jericho talked directly to him, and that Jericho tried to talk to any of the more level-headed members of the team first was taken as obvious evidence that he wanted to evade rules and create problems. I asked when we planned to unmute him, and Tessariel immediately jumped to the conclusion that he had messaged me, which wasn't incorrect but the way she worded it felt highly accusatory and I was beginning to feel that I was also in trouble somehow for not agreeing with the rest of the team.

Things came to a head quickly when I woke up and looked at the mod chat and they were having an animated conversation that started with Benjimir asking if it was 'bad that he was laughing at Jericho' and most of the rest of the team talking about how he was stupid, uninformed, a troll, etc. for the sin of having some misgivings about cryptocurrency, of all the things. One of the mods self-described their behavior as bullying. I said that this was extremely unprofessional and that I thought they should keep conversation to actual moderation matters, and if they had a personal disagreement with a server member they should handle it in a personal venue, not via official server moderation channels.

I was, for the final time, patted on the head, and told that this was not something they would consider, because the moderation team 'needs to be able to vent for their mental health' (never mind that the job was not stressful except for the rest of the team committing worse behavior than the server members) and that maybe I was in fact too sensitive for the job. Benjimir heavily implied that I had become too close to Jericho and was being manipulated, managed to misgender me somehow despite my having used solely male or neutral pronouns the entire time I'd been on the server, and after relating a story in which a couple of years ago a well-liked moderator left after having the same complaints as I did (which he saw nothing at all troubling about), suggested that I should be demoted to babysitting the lore channel.

So I took some time to collect receipts, which are linked at the top of the post, and told him where to shove it.

Since that time, things have actually somehow gotten worse on Crystal RP. Benjimir posted an entire page screed vaguely talking about "rampant negativity" that stated anyone with questions should DM him.

Upon DMing him with questions, Jericho was banned, the only reason given being that he was a 'poor fit' for the server in some vague way. I was immediately banned afterwards for calling out this decision as being driven by a personal vendetta in the feedback channel and let him know afterwards via DMs in no uncertain terms that I had logged everything I needed and would be building my case (and that he is an asshole). Jericho was reinstated, though I'm not sure what the conditions of his return were as that was after my ban and I didn't ask since I didn't want to stress him out further. Benjimir also reprimanded someone for discussing asexuality, stating in a DM to them that the conversation was somehow ERP related. I called him out on this via DM as well. Tessariel was not much later caught posting my last DMs to Benjimir in an entirely unrelated server, though she didn't include the part after that where I brought up his aphobia (during Pride Month, in a server with a rainbow icon no less). Benjimir for some reason decided to suddenly start following my FC's Tumblr well after our falling-out.

And as of today (6/24), Crystal RP now has seven pages of draconian rules, because it wasn't micromanaged hard enough before or something. Notably, a lot of these rules describe behaviors that they wanted to punish Jericho for but couldn't at the time justify, or that they'd like to punish me for but have nothing they can do to me. Or they exist to justify their own behavior, as now seen in the very beginning of the channel:

"This approach also provides our volunteers with leeway to act in good faith without the burden befitting a professional occupation."

"So we afford them the means to speak openly, vent, lament, candidly and yes, sometimes crassly and raw about everything and one."

Not only did they behave unprofessionally and shit-talk before, they have now encoded in the rules that this is acceptable and even good moderator behavior, because they saw someone else do it so it's fine (a lot of this wording is very similar to what I was told when I protested it). So rather than address anything I ever said past or present, Benjimir is choosing to double down and giving himself and his team explicit permission to be shitty, right in the opening paragraphs where you'd have expected a mission statement or at least some sort of welcome.

Which is about all you need to know about that server and its owners, in my estimation. I'd considered not even posting to Tumblr about it, but given that it's only getting worse, I think it should be generally known that this is how you can expect to potentially be treated.

[impaladolan]

Control Freak - Grayson Dolan

summary: after being summoned to the new CEO’s head office, or rather dungeon, there’s an unexpected twist when y/n becomes, what some would say, mouthy with her relatively new boss..

warnings: smut & swearing, the usual :)

tag(s): @joyfuldolann tehe

a/n: i’ve never really done tags, but if you’d like to participate in them— (such as for future series or control-freak/capture parts) leave a comment on any of my posts or even dm me! (only if you want, don’t feel obligated to do so, it’s just for fun :)))) ily! <3 also, sorry if this is crappy.. i’m not the biggest fan of this part, but i really wanted to get something out for you all!

part one

"I'd like to have a word with you, in my office."

His voice rang in your ears, like a symphony or an orchestra in a small room. So as you slowly walk down the hall, past the secretaries and into his large, barricaded office, you had internally convinced yourself that he's just a guy that's your boss. That's it. Nothing more, nothing less.

So you thought...

"Ms. Y/L/N." He addresses as soon as you shut the large door and turn around, though his eyes were glued to his large computer. "Sit." He demands, looking towards you for a moment and nodding to the chair sat in front of his huge desk. You hurry to answer his command, seating yourself in the cushiony furniture. You take a quick look around the room, the colors and décor a lot more darker and dungeon-y than Mr. Kidman had it. It almost made you sleepy, until his voice snapped;

"You should be a little less intrusive with your own thoughts, Ms. Y/L/N." He had fully turned, giving you his undivided attention with his brow arched and a signature smirk dotting his plump lips. You felt your cheeks go hot from just his voice, and his snippy, cockiness as well. "How're you to know exactly what I'm thinking, if I may ask Mr. Dolan?" You assertively question, crossing your legs as you furrow your brow with intent. You knew what games he was playing, and you'd play them right back if it meant putting him in his place, questionably.

"It's all about body language, darling. You seem to fidget a lot in my presence, which I notice that you don't do in anyone else's.” He begins, watching as you surely begin to run your hand along the ends of your skirt, something you normally do when you’re nervous. “You're a bit more sassy and less reserved when you're talking to me, and your cheeks seem to turn red when I directly speak to you, do they not?" He now had his large hands settled on the tabletop, fiddling his thumbs back and forth while he pursed his lips in question. He had completely caught you off guard and all the more stunned and almost embarrassed. "Sir.. I don't understand what you—"

"Or the way you dozed off that entire meeting. Tell me, Y/N, what were you daydreaming about, hm? Something work related I suppose?" He was quick to interrupt you, adding a fiery anger, much like Kidman's, to your attitude. "Listen, you cocky fucking asshole. I'm tired of your stupid pestering so if you could just get straight to the point instead of me having to sit here and endure your little go-arounds for another half hour, it'd be greatly appreciated." You violently whisper, standing from your seat with your arms crossed and your lips in a thin line.

You're a very tolerant person, but his continuous egging on was bound to make you burst anyway. But what made you even more extravagantly angered was his hoarse chuckle that began to rumble throughout the room. "Cocky fucking asshole, huh?" He continues his girthy laugh, standing from his seat and slowly strolling around to the front of his desk. You slightly gulp when he towers you with his height, his intensity and nonchalantness at the same time a bit too much to bear. "I'd watch that pretty little mouth of yours, princess, before it gets you into some real trouble." He seats himself on the front edge, examining you head-to-toe with his beading eyes. You grew stiff, not wanting to make a sound or remark in his wavering stare.

Perhaps to keep from getting in trouble, maybe?

"I'd say the same to you, if it weren't for yours being rather large, than little." You incoherently scoff, surprising yourself with your own words. His face contorted from his relaxed look into a more furious looking one. His grip on the ledge of his oak wood desk had tightened, making the tops of his hands whiter and more constructed than they would look relaxed. His indented cheekbones grew more visible and his eyes seemed to darken out of nowhere.

He does look very ravishing when he's angry..

Suddenly, you feel his tight grip on your hips, shoving you back down into the chair without a warning. "Y'know, Kidman told me about you," He began, waltzing away from you and around your chair, undoing his tie in the process. All the while you sat there with wide eyes and a fluttery feeling down near the pit of your stomach. It gave you goosebumps clear down your arms and legs. "He said you were a very independent, hardworking women that's quiet and respectable. But frankly, you've proved him wrong." He sighs as he turns to face you, still sat in the chair, with a sharp and pointed look that gave you the good tinglings. "Well, frankly," You mock his tone, "You've only known me for the minimum of three hours, Mr. Dolan. You're just assuming." You point out, with a ghastly smile.

To that, he loudly slaps his hands on the arms of the chair that you were forcefully sat in, his face becoming of close proximity to yours. "Have anything else to say before I smack that tiny little ass of yours?" He questions with the raise of his brow, sending another one of the flooding shivers down your entire body.

Fuck.

If it wasn't for your lack of correct, impulsive decision making skills, you would have walked away and finished whatever work you had left and hurried home. But instead, you flipped yourself over and laid on the chair, ready for whatever he wanted to do to you.

"Take that fucking skirt off." He deeply orders, taking his blazer off angrily after unclipping his belt buckle. You obey almost immediately, shimming the skirt down your legs and unbuttoning the first couple buttons of your white dress shirt. You firstly feel his fingers softly glide over your asscheek, trailing towards your thong and looping his index finger under the thin fabric. With a tight, forceful pull, he rips it in half and tosses the bunched up silk to the side as you gasp with surprise. You close your eyes as you feel his hand glaze over asscheek once again, readying yourself for what would eventually hurt like hell.

But instead of what potentially would have been a slap, you feel his large hands roughly pull your legs apart, and his cock slam down into your noticeably aroused pussy. You loudly yelp, securing your hands around whatever you could while his settled at the valley of your hips. “Fuck, yes.” He breathlessly groans with his head thrown back and his eyes scrunched with immense pleasure. Your eyes began to water and the beginning of his slow, steady thrusts made your pussy clench with the desire of more. You had your teeth sunk into your bottom lip to keep your sounds and contentment as quiet as possible.

You hadn’t even realized how long it’s been since you’ve had real, carefree sex. You honestly forgot how good and scandalous it felt. Though, you started to remember, even in your hazed state of mind, that it was your new boss standing behind you. But before you could even get a chance to agree or take action from your right state of mind, you felt him lift you up and rush the two of you over to the other side of his spacious desk, his cock still embedded inside you and unmoving.

He lays you on your back, grabbing the opened part of your shirt and ripping it off, his teeth gritted and his brows furrowed as he swiftly unclips your bra and pulls it down your arms. Unlike his slowness before, he began to speed up quickly, barreling into you like he hadn’t done it in years. Which would be true if he hadn’t drunkenly slept with a women he had met at the bar almost a year ago, but he faintly remembers that anyway.

You became used to the pressure that once stretched your walls uncomfortably, but now it felt right. The way he entered you, at a slight angle, made your legs quiver with desire and the yearning for more. And when he touched that certain spot, oh god it made you whine like crazy.

“Fuck—there!” He had you almost screaming, which made him all the more aroused and heightened. He continued his harsh poundings, bringing his hands from your hips and softly up your stomach until they reached your perky breasts. He toyed with your sharpened nipple, grinning at the sensation it brought to you when you arched your back. With the sudden shaking of your legs and the unshielded moans you let loose, he could just tell you were extremely close.

“Don’t you fucking cum yet, Y/N. I’ve hardly fucking started with you.” Grayson then harshly brought his hand down to your soaked clit, rubbing it in quick circles. You weren’t really one to disobey authority, but it seems like getting on Grayson Dolan’s, the CEO of the company Choff, nerves were a bit more fun and exhilarating.

So when you felt the extremely bound knot in your stomach begin to want to unravel— you just let it. You came over his engulfed cock that continued to sink into you as you hardly breathe, the overflowing feeling and sensation that numbed your entire body washing over you. You weren’t given anytime to reassess, because he continued his thrusts, speeding himself up with an anger you’ve never seen before. He picked you up again, slamming you against the wall with one of his hands holding your ass up while the other kept your hands above your head.

“That’s fucking it—”

Though, the two of you were too caught up in each other to realize that someone was at the door, stunned and shocked at the scene playing out..

(masterlist)

[dreamsmp]

The casual invasiveness of asking someone about past relationships has always been weird to me too, esp for content creators who are LIVE, tho bbh has mentioned a girlfriend in old videos before? And bbh has never talked at all about being gay (not even hinting to the same level of "haha we're a couple" that dnf does) But i also don't have the context/stream of what your last post was so i could be missing smth- I'm interested in your response if you'd like to elaborate on that post more?

he doesn’t have to talk about being gay to be gay!! as a gay person, i do believe he’s gay, it’s likely he is, and because he’s effeminate, people can also assume (yes, through stereotypes) that he is gay. (by the way, stereotypes are bad, but being effeminate or “stereotypical gay” is not and will not ever be a bad thing.)

it’s invasive to ask about relationships with people on stream, even to ask about ex best friends is a gross invasion of privacy. so similarly, to ask about past relationships? especially in front of 70 thousand fucking people? asshole move.

the context is that philza was streaming with tommy and bbh, and tommy (and philza) kept swearing despite bbh pleading him not to, and it just shows a real level of arrogance to see someone uncomfortable with your actions, then to continue to do them because why should you care about others? then to ask if they have literal TRAUMA about that same action that makes them uncomfortable when you do it? that’s so many boundaries crossed right there.

then for a 32 year old married ass man to encourage a 16 year old to homophobicly continue crossing and ignoring boundaries of a gay man is another thing. philza is double his fucking age encouraging it, and joining in.

why do you think they were so adamant about asking bbh about past girlfriends? why did they pick on him specifically? why did they emphasize GIRLfriends so many times? why did they keep implying that bbh couldn’t have a girlfriend? why did they talk to him the same demeaning manner as they do george? because it’s become a trend for straight men to make fun of the effeminate perceived-as-gay man, then to get off scott-free because “theyre actually great allies!1!1!1” one could argue it’s subtle and not rooted in purposeful homophobia, but rather homophobia rooted in a lack of education, and a lack of care for the actual topic, which to me in itself is casual homophobia.

they kept pestering bbh, forcing him to tell them about his past girlfriends. they basically said “hey bbh everyone pretty much assumes you’re gay, we think you’re gay, but since you’re not officially out, we’re going to continually imply you like women because we’re pretty sure you dont, and implying you’re gay will make you uncomfortable as a closeted man, and as we know, being gay is weird and something to make fun of.” do you see what i’m trying to say?

tldr; there’s something so nasty about a 32 year old encouraging a 16 year old to try and make a man they think is gay to talk about being straight and have girlfriends. it’s literally weird as hell and pretty homophobic.

[lillupon]

It's completely fine by me if you want to post my ask publicly! I guess I would want to include a little anecdote here though. Another reason why I'm so willing to forgive and move on from this is because they guys I talked about earlier definitely weren't bad people. I think that either way I would have turned into the person I was, maybe less strong but who knows. I kind of think mostly everyone goes through that stage at some point to varying degrees of intensity. Everyone comes across the idea of sex and all that it entails for the first time at some point in their lives and for awhile it's this huge foreign concept that we know nothing about. And yes, while I did mention that at times I felt uncomfortable listening to the things they said, I never once told them that I felt uneasy and that I didn't like it, so how could I hold that against them? People aren't mind readers. (I do have a feeling though that thry wouldn't care even if I told them lol. We were 11, and at that age when someone told me not to do something I made sure to do it). And like I mentioned, they were actually quite wonderful people once I got used to their hormone charged mess of a personality. Thise interactions might have been unpleasant but for a large portion of my middle school years they made me feel welcome in a new place which is more than anyone else did for me. I did move around through a lot of friend groups in middle school, mainly because I didn't have any classes with them, but no other group of people made me feel connected or understood like they did. We separated freshman year because we never saw eachother and to this day I still miss being told "Shut up bitch/whore" and then me responding with "I'll do what I want dickhead". It's mainly why I believe that maybe even if Gyu acted like an asshole, that wasn't his entire personality back then either.

“People aren't mind readers.” --> YEP, and you certainly cannot expect middle schoolers to be that perceptive. Young teenagers--boys in particular--are not well-known for how sensitive they are.

“they were actually quite wonderful people once I got used to their hormone charged mess of a personality.” --> Haha, yeah! You can be horny and nice! And people become much better at self-regulating this horny side of themselves as they grow older.

During adolescence, the prefrontal cortex is in a process of continuous reconstruction, consolidation, and maturation. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive human brain functions, some of which include: shifting/adjusting behaviours when situations change, forseeing and weighing possible consequences of behaviour, and inhibiting inappropriate behaviour and initiating appropriate behaviour. Combine this with hormones, and teenagers are susceptible to saying and doing all sorts of stupid crap. Many people grow out of their bullshit as they enter later years of high school, post-secondary, and the ‘real world’.