#yes i am projecting thank you
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Choosing to read Michael being named after her father and not her mother, and not even a feminized version of the name like Michelle or Mica, as Michael being the type of trans person who just doesn't change her birth name. She said "I'm a girl, my name is Michael, so Michael is a girl's name now"
#yes i am projecting thank you#my internet name is gender neutral but irl i still use my birthname and don't have plans to change it despite it being pretty feminine#michael burnham#dsc
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whenever Wilson is beginning to feel worse or spiral his 'are you okay??'s probably increase 20% and he tries even harder to take care of people and solve their problems. Because he has a constant feeling of Something is Wrong unknowing that it is infact him, who is not Okay.
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Happy SWSAnniversary!
This one's for you @psychologicalwarclaire! Finally can give a proper thank you for writing my favorite rise fic of all time. Here's to a Spider's Web with Strings Attached's one year anniversary! What better way to commemorate this with a little comic featuring the very beginning?
For those who are just stumbling on this comic, please go read the fic its based on! I cannot praise and recommend it enough!!
#you have no idea how happy i am to finally share some swsa fanart#i unfortunately am a bit of a perfectionist#this was not supposed to be fully colored but my hand slipped#imagine titling a comic voided colors and then NOT using color to its fullest potetial#would you believe me if I told you this is the first multi page comic I finished?#I actually didn't intend to do this for swsanniversary#but i knew my other project wouldn't be finished in time#so I threw together this#and prob spent the exact same amount of time I wouldve needed to finish the other thing#yes this is just the beginning#i have so much more in store for you#but most likely no more comics haha#SWSANNIVERSARY#shhh I know im technically an hour late#but I hope it was worth the wait#:]#rottmnt#rottmnt comic#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#tmnt#tmnt fanart#pixels tortle art#rottmnt fanfic fanart#rottmnt fanfic recs#swsa#swsa fanart#thank you curly :]#2am moment
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AOYAGI-KUN YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP
#my event team is only the highest of quality cards ❤️#project sekai#and yes i Am grinding my toukoha kizuna rank thank you for noticing
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I finished posting the unabashedly educational Sword Fic.
It includes a detailed (but hopefully beginner-friendly) explanation of all the steps of making a Nichirin blade from a sunny mountain like Mt. Youkou, a touch of swordsmith and metalworker folk lore (including demons), meta about what must make Kimetsu no Yaiba's swordsmithing methods different from real life methods, some character exploration for Haganezuka and his polishing method, vocabulary and additional resources in the chapter notes, and hopefully, an endearing, silly POV character to learn this all through.
#my fics#SWORDS SWORDS SWORDS#would you like a story about the years of background of this fic?#I was not very well-versed in metallurgy until recent years but my study of the Japanese language goes back to#well#longer than some of you may have been around#I always liked samurai and swords for the aesthetic but started to take more of an interest when I lived in Shimane#and on a day when I had a friend taking me around to rural sites associated with a legendary monster she was like#let's go see the sword museum while you're out here#but that museum was closed (it comes back into this story though)#so we went to a different one that no longer exists but that was my first encounter with how much work it takes to make the sword ore#fast forward years later#I am writing this blog and it becomes known as a fun place to read about Japanese culture as seen in KnY (thanks glad you enjoy)#I decide that I must tell people how hard it is to make the ore and finally visit that main museum on a trip back to Shimane#I collect material and struggle to do more research and wrap my head around it#and I write the first version of Teppi's story that focused mostly on the smelting and glazed over the forging and polishing and stuff#meanwhile I am in a job situation I have already long since wanted out of and soon I want out a lot more desperately#job searches were disheartening but then I found THE ONE I WANTED#and on that first interview when I was already like PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE#they asked if there's a Japanese cultural topic I could suddenly explain in great detail if asked#and without mentioning this blog I said I had recently written up something for fun about tatara smelting methods (and they forgot this)#fast forward again and I very happily got the job and was very nervous as I got the rundown on a very large annual nerd project#and when they announced the topics for that year I saw that tatara smelting methods in the region I knew them from was on the list#and I was like#asudyaiusdyuasdyuahduahduhsdhuPLEASE GIVE ME THAT#and i got it and when I went out there for research people were like#...why do you know all this...???????#and since I dared not mention my KnY blog I was like#...I lived in Shimane...#it seems I broke the tags because the rest of the story got cut off but hi yes you get the idea
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Violet!
-> Violet! by Waterparks
Oscar Piastri x an accident prone neurodivergent reader
Essentially the three-ish times that Oscar starts fussing over you, and the one time he got it right.
Groceries, unloading groceries.
Picking up a case of bottled water was enough to have Oscar hovering. Asking if you needed him to take it from you, as he tucked a carton of milk under his arm.
Not that he didn’t try taking the water first. You shoo’d him away from the trunk of your car before he had a chance.
“You really don’t know how this works,” you stated.
“I know that last time you dislocated something it was after you got your finger stuck in a mop bucket,” he opened your apartment door for you to walk in and drop the case of water onto your counter.
“And I had no idea because you don’t express pain.”
You rolled your eyes as he took the couple of steps towards you he needed to be able to rest his hands on your waist. You stared up at his eyes, watching him blink as he stared down at you. He watched your eyes shift from one of his to the other.
“What’re you thinking about?” He asked.
You didn’t answer, just wishing he could read your mind. Though some days it felt like he could, he could never understand the simple phrases that circled your mind when you couldn’t dream to force them out.
“I love you too,” he said, resting his forehead against yours for a moment before turning to start putting your things away.
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Oscar didn’t hover 24/7.
That would be unrealistic.
it was just when he got back to you after weeks, sometimes months, on the road for work.
He’d wake you up as early as he made it back and hide himself in your apartment until he felt like a normal person again. You’d go on with your life like you had been until he pulled himself up and out of your room like a bear from hibernation.
With an insatiable thirst from well over 24 hours of sleep to combat the jet lag, he started the day watching you cook breakfast.
Not a measuring cup to be seen, you’d drift from one spot in the kitchen to another with the steady destruction of a tornado. Always producing the best waffles and coffee and parfait he’d ever have. Always better than the last, despite your unwavering commitment to your recipe.
You’d reach for your favorite kitchen knife, and he’d make his way over. Your fingers held onto the fruit you cut in an unsettling fashion. He’d offer to cut the fruit for you every once in a while.
Too much of a deviation in your routine. So he settled for watching close as you shifted your hands uncomfortably to account for the knife and it’s ever shrinking victim.
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In theory, race weekends should be a sensory nightmare.
People rushed around you, stood in the garage next to some mechanics you were probably introduced to more than once. The adrenaline radiating from everyone around you, the yelling back and forth as the countdown to lights out drug on.
Weekends in the garage were the best.
you watched intently the way people dodged each other, racing back and forth to get any loose ends tied up.
As time went on, Oscar and Lando began making their own appearances in the garage as well. The former being sure to make eye contact whenever he could, seeking out a quick shaka to say “right on” and let him know you’re fine.
At that point your headphones hung around your neck. You sat in the busy noise, listening and watching with an intense focus that by the end of the event would make you more tired than anything. It’s fine. It’s more than fine.
You could always sleep better after days in the garage anyways.
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The end of the day could be a bit harder
Oscar would take extra care after race days, especially when you’ve spent the whole weekend in the garage. He’d tell you to quit overextending yourself, you’d tell him you want to see him drive.
Your head drifted downwards as you stared up over your sunglasses frames. Your AirPods tucked under your headphones blasting a playlist of the day. Both tale-tale signs of being checked out.
Oscar sat himself next to you as soon as his time in the media pen was done. He reached for your hand, which you offered without a second thought. He squeezed twice, his own signal to you asking if you’re ready.
You nodded and the two of you stood. Maybe a little quick, as you stumbled into his side. He wrapped his arm around your shoulders as the two of you made your way out and to wherever he had his car parked.
He chattered on to you about the race, and whatever drama it was that happened between Carlos and Pierre during the post race interviews. You nodded along, asking questions that would take him into a different area of whatever he could be excited about.
The path the two of you walked was pavement, for the most part it was very even. Not even a rock out of place. Staring down into the pavement as you walked and listened was an experience. The grey concrete shined in the sun overhead.
You let Oscar pull you to the side, away from the edge of the sidewalk. Your foot nearly slipping into the grass beside it, had your boyfriend not urged you away.
“wow I could almost feel that one,” you looked back to the edge of the sidewalk you had been walking on.
Oscar only laughed, squeezing your shoulder as the two of you continued your walk, “that’s what I’m here for, hm?”
#oscar piastri#op81#oscar piastri x reader#f1 x reader#oscar piastri x you#I am now a McLaren girlie#thank you#yes I am procrastinating why do you ask?#Am I projecting? Absolutely#neurodivergent reader#maybe a touch of the tism baby
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okay internet, i know that you not ready for this but
it's strange being all omgyes #slay yay totaly okay for like, all kinks, but going #omg wtf cringe scull emoji about fat kink
like we as society know how kinks works (importance of consents, special rules for practices like using special candles for wax play, etc), we know how really infinite can human fantasy go and so on and so on but why is it still taboo to be openly horny about things like big tasty meal with your lover
can we be finally chill about it
p.s. i have post which gives good arguments on this topic but i couldn't find it by search, only in my blog archive, so here is the link.
The problem with fat kink is not in it existing, but in not-exsisting of range of image of fatness in media
#i have even more old post there i make smth like comming out like:#guys i am the biggest sinner i had fat kink-#- but i hated myself so much and spiralling myself into selfhate because of that so hard that i don't have libido now and don't feel sh it-#-how cool is that guys! i defeated the evil inside!#this post is a mess because its like#it literally has quote smth like “i will better feel nothing then feeling the kink”#like#oh old me#it was good that i posted it back then because people were like#“dude you spiralled for * this * for six years?”#and yes i did spiraling on this for six years#thinking i am worst human on earth#especiallly because i draw representation#btw i am NOT planning to change smth in art or draw fat kink#i mean my art goal is to make art for balance#there are aaaa lot of fat kink art so i am not needed there#but art with just fat characters being interesting characters with lore and story and in some project like leads in game or comics#or art with fat characters who are hot but it isn't about common food theme (i write about it in linked post)#this art is very rare and that is that i do#and will do#thank you for coming to my tedtalk#close y puter and go to the bed with loony tunes noise
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my hot take of the day is that clearly the people who swallow the in universe targ & valyrian exceptionalism are being completely taken in by the exact system that george is trying to critique but also i think the people who over correct into this idea that not a single targaryen is worthy of like, our empathy or sorrow or are rightfully chafing against the structures put in place by valyrians, first men, and andals alike are also being incredibly 2d in their analysis. i feel like this happens most often when people try to make the case that andals are somehow oppressed in westerosi society on a cultural level simply bc valyrian supremacy trumps andal culture. i think this is incredibly silly to say or posit as the truth in universe because there is in fact some oppression of culture in westeros but it’s not the andals lol!!! it’s the first men, the dornish, the rhoynar/greenblood orphans, and the ironborn. there Is some level of,,,, idk bigotry/xenophobia towards valyrians but only valyrians who don’t worship the faith - people like larra rogare, who still follow valyrian gods, do face this bigotry because they’re Too Foreign, the same way someone like thoros, melisandre, taena, etc who are essosi but not from a still heavy valyrian-based society like volantis and lys, and that’s definitely important to the conversation, because it shows the Dominant Culture is in fact the Andal culture when it comes to westeros and that’s like,,, fine, and even more interesting to me to see how andals, who have been the dominant force on westeros for thousands of years, interact with valyrians, who clearly want to keep ideas of valyrian supremacy alive somehow and essentially try to get the other dominant force in westeros to buy in (which they do!). like, are these two at odds sometimes? yes! but i don’t think it’s correct to say that the andals face ~prejudice for being andals or followers of the faith either!
#like certainly people in fandom get insane about the andals bc they’re projecting their hate of catholicism onto them.#but george himself is not writing about how all catholics are inherently evil he’s writing about the STRUCTURE being evil. i think the#series in fact finds something useful in one person’s individual faith & the way they may internalize it. that’s why we get the quiet isle!#getting on my soap box#yes i did see a post about the [redacted] being oppressed by the mean evil valyrians and rolled my eyes.#anyways like this idea that the valyrians are being forcibly assimilated? false! they are doing it very willingly as a matter of fact! aegon#and jaehaerys and viserys all in fact are clearly trying to mesh themselves with andals not bc they are forcing the family to assimilate#but bc they believe the only way to keep valyrian supremacy going is to team up with the culture in westeros that Does frequently impose#itself on its neighbors! i’m not saying the andals are like the ultimate big bad evil here either that’s just as stupid as the knee jerk#‘every targ is evil and anyone who fights them is morally corrupt’ thing that happens in this dumb ass fandom but i AM saying the andals cut#down every weirwood in the south & attempted to do like glorified missionary work in the iron islands instead of actually engaging w what it#is that makes the ironborn so fucking deranged.#anyways the only leaders who are unproblematic are mors and nymeria for managing to mesh two cultures in a way that wasn’t insane aksjdj#dorne has its problems re: deeply entrenched class structures & the use of marriage as punishment but at least people aren’t whipping#ellaria naked through the streets like the andals love to do to essosi women 😭😭#‘oh didn’t dorne oppress the rhoynar’ i said they were better not perfect thank you!!!!! aksjd
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#adamandi#ambrose wellington bassford#infer as you will i suppose. wanted to draw a statue ambrose but accidentally painted it because smth smth blending fits him#again. main things taken from lyrics of the actual show ++ this definition i checked with google because i didn't remember it off the top#of my head. but Thoughts indeed#sfgdhhdf ok hello i am back today has been a Day (not very good) (oh well) (small mercies) ...#did not expect the melliot to find this so quickly but since i guess the Official Tumblr has reblogged it i'll just edit this one.#as opposed to reuploading. o//o#i painted it at 2am on impulse and have very little recollection of the whole event -? and then in a fit of pique added words and posted it#it is Very different from the original draft. i'd like to maybe do that one justice someday... anyways something something sometimes#a piece of art you make organically Evolves of its own volition... anyways.#maybe i'm projecting but recently (tuesday?) i found out something Important i had in the works Collapsed in the kiln#kaboom. ah the perils of ceramics. anyway thanks to the messed up 3d of everything i'm working on rn (the pros and cons of visual art subj#is that you get to make art for a grade) and. ceramics and sculpture and classics etcetera. <blinks> wow i really latched on to art aspects.#but nevertheless! ambrose brainrot real. iirc my thoughts were smth like. most strongly. that contrapposto? based on my school art history#was that it evolved from the very neutral rigid ancient greek sculptures of people which were all about Mathematical Symmetry. because#the main thing about contrapposto was that it reflected irl people more... more life-like? so it's very ironic to me#that Alive ambrose went and tried to turn himself into a statue. with part of the draw being contrapposto.. like?????#ah yes you like this sculpture because it's lifelike. and you'd rather be a sculpture than alive huh. the contrasts are !! in my head#also maybe i just.. wanted to paint... idk i had ambrose on the brain yesterday and it was something about sculptural messed up perfection#fun fact!!! the skin and hair i all greyed out to look like marble. fun fact number two: he has no eyes in this. like no pupils :3#fun fact number 3 (irrelevant) marble statues are only common wrt ancient greece bc the romans iirc came along and repurposed the bronzes.#because apparently bronze was a Hot Commodity at the time. and in return to preserve the art they made marble replicas. so most marble#ancient greek statues are apparently copies and the originals had totally different aesthetics#fun fact number 4: the background is a very greyed out image of my broken ceramics.. i wanted something nice to come out of it at least#fun fact number 5: i wanted to make him crack. like shattered ceramic or smth. that was the original idea. but instead it went to the pretty#sculpture route... kinda wanna make the messed up one though!!#fun fact number 6! because of Art Studio i'm covered in white paint and like it doesn't come off so it's been on my fingers and arms and#basically everywhere. so flesh turning into white stuff aes is fascinating i wanna explore... fun fact no.7.. i have accidentally maybe#began using screenshots as drawing practice. idk what to do with this info. if anything nice turns up ig i'll post it maybe
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#Celebratory doodle for having 30 followers! Woo!#I think that is the most I have ever gathered on any blog or such#thanks ya'll <3 glad you enjoy the doodles and drabbles!#I am quietly obsessed with the idea of repainting 'bots' armor. Like. HOW FUN OF AN ART PROJECT WOULD THAT BE? YES PLEASE#imagine how difficult it'd be to do pinstriping lines that not only look good and cohesive in vehicle form but also rock in bipedal mode#I think that's my favorite thing with Knockout's paint job#his art looks so good in BOTH modes#like damn#yessir#he pretty and he knows it#also hear me out; black gloss coat with rainbow chamelon flake so he's obsidian in the shade but in the sunshine or bright light fuckin'#RAINBOW SPARKLE SHIMMER#anyhow happy pride month and wooo ty for the follows <3#Knockout#Transformers#does anyone read these lmao#i vent my thoughts in the tags when I am too shy to just outright write#fanart#art#digital drawing#illustration#doodle#colored#pinstripe art#SHIT I JUST NOTICED I DID A PANEL BACKWARDS ON ITS PINSTRIPE#dangit#there's always one#maybe Knockout won't notice#(he will. help. i'm doomed.)
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WOODZ. Who Knows (2023).
#woodz#cho seungyoun#*#faiza gifs#so cinema so horror of him THANK U KING.#honestly i HOPE??? we get an mv for who knows with EXACTLY this vibe man#i just. LOVE. how he GETS the idea of ......... not knowing who you are and then just PROJECTING that into this song LIKE THIS#like this is EXACTLY how i feel ... im running round and round and i feel like im losing my sense of time ....#im here (yes physicallly) but am i??? WHO KNOWS!!! and then those LIST of questions WHO ARE YOU WHO THE HELL ARE YOU idk man#HE JUST GETS ITTTT.#like. journey is the answer to who knows HIS BRAIN. YALL.
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Hello, today on 'topics nobody asked to hear about', we're looking at hairstyles!!!!
Or more specifically, this hairstyle:
Look at it!!! To me it is 10/10 perfection, so pretty, so good, the clip is my everything!! But it's not just the aesthetics that make me go feral, but also the implication that Jesse decided to just, give herself this very pretty, but very unnecessarily complicated hairstyle, and it makes me just... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
Now, I don't think I'd feel quite the same if the outfit had been added in a DLC or something, but no, it's a canonical part of the game that Jesse changes into this outfit, which we had only ever seen in the portraits. Specifically this portrait:
In which she's wearing her hair the same way she is during the main game, which implies that she didn't really have a reason to change it.
But she did, and she chose something so striking. It's so neat, and complex, it just so readily suggests someone wanting to look professional and put together. Like, if it had to be up and off her face, she could have just put it in a bun like the other NPC's, but instead she chose a hairstyle that visually sets her apart from everyone else.
Like, I know it's not that big of a deal, but to me it's so important, the way she uses her appearance as a way of solidify the person she has become, this identity she has grown to love and value. If nothing else convinces you that Jesse had fully embraced her new role as Director, then this simply has to!!
The whole outfit is just a fascinating part of her character to me. Every detail of the design down to the little triangles on he boots is just so precise and perfect. And to go along with this perfectly tailored suit is this very pretty, unnecessarily complex up-do, and it just sends me feral!!!!!
Uhhhh anyway, the Director's suit is my beloved, and I will be immeasurably sad if she's not wearing it or something similar in control 2 🥲
#remedy control#jesse faden#she#Directors suit my beloved...#If you read through this whole hairstyle rant thank you!!!!#Am I projecting? Yes! But did I make some good points? Mabye!!#I have a lot of thoughts and this is my only outlet I'm sorry
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people hear "jojo is for the queers" and think it's because of the outfits and the queer undertones (and overtones, i refuse to believe it's all unintentional, abbacchio and bucciarati i'm looking at you two specifically) but it's actually because the "stand users attract other stand users" thing is a really good metaphor for how queer friend groups form and the idea of only certain people being able to see a part of yourself speaks to the queer experience like crazy
#this is my thesis thank you SO much#jjba#remi rambles#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#it's about. i didn't feel like anyone could really see me until i met them#“you're still upset about that” YES I'M STILL UPSET ABOUT THAT#am i projecting meaning that doesn't exist onto this? yes i fucking am that's what media is for#if the only way to experience something was the way the creator intended everything would be lame as hell#interpretation is how media thrives#granted it's ALSO because of the outfits and the queer under/overtones but like it's the other thing too
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first we got asahi sakurako childhood friends (and therefore i'm assuming elementary because i don't think middle school still counts as a childhood experience) m/f and now we got shousuke and this-new-guy-i-forgot-his-name uni yaoi. do you know what's left? high school yuri so i truly do hope it will be the time for hinata otori to get her own insane npc lore. you want to do it so bad colopale
#middle school yuri would be cute too. just give hinata more screentime plspls#you can even confirm hinayuuki as high school classmates haha wouldn't that be so crazy colopale?#unless they wanna cook yuri with miss kazamatsuri i am not saying that i am not up to it ?!?!?!#although to be fair asahi/sakurako can already count as yuri/yaoi because#I Can Imagine Anything With My Mind#they are for sure NOT straight#i don't ship them though so#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#wonderlands x showtime#because. these are their npcs#ri says things the tag#yes this is my only contribution before i go ia for three days. thank you#being a hinata otori fan is a full time job and im dedicated
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Hello hello! This idea for an Imodna fic has been sitting in my head for *ages* now. I'm gonna be working on this first chapter later tonight, but I'm just kind of excited to share before I polish this thing up and post Chapter 1 to AO3!! It's a modern AU, set in Exandria. Imogen is a Ph.D. in Sociology at Dayal Hall University in Jrusar. And Laudna... well, let's just say this is an exes-to-lovers type of deal. Recent canon angst compels me I suppose. Anyway, please enjoy the snippet!
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Imogen pinched the bridge of her nose between her eyes. She’d been staring at this damn screen all day and it was starting to strain her vision. Normally, she’d be arms deep in grading assignments, wrapping up last minute lecture notes, finishing up office hours, literally anything else other than staring at her now empty email inbox. An impressive feat no doubt, Imogen idly noted. She can’t remember the last time it had even stayed this clear. A testament to her sheer boredom in the moment.
When she glanced back again and her still empty inbox, she thudded her head against her desk. The confirmation email should have been sent hours ago. She should be already back in her apartment, well into packing for her research trip to the Heartmoor by now. But instead she remained stuck in her office at Dayal Hall University. Patiently – very patiently – awaiting the confirmation email from the assistant archivist from the Heartmoor Hamlet Folklore, Oddities, and Curiosities Museum to finally confirm her appointment time so she could forward it to her chair the Sociology department admin staff to confirm the start of her sabbatical.
She let out a pained groan as the page she had refreshed for the twentieth time in five minutes remained unchanged. Defeated, she glanced around her office, tapping a pen to her desk as she did so. In the left side of the office, the low coffee table surrounded by assorted seating and a lone bean bag laid undisturbed in the corner. The bright yellow rug and strategically placed lighting provided a warmth to help combat the harsh fluorescent lights above. While normally reserved for students during her office hours, her pending sabbatical rendered them empty for the time being.
Huffing out a sigh, her gaze shifted to the right side of her office. Large bookshelves filled with monographs across disciplines lined the shelves, though most of the titles remained firmly within the realm of sociology. Imogen passively noted the growing number of office plants that seemed to be appearing without her knowledge. At least one or two had made their way from the tops to the actual shelves themselves, obfuscating the books behind them as their sprawling leaves spilled over their potted houses.
On top of one of the lower bookshelves sat a framed diploma, reading:
Starpoint Conservatory
Department of Sociology confers onto
Imogen Temult
The degree of Doctorate in Philosophy
Below the ornate frame next to yet another potted plant Imogen did not remember acquiring sat several framed photos. While the majority of them were from her time at Dayal Hall – a mix of faculty photos, candid shots of university sponsored outings, and conference shots – one in particular pulled her drifting thoughts.
In the photo, a recently graduated Imogen stood, awkward smile and stiff posture unaided by the weight of various leis and her doctoral regalia, next to a woman with braided hair flowing over the shoulder of her tan blazer. The woman bore a striking resemblance to Imogen, but tired, sunken eyes belied her wary demeanor. It was the first time she’d seen her mother in over a decade. And it was the last time she’d seen her since.
Imogen wondered, then, what her mother – the renowned anthropologist Dr. Liliana Temult from the Aydinlan Seminary in Yios – thought of her career. Her mother’s focus on her career and work had driven a wedge in her family relationship to be sure. It was part of the reason Imogen chose a smaller university to establish her academic career in the first place. One of the only things her mother had ever really said to her on the rare occasion they spoke over the phone was to stay away from the academy and the rigor of it all. Ruefully, she was reminded of the sorry state of their relationship now, all communication conducted over formal channels, sent from Liliana’s university email.
Next to the frame sat a small, stuffed white horse. Imogen’s melted into a short-lived fondness over the plush before the edges of a well-trodden sadness began to seep in. She told herself she kept the plush to make her office feel more welcoming and homely. That her students could feel more at ease knowing she wasn’t just some hardass professor and that they could trust her.
But the unspoken truth remained. The horse – Flora, after her childhood horse in Gelvaan – remained there because of what it reminded her of. Of who it reminded her of. Being gifted the small plush was, of course, the last time she ever saw L-
A knock at the door shook her from her spiraling thoughts. Imogen shook her head slightly, as if to clear the lingering fraught emotions from her mind.
Imogen cleared her throat, “Door’s unlocked.”
At that, the door opened, the familiar gentle and deliberate turn of the handle bringing a small smile to her face. The door further opened as Orym made his way into her office. In his hand, a stack of books reaching well past his head was delicately balanced as he gracefully moved towards her desk.
“Got the books you wanted,” Orym said, placing the stack down with surprising ease.
“You didn’t have to bring ‘em all at once,” Imogen said, smirking
“I know. But I didn’t know how much longer you’d be here.”
“I’ll be here all night if I don’t get this damn confirmation email,” Imogen huffed, slinking down her office chair.
“They still haven’t gotten back to you?” Orym raised an eyebrow.
“No. Been starin’ at my inbox all day waitin’ for it. Thanks for these by the way,” Imogen tilted her head towards the tall stack of texts. She grabbed the book at the top and began thumbing through it. The cover read Home Under the Moonlight: Werewolves and the Queer Imaginary in the Gloomed Jungles.
“Any time,” Orym nodded. “And they probably just need a few hours. Sounds like a small operation.”
“Yeah,” Imogen sighed. “And this small operation is makin’ me regret my career choices with every damn minute they don’t send that confirmation.”
“Ooh I’m hearing something about regretting career choices.” Imogen looked up to watch as Fearne casually strolled into her office, moving around Orym to place the potted plant in her hands onto another shelf. “I hear so many professors say that. I think it must mean I’m pretty good at it since I don’t regret anything.”
“Pretty good at what, Fearne?” Imogen asked flatly, finally understanding the source of the growing garden that was supposed to be her office.
“At professoring,” Fearne wiggled her eyebrows.
Truth be told, Imogen never did figure out what department Fearne worked in, let alone if she was even faculty at all. Imogen had only just recently accepted her position at Dayal Hall when Fearne wandered in on her setting up her new office, vaguely alluding to some “professorly obligation” to introduce herself to “the hot new hire in the Soc department.” Despite the odd introduction, Imogen had been grateful to not have to start out so alone. Not after… everything. And Fearne and her became close quickly. Fearne helped Imogen get acquainted with Orym, the university’s head librarian, and the two have been indispensable to Imogen ever since.
Imogen eyed the new foliage adorning her bookshelf before looking at Orym, who simply shared a slightly bemused look with her. “Fearne, what are you do-,” Imogen started before realizing the futility of the question and changing course. “I’m gonna be on sabbatical, Fearne. I won’t be- I can’t take care of these plants if I’m not here.”
“Oh it’s okay,” Fearne said, reassuringly. “I have a key to your office. Me and Orym can take turns plant sitting while you’re gone.” Fearne produced a key from her pocket, waving it at Imogen before slipping it back.
“How did- Fearne. You can’t have a copy of my office k-”
“Don’t worry, don’t worry. Geeze louise. Professors share keys all the time. It’s part of the pact.”
Imogen struggled to string together a response before a flash on her computer monitor caught her eye. Hurriedly, Imogen rushed to open the newly received email.
Hello Dr. Temult!
I’m so sorry for the delay! I had a few visitor sentiment surveys that demanded my attention!
Anyway, I am writing to confirm your appointment for next Grisson afternoon at 3 P.M. Look for me at the front desk!
Thank you,
Prism Grimpoppy
Ph.D. Candidate – University of the Heartmoor
Archival Assistant
“Finally,” Imogen muttered under her breath. She forwarded the email before slamming her laptop closed in relief. “Looks like I’m headin’ off,” Imogen said, turning to Orym and Fearne.
“Good luck,” Orym said. And then, carefully, “Just… let us know if you need anything while you’re out there,” Orym added, placing a gentle hand onto Imogen’s shoulder. Imogen winced slightly.
“I’ll be fine,” Imogen said, tensing her jaw. She knew Orym meant well. She knew. Fearne and Orym didn’t know every single detail. But they knew about the last time Imogen had done a big research trip like this. How she had a… tumultuous experience to say the least.
What they didn’t know was the depth and scope of the hurt. What they didn’t know was just how much pain, stress, fear, and loss she had experienced then. How she almost withdrew from the program, taking a leave to go back to Gelvaan for a year to reckon with the extent of her hurt. They didn’t know how much she withdrew into herself, wrestling with the scars left as she trudged her way through writing her dissertation and scraping past the finish line, battered, bruised, degree in hand. They didn’t know that it was when her and Laudna–
“Okay,” Orym said. “But just so you know. We’re here.”
“Thanks,” Imogen responded. A muted, but still fond smile grew on her lips.
“And hey,” Fearne added, “maybe you can take this time to do some personal research if you know what I mean.”
“Fearne,” Imogen rolled her eyes as she packed up her bag.
“What? Archives can be so romantic.”
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