#yeen talkin bout itself

[hyenaboycunt]

Having some kink/dynamic thoughts. More reflective than horny. Probably.

Part of the fantasy is the idea of being someone's first priority. Knowing you're the first place their thoughts turn. Knowing their choices are driven by your needs as much as theirs. Being safe and cherished and protected.

Part of the fantasy is being someone's responsibility. The painful minutiae of life are being handled by someone who loves you. Things are scheduled or paid for or simply managed. And they're so competent and compassionate that the trust is easy.

Part of the fantasy is knowing you're doing something right. Being told what's expected of you and then performing it well. Knowing that someone is satisfied and pleased because of your talents and your inclusion in their life.

[hyenaboycunt]

This thing is daydrinking and trying to be horny, lol. Feel free to be a total fucking creep in my inbox. If you impress me (and/or make me hard) I'll post it.

[hyenaboycunt]

It's just my luck that accepting that I have some flavor of embarrassment kink suddenly makes things less embarrassing 🙄

[hyenaboycunt]

I'm dealing with "strangers who I find attractive consistently find me attractive in return" suddenly and for the first time in my life. So I tried to vent to girlthing about how it's confusing to once again be relearning how to navigate social interactions. But she's been hot the whole time. So she has literally zero helpful advice.

[hyenaboycunt]

"I'm my own Dom. I can do this."

-scrawls degrading, shaming, objectifying things onto my body in sharpie-

-throws on boxers and an A-shirt-

"Okay, that's enough dopamine to get the day rolling. I totally have enough spoons to make applesauce."

^^ It thinks it's lying to itself, but it knows that doing a Task™️ for "Daddy™️ (me)" will probably work.

[hyenaboycunt]

Got a new phone. Autosynced photos with the last phone that I had autosync turned on. So I saw pics of myself from 2019, right after I realized I wasn't cis but before I started doing anything about it. It's... Jarring. Weird and uncomfortable but also gave me a stunning sense of "what I'm doing right now is right for me"

[hyenaboycunt]

If someone w/in a day's travel of Fargo-Moorhead wants to have a "wtf fuck this" hookup, hmu. I'll cover your travel costs (to a point) and I'll host. DM me.

[hyenaboycunt]

I'm covered in whip welts~☆

[hyenaboycunt]

Genuinely hilarious to me that there are some older kinksters I know who can use it/its pronouns no problem but trip over their own tongues if they try to use they/them.

[hyenaboycunt]

Spent all weekend at a kink event. I scened with my Switch, and it got to bottom for a couple of notorious sadists. I'm so sore xD

[hyenaboycunt]

Do I need a pup hood or do I need the hellhound creature cock?

[hyenaboycunt]

I swear I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose (right now); I just went on vacation last week and girlthing dedicated the last three days to making me senseless and stupid as a welcome home present. Today is the first day it hasn't worked me into a crying mess haha.

[hyenaboycunt]

I got beat so hard yesterday and I'm soooorrre today hahaha

[hyenaboycunt]

Three very delicately placed clothespins, a collar, a leash, and some body-safe tape is all I need for a good time.

[hyenaboycunt]

Girlthing took such good care of me last night. Hauled me around by the collar, let me sleep leashed to her, plumbed the depths of my throat and left me with internal bruising, and got me so high I swear I reached space.

[hyenaboycunt]

My name is very uncommon. It's also objectively gender neutral. My parents somehow knew a married couple (hetero) who both had it. But everyone I've met with my name has been a girl. And anyone who knew me "before" thinks of it as a girl name, because I was the only [Name] they knew.

My girlthing just wished me goodnight. And out of her mouth, I can hear a man's name. A boy's name. A neutral name. [Name] sounds sweet and musky and salted on her tongue. I'll be falling asleep to thunder, thinking of my name on its lips.