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sneaky-story · 2 years ago

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>is only free some weekends and has to travel a lot for it

>carefully plans to see my friends because it's my only occasions

>they get sick and can't come

#second time it's happened #the rare friends I actually CAN see in those times #idk I got used to spending so much time with all my friends in thz last few years #and now being so busy and so far away is weighting so heavy on me #any time I'm not included in something I feel like I'm starting to disappear #it's like I'm fighting every day to exist #to myself and to others #god #why can't I ever feel like I'm real why am i always building myself from the outside #I just wanted to complain a bit and now typing this shit out a fuck ton of other ton is coming out fuck #my sister told me she felt like I have no personality as a kid I just random decided 'i am this' and then was 'this' out of nowhere #and now I feel like everything about me is fake #I hate that it rings so true so many things about myself I just carefully decided based on what would make mz the most unique or whatever #do I genuinely like anything #yeah actually this is the issue isn't it #the only thing I've ever been sure of about myself is who I love and who loves me #so if I'm away #what's left #and I start to doubt being loved. even though it's my only actual safe point #haha #however much I'm loved by anyone will never compare to their romantic partners anyway I'll still be alone most of the time #maybe that's why I can't see myself with anyone. I just can't see myself

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platin-amide · 3 months ago

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an ambitious project from last year: homeway friends ID cards!! (because every academy student should have one, obviously)

#the date issued for Juliana is the release date of SV #and everyone else is mostly based off my headcanon according to in game dialogue #ALSO did you know that Arven is the only one whose student ID isn't mentioned in game?#i had to kinda wing that one too #anyway these were a bunch of fun to make #theyre even printed on thick PVC like actual ID cards!!#whoo yeah #arven #arven pokemon #nemona #nemona pokemon #penny pokemon #juliana pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon sv #plati does the merch thing

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monstermoviedean · 4 months ago

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finally put my finger on what bothers me about the setup for jack and dean's relationship. it's that i personally don't find it exciting or interesting to parentify someone who's been parentified for 30 years already. i know people disagree with me here and that's fine! but i feel that adding another layer of parentification without any meaningful change to the first layer is just. insult to injury i guess.

dean finally gets to tell mary what he went through and he forgives her and it seems like maybe he's going to get to be his own person, finally, with that weight off his back, and then one episode later cas and mary are gone and jack is there and sam needs him too. and sam pushes dean to push down his grief and parent jack. and that's it. dean becomes jack's parent. in some ways he's still acting on how he was parentified for sam. and that could be explored in interesting ways i suppose. i just don't find the execution compelling. in fact it just makes me really sad.

#oh and if you say cycles to me i will eat you.#i'm not interested in that #if they had played this as a bad thing it would be one thing #but as is it's just like yay dean is jack's dad now isn't that great? aren't they just one big happy family? yay!#actually same with cas being jack's dad. frankly.#i mean yeah they explore the struggles of Having A Family but again that's something the show has always done. it's not new #and at no point is dean or cas allowed to back up and say hey wait a minute. maybe I don't want this #i just can't look at any of that as a good thing when cas and dean were so heavily influenced by others to take up the mantle #i think dean should have gotten to have a moment in s15 where he believes jack is chuck's pawn and freaks out #and the show actually resolves it #i don't have an issue with jack btw. or with anyone parenting jack. my issue is the choice (or lack thereof)#spn

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vitrall · 5 months ago

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I don't think Jayce and Viktor literally died. They were kind of pulled into another dimension/astral plane/whatever you call it. We see older Viktor, and while it could be another Viktor, I think it would be more meaningful if it was our Viktor, finally free from the arcane, going through the universe with Jayce, fixing timelines together. Kind of like a cosmic mission.

#jayvik #arcane spoilers #arcane season 2 #arcane #the yaoi isn't as doomed as it seems #i mean arcane s2 wasn't perfect #and jayvik left me feeling colder than expected #they played a huge role in the end and they barely had screentime this season????#i will always love jayvik tho #otp otp i adore them #jayvik screentime isn't the only issue I have with season 2 tho #the way piltover vs zaun was treated.........#“omg if we work together we can solve our differences” what differences tho there was a clear power imbalance and police brutality I'm????#plus jink's “death” was kinda forced and weak?? so last minute??? like I know she isn't actually dead but yeah #and sevika????? where's my wife?????? she did NOTHING on act 3???? did she even talk????#also mel has never been my favourite bc they mainly used her as a plot device and a romantic interest to a male character which suckss #but in s1 she started to show vulnerability in the end??? even early s2??? like girl where is all of that??#that's WAY more interesting than the “tough serious warrior” character she's become #anyway everything happened too quickly #too much time spent on noxus shit #ooooh i wonder what the next show is going to be about hmmmm #and so many things weren't explained #everything surrounding viktor and the arcane and what happened to jayce and viktor was kinda foggy #also wtf is sky doing there???? it should have been little viktor or something idk #plus where are caitlyn's dictator arc and vi's boxer arc?? they barely lasted???#and maddie should have been more prominent if she was working with ambessa? we barely saw her (or ambessa) manipulate caitlyn #also ambessa's plan wasn't 100% clear either so I'm guessing that plot line (and singed's???) will appear again sometime

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sukugo · 12 days ago

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question!! if tumblr does go down, where are you guys going to? or at least where are u most active outside tumblr?

#ive stopped using everything except tumblr and so i do need to think of where to go in case it's gone. so i guess i'd like opinions on where #f.txt #the reality is i know that if tumblr does disappear overnight i'll go and show signs of life on twitter #but idk twitter's life expectancy isn't looking very good vdfshfjf #i mean. it'll keep going but i know it's just going to keep getting worse #i know a lot of people have gone to bsky and if u have what's ur opinion on it? is it good? and do u like it #personally i never really got too interested bc it just feels like twitter 2.0 #like interface and all that wise. it's just a copy of twitter from what i've seen. and i suppose it'll still be like short text post based #? havent actually used it so idk #at the end of the day i just wish there was smth else like tumblr. with the same posting and personaliztion capabilities #there's just nothing like tumblr 😭😭 i love the way it works a LOTTTTT. it's good it's honestly really good.#the people in charge just keep fucking it up for no reason 😭#the personalization options!!!! the incredible tagging system. being able to make sideblogs.#i want to make 2k posts about the thematic significance of gojo being a bottom. i wanna post 30 gojo images in the same post #i love having a desktop theme!! i love being able to change my blog's colors and everything. i love the countless post editing abilities.#I LOVE!!!!! THE TAGGING SYSTEM!!!!!!!!!!#i know a lot of people say that tumblr search doesn't work and while i do think it has its issues i think t's a sentiment born of not reall #understanding how it works. bc if u do. it's so easy to find what u're looking for #i guess the little issues earlier today made me realize that uh. yeah this site might actually be dying #and that fuck i should really export my blog OTL #but from what ive seen the export will take. a while.#and also think of where to go but.....nothing is tumblr 😭

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bayetea · 3 months ago

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thachel is my favorite rachel ship btw. just so everyone knows what I'm about

#sapphics under oaths of celibacy ❤️#I want them to be toxic and turbulent actually. which is a rare sentiment from me #because the stuff I read and write is on the fluffier side #actually I need any thalia ship to be at least a little toxic #like tha/uke yes obviously but thalia/anyone else? she's got some Emotional Issues. she's gonna be a little toxic #and the issue is that thalia wants to be an aggro drama queen but rachel literally just isn't having it #thalia: oh so I'm the bad guy now? I'm the one with the fucking problems?#rachel: yeah ❤️ go outside and get some air before you talk to me again #thachel

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circusk · 5 months ago

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just spent HOURSS!!!!! of my day . making fop family tree. its got 63 people rn uhmmm yeah

i think i have everyone . maybeee missing a cousin or two idk

#fop #ck.txt #i'm losing my mind . errmmm we need that season2 STAT #i got all the fairywinkles . all the cosmas. all explicitly mentioned von strangles i'm not counting every portrait in . that one ep #i got all the turners . smaller stuff with vicky's family and hazel's and chloe's . mark's there. uhmm #you can have exes so . i got endless potential cupid's in there #and then his immediate family from the greek mythos . i am NOT doing more #its fop focus<3 i just want cupid there idk he's growing on me #OH i also have a few dimmadomes. not all of them ik there's a lot. the issue is idk how they all relate . and how many generation. thats in #thats info i need for this thing #i wanna say thats everything...................idk #there's no easy way to share it which is lame i worked . for hours.#on this little website #idk what else to add this might be everyone #there's a few ships and hc stuff but i'm trying to keep it mostly canon confirmed info so idkk.. yeah that might actually be everyone #except for wanda's one cousin but that could also be like .. idk. mafia family isn't always family-family it's complicated and #i give up on trying to understand it #the wiki considers them family-family so yk what sure . thats all i need idc. he's only missing since idk which uncle he's related to #it'd be cool if you could just add sorta . miscellaneous family members #everything else is great tho you can do a lot #i originally did this on a different site and it sucked #the site i'm sticking with tho is uhmmmm familyecho.com its really simple but in a nice way #i think i've been working on this on and off since 6 and now its 11 so gn everyone . maybe i'll try sending a link or something

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maraskywalkers · 2 months ago

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trying to get more comfortable talking about & accepting my OCD but struggling because I still feel like a fraud or overdramatic or that I sound like one of those "lol I'm so ocd" girls who think it means color coordinating and not you know a debilitating & emotionally distressing mental condition that has negatively impacted my life in ways I'm still unpacking

#like have you ever sobbed on your kitchen floor #because your brain wouldn't stop going over and over #certain thoughts and images #that you didn't want but made you question everything about yourself and your reality #to the point where you did actually think about resorting to past harmful coping mechanisms #because you couldn't make it stop and you didn't understand why #everyone's experiences are different #but can we stop treating mental health issues like they're quirky personality traits #some of us are genuinely fighting for our lives out here #which isn't to say that finding the good isn't okay bc yeah ofc #and the silly memes and shit are helpful #im just tired #mental health #ocd #personal #sarah says thigns sometimes #i got in my head about stuff again #so here's a post

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stealingpotatoes · 2 months ago

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Oooo dragon age! I've only ever played inquisition and I ADORE that game so much, waiting to hopefully play the previous ones someday soon. I'm a bit on the fence about Veilguard simply because I wouldn't be continuing the story as my beautiful disaster inquisitor son

hey you get to see (& customise!) your inquisitor son in dav!! hope you get to play the old ones soon (they're always super cheap in sales loll) but yeah completely fair to be on the fence over veilguard, there's definitely a reason DAI won game of the year and DAV didnt lmao

#thing is veilguard isn't BAD at all #like its actually fairly decent. but thats the issue. its just decent #it's so overwhelmingly middling in most areas and that makes it feel kinda meh compared to the prev games #which sure have Bad bits but their Real Good bits cancel it out. vg is just too much middling #also i DESPISE HOW THE WORLD IS LIKE ALL SUNSHINES AND RAINBOWS COMPARATIVELY like why did they remove EVERY dark aspect #but yeah i like it (especially the visuals) i just really don't love it yk #thanks for the ask!#askbox closed

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makorragal-312 · 11 months ago

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Okay, so we're all in agreement that that line from Tommy in the date scene was weird as fuck, right?

#911 #911 show #911 abc #911 on abc #911 thoughts #911 spoilers #911 season 7 #911 s7 #911 s7 spoilers #evan buckley #tommy kinard #911 buck #911 tommy #no but seriously #that line was mad creepy #why the fuck would you hope that your date has daddy issues?#especially when they just told you how important their pseudo father was to them #and basically implied that his actual dad is garbage #also #“your dad's alive”#yeah no shit Sherlock that's why we hate him #like this isn't just me #I know that everyone on my twitter timeline is saying the same thing I am #so im not completely crazy #but dear god #that line was just creepy and weird and so fucking unnecessary #like I was so confused #like what the fuck did he mean by that #and why do you think buck's situation with bobby and his dad is something that you can sexualize?#I just...I cannot

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teh-nos · 3 months ago

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repeated note to self: AVOID FANFIC REDDIT D: D: D:

#i just think. it is interesting. that they'll openly slag off shorter works in general while spouting 'some people prefer those!' platitudes #but on the rare occasions someone dares to venture that most longfics have pacing issues or whatever they FLIP THEIR SHIT LOL #and get very defensive about “no MY work longer than LotR NEEDS to be that long! it's full of subplots and character development!”#yet from the sounds of it the premise is actually fairly thin and they have no idea how good it is or isn't.#OH YEAH BY THE WAY it seems many longfic readers just lose their ability to judge fiction by normal standards #if everything you read of any length leaves you worried about what you'll read next and NOTHING ELSE then that *is* a problem #for which i am willing to invent the term 'disordered reading.'#oh EVERY published novel feels rushed to you? how about you're just used to padded longwinded shite because of fandom?#where Nanowrimo/Big Bang length (50k words) is not even considered 'long' by many readers.#oneshot writer blues #my longest fic needs an edit and i know it #so why is THAT the only one that ever made a rec list in this fandom? eh? eh eh eh? we all know the answer to that!#fanfic life

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ruegarding · 7 months ago

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What do you think of Percy's low self-esteem, if you also think that he isn't insecure? Like how do you think these traits exist within him? (Genuine question)

i think pjo percy is written realistically to be outraged by his mistreatment while internalizing what ppl say abt him. bc he's an impressionable kid! so he might call himself stupid in the privacy of his own thoughts, but he's not going to sit back and listen to ppl call him stupid. he doesn't want to be stupid, he doesn't want to be a bad kid, but everyone treats him like he is. if he does nothing to prove them wrong then he proves them right, so he's internally hard on himself and externally defensive.

#and percy isn't passive! which is actually my biggest issue w the “percy is insecure” take for his current characterization #percy was bullied and abused. if he didn't defend himself no one was going to. that's why he made a point to stand up for the other kids.#anyway i think it's interesting that percy frequently stops asking questions bc he's worried ppl (usually annabeth)#will think he's stupid for asking them #bc it's also very realistic for a disabled kid to experience that and says a lot abt percy's insecurities over being perceived as stupid #i haven't double checked but i don't think he's ever called himself smart? i think he's just reiterated that he's not stupid #which is. yeah. it's not that he think he's smart it's that he doesn't want to be stupid.#i also think a lot of his perceived confidence is really just anger #this was going to get a more coherent response but i started thinking abt [redacted] and got distracted my b #disability #answered

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tsfennec · 9 months ago

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#I am so sick of everything right now #there are things I need to do #and decisions I need to make #and people I need to get back to #about things they've asked about... weeks ago now #and it's not that I don't actually have time for these obligations #I just feel so completely mentally and emotionally frayed #and all I want to do is scream at everyone to leave me alone #(even while yeah I am also lonely and aware that increasing social isolation isn't going to actually help with Issues)#but I just don't want to deal with #any of this #so many things feel unsustainable #and yet the prospect of change literally makes me physically sick #and even trying to do anything differently #takes so so so much energy I do not have #sick of Trying #but not trying just means the problems and stresses keep getting worse so #back to work I guess

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northernsunsets · 25 days ago

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I'm kinda obsessed with the idea of bingqiu having 2 kids and the kids having like a minimum 50 year age gap between them

#they have long lifespans i think they should get to have kids with like unfathomable age gaps to mortals #I also think the first kid should be born like 50+ years after they marry #I see so many people say bingqiu couldn't have kids bcs binghe would be too jealous #and I have several reasons I think that's not like an actual issue but the one for today is that he is working on it and he has So Much tim #like yeah he has problems at 25 but whatever he should be at the club #he's practically an infant in heavenly demon terms and Just destroyed his mental illness sword where we leave them off #ofc he isn't ready for kids atp #anyway this is all to say i think it's funny to imagine them with kids with really big age gaps

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