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ruegarding · 2 months ago

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What do you think of Percy's low self-esteem, if you also think that he isn't insecure? Like how do you think these traits exist within him? (Genuine question)

i think pjo percy is written realistically to be outraged by his mistreatment while internalizing what ppl say abt him. bc he's an impressionable kid! so he might call himself stupid in the privacy of his own thoughts, but he's not going to sit back and listen to ppl call him stupid. he doesn't want to be stupid, he doesn't want to be a bad kid, but everyone treats him like he is. if he does nothing to prove them wrong then he proves them right, so he's internally hard on himself and externally defensive.

#and percy isn't passive! which is actually my biggest issue w the “percy is insecure” take for his current characterization #percy was bullied and abused. if he didn't defend himself no one was going to. that's why he made a point to stand up for the other kids.#anyway i think it's interesting that percy frequently stops asking questions bc he's worried ppl (usually annabeth)#will think he's stupid for asking them #bc it's also very realistic for a disabled kid to experience that and says a lot abt percy's insecurities over being perceived as stupid #i haven't double checked but i don't think he's ever called himself smart? i think he's just reiterated that he's not stupid #which is. yeah. it's not that he think he's smart it's that he doesn't want to be stupid.#i also think a lot of his perceived confidence is really just anger #this was going to get a more coherent response but i started thinking abt [redacted] and got distracted my b #disability #answered

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