#yeah!!!!!!! augh

[keferon]

“Mistakes on mistakes until” ch 69 spoilers below!

Ahahahahahahah here I go again

Mistakes on mistakes until until I can draw Jazz with my eyes closed

I woke up, checked my phone, woke up for real and decided that whatever plans I had for this day yeah no they can wait a little bit kfkgnfk

Also. Consider listening this while reading. Or don't who am I to tell you what to do~

[heretherebeturtles-comic]

DID YOU KNOW THAT ANDY SURIANO TALKED ABT YOUR COMIC ON INSTA???????????

YEAH I SAW IT!

really cool!!!!!! nice things were said about my art and story!!!!!! i am so flattered!!!!!!!!!! i am still figuring out how to react to it all!!!

[sabh0]

TDIPUD: Side B Dazai u scare me

[forgettable-au]

Old animatic from January! I decided to clean it up a little bit so I could post it instead of leaving it unfinished forever

I really like how it turned out tbh!! AAAA let me know what you all think hehehe

[somerandomcockroach]

"Mistakes on mistakes until" (my speed of reading is that one day where every planet stands in one line)

2 chapter in nutshell

3 chapter in nutshell

[nico-the-overlord]

Me after cutting my nails extremely short again: ow why does my nail hurt

The nail bed:

[Image ID start. An image of a man peaking out a hole amongst stacked rocks. Image ID end.]

[nazumichi]

yay!!

[khattikeri]

one of my favorite things about mdzs is that for how heavily its plot involves politics of classism and misogyny... even the characters most directly impacted by it can't and don't free themselves from it. literally the closest exception is mianmian.

meng yao being the "son of a whore" wasn't some sort of commie awakening for him that led him to wanting everyone to be socially equal. he played the political game, climbed the ladders, sucked up to and backstabbed and murdered people, including other prostitutes who actually had nothing to do with how he and his mother were treated at the brothel he grew up in.

he put in so much extra excessive effort for even a fraction of the same respect that members of gentry cultivation clans got. and he did deserve to be treated more humanely! but he feeds into the exact same system that created him, leading to his own undoing.

his efforts were for a fragile upward mobility that was never going to hold up. he never surpassed his origins nor did he empower others in similar stations, because the society he lives in is not one that would accept that.

the second he got caught and all those crimes exposed, he was scapegoated to hell and back, replacing wei wuxian as society's terrible one-sidedly evil boogeyman overnight.

speaking of not-quite male gentry, i think it's interesting that wei wuxian explicitly doesn't try to climb the ladders in BOTH lives, knowing full well that anything he does will be punished just for the sheer fact that he is wei wuxian.

wei wuxian is scolded for giving intelligent and correct answers in school. lan wangji does the same and is praised.

wei wuxian occasionally lounges around with fellow disciples and is punished. jiang cheng does the same and mostly escapes.

wei wuxian refuses to carry his sword around in public (after losing his golden core, which nobody knows) and is scorned as an arrogant upstart. nie huaisang has been doing the EXACT SAME THING for YEARS and nobody bats an eye.

unlike jin guangyao, wei wuxian knew subconsciously from the start that his acceptance was superficial and that he could be cast out any time. when he was 10 and recently taken in by the jiangs, he canonically would not eat or use "too much" food and water because he thought they'd find him a nuisance for "wasting their things" and kick him back out.

now away from just the classism, yu ziyuan is a proud and strong noblewoman in a society that belittles and derides women for everything they do. her strong cultivation doesn't matter. she's victim to the vicious rumors of her husband loving another woman who is strong like her but apparently had a more likeable personality.

it doesn't matter even if jiang fengmian didn't cheat or that wei wuxian is wei changze's son with cangse sanren; yu ziyuan can't bear with the humiliation of herself (and by extension her children) not being "good enough". she's ridiculed for "failing" in that one duty as a wife, mother, and woman.

she lashes out and takes out that anger on everyone present for years, giving her children lasting trauma and also being a key element in how the jiang family and yunmeng jiang sect are effectively wiped out at the hands of the wen clan.

madam jin doesn't even have a name outside of the fact that she's married to jin guangshan. i don't even remember reading anything that indicates if she's a strong or weak cultivator, or what, which in itself proves that to most people, it doesn't matter. she's "just" a woman.

of course she's angry at her husband's affairs and all the bastard children they bring in. but she also can't do anything about them, so she lashes out at the few people she can: servants. non-cultivators, probably. those very same bastard children.

shoutout to meng yao getting shoved down a flight of stairs at age fourteen, because if madam jin tried that move against her husband instead, it would make her lose even more face, which as a noblewoman she'd never do.

and that's not getting into how jiang yanli is consistently sidelined for being physically weak.

that's not getting into how mianmian was actually a good cultivator, but was mocked by everyone around her for trying to stand up for wei wuxian when everyone was turning on him. how everyone scoffed at luo qingyang's words as "just some lovesick woman" who "obviously wants to marry or bed him since he saved her".

luo qingyang is the only one of these characters who HASN'T died. she didn't play society's games like jin guangyao. she didn't dig her heels in confidence of her own abilities like wei wuxian.

she didn't bitterly lash out like yu ziyuan and madam jin. she didn't gently accept it like jiang yanli.

she just LEFT.

she married an ordinary merchant and cultivates separately from mainstream cultivation society, and therein found her own peace and happiness.

mxtx doesn't bother with particularly class conscious or feminist vocabulary to hand-hold readers into understanding these disparities, but that choice highlights them & the deeply entrenched politics of their society even more. i really love it.

[anemonet]

[Outtake from iterator Prosperity of Populace final speach to her citizen before its disassembly.]

[sentientsky]

words by Sylvia Plath

i will not be well tomorrow. just a general psa

[average-hua-cheng-fan]

another reason i think that xie lian felt an instant connection on the ox cart is because he and hua cheng both grew up in xianle.

there are maybe 4 people still alive that grew up in that culture. based on my own experience, you can pick up on things like accent, cadence, references, and humor that suggest a person is from the same place as you without consciously noticing it. that sense of comfort and similarity probably played into their instant chemistry.

[canisalbus]

Not my husband showing me a screenshot of your art and claiming that it looked like something I would gush over and me of course having to prove him wrong going psh nah intensely ignoring that I've had your blog marked to get notifications as well as bookmarked way back when we were only boyfriends in college. I really love your art btw, it's been wonderful watching your style evolve and your talent grow over the years. Also, Beau if you're reading this you're still wrong.

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[solargeist]

I know you mainly draw Evo smp but I would like to see how you draw Tango Tek, your art style is very nice on my eyes

thank u ! I actually watch Tango I like him !!!

This is kinda quick and messy but ! Him !

[itslilacokay]

after this loredrop (IM INSANE) about Ballista, (IM CLAWING AT THE WALLS) could we perhaps get some Ballista art please? :D (💥💥💥)

YOU'RE IN LUCK. I'M ALSO INSANE TOO

also also i thought of a feeeeew hcs since that dropped!

like fooor example, primal fought with ballista years ago!

(apologies btw. i struggled to get the anatomy right with this one)

and alllsoooo the "some sticks resurfaced ballista's body that managed to find its way into the outernet and along the way, rocketcorp brought in the body to research it (how they got it. um. dont ask) and then they eventually found out about how powerful ballista was and victim thought theyd be a good merc idk, then they manage to revive ballista but he has no memory of the past whatsoever!!!!" hc/theory!

also freellista was born that day. that day was yesterday btw i am now not normal about these two

theyre exes btw (never properly broke up but ballista died while they were dating so. rip)

thats referencing the ballista gijinka design i have btw! i decided to make it something freedom made to modify his cape as a gift! also so that they match hehehe

the fact that this is in my current design of him means that ballista still has that scarfcape thing on after all these years, even after his death

he has a fragment of the past but he will never remember it. sayang,,

at least it looks cool on him still!!!!!

[shimmershy]

Chara Week Day 5: Ghost

Every time I see that machine in the True Lab, I wonder if it could possibly be Chara's soul in there? Probably unlikely, but not impossible... It's interesting to think about what the implications of that would be.

A version with no text and then a version with just the machine, because I think it looks pretty cool and ominous alone as well.....

[crowvainn]

"you wanted us to face our truths? so how about you face yours!?"