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isame-allen Ā· 26 days ago
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A4 for dreamswap nm and drem
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kopifurann Ā· 2 months ago
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read from left to right ā¤
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Francis, i think it's hard to take ur world seriously when ur cradling my face so lovingly but maybe it's just me
Saying 'i love you' it's so embarrassing, plus when you're a nation, that kind of words can be quite a heavy burden for both parties since they need to put their people first over their existence and feelings as a 'human.' At least that's what Scotland believed. He called himself Alasdair for fuck sake, he mean to protect his people.
But proclaiming 'you're willing to die for them' was a different story especially if you're a nation. Well, even humans sometimes wouldn't really mean it and take said words as figures of speech anyway. Not every human would be in a dangerous scenario where they need to sacrifice themself for their beloved.
Nation can't die.
And so Scotland thinks, there's nothing wrong to proclaim his feelings in such a way, especially to a boy who already has many suitors who have said the same thing and even had themselves really died just for him.
Yet when he finally gathered his courage to confess, rather than being basked with a warm laugh, he was faced with a scowl.
(ScotFra is honestly probably the only France ship (that I incredibly adore) that I can't entirely ruin with horrible toxic relationships. So anyway, they're very in love but have no idea how to properly communicate. Well, they're just teenagers after all. It's expected for them to be clumsy, especially when the two of them were quite aware how different they were. Alasdair was intimidated by Francis' beauty and his experience with people and love. While he wanted to be more than just an 'alliance' in politics, he feared he couldn't really reach Francis in a way he wanted it to be. Because of how easily Francis would come and go with his lover, he feared that if he ever finally stepped into the boundaries, he would never be able to mend everything back together and even ruin it. Francis thought Alasdair never really liked him, at least not in a way Francis wanted him to. As a nation, he seemingly always put his people first than himself, so he thought the alliance was simply just another political shit the humans want them to have. After all, as sweet Alasdair can be, it seems the he is always keeping distance between them. What does he really mean to 'die for him?' Did Alasdair think he's way too weak to be a proper ally?? Is it why he seemingly always acts quiet when he's with him? Did he think he's that repulsive that death would be an only escape?)
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dropoutfailure Ā· 2 months ago
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ok, enough wholesome dadson. time to sexualize terrible fathers. (cw for: dadson incest + FtM son POV + transphobia / misgendering / fetishizing / forcemasc)
transphobic dad: doesn't approve of you transitioning or taking T, but isn't stopping you and doesn't seem turned off by the changes, even after you pass consistently as a man. doesn't know how T even works, always lowkey curious about the changes. he does like that you're so much hornier on T and don't even have periods anymore. tugs at your facial hair (ow? wtf :/) and goes "huh? it's real? I thought you drew it on every morning!" with a hearty laugh. dad joke? he might have actually thought so. backhanded praise, mean jokes at your expense, and moments where he genders you correctly, by accident.
thought you would eventually change your mind and give up transitioning "when you realise that being a man is hard," as if he's not the one making it hard. he might actually think of you as a son at some point, but he was never taught to apologize, he's "always right," he's stubborn, so he will keep calling you a daughter because a father can't show weakness. wants to call you homophobic slurs sooo bad, but that would be admitting defeat.
gets angry when you bring up surgery bc he likes to squeeze your tits and fuck your pussy. won't do any anal because it's gay. and clearly, he's isn't, he says. definitely closeted.
trans boy chaser dad: for better or for worse, only took an interest in your life when he found out you're a trans guy, fixed his relationship with you by treating you more like a date than as his son.
excited, touchy-feely, even creepy. eager to please. just pathetically horny for the way your body's changing from T - he won't misgender you. you get aggressively reaffirmed to the point of it getting annoyingly patronizing actually. regardless, he fucks you hard, encouraging you to moan with your cracking voice, and is too horny to feel bad about the incest. it's a welcome change from the previous emotional distance, but you feel used, like he's taking advantage of your newly high libido.
fixated on your body and everything "clockable," would rather you didn't get any surgery... says you're already perfect as is, from just testosterone... it does feel nice that he takes some sort of pride in having a son now, fully embracing you, the way he finds even all the awkward changes (sparse facial hair, voice cracks etc) not just endearing, not just attractive, but really fucking hot. and it's a relief for your body which craves that release. but. dad might just completely lose interest a few years into T, if you pass consistently.
bisexual, he says. but of course not into cis men.
transmed dad: thinks he knows what's best for your body, forcemascs you in his own ideals, pushing you to work hard to speed up your transition, to become a "real" man. you were so happy that dad accepted you being a trans guy so wholeheartedly and proudly, but the acceptance seems to have turned into overbearing surveillance...
dad insists on doing your T injections himself, because he doesn't trust that you'll actually do them. "no son of mine will be a fucking embarrassing softboy pansy who never transitions for real, have some dignity, god damn it! either you transition fully or you don't transition at all!" ...he pushes you to consider top and bottom surgery asap, to become a "real man," regardless of what you might want. he very excitedly looks forward to the day you can top him with your real cock, like a son should. :)
he makes you like anal because that's how real men do it. you're absolutely not allowed to derive any pleasure from anywhere but your ass and T-dick, and the phantom sensation of a strapon. he's good at working your T-dick though, it's all almost worth it just for that...
love, validation, and praise only when you've "earned it." if you fail to live up to his strict expectations, the things he says fucking hurt. misgenders you as punishment and threatens to withhold your testosterone "since you want to stay a girl so bad."
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so, all of these options leave you feeling unsatisfied and degraded in one way or another!! yippee! no, there's no option for a Normal About Trans Men And Masculinity Dad, this is the Terrible Fathers dadson poll. you must choose.
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unriding Ā· 30 days ago
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hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3
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#šŸ¦ā€ā¬›šŸ• .#å½” nick!#å½” inbox.#evie.ss#omg good morning nick! my stomach literally twisted and flipped seeing this /pos /POS /the most positive gut wrenching feeling in existence#NICK AND THE REASON WAS ? WHY DO U NOT HAVE A KOFI LINK WHERE IS IT ā€¦. THIS ISNT OK I NEED TO FIND IT???? U CANNOT BE ā€¦ BE ā€¦. BE UM ā€¦ YOU K#I NEED TO šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ I NEED ā€¦.. IS IT OBVIOUSLY IM CRYING WRITING THINSSJSJSN /pos /ULTRA POS THIS IS SO CUTE UR ART IS SOOOO AWESME IM SO IN AWEšŸ˜­#typos: obvious* <- & barrier* -> amazing work evie#i broke the sound banner with the screech i made seeing this ā€¦. YOU ā€¦ YOU DREW ME ā€¦ THE EXACT WAY ā€¦.. I .. ITS SO SPOT ON I ????? I ā€¦ IM#FLABBERGASTED . SHELL SHOCKED . GOBSMACKED IM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW U DID MY HAIR ā€¦. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I DO MY HAID ā€¦ AND THE CURLS ARE LI#LIKE THATā€¦ IM SO OBSESSED WITH UR STYLE JSJSJJD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID IT???? UR STYLE IS MMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!! 1000/1000!!!!!! in specif#the colors ā€¦ the colors are gorgeous and sooo nice to gaze at ā€¦ the little wings ā€¦ HOW DID YOU KNOW I LIKE- IM SO . (hugs knees and cries#YOU DREW THAT DRESS AWESOME-LY ā€¦. IM GENUINELY LOSING MY MIND AND I HAVENG EVEN .. looked at *him* ā€¦.. nick ā€¦. im complimenting it and i#canā€™t even see rn HEJSJCKCNITS BLURRY šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ my head hurts so bad from sobbing but ive never been happier /pos IM SO ???? I LOVE HOW U DREW ME#i went to go triple check for the kofilink and found myself browsing through puppetgear tag once again u^u JENDNDKXJ oh my god . PLEASEEEEE#okā€¦. moze ā€¦ heā€™s ā€¦ so tiny .. heā€™s so cute ā€¦ he looks so grumpy :ā€™) /pos AND YOU .. u captured his squishable look omgā€¦.. heā€™s so teeny heā€™#literally as big as a fingernail on my phone im :ā€™) HES POCKET SIZED I CANT BELIEVE U DID THIS /pos /ETERNALLY GRATEFUL#WHY šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ YOURE SO KIND IM SO . IM SITTING ON THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM SNIFFLING AND HICCUPING AHENDNJXKC AND STARING AT THIS OF COUESE#i just saw the ask šŸ˜­ i definitely donā€™t mind im literally on my hands and knees to thank you and itā€™s still not enough JSNSNDNMC i have to#dig a dent in the hole and bow inside the hole ā€¦ā€¦ itā€™s not enough ā€¦ i genuinely love every square inch of this JSNDNXN i just adore ā€¦ how u#did me ā€¦ how u did moze (soā€” everything) even the circle in the background is a color that i adore šŸ˜žšŸ˜ž sniffle ā€¦..#what a treat to see moze in ur style šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ what a HUGE . Nice . AMAZING. TREAT . he looks so good in ur style UGH I WANNA FLOAT AWAY#the physical reaction i had in my stomach & head is unmatched /pos ā€¦. itā€™s vaguely similar to when u get called on in class while nervous .#and ur stomach flips .. but in a positive / EVSTATIC / insanely happy way ā€¦ thank you so much omfg (link?) (please?) you are so kind ā€¦.#i donā€™t even know how to convey my gratefulness so im resorting to crying-staring-crying-staring-crying#(cries)#oh i never answered ur question haha :ā€™) yea im great! :ā€™) and you? :ā€™)#im gonna put this in queue >/////< URK IM SO ā€¦. THANK U NICK ))))))):::: (link perhap?)#edit: OHHHH I SEE HOW U DID MY HAIR COLOR!!!!! that is so cool hello? itā€™s black- but not? and it fits so perfectly!!!! THAT IS SOO COOL WJ#NO WONDER I WAS ADMIRING THE COLORS EARLIER THIS IS SUCH A COOL THING (nonartist tries to explain how neat something is) NSNDNXKK
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anemoa Ā· 2 years ago
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Itā€™s the silly man!!!
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licantropa Ā· 4 months ago
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Marthaā€™s hair is curly, however, she uses hair relaxers because she likes how it looks straight
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galaxywhale Ā· 1 year ago
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couple of years ago, a family friend announced that their child [deadname] has told them heā€™s a boy and will be known as [name] going forward and sheā€™s sharing so everybody will know whoā€™s sheā€™s talking about when she uses his name or talks about her son
she shares trans pride stuff or anti transphobia stats + posts on her Facebook story sometimes and I get recommended fb events sometimes about how to support trans kids etc because sheā€™s clicked sheā€™s interested
there was a Fatherā€™s Day post today with a picture of him and his sister with their dad (also a family friend) and my dad was talking about him and the piercing he has in his nose
and idk all of this stuff feels like super basic respect 101 stuff but it makes my heart so happy any time I see or hear anything about him <3
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fushiguho Ā· 24 days ago
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Thinking about Asshole!Toji whoā€™s so incredibly mean to his sweet girlfriend but only because he knows how nasty sheā€™ll get for himā€¦
ā€œYou like it when Iā€™m mean to you, huh? Getā€™s that pussy so messy doesnā€™t it, baby?ā€ He mutters, fingers threading through the hair at your nape, drawing your head back to force your gaze onto his stoic face as you kneel before him, his fat cock heavy against your tongue.
You can only nod slightly, saliva slipping from the corners of your swollen lips. As you sit prettily on your knees, you sputter around him in vain attempts to breathe, all the while his cock rests snuggly in your throat.
ā€œNo, no, no. Donā€™t just fuckinā€™ nod your head,ā€ he punctuates with harsh tug of your hair, ā€œI want you to answer me.ā€
Physically, you canā€™t answer him, itā€™s not feasible. Not with the way heā€™s deliberately tucking himself deeper, his swollen balls now pressing against your quivering bottom lip. His warm hand holds your head taut, leaving room for not a damn thing ā€” not a breath nor a gasp, and definitely not a word.
Yet still, you attempt to speak, because for Toji, youā€™ll do anything. After several trembling breaths through your nose, you make an effort to choke out a word with his cock against your tongue and fail horribly, of course. Toji took your relaxed throat as an opportunity to plant himself impossibly deeper, eliciting a proper gag from you. What a meanie.
Heā€™s pouting feigndly, ā€œAweee, canā€™t fuckinā€™ speak can you, sweetheart?ā€ He coos, ā€œThat pretty mouth too full of cock to talk to me?ā€ His teeth are clenching now as a guttural moan threatens to erupt from his chest.
Toji is so fucking hard. You always manage to get him so incredibly hard to the point it pains him. That poor cock of his weeps and aches at the sight of you doing literally anything. Most times he canā€™t help himself when he watches you doing the most mundane of tasks.
Whether it be laundry, cooking, or cleaning, heā€™s creeping behind you, bending you over the nearest surface, and fucking a load into his pretty girlā€™s cunt and you fucking love it. Maybe itā€™s some sick, gnawing primal urge of his that yearns to be satiated and if not, heā€™d simply die. Whatever it is, you donā€™t seem to mind, clearly.
Tojiā€™s hips buck wildly, fucking himself into your mouth as he would your cunt. ā€œLook so pretty takinā€™ all of my cock like that, baby fuuuck. Such a good throat faā€™meā€¦ always so ready for cock, didnā€™t even have to ask you,ā€ heā€™s peeling the disheveled hair off of your forehead, baring your drunken mien, ā€œjust got on your knees and pulled my cock out. Couldnā€™t even take off my coatā€¦ always been such a greedy little girl, yeah?ā€ He babbles.
Youā€™re not thinking, not really. Poor head full of cotton and he hasnā€™t even touched you. You hardly even notice the way he sheathes himself from your mouth to pump himself in his hand instead. Cock thick and swollen, glistening in a layer of your saliva. Idly, he drags his fist up and down, twisting his wrist as he nears the head, only to swipe his thumb across the slit before repeating it all over again. Like a dog, your mouth pools with saliva as he strokes his cock mere centimeters from your face.
ā€œGonna cum all over that pretty faceā€¦ ruin your fuckinā€™ makeup,ā€ he grits, dragging the tip of his cock along your wet lips, rudely prodding against them, ā€œlook so pretty already but I think I like you better with my cum all over your lips, your cheeks, your nose, and anywhere else I fuckinā€™ want, you hear me?ā€ Heā€™s slapping himself across your face now, smearing his precum along the bridge of your nose, the high points of your cheeks, your chin, even your perspiring forehead.
Youā€™re pressing your thighs together as you nod to him, ā€œI need it.ā€ You whisper.
ā€œHeh, yea you do.ā€
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joonieskinks Ā· 4 months ago
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happy two years on tumblr to me today!! šŸ„³
hereā€™s my favorite shy boy to celebrate
simon ghost riley who is too nervous to talk to you or approach you. youā€™re just so naturally gorgeous and put together, heā€™s afraid heā€™ll say something wrong and scare you off. so he just continues to observe from afar. kinda feels pathetic, like heā€™s back in elementary school, but he canā€™t help it.
youā€™re the pretty diplomatic relations officer on the 141 team, a newer addition who helps with all the paperwork and policy. you work more with captain price, however you conduct meetings sometimes and talk to the guys here and there for their opinions.
simon ghost riley who still remembers the first day you spoke to him, everything you said, hell, the first time you so much as looked into his eyes. your gorgeous smile turned his tummy upside down and he has the stunning image of you engraved into his mind. little did he know, you thought he had the prettiest, bluest eyes youā€™ve ever seen.
you make excuses just to touch him too, handing papers over for him to sign and slipping your hand over his. or going to walk past him but then holding onto his arm to tell him good morning. simon thinks you do this with everyone because youā€™re so open and kind like that, but you save all your special attention for him only.
simon ghost riley who one day has had enough of johnny stealing your attention and asking you out right in front of him. heā€™s sick and tired of kyle making up the dumbest reasons to include you in physical training just to touch you and ā€œhelp your formā€.
enough of that shit.
so he takes things into his own hands and comes storming into your meeting with price. both of you look up rather surprised at the sudden and brooding intrusion, right in the middle of some document reviewing-
ā€œwe need to talk.ā€ simon declares, eyes unmoving from yours, intense, desperateā€¦ if didnā€™t have your understanding of him, youā€™d think he wanted to beat you up.
ā€œriley, this is hardly the appropriate time, we-ā€œ
ā€œitā€™s okay, captain. weā€™ll be quick, yeah?ā€ you nod at simon and he immediately turns around to the hallway. you get up slowly, looking at price and he matches your ā€œokay thenā€ look.
simon ghost riley who is pacing, heā€™s cracking his fingers and playing with his belt loops. it suddenly hits him that heā€™s finally gonna be alone with the woman he finds absolutely irresistible. can he control himself? will he make a fool out of himself? will you reciprocate if he goes through with this? if you donā€™t, then what? fuck.
ā€œsimon?ā€ you start, closing the office door behind you, leaving you two alone. ā€œeverything okay?ā€
heā€™s fawning over your big doe eyes, full of concern and empathy for him, utterly focused on him. it makes the crotch of his pants tighten and he has the strongest urge to pull you to him. heā€™d take you in the hallway up against the wall here if youā€™d let him. but heā€™s getting ahead of himself-
ā€œuh- yea. good.ā€ he manages to stutter out. god, heā€™s never felt this nervous in his life. for once it feels like he truly cares what will happen to him. he cares for you, wants something with you. well, only one way to find out. no more stalling. enough of this shit.
simon ghost riley who strides towards you, taking off his mask and bringing your head into his hands. he connects his lips to yours before you can process. you just feel warmth and you lean into him. his fingers dive into your hair, deepening the kiss and heā€™s over the moon. you actually seem to want him too, youā€™re reciprocating and his nerves are eagerly replaced by thoughts of you moaning out his name as your hands move to his waist.
when you pull back for air, youā€™re met with Simonā€™s eyes glazed over by lust for you. his lips are pink, puffy and heā€™s still looking at yours like heā€™s not had his fill of them yet. ā€œwant youā€¦ ā€˜long timeā€ he murmurs out before reconnecting. heā€™s overcome by your taste, your warmth and your fingers slipping into his pants. it makes him moan into your mouth, his hands flying to your hips, pushing you roughly up against the wall.
simon ghost riley who only raises his eyebrows as if to ask the question and youā€™re rapidly nodding. yes, yes, god, yes please take me.
ā€œall yoursā€ you whisper against his mouth, arms crossing behind his neck. the possessiveness that he tries to push down comes bubbling up and escapes his mouth with a groan.
he hoists you up, grasping your ass and your legs wrap around his waist.
ā€œalways been yours, siā€
ā€œgood. ā€˜cus now youā€™re gonna be a good girl and show me.ā€
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antinitoniny Ā· 3 months ago
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anton as your affectionate bf: headcanons
this is so long help + itā€™s organized in sections šŸ˜šŸ˜
šŸ’­ anton x fem!reader
šŸ’­ texts in pink: oc, texts in blue: anton
šŸ’­ fluff fluff fluff (and crack)
physical touch
- anton might be the humanized version of ā€˜physical touch.ā€™
- hand always on ur back or around ur hips
- top of the head kisses
- fixing ur necklace or hair while youā€™re talking
- as long as youā€™re in the same room, anton canā€™t last a minute without physical contact.
- antonā€™s hand will always be on ur hip or around ur waist.
- heā€™s backhugging u like 30% of the day
- morning kisses. barely awake kisses.
- tracing antonā€™s nose while heā€™s sleeping (heā€™s actually awake so heā€™s giggling w his eyes closed)
- ā€œTON I LOVE U BUT ITā€™S SO HOT. STOP HUGGING MEā€ ā€œare we breaking upā€
- waking up w his leg on you, his face nuzzled on ur neck, and his hand placed light on ur head ā€” itā€™s a heavy morning.
- ā€œcan i bite you?ā€ */stares at anton for 5mins* ā€œis that a yesā€
- imagine being against pda while dating a guy who'd tear up if you sit on the other side of the table at dinner? yea, anton.
- fav kissing spot: antonā€™s nose
- his fav kissing spot: */his nose bled while trying to answer the question
- you guys would last for 5hrs on the couch in silence as long as antonā€™s wrapped around you
down bad anton
- when heā€™s talking about his day but youā€™re rlly focused on what heā€™s saying so he got flustered all of a sudden ā€œstop staring at me, youā€™re making me nervousā€ ā€” ā€œYOUā€™RE telling a story, where else am i supposed to look at?ā€
- suddenly smiling from ear to ear during breakfast because ā€œ1 year ago, i just thought youā€™re really nice to me and now iā€™m eating breakfast with you in our shared apartmentā€ */insert anton giggles (and grumpy you ā€˜coz u js woke up & heā€™s talking non sense)
- smiling from ear to ear whenever he hears ur name in his group of friends. (would result to 1hr of anton yapping about how cute you were yesterday and the day before that, and two weeks ago)
- anton buying matching EVERYTHING. and giving them to you with a shy smile.
- matching rings, matching trinkets, matching bracelets, matching phone casesā€” told u, everything.
- ā€œwhy are you hugging me all of a sudden?ā€ ā€œyouā€™re the cutest i adore you so muchā€ (youā€™re just eating bread)
- ā€œhi, can we date with the intention of marrying you & having pets as many as you wantā€, ā€œanton, weā€™ve been together for almost two yearsā€, ā€œoh, i thought i was being delusionalā€
- even on casual days, anton would send his newly made playlists for you.
- "i'm gonna take a nap" "okay, me too" "are you sleepy?" "no" "then why..?" "i wanna take a nap with you"
- anton taking care of you when you're sick. and you always feel bad. "baby, sleep somewhere elsee. you'll catch my fever" "i can't sleep without you next to me"
- "have i told you that i love you?" - anton says while eating dinner.
- anton having five story highlights with just you
- anton using a photo of the two of you as his profile photo in every social media platform.
- has two pouches of things that you MIGHT need in his everyday bag (thats why his bags r always gigantic)
- anton's really expressive. he's expressive but would get shy right after saying that he loves you.
cute stuff
- "they're cute, they're just like us" - anton w every single couple in a romance movie
- anton learning how to cook your favorite foods & baking ur fav pastries at home
- would always be on a facetime w u even in social events (he canā€™t function w/o seeing u)
- anton massaging u after a long week !!!
- handwritten notes :(
- anton writing post-its and sticking it on ur forehead while youā€™re sleeping whenever he has to leave early in the morning
- anton writing DETAILED handwritten letters for you every monthsary to tell u his favorite moments w u that month, to tell u that heā€™s proud of u for every single thing that uā€™ve done that month. heā€™s such a words of affirmation guy.
- anton not ordering a lot because he knows that u get full easily so heā€™ll get to eat ur leftovers anyway
- but anton would always make sure that youā€™ll eat A LOT. thatā€™s why heā€™ll research a lot about the restaurant menus that youā€™ll eat in.
- anton brushing your hair every night
- anton letting you style his hair (once went to work w pigtails)
- reading together (and anton falling asleep on ur shoulder right after one chapter)
- SUNDAY RESET IS ANTONā€™S FAVORITE DAY !!! the everything shower, doing each otherā€™s nails, cooking together, eating a homemade fancy dinner with candles, talking about your week, and ending the day with wearing couple face masks while watching a 2000s romcom movie.
- anton going with you to ur nail appointment and him sitting next to you for 2 hours.
- antonā€™s closet is basicslly your closet, and your closet is basically antonā€™s.
- you wearing antonā€™s clothes & anton wearing your watches and accessories in a daily basis
- gazing at each other in the midst of the crowd, exchanging warmest smiles
- anton running to you to carry you in a hug
- you mentioning that you like this specific cake ONCE in a casual conversation and anton buying it for you every night.
- ā€œdid you hear something?ā€ ā€œBABY STOP SCARING MEā€
- when you wanna wear something revealing but you asked anton first so now he doesnā€™t know if heā€™ll be mesmerized with you or heā€™ll be offended that you think he wonā€™t let you wear that
- anton waiting for you to come home til midnight because he wants to have dinner with you (itā€™s 12am)
- anton carrying your handbag / shoulder bag as if itā€™s his bag.
soft spots
- arguments w antons barely happen but when it does, it often ends almost immediately.
- antonā€™s always the one to apologize first. even though youā€™re at fault, anton makes sure to talk to you without making you feel invalidated.
- antonā€™s definitely a date to marry guy. which is why during deep talks, heā€™s always talking about the future with you.
- anton finding you crying. he wonā€™t ask why, heā€™ll just hug you warmly til you feel better. once youā€™re feeling better, heā€™ll buy u guys pints of ice cream and watch your comfort movie in silence and in each otherā€™s arms.
- imagine antonā€™s soft voice welcoming you home after a tiring day. "how was your day, my love?" anton asks, carrying your bag, gently pulling you to the couch so he can massage your shoulders while you spend 2 hours talking about your day.
- mornings with anton are always so warm. you're cooking your breakfast while anton's just hugging you from the back. his face buried at the side of your neck, while talking casually about your plans for that day.
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its-avalon-08 Ā· 4 months ago
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what are we running from? (op81)
(monza has my heart, but what is mclaren doing? papaya rules and all that shit for more tension? our boys deserve better! enjoy this one because i shed a few tears writing it <3 )
āœ¦ pairing - oscar piastri x female!reader
āœ¦ genre - friends to lovers, neglect, a LOT angst, alot of tears, super long im sorry
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Oscar Piastri and Y/N had always been inseparable, their bond forged in the fires of shared experiences and unwavering support. From the outside, their relationship seemed almost too good to be trueā€”two best friends who had known each other for years, with a connection so deep that it felt like they were more than just friends, even if neither of them had ever dared to say it out loud.
It had started back in their school days, when they first met in a classroom filled with the nervous energy of new beginnings. Oscar, with his quiet determination and sharp wit, had caught Y/Nā€™s attention almost immediately. She, on the other hand, had this vibrant, magnetic personality that drew people in, and before long, they had become fast friends.
As time went on, their friendship only grew stronger. They spent countless hours together, whether it was studying for exams, watching movies, or just hanging out at each otherā€™s houses. They knew each otherā€™s quirks, habits, and fears better than anyone else. Oscar could tell when Y/N was upset just by the way she fidgeted with her hair, and Y/N knew exactly when Oscar needed a distraction by the way his smile didnā€™t quite reach his eyes.
They were a team, an unbreakable pair that everyone else could only admire. Friends would often joke about how they were like an old married coupleā€”finishing each otherā€™s sentences, knowing each otherā€™s favorite foods, and sharing a kind of unspoken communication that others found both endearing and perplexing.
But it wasnā€™t just their closeness that made their relationship special; it was the way they supported each other through everything. When Oscar started his journey in racing, Y/N was there every step of the way, cheering him on from the sidelines, offering words of encouragement when things got tough, and celebrating with him after every victory. She was his rock, his constant, and in a world that was often unpredictable, Y/N was the one thing Oscar could always count on.
And Oscar was just as devoted to Y/N. He was the one she called in the middle of the night when she couldnā€™t sleep, the one who listened patiently to her dreams and fears, the one who knew exactly how to make her laugh when she was feeling down. He was the calm to her storm, the steady presence that grounded her when everything else felt chaotic.
Their physical closeness was another thing that set them apart. Oscar and Y/N were never shy about showing affectionā€”whether it was cuddling on the couch during movie nights, holding hands when they were out together, or the way Y/N would rest her head on Oscarā€™s shoulder when she was tired. It was the kind of closeness that blurred the lines between friendship and something more, but they had always kept it in the realm of friendship, never daring to cross that invisible boundary.
Yet, underneath it all, there was something unspoken between them, something that both of them felt but neither of them acknowledged. It was in the way Oscarā€™s heart would skip a beat whenever Y/N smiled at him, or the way Y/Nā€™s breath would catch whenever Oscar hugged her just a little too tightly. It was the feeling that there was something more between them, something that could change everything if they ever dared to explore it.
But that unspoken connection, as strong as it was, also carried a weightā€”a fear of losing what they had if they ever tried to turn it into something more. And so, they kept it hidden, buried beneath layers of friendship, where it was safe from the risks that came with love.
They were best friendsā€”inseparable, devoted, and utterly reliant on each other. But beneath the surface, there was a tension, a yearning that neither of them wanted to admit. And it was only a matter of time before that tension would come to a head, forcing them to confront the feelings they had both tried so hard to ignore.
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Oscar had always known he was in trouble when it came to Y/N. From the moment they met, they had clicked in a way that felt effortless, naturalā€”like they were meant to be in each other's lives. She was his best friend, his confidante, his comfort. But somewhere along the way, Oscar had started feeling something more. He fell for her, hard, and though every fiber of his being screamed to tell her, he never did. He couldnā€™t risk losing her.
But things had changed. Y/N had started seeing someone new, and for the first time, Oscar felt the ground shift beneath him. Their usual routine of late-night calls, movie marathons, and endless cuddles had been replaced by her excited chatter about her new boyfriend, her plans for dates, and the moments that didnā€™t include him.
flashback
The shift in Y/Nā€™s behavior started subtly, but it grew more apparent with each passing day. Oscar noticed it first at the small gatherings they used to enjoy togetherā€”nights spent with their closest friends, where they would usually stick close, laughing at inside jokes and exchanging amused glances from across the room. But now, things were different.
It began with Jake, the guy Y/N had started seeing. At first, Oscar didnā€™t think much of itā€”heā€™d seen Y/N date before, and it had never really affected their friendship. But something about Jake seemed to pull her further away from him in a way that felt like a slow, painful drift.
The first time it really hit him was at a party one of their mutual friends was hosting. Oscar had arrived a bit late, expecting to find Y/N waiting for him with a drink in hand, eager to catch him up on everything heā€™d missed. But instead, he found her on the other side of the room, wrapped up in Jakeā€™s arms, laughing at something heā€™d said.
Oscar tried to brush it off, forcing a smile as he approached. ā€œHey, Y/N,ā€ he greeted her, hoping for the usual warmth in her eyes.
She glanced over at him, but the smile she gave him was distant, almost distracted. ā€œOh, hey, Oscar,ā€ she replied, her tone casual, as if he were just another guest at the party.
It stung, more than he cared to admit. ā€œWhatā€™s going on? Missed anything exciting?ā€ he asked, trying to keep the conversation light.
Y/N shrugged, her attention already shifting back to Jake. ā€œNot really. Just hanging out.ā€
Oscarā€™s heart sank. This wasnā€™t like her. She was usually the first to pull him into the fun, to drag him into ridiculous games or tease him about not dancing enough. But now, it felt like he was intruding, like he didnā€™t belong.
The night went on, and the gap between them only seemed to widen. At one point, Oscar found himself standing near the bar, watching as Y/N and Jake danced together, completely absorbed in each other. It was as if the rest of the room had faded away, including him.
When they finally took a break, Oscar made his way over, hoping to at least steal a few minutes with her. ā€œSo, howā€™s it going with Jake?ā€ he asked, trying to sound supportive despite the knot in his stomach.
Y/N looked at him with a small, polite smile, but there was no spark of excitement in her eyes, none of the usual fire that had always drawn him in. ā€œItā€™s good. Heā€™s great, really.ā€
ā€œYeah, he seems nice,ā€ Oscar said, forcing the words out. ā€œWe should hang out moreā€”like old times.ā€
She hesitated, her eyes flickering to Jake before she answered. ā€œYeah, maybe. Weā€™ll see.ā€
That was it. Just a vague, noncommittal response that left Oscar feeling more isolated than ever.
The next few days were more of the same. Y/N started canceling plans, saying she was too busy or that she had already made plans with Jake. When they did hang out, she was distracted, constantly checking her phone, as if waiting for a message from Jake to pull her away again.
Oscar tried to hide his frustration, but it grew harder with each passing day. He noticed how Y/N seemed to change around Jakeā€”she was more subdued, less like herself. The playful, confident girl he knew was replaced by someone who seemed almostā€¦ unsure. She laughed at jokes that werenā€™t funny, agreed with things she would usually argue against, and even started dressing differently, like she was trying to fit into some version of herself that wasnā€™t real.
The breaking point came when they all went out to another party, this time with a larger group. Oscar watched from a distance as Y/N and Jake mingled with people he didnā€™t recognize, her hand firmly in Jakeā€™s as she introduced herself with an unfamiliar edge in her voice.
It wasnā€™t until someone asked how long she and Oscar had known each other that the real blow came.
ā€œOh, weā€™ve known each other for a while,ā€ she said casually, almost dismissively, as if they werenā€™t best friends who had shared everything.
Oscarā€™s heart clenched painfully. He stood just a few feet away, and it felt like heā€™d been slapped in the face. A while? That was all she had to say about him? The countless nights they had spent talking until sunrise, the secrets they had shared, the times they had been there for each other through thick and thinā€”all reduced to ā€œa while.ā€
For the rest of their time together, Oscar felt like a ghost, present but unseen, and the realization that Y/N barely noticed was what hurt the most. He couldnā€™t keep doing this, couldnā€™t keep pretending that everything was fine when it was far from it. He couldnā€™t stand it any longer. ā€œIā€™m heading out,ā€ he muttered to no one in particular, but Y/N didnā€™t even notice as he slipped out the door.
Later that night, Y/N texted him, asking if he got home okay. There was no apology, no acknowledgment of how she had brushed him aside. Just a casual check-in that felt more like an afterthought.
Oscar stared at the message, feeling a deep sadness settle in his chest. He had always known that Y/N was special to him, that she held a place in his heart no one else could ever fill. But now, he was starting to realize that she didnā€™t see him the same wayā€”not anymore.
Maybe she never did, he thought bitterly, tossing his phone aside and sinking into bed, the weight of her neglect pressing down on him like a lead blanket. Maybe Iā€™ve just been fooling myself this whole time.
end of flashback
And Oscarā€¦ he was hurting.
One evening, Y/N burst into Oscar's apartment with her usual energy. ā€œOsc, you wonā€™t believe it! Weā€™re going on another date tonightā€”heā€™s taking me to this really cute cafĆ© downtown!ā€ Her voice was full of excitement, but Oscar barely heard her.
He was curled up on the couch, a familiar spot that once felt warm with her presence now felt cold and empty.
ā€œThatā€™s great,ā€ he mumbled, his voice lacking its usual enthusiasm.
She frowned, finally noticing the difference. ā€œWhatā€™s wrong? Youā€™ve been weird lately.ā€
Oscar wanted to say it. He wanted to shout that he was tired of being pushed aside, tired of being the second choice. But instead, he just shook his head. ā€œNothing. Iā€™m fine.ā€
Y/N wasnā€™t convinced. She moved closer, sitting beside him. ā€œOscar, talk to me. Please.ā€
Oscar looked at her, really looked at her, and felt his heart shatter a little more. He was losing her, and the worst part was that she didnā€™t even realize it. ā€œI miss you,ā€ he finally admitted, his voice barely above a whisper.
Y/N blinked, surprised. ā€œIā€™m right here, O.ā€
ā€œNo, youā€™re not,ā€ he replied, his tone sharper now. ā€œYouā€™ve been so wrapped up in your new relationship that Iā€™ve barely seen you. Youā€™re always with him, talking about him. And Iā€¦ Iā€™m just here, waiting for you to remember me.ā€
She frowned, her face softening as she reached out to touch his hand, but he pulled away. ā€œOscar, Iā€™m sorry. I didnā€™t realizeā€”ā€
ā€œOf course you didnā€™t,ā€ he interrupted, his frustration boiling over. ā€œYou didnā€™t realize because youā€™re happy, and Iā€™m justā€¦ Iā€™m just the friend whoā€™ll always be there, right? The one you can ignore until you need him.ā€
Her eyes widened, hurt flashing across her face. ā€œThatā€™s not true, Oscar. You know you mean everything to me.ā€
ā€œDo I?ā€ he challenged, standing up and pacing the room. ā€œBecause it doesnā€™t feel like it, Y/N. It feels like Iā€™m losing you, and itā€™s killing me.ā€
The air between them grew thick with tension, the kind that had never existed before. Y/N stood up too, tears welling in her eyes as she tried to reach out to him again. ā€œOscar, please donā€™t do this. I donā€™t want to lose you.ā€
ā€œThen why does it feel like youā€™ve already left me?ā€ he snapped, his voice breaking. He ran a hand through his hair, trying to keep his emotions in check but failing miserably. ā€œYou donā€™t get it, Y/N. You have no idea how much this hurts.ā€
ā€œThen tell me!ā€ she cried, her voice cracking with desperation. ā€œTell me whatā€™s wrong so I can fix it!ā€
Oscar froze, the words caught in his throat. This was it. This was the moment he could tell her everything, but he couldnā€™t find the courage. Instead, he just shook his head, his eyes filled with unshed tears. ā€œI canā€™t do this anymore.ā€
ā€œOscar, please donā€™t say that,ā€ she whispered, stepping closer to him, but he stepped back, creating a distance between them that felt like miles.
ā€œI love you,ā€ he blurted out, his voice trembling. ā€œIā€™ve loved you for so long, and Iā€™ve tried to bury it, to just be your friend, but I canā€™t anymore. I canā€™t stand watching you with someone else. Itā€™s killing me, Y/N.ā€
Her breath hitched, her eyes wide with shock. ā€œOscarā€¦ Iā€¦ I didnā€™t know.ā€
ā€œOf course, you didnā€™t,ā€ he said bitterly, wiping away a tear that had escaped. ā€œYou didnā€™t know because I never told you. But nowā€¦ now itā€™s too late. Youā€™re with him, and Iā€™m justā€¦ Iā€™m nothing.ā€
Oscarā€™s voice trembled with a mix of anger and hurt as he stared at Y/N, his hands clenched into fists at his sides. He had tried to hold it in for so long, but the weight of her neglect was too much to bear, and now, it was all spilling out.
ā€œYou know, Y/N, I get that youā€™re excited about Jake. I really do. But do you even realize what youā€™ve been doing? Or should I say, what you havenā€™t been doing?ā€ His voice was laced with bitterness, the words cutting through the air like a blade.
Y/N blinked, taken aback by the intensity in his voice. ā€œOscar, what are you talking about? Iā€™ve just beenā€”ā€
ā€œNo, donā€™t,ā€ he cut her off sharply, shaking his head. ā€œDonā€™t you dare try to brush this off like itā€™s nothing. Youā€™ve been so wrapped up in your new relationship that youā€™ve completely forgotten about me. About us. Do you even remember the last time we had an actual conversation that wasnā€™t interrupted by you checking your phone? Or the last time we made plans that you didnā€™t cancel for Jake?ā€
Her mouth opened, but no words came out. She was struggling to process the raw emotion pouring out of him.
Oscar continued, his voice rising as the frustration he had been holding back for weeks finally broke free. ā€œIā€™ve been your best friend for how long now? Iā€™ve always been there for you, always. But ever since you started dating him, itā€™s like I donā€™t even exist anymore. You barely text me back, you cancel on me all the time, and when we do hang out, itā€™s like youā€™re not even here.ā€
He took a step closer, his eyes locked on hers, pleading for her to understand. ā€œDo you have any idea how that feels? To go from being someoneā€™s everything to feeling like youā€™re justā€¦ nothing? Like youā€™re just a placeholder until something better comes along?ā€
Y/Nā€™s eyes filled with tears, but Oscar was too caught up in his own pain to notice. ā€œI get that things change when you start dating someone, but you didnā€™t just changeā€”you fucking disappeared. And Iā€™m left here, trying to figure out where the hell my best friend went. The person I could always count on, who knew me better than anyoneā€¦ sheā€™s gone.ā€
His voice cracked, the anger giving way to the deep hurt he had been carrying. ā€œAnd you know whatā€™s worse? Iā€™ve been in love with you for as long as I can remember. But I was too scared to say anything because I didnā€™t want to mess things up. I didnā€™t want to lose you. But nowā€¦ it feels like Iā€™ve lost you anyway.ā€
Y/Nā€™s breath hitched as she took a step back, her heart pounding in her chest. She had never seen Oscar like this, so raw and vulnerable, and it terrified her.
ā€œI tried to be happy for you,ā€ Oscar continued, his voice quieter now, filled with a deep sadness. ā€œI tried to convince myself that I could just be your friend and that would be enough. But itā€™s not enough, Y/N. Not when you treat me like Iā€™m nothing.ā€
He looked away, blinking back the tears that threatened to fall. ā€œI thought I meant more to you than this. I thought we meant more. But maybe I was wrong.ā€
Y/Nā€™s heart shattered at the sight of him, at the pain in his eyes. She reached out to him, desperate to hold him, to comfort him, but he pulled away again, shaking his head.
ā€œI canā€™t be around you right now,ā€ Oscar said, his voice broken. ā€œI need timeā€¦ I need to figure out how to stop loving you.ā€
ā€œOscar, please donā€™t go,ā€ she begged, tears streaming down her face. ā€œWe can talk about thisā€”ā€
But Oscar had already turned away, grabbing his keys and heading for the door. ā€œIā€™m sorry, Y/N. I justā€¦ I canā€™t.ā€
With that, he left, leaving Y/N standing in the middle of the room, her heart aching with the weight of what had just happened. She sank to the floor, sobs wracking her body as she realized that the one person she needed most was the one she had pushed away.
And Oscar, driving aimlessly through the city, felt more alone than he ever had in his entire life, knowing that he had finally spoken his truth, but at what cost?
time skip
Y/N was left alone in the apartment, her mind reeling from everything Oscar had said. As the door slammed shut behind him, she crumpled to the floor, her chest tightening with an overwhelming sense of loss. The tears came in uncontrollable waves, each sob tearing through her as she gasped for breath.
How did I not see this? she thought, her mind racing. How could I be so blind?
She buried her face in her hands, the memories flooding backā€”every moment they had shared, every laugh, every hug, every time Oscar had been there for her, and she had taken it all for granted. They played like a cruel montage in her mind, the pieces finally falling into place.
Iā€™ve always loved him, she realized, the truth hitting her like a punch to the gut. But I was too scaredā€¦ too scared of losing him, of ruining everything.
She thought back to every time they had cuddled on the couch, his arms wrapped around her, making her feel safe and warm. She had always known there was something more between them, something unspoken, but she had pushed it down, terrified of what it would mean if she acknowledged it. Because if I lost Oscarā€¦ Iā€™d lose everything.
Her phone was in her hand before she even realized it, her fingers trembling as she dialed his number. Each ring felt like an eternity, the silence on the other end growing heavier with every passing second.
Voicemail.
ā€œHey, this is Oscar. I'm probably driving really fast or I'm not in the mood. Anyway Iā€™ll get back to you.ā€
The beep echoed in her ears, and she quickly hung up, her heart pounding as panic set in. She dialed again, desperately hoping he would pick up this time, that she could tell him everything she was feeling before it was too late. But once again, it went to voicemail.
ā€œOscar, please,ā€ she whispered to herself, her voice shaking as she redialed, only to be met with the same message. Each time the voicemail beeped, she hung up, feeling the hope drain out of her.
Finally, after the fifth failed attempt, she couldnā€™t hold it in any longer. The voicemail beeped, and she began to speak, her voice thick with tears.
ā€œOscar, itā€™s me. Please, please, just listen to thisā€¦ Iā€”Iā€™m so sorry,ā€ she started, her voice breaking. ā€œIā€™m sorry I didnā€™t see it, sorry I didnā€™t realize how much I was hurting you. Iā€™ve been so selfish, so blind, and I didnā€™t even notice what I was doing to you.ā€
She paused, trying to steady her breathing, but the tears kept coming. ā€œIā€¦ Iā€™m terrified, Oscar. Iā€™ve always been terrified of losing you, of messing this up, of losing the best thing in my life. And thatā€™s why I neverā€¦ I never let myself feel what I was feeling. I thought if I pretended it wasnā€™t there, we could stay the same forever.ā€
Her voice cracked as she continued, the words tumbling out in a desperate rush. ā€œBut I do love you, Oscar. I love you so much it hurts. And the thought of losing youā€¦ of you walking out of my lifeā€¦ I canā€™t bear it. I was so scared that if I admitted how I felt, everything would change, and Iā€™d lose you forever. But now I realizeā€¦ I was losing you anyway.ā€
She choked on a sob, pressing a hand to her mouth as she tried to hold herself together. ā€œPlease, Oscar, donā€™t shut me out. I know I messed up, I know I hurt you, but I need you to know that you mean everything to me. You always have. And Iā€™m so sorry I didnā€™t tell you sooner, that I didnā€™t see it until now.ā€
Y/N wiped at her tears, her voice trembling as she spoke the final words. ā€œPlease, Oscar, donā€™t walk away. I love youā€¦ I love you so much, and Iā€™m begging you to give me a chance to make this right. Pleaseā€¦ please donā€™t leave me.ā€
The message ended, the silence that followed felt deafening. Y/N let the phone slip from her hand, her body shaking with sobs as she curled up on the floor, consumed by the fear that it might be too late, that she might have lost him for good.
Please, Oscar, come back to me.
time skip
Oscar sat on a bench near the parking lot, his car parked a few meters away. The night was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of leaves in the wind. His heart felt heavy, his mind spinning with everything that had just happened. He didnā€™t know where to go, or what to do, so he just sat there, staring blankly into the distance, replaying their fight over and over again in his mind.
His phone buzzed in his pocket, breaking through his thoughts. He pulled it out, seeing Y/Nā€™s name flash on the screen with a voicemail notification. His thumb hovered over the play button for a moment, hesitant. Part of him didnā€™t want to hear what she had to say, afraid it would only hurt him more. But another part, the part that had loved her for so long, needed to know.
With a deep breath, he pressed play.
As Y/Nā€™s voice filled the air, raw with emotion and thick with tears, Oscarā€™s heart clenched. Each word she spoke was like a dagger, cutting deeper into the hurt he was already feeling, but there was something else tooā€”something that made his breath catch in his throat.
ā€œIā€¦ Iā€™m terrified, Oscar. Iā€™ve always been terrified of losing you, of messing this up, of losing the best thing in my life. And thatā€™s why I neverā€¦ I never let myself feel what I was feeling. I thought if I pretended it wasnā€™t there, we could stay the same forever.ā€
He closed his eyes, letting her words wash over him. He could hear the desperation in her voice, the regret, the love she had been too scared to admit. It mirrored everything he had felt for so long, everything he had been too afraid to say.
Tears stung at the corners of his eyes as the message continued, her confession unfolding in a way he had never imagined but had always longed for. The voicemail ended with her pleading, the words echoing in his mind, ā€œPlease, Oscar, donā€™t walk away. I love youā€¦ I love you so much, and Iā€™m begging you to give me a chance to make this right. Pleaseā€¦ please donā€™t leave me.ā€
He sat there, stunned, the silence that followed almost unbearable. He played the message again, needing to hear it one more time to believe it was real. As Y/Nā€™s voice replayed, full of vulnerability and love, something shifted inside him. The anger he had felt earlier began to melt away, replaced by a deep, aching love that had never gone away.
Just as the message ended for the second time, Oscar became aware of a presence behind him. He turned around slowly and saw Y/N standing a few feet away, her face pale and tear-streaked, her eyes wide with uncertainty. She must have found him while he was listening to the voicemail, and now she stood there, silent, waiting.
For a moment, neither of them said anything. The weight of the situation hung between them, both of them trying to process what had just happened. Finally, Oscar broke the silence, his voice soft and tentative.
ā€œYouā€¦ you really mean that?ā€ he asked, his gaze locking onto hers, searching for any sign that this was all some kind of cruel joke.
Y/N nodded, her voice trembling as she spoke. ā€œEvery word, Oscar. I mean it. Iā€™ve been so scared of ruining what we had that I didnā€™t realize I was ruining it by pushing you away. But I do love you. Iā€™ve loved you for so long, and Iā€™m so, so sorry it took me this long to realize it.ā€
Oscar stood up, taking a hesitant step toward her. ā€œI didnā€™t want to lose you either,ā€ he admitted, his voice thick with emotion. ā€œI thought if I kept my feelings to myself, we could just keep going the way we were. But it was killing me, Y/N. Watching you with Jakeā€¦ it felt like I was losing you, and I didnā€™t know how to stop it.ā€
Y/N took a shaky breath, stepping closer until they were just inches apart. ā€œYou were never going to lose me, Oscar. Youā€™re my best friend, and you always will be. Butā€¦ I want more than that. I need more than that. I love you, and I want to be with you, if youā€™ll have me.ā€
Oscarā€™s eyes softened, the pain of the past weeks slowly fading as he looked at her, really looked at her, and saw everything he had ever wanted. ā€œOf course Iā€™ll have you,ā€ he said, his voice breaking slightly. ā€œIā€™ve wanted that for so long, Y/N. I love you too, more than anything. I justā€¦ I didnā€™t think you felt the same.ā€
She smiled through her tears, reaching out to take his hand. ā€œI do, Oscar. Iā€™m sorry it took me so long to see it, to admit it. But Iā€™m here now, and Iā€™m not going anywhere. I promise.ā€
Oscar pulled her into his arms, holding her tightly as if he was afraid she might slip away if he let go. ā€œI donā€™t want to lose you,ā€ he whispered into her hair, his voice filled with relief and love.
ā€œYou wonā€™t,ā€ Y/N whispered back, burying her face in his chest. ā€œIā€™m not going anywhere, Oscar. Iā€™m right here, and Iā€™m not letting you go.ā€
They stood there in the quiet night, wrapped in each otherā€™s arms, the weight of unspoken words finally lifted. It wasnā€™t going to be easy, but they had each other, and that was all that mattered. In that moment, they both knew they had found something worth fighting for, something that had always been there, waiting for them to finally see it.
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Hi! I want to request number 17 with Jason Todd with a fem reader. Preferably nsfw and that itā€™s the reader who says it. Love your work!
šŸ„€A/n: YEA OFC!! TYSM!!! sorry this took so long, schools been kicking my ass
šŸ„€Prompt: "I wish you saw yourself the way that I see you"
šŸ„€Word Count: 2.5k
šŸ„€Cw: nsfw, teensy bit of angst in the beginning, praise kink, riding, handjob, oral (fem receiving) soft sex, fluff and smut, fem!reader
šŸ„€minors dni
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as Jason crawled through the window to your shared apartment, relief flooded his body at the fact that you were not only home, but awake. you were a night owl, and more often than not, you'd stay up and wait for him to return after a patrol. i just can't sleep without knowing your safe, you had whispered to him once.
it made Jason's heart ache that he worried you, especially on the rougher nights. tonight was definitely one of those. while it hadn't been physically brutal, his suit felt too tight, and his head was filled with panic and anxiety that only seeing you could quell. however, he didn't want to trouble you with his own fucked up issues- it was already hard for him to handle alone, and dumping it all on you only made him feel even more despicable. i'll only be making sure she's okay, he repeats to himself. its not selfish. i just need to see her.
you were in the kitchen, making yourself a late night snack- that you would hopefully get to share with Jason. at the familiar sound of his leather jacket being hung and his boots being tossed aside, you turn towards your lover. he was in the process of stripping off his gear, hands shaky and eyes clouded. he was robotic with his movements, and in all honesty, it scared you for his sake. you watched the way he harshly tugged at his skintight shirt for a few more seconds, before you approached him, keeping your movements steady.
"you okay, baby?" Jason's eyes snap towards you, freezing in the process of removing his clothing as he swallows hard.
"uh-huh, yea, tonight was just.. a lot," his voice cracks slightly, and he turns away. you reach for his face, and he flinches back, and you could swear that, if you focused hard enough, you could hear the sound of your own heart cracking into a billion tiny pieces. "i'm sorry," he whispers quietly. "i just need a minute.. i'll be in the bedroom."
"oh," you reply, swallowing dumbly. you were used to him breaking down like this, but you had been working on helping him to stop shutting you out. you got the feeling tonight was more than just a lot, and you wanted to hold him more than anything. you take a deep breath before handing him a plate of the food you had been making just moments prior. your careful not to brush his hands as you hand him the plate, and you can see that he notices the gesture with a small grimace.
"alright, but make sure to eat something before you fall asleep. i'll join you in a few minutes though, okay Jay?" Jason nods, taking the plate with shaking hands before returning to your bedroom. you sigh, storing the rest of the food for later and cleaning up just a bit before settling on returning to your room. the kitchen's cleanliness wasn't perfect, but you had more pressing matters at hand.
when you opened the door, Jason was sitting on the edge of your bed, eating quietly. he had changed into a hoodie and sweatpants that were almost baggy on his broad form, but not quite. his entire face lights up like a puppy when he sees you, hair rumpled and eyes wide.
"did you eat anything?" he asks, eyeing the lack of food in your hands. you curse, shaking your head. "i forgot to grab myself some, but i already refrigerated it. it's fine, i'll get some tomorrow." Jason's eyes narrow, and he offers some to you.
"you can have mine, i'm done."
"no, Jay, its fine-"
"i insist," he says stubbornly, and you can't help the little giggle that slips past your lips. "okay, okay." you take a spoonful in your mouth, swallowing hard and giving him a pointed look.
"happy now?"
Jason nods and cracks a half smile, the heavy look in his eyes fading just a bit. he moves the plate to the bedside table before opening his arms in a silent offer, which you gladly oblige. he buries himself in your chest as you wrap your arms around him, one hand sliding under his hoodie to rub his back while the other plays with the hair at the base of his neck.
"i missed you," he whispers, melting into your embrace.
"i missed you too, Jaybee. i love you so, so much," you don't slow your ministrations as you continue playing with his hair, even when Jason shudders below you.
"but.. why?"
"why what? why do i love you?" he nods, letting out a shaky breath, and your heart seizes for the second time tonight.
"Jay, why wouldn't i love you? you're beautiful, and so brave and strong, and you make me feel so safe. you know that, right?"
Jason lets out another breath, and his voice cracks as he speaks. "i- i just, you're so you, and i'm.. different. i came back wrong, a-and scared, and angry, like some- some fucking mutt or something. 'm just so afraid that i'll hurt you, o-or worse- someone else will," his admission is cut off by his own gasps as he struggles to keep himself from crying.
"oh, Jay, honey, i don't think any of those thinks. God, I wish you saw yourself the way that I see you. your so perfect, Jay, if only you'd let me show you." you lean down to kiss his forehead, and he nuzzles into your neck.
"i'm trying," he whispers, inhaling your scent. he wishes he could be one with you, that he could melt into your ribcage and stay intertwined with you like this forever. "i promise i'm trying. for you. for me. for us. i swear-" you cut him off by kissing him again, this time on the cheek. he blinks, lifting his head to look up at you and falling right into your trap. you kiss him again, this time with more fervor as you trace your lips over his jawline and up towards his nose, before leaning and kissing him on the lips.
"you don't have to try, Jay. i appreciate it, and i love how hard your working to improve yourself, but i never want you to feel as though you have to. i love you as you are," you whisper against his lips. "oh," he mumbles, pulling himself upwards to kiss you deeper. now balanced on his elbows, he cups your face, caging you in and kissing you even harder. you sigh into the kiss, and Jason moans softly as you subconsciously role your hips against his. you smile against his lips as his own hips grind softly against your thighs, mesmerized by the feeling of his growing hardness grinding against you.
you lay thicker on the praise, watching the effect your honey sweet words have on him.
"your so wonderful, so pretty and strong. will you let me show you just how much i love you, huh big boy?" you coo, and Jason's whole body shudders at your words. your hands travel down to his hips, sliding under his hoodie and toying with the hem.
"is this okay?" you ask, and Jason doesn't hesitate to nod. your hands travel up his atomach, running over his happy trail and you almost moan at the scratchy feeling. traveling higher, you grab one of his nipples in two fingers, rolling the nub gently and watching his eyes screw shut as his breathing picks up. your free hand tugs lightly on the hem of his hoodie.
"lets get these layers off, yea?" Jason nods, rolling to the side and laying flat on his back as you straddle him. "use your words, Jay," you tease, and Jason obliges.
"oh fuck- yea, yes,"
"yes what, honey?"
Jason sends you a slightly disgruntled glare, and you chuckle slightly. you can't help but compare him to a wet cat, all miffed and pouty.
"yes, you can take my clothes off."
"much better," you purr, and Jason huffs. his eyes never leave your face as you lift his hoodie over his head, and you admire just how broad he actually is. he's strong, body defined with muscle, but he still has a bit of tummy that makes you go absolutely feral. your eyes trail over his pecs, sliding down his stomach and vee line, finally catching sight of his thick happy trail leading down beneath his waistline. that sight alone makes you want to devour him, and you have to restrain yourself from absolutely jumping his bones lest you rush in too quickly.
"your staring.." he mumbles, and you giggle.
"your just so pretty, baby, can't help that i want to absolutely devour you." Jason rolls his eyes, but his cheeks flush all the same.
"lets get these off, yea?" you tug at his waistband, pulling down his pants and boxers, freeing his cock. he's already half hard, precum pooling at his tip. you wrap your hands around his base, using your other hand to rub your thumb over his tip. Jason's whole body jerks, and he lets out a string of curses as you slowly jerk him off.
"im not gonna last like this," he hisses, hands flying to your wrist.
"good."
"i want to cum inside you," he pleads, and you sigh, unable to resist indulging him.
"fine, baby, but i'm gonna need to prep myself first," you warn, and Jason nods fervently. "can you sit on my face?" he asks bluntly, and you chuckle.
"yea, okay," you reply, smiling to yourself as his face erupts in delight. you immediately rid yourself of your clothes, giving him a little show as you strip into nothing but your panties. looking him in the eye, you slowly tease the waistband of your underwear, slipping it down your thighs as your free hand sensually cups your cunt. ridding yourself of your undergarments, you watch Jason fight to stay still as you spread your folds.
"don't tease," he whines, and you smirk. "you know i can't help it," you reply, and Jason groans. it isn't long before your positioned over his face, drooly cunt right above him as your thighs fill the same role as earmuffs. large, rough hands find purchase on your hips, tugging your cunt downwards.
"need you t'sit, ma," Jason mumbles, licking a fat stripe between your folds. you moan softly, rolling your hips against his face. "there she is," he drawls, one hand keeping your hips steady while the other begins to draw steady circles on your clit. "that's my girl".
his pace is unrelenting as he eats you out, licking and sucking between your folds like theres no tomorrow. his thumb never leaves your pearl, stimulating your clit so perfectly until your thighs are shaking. it isn't long before you feel your orgasm approaching, and you barely have time to warn him before it washes over you.
"o-oh, Jason, 'm gonna-" you gasp, rolling your hips even harder as his nose and finger nudges your clit. he hums something you can't make out against your pussy, and in seconds the cord in your stomach tightens as pure orgasmic bliss floods over you. Jason helps you ride out your high for a few more seconds, making out with your drooling pussy and soaking up all of your release. when you pull away, you worry you may have suffocated him from how tight he's gripping your thigh. the sight of him, cheeks flushed and eyes fuzzy with your slick covering his lips will probably be the hottest thing you ever experience. you let out a soft whine at the sight, and Jason grins.
"you sure you can make it another round?" he teases, and you scoff. "can you? mister i can't last like this..." Jason flushes slightly, hips jerking as you align his aching dick with your entrance.
"you ready honey?"
"yea," he murmurs, leaning back and watching you with lust filled eyes as you begin to sink down onto his cock.
Jason lets out a needy moan as your heat begins to engulf his length. your barely passed his tip when his hips lurch, and it takes incredible self control to keep himself from giving in and pushing his fat cock into your needy cunt. you flutter around him, adjusting to his size as his eyes screw shut.
"almost there," you mumble, thighs shaking as you clench around him. Jason lets out a wanton moan, squeezing your hips as your cunt swallows his shaft. when you finally reach the base, he lets out a pathetic whine, twitching inside you when you role your hips. his cock reaches sl deel inside you, and just grinding down against him makes you see stars. you begin to roll your hips, lifting yourself up and slamming down as you set a brutal pace. Jason mewls, hips bucking as tears form in the corner of his eyes.
"y-you're so good f'me baby, so good- can feel your fat cock all the way up here-" you drag his hand towards your stomach, where the impression of his dick can be felt beneath your abdomen.
"o-oh god-" Jason moans, eyes rolling back as his head gets all fuzzy with pleasure. his moans are borderline pornographic, and he lets out the cutest little ah ah ah's as you clench around him. you can tell neither of you are going to last much longer, and you somehow manage to increase your pace even more, lifting yourself up intil only his tip is still inside and grinding back down.
"s'too much!" Jason's voice slurrs, and you let out a breathy whine.
"yea, yea i know baby, y'so good f'me, making me feel s'good- gonna cum for me big boy? gonna make me proud?" Jason lets out a sob, chest heaving as his dick twitches from deep within your cunt.
"yes, yes please- wanna be good f'you, please please please-" he's cut off by a strangled moan as he cums, eyes rolling back and thighs trembling as you feel his seed fill your cunt. the feeling of him coming inside brings you to the edge, and you clench around him as you see stars. your orgasm lasts for a blissful few seconds, in which galaxies dance across your vision as Jason continues rolling his hips until your both mewling in overstimulation.
you collapse against him, chest heaving as he wraps his arms around you. the feeling of his warm skin against your own is so pleasant, and you couldn't possibly feel any more intertwined. he doesn't move to pull out, and neither do you, letting yourself enjoy the feeling of closeness. you fight hard against exhaustion, but you know it's a losing battle as it feels as though your eyelids are magically being weighed down.
"now do you know that i love you?" you mumble, kissing his neck. Jason hums, eyelids fluttering. "yea... i do."
"i love you s'much, Jay.." you whisper, feeling sleep overcome you.
"i love you too."
this is unproofread bc im lazy... sorry šŸ˜­ i've been fighting for my life in school im SO sorry i havent been posting as much- my classes and job r kicking my ass ngl but i WILL be trying to push through more of the 2k event requests !!!
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morikittie Ā· 5 months ago
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Characters included: Suna, Kenma, Tsukishima, Oikawa, Kuroo, Ushijima, Atsumu, Bokuto
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Suna ą­Øą­§
He wouldnā€™t mind if you were the same height as him or shorter than him, but he wouldnā€™t like if you were taller than him imo. He likes to tease you so someone easy going or someone who just goes with the flow. Someone who can just sit and chill with him in silence would be perfect for him. Someone who had a bit more meat on them would also be perfect for him, i feel like he finds comfort in just laying on you.
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Kenma ą­Øą­§
I feel he would love someone extroverted but not a loud person. Someone motherly and easily lovable would be perfect for him. He would need someone to remind him to do certain things because he easily forgets. He wouldnā€™t really care about what you looked like, but he would love if you were into coloring hair. An alternative kind of person would be perfect for him.
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Tsukishima ą­Øą­§
Heā€™s 100% into nerdy girls, no doubt about that. Girls with glasses are such a turn on for him, he loves it. I feel like he wouldnā€™t care too much about height because no matter what heā€™s going to be taller than you. I feel like heā€™s also into the quiet clingy type. It just makes him feel so much better about himself. Like yea they only really talk to me.
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Oikawa ą­Øą­§
Smart popular girls that are secretly losers. Like yea you have an obsession with scps and collect everything minion themed. He would love a girl with some sas and someone willing to tell him off when heā€™s being conceited. He just wants someone who supports him and isnā€™t trying to use him. I feel with Oikawa, if he finds you pretty, he finds you pretty, he doesnā€™t have an exact look that heā€™s into.
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Kuroo ą­Øą­§
He would love someone smart, he thinks itā€™s so attractive. Heā€™s desperate for a girl with long hair. Overall someone thatā€™s similar to him, someone who knows how to have fun but serious when need be. He loves chubby girls too. He canā€™t keep his eyes to himself, 100% a leg guy too.
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Ushijima ą­Øą­§
Ushijima needs someone thatā€™s shows him how to let loose. He loves someone who can joke with him and someone he can have a real conversation with. He wouldnā€™t really care about physical attributes at all. If he likes you, he likes you. Ask him about his interest and he will get on his knees for you, he loves when someone asks him about himself.
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Atsumu ą­Øą­§
Heā€™s into chubby girls 100%. I will die on this hill, he needs a chubby girl. He just finds them so cute. I also feel he loves short girls, you canā€™t be taller than him or the same height, it would make him feel bad about himself. I feel like heā€™s into girls that have cute lil hobbies like baking, knitting or reading.
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Bokuto ą­Øą­§
Someone who can match his energy would be perfect for him. He just wants someone who just needs to have fun all the time. He would love if you were supportive of him, going to all his games and cheering for him. I also feel like he would love if you played a sport too, it doesnā€™t matter what it is, heā€™d love for you to teach him it and him teach you volleyball.
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chocum Ā· 5 months ago
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yea tattoo artist choso but .. what abt tattoo artist geto
congrats on 1k btw!
eee thank youuuu šŸ™ˆšŸ™ˆ iā€™m souuurrr happy you requested geto bc iā€™ve been wanting to write abt other characters. AND THISS got out of hand lollll ( 1.5k ) idk what came over me i just word vomited all over my phoneā€¦ & itā€™s unedited
ā€” tattooartist!geto x reader // mentions of smoking, m masterbation, fleshlight, cum eating, kinda pervy geto idk he tells reader to take her shirt off when she doesnā€™t need to so, nipple play, v in p, mentions of overstim, creampiee
suguru geto is one of the most, if not the most popular tattoo artists in your areaā€” hell, probably even farther than that. just to book an appointment, thereā€™s a waitlist not including the months and months heā€™s already booked for. so when you finally get that confirmation email after waiting for what felt like years, you physically jump up, rushing to get ready and go to the parlor
ā€œi donā€™t have anyone today under that name, sorryā€
suguru pushes a strand of silk black hair behind his pierced ears, the dragon tattoo on his hand moving as he does so almost like itā€™s taunting you.
ā€œwhat? i got an email today i just-ā€ your hand reaches into your purse slacked over your shoulder to pull out your phone and prove your appointment was today, but when you go back to check, heat spreads across your cheeks faster than ever.
the date said next month
ā€œya had the right day iā€™ll give you thatā€ and heā€™s laughing. not at you but because youā€™re cute, he thinks. pouting, growing hot from embarrassment. ā€œiā€™ll tell you what..ā€
he leans in and you can smell the smoke that lingers on his breath mixing like some sort of love potion with his musky cologne, his pierced eyebrow quirking, browned eyes staring into yours with puffy lips wet from licking, ā€œi can squeeze you in tomorrow. was supposed to have an off day but ill help a pretty girl like you out, howā€™s that sound?ā€
and youā€™ve never nodded faster. smile pulling at your glossed lips, drawing his to get trapped underneath his teeth.
ā€œhere iā€™ll give you my number, iā€™ll text you the time ā€˜n stuff laterā€
with that, you leave his parlor, your number scribbled on the back of some old receipt next to your name and a heart.
getoā€™s no better than a man. no better. he goes home that night and texts you as soon as heā€™s tucked into bed.
hey this is suguru btw.
your phone vibrates on your nightstand, and you smile at the notification. it almost felt unreal, someone who felt so unreachable, someone like geto in your phone, texting you first.
hey!
he catches himself smiling at the message too, his mind trailing back to seeing your pretty face when you walked into the parlor. the way you looked around doe-eyed like a little deer in headlights. looked innocent, and he liked that. maybe a little too much, his dick twitching against the fabric of his boxers.
he only talked to you for a few minutes. barely even held a conversation, but god did you look good. canā€™t blame him for getting like this.
what time is good for you? like i said, im supposed to be off but had no plans so any time is fine.
your thumbs dance across your keyboard as you think of what to say in response. youā€™re nervous. and if you knew he was jerking his cock, youā€™d be even more. his hand slowly .. very slowly rubbing his leaky tip, his head full, overflowing and bubbling with thoughts of you. what are you doing right now? are you in bed too? squeezing his warm balls, cupping them, teasing himself, imagining itā€™s your sweet little hands.
is 6 pm okay?
the little buzz drags him from his thoughts.
yea. see you then, pretty.
the simple little pet name makes you feel like youā€™re going to explode. so warm all over your body, and you wish you could just time travel to the next day and see him already.
geto brings the palm of his large hand to his face, lolling his tongue out to lick long stripes on it, shivering at the feeling of his own piercing before wrapping around the base of his thick cock, stroking himself only two times. this wonā€™t do.
he reached for the pocket pussy he keeps nested deep in his drawer. leaning over to let spit fall and dribble into the clear toy before rubbing it on his tip.
groaning, ā€œshiiiiitttā€ his hips bucking up as he slowly lets it sink downā€” body twitching at the feeling of all the little bumps and ridges massaging his sensitive cock.
ā€œfu- fuck juuuust like that, mhhhmā€
imagining heā€™s inside your tight little walls, squishing him like heā€™s meant for you, snug and tight like a puzzle piece.
his chest heaved with every snap of his wrist, spit sinking out and ringing out the base of his cock leaking down to his heavy balls, ā€œfeel so fucking good babyā€
so fast heā€™s already shooting into the toy, whining because itā€™s not you. wishing it was you, your warm walls probably feel so much better. probably sound so cute taking him from behind or from the front, your eyes locked onto his.
he came so much itā€™s leaking all over himself. so messy and dirty and he brings the toy up and licks it all out, shoving his tongue inside the rubbery walls to flick and clean it up.
ā€œshitā€
the next day came too slowly. to you but especially to suguru. he went to the parlor an hour earlier to open and tidy up, pulling his raven locs into a ponytail, letting a few stray strands fall and frame his face, counting each and every second.
and then he hears it. the little ding as the door opens, you push it open smiling up at him as you walk through and you look even better than he remembered. and heā€™s trying so hard to keep his composure.
he nods at you, giving you a small smile, ā€œso what did you want to get, and where?ā€
at your reply he freezes, his hands almost crumbling up the paperwork he reached for you to fill out ā€” ā€œmy chestā€
ā€œyour chest?ā€
he parrots you. then he repeats it in his head a few more times. picturing you pull your little top up.
he can tell youā€™re not wearing a bra with how your nipples perk up and poke through the flimsy, almost see-through fabric.
you nod your head, mhm sounding and bubbling past your lips.
god, youā€™re going to be the death of him.
after you finish with all the paperwork, he pulls you into the back making small talk asking about your day. and you indulge, asking back, finding comfort in the normality of your conversation. heā€™s different from what people painted him out to be and you felt relaxed in his presence.
even more when he offers you a seat, cleaning it off before slipping on some black gloves. his hands almost bulge out, his knuckles poking through the latex.
ā€œcan i see the design?ā€
you pull up the picture on your phone and he hums, ā€œand you said your chest, right?ā€
again he repeats it, almost as if itā€™s a mantra heā€™s using to calm his nerves. calm his dick.
you just nod, ā€œdo i need to take my shirt off?ā€
and well no you donā€™t, not yet at least, but he says yes, reaching forward to do it for you because heā€™s just so sweet, right? so nice and caring, and welcoming.
and he only wraps his lips around your tits to soothe you, right? sucking, letting his teeth sink into the buds, the silver ball tracing over them. his other glove-clad hand cupping them.
sinks his cock into you just cause he wants to take care of you, right? he could tell you wanted it soo bad. your thighs pressing together so tightly when he pressed his lips against your chest with a soft, ā€œsuguru pleaseā€
ā€œmhm let me take care of you, pretty girl, spread em, hold yourself open fā€™meā€” uh huh, juuust like that.ā€
your little arms shake and tremble, hooking around the back of your knees as he pushes into your tight cunt. and fuck, he was right. feels so much better than his toy.
ā€œfuuuckk found your spot, baby, ā€˜s right there? yeah feel good right there?ā€ he rolls his hips up, brushing against that spot, his thick tip kissing it, making your body twitch.
ā€œyesā€” fuck yes feels so goodā€
right about you sounding so fucking good tooā€” his cock twitching inside the solitude of your pretty slimy walls. shivering at how you suck and milk him so well, so tight and warm. so fucking warm. feels so good heā€™s already close, but he wants to keep making you feel good, keep hearing you, and if he was to fuck his cum into you, overstimulating his needy cock to do that, then so be it.
ā€œinsideā€ you whine out at how he twitches, his stokes sputtering and faltering as he languidly pushing into your sopping pussy, leaking all over him, so wet.
ā€œohh ā€” fuck ohfuckā€ and it pushes him over the edge, bottoming out to overfill you, make you nice and creamy ā€˜cause you deserve it. deserve it for being so good, making him feel so good.
letting his head fall onto your shoulder sweat sprinkling his forehead as he empties himself for you. for your pretty pussy, all for you.
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moonknightsonata Ā· 1 year ago
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Acts of Service
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pairing: moon system x reader, marc x reader centered
summary: You learn Steven and Jakeā€™s love languages quickly, Marcā€™s takes a little longer to realize but it doesnā€™t surprise you.
cw: not many, a brief non-explicit mention of sex, Marc getting anxious about your relationship
wc: 1199
a/n: Happy new year! This is not beta read, my first time writing for the moon boys and also my first time posting and sharing a fic in probably like 5+ years. Please let me know if Iā€™ve missed any warnings, and let me know what you think! I tried keeping the reader as inclusive as I could, but please let me know if I slipped up with anything.
ā€”
When you first started seeing the system, they all showed affection in similar ways. Holding hands, chaste kisses, flowers at the start of dates and walking you home at the end of them. They each had their own ways of going about it, but at the start all 3 of them were stereotypical in their affection.
Now, months later, you could easily tell each of the boyā€™s love languages.
Steven fluttered between quality time and words of affirmation. He was a romantic at heart, so in reality, he would do anything you asked of him, really. But you could tell he was happiest just being near you, telling you how much he loved you, and hearing the words in return.
Date night with Steven would be art galleries, museum tours, site seeing, or just walking around the markets hand in hand. Cafeā€™s and bookshops for rainy days, which there were plenty of in London, filled weekends with him where you could just sit in each otherā€™s company and read besides one another.
Jake was the master of physical touch. You think itā€™s because he didnā€™t have as much time fronting as the other two, and his only physical touch with humans up until the three started getting along was when he took over the body in emergencies like in Cairo. When Jake was fronting, his hands were always on you.
Jake always had his arm on you when in public. Around your shoulder, or on your waist, he didnā€™t have a preference as long as he had you in his arm in some way. You liked to compare him to a livestock dog. Not like sheepdogs who herded them, but like a pyrenees that would fight a wolf off a lamb.
He was also the most handsy in the bedroom.
Marc took the longest to pinpoint his love language. Mostly due to the fact that he was the last to open up to a relationship with you.
You had met Steven first, dated Steven first, and then met Jake and Marc along the way. The relationship with Jake blossomed easily, but Marc still had walls he had built standing steady, that he wasnā€™t ready to break down yet. For a while even, you werenā€™t sure he liked you. After anxieties about it were aired out, Marc reassured you he did like you, he was ā€œjust shit at showing itā€ as he had put it. He hadnā€™t wanted to get close, mess things up with you and risk everything Steven and Jake had with you. That was the turning point for you and Marcā€™s relationship.
You thought it was behind you, until you noticed Marcā€™s odd behavior one day.
ā€œMarc, baby, are you alright?ā€ You asked him, leaning against the kitchen counter as he washed dishes.
ā€œHm?ā€ He glanced at you from the corner of his eye, nodding as he kept his attention mostly on the pan he was scrubbing. ā€œYea, fine, whyā€™d you ask?ā€
ā€œBecause youā€™ve been scrubbing that pan for about 10 minutes now. I think itā€™s clean.ā€ You smiled softly, as his brow scrunched when he realized.
ā€œFineā€¦ yeah. I justā€¦ you know I love you?ā€ He finished his sentence more like a question.
ā€œOf course I know. I love you too.ā€ You moved closer to him, putting a hand on his cheek to look him in the eyes. ā€œWhat brought this about?ā€
ā€œI donā€™tā€¦ I donā€™t say it enough. When we met you werenā€™t even sure I liked you, and now I donā€™t even say I love you as often as Jake or Steven do. So I justā€¦ā€ Marc lets out a frustrated sigh, running a hand to his hair, pushing his curls out of his face as he steps away from you. You give him his space, you know when he needs it. To work out emotions without feeling suffocated or closed in.
ā€œJust thought maybe you werenā€™t sure again.ā€
Marc avoids looking directly at your face as you look at his. You understand him, more than you probably know, which scares Marc. Not in a bad way, but scares him in a way he canā€™t believe there was someone out there who could.
Which is why what you say shouldnā€™t surprise him, but it does anyway.
ā€œYou donā€™t have to say it in the same way Steven or Jake do for me to know.ā€ You start softly. ā€œYou have a different way of showing it, than they do.ā€
Marcā€™s eyebrows furrow, even more than the wrinkled brow he usually has.
He can only describe the look on your face that you give him as adoring, as you continue.
ā€œThe days that you front, youā€™re always up before me. Whether youā€™re an early riser or you never really fell asleep that night - you know exactly how to make my coffee in the morning and I always wake up to a cup made the way I like sitting on the counter waiting for me.
ā€œI also know that it isnā€™t Jake who had my carā€™s oil changed, or the tires rotated a couple weeks ago.ā€
Marc shrugs at that one, mumbles something that you think is ā€œThatā€™s not a big deal.ā€
As you tell him all this, you canā€™t believe it took you this long to realize that Marcā€™s love language was acts of service. Because of course it was. Marc, the giver. Marc, who always felt he needed to prove his worth and make up for sins of his past, by any means necessary. Your Marc, who did so much for you without expecting a ā€˜thank youā€™ because that was how he showed he cared.
You kept going with more examples.
ā€œLast week I forgot my umbrella and my lunch in the apartment and you came all the way to my job to drop them off for me.ā€ You wrap your arms around Marcā€™s waist at this, resting your head against him in a hug.
ā€œOr, when itā€™s cold, you always turn my heated blanket on the bed while Iā€™m doing my night time routine, so that the bed is nice and warm by the time I climb in. And when -ā€œ You could keep going, listing the things you notice Marc does for you, but he stops you with flushed cheeks.
ā€œOkay, okay, I get it. I do a lot for you.ā€ He chuckles, rolling his eyes playfully as he wraps his arms around you to return the hug. ā€œI like taking care of you.ā€
ā€œYou take care of me because you love me.ā€
Marc nods, kissing your forehead. ā€œYeah, I do. Iā€™m just sorry I donā€™t say it more.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t need you to. Itā€™s nice to hear, but I still know it. You show me every day.ā€ You smile, leaning in to give him a kiss, which Marc gratefully returns.
ā€œAnd Iā€™ll continue to show you every day, until you get tired of me.ā€
ā€œIā€™d never get tired of you, baby. You, Jake and Steven are all stuck with me.ā€
Marc laughs. ā€œStuck with you? Making it sound like thatā€™s a bad thing. Honey, I think youā€™re the one ā€˜stuckā€™ with the three of us.ā€
ā€œAnd I wouldnā€™t have it any other way.ā€
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Hey!
So I have an idea for Sebs.. what if you did (assuming you do small fics or Headcannons) Sebs feeling really down for whatever reason (could be because of his past n how he got experimented on and stuff) and he could be having nightmares or stuff and g/n reader tries to comfort him??
Sebastian getting comforted headcanons
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Sebastian's jumpy and outbursting behavior doesn't go uncomforted!
ā€” Spooky Urbanshade nightmaresšŸ˜±šŸ˜± Also don't worry, I LOVE doing headcanonsšŸ˜›
Warnings: Nightmares; Outbursts; 'Bad' wordsā˜¹ļø; Sebastian knows Reader, they are very acquainted with each other; Very big trust between Reader and Sebastian, like A LOT; This is like a mix of headcanons and a fic; Crying; Headcanons for Z-13 and Sebastian
Visiting Sebastian once again, you get greeted with silence. You stood up dusting off your knees.
ā€œUhh, you goodā€?
He snaps out of his thoughts, unnoticeably flinching. To other people it would be hard to notice, but you did. Your eyebrows rose at that.
Ā ā€œUhm yesā€” My name is Sebastianā€.
ā€œ... Yea I knowā€.
Sebastian realizes that it was you! Not some other prisoner. Oops.
ā€œO-Oh! Itā€™s youā€...
ā€œMhmā€.
That encounter kind of put you on the edge. Being more aware of Sebastian, especially how heā€™s feeling. He was very jumpy. At times seeming even pissed that you came to see him.
Before the negative behavior, he cracked jokes every time he knew you were there. Sometimes even sending over flirty(sounding) comments.
He seems out of it.
The more times he visited, the more hints he gave you that something was going on. His stutters, him grabbing his clothing or hair, staring off into oblivion.
Maybe you should talk to him. Or get him to open up. Does he even trust you that much?
Talk to him.
TALK to him.
TALK TO HIM.
ā€œHey Sebastianā€?
Again, snapping out of his daze, he sweeps away a part of his side bangs. His two upper hands cupping each other, sweating? His other hand gripped the bottom of his jacket.
ā€œUhā€” Yesā€..?
.
.
.
ā€œAre you okayā€?
Sebastianā€™s right claw grips his left claw even harder. His right claw scratched the backside of his left, leaving beads of blood to slowly appear.
His body stiffs, biting his inner lip. Eyes widening. A light shiver.
Silence.
A scowl grows on his face, looking away from you.
ā€œYes Iā€™m just fineā€.
He looks down, noticing his bleeding left claw.
He blinks rapidly, physically taken aback by what heā€™d done to his hand. He coughs into his arm from shock. He didnā€™t even notice.
ā€¦ Do you really affect him that much?
Heā€™s used to feel hurt, pain. Not comfort.
He hasnā€™t felt that in a long time. Comfort. From a human.
Looking back at his hand, he shakes. Shaky gasps, a shaking body, and shocking thoughts.
Donā€™t shake. Not in front of a human.
Donā€™tā€”
Donā€™t do that.
Donā€™t say it.
ā€œActually Iā€™mā€”ā€ Sigh
ā€¦
ā€œIā€™m not okayā€.
Z-13
Heā€™s very surprised and somewhat disappointed in himself that he could trust a human this much
It takes 5 minutes of sitting in silence for him to open up
Just a testā€¦ Yes just a test to see if youā€™ll stay
That you wonā€™t leave.
ā€¦
When he starts to speak, it comes out shaky, as if he wants to cry, youā€™ll have to get him to REALLY open up if you want that
Itā€™s hard to express your feelings, especially when youā€™re so traumatized
He wouldnā€™t initiate physical affection first, youā€™d have to
He doesnā€™t want to seem weak
Right?
Opening up, he talks about these nightmares, remembering the feeling of those experiments
The shots, not of anesthesia, of DNA.
He needed to be awake during it all.
Heā€™s surprised he was even alive after.
The painful days of morphing, the extra eye, his bulb, it all hurt.
Okay okay Iā€™ll try to tone it down.
Instead of crying(In front of you) he throws his head into his hands, his third arm resting on the connected piece of his tail and his torso
You can hear his little gasps, and eventually gently hold his claws, slowly separating them from his face
Heā€™s still looking down
You look down too, seeing his tears laying on his scales.
Looking back at him, you reassureā€”
ā€œYou can cry in front of me Sebastian, itā€™s okayā€.
Placing his claws on his tail, you open up your arms.
ā€œYou want a hugā€?
He looks back up at you letting out a lightly audible gasp, quickly pulling you into a hug, his claws nearly the size of your torso
ā€˜Oh wowā€™.
He crosses claws over, so his arms are right up against your back. With his head laying on your shoulder.
He didnā€™t even know he could cry anymore.
Or sweat.
ā€¦ Maybe heā€™s still a human?
You hug him back of course, your arms going under his top ones, rubbing his back.
He wraps his tail around the both of you, pulling you closer, letting you feel his cold breath.
After a few minutes you slowly sit down, because of his weight and having to stand up.
Sebastian slowly lets go, catching you off guard.
ā€œOh you donā€™t have to let go! We canā€”ā€
ā€œNo itā€™s fine, I actually just donā€™t want a hug anymoreā€.
ā€œOhā€
ā€œAnd my back hurts so yeahā€.
He continues to talk about the pain, trauma, with his hands rubbing against each other
His palms are sweaty, somehow
You notice the blood on the back of his hand, and act out while listening. You take a medkit you bought while nodding, saying that youā€™re hearing his words.
He pauses.
ā€œYouā€” Youā€™re gonnaā€”ā€
ā€œHeal you? Yeah, Iā€™m still listening thoughā€.
He continues to speak, really hoping that youā€™re actually listening
By the end of ā€˜spilling out his feelingsā€™, his hand is bandaged, twinning with his third arm
A weight is off his back and he feels relieved
He really appreciates your comforting words, even the ones that werenā€™t comfort and showing that you were listening
He thinks itā€™s a miracle that he couldā€™ve ever met a human like you
Youā€™re special in his eyes
He might tear up again, not full on cry, but just dripping tears down his face
Youā€™ll probably both end up sleeping on top of each other, somehow your gear not detonating, maybe itā€™s because of that scrambler on his back
Sebastian Solace
You wake up in the middle of the night, seeing Sebastian right across you.
Heā€™s sweating, a lot.
You raise an eyebrow, wondering how heā€™s so sweaty.
Sebastian wakes up abruptly from your light tap, using his arms to pick himself up, scaring the hell out of you.
ā€œAHā€!
You flinch, really hard. Itā€™s silent until you break it.
ā€œYou good?ā€ You laugh
After realizing that nothing is going on, he lets his face fall back into his pillow while his arms go limp.
ā€œYeah,ā€ He groans
ā€¦
ā€œNo, not reallyā€.
You manage to soften him up a bit, to where heā€™s sitting in your lap, taller or not heā€™s still sitting there(He's 5'10)
He rests his head on top of yours, sighing
ā€œYou wanna talk nowā€?
ā€œ... Yeahā€.
He speaks his mind, talking about having these dreams of being experimented on
But in very vague detail, as if this has happened
Or going to happen.
ā€œAnd it scares me.. W- What if it actually happensā€?!
ā€œIf you got framed for murder then I would become your own personal lawyerā€.
ā€œIā€™M SERIOUSā€!
ā€œSo am I. If it happens I will search for you until the end of time, Solaceā€.
He looks at you, backing up from you, adjusting himself so he could directly look at you
How did he get so lucky
He hugs you as you lightly rock him side to side
ā€œ... Iā€™m not a baby yā€™knowā€.
ā€œYea but I would think youā€™d want to be babied, Sebastianā€.
You felt him get physically hotter from that
After a good 5-10 minutes of rocking, you hear small snores, saying that heā€™s asleep
You also feel small wet spots on your shoulder, damn, this really affected him huh?
You both laid back down, moving onto your sides as he cuddles up into your chest
Heā€™s never really done this before
On nights like this he feels pretty vulnerable, and would really appreciate being the small spoon
But will NOT tell anybody
Not like he could
Small circles being rubbed on his back, sweet words, a few kisses and you got him wrapped around your finger
He likes to listen to your heartbeat, it shows that youā€™re alive, and a person
He can be really soft
ONLY at home
Now his nightmares are like losing you or something
A nice shower the morning after would be nice
Iā€™d like to think that Sebastian isnā€™t really š“Æš“»š“®š“Ŗš““š”‚, so heā€™s pretty chill and just hugging you from behind, his head on your shoulder
Of course, his lower half having some space from your bottom
ā€œYou want me to wash you tooā€? You joke
ā€œ... That wouldnā€™t be that bad actually." He 'jokes'.
He probably enjoys bath bombs, but doesnā€™t want to get in them
It might dye his weiner or something
Heā€™d want to stay in bed the whole morning
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By the way, Sebastian canonly has this big scar across his face, over his nose, just wanted to tell you
I hope I didn't make him seem like an uwu boi that needs protectionā˜¹ļø
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