#yaz is confused but supportive

[rupphiremoyo]

Yaz: Sammy? What's wrong?

Sammy, taking a long sip from her Capri Sun: When I mooed at Bessie she didn't moo back.

[woodywood101blog]

Experimental: Delivery, Part 2

They were able to move Yazan into the car and urgently drive across to the Royal Prince Alfred Hospital. Anna urgently dialled one of the other research assistants to arrange a private delivery room for Yazan to pick him up from one of the private entrances. The assistant managed to secure the room by declaring it a research facility, meaning the only authorised individuals in the room were Mike, Anna, the other research assistants, plus Randy and Yazan.

On the way, Yazan groaned more aggressively as the contractions became stronger. “Ahh, I honestly don’t know how much longer I can do this!”

“Yaz, we’re almost at the hospital. Once we’re in, we’ll see how far along you are and see if we can do a c-section, okay?”

“I -”

“I know, it’s not exactly our birth plan, but these kids are going to make a lot more calls over your life in the future, okay? Better start getting used to that.”

Yazan mumbled, before moaning when another wave of contractions kicked in.

As they were checking into the hospital, Yazan was speedily put into a wheelchair and strolled into the room, pulled out of his shorts and bra and into an open hospital gown. He felt comfortable holding one of the hospital bed rails and standing upright.

“Okay, Yazan, can I take a look and see how far along you are in labour?” Mike asked.

“No.”

“Yazan, now is not the time -”

“I said no. You are not going anywhere near me.”

Mike groaned and raised his hands in frustration. “Yazan, your babies don’t have time for this! You are in a really serious situation here. We need to see what is happening so that we can work out how to help you and the babies stay alive. Now, can I take a look?”

Yazan looked towards Anna. Anna meekly smiled to try and give support to let Mike take the lead. “No, let Anna.”

Anna looked across at Mike in confusion. She’s a medical student, she shouldn’t step on her research director’s toes. “Alright, fine. Anna, step up and inspect Yazan’s anal cavity for me, please.”

Anna’s eyes bulged as she looked back towards Randy, who had just walked into the room. He sensed there were issues when Mike stepped back and was walking around the room in frustration.

Just as Anna was about to inspect, another contraction hit Yazan, which felt much stronger than before. Everyone witnessed Yazan’s belly tighten as he moaned out in pain and frustration, “Ahhh, get them out of me!!”

Anna slowly moved two of her fingers into Yazan’s ass, and could sense the contraction easing. She noticed his ass felt loose. As she moved her hand further, she quietly gasped.

“I can feel Baby A’s head. I think we should try and get Yazan to squat to help speed the delivery of Baby A. If we can do that, we could then still consider a c-section for the remaining three babies.”

“Good call, Anna.” Mike smiled. He looked towards Yazan, who looked more exhausted than ever. “Right, Yazan, we’d like to have you squat so we can get your first baby delivered. Can you do that, or do you want help?”

“I want you to fuck off out of here, that’s what I want!” Yazan screamed.

Randy stepped up from behind and rubbed Yazan’s shoulders. “Yazan, Mike is really trying to help here. Please… I know it’s not a comfortable experience at the moment, but we’re all here to make sure you and the babies are safe. Okay?”

Yazan quietly sighed. Yes, this is a pretty shit experience. Four babies hanging on for dear life, stuck behind a ‘loose’ asshole which shouldn’t even be giving birth to babies in the first place. But Mike, for better or worse, was the doctor who got him in this mess, and he was going to be the doctor to get him out of this mess.

“Fine. I’ll squat.”

“Thank you, Yazan. I really am sorry for putting you through this.” Mike quietly replied as he walked towards Yazan, held his waist and helped him squat on the floor. Yazan held a deep moan as he felt the further discomfort of the babies shifting and kicking around.

Almost immediately, a new contraction hit and Yazan felt Baby A move even closer towards delivery. Anna guided him through the breathing, while Randy wiped the sweat and rubbed his back when the contractions were stronger. Mike stepped back and let Anna take the lead.

“Okay Yazan, Baby A is crowning. I think a really strong man like you could do this in two really powerful pushes. Ready, let’s go! And push!!!”

Yazan screamed as he felt a new contraction rip through him. He gave all his might as he pushed the baby. Yazan held Randy’s hand extremely tightly, to the point where Randy was worried he might break it.

“The head is out! Well done, Yazan! We’ll just let the shoulders move around and at the next contraction, we’ll get to meet Baby A, alright? Ready, and push!!!”

Yazan screamed even louder as he felt the shoulders shift around, and almost immediately felt the body start to slide out into Anna’s hand. Yazan cried out as he heard the first baby cry. He also looked briefly down at his breasts and saw more colostrum than ever before start spilling from his nipples.

“Your baby girl is here, Yazan!” Yazan and Randy started crying as they heard the baby cry. Mike grabbed the baby and took it to a nearby crib to clean the baby. He returned and brought the baby to Yazan, who had slowly moved to an upright position.

“Hey there, little one!” Yazan whispered as he kissed the baby girl. However, the joy was short-lived as Yazan almost instantly felt a new contraction rip through his body and crouched back down to the squatting position. “Ohh, fuck!”

Anna quickly stepped up and looked at Yazan’s butt. “Hey Mike, I think we might need to put a pause on the c-section. I can see Baby B’s head.”

Yazan groaned in more pain as he realised he had no choice but to deliver all of his babies naturally at the rate he was going. These babies really are calling the shots.

With each building contraction, each of the three sons moved closer to being born. About 5 minutes following Baby A’s birth, Baby B was born. 8 minutes later, Baby C was born.

“Alright, Yazan, I can see Baby D’s head now. You’ve done such an amazing job today. We’re in the home stretch now! You’ve got two more big pushes to do and then you can relax.”

Randy was worried Yazan was slipping in and out of consciousness with the extreme pressure and pain his body was experiencing. He tried to dab some icy cold water on Yazan’s forehead to keep him alert, plus the contractions were also helping him stay alert. Yazan deeply moaned then screamed at the peaks of the contractions.

Yazan could feel another extremely painful contraction come on, and could sense this was the last one he could do at full power. As such, he screamed so loudly Randy needed to move his head back to avoid hearing damage, and pushed as much as he could.

Anna was shocked at how much power Yazan was using to push Baby D out. While the ass was loose, he could still conserve some energy. However, Yazan wanted this to be done, so he kept pushing to the extent of the contraction and birthed the baby’s head and shoulders. Anna took the hint and tried to see if she could grab the baby’s shoulders and pull him out.

“Yazan, you might feel some discomfort, but I’ll see if I can pull Baby D out for you, okay?” Yazan nodded while trying to catch his breath. Randy could see Yazan’s eyes glaze over. He might actually pass out, he thought.

Anna was able to use a set of forceps to latch onto Baby D’s shoulders and slowly pull him out of Yazan’s ass. “And, here we go! Baby D is born! Well done, Yazan!” They waited a couple of seconds before seeing Baby D squirm then cry loudly.

Yazan smiled briefly as he saw Baby D being carried away by Mike. Almost instantly, Yazan collapsed into Randy’s arms.

“Yazan? Yazan! Yazan, can you hear me?” Randy screamed desperately as Anna and Mike ran across to see what happened. The team leapt into action as they helped Randy lift Yazan onto the table, and pulled Yazan’s gown off him.

“He’s unconscious. We need to check his vitals.” Anna and Mike strapped a new heart monitor onto his finger. “Low blood pressure. Is he bleeding?”

Anna checked around Yazan’s body. “No, I can’t see any external bleeding. Has he birthed the placenta?”

“Shit, no he hasn’t. We need to get the placenta out and check for uterine rupture.”

Anna turned around and saw Randy distraught. She turned to one of the other assistants. “Hey, I think we might need to take Randy outside.”

An assistant moved across to Randy and quietly led him outside and shut the door. As soon as the door shut, Randy burst into tears and dropped to the floor. One of the midwives on the floor ran across to help him and move him towards one of their family rooms.

“Hey there, it’s going to be alright, sir. She is going to get the best care from the doctors here. Let me get you a cup of tea and somewhere to sit.”

Randy struggled to process what was happening. There are four perfectly healthy babies, but the love of his life - a man - is fighting for his life.

[msp9]

ONE-SHOT

I can't keep waiting for the trailer.

To be clear I have not seen the ep. or anything, This is simply my idea of what could happen based on the info we got from comic con and people who saw the first episode and reviewed it. So keep in mind this contains slight spoilers.

+ some hints of Benrius that i added.

If you want to avoid spoiler do not read this.

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“it's been days. We don’t even know where we’re going.” Yaz said frustrated.

“Wherever were going it can’t be too far away now.” Darius said trying to bring some sense into everyone.

Sammy, who sat on the on the bed they had assembled from debris, joined the conversation,

“Darius, I know you’re probably right this time… But you have been saying that for days now.”

“I know but we can do this, we’ll just… Kenji I think it’s your turn to bring some food in.” He noted, changing the topic.

“If by ‘food’ you mean lettuce the herbivores eat then sure.” Yaz sarcastically pointed out.

“I don’t find it that bad.” Ben answered, trying to support Darius. Yaz wasn’t impressed, she crossed her arms “no one believed that dude.”

Sammy interrupted “It reminds me of the salads me and my siblings… used to prepare.” her face dropped.

Meanwhile, Darius took a glance towards Kenji’s direction; he sat on wooden box they had stolen from another container nearby, staring down on the floor.

The mood started getting tense as they kept arguing behind Darius.

“Guys, Kenji will just find some food then we’ll figure something out, Right Kenji?” Darius said.

“Kenji? You there?” Ben asks.

Kenji abruptly stood up “What- Yes!” He quickly responded.

Everyone stared at him in confusion.

“Okay…” Ben muttered.

“Alright.. and whilst you’re at it me and Ben can go fill our water bottles.” Darius suggested, giving Ben a soft glance, as if to say ‘right Ben?’.

He received a warm smile in return.

“Okay! So, I’ll go do that… now.” Kenji awkwardly said already backing out of the container.

“Wait!- Maybe bring Yaz with you?” Darius said in a loud-but-not-too-loud-voice in hope Kenji would hear him. But to no avail, he was too far gone.

On the contrary, Yasmina had clearly heard Darius idea and was giving him a not so welcoming stare, she wasn’t a fan of the idea. After all these events, she didn’t want to leave Sammy’s side.

“Safety in numbers” Darius smiled awkwardly raising both his hands to shoulder level, palms facing outward.

Sammy nudged her girlfriend on the arm, Yaz looked at her, then back at Darius again.

“Fine, I’ll go.”

“Great, Sammy you can keep an eye out for guards.”

The cowgirl nodded in response.

“Okay, let’s go” Ben said putting a hand on Darius back.

“Be careful,” Sammy said to her girlfriend.

“I would be more concerned about the others.” Yaz joked.

“Yes I will.” she added.

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As Yaz made her way around the containers avoiding getting caught, she finally spotted Kenji on the left side of the ship,

He was picking up some lettuce from an herbivore’s container.

Before she ran towards him, she checked both sides in case any security member was around, then looked back at Kenji, and stopped herself.

He stood at the edge of the ship. With the lettuce in his hand. Staring down at the water. Then in a swift motion threw all the greens in the water.

Wtf

“Kenji what are you doing?” She asked in a low voice, while running towards him.

Kenji seemed more shocked than relieved that she was there.

“Why are you following me?” he whispered, a tone of anger in his voice.

“I wasn’t, Darius asked me to help you out- And why did you throw our food in the ocean anyways?” Yaz asked upset.

Kenji rubbed his head.

“I was just… Feeding the fish.”

Yaz eyelids fell halfway.

“Really dude, feeding the fish?” she mocked.

Kenjis expression changed.

“Yeah, what if I was? Do they not deserve that?” he said sharply.

“And what were you planning on saying to the others, when you returned emptyhanded?” Yaz questioned.

“I don’t understand what your problem is. I’m fine.” He declared walking away.

Normally Yaz would have gotten angry, but this time she felt concerned for some reason.

His whole behavior was weird.

Now that she thought about it, he had been acting weird this whole time on the ship.

On her way back Yaz picked up some more food. She was in a hurry thought beacuse her mind was still stuck on those last words Kenji had said.

She may not be certified yet but she knew a thing or two about body language and way of speech.

He was obviously not fine. Kenji was hiding smth.

Yaz finally got back to their temporary shelter and from what she saw; Ben and Darius had already returned from their mission.

They and Sammy were sitting around the box Kenji was using as a chair earlier.

They were playing the ‘Guess the dinosaur’ game, That Darius came up with for entertaining reasons.

And like always, Darius was winning.

Yaz enjoyed seeing them laugh and chuckle with every unrealistic answer either Ben or Sammy gave.

But soon her mind went on Kenji again, she wanted to find him and possibly figure out what’s bothering him.

“Hey, has Kenji returned yet?” she asked looking around the container.

“No, wasn’t he with you?” Darius asked, confused.

“We kind of… got separated”

“Separated?” Ben asked.

“Yeah.. Have you not seen him?”

“No, Is he okay?” Sammy asked worried.

“It’s okay nevermind, he’s probably just late.” Yaz said, trying to avoid further questions.

“Anyways, I brought food.”

“Good, I’m so starving.” Sammy said, Yaz smiled and handed over the lettuce in her hand.

"I think i left some more outiside" Yaz noted.

"Me and Ben saw some pretty datk clouds in the distance." Darius noted.

“I'll be quick, be back soon.” Yaz added going back ouside to find Kenji.

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Hope you enjoyed that :)

Ik it was a bit rushed but oh well. I needed to do smthing instead of waiting around for the trailer so i wrote this at 3am.

(If you watched the spoiler ep. review than you probably know what Kenjis up to hehe🥪)

[little-alien-duck]

I wish harry sullivan were still around in dw media like hanging out with the companion support group or whatever bc genuinely there would be no one funnier to see interacting with new companions. he would be condescendingly concerned about everybody's well-being despite the number of times sarah jane threatened to break his nose for that behavior 40 years and two knee replacements ago. he's going "well that seems a little far fetched doesn't it old boy" when someone else recounts some tale involving an alien and some else from unit has to go "weren't you once impersonated by some aliens during the same incident where you met the Loch Ness fucking monster????" and he yet still only half-believes aliens are real. every day he asks yaz some question like "sorry old girl, but how many genders are there again?" and then gives a very confused "jolly good" when she patiently explains bc he's way more than a little confused but he's got the spirit

[all-the-fun-of-the-cirkus]

okay, i didn't like the star beast, but thank fuck it was a one-off, i really liked wild blue yonder

cons: it still looks bad. the cgi's cheesy and obvious, which i don't mind too much, but what i do mind is the editing. it wasn't quite legend of the sea devils bad, but it was awkward, frenetic and difficult to follow, just like last week. which kind of worked for the first duplicates scene, given it was supposed to be confusing, but enh.

in all honesty, the episode i kept coming back to was smile, which also does the "just let the main two wander alone for half the ep" thing. both sort of move more on strength of personality and vibe more than anything else, although i'd say this had more interesting vibes than smile. but in both cases, that chemistry is doing some extremely heavy lifting, and i imagine i'd find this much less interesting with, idk, 6 and peri, or 13 and yaz, or something

music was less irritating (like the synths, loved the bit where the music drops out as he presses on the glass but they didn't time it quite right) but still ott

it feels like the star beast was the "mission statement" episode and this was the "just make a good episode" one, which is okay, i liked this more, as i said, but it means that this felt a bit shallower. like it didn't really have much to say. which again, isn't a dealbreaker, but it means it's never gonna be an all-timer

pros: whew. scary! funny! mysterious! compelling! the atmosphere at the start in particular, before they showed up was exquisite. loved the imagery of a battered robot slowly walking down an empty hallway forever, very ominous, although nothing else quite lived up to that.

fucking hell it's so nice to have two main characters who actually like each other again. who understand and respect each other. it's lovely to see the doctor and donna bantering, joking, arguing, supporting each other, i've missed that so much.

not said much about the plot, bc it was just kinda nice. spooky, barely explained cosmic horror is my jam so i basically couldn't dislike it lmao

also, keeping up the "casually questioning pronouns" thing and making the doc explicitly gay is cool too. i prefer my ace headcanon, as always, but i appreciate rtd's confrontantional stance on this stuff

also also, as much as i disliked chibnall's run i do appreciate the "yes, and" approach rather than just ignoring it. i doubt it'll be too intricately woven but it's nice that he's considering and incorporating elements from both his predecessors

but yeah. enjoyed very much. good show

[riverstardis]

series 32 episode 37:

alicia :(

oh isn't that the actress who played young yaz's grandma in doctor who?

lmaooo bea and rash trying to use the coffee machine i miss them sjdjsfjfd

leigh-anne🙄 apparently they're taking kiegan off the oxygen today and ethan said he'd be there but the eds really busy because there's been a coach crash so he says he's sure she'll be fine without him and mr barling knows what he's doing but she insists

alicia volunteering to go out to the crash to get away from eddie :(

connie's mad that she went without permission and ethan says he and bea will help with the backlog but then immediately leaves bea when he gets a text from leigh-anne. what are you doing man😭😭

oh no leigh-anne runs over to ethan and hugs him when he gets to paeds and he's uncomfortable and mr barling's starting at them😭😭😭 then when jonathan's gone she says they shouldn't have to skulk around in the shadows and she wants to tell people now that kiegan's no longer a patient... which is an interesting thing to say when they're standing next to his hospital bed... ethan says they need to be careful and he just seems annoyed tbh i think forgiving alicia snapped him out of whatever he thought he felt for leigh-anne lmao

oop ethan goes to speak to mr barling, presumably to try and convince him there was nothing inappropriate going on but it's too late lmao mr barling has clearly already figured it out and warns him that there are boundaries they don't cross and ethan's like "yeah, i admit, she has come to rely on my support more than i would've liked" which i think is probably true tbh, though obviously missing out a HUGE chunk of the whole story, bc she has become weirdly distrustful of every other doctor and will only trust him, and yeah he got way too involved with helping her with kiegan to appease his guilt about scott, but he never tried to isolate her or anything so i do believe he didn't want her to end up like this. mr barling's just like "i've seen too many careers cut short because of a doctor who has confused the personal and the professional. i hope you aren't about to add to that number." so true make him see sense. go onnn ethan break up with her i know you want to!

wall collapses on the coach with alicia, iain, sam, and their patient still inside :/

leigh-anne's sitting in reception waiting for ethan??? girl go home what is wrong with you??? he is not happy to see her and tells her that barling knows and she says she doesn't care "tell them all" and he says it's not that simple and he's broken rules doing this and she says he's done nothing wrong and tries to take his hand and he pulls away and eventually manages to convince her to go home. mmmkay now how long til she's back again

lmaoo david tells ethan his patient from the crash's "girlfriend was trapped inside, and by all accounts so was dr munroe" and ethan turns his head SO FAST SJJSDJFSJ soo you see why he's lost patience for leigh-anne😭😭😭

aww he looks so worried🥺

oh look who it is! she managed to leave for one whole scene. kiegan's lips are blue or something and elle rushes him through meanwhile leigh-anne's trying to get her to get ethan

sjsjdf jacob answers the phone and ethan rushes over and jacob tells him that their lot are fine and they're on their way with the patient and ethan says to keep him posted because "the boyfriend's out of his mind with worry" mhmm yep he wasn't the only one though was he?

iain's worried about how cold alicia looks but she says she's fine :/

elle literally got mr barling down to look at kiegan and he says he's breathing fine it's just cold outside but leigh-anne isn't happy she's demanding a second opinion from ethan. i'm sure elle's wondering why she would trust an adult doctor over a paeds doctor with considerably more years of experience

sam finds blake using her punch bag in the ambulance station and says he might as well do it right and demonstrates and he's staring at her in awe. yeah you and me both buddy

aww alicia collapses in resus and they ofc assume she's hypothermic because she's soaking wet and ethan leaves bea to observe dylan doing the procedure and takes alicia to resus 2 to warm her up and she's saying she's so sorry and he's like don't be silly🥺

awww bea comes to check up on alicia🥺🥺🥺🥺 hey listen, alicia has two hands🏳‍🌈 bea says she got soaked out there so no wonder she's hypothermic but ethan says her temperature's actually fine so alicia attributes her collapse to the day taking it out of her :(

alicia comments on how good bea is after she's gone and ethan says she's a fast learner and alicia asks if they can swap mentees for a bit and then she's like "we are friends aren't we?" and he's like "yeah? yeah, i hope so" and she's definitely about to tell him what happened with eddie but elle interrupts them to tell ethan about leigh-anne urghhh ffs

"ethan, you have an admirer! leigh-anne carr is demanded your professional attention for her baby and she won't settle for anything less" "leigh-anne's baby kiegan was discharged?" "well he's back. she said he wasn't breathing but his test results show that he passed with flying colours"😭

ethan reassures leigh-anne that mr barling is a brilliant paediatrician and she goes "yeah. he thinks a lot of himself." huh????

yesss finally he breaks up with her! "i made a mistake, and i'm so sorry, but that's what i do. i just make things worse." oh :((((( ethan PLEASE go to therapy

alicia was waiting for ethan but she gets a call from eddie and he leaves a voicemail saying he's going to come and find her at the end of shift so she leaves early :(

then ethan's looking for her and bea says she's gone home and he says he's worried about her getting home safely because she was so shaken up earlier and eddie offers to go and check up on her and ethan's confused why he would and says it's okay he can do it and rash is smiling at eddie and bea is also confused and asks rash if he's withholding gossip from her😭😭

aw alicia :(

oh shit that made actually made me jump too wtf😭 she looks in the mirror and sees eddie behind her (he's not actually there)

ethan's brought her a bottle of wine and says he was worried about her and they never finished their conversation and then says that he lied earlier about them being friends. WHY WOULD YOU PHRASE IT THAT WAY😭😭😭 she's upset and he clarifies that he means he doesn't think they can be friends because he's still in love with her🥺 yeah wbk bestie but you have TERRIBLE timing AGAIN😭 if he'd told her that literally 24 hours earlier they would've got back together and then eddie never would've had the chance to get anywhere near her :(

her reaction clearly isn't what he hoped for so he apologises for dropping that on her like that and goes to leave but she grabs his arm and says she has to tell him something but she needs a glass of wine first. noooo alicia JUST TELL HIM WHILE YOUVE GOT THE CHANCE

he goes to the kitchen to get glasses and sees a note eddie left on the fridge and assumes that was what she wanted to tell him and he's like "i'm so stupid. he offered to come round, i practically elbowed him out of the way." "ethan this is not what you think" "that's why you wanted to work with bea?" "no! well, yes, but not because i..." "i'm gonna go" "no, please don't!" "i'm such an idiot. i shouldn't have come." she's crying and begging him to stay but she can't say what she means properly so he just says it's fine and he'll see her tomorrow and leaves :((((

alicia burning her bedding😢😢😢😢😢

[clonedchaos]

The mystery with Sammy’s parents is KILLING me! 😭😭😭 I wanna know the tea so so so bad.

Sammy being the protective GF in the situation was sooooo cute AHHHH! She’d fight a hundred dinosaurs if it meant getting back to Yaz.

I’m willing to bet she would’ve thrown hands with that Sucho after it knocked her out if she’d witnessed it. Darius would’ve had to hold her by the jacket collar as she’s screaming “Let me at him, let me at him!!!”

And yeah, Sammy being vegetarian kinda confused me at first. It wouldn’t surprise me though given the way she talks about Bessie. Having her own farm and all, it was only mere seconds before she got attached to all her animals. So it probably drove her away from eating meat after that.

(I’ve always joked about wanting a farm with poultry animals that I don’t eat and just have them there to give them hugs and live chill lives. Basically emotional support pigs, cows, and chickens. So I’m projecting that headcanon onto Sammy, but hear me out— it would be so cute! She’s not there to turn a profit, she’s just taking care of all the critters she loves. I imagine she probably still sells stuff like milk and eggs, just not the actual animals)

Chaos theory season 2

Sammy...

This is a long post y'all. No, I cannot stick to just one subject.

SINCE WHEN !?! SINCE WHEN WAS SAMMY A VEGETARIAN?????

I know in season 2 of camp cretaceous she ate bacon!!! So she probably became a vegetarian after they got home from the islands? I read about a theory somebody had a while back where they theorized Sammy's family aren't talking to her because she turned vegetarian.

SO MAD ABOUT THAT BTW. Not the vegetarian thing, that's rly cool, but THAT THEY DIDN'T EVEN MENTION SAMMY'S FAMILY THIS SEASON!! I THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA FIND OUT WHY THEY STOPPED TALKING TO HER, BUT WE GOT LITERALLY NOTHING!?!?

We did get to see Sammy tearing up when she saw Zayna and her mom being all playful and happy with each other though, so that's always something!! And that was really sweet too tbh. Gosh, I love them. Also the way Sammy was so protective over Zay was so adorable!! 🥺🥹😭

The way Sam worded out "D-e-a-d" to Yaz so Zay wouldn't comprehend was SO COOL of her.

Also, it is so CLEAR and OBVIOUS that they are all adults now. Especially Sammy (and obviously Yaz, but this post is mainly about Sammy. I'll talk about Yaz in another post). She's matured so much. When she got all angry at Zay when the guys (unintentionally) left Yaz on that "island", she apologized so grown-up'illy to her, was can "can you forgive me?". Like IHHH OMG! Speaking of which, I LOVED HOW ANGRY AND PROTECTIVE SAMMY GOT WHEN THEY FORGOT YAZ.

Have to include Yaz in a few sentences here too. When Yaz got knocked out, she laid there like a freaking MODEL. At the end of episode 6. Right before the credits were shown. Like dude, she looked like a model, even though she was completely knocked out.

Also, when Yaz climbed up that tree to try to signal to the others, she was like "Operation Signal My Girlfriend is a go" I WAS LIKE "IHHHHHHH!!!!!!"!!!!

When they finally did find Yaz, or more like they heard Yaz and then she found them ish. Anyways, the "Sammy!" Yaz screamed when she tried to find them or something was literally the most hurtful and painful scream I've ever heard. I was so happy she yelled her girlfriend's name out of everyone.

[lord-radish]

I think the closest media I've seen that approaches my preferred style of writing is a Swedish movie called Kiss Me.

The sort of stuff I want to write is very heady, personal conversations about really personal and intrinsic feelings about love. That's why to this day, five years after writing it, that Doctor Who fanfic I wrote about Thirteen and Yaz is still such a home run.

In Kiss Me, the part that captures that sort of style is actually a minor subplot about the father of the lead character coming to terms with her homosexuality. You see a big Hollywood film or like a queer drama that really wants to hammer home the difficulties of being queer, and it'll have a parent or loved one start screaming or telegraphing very clearly that they don't approve and they hate gay people etc. etc. - and what Kiss Me does differently is that while it does show someone undergo a process of acceptance, it's done behind closed doors with another loved one and that baggage isn't foisted onto the queer character.

It's a minor subplot with two scenes, where the first one is the dad admitting that he's out of sorts about it and he doesn't know what to think. His wife - who's the mother of the other girl, the lead couple are adult step-siblings after their parents get married later in life - is totally fine with it. Her daughter has been out for years, and she tries to talk the guy through it all. The guy still loves his daughter and wants her to be happy, and he wants to be supportive - but it's a lot to take in.

The next scene in this subplot is another conversation between the two where he has come around to his daughter being gay. Before, as much as he loved her, it was a surprise and he didn't know how to take it. It didn't diminish his love for her, but it wasn't something he knew how to feel about. In this later scene, he's thought it over and come to terms with it. He's overcome whatever was going on, and in both scenes he clearly walks through how he feels and is able to explain himself and accept the input and help of another person to help him get a grip.

The scenes are very communicative between the characters, and it's in service of a greater understanding. It's not some soap opera moment where he goes "I Have No Daughter!!!", it's a process of being confused and a little adrift to eventually getting his bearings and being there for his daughter. And at no point does he let that spill out into his relationship with his daughter. He gets there by talking and thinking and working things out.

[capybaraonabicycle]

I wish you wrote a fic where River meets Bill :) my favouite characters by far

Aww, thank you! Yeah, I'd love to write that properly one day. Those two were meant to meet, you cannot convince me otherwise. So far I have only written three fics that feature both of them and in only two of them they interact at all:

Very, very little in the last chapter of A Family Wedding and a bit more in Dancing with the Doctor, which is a human AU. So no proper meeting written yet. Maybe I'll do that one day, I'll definitely keep it in mind.

For now, I can offer you some unpublished scenes from Dancing with the Doctor if you like:

River paid their conversation little mind and gently touched Bill’s arm. “I need to steal you away for a second” she said, trying not to sound too concerned and believing she did a good-enough job. “Sure.” Bill turned her back on the others, following River towards the side of the room. River thought it best to face the issue head-on. “How happy are you with Theta being your partner, really?” Bill blinked in confusion. “Very happy” she said. “As I told everyone in the meeting? Just now? I think we’ll be a great fit.” “He’s a grumpy old man with an inflated ego” River pointed out. “And you are sunshine personified.” “Thanks” Bill chuckled. “But, yeah, exactly: We’ll fit together perfectly.” “Are you sure?” River asked again. “Because if you are, I’ll trust your judgement and leave you alone. But if you aren’t, I can convince Amy to let you switch partners. You could dance with Jo, for example. Or maybe I can get Yaz to give up the Doctor.” “I’d really rather not dance with Jo” Bill shook her head, her eyes wide. “Pretty girls tend to make me a little nervous. I mean, I could partner up with the Doctor. He seemed okay. But I’d really rather stick with Theta.” “Despite him being an arrogant prick?” River asked. “You fancy him, don’t you?” Bill shrugged. “So, you know he has some charms. And I found him rather approachable. He made some jokes about the sky being made of lemon drops while we danced in the rehearsals. I mean, he’s weird. Definitely weird. But in a good way? I think I like him.” “That’s good to hear” River smiled, a lot more at ease now. “I’ll just ask Amy then to pair you two up for the decoy week already. Just so you can take one week to figure out whether this really is it. And in case he turns out to be a rude misanthrope – I mean, in case it turns out you can’t handle the fact after all that he is a rude misanthrope – we will just let Amy know and the two of us will change partners and no one needs to know. Okay?” “Thank you, River” Bill nodded. “I am way more terrified of having to be close to Jo again than some Scottish sass, but thank you anyway.”

Just River looking out for Bill and Bill not needing the support but appreciating it ❤ And then there's the teasing:

A while they walked down the corridors in quiet contentment. Then Bill asked: “Why did Vastra call you ‘Professor’?” “Oh, that’s quite a fun story” River said. “When we first met, she thought I was a sex worker.” Bill’s eyes got comically large and River let out a laugh. “And I thought, Vastra was with Scotland Yard, hence why I sometimes call her ‘Detective’” she added. They had reached the door to the exit now and she ushered Bill out. “But I fear I will need to tell you another time, cause here we are. The underground is that way, I think I can leave you to it.” “You cannot open like that and then leave me hanging!” Bill complained, crossing her arms. “Tell you what, I’ll buy you a coffee and you’ll tell me the story.” “I’m sorry, darling, but I really have to go home now” River said with a fake grimace. “We’ll have to circle back to it someday.” “You are just saying that to make me wait!” Bill recognised immediately. “Maybe” River admitted with a wink. “You have to understand I need to keep some secrets to myself.” She blew Bill a kiss and turned to leave. “I will ask Vastra!” Bill threatened. “Please do” River called over her shoulder. “If you can find the Paternoster Room.” “You are very mean” Bill shouted, but River could hear she was laughing. “And you’re only getting that now?” she asked, turning around again. “See you on Thursday?” Bill beamed. “Definitely! And then I will get you to tell me the story. Don’t forget, I’ll have Basil Theta on my side.” “Oh, those are some threats” River laughed, and gave another wave. Bill waved back happily and River turned around. She made her way home with a smile on her face, thinking that she could not wait for the next season to begin.

They already love each other so much and this is like their second or third time meeting :) There's also an unwritten scene in my head where River almost kills human!12 because she thinks he has made Bill cry.

Like, this AU was meant to be some cheesy spacewives/rivertwelve romantic thing and so far it has 90% been about platonic River x Bill, not just as platonic River x Jack and platonic and slightly awkward 13 x Yaz x Ryan. Also a surprising amount of River x Clara, I have no idea where that has come from.

But I've been having fun :)

[nikethestatue]

I followed Yazbookish on IG for a long time and enjoyed her blogs. I was almost convinced that Gwyn x Az were an endgame. A blogger like Yaz and other big accounts invested so much money and time commissioning fan art of g x Az and so-called research posts. It was constantly posted throughout the year that I thought to be dumb for missing out the connection between Az and G. When I read the bonus chapter- I didn’t see what they saw. So I came on here listening to your side. Everything makes sense without an effort. And I didn’t feel dumb anymore. I wasn’t alone on this. My other friends felt misled by these bloggers. I’m saying I hope people like you would keep up with what you have been doing regardless how tiring it is. I’ve shared many of your blogs to my confused friends, it really helps. I hope you and many other elriels will stay in this fandom. 🙏😔 -New Elriel

Yah, theorizing should not be so tortured. Like here is the hypothesis, there is proof in canon--done and done. You shouldn't need to invent whole new plots, which aren't canon based, just to support your theories. There's never been any discussion of an Illyrian plot, especially when it comes to Azriel. Never been any indication that he would be going to Illyria, and in some manner would be assisted by Gwyn?? Like, why? All the future plots were outlined in the books--there is no need to invent more plots, so you can make Gwyn shine.

Whatever the reason for the Gwyn obsession is--that's fine, whatever--but I do hate it when whack theories are presented as undeniable facts. When people are just blatantly lying about 'Azriel getting his own book'--never did SJM say anything about it, ever. Yet, it's treated as fact now.

It would be totally fine if they said 'we know Gwynriel is a crackship, but we like it. We recognize it's a crackship, but hey, what if it happens!" - that would be perfectly acceptable. Yet, they treat Elriel like it's a crackship, where as SJM literally confirmed attraction, desire and need from both parties. And then the gaslighting begins, and it never stops. 'Elriel are brother and sister!' 'he wants her for sex!' 'she wants him for sex!' 'Gwynriel are mates!' Like.....what?

I've never interacted with Yaz--she blocked me after my very first Elriel post, all those years ago. LOL. But I am vaguely aware of her very robust output of endless 'theories' and fanarts. I mean, more power to her, but it doesn't matter how many times she calls Gwynriel mates, they still aren't.

"What if the Cauldron was wrong?" was not put in there for the Cauldron to be right.

[cosmicallyavg]

I read this post and couldn't scroll past it without giving my 2 cents so apologies in advance because I'm going to have to disagree. And this 100% isn't me trying to start an argument or anything!!! I just like friendly discussion about things and I have a lot to say about this one so let's get into it.

I think a lot of queer stories, and Yaz’s story included, are meant to be a bit ambiguous to allow viewers to relate to it in whatever way they would prefer to fill in the blanks. So for me, I personally do see her story as a coming out one, and the fact that so many other people do as well should be indicative of perhaps how the story was intended to be received. Stories are meant to be an introspection of ourselves, we relate our own experiences to whatever characters we like, that's honestly just human nature. So if queer people see their own coming out stories in and relate theirs to Yaz's then I don't think that's necessarily something to critique.

I've always interpreted Najia's comment in Arachnids to be something more along the lines of -- I'm pretty sure my kid is queer but they haven't explicitly told me so I'm going to be supportive where I can. ?? If that makes sense?? The way she asks, to me, reads as "Is there something you would like to tell me?" The tone of voice, the body language. Yaz’s immediate denial of it. Her annoyance when she responds -- because why would her mum just straight up ask something like that in a room full of other people. Even before we got confirmation of Yaz actually being queer, I felt like her mum's question was her testing the waters to see if her suspicions were true.

And when it comes to Yaz’s story arc overall, I honestly can't see it as anything but a confused queer teen who got bullied in school for her sexuality. (And the mental health issues that came with it) Every fic/analysis I've written regarding Yaz’s experience has toed around that idea and I refuse to write it any other way. (So perhaps I just have a special attachment to this expansion of her character but I have seen others interpret it similarlyso it isn't just me, I swear.) Only some of that is explicitly stated in canon, we do know that she has battled with depression, possibly anxiety, and it's implied that she was contemplating taking her own life when she ran away, but when I do the math, it's the only way I can piece together the information we've been given. And thats not to say her coming out is the whole arc she has, because it certainly isn't. Obviously theres a whole other main arc she has that is supported by the coming out arc, but that's not what this post is about so I'll refrain from infodumping about that. But I digress. Back to the main idea.

The Conversation(tm) in EotD is mainly what sells the coming out idea to me, if it weren't for that scene and you just told me Yaz was queer the whole time and that was it, okay cool I believe she's been out already and we move on. But Dan confronting her about her crush on the Doctor in this way just cannot compute in my head as anything but coming out. Her initial deflection, the body language, "I don't know what to do, Dan" and "I've never told anyone. Not even myself" sounds exactly like someone who is having a proper gay crush for the first time and doesn't know how to process the feelings. So much so that she can't even admit it to herself. Heck, even before Dan came along, we see glimpses of this in RotD when Jack confronts her. She denies it. "I just missed her." And that sounds like someone who's denying the fact that they're having a gay crush for the first time. The scenes actually have a lot of similarities if you look at them side by side, there was a gifset someone made of it when I made a post talking about the similarities. The dialogue, the body language, the CLOTHES and hair are even almost the same. So putting those two scenes as direct parallels like that??? It tells the story of her coming to terms with what she tried to deny for so long. Because she isn't just coming out to Dan in EotD, she's coming out to herself as well.

This whole time she's been infatuated with this weird alien woman and she didn't understand why. When she thought she was walking off to her death she was obsessed with trying to find her for months where she ignored her friends and family. When she saw her again she shoved her because she couldn't cope with the confused feelings she felt. And then once they were alone long enough tensions became high and then some random Scouse came along and thought "hey... maybe you two like each other a bit" and it flipped her entire world upside down because it suddenly all made sense and she didn't know how to handle it. That is ultimately how I view her queer experience as seen on screen.

Also this is just me being silly but part of it for me that really sells it that I made a post about a few months back --- and I'm just going to ss it because I don't feel like typing it out again:

(but this is merely my own interpretation of the events as I can relate to them and it's also me just having fun so take this with a grain of salt)

Like once we get to Flux, this is genuinely how I view their relationship. They argue a lot, there's a sort of codependency between them, those sorts of things. And like we obviously have in-universe reasons -- the actual Flux itself, the Timeless Child, etc. etc. --- for them to be at each other's throats like that but tbh??? I just think it's fun to compare their treatment of each other to this because it's almost a rite of passage for every closeted queer/wlw person and so Yaz must therefore also experience it (and she has!!). It is a canon event and I cannot interfere.

I also would like to point out how Yaz's story compares to other queer characters on the show as a whole, not just talking about her/Thirteen's/Chibnall's era. (At least, comparing her to nuWho, I can't speak for Classic Who) We've seen many-a queer character on DW who are very secure in their sexuality and speak openly about it: the Doctor on occasion, Jack, Bill, Clara, lots of side characters who had one whole line of dialogue --- so to have a queer character who is unsure of their sexuality and who is still figuring things out is refreshing. Not everyone's queer experience is loud and bold, not everyone knows how to navigate it; and the fact that we get to experience it along with her is really special. I think it's written so beautifully and it's just a perfect portrayal of what it's like to go through such a thing. It's very real to me. It hits home.

Ultimately at the end of the day, I do think Yaz's story is a coming out one. Always have and always will think that. The conversations you want to expand on the specifics of her character maybe didn't happen on-screen, but we are having them all the time on here. The nature of the Chibnall era of DW is unfortunately fill-in-the-blank a lot of times, especially with the bits that were produced during the pandemic where a lot had to be cut so no one got sick and died. So, as far as I'm aware, we as fans have come to this general consensus when we filled in the blanks. I can see you saying that you just in general don't agree with it, but to say that it baffles you... well, that baffles me. The puzzle pieces fit together so well I just cannot fathom any other interpretation. And also I get not wanting to credit a story for something it isn't explicitly what fans give it credit for (especially for LGBTQ+ stories it's a tough thing to navigate) but I don't want that to discredit the fact that the story exists at all because there are still so many aspects of it that are worth giving credit to it for.

Endlessly baffled by Yaz being treated definitively as a coming out story by fandom. We don't know if she was out or not. If anything, if we're to take Arachnids as retroactive setup, her mum knows already. And the dialogue in Eve while familiar to the coming out experience could just be referring to her crush on the Doctor. I don't want to give credit for a specific variety of queer story being told unless it's told.

Conversations expanding on the specifics of her experience are the sort of thing I feel like her story desperately needed and never got.

[sapphic-fandom-posts]

Ok I said I was gonna talk about Yaz and Sammy in season 5 because the writers did so many things right with them so here it is (major spoilers ahead!):

First off, Yaz is immediately accepted by Ben when she tells him about her crush on Sammy. Plus he’s super encouraging and supportive the entire time she’s sorting things out and trying to get the courage to talk to Sammy about it

Yaz is concerned about her self identity because she’s realizing she’s different than she thought, which is confusing for her, but then she accepts that as ok, even positive. Her worry isn’t “is liking girls ok?”, but instead it’s about how she’s different than she thought she was and her learning to accept that

Yaz talks about her attraction to Sammy fully and unapologetically. The writers didn’t pull punches to make the cishet audience more comfortable and it turned out beautifully

The way she acts around Sammy after she tells Ben about her crush (being physically close to Sammy, the way she looks at her, her reactions when she comes in physical contact with Sammy, etc.)

Yaz’s first confession to Sammy. The wording was exactly how an awkward teenage confession would go and it was so cute (plus Ben being supportive in the corner was adorable)

Yaz’s second confession to Sammy (plus Sammy saying she waiting for this confirming that she liked Yaz for a while already too) and their kiss scene is one for the history books tbh. It’s something that little sapphics will see and realize that’s possible and there’s nothing wrong with wanting it or having it

Their friends accepting their relationship immediately and cheering when they first kiss and generally being super supportive

Them being excited to call each other “girlfriend”

Casual kisses and hand holding

Protecting each other more obviously during the dino attacks

And lastly, Yaz and Sammy’s families accepting them immediately, not an ounce of homophobia in sight, meaning homophobia appeared absolutely zero times in the show, which is iconic

[lexslowdown]

With all the negativity flying around this fandom I wanna make a list of all the good things that Kenjlynn gives us.

- Yasammy is more likely because Yaz didn’t end up with Kenji.

- Benrius is more likely because Darius didn’t end up with Brooklynn.

- We have an awesome (bi) couple in the show that the campers all support and are being accepting of

- We got to see Yaz as a wingman which was something I never knew I needed until s4

- We got that hilarious scene where Ben thinks Yaz likes him and you see two gays try to understand wtf is happening

- Kenji and Yaz can brag about their gfs to each other now. Double date? 👀

- Darius and Brooklynn can brag about their bfs to each other now… double double date? 👀

- POSITIVE MASCULINITY when Darius fully accepted Kenji’s relationship without throwing a fit or showing jealousy, shooting down the overused trope in shows that guys always fight over girls

- We got to see more of Kenji’s character development as he tried to navigate his feelings. S4 definitely brought the viewers a lot closer to Kenji

- Normalised an atypical relationship where the female is more dominant and the male is less dominant personality wise (this is one of my favourite things about their relationship)

- Encouraged healthy communication when Kenji and Brooklynn discussed who would tell who about their relationship and discussed things in a mature way

- Yaz and Brooklynn got closer as friends because Yaz was there to support Brooklynn when she was confused about her feelings for Kenji

- We got the scene where Brooklynn said she has two dads because of the conversation she had with Kenji about feeling out of place among their peers and more accepted with adults

- We got to see the couples (Yasammy, Benrius, Kenjlynn) all raise baby dinos with each other which was pretty adorable. I love Angel, Rebel, and Firecracker to pieces.

- One relationship paves the way for more yet again making Yasammy and Benrius more likely than before there was canon romance

[itsabouttime-thasmin]

Representation is important. There was something about this conversation that really hit home for me in an unexpected way. Life isn't always easy and it doesn't come wrapped up nicely with a bow on top. It's messy, beautiful, confusing, full of love, curious, and so much more.

Seeing these expressions and hearing the mutual respect, watching hurt that comes with understanding and support was everything for me.

Of course, there are lots of historical and institutional issues that come with portraying diversity on screen. And I would have been thrilled to see a Thasmin kiss and/or a bold declaration of love. But this felt SO. REAL. It was powerful to see these huge emotions portrayed in tiny moments. Thirteen closing her eyes before speaking or Yaz swallowing before remembering to breathe - they were perfect for me.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

i wonder what would have happened if we had more time for yaz to come to terms with being queer and the doctor's response to that. bc like i do think a lot happened in the time between sea devils and potd but imagine if we could have seen that

bc now what happened was yaz came out to herself, to her you know companion i guess in the dw way but also just kind of the classical way, sort of was outed or at least i think experienced it that way a little bit to the person she loved, in the space of a day WHILE saving the entire world WHILE trying to navigate who knows what exactly and what are they thinking about me about it. thats a lot. thats really not ideal circumstances to come out in i'd say. and im just now realising being at the bottom of the fucking ocean is a nifty metaphor for the pressure theyre probably both feeling at that moment nice

anyway, thats not ideal. and they had some time to like come to terms with The Thing Between Us, but i dont think they talked about it really. at least not in any more specifics or depth than the conversation the beach. 13 did a pretty good job being like "im cool with the gays! all of my wives are bisexual!" but i dont know if she, in all her anxiously attached Please Dont Talk To Me About Feelings glory, would be able to offer a whole lot in terms of integrating freshly realised queer feelings into your overall identity. i dont think yaz would be able to accept it if she could offer, seeing her own disposition, right? like, dan might try to offer to help, but i dont think yaz would accept a lot

so while they seem to at least somewhat come to terms with the non-relationship, im not sure yaz in potd would have processed all that much in terms of the sense of "im queer" you know what i mean? like im not expecting her to walk back home like Im Gay Actually. like no. im not even sure how much of that she even could start to integrate into a sense of self until shes processed all the grief

but then like imagine if there was another series between flux and potd. so that everything that happened basically in just eotd and sea devils could be done more gradually over the course of 10 episodes. i think it would be super interesting to see how like, that would play out

the friendship between yaz and dan, the elaboration of the supportive sentiment of "including my wife!" spread out across episodes. yaz wrestling with "why not?!" + "not even myself" + "can we just live in the present" + "if it was going to be anyone, it'd be you" over the course of episodes. the frustration and the grief and the fear and the hope and the confusion. we could really see the effect 5(?) years of "i cant fix myself to anyone" has had on yaz and more importantly the doctor would see it. and dan already knows but he'd be there to see the doctor realise it too which i think could lead to some really good scenes too

we could see yaz wrestle with sort of the spectre of home behind the spectre of the doctor dying bc she Knows somethings up. it'd be like that motif that rtd put in his seasons where like life with the doctor is like an analogy for queer life in that you might die but you have to choose it. like you cant not, if youre a companion. after the doctor dies (which is this a whole terrifying prospect in itself but even after youve sort of managed to come to terms with that) she will have to go back home. and theres a closet there she fled. you know what i mean?

yazs story is this incredibly multifaceted complex coming of age thing where you can really feel how much like the transition from adolescence to young adulthood is less like finishing school and starting work and more like,,,,,,,im trying to think of a metaphor but i cant come up with anything that rings as true as yazs story does so *gestures at it*. just survival i think is what it is. it's a fight for survival. like every day. every day there might be a dalek and The Doctor WIll Not Save You. thats yazs story but we barely skim the surface of it because chibnalls era is mainly about the doctor. theres just sooo much more story left in her character i feel like

i feel so bad for yaz in sea devils. poor girl didnt deserve that

[cosmicallyavg]

okay okay i didnt want to fully hijack someone else’s post but i saw this ask 

and these tags in a reblog of the ask from @inlovewithanathemadevice 

and imagined up something really heartbreaking so im gonna write it for you all to see 🥲

so all i can think is how it can be like a direct parallel to when ten carried donna to her doorstep and just the sad "help me" when wilf opened the door?? okay hear me out  

like the doctor gets hurt somehow and knows shes dying so she tells yaz to get away so she can find somewhere safe since theyre away from the tardis.

(maybe dan is there as well? but i kinda imagine this whole scenario to be with no dan?? idk he can be there too if he wants its not that big of a deal i just dont want to have to juggle more characters if i dont have to) (like idk if he’d really do much other than support yaz through the aftermath but i digress)

yaz absolutely will not leave the doctor and will not have any of her nonsense and drags her back to her family's flat because they're close by despite the doctor’s protests - she hopes no one is home because how would she explain what's going on, she hardly even knows what's going on

she's fumbling with the key trying to get the door open but najia hears the commotion and opens the door to yaz sobbing and the doctor looking in a bad way. theres a beat where she just stands in silence, unsure what to do.

yaz is confused, upset, panicking. she’s maybe a bit more harsh with her mum than she normally would be

“either help me or get out of the way, mum”

obviously najia lets them in but she hasn't seen yaz in a year or so and wants to demand explanation but also her daughter’s weird friend probably needs medical attention. yaz insists she not call an ambulance and that everything will be okay but clearly not because the woman looks like she's dying

they guide the doctor to the sofa, neither of them know what to do. but the doctor is trying to explain everything, how she is actively dying and is going to change. how it’s very dangerous and destructive and she shouldnt be in their flat, but more importantly that neither of them should be this close when the regeneration actually happens.

yaz’s mum doesn’t even know the doctor is an alien, all of this information just sounds like a bunch of nonsense, but yaz insists she will explain when everything is over, but right now isn’t a good time obviously

the doctor gives her best attempt at a speech, thanking yaz for everything she's done and how she's helped her grow etc etc. she tells najia she raised a wonderful woman who is smart and brave etc etc. in which she still doesn't get any explanation on who the doctor is/what she is/how yaz knows her/what their relationship is like. 

the doctor knows its coming, she tells everyone to back away and yaz of course refuses, but i think a callback to arachnids where yaz tells her mum that she "owes the doctor her life a few times over" would be super heartbreaking so im going to include it

"yaz you don't owe me your life, you don't owe me anything but please don't make me push you away again. please just get away."

people want their first and only kiss to be during the doctors regeneration so that would fit here!!! obv i would love for them to kiss before this but either way you could fit a kiss in here okay.... like the doctor has admitted her admiration for yaz and its a heat of the moment thing where yaz is going to lose her so she just goes in for it??? its short and desperate and everything is bathed in a golden light (it could have similar visuals to nine’s regen 👀) and its beautiful and sad and painful. yaz has to force herself to back away just in time for the regeneration to happen

also if they kiss like right in front of najia it would be fun bc she clocked them back in series 11 and yaz denied it so hard. jfhsjfh esp if dan is there because he would literally cheer them on fsjdfjjkj

okay okay so the regeneration has happened... 

yaz didnt know what to expect but there’s literally a different person sitting in the spot the doctor was just in. she can put two and two together but that doesnt make her any less confused. new doctor says funny introduction line like always. yaz and her mum share a confused look. end of episode.

next episode we start back on the sofa, maybe some of the flat is a little destroyed but its fine, everythings fine. new doctor is high on regeneration energy, yaz and mum still super confused. new doctor starts walking around, being clumsy, etc. we get the usual hijinks where the doctor doesnt know who they are, doesnt know who their companion is, and just needs to sleep. 

yaz of course i think would react similarly to rose where she kinda doesnt believe its the doctor, but more than anything is like.. hurt and confused that this doctor is not the same as her doctor. her mum has SO MANY questions, naturally. her first of course being “did you just kiss the doctor? so i was right you ARE seeing each other.”

while the doctor sleeps somewhere, yaz and najia sit down and have a long conversation about the doctor and who she was/who they are now, why they changed, where yaz has been this whole time, etc., if we imagine dan in this scenario she would DEFINITELY ask about him.. like last time you brought your friends around there was a different old man what is this about.

like her mum deserves an explanation after so long without yaz around and why she ruined her prospects with the police for some alien who just died on their couch????? 

i really dont know how to end this but thats really only as far as im planning this in my head bc otherwise ill write a whole episode

idk just..... i am so vividly imagining this and i needed everyone to hear my thoughts. i just know the regeneration is going to be super painful regardless so i might as well make my own sad rendition. 

okay thank you for listening bye