#yanposts

[heich0e]

following up on vic's yan kita proclamation (legally binding) the other night i opened my yazuka!osamu wip—titled uh-ohnigiri dot docx—and came across a bit where kita is actually very scary and controlling and i'm ngl to u all it did something for me

[bugcorpses]

unfortunately i am and will eternally be damned to put hope in every single person i meet. it hurt the last time, but nothing can stop my whimsical joy

[literally-love-sick]

i want to keep you in a little room all to myself, so you’re truly mine. i’ll take such good care of you, i’ll be so good for you, shh shh shh don’t struggle please don’t leave me my love please

[be-innit]

Isn't it romantic the way I watch you? The way I know your every breath, your every movement? Isn't it so sweet the way I devote myself to you? You're my idol.

[strwbrymlkshake]

everyone who thinks he belongs with someone other than me is digging their own grave ^_^ get in bitch

[darling-silk]

you would be so pretty covered in blood

[lovesick--loverboy]

[yamikawaii]

isnt it rlly funny how in my mind "love" and "happiness" are one and the same and isnt it so cool that its impossible for me to love anywhere between makes me smile for a second but leaves me feeling the same bleakness the next moment or pure violent obsession with something that makes me feel alive for once in my meaningless life and isnt it awesome how even with that i still end up with an empty abyss of a heart in the end because i'll never truly know reciprocation of those feelings and since "love" and "happiness" are the same for me i'll never be happy without that love without being loved as much as i love and isnt it just wonderful that even if those feelings ever were reciprocated id probably never even believe it because ive barely ever been shown any love outside the world of screens that isnt entirely conditional and dependent on how well i can perform what someone wants from me so basically i will never feel truly loved so i will never feel truly happy and i will always feel so empty and crushed and like im drowning so much that i wish i really was drowning seriously please someone just hold me under until i stop moving please i just want to die i want to get out of here and go somewhere i'll be loved so fanatically that i wouldnt even be able to question it and im sorry but i wont be able to get there until this body's heart has stopped beating

[selfaware-stalker]

claim

it must be the demonkin in my speaking but oh boy do I wanna claim him publically,

hes so s m a l l, and petite. hes 5'3 and even tho im short myself i cant help but feel hunger looking at him

he goes to the gym but has no muscles, he has wide hips. he has thin wrists id love to grab.

despite all his attempts to change it, he was made to be mounted. claimed by a bigger creature than himself.

his cocky attitude excites me even more. look at me with those big doe eyes when you swear at me. all pin you down with one hand and remove your pants with the other.

nobody will help you because everyones been waiting for your douchy attitude to be tamed. all give you what you've truly been waiting for. craving for.

[pienpup]

waaagghh im gonna start assigning emojis to my fixations instead of using the first letter of their name bc if they ever found my blog id be scared that theyd know who im talking ab...

iiim gonna use 🍁 for my crush & 🕷️ for my best friend (who ive been hopelessly in love with forever ;w;) ...

[salivacitrus]

it hurts to have to leave you alone after spending only a little bit of time together, my darling. i really wish i could stare at your cute face for longer. i guess staring at the pictures every chance i get will just have to suffice. i'll miss being near you, though...

i'll be back as soon as i can, dear. at the very least, i know you have your own collection of pictures of me, right? i know you'll still miss me even with those, but it could help to keep them handy.

you know, i wouldn't mind if you took more pictures of me from a distance. i'd love it a lot, actually. keep 'em coming. i wanna see proof of your devotion. i wanna see just how much you need me when you're waiting for me to come back. i wanna see if our level of obsession with each other matches. c'mon.

[bugcorpses]

i admit and acknowledge i'm addicted to the thrill of being co dependent and don't plan on doing anything about it.

however i am also deep in my healing era

[kittyobsessionn]

✭I go by Lola or Lala and use fem/nb pronouns and neopronouns.

✭if you're a bigot (transphobe, racist, zionist homophobe, xenophobe, misogynistic, etc etc) dni.

✭I am part of a very complicated system. fakeclaimers or those here to hate will be reported and blocked. i will not allow anything hateful on my page. this is a safe space for people like me. i will not engage in discourse of any kind about any aspect of me or my system, or anything else for that matter. I am set in my beliefs and being hateful will only get you reported and blocked.

✭basically, think before you speak and don't assume shit, just dont be a dick and we'll be fine. have some common fucking sense.

[be-innit]

I need you to depend on me. Why would you need anyone else? I'll always be here to take care of you. I'll be everything you ever need. Just me.

[strwbrymlkshake]

It's difficult dealing with so many people who think we aren't meant to be with eachother. I don't get why someone else's relationship can mean so much to bystanders. Can't you find something else to do?

[literally-love-sick]

i dont have anyone to stalk here, this is so sad